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I Died Inside

If you've felt like you've died inside at one point or another 139 People

    I Don'T Like It

    When old friends see how much I've changed, it saddens me. Because I know they're looking for the old me. The sweet me, the one that would take a risk or a bullet for them. And when they can't find it, they usually don't like the new me...the cold me, the heartless me...the one...
    ToxicRyu ToxicRyu 18-21, F Mar 17, 2013

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    the first time i saw her lying on the sofa, surrounded by my toys, a kids show on in the background, sick dribbling out of her mouth, covered in blood.     when i saw him stumbling through the door at 1am, crying, throwing up, then passing out on the stairs.  ...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Jan 18, 2009

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    Truly.

    I mean to say that I lost my entire ego. The very thing that separates me from the rest of the world. There was no "I" or "me". Reality was but a dream to me. If I had stayed in that state I probably would have killed myself eventually, the decision only weighing as much as...
    hitoarazu hitoarazu 22-25 1 Response Jan 20, 2011

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    Today is a sad day, this morning my dog sadly

    got put to sleep due to having cancer in the stomach, he was 14 years old and I got him when I was just three so we've spend 14 years together and for him to suddenly be gone is so heart breaking to me, I know he's in peace but it's so hard to deal with, I remember the first...
    leahmusic96 leahmusic96 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    I Need A Clear And Correct And Exact Answer That What Should I Do Now? And How To Face The Balance Unwanted Days?

    My story is a long one, and full of tragedy, i briefly telling  it here , as i could not explain the whole thing . My time from my birth is very worst, and I left with two children by my husband  and for past 20 years I have gone through several difficulties to brought...
    mothi mothi 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2010

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    Awaiting

    Who I was before has died, now I just hold on to that happy nice girl's face I had to masquerade myself so that people accept and think highly of me. I'm still awaiting to let go of that niceness and feel nothing at all.
    AngelsReflection AngelsReflection 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2010

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    May 2000

    I was attacked & I died that night. Everything that I thought I had gotten back from my abusers, all the dreams I had. All that I was going to do with my life..........Gone in less than a moment. One violent act & I was no longer me. No longer the woman I had worked YEARS...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 10, 2009

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    I Was...

    what seems like forever ago. i was dead to the world. my eyes were an empty view into nothing. no light in or out. back i'm coming back. slowly. with a little help from the right people and other things. and it's a good thing. i'm really starting to feel again.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    What's the Point?

    I suffered from some seriously traumatic experience in my life. One day I needed to tell someone or I thought I'd explode. So, being the idiot that I am, I told a "trust-worthy" friend. This "friend" just happened to mention my experiences with my mom...
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 15, 2009

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    Have You Ever Thought About It?

     Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren't you anymore? If you were suddenly gone, how would the world react? Whatever you imagined is wrong. There;s nothing romantic about death. Grief is like the Ocean. It's deep and Dark and bigger than all of us. And...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    Dead, Emptyness.

    It's like your just a puppet, or your going through the motions. Its the sorrow, anger, and hate eating away at you from the inside. It makes you feel like you're going to vomit out your insides. In my mind, I picture it as me becoming a emotionless doll, with no feeling.
    sujib sujib 18-21, F Jul 29, 2012

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    ...

    I've died inside more than once. When I was a kid and my sister was ill, and now everytime she has a seizure. When I was raped. When I miscarried. When he told me he was going to be a dad. But each time I've managed to come back to myself. Each time, I ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    But Now I Am Coming Back To Life

    Feeling life coming back into me, now that I have reduced the conflict in my life and found a special someone that is wanting me to be there. I did die during my marriage and was re-signed to live that fate... But now that I have been liberated from that life and I find myself...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 9 Responses Aug 15, 2010

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    Very Recently

    I've realised that emotions are overrated. When there is no love around, no hope, and no peace, why bother with joy? Why bother with caring about other people anymore, when you're the only one that does? When there's nothing to live for, but you are forced to go on, everything...
    Shroomguy Shroomguy 13-15, M Nov 1, 2009

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    In That One Moment

    The moment he mouth spat hate towards me and the moment he touched me to hurt was the moment I died inside.  I have never fully recovered to this day and still there are parts inside of me that have never come back alive.  The pain cuts deeply like a knife...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 2 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    ...and It Wasn't Enjoyable.

    I was reading through the stories... and this one is copied and pasted from musicroxyou's, tailored slightly to fit me precisely. I suffered from some traumatic experiences in my life. None of them on their own was particularly awful, but together they destroyed me. One...
    13rznsy 13rznsy 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 23, 2009

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    Shattered Into Pieces

    At some point along the way, I faded little by little. I lost the self I once was. Once so full of life and energy, I became empty. The harsh reality of the world greeted me with full force and a part of me died inside, not knowing how to protect myself. My hope shattered, and I...
    flyingintherain flyingintherain 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 24, 2009

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    What Doesnt Kill You...

    There's always a reason anything happens to us, i suppose.  What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger - I'm still alive physically, but emotionally i have died many times.  The last time i will never recover from. There is no way i can truly be free knowing that all of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    Grandparents

    I died a little inside today.  I lost the last of my grandparents. I have such fond memories of them all. I can close my eyes and see and hear each and every one of the, It is hard realizing that they are all gone. A part of my life that can never be replaced, just...
    Percheron Percheron 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 14, 2010

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    Part Of My Heart

    At some point on my journey, I faded away little by little. I lost the self I once was. I was once happy & full of life and then the emptiness & loneliness set in. I was greeted by a harsh reality and part of me died inside.   My belief in love, hope, friendship and trust...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 13, 2010

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    2005

    In the year of 2005 my world came crumbling down. I got into the biggest trouble of my life, my grandmother and aunt died and I was literally a wreck. I didn't eat much, didn't talk to anybody much. I LITERALLY died inside. But, thanks to God, he brought me out of it-and i...
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    A Little Bit a Lot of Times

    they're all too long a stories...  I'll let my title speak for them all.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 9 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    Actually I did die for 15 minutes. Last year I got into a massive car accident (it was a pileup) and I died for 15 minutes. My experience was strange. I only saw a light and then...
    Vivekka Vivekka 22-25, F 2 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I wrote this for my beautiful cat who died Mother's Day. I'm not a poet, but I try. I close my eyes And you're standing next to me Everyone dies But you weren't ready I hold...
    GlassRabbit GlassRabbit 13-15, F 1 Response 16 hrs ago

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    I'm 42 years old and I've lived inside of my head my whole life. I'm not 100% introvert - MBTI pegs me at 60% Introvert which feels about right - but I do live in my head most of...
    simplify3 simplify3 36-40, M 5 hrs ago

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    I feel I am not destined to be in a relationship. I find my self attached to a person too fast and too deeply and when it doesn't work I feel devastated. Recently with an intention...
    dushy2411 dushy2411 36-40, M 1 Response Jul 3

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    I haven't felt anything for so long, I don't really know when it began. I feel the absence of emotion, it's like a tightness in the lungs, like it's pressing on me. Even when my...
    PeacefulVoid PeacefulVoid 16-17, M Jun 28

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    My dog was hit by a car 2 weeks ago. We had been taking a nice long walk. We stopped for some ice cream - of course we shared a cone - and on the way back from the walk he darted...
    acswinny acswinny 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 29

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    A 5 year old girl had a panic attack. he passed away, she left and never looked back. She loved her daddy so much. That little girl was me. lost little soul wondering why her daddy...
    kjonesr kjonesr 18-21, F Jul 8

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    It's been about 2 years but it's felt like forever. I want things to go back to the way they used to be. But it won't happen. She's relatively content with our situation at hand...
    adav218 adav218 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 10

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    At this point I have just given up. I finally see and realize that there is no hope, and absolutely no point in existing. The world is just dark and cruel, people are all evil, and...
    Nix0 Nix0 16-17, M 2 Responses Jul 13

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    So today my great aunt died and I needed my husbands support... And as usual, he's not.... I'm so hurt. I'm not sure what I'm really loving about this man...
    BumMagnet BumMagnet 46-50, F 3 Responses Jul 17

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    My dog has died to night she was only 2 years old I just don't know what to do with myself it's not fair that such a young dog had to die when she had so much to live for
    Sproketsocet Sproketsocet 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I don't know how we were related or how he died but we were best friends I cried I remember him by the bed post thing he made that now holds up my bed it was given to me when he...
    Thedarkvaporeon Thedarkvaporeon 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I have nearly died many times because of my asthma. When the BP Oil Spill happened, I couldn't even go outside without having trouble with my asthma. During the oil spill, I nearly...
    UchigawaNiShinda UchigawaNiShinda 13-15, F Jul 11

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    I am an only child. I was always close to my parents, so much so that my dad asked me to " wait to marry until he is dead". My mother died a year ago. I rebuilt my life. My dad...
    mcrn96 mcrn96 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 17

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    This is the second time I have dreamed that my mother died. My mother is alive. The first time I dreamed my mother die was maybe 10 years ago and it's been so long ago that I don't...
    BleuGirl83 BleuGirl83 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    My mom had died she had cancer and she died just at 12:20 am
    painfulwedgiegirl painfulwedgiegirl 13-15, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    I miss my great great aunt that passed away in 2006. I was only 5 when she died and her and I were really close. She died less then a month away from my 6th birthday and i miss her...
    Blackbelt4ever Blackbelt4ever 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    He died of suffocation, during an epileptic seizure. It was sudden and unexpected and all the light went out of my world for a very long time. I will never tell anyone again...
    anarchycupcakes anarchycupcakes 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 3

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    My boyfriend died a month ago, I don't know what to do
    kelsiedoran kelsiedoran 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 3

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    If you've ever run across my profile you've probably noticed some of the people I write about the most. My niece, Sarah, my fiance, Mitchell. Another one I used to write about was...
    superkitty17 superkitty17 31-35, F Jul 5

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    My mother died November last year when she went to visit her mother in there native country I had just made it there but I was too late we had to bury her back her native country...
    anthonysahin anthonysahin 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 6

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    When I was thirteen years old, I almost died. When I was thirteen, both me and my twin brother both got a severe case of pneumonia due to a stupid stunt we did together. We had no...
    Wattouat Wattouat 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    Just over 1 week ago I found out that my best school friend died. He was found alone. It is unclear at the moment whether his death was suspicious or not. I feel so stressed at...
    Elses Elses 36-40, M Jul 7

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    Left to right.Elisa/me{ driver }Paulo { backseat }Kaori { seat next to driver }3 days ago I realized how strong the bond with my friends is..it all happened so fast, it was a rainy...
    JustLikeSnow JustLikeSnow 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 10

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    Everyday I think about my best friend who died her 10th grade year in high school. People say she was taken from us so quickly. Wish I could see her again . Rest in peace . You...
    ballboy24 ballboy24 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 12

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    I'm 17. He was 29 and he died yesterday. We didn't have all odds on are favor, many people judged us for the age difference. Mostly my family, nobody in my family accepted him, but...
    April026 April026 16-17, F 2 Responses Jul 13

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    If I died , what would you want to inherit of my property , make this interesting ... And no I don't have a car -_- Please play along ;D
    jasmineCK jasmineCK 16-17, F 13 Responses Jul 14

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