I Died Inside

If you've felt like you've died inside at one point or another 197 People

    i want to die this world going insane.

    ..i don't see good one right now..people are crazy about sex,money,prestigous,career etc..i am stressed out see all of that....i hate it..i wish invisible
    myselfhere myselfhere
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 20, 2015

    May 2000

    I was attacked & I died that night. Everything that I thought I had gotten back from my abusers, all the dreams I had. All that I was going to do with my life..........Gone in less than a moment. One violent act & I was no longer me. No longer the woman I had worked YEARS...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 10, 2009

    Have You Ever Thought About It?

     Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren't you anymore? If you were suddenly gone, how would the world react? Whatever you imagined is wrong. There;s nothing romantic about death. Grief is like the Ocean. It's deep and Dark and bigger than all of us. And...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Jan 17, 2009

    Awaiting

    Who I was before has died, now I just hold on to that happy nice girl's face I had to masquerade myself so that people accept and think highly of me. I'm still awaiting to let go of that niceness and feel nothing at all.
    AngelsReflection AngelsReflection
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 4, 2010

    I Need A Clear And Correct And Exact Answer That What Should I Do Now? And How To Face The Balance Unwanted Days?

    My story is a long one, and full of tragedy, i briefly telling  it here , as i could not explain the whole thing . My time from my birth is very worst, and I left with two children by my husband  and for past 20 years I have gone through several difficulties to brought...
    mothi mothi
    41-45, F
    1 Response Aug 14, 2010

    We had dated for 2years

    and got a son on the 3rd year.its all i had ever dreamed of,and worked for...for the longest time, and at that point life was bliss.i had the perfect family and it was all fun. Her mother did not like me.because of my religious bacground,i was born a cristian but i stoped...
    mbithi mbithi
    26-30, M
    Dec 2, 2014

    I am dead inside. 100%!

    Why keep my body going when everything inside me is dead?
    Whoami30 Whoami30
    31-35, M
    1 Response May 10, 2015

    ...and It Wasn't Enjoyable.

    I was reading through the stories... and this one is copied and pasted from musicroxyou's, tailored slightly to fit me precisely. I suffered from some traumatic experiences in my life. None of them on their own was particularly awful, but together they destroyed me. One...
    13rznsy 13rznsy
    18-21, F
    8 Responses Jun 23, 2009

    .....

    the first time i saw her lying on the sofa, surrounded by my toys, a kids show on in the background, sick dribbling out of her mouth, covered in blood.     when i saw him stumbling through the door at 1am, crying, throwing up, then passing out on the stairs.  ...
    Tesse Tesse
    18-21, F
    Jan 18, 2009

    Truly.

    I mean to say that I lost my entire ego. The very thing that separates me from the rest of the world. There was no "I" or "me". Reality was but a dream to me. If I had stayed in that state I probably would have killed myself eventually, the decision only weighing as much as...
    hitoarazu hitoarazu
    22-25
    Jan 20, 2011

    ...

    I've died inside more than once. When I was a kid and my sister was ill, and now everytime she has a seizure. When I was raped. When I miscarried. When he told me he was going to be a dad. But each time I've managed to come back to myself. Each time, I ...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    17 Responses Jan 17, 2009

    It's funny when you're dead,

    people start listening to what you have to say
    Hesmyvampireking Hesmyvampireking
    13-15, F
    Sep 13, 2015

    I died completely this year.

    I was enduring it since my elementary days and from the day we moved countries.
    Fampyu Fampyu
    16-17, F
    Dec 30, 2015

    A Little Bit a Lot of Times

    they're all too long a stories...  I'll let my title speak for them all.
    rockyj rockyj
    31-35, F
    9 Responses Feb 12, 2009

    Very Recently

    I've realised that emotions are overrated. When there is no love around, no hope, and no peace, why bother with joy? Why bother with caring about other people anymore, when you're the only one that does? When there's nothing to live for, but you are forced to go on, everything...
    Shroomguy Shroomguy
    13-15, M
    Nov 1, 2009

    Dead, Emptyness.

    It's like your just a puppet, or your going through the motions. Its the sorrow, anger, and hate eating away at you from the inside. It makes you feel like you're going to vomit out your insides. In my mind, I picture it as me becoming a emotionless doll, with no feeling.
    sujib sujib
    18-21, F
    Jul 29, 2012

    Ran- whahhhh hoooo. Kylie- ran please relax.

    Ran- did you see wesley go? Leah- is he dead? Did he die? Ran stop! Kylie: they took wes I think. Ran drives the van into the Hudson River by accident. Leah: no! Everyone watches as their lives come to near death. Leah: what do we do? Do we try to get out? Close the windows...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 16

    I always wanted to be a believer in myself

    but it turns out I'm just a dreamer I'm on earth for nothing for no one I help I help and I help but do I ever get anything back Some call me a saint and some call me a demon but if I were honest I would say I am nothing I just live to do good things that's all I ever...
    Dessily Dessily
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 11

    Part Of My Heart

    At some point on my journey, I faded away little by little. I lost the self I once was. I was once happy & full of life and then the emptiness & loneliness set in. I was greeted by a harsh reality and part of me died inside.   My belief in love, hope, friendship and trust...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002
    46-50, F
    29 Responses Aug 13, 2010

    Grandparents

    I died a little inside today.  I lost the last of my grandparents. I have such fond memories of them all. I can close my eyes and see and hear each and every one of the, It is hard realizing that they are all gone. A part of my life that can never be replaced, just...
    Percheron Percheron
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Aug 14, 2010

    What Doesnt Kill You...

    There's always a reason anything happens to us, i suppose.  What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger - I'm still alive physically, but emotionally i have died many times.  The last time i will never recover from. There is no way i can truly be free knowing that all of...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Aug 10, 2009

    In That One Moment

    The moment he mouth spat hate towards me and the moment he touched me to hurt was the moment I died inside.  I have never fully recovered to this day and still there are parts inside of me that have never come back alive.  The pain cuts deeply like a knife...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings
    36-40
    2 Responses Feb 12, 2009

    But Now I Am Coming Back To Life

    Feeling life coming back into me, now that I have reduced the conflict in my life and found a special someone that is wanting me to be there. I did die during my marriage and was re-signed to live that fate... But now that I have been liberated from that life and I find myself...
    mtvlm mtvlm
    41-45, M
    9 Responses Aug 15, 2010

    I Was...

    what seems like forever ago. i was dead to the world. my eyes were an empty view into nothing. no light in or out. back i'm coming back. slowly. with a little help from the right people and other things. and it's a good thing. i'm really starting to feel again.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Jan 17, 2009

    2005

    In the year of 2005 my world came crumbling down. I got into the biggest trouble of my life, my grandmother and aunt died and I was literally a wreck. I didn't eat much, didn't talk to anybody much. I LITERALLY died inside. But, thanks to God, he brought me out of it-and i...
    lostprophet lostprophet
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Mar 5, 2009

    Shattered Into Pieces

    At some point along the way, I faded little by little. I lost the self I once was. Once so full of life and energy, I became empty. The harsh reality of the world greeted me with full force and a part of me died inside, not knowing how to protect myself. My hope shattered, and I...
    flyingintherain flyingintherain
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jan 24, 2009

    Today is a sad day, this morning my dog sadly

    got put to sleep due to having cancer in the stomach, he was 14 years old and I got him when I was just three so we've spend 14 years together and for him to suddenly be gone is so heart breaking to me, I know he's in peace but it's so hard to deal with, I remember the first...
    leahmusic96 leahmusic96
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 22, 2013
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