I Did Something I Told Myself I Wouldn't

i took ket.
 
Ive always had a loathing for ket. I hated the idea of it, what it does to you, the lack of control, and seeing someone on ket, they dont look like theyre having a good time. and I have used it on my horses before...

after doing what I swore I won't do.    I became a teacher. Thats right. For  one (1) school year I was a teacher that taught junior high school science. I kept on saying time and time again even after I was...

During my 15 years of marriage I have struggled to keep strong in who I am.  But these last several years I can see where I lost my way.
His inability to be honest with me about what is going on in his head and the behaviors and...

....just ate supernoodles because they're the only thing with Chili in them and I thought it would make me warm.....
 
But there is no excuse. I ate supernoodles, well half of them, and now I feel sick

Had sex with him. It was a fun time but its still hard to believe that I did it. 

I like Twilight.  >.<
I told myself it was simply mindless drivel and, since I don't normally like teenagery stuff, was convinced I wouldn't like the book.
I do like it.  Just not for reasons you would expect.
I...

Drank & drank, for the expectant. Thought i knew what to expect. 'Your not drinking anymore till we actually get there.' Same familiar house, less people, intensity of the wait, her to walk through the doors.
She didn't turn up...

Today I Promised Myself I Wouldn't Eat Anything Sweet Or Anything That Haves Any Fat In It But Once I Seen That Chocolate Cake I Just Had To Have It I'm Ashamed To Admit That 'I Did Something I Told Myself I Wouldn't ' I Broke My Diet.

....that it is freaking impossible to resist doing it.  Even when I know what will likely... usually always does... happen. Dammit.