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I Died Inside

If you've felt like you've died inside at one point or another 149 People

    Part Of My Heart

    At some point on my journey, I faded away little by little. I lost the self I once was. I was once happy & full of life and then the emptiness & loneliness set in. I was greeted by a harsh reality and part of me died inside.   My belief in love, hope, friendship and trust...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 13, 2010

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    Very Recently

    I've realised that emotions are overrated. When there is no love around, no hope, and no peace, why bother with joy? Why bother with caring about other people anymore, when you're the only one that does? When there's nothing to live for, but you are forced to go on, everything...
    Shroomguy Shroomguy 13-15, M Nov 1, 2009

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    I Was...

    what seems like forever ago. i was dead to the world. my eyes were an empty view into nothing. no light in or out. back i'm coming back. slowly. with a little help from the right people and other things. and it's a good thing. i'm really starting to feel again.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    .....

    the first time i saw her lying on the sofa, surrounded by my toys, a kids show on in the background, sick dribbling out of her mouth, covered in blood.     when i saw him stumbling through the door at 1am, crying, throwing up, then passing out on the stairs.  ...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Jan 18, 2009

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    Truly.

    I mean to say that I lost my entire ego. The very thing that separates me from the rest of the world. There was no "I" or "me". Reality was but a dream to me. If I had stayed in that state I probably would have killed myself eventually, the decision only weighing as much as...
    hitoarazu hitoarazu 22-25 1 Response Jan 20, 2011

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    ...

    I've died inside more than once. When I was a kid and my sister was ill, and now everytime she has a seizure. When I was raped. When I miscarried. When he told me he was going to be a dad. But each time I've managed to come back to myself. Each time, I ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    May 2000

    I was attacked & I died that night. Everything that I thought I had gotten back from my abusers, all the dreams I had. All that I was going to do with my life..........Gone in less than a moment. One violent act & I was no longer me. No longer the woman I had worked YEARS...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 10, 2009

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    Dead, Emptyness.

    It's like your just a puppet, or your going through the motions. Its the sorrow, anger, and hate eating away at you from the inside. It makes you feel like you're going to vomit out your insides. In my mind, I picture it as me becoming a emotionless doll, with no feeling.
    sujib sujib 18-21, F Jul 29, 2012

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    But Now I Am Coming Back To Life

    Feeling life coming back into me, now that I have reduced the conflict in my life and found a special someone that is wanting me to be there. I did die during my marriage and was re-signed to live that fate... But now that I have been liberated from that life and I find myself...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 9 Responses Aug 15, 2010

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    Awaiting

    Who I was before has died, now I just hold on to that happy nice girl's face I had to masquerade myself so that people accept and think highly of me. I'm still awaiting to let go of that niceness and feel nothing at all.
    AngelsReflection AngelsReflection 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2010

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    ...and It Wasn't Enjoyable.

    I was reading through the stories... and this one is copied and pasted from musicroxyou's, tailored slightly to fit me precisely. I suffered from some traumatic experiences in my life. None of them on their own was particularly awful, but together they destroyed me. One...
    13rznsy 13rznsy 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 23, 2009

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    What's the Point?

    I suffered from some seriously traumatic experience in my life. One day I needed to tell someone or I thought I'd explode. So, being the idiot that I am, I told a "trust-worthy" friend. This "friend" just happened to mention my experiences with my mom...
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 15, 2009

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    Have You Ever Thought About It?

     Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren't you anymore? If you were suddenly gone, how would the world react? Whatever you imagined is wrong. There;s nothing romantic about death. Grief is like the Ocean. It's deep and Dark and bigger than all of us. And...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    A Little Bit a Lot of Times

    they're all too long a stories...  I'll let my title speak for them all.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 9 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    Shattered Into Pieces

    At some point along the way, I faded little by little. I lost the self I once was. Once so full of life and energy, I became empty. The harsh reality of the world greeted me with full force and a part of me died inside, not knowing how to protect myself. My hope shattered, and I...
    flyingintherain flyingintherain 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 24, 2009

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    In That One Moment

    The moment he mouth spat hate towards me and the moment he touched me to hurt was the moment I died inside.  I have never fully recovered to this day and still there are parts inside of me that have never come back alive.  The pain cuts deeply like a knife...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 2 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    I Need A Clear And Correct And Exact Answer That What Should I Do Now? And How To Face The Balance Unwanted Days?

    My story is a long one, and full of tragedy, i briefly telling  it here , as i could not explain the whole thing . My time from my birth is very worst, and I left with two children by my husband  and for past 20 years I have gone through several difficulties to brought...
    mothi mothi 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2010

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    We had dated for 2years

    and got a son on the 3rd year.its all i had ever dreamed of,and worked for...for the longest time, and at that point life was bliss.i had the perfect family and it was all fun. Her mother did not like me.because of my religious bacground,i was born a cristian but i stoped...
    mbithi mbithi 26-30, M Dec 2

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    What Doesnt Kill You...

    There's always a reason anything happens to us, i suppose.  What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger - I'm still alive physically, but emotionally i have died many times.  The last time i will never recover from. There is no way i can truly be free knowing that all of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    Today is a sad day, this morning my dog sadly

    got put to sleep due to having cancer in the stomach, he was 14 years old and I got him when I was just three so we've spend 14 years together and for him to suddenly be gone is so heart breaking to me, I know he's in peace but it's so hard to deal with, I remember the first...
    leahmusic96 leahmusic96 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    2005

    In the year of 2005 my world came crumbling down. I got into the biggest trouble of my life, my grandmother and aunt died and I was literally a wreck. I didn't eat much, didn't talk to anybody much. I LITERALLY died inside. But, thanks to God, he brought me out of it-and i...
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    Grandparents

    I died a little inside today.  I lost the last of my grandparents. I have such fond memories of them all. I can close my eyes and see and hear each and every one of the, It is hard realizing that they are all gone. A part of my life that can never be replaced, just...
    Percheron Percheron 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 14, 2010

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    So I broke my ribs the other day and I waited a long time before going in and I guess my ribs punctured something in me so I almost died of internal bleeding :/
    rainbowgirl42069 rainbowgirl42069 13-15, F 3 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    i feel dead inside and i feel that i'm going crazy because i cant understand what is going on with me. i don't feel anything and i do at the same time its so confusing like i get...
    sb159 sb159 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I really hate myself and I hate hurting the person i cared about tge most. I will never forgive myself for what I did. I have to live with losing an amazing woman. I wont recover...
    justlikejessejames justlikejessejames 36-40, M 1 day ago

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    Many times my feelings make me cry on the inside. But I have learned that I need to hide my feelings. Most people I've met could care less how anyone feels. I keep my feelings...
    gambler920 gambler920 51-55, M 10 hrs ago

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    Hello.My name is James.I am 17 years old and i think i have gone a lot more than people my age typically go through.Here is my story. Everyday when i wake up i put on a "mask",a...
    James9753 James9753 16-17, M 3 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    My goat died 3 days ago she was a mother and suppose to have another baby :.( she died mysterious she was health she was put up with the other goats Yesterday my boy goat his name...
    RainbowWolf13 RainbowWolf13 13-15, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    I said this once to someone & they couldn't argue with me because they nearly died laughing
    YourFantasyGirl92 YourFantasyGirl92 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 27

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    In and out of consciousness...lights flashes, voices screaming, muffled sounds, muffled voices, can only see shapes above you, can hear your name called, but your mouth cannot...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 4 Responses Dec 13

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    I feel like everyone hates me all the time. That I have no purpose in life. That rather than no one caring if I laid down and died some would be happy. That I deserve this. I...
    treegurl94 treegurl94 16-17, F Dec 13

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    Asher was a blue heeler. I've had dogs all my life but she was the best. I could run my fingers through her coarse outer coat and feel the soft undercoat of her fur, or rub...
    Carolyn64 Carolyn64 46-50, F Dec 4

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    My boyfriend died a year ago today....it was our 1 year anniversary and he was taking me to a fancy restaurant but we had to go through a really bad part of town.(we were both...
    RedMeansGo RedMeansGo 16-17, F Nov 22

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    I'm cleaning my room for the first time since my best friend died a year ago. last thanksgiving she and I sat on the floor folding clothes and laughing like kids. she overdosed...
    flufballs2 flufballs2 22-25, F Nov 26

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    A really good friend of mine passed away in the last week. He got sober about the same time as me about a couple of months after I stopped drinking so did he. I met him on his...
    nunos nunos 51-55, M 4 Responses Nov 27

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    My dog died today Her name was chi chi I loved her She was a pup a sickness got to my dogs She is the only one that died I will miss chi chi forever
    RainbowWolf13 RainbowWolf13 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 12

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    I could have died definitely more than once, but I'm not in the mood to write a novel, so I'm going to write about my very first time I could've died. My mom told this to me a few...
    BirgitYeshh BirgitYeshh 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My best friend Louise died last year of an epileptic fit in her sleep. We saw each other every day for the six cherished years we were friends for. Alcohol would render her...
    ArtLifeTaylor ArtLifeTaylor 22-25, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    My father died when I was 9. I feel like I missed out on getting to know him as an adult. I'm not close with his side of the family, by my own choice. I feel like I am who I am...
    LoveMusicDreams LoveMusicDreams 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 23

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    Have my dreams died with my ex. Marriage 💑 happiness. A promise, a lie. Used me up Gave him my soul, body, and mind. Through me out like trash He would want spoiled goods...
    biancafish13 biancafish13 18-21, F Nov 25

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    I miss my Friend Nick. He cut some car off to get into the right hand turning lane and this guy got pissed off and pulled out a pistol and shot him several times. He died at the...
    EnoughEarth EnoughEarth 26-30 1 Response Nov 25

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    my baby max just died a couple hrs ago. he was a pug Chihuahua mix. he had the pug personality but looked more Chihuahua. he was a great dog. ill miss him. stupid coyotes attacked...
    wickedlilangel69 wickedlilangel69 31-35, F 16 Responses Nov 26

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    .. He died this morning/afternoon in a car accident. (damn snow) we went to high school together.. he was a grade lower than me. But what I remember most about him is he was always...
    SaraBear87 SaraBear87 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 27

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    I've almost died a few times in my life. When I was 16 I got a pressure that wasn't managed by the doctor and it turned toxic and the toxins got into my blood and started shutting...
    mattywheels25 mattywheels25 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 29

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    My cat Fat *** (yes that's his name) died on Thanksgiving Day at 6 am. He shallowed a mouse that had just eaten mouse poison. It broke my heart to see him in so much pain. He...
    SeanaO SeanaO 18-21, F 7 Responses Nov 30

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    My best friend and lover died after we were together just over 2 years .
    SkivySenior69 SkivySenior69 70+, M 2 Responses Dec 2

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    My brother just died suddenly because of pancreatitis. My mother found him on the floor of her basement and called 911. At first, we were hoping he would get better. But the next...
    justasiam justasiam 51-55, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    If I died tomorrow, nobody would miss me.
    RyderSebastian RyderSebastian 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 6

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