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I Died Inside

If you've felt like you've died inside at one point or another 150 People

    ...and It Wasn't Enjoyable.

    I was reading through the stories... and this one is copied and pasted from musicroxyou's, tailored slightly to fit me precisely. I suffered from some traumatic experiences in my life. None of them on their own was particularly awful, but together they destroyed me. One...
    13rznsy 13rznsy 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 23, 2009

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    What's the Point?

    I suffered from some seriously traumatic experience in my life. One day I needed to tell someone or I thought I'd explode. So, being the idiot that I am, I told a "trust-worthy" friend. This "friend" just happened to mention my experiences with my mom...
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 15, 2009

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    Awaiting

    Who I was before has died, now I just hold on to that happy nice girl's face I had to masquerade myself so that people accept and think highly of me. I'm still awaiting to let go of that niceness and feel nothing at all.
    AngelsReflection AngelsReflection 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2010

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    Dead, Emptyness.

    It's like your just a puppet, or your going through the motions. Its the sorrow, anger, and hate eating away at you from the inside. It makes you feel like you're going to vomit out your insides. In my mind, I picture it as me becoming a emotionless doll, with no feeling.
    sujib sujib 18-21, F Jul 29, 2012

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    May 2000

    I was attacked & I died that night. Everything that I thought I had gotten back from my abusers, all the dreams I had. All that I was going to do with my life..........Gone in less than a moment. One violent act & I was no longer me. No longer the woman I had worked YEARS...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 10, 2009

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    ...

    I've died inside more than once. When I was a kid and my sister was ill, and now everytime she has a seizure. When I was raped. When I miscarried. When he told me he was going to be a dad. But each time I've managed to come back to myself. Each time, I ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    I Need A Clear And Correct And Exact Answer That What Should I Do Now? And How To Face The Balance Unwanted Days?

    My story is a long one, and full of tragedy, i briefly telling  it here , as i could not explain the whole thing . My time from my birth is very worst, and I left with two children by my husband  and for past 20 years I have gone through several difficulties to brought...
    mothi mothi 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2010

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    Part Of My Heart

    At some point on my journey, I faded away little by little. I lost the self I once was. I was once happy & full of life and then the emptiness & loneliness set in. I was greeted by a harsh reality and part of me died inside.   My belief in love, hope, friendship and trust...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 13, 2010

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    Shattered Into Pieces

    At some point along the way, I faded little by little. I lost the self I once was. Once so full of life and energy, I became empty. The harsh reality of the world greeted me with full force and a part of me died inside, not knowing how to protect myself. My hope shattered, and I...
    flyingintherain flyingintherain 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 24, 2009

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    But Now I Am Coming Back To Life

    Feeling life coming back into me, now that I have reduced the conflict in my life and found a special someone that is wanting me to be there. I did die during my marriage and was re-signed to live that fate... But now that I have been liberated from that life and I find myself...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 9 Responses Aug 15, 2010

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    We had dated for 2years

    and got a son on the 3rd year.its all i had ever dreamed of,and worked for...for the longest time, and at that point life was bliss.i had the perfect family and it was all fun. Her mother did not like me.because of my religious bacground,i was born a cristian but i stoped...
    mbithi mbithi 26-30, M Dec 2, 2014

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    Truly.

    I mean to say that I lost my entire ego. The very thing that separates me from the rest of the world. There was no "I" or "me". Reality was but a dream to me. If I had stayed in that state I probably would have killed myself eventually, the decision only weighing as much as...
    hitoarazu hitoarazu 22-25 1 Response Jan 20, 2011

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    I Was...

    what seems like forever ago. i was dead to the world. my eyes were an empty view into nothing. no light in or out. back i'm coming back. slowly. with a little help from the right people and other things. and it's a good thing. i'm really starting to feel again.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    A Little Bit a Lot of Times

    they're all too long a stories...  I'll let my title speak for them all.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 9 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    What Doesnt Kill You...

    There's always a reason anything happens to us, i suppose.  What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger - I'm still alive physically, but emotionally i have died many times.  The last time i will never recover from. There is no way i can truly be free knowing that all of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    Have You Ever Thought About It?

     Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren't you anymore? If you were suddenly gone, how would the world react? Whatever you imagined is wrong. There;s nothing romantic about death. Grief is like the Ocean. It's deep and Dark and bigger than all of us. And...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    Today is a sad day, this morning my dog sadly

    got put to sleep due to having cancer in the stomach, he was 14 years old and I got him when I was just three so we've spend 14 years together and for him to suddenly be gone is so heart breaking to me, I know he's in peace but it's so hard to deal with, I remember the first...
    leahmusic96 leahmusic96 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    Grandparents

    I died a little inside today.  I lost the last of my grandparents. I have such fond memories of them all. I can close my eyes and see and hear each and every one of the, It is hard realizing that they are all gone. A part of my life that can never be replaced, just...
    Percheron Percheron 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 14, 2010

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    In That One Moment

    The moment he mouth spat hate towards me and the moment he touched me to hurt was the moment I died inside.  I have never fully recovered to this day and still there are parts inside of me that have never come back alive.  The pain cuts deeply like a knife...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 2 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    2005

    In the year of 2005 my world came crumbling down. I got into the biggest trouble of my life, my grandmother and aunt died and I was literally a wreck. I didn't eat much, didn't talk to anybody much. I LITERALLY died inside. But, thanks to God, he brought me out of it-and i...
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    .....

    the first time i saw her lying on the sofa, surrounded by my toys, a kids show on in the background, sick dribbling out of her mouth, covered in blood.     when i saw him stumbling through the door at 1am, crying, throwing up, then passing out on the stairs.  ...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Jan 18, 2009

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    Very Recently

    I've realised that emotions are overrated. When there is no love around, no hope, and no peace, why bother with joy? Why bother with caring about other people anymore, when you're the only one that does? When there's nothing to live for, but you are forced to go on, everything...
    Shroomguy Shroomguy 13-15, M Nov 1, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    I remember when Dexter came walking down the driveway, leading my parents forward to me. He was about as big as I was back in 2004. Black fur, short nose, and God he was so happy...
    SilnceDogood SilnceDogood 18-21, M Mar 5

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    I feel like no one would and it hurts so bad feeling like I'm nothing and no one cares or if they say they do they don't prove it. I'm already dead inside :(
    lela201465 lela201465 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    Faults in my mind. They came like earthquakes. First was little more than a tremor, so subtle that I almost did not notice. Then, in the middle of a contentious meeting the big...
    extex59 extex59 51-55, M 3 Responses Mar 19

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    I have lost my mum,my anchor, my attachment to all that was familiar to me,I have changed. My mother was Asian as I am, she was a force to be reckoned with, invincible her presence...
    tamipar tamipar 56-60 1 Response Mar 5

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    Recently my dog, Sally, died. She was 12yrs old. We adopted her at a shelter and she was two years old. She was a mutt, but mostly resembled a flat-coated retriever. She died two...
    Fegelein97 Fegelein97 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 9

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    My Husband died of an accidental OD. I'm devastated, heartbroken, it's so hard to breathe feels like I'm missing a lung. My husband died in my arms. RIP my love, I'm going to miss...
    sadmami sadmami 26-30, F 5 Responses Mar 9

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    He was my best friend in my childhood and in my primary school class too. He used to buy me hair clips and a ring with the love heart and gave me a mango through my concrete fence...
    Buon Buon 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 16

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    My mom died in August of 2004. It was 2 weeks before my 19th birthday and I had graduated high school 2 months prior. I used to be so full of life and loved to have fun. After she...
    xtrishax xtrishax 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 16

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    I just lost my boyfriend of year to a fatal car accident. I woke up like any other day knowing when I'd call he'd be on the other side of the phone. He wasn't this time. No text...
    gabbymaria1 gabbymaria1 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    Does anyone else feel that they actually died and didn't survive after all? I've mentioned this to a few people who looked at me like I was totally insane. I was in a car crash...
    amillionpeople amillionpeople 22-25 2 Responses Mar 23

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    I almost got it bye a car. I almost died by a screw driver in my eye. I almost died by an infection in my leg and more
    mrmudman13579 mrmudman13579 13-15, M 4 days ago

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    Happy birthday to a really good friend Andrew you were to young when you died but at least you died serving America, I know today's your birthday and your watching everyone from up...
    sabresfan2010 sabresfan2010 18-21, M 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    Today was the worst do of my life my dad died lady's message me
    dcollins1 dcollins1 16-17, M Mar 8

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    one night in a psychiatric hospital I was there to be assessed for a report as to whether or not I was sane or not also to have an ecg and a cat scan done to eliminate some things...
    almostdead2day almostdead2day 46-50, M Mar 10

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    I really wish I had died before I heard what you thought of me. :( I'm NEVER gonna forget or forgive that.
    MileyM MileyM 18-21, F Mar 10

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    My mom died this past Saturday. I've been busy helping my daughter so I haven't had time to even think about it. But making arrangements today made me miss her. She lived a long...
    Ludavin Ludavin 46-50, F 11 Responses Mar 10

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    I was with him for two years. We talked about getting married for so long. Then he bought me a beautiful ring and asked me to marry him. 10 days later he died in car accident on...
    WinterSoul87 WinterSoul87 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    In 2011, when I was 17- my boyfriend of 3 years died as a result of a car accident. He was my entire world at the time. I never thought I would move on. And for a while I didn't. I...
    KJPKelsey KJPKelsey 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 12

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    From asthma. Nearly died several times from asthma attacks. Went to the ER by ambulance twice
    truckin365 truckin365 51-55, M Mar 15

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    My grandpa died this morning. So sad I gotta do better with the other one. Life is short. No more pain grandpa. Love you and save me a spot up there.
    NorthCarolinaNC NorthCarolinaNC 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 17

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    My Mum died 7 years ago giving birth to my youngest brother, when i was 9 years old. My Dad broke down, stopped going to work, stopped getting out of bed every morning, and even...
    Wrenora16 Wrenora16 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 20

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    My Mum abused alcohol throughout my childhood and I was always having to collect her drink from shops and dispose of the empty cans. She died in 2001 because of complications...
    LinkinParkMuse LinkinParkMuse 26-30, F a week ago

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