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I Died Inside

If you've felt like you've died inside at one point or another 151 People

    May 2000

    I was attacked & I died that night. Everything that I thought I had gotten back from my abusers, all the dreams I had. All that I was going to do with my life..........Gone in less than a moment. One violent act & I was no longer me. No longer the woman I had worked YEARS...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 10, 2009

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    Dead, Emptyness.

    It's like your just a puppet, or your going through the motions. Its the sorrow, anger, and hate eating away at you from the inside. It makes you feel like you're going to vomit out your insides. In my mind, I picture it as me becoming a emotionless doll, with no feeling.
    sujib sujib 18-21, F Jul 29, 2012

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    In That One Moment

    The moment he mouth spat hate towards me and the moment he touched me to hurt was the moment I died inside.  I have never fully recovered to this day and still there are parts inside of me that have never come back alive.  The pain cuts deeply like a knife...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 2 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    I've died inside more than once. When I was a kid and my sister was ill, and now everytime she has a seizure. When I was raped. When I miscarried. When he told me he was going to be a dad. But each time I've managed to come back to myself. Each time, I ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    Today is a sad day, this morning my dog sadly

    got put to sleep due to having cancer in the stomach, he was 14 years old and I got him when I was just three so we've spend 14 years together and for him to suddenly be gone is so heart breaking to me, I know he's in peace but it's so hard to deal with, I remember the first...
    leahmusic96 leahmusic96 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    Have You Ever Thought About It?

     Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren't you anymore? If you were suddenly gone, how would the world react? Whatever you imagined is wrong. There;s nothing romantic about death. Grief is like the Ocean. It's deep and Dark and bigger than all of us. And...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    Part Of My Heart

    At some point on my journey, I faded away little by little. I lost the self I once was. I was once happy & full of life and then the emptiness & loneliness set in. I was greeted by a harsh reality and part of me died inside.   My belief in love, hope, friendship and trust...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 13, 2010

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    Awaiting

    Who I was before has died, now I just hold on to that happy nice girl's face I had to masquerade myself so that people accept and think highly of me. I'm still awaiting to let go of that niceness and feel nothing at all.
    AngelsReflection AngelsReflection 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2010

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    Grandparents

    I died a little inside today.  I lost the last of my grandparents. I have such fond memories of them all. I can close my eyes and see and hear each and every one of the, It is hard realizing that they are all gone. A part of my life that can never be replaced, just...
    Percheron Percheron 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 14, 2010

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    What Doesnt Kill You...

    There's always a reason anything happens to us, i suppose.  What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger - I'm still alive physically, but emotionally i have died many times.  The last time i will never recover from. There is no way i can truly be free knowing that all of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    But Now I Am Coming Back To Life

    Feeling life coming back into me, now that I have reduced the conflict in my life and found a special someone that is wanting me to be there. I did die during my marriage and was re-signed to live that fate... But now that I have been liberated from that life and I find myself...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 9 Responses Aug 15, 2010

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    I Was...

    what seems like forever ago. i was dead to the world. my eyes were an empty view into nothing. no light in or out. back i'm coming back. slowly. with a little help from the right people and other things. and it's a good thing. i'm really starting to feel again.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    Very Recently

    I've realised that emotions are overrated. When there is no love around, no hope, and no peace, why bother with joy? Why bother with caring about other people anymore, when you're the only one that does? When there's nothing to live for, but you are forced to go on, everything...
    Shroomguy Shroomguy 13-15, M Nov 1, 2009

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    .....

    the first time i saw her lying on the sofa, surrounded by my toys, a kids show on in the background, sick dribbling out of her mouth, covered in blood.     when i saw him stumbling through the door at 1am, crying, throwing up, then passing out on the stairs.  ...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Jan 18, 2009

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    We had dated for 2years

    and got a son on the 3rd year.its all i had ever dreamed of,and worked for...for the longest time, and at that point life was bliss.i had the perfect family and it was all fun. Her mother did not like me.because of my religious bacground,i was born a cristian but i stoped...
    mbithi mbithi 26-30, M Dec 2, 2014

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    I Need A Clear And Correct And Exact Answer That What Should I Do Now? And How To Face The Balance Unwanted Days?

    My story is a long one, and full of tragedy, i briefly telling  it here , as i could not explain the whole thing . My time from my birth is very worst, and I left with two children by my husband  and for past 20 years I have gone through several difficulties to brought...
    mothi mothi 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2010

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    A Little Bit a Lot of Times

    they're all too long a stories...  I'll let my title speak for them all.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 9 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    2005

    In the year of 2005 my world came crumbling down. I got into the biggest trouble of my life, my grandmother and aunt died and I was literally a wreck. I didn't eat much, didn't talk to anybody much. I LITERALLY died inside. But, thanks to God, he brought me out of it-and i...
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    Truly.

    I mean to say that I lost my entire ego. The very thing that separates me from the rest of the world. There was no "I" or "me". Reality was but a dream to me. If I had stayed in that state I probably would have killed myself eventually, the decision only weighing as much as...
    hitoarazu hitoarazu 22-25 Jan 20, 2011

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    ...and It Wasn't Enjoyable.

    I was reading through the stories... and this one is copied and pasted from musicroxyou's, tailored slightly to fit me precisely. I suffered from some traumatic experiences in my life. None of them on their own was particularly awful, but together they destroyed me. One...
    13rznsy 13rznsy 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 23, 2009

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    What's the Point?

    I suffered from some seriously traumatic experience in my life. One day I needed to tell someone or I thought I'd explode. So, being the idiot that I am, I told a "trust-worthy" friend. This "friend" just happened to mention my experiences with my mom...
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 15, 2009

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    Shattered Into Pieces

    At some point along the way, I faded little by little. I lost the self I once was. Once so full of life and energy, I became empty. The harsh reality of the world greeted me with full force and a part of me died inside, not knowing how to protect myself. My hope shattered, and I...
    flyingintherain flyingintherain 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 24, 2009

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    Preterm labor or late miscarriage the term makes it feel like it doesn't validate my sons life. I was 17 weeks along and I felt this pressure out of no where slipping out of my...
    Triztemuneca87 Triztemuneca87 26-30, F Apr 4

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    When you said that we would be together forever... I thought that meant until we died... I guess forever isn't as long as it used to be... Is it???
    throwawaychild throwawaychild 46-50, M 2 Responses Apr 5

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    I have died a little each year and I swear that my own heart has stopped beating. Now I'm hollow. You could say I'm a dead girl walking.
    NightOwlGirl NightOwlGirl 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 16

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    well, let me start by describing the life i had first. My dad was much older than my mom, more like a grandfather. he owned a magazine and that's where my mom met him. we owned...
    ksm93 ksm93 18-21, M 5 days ago

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    I almost got it bye a car. I almost died by a screw driver in my eye. I almost died by an infection in my leg and more
    mrmudman13579 mrmudman13579 13-15, M Mar 27

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    Happy birthday to a really good friend Andrew you were to young when you died but at least you died serving America, I know today's your birthday and your watching everyone from up...
    sabresfan2010 sabresfan2010 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 31

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    One of my guinea pigs died on March 25th. His name was Calvin, a Silkie, 2 1/2 years old, and I've had him since the day he was born. I love him and it's hard to believe he's gone...
    moonskull moonskull 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 26

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    I was on the way to school on an early November morning, sprinting out of the house running late. I remember the dream I had the night before, seeing my wolf side and telling me...
    TheBloodWolf TheBloodWolf 13-15, M Mar 30

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    I sit here, alone at night contemplating whether my friends would actually notice and/or care if I suddenly disappeared. My friends never call, care to keep in touch, invite me...
    VanityHorrorx VanityHorrorx 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 31

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    my dad was late for my first birthday . so he was racing home to get to my party with a present for me. well he ended up getting in a car accident and rolled the vehicle and got...
    DarkKnights10 DarkKnights10 16-17, F 3 Responses Apr 2

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    My mom died 3 years ago from cancer she went to sleep and never woke up
    Wonderwomen1234 Wonderwomen1234 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    I really hate the month of April, because that's when you passed away. You were in the hospital for the first 2 weeks, until you unfortunately died on the 14th. I miss you so...
    untamedx3heart untamedx3heart 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 4

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    On October 6th, 2014, my youngest brother died suddenly and unexpectedly. He would have been 23 on October 17th. I hate life without him.
    4EverChngd106 4EverChngd106 26-30, F 6 Responses Apr 4

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    my best friend since we were 4. he would have been my best man next year. taken from us within one week of being diagnosed with metastatic brain cancer. he was 28, and died 2 days...
    room10101 room10101 26-30, M 2 Responses Apr 10

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    I don't really remember a time when I haven't experienced suicidal thoughts; they've been flooding my mind on and off for the past few years. It seems natural to say that I never...
    driftingalone driftingalone 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 11

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    my best friend in high school....... after I moved away, in year ten, we lost contact. I heard years later he had died in a car crash as an 18 year old. I found out a few years ago...
    scottie1974 scottie1974 41-45, M 7 Responses Apr 11

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    we were riding down this old country road the other day and about half way down the road the pavement runs out and it turns into dirt well we were hauling doin about 70 as soon as...
    jamie9849 jamie9849 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 13

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    Hi dad I only knew you for five years. But then you left. Mum doesn't talk about you much, and the only memories I have are vague, I don't really remember your voice, or details of...
    FabulousUnicorn15 FabulousUnicorn15 13-15, F Apr 14

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    My boyfriend recently died November 11th 2014, he was going home from my house and it was a very foggy night. He got on the highway and a 64 year old man got on the wrong side...
    SusanandTravis4ever SusanandTravis4ever 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 14

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    Got news today the very first girl i ever loved died two days ago we were still really close and she sent me a necklace for my birthday last year and i get teary eyed every time i...
    pjrtt pjrtt 22-25, M 6 Responses Apr 15

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