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I Died Inside

If you've felt like you've died inside at one point or another 149 People

    I Need A Clear And Correct And Exact Answer That What Should I Do Now? And How To Face The Balance Unwanted Days?

    My story is a long one, and full of tragedy, i briefly telling  it here , as i could not explain the whole thing . My time from my birth is very worst, and I left with two children by my husband  and for past 20 years I have gone through several difficulties to brought...
    mothi mothi 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2010

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    We had dated for 2years

    and got a son on the 3rd year.its all i had ever dreamed of,and worked for...for the longest time, and at that point life was bliss.i had the perfect family and it was all fun. Her mother did not like me.because of my religious bacground,i was born a cristian but i stoped...
    mbithi mbithi 26-30, M Dec 2, 2014

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    ...and It Wasn't Enjoyable.

    I was reading through the stories... and this one is copied and pasted from musicroxyou's, tailored slightly to fit me precisely. I suffered from some traumatic experiences in my life. None of them on their own was particularly awful, but together they destroyed me. One...
    13rznsy 13rznsy 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 23, 2009

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    A Little Bit a Lot of Times

    they're all too long a stories...  I'll let my title speak for them all.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 9 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    Grandparents

    I died a little inside today.  I lost the last of my grandparents. I have such fond memories of them all. I can close my eyes and see and hear each and every one of the, It is hard realizing that they are all gone. A part of my life that can never be replaced, just...
    Percheron Percheron 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 14, 2010

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    Very Recently

    I've realised that emotions are overrated. When there is no love around, no hope, and no peace, why bother with joy? Why bother with caring about other people anymore, when you're the only one that does? When there's nothing to live for, but you are forced to go on, everything...
    Shroomguy Shroomguy 13-15, M Nov 1, 2009

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    But Now I Am Coming Back To Life

    Feeling life coming back into me, now that I have reduced the conflict in my life and found a special someone that is wanting me to be there. I did die during my marriage and was re-signed to live that fate... But now that I have been liberated from that life and I find myself...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 9 Responses Aug 15, 2010

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    In That One Moment

    The moment he mouth spat hate towards me and the moment he touched me to hurt was the moment I died inside.  I have never fully recovered to this day and still there are parts inside of me that have never come back alive.  The pain cuts deeply like a knife...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 2 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    Part Of My Heart

    At some point on my journey, I faded away little by little. I lost the self I once was. I was once happy & full of life and then the emptiness & loneliness set in. I was greeted by a harsh reality and part of me died inside.   My belief in love, hope, friendship and trust...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 13, 2010

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    What Doesnt Kill You...

    There's always a reason anything happens to us, i suppose.  What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger - I'm still alive physically, but emotionally i have died many times.  The last time i will never recover from. There is no way i can truly be free knowing that all of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    I Was...

    what seems like forever ago. i was dead to the world. my eyes were an empty view into nothing. no light in or out. back i'm coming back. slowly. with a little help from the right people and other things. and it's a good thing. i'm really starting to feel again.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    2005

    In the year of 2005 my world came crumbling down. I got into the biggest trouble of my life, my grandmother and aunt died and I was literally a wreck. I didn't eat much, didn't talk to anybody much. I LITERALLY died inside. But, thanks to God, he brought me out of it-and i...
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    Awaiting

    Who I was before has died, now I just hold on to that happy nice girl's face I had to masquerade myself so that people accept and think highly of me. I'm still awaiting to let go of that niceness and feel nothing at all.
    AngelsReflection AngelsReflection 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2010

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    Have You Ever Thought About It?

     Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren't you anymore? If you were suddenly gone, how would the world react? Whatever you imagined is wrong. There;s nothing romantic about death. Grief is like the Ocean. It's deep and Dark and bigger than all of us. And...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    Dead, Emptyness.

    It's like your just a puppet, or your going through the motions. Its the sorrow, anger, and hate eating away at you from the inside. It makes you feel like you're going to vomit out your insides. In my mind, I picture it as me becoming a emotionless doll, with no feeling.
    sujib sujib 18-21, F Jul 29, 2012

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    .....

    the first time i saw her lying on the sofa, surrounded by my toys, a kids show on in the background, sick dribbling out of her mouth, covered in blood.     when i saw him stumbling through the door at 1am, crying, throwing up, then passing out on the stairs.  ...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Jan 18, 2009

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    What's the Point?

    I suffered from some seriously traumatic experience in my life. One day I needed to tell someone or I thought I'd explode. So, being the idiot that I am, I told a "trust-worthy" friend. This "friend" just happened to mention my experiences with my mom...
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 15, 2009

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    May 2000

    I was attacked & I died that night. Everything that I thought I had gotten back from my abusers, all the dreams I had. All that I was going to do with my life..........Gone in less than a moment. One violent act & I was no longer me. No longer the woman I had worked YEARS...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 10, 2009

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    Shattered Into Pieces

    At some point along the way, I faded little by little. I lost the self I once was. Once so full of life and energy, I became empty. The harsh reality of the world greeted me with full force and a part of me died inside, not knowing how to protect myself. My hope shattered, and I...
    flyingintherain flyingintherain 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 24, 2009

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    ...

    I've died inside more than once. When I was a kid and my sister was ill, and now everytime she has a seizure. When I was raped. When I miscarried. When he told me he was going to be a dad. But each time I've managed to come back to myself. Each time, I ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    Today is a sad day, this morning my dog sadly

    got put to sleep due to having cancer in the stomach, he was 14 years old and I got him when I was just three so we've spend 14 years together and for him to suddenly be gone is so heart breaking to me, I know he's in peace but it's so hard to deal with, I remember the first...
    leahmusic96 leahmusic96 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    Truly.

    I mean to say that I lost my entire ego. The very thing that separates me from the rest of the world. There was no "I" or "me". Reality was but a dream to me. If I had stayed in that state I probably would have killed myself eventually, the decision only weighing as much as...
    hitoarazu hitoarazu 22-25 1 Response Jan 20, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    A friend of mine died last May. When he died no one would say what happened to him. His family was very secretive and wouldn't allow anyone but relatives at his viewing or funeral...
    kayroxyoursox kayroxyoursox 26-30, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    For our Dear Friend A. :We love you and miss you so much.We acknowledge you are in Heaven's Light Now.All of your love and kindness compassion tender heart and love of life that...
    lunadelobos lunadelobos 41-45 3 Responses Feb 11

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    my mom has always told me that everything happens for a reason. i just wonder what good it does for me to be the one to suffer. im not really religious but ive always believed in a...
    Matthew224 Matthew224 16-17, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I posted a story here a few months ago after I found out that someone very important to me had died. My friend Sam was the most amazing person I have ever met, and I never really...
    kayroxyoursox kayroxyoursox 26-30, F 5 Responses Feb 5

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    So I have a friend that died her name was jessica and she was more like my sister, my name is jessica and we were the Jessie's ever since we were about 2 years old, randomly at the...
    katttmills katttmills 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 9

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    Well, who would. I've never had a friend. My entire life is my mother and stepfather. My mother would find me maybe a day later but I highly doubt she would care. Her life is her...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 3 Responses Jan 29

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    ...why is my life so hard? Why is everyone that I care about leaving me? I don't think I can live anymore. I can't continue to live like this forever. Why does everyone hate me so...
    08RoseBlack 08RoseBlack 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 30

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    My friend died of sleep apnea in 2007. I'll never forget that day I got the phone call from his brother. My heart dropped please don't let it be true I said in tears. At his...
    smashmouth4eva smashmouth4eva 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    When I was in college, a friend from high school died in an auto accident. He was hit head on by an oncoming car that was trying to pass a semi. The hardest thing was that the...
    budhancenmama budhancenmama 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 2

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    My cat of 12 years died just over a week ago. Her kidneys failed and the vet said it would be best to put her asleep. I was with her when she died and buried her the next day in...
    jackfrost777 jackfrost777 66-70, M Feb 3

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    I've lost a lot of people, mostly when I was younger, most I don't remember knowing but one of the people that I remember really well is my great grandpa. He died when I was 6 of...
    MEGH0119 MEGH0119 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 10

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    so, my husband died about 4-5 yrs ago. Yes I struggled, and am still struggling. I went to celebrate recovery for my grief and it pulled me through the first year, but then I was...
    1mtnstr 1mtnstr 41-45, F Feb 11

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    I lost both my mom and dad in a car crash 5 years ago that also left me in hospital my dad died in the car and mom died a few hours later. The crash was caused by a drunk driver...
    mirajane123 mirajane123 13-15, F 4 Responses Feb 12

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    my friend diana died when i was very young i miss her a lot
    janvi4 janvi4 18-21, F Feb 3

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    my friend Diana died when very young i miss her a lot
    janvi4 janvi4 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 3

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    I almost died in an ATV accident in Mexico we were taking tour of the dessert and wildlife me and my dad were on same ATV. the ATV suddenly sped up and we went over a cliff I...
    pilot2022 pilot2022 13-15, M Feb 8

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    On January 17th 2015, my boyfriend died. Heart- attack at an age of 32, without previous heart problem history. The doctors said that he had no chances of survival; it was a sudden...
    sotsiouri sotsiouri 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 8

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    My boyfriend died In a car crash a year ago and sometimes I get so tired of missing him and not being able to move on ....
    iraima iraima 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    I was a Senior in college. I had one of those graduated and the Saturday after get married arrangements. June 24. My boyfriend went scuba diving and died on April 1. Really...
    oaktreehouse4 oaktreehouse4 56-60, F Feb 10

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    I miss my nany.. She shed my bones and was there when my the doctors held me to my mum after she gave birth to me. She cleaned me up when i eat, pee or even dress.. She taught me...
    TheLeftBehind TheLeftBehind 16-17, M Feb 10

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    My dog Loki died today. He was paralyzed and the vet said he wouldn't make it so we had to have him put down. I'm afraid the one who's gonna have it the worst is his sister. I...
    Wolfboy21 Wolfboy21 16-17, M 5 Responses Feb 11

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    My dad died in December , i still cant believe he's gone. Not a day goes by without me thinking about him and i still cry every night. Its hard to think that there's gonna be so...
    AlwaysThinkingOutLoud AlwaysThinkingOutLoud 22-25, F Feb 12

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    Father died in 2008 unexpectedly. Now it seems my entire family is at a stand still. Nothing is the same anymore. Luckily as sick as I have been I hope I will be seeing him again...
    IWasHereOnce IWasHereOnce 41-45, M 1 Response Feb 13

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    Another Goodbye ButterflyI wish she wasn't so upset,when she left me,mad as she was when she left,but it's the only way she knows how leave me,believe me,I know the type,so...
    AaronLA AaronLA 31-35, M Feb 15

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    I had this friend, well not really a friend, but a boyfriend. I fell in love with him, he died of cancer in August. A part of me still loves him, but I'm moving on, just like he...
    KamrynDawn KamrynDawn 13-15, F Feb 16

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    I had a wry good close guy friend of mine commit suicide over a girl. (Something that never would have bothered him before. Usually he'd be the guy to shake it off and continue on...
    Philli8807 Philli8807 26-30, F 4 Responses Feb 18

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