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I Died Inside

If you've felt like you've died inside at one point or another 144 People

    But Now I Am Coming Back To Life

    Feeling life coming back into me, now that I have reduced the conflict in my life and found a special someone that is wanting me to be there. I did die during my marriage and was re-signed to live that fate... But now that I have been liberated from that life and I find myself...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 9 Responses Aug 15, 2010

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    Shattered Into Pieces

    At some point along the way, I faded little by little. I lost the self I once was. Once so full of life and energy, I became empty. The harsh reality of the world greeted me with full force and a part of me died inside, not knowing how to protect myself. My hope shattered, and I...
    flyingintherain flyingintherain 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 24, 2009

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    Today is a sad day, this morning my dog sadly

    got put to sleep due to having cancer in the stomach, he was 14 years old and I got him when I was just three so we've spend 14 years together and for him to suddenly be gone is so heart breaking to me, I know he's in peace but it's so hard to deal with, I remember the first...
    leahmusic96 leahmusic96 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    In That One Moment

    The moment he mouth spat hate towards me and the moment he touched me to hurt was the moment I died inside.  I have never fully recovered to this day and still there are parts inside of me that have never come back alive.  The pain cuts deeply like a knife...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 2 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    A Little Bit a Lot of Times

    they're all too long a stories...  I'll let my title speak for them all.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 9 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    I Don'T Like It

    When old friends see how much I've changed, it saddens me. Because I know they're looking for the old me. The sweet me, the one that would take a risk or a bullet for them. And when they can't find it, they usually don't like the new me...the cold me, the heartless me...the one...
    ToxicRyu ToxicRyu 18-21, F Mar 17, 2013

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    Awaiting

    Who I was before has died, now I just hold on to that happy nice girl's face I had to masquerade myself so that people accept and think highly of me. I'm still awaiting to let go of that niceness and feel nothing at all.
    AngelsReflection AngelsReflection 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2010

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    May 2000

    I was attacked & I died that night. Everything that I thought I had gotten back from my abusers, all the dreams I had. All that I was going to do with my life..........Gone in less than a moment. One violent act & I was no longer me. No longer the woman I had worked YEARS...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 10, 2009

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    Grandparents

    I died a little inside today.  I lost the last of my grandparents. I have such fond memories of them all. I can close my eyes and see and hear each and every one of the, It is hard realizing that they are all gone. A part of my life that can never be replaced, just...
    Percheron Percheron 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 14, 2010

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    ...and It Wasn't Enjoyable.

    I was reading through the stories... and this one is copied and pasted from musicroxyou's, tailored slightly to fit me precisely. I suffered from some traumatic experiences in my life. None of them on their own was particularly awful, but together they destroyed me. One...
    13rznsy 13rznsy 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 23, 2009

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    I Was...

    what seems like forever ago. i was dead to the world. my eyes were an empty view into nothing. no light in or out. back i'm coming back. slowly. with a little help from the right people and other things. and it's a good thing. i'm really starting to feel again.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    Dead, Emptyness.

    It's like your just a puppet, or your going through the motions. Its the sorrow, anger, and hate eating away at you from the inside. It makes you feel like you're going to vomit out your insides. In my mind, I picture it as me becoming a emotionless doll, with no feeling.
    sujib sujib 18-21, F Jul 29, 2012

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    .....

    the first time i saw her lying on the sofa, surrounded by my toys, a kids show on in the background, sick dribbling out of her mouth, covered in blood.     when i saw him stumbling through the door at 1am, crying, throwing up, then passing out on the stairs.  ...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Jan 18, 2009

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    I Need A Clear And Correct And Exact Answer That What Should I Do Now? And How To Face The Balance Unwanted Days?

    My story is a long one, and full of tragedy, i briefly telling  it here , as i could not explain the whole thing . My time from my birth is very worst, and I left with two children by my husband  and for past 20 years I have gone through several difficulties to brought...
    mothi mothi 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2010

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    Very Recently

    I've realised that emotions are overrated. When there is no love around, no hope, and no peace, why bother with joy? Why bother with caring about other people anymore, when you're the only one that does? When there's nothing to live for, but you are forced to go on, everything...
    Shroomguy Shroomguy 13-15, M Nov 1, 2009

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    2005

    In the year of 2005 my world came crumbling down. I got into the biggest trouble of my life, my grandmother and aunt died and I was literally a wreck. I didn't eat much, didn't talk to anybody much. I LITERALLY died inside. But, thanks to God, he brought me out of it-and i...
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    Part Of My Heart

    At some point on my journey, I faded away little by little. I lost the self I once was. I was once happy & full of life and then the emptiness & loneliness set in. I was greeted by a harsh reality and part of me died inside.   My belief in love, hope, friendship and trust...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 13, 2010

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    What's the Point?

    I suffered from some seriously traumatic experience in my life. One day I needed to tell someone or I thought I'd explode. So, being the idiot that I am, I told a "trust-worthy" friend. This "friend" just happened to mention my experiences with my mom...
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 15, 2009

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    Have You Ever Thought About It?

     Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren't you anymore? If you were suddenly gone, how would the world react? Whatever you imagined is wrong. There;s nothing romantic about death. Grief is like the Ocean. It's deep and Dark and bigger than all of us. And...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    Truly.

    I mean to say that I lost my entire ego. The very thing that separates me from the rest of the world. There was no "I" or "me". Reality was but a dream to me. If I had stayed in that state I probably would have killed myself eventually, the decision only weighing as much as...
    hitoarazu hitoarazu 22-25 1 Response Jan 20, 2011

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    ...

    I've died inside more than once. When I was a kid and my sister was ill, and now everytime she has a seizure. When I was raped. When I miscarried. When he told me he was going to be a dad. But each time I've managed to come back to myself. Each time, I ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    What Doesnt Kill You...

    There's always a reason anything happens to us, i suppose.  What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger - I'm still alive physically, but emotionally i have died many times.  The last time i will never recover from. There is no way i can truly be free knowing that all of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    My dad he died when I was 3 it's been hard without him
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    It was a cold night on 20 September 1986. I felt it trying to open itself inside me and I knew I had to go to the hospital. However, my motherly instincts kicked in and I drove to...
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    It was me who has died. Dead on the inside. I am a mere shell. I have lost the ability to love and to feel. Or rather, it was brutally stolen from me. Take me back to the jovial...
    sinnysinsins sinnysinsins 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    My mother died when she was 58, my dad died when he was 61, my brother died when he was 38 and my grandson died when he was a baby. I miss them all. Mostly my grandson, he died...
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    I was at school at lunch when I got news that my friend Jade died. I've been holding it in so long. I have fake friends that are only nice because I spoil them. But it's better...
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    My mother's name was Margaret Mandarinka Simza. Her middle name was the Slovak word for "tangerine" because when she was born, her parents had no food in the house except a basket...
    BlueMetalChick BlueMetalChick 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I lost my father (50) 10 years ago along with my grandfather (his father 78) just 6 months later. Both died of heart attacks and I was 19. My grandmother (She was 64, his mother...
    lastdaysman lastdaysman 26-30, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I know I am breathing but sadly I feel like I am partly dead, my dog went to sleep yesterday but for some reason I believe he never died he`s still with me. he was 12yrs old and is...
    mizael1995 mizael1995 18-21, M Aug 29

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    I almost died many times But u away beat death but one day I will not with I almost died at birth Almost drowned Had a reaction to my infusion (nearly could breath) Had a...
    RainbowWolf13 RainbowWolf13 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    I truly and highly think god wants me on earth and death is after me I almost died 7 times and maybe more! Like when I was born I almost died I could not breath
    RainbowWolf13 RainbowWolf13 13-15, F Sep 7

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    This lady named mrs.lural died on Saturday an I just found out I'm in tears because she and I was so close....closer than me and my mom I miss her so much I am in so much disbelief...
    Botdf1shutup Botdf1shutup 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 9

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    I hate how I almost died it was horrible. And it was last year. My mind says many things about it like I should of just died instead if lived because my life sucks. I'm happy that...
    BlackBoyHaha BlackBoyHaha 13-15, M 1 Response Sep 12

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    My little brother he died last year, he was poisoned and he was only 7 years old. He died in my arms in the morning. I couldn't breathe. But I miss him dearly, he would always have...
    cittykatluv cittykatluv 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I had a severe allergic reaction to fire ant bites and stings on Monday. Had it been more, doctor said I would have died. Reality check !
    MissJourney360 MissJourney360 31-35, F Aug 27

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    My beautiful kitty, Rachel died almost 3 weeks ago. I had to have her put down because she was so sick. I miss her so much.
    lonelydaisy lonelydaisy 31-35, F Aug 28

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    Thanks dad! Thanks for telling me you were having an operation those many years ago but wound up dying on the table right after the operation! Thanks for having us get a phone call...
    Jpeavey Jpeavey 41-45, M Aug 30

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    What is a dog to u? Man best friend Family Guard Just a dog Pet Well mine was a family not a pet. She was a mother with pups but she died So enjoy your pet even if its a...
    RainbowWolf13 RainbowWolf13 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 31

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    My friend Patricia 's brother had diabetes and died from renal failure
    Iam50 Iam50 46-50, F 1 Response Sep 2

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    Drunk driving. I absolutely hate it. Back when i was 13 years old and fresh out of middle school i liked hanging out with the older kids because it made me seem cool and more...
    StellaFlower StellaFlower 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 9

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    My dog died on august 30. At first they gave him a shot that calmed him down the they let us say our final goodbyes and they gave him the shot that made him fall asleep. please...
    unalove14896 unalove14896 26-30, F Sep 10

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    my mom died when i was 18 i took care of her all my life and then i saw her pass away right in frount of me i really massed me up
    zack1795 zack1795 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 10

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    I had a crush on a boy W but we never seen each other. Because we always chat like we always did. And he sort of a shy. But loved him so much. He is not my bf or something but we...
    marggd marggd 16-17, F Sep 11

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    i just lost my future wife. To some ******* muggers in the park.....i swear to god i will murder them if i find out who did this...i will kill them x'(. Anyways......Her name was...
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    In four days it will be the 3 month anniversary of my beautiful friend's death. This summer was struck by such a dark cloud, as I found out she had died a month after coming home...
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    Some of you may remember the poster who called themselves Shadesofblue She was a really nice girl who was always friendly to people. Sadly 2 girls here whose screen names I cannot...
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    I would like to say r.i.p. to my black baby kit kat!!! He was such a playful cat and yesterday he was sick and throwing up all day The throwing up seemed normal because he was such...
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