I Died A Long Time Ago

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    I never started living.
    XCRevolution XCRevolution
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Dec 7, 2009

    Roberta 2

    Roberta 2 As many of you know from past post we were different then other kids our own ages. I think sometimes even in our own time we did not belong. Think part of the problem of not being able to go on with my life and the loss of Roberta is how her death happened and it...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2
    61-65, M
    May 31, 2011

    Dead Inside

    ive let myself be in situations i know arnt good for me i stay and then i leave but im in this relationship thats gone on for 3 years, and thats 3 years of lying and drugs name calling and alcohol even physical abuse, I a bipolar and everything is soo intense for me, everyday i...
    HurtnUsed HurtnUsed
    18-21, F
    Apr 28, 2011

    I Am Dead, And I Just Discovered It

    In the year 2011 I have died. I was 15 years old at the time. My death was in accident. Today I just realized that I'm dead. C'mon on now. The proof is there. I have not aged a day.My death was caused by a friend. He put me into this choke hold or something, you how we test...
    Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Jan 4, 2013

    Just because I'm breathing

    and eating doesn't mean I'm alive. I was killed long time ago.. Just a walking death now!
    Reena12 Reena12
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jul 9, 2014

    A New Me Every Day

    Every day we die, and are a different person the next.  The more we try to hold onto the person who we were in the past, the more dead we are in the moment.  And the moments we are alive are too precious to waste being dead.  :)
    Drakkonvulfish Drakkonvulfish
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jan 1, 2010

    Looking For An Answer...............................................

                  I just have a few a few questions to ask...............................What do you do when no matter what happens your life just feels totally empty? Who can i talk to and disclose my innerimost suicidal thoughts to if i................dont feel comfortable...
    Anto815 Anto815
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Sep 25, 2011

    In a way I am dead to the world.

    .. Ever since late elementary school years , I have been careful not to get into fights or trouble (because that could start a fight at home) and I have been forced to wear clothes I don't like , and pretend to be something in not so basically almost nothing on the outside of me...
    SoleExecutioner SoleExecutioner
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 23, 2015

    Something I realised a few weeks ago: Barley of

    my friends text me, or respond even on Skype... To me it feels like either a backstab, or.... just not contacting me, next thing I know they're giving me the "busy" B.S.
    UnstableInside UnstableInside
    16-17, M
    1 Response Jul 24, 2015
    pardz pardz
    26-30, M
    7 Responses May 21, 2014

    The Old Larry Is Dead They May Have Been Able To Bring Me Back But I Still Feel Dead

    Nine years ago I had a seizure and it lasted long enough to make me weak enough to so when I would wake up I died but the paramedics where there and were able to bring me back and the girl I was in love with was there when I died and now she is with someone else and I moved on...
    angelus1988 angelus1988
    22-25, M
    1 Response May 30, 2011

    Is It Wrong................................

    Is it wrong to want to escape . To bleed from slits that I make? To want to want to shoot up. Puff out my problems and if i do Do i become my Mom or my Dad. And all the disappointments? Please i need answers silence is defeaning yet noise is too. So I do not care. Its up to you...
    Anto815 Anto815
    46-50, F
    Sep 25, 2011

    You Just Went Away... You Just Left.

    You were never really here, never really availableYou fell out of practice, you havent loved me in so longWe were just a family photo for you to show aroundTo make it seem that we were all normalYou would parade around this false idea of whatYou wanted people to see you asYou had...
    Shawnnas Shawnnas
    22-25, F
    Jun 9, 2012

    I dedicated myself to a dead man.

    He healed my heart but took my half away. Everyday waking up I die. Remaining half is killing me everyday. So I died when i met him.
    Katerinafaith Katerinafaith
    18-21, F
    Jul 19, 2015
    Jungle46 Jungle46
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Feb 25, 2014


    I'm tired of being what you want me to beFeeling so faithless, lost under the surfaceI don't know what you're expecting of mePut under the pressure of walking in your shoes(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)Every step that I take is another mistake to you(Caught...
    completleyconfused2 completleyconfused2
    36-40, F
    Aug 19, 2011
    anonymouslysleeping anonymouslysleeping
    13-15, F
    2 Responses Nov 8, 2015
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Apr 28, 2015

    I wish I died on that day,

    2 November 2012, which proved to be the saddest day of my life ;'( :'( :'( :'( I feel much pain in my hands and legs when I think of it. I am not able to breathe when I think of it. My chest has weakness and knees become weak. I beat my head with my fist to take out that...
    Islav Islav
    22-25, M
    1 Response May 17, 2015

    Mum Said I Nearly Died At 3 Months Of Age

    many times she held me by my feet over a croup lamp while I was chocking and coughing with whooping cough .. sometimes I wonder did I died then... or was it when werner died ... I felt a weird pain and I collapsed we had just moved in to a house and I still remember the day my...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Jun 10, 2012

    I use to be dying to live -

    now I'm living to die. I use to have a spark in me but now it's dead and gone. Life around me isn't the same. I may be still on this earth but my soul has died and left my body. There is nothing left but an empty shell
    thecatsmeow27 thecatsmeow27
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 23, 2014

    How to kill yourself without pain ?

    PLEASE DO NOT WRITE THAT I SHOULDN'T KILL MY SELF BECAUSE LIFE IS "INTERESTING" "FULL OF JOY" AND... YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN ! Here is why I am going to do that because I have serious family problems and according to many online quiz things I have deep depression ! Life has just...
    Katherine598 Katherine598
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Apr 29, 2014

    On my 17th birthday, my boyfriend of many

    months decided he wished to no longer be a couple. He informed me that he had been seeing his former girlfriend the entire time and that I was a 'side project'. He took my virginity and didn't even care. Unable to cope, mentally, with the amount of trauma he put me through, I...
    kaleidoscopekay kaleidoscopekay
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jun 16, 2014

    Well Sorta.

    There are only a few times where I feel alive. At night, Driving Being around my little sister Listening to Music Showering. Yup... Thats all I have to say.
    Godzillaisdamn Godzillaisdamn
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 19, 2011

    Dead Like Her

    Died a long time ago: I'm not talking about past lives, I am talking about tragedy and despair. The type that warps you and turns you into an abyss of darkness - the edges of which are sheer and seem impossible to climb out of. I died a thousand deaths when my wife was killed...
    MichaelValentine MichaelValentine
    41-45, M
    3 Responses Nov 14, 2009

    I honestly did die. I slit

    both my wrists and was rushed to the ER. I was pronounced dead for 3 minutes. why didn't he let me die!?
    deleted deleted
    1 Response May 12, 2014

    Just A Corpse That Walks

    I'm not alive just because I breath. I'm just a cold, lifeless body with no purpose, no feeling of love or care, and no love to give back. They say people like me wear a mask, and no one can see the pain in their eyes because they hide it. In my case, that's not true. The reason...
    DewDropsontheGrass DewDropsontheGrass
    13-15, F
    2 Responses May 15, 2013


    Ang012685 Ang012685
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Jul 23, 2015

    I Put Me To Sleep 15 Or More Years Ago Just After I Was Bashed In The City

    I planned the music for my funeral even "deep peace" celtic song. I laid to rest a broken little girl and a broken woman inside me... in reality I she was gone and long long long forgotten - I planned by gravestone "here is buried the cvnt that can't" I just don't want the...
    czaristacrystals czaristacrystals
    36-40, F
    May 30, 2011

    I Wish You Were Here

      March 3, 1993, my older sister died and she took half my heart and soul with her. She was, like any typical oldest child in a Hispanic family, a mother, guide, best friend, and crime partner to me.  She taught me to read, and write before I ever entered school. She...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Nov 27, 2009

    On the 13th October 1994,

    my birth date. that's the day I died and within 5 minutes came back to live. I won't go into the gory details but my windpipe was strangulated during the birthing process and so I'm told, I died for 5 whole minutes before they managed to resuscitate me. God, I wish they didn't...
    deleted deleted
    Jun 18, 2015

    I have never felt this numb.

    Heart, brain and soul is dead. I wish I am physically dead too. :(
    iamcarlolita iamcarlolita
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Aug 2, 2014

    a part of me died when

    that girl broke my heart funny fact is i wanted to marry her anyhow my heart was sliced in two one part died that day other part i am scared to give to others perhaps cause i havent seen such person worth my heart sounds harsh but this is like how i feel
    deleted deleted
    Aug 7, 2015

    I Died, Became God, Ran Away, N Now What?

    I started to see colors connecting people's brains and i thought i could read minds. I told this to the doctors and then I thought I told a secret I wasnt suppost to. So i thought God killed me and sent me to hell. my parents took me to the emergency room 4 times but we didnt...
    hsee hsee
    Apr 4, 2011

    We Were Never Your Run Of The Mill Kids

    We were never your run of the mill kids Many years ago I was told the only fight Roberta, even had with her mother was about me, and whether her mother would tell me the truth or did Roberta have to do it. I think the closer it came to that weekend the more she may have...
    rickibrat2 rickibrat2
    61-65, M
    May 31, 2011

    The crucial moment was around the age of 8-12,

    the worst time of my childhood that has traumatized me more than anything else. It was a period of constant drunken fights between my mother and her boyfriend, the screaming, throwing things...alternated with peaceful, normal, loving times. At these times the hopes of a child...
    whoslife whoslife
    36-40, F
    1 Response Feb 1, 2014

    Revenant - I died along time ago

    and I stay only to figure out what I have done wrong in my life, to cause this.
    AManOfFewWords AManOfFewWords
    16-17, M
    1 Response Jan 3, 2016

    Tonight I welcome the shadows to cover the

    empty the shell because this time it's forreal, no more trying to overdose on pills but, this I will cut away the veins let the life fall like stream from this main vein, I don't mind that much pain, I just want to slip away from this place of longsuffering.
    BlueBird1200 BlueBird1200
    22-25, M
    1 Response Mar 6, 2014
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