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I Died Inside

If you've felt like you've died inside at one point or another 158 People

    Dead, Emptyness.

    It's like your just a puppet, or your going through the motions. Its the sorrow, anger, and hate eating away at you from the inside. It makes you feel like you're going to vomit out your insides. In my mind, I picture it as me becoming a emotionless doll, with no feeling.
    sujib sujib 18-21, F Jul 29, 2012

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    We had dated for 2years

    and got a son on the 3rd year.its all i had ever dreamed of,and worked for...for the longest time, and at that point life was bliss.i had the perfect family and it was all fun. Her mother did not like me.because of my religious bacground,i was born a cristian but i stoped...
    mbithi mbithi 26-30, M Dec 2, 2014

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    2005

    In the year of 2005 my world came crumbling down. I got into the biggest trouble of my life, my grandmother and aunt died and I was literally a wreck. I didn't eat much, didn't talk to anybody much. I LITERALLY died inside. But, thanks to God, he brought me out of it-and i...
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    I Need A Clear And Correct And Exact Answer That What Should I Do Now? And How To Face The Balance Unwanted Days?

    My story is a long one, and full of tragedy, i briefly telling  it here , as i could not explain the whole thing . My time from my birth is very worst, and I left with two children by my husband  and for past 20 years I have gone through several difficulties to brought...
    mothi mothi 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2010

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    i want to die this world going insane.

    ..i don't see good one right now..people are crazy about sex,money,prestigous,career etc..i am stressed out see all of that....i hate it..i wish invisible
    myselfhere myselfhere 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    In That One Moment

    The moment he mouth spat hate towards me and the moment he touched me to hurt was the moment I died inside.  I have never fully recovered to this day and still there are parts inside of me that have never come back alive.  The pain cuts deeply like a knife...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 2 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    ...

    I've died inside more than once. When I was a kid and my sister was ill, and now everytime she has a seizure. When I was raped. When I miscarried. When he told me he was going to be a dad. But each time I've managed to come back to myself. Each time, I ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    Truly.

    I mean to say that I lost my entire ego. The very thing that separates me from the rest of the world. There was no "I" or "me". Reality was but a dream to me. If I had stayed in that state I probably would have killed myself eventually, the decision only weighing as much as...
    hitoarazu hitoarazu 22-25 Jan 20, 2011

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    May 2000

    I was attacked & I died that night. Everything that I thought I had gotten back from my abusers, all the dreams I had. All that I was going to do with my life..........Gone in less than a moment. One violent act & I was no longer me. No longer the woman I had worked YEARS...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 10, 2009

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    But Now I Am Coming Back To Life

    Feeling life coming back into me, now that I have reduced the conflict in my life and found a special someone that is wanting me to be there. I did die during my marriage and was re-signed to live that fate... But now that I have been liberated from that life and I find myself...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 9 Responses Aug 15, 2010

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    Grandparents

    I died a little inside today.  I lost the last of my grandparents. I have such fond memories of them all. I can close my eyes and see and hear each and every one of the, It is hard realizing that they are all gone. A part of my life that can never be replaced, just...
    Percheron Percheron 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 14, 2010

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    Very Recently

    I've realised that emotions are overrated. When there is no love around, no hope, and no peace, why bother with joy? Why bother with caring about other people anymore, when you're the only one that does? When there's nothing to live for, but you are forced to go on, everything...
    Shroomguy Shroomguy 13-15, M Nov 1, 2009

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    Part Of My Heart

    At some point on my journey, I faded away little by little. I lost the self I once was. I was once happy & full of life and then the emptiness & loneliness set in. I was greeted by a harsh reality and part of me died inside.   My belief in love, hope, friendship and trust...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 13, 2010

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    I Was...

    what seems like forever ago. i was dead to the world. my eyes were an empty view into nothing. no light in or out. back i'm coming back. slowly. with a little help from the right people and other things. and it's a good thing. i'm really starting to feel again.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    .....

    the first time i saw her lying on the sofa, surrounded by my toys, a kids show on in the background, sick dribbling out of her mouth, covered in blood.     when i saw him stumbling through the door at 1am, crying, throwing up, then passing out on the stairs.  ...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Jan 18, 2009

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    ...and It Wasn't Enjoyable.

    I was reading through the stories... and this one is copied and pasted from musicroxyou's, tailored slightly to fit me precisely. I suffered from some traumatic experiences in my life. None of them on their own was particularly awful, but together they destroyed me. One...
    13rznsy 13rznsy 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 23, 2009

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    What's the Point?

    I suffered from some seriously traumatic experience in my life. One day I needed to tell someone or I thought I'd explode. So, being the idiot that I am, I told a "trust-worthy" friend. This "friend" just happened to mention my experiences with my mom...
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 15, 2009

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    A Little Bit a Lot of Times

    they're all too long a stories...  I'll let my title speak for them all.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 9 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    What Doesnt Kill You...

    There's always a reason anything happens to us, i suppose.  What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger - I'm still alive physically, but emotionally i have died many times.  The last time i will never recover from. There is no way i can truly be free knowing that all of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    Shattered Into Pieces

    At some point along the way, I faded little by little. I lost the self I once was. Once so full of life and energy, I became empty. The harsh reality of the world greeted me with full force and a part of me died inside, not knowing how to protect myself. My hope shattered, and I...
    flyingintherain flyingintherain 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 24, 2009

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    I am dead inside. 100%!

    Why keep my body going when everything inside me is dead?
    Whoami30 Whoami30 26-30, M 2 Responses May 10

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    Awaiting

    Who I was before has died, now I just hold on to that happy nice girl's face I had to masquerade myself so that people accept and think highly of me. I'm still awaiting to let go of that niceness and feel nothing at all.
    AngelsReflection AngelsReflection 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2010

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    Have You Ever Thought About It?

     Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren't you anymore? If you were suddenly gone, how would the world react? Whatever you imagined is wrong. There;s nothing romantic about death. Grief is like the Ocean. It's deep and Dark and bigger than all of us. And...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    Today is a sad day, this morning my dog sadly

    got put to sleep due to having cancer in the stomach, he was 14 years old and I got him when I was just three so we've spend 14 years together and for him to suddenly be gone is so heart breaking to me, I know he's in peace but it's so hard to deal with, I remember the first...
    leahmusic96 leahmusic96 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    Ok I had a friend that died and I watch him die right in front of me. We had the same birthday same age and born the same time and on our 10 birthday we were at my dads house for...
    skyegraeler skyegraeler 13-15, F May 8

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    i feel dead im empty inside no love left my life has died im just a body now going from day to day making the motions nothing to say my lungs breathe air blood flows...
    skykidx1 skykidx1 22-25, M May 18

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    Human existence itself is sinister, macabre is in its essence. The human being, by occasion, encounter himself in this universe, without an apparent purpose, without a sense or...
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    Honestly it's sad really. I mean I don't want people to miss me and be in pain because of me but I want to have added something to people's lives. I you see I never got this...
    KateTheStraightedge KateTheStraightedge 16-17, F 1 Response May 3

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    am a widow with small kids, live with monthly check from the inlaws, don't work because i dont know why those companies dont want to hire me, on top of it all the late husband died...
    nosaint718 nosaint718 31-35, F 4 Responses May 7

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    I've almost died so many times, one time I was In a really bad car accident where we rolled 6-7 times into a field, the whole top of the car was dented in, but the place where I...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 11 Responses May 3

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    I have three friends who died although I wasn't that close to one of them. A drunk driver killed her in a hit and run a long time ago, and one of my good friends died of cancer a...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 30

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    Well, when I say friend, I mean my grandmom. but she was the first person who died who was really close to me. and I'm old enough to have it effect me more. My grandpa died when I...
    BowtiesRcool BowtiesRcool 22-25, M May 2

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    My gran died and my granddad died on her funeral. I'm going back to the mental institute this afternoon. No phone allowed. Thank u to all my friends who care. I'm online for a...
    VeniceTheMenice VeniceTheMenice 31-35, F 2 Responses May 3

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    If there's one thing I've learned it's that all the idle time in your life could potentially be wasting your very last time on earth. I have almost died a few times in my life and...
    SimplyTori SimplyTori 16-17, F 2 Responses May 7

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    i felt guilty about my friend's death. I felt guilty because a few weeks leading to her death, i was so busy with my own life that i didn't even bother replying to her messages. We...
    rxdical rxdical 18-21, M 1 Response May 13

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    Last January 19, 2015, my lab, died. :( it was so sudden. I don't know how and why, she just died. After a month or so, I got a new dog, a puppy shi tzu. I didn't like it as much...
    LemStark LemStark 16-17, M May 14

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    Just over 2 years ago my mom died. I took care of her 24 hours a day for 3 years until she passed. A few weeks later my father died. I'm 42 years old and this was my first...
    Nolongersunshine Nolongersunshine 41-45, F 2 Responses May 14

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    My cat bare died he was black with green eyes that would change to yellowish. He was my cat he had my personality and my dads personality he didn't like strangers or to be bothered...
    Autumnflowers Autumnflowers 18-21, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    PART OF ME........ That part of me will not go away it wants to stay and fight, while the other part of me is tired and beaten down wants to quit, who will win? everyday I...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F May 11

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    My friend Matt was in a car accident in November. He lost control of his car and his a telephone pole. He died in the hospital and it kills me everyday that I didn't get to say...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 26

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