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I Died Inside

If you've felt like you've died inside at one point or another 148 People

    I Need A Clear And Correct And Exact Answer That What Should I Do Now? And How To Face The Balance Unwanted Days?

    My story is a long one, and full of tragedy, i briefly telling  it here , as i could not explain the whole thing . My time from my birth is very worst, and I left with two children by my husband  and for past 20 years I have gone through several difficulties to brought...
    mothi mothi 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2010

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    .....

    the first time i saw her lying on the sofa, surrounded by my toys, a kids show on in the background, sick dribbling out of her mouth, covered in blood.     when i saw him stumbling through the door at 1am, crying, throwing up, then passing out on the stairs.  ...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Jan 18, 2009

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    A Little Bit a Lot of Times

    they're all too long a stories...  I'll let my title speak for them all.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 9 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    Dead, Emptyness.

    It's like your just a puppet, or your going through the motions. Its the sorrow, anger, and hate eating away at you from the inside. It makes you feel like you're going to vomit out your insides. In my mind, I picture it as me becoming a emotionless doll, with no feeling.
    sujib sujib 18-21, F Jul 29, 2012

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    Very Recently

    I've realised that emotions are overrated. When there is no love around, no hope, and no peace, why bother with joy? Why bother with caring about other people anymore, when you're the only one that does? When there's nothing to live for, but you are forced to go on, everything...
    Shroomguy Shroomguy 13-15, M Nov 1, 2009

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    I Was...

    what seems like forever ago. i was dead to the world. my eyes were an empty view into nothing. no light in or out. back i'm coming back. slowly. with a little help from the right people and other things. and it's a good thing. i'm really starting to feel again.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    We had dated for 2years

    and got a son on the 3rd year.its all i had ever dreamed of,and worked for...for the longest time, and at that point life was bliss.i had the perfect family and it was all fun. Her mother did not like me.because of my religious bacground,i was born a cristian but i stoped...
    mbithi mbithi 26-30, M Dec 2, 2014

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    ...

    I've died inside more than once. When I was a kid and my sister was ill, and now everytime she has a seizure. When I was raped. When I miscarried. When he told me he was going to be a dad. But each time I've managed to come back to myself. Each time, I ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    ...and It Wasn't Enjoyable.

    I was reading through the stories... and this one is copied and pasted from musicroxyou's, tailored slightly to fit me precisely. I suffered from some traumatic experiences in my life. None of them on their own was particularly awful, but together they destroyed me. One...
    13rznsy 13rznsy 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 23, 2009

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    Awaiting

    Who I was before has died, now I just hold on to that happy nice girl's face I had to masquerade myself so that people accept and think highly of me. I'm still awaiting to let go of that niceness and feel nothing at all.
    AngelsReflection AngelsReflection 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2010

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    Grandparents

    I died a little inside today.  I lost the last of my grandparents. I have such fond memories of them all. I can close my eyes and see and hear each and every one of the, It is hard realizing that they are all gone. A part of my life that can never be replaced, just...
    Percheron Percheron 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 14, 2010

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    Have You Ever Thought About It?

     Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren't you anymore? If you were suddenly gone, how would the world react? Whatever you imagined is wrong. There;s nothing romantic about death. Grief is like the Ocean. It's deep and Dark and bigger than all of us. And...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    What Doesnt Kill You...

    There's always a reason anything happens to us, i suppose.  What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger - I'm still alive physically, but emotionally i have died many times.  The last time i will never recover from. There is no way i can truly be free knowing that all of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    Part Of My Heart

    At some point on my journey, I faded away little by little. I lost the self I once was. I was once happy & full of life and then the emptiness & loneliness set in. I was greeted by a harsh reality and part of me died inside.   My belief in love, hope, friendship and trust...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 13, 2010

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    2005

    In the year of 2005 my world came crumbling down. I got into the biggest trouble of my life, my grandmother and aunt died and I was literally a wreck. I didn't eat much, didn't talk to anybody much. I LITERALLY died inside. But, thanks to God, he brought me out of it-and i...
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    Shattered Into Pieces

    At some point along the way, I faded little by little. I lost the self I once was. Once so full of life and energy, I became empty. The harsh reality of the world greeted me with full force and a part of me died inside, not knowing how to protect myself. My hope shattered, and I...
    flyingintherain flyingintherain 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 24, 2009

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    May 2000

    I was attacked & I died that night. Everything that I thought I had gotten back from my abusers, all the dreams I had. All that I was going to do with my life..........Gone in less than a moment. One violent act & I was no longer me. No longer the woman I had worked YEARS...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 10, 2009

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    Today is a sad day, this morning my dog sadly

    got put to sleep due to having cancer in the stomach, he was 14 years old and I got him when I was just three so we've spend 14 years together and for him to suddenly be gone is so heart breaking to me, I know he's in peace but it's so hard to deal with, I remember the first...
    leahmusic96 leahmusic96 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    But Now I Am Coming Back To Life

    Feeling life coming back into me, now that I have reduced the conflict in my life and found a special someone that is wanting me to be there. I did die during my marriage and was re-signed to live that fate... But now that I have been liberated from that life and I find myself...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 9 Responses Aug 15, 2010

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    In That One Moment

    The moment he mouth spat hate towards me and the moment he touched me to hurt was the moment I died inside.  I have never fully recovered to this day and still there are parts inside of me that have never come back alive.  The pain cuts deeply like a knife...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 2 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    Truly.

    I mean to say that I lost my entire ego. The very thing that separates me from the rest of the world. There was no "I" or "me". Reality was but a dream to me. If I had stayed in that state I probably would have killed myself eventually, the decision only weighing as much as...
    hitoarazu hitoarazu 22-25 1 Response Jan 20, 2011

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    What's the Point?

    I suffered from some seriously traumatic experience in my life. One day I needed to tell someone or I thought I'd explode. So, being the idiot that I am, I told a "trust-worthy" friend. This "friend" just happened to mention my experiences with my mom...
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 15, 2009

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    Today is the aniversery of one of the worst days of my life. And I can't stop thinking about her. This morning I was lying in bed and I saw her lying beside me and she said "I like...
    LandonS LandonS 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 3

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    When I was six I almost fell out of a moving car. Dad had taken me to see a Disney movie on that rainy Saturday afternoon. It was dusk when we exited the theater, and my father...
    HudsonValleyKid HudsonValleyKid 18-21, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    When I was 7 my (soon to be) cousin and I were standing on the cement wall at the top of the bottom floor, cement apartment stairs. I don't even remember losing my balance. I...
    piquesie piquesie 22-25, F Jan 8

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    I lost my Mother May 2014, to COPD and Heart failure. I miss her so much she was my best friend who I could call anytime. We lived states apart and I didn't get to see her before...
    straybluekitty straybluekitty 41-45, F Jan 14

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    Back in March 2007 my cousin Matthew Mcclure who was a Lincoln Way Alumni that died in a Air Plane Accident in Munster Indiana hew was 26 going to be 27 in two weeks however the...
    theinfo theinfo 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 18

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    I am no longer sad or hurt about this. I just can not believe how fast time has flown, how all these years have passed so fast. This march 10th will be 30 years since my dad died...
    Niko864 Niko864 41-45, M Jan 19

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    it's been just over a year since my father , who was my everything, died from an overdose on herion. when his body collapsed to the floor I heard it while I was in my basement...
    cherBearCJ cherBearCJ 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 29, 2014

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    My cat died 1 month ago On November 3rd 2014 and i'm still crying about him. his name was Thomas. He didn't deserve to die. I still also cry for my cat who died 5 years ago. His...
    minecraft1229 minecraft1229 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    My best friend drown when I was 9. My grandpa (who raised me) died in my arms of stroke, my grandma of altzhiemers. My first true love was shot in the head by a random crack addict...
    DarwinDipity DarwinDipity 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 10

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    I went to the nursing home to see my great grandmother. We hug and before I stop hugging she died. She died in my arms.
    wisdomgirl wisdomgirl 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 18

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    my mom died when I was 13 almost two years ago now. im 14 about to turn 15 and I have a older brother who is 18. me and my brother both live with my dad (my mom and dad were still...
    lauraquinn lauraquinn 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    My mother died three years ago in September. We had taken her into the hospital when she passed out. After she got fluids in her, the nurse let us go home without seeing the doctor...
    kswans kswans 18-21 Dec 28, 2014

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    When I got hit by a car at age 3 1/2 I died on the spot . If it wasn't for a man following behind the accident who revived me I would not be here writing this today . I spent 14...
    Wildman43055 Wildman43055 46-50, M 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    One day when I was 10 years old I put on a dress, white pantyhose, and a blue jean jacket and I went for a walk by myself in the wooded area behind our house. It was kind of a cool...
    abbylicious abbylicious 13-15, F 8 Responses Jan 1

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    It Just Died And My Charger Is Broken And Im Not Even Suppose To Be Using it
    TimePrincess TimePrincess 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 3

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    I wrote another post awhile ago, but I wanted to take time to remember another friend I used to have. I lost touch with that whole circle 10 years ago, so I never heard any...
    SnowCrow SnowCrow 31-35, M Jan 6

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    My mom died when I was 16 and I miss her
    aalliiccee aalliiccee 16-17, F Jan 7

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    My grandmother died today and I miss her already. She was a classy lady and lived a full and interesting life. An inspiration to me to do the same.
    Littlemissshy7 Littlemissshy7 41-45, F 10 Responses Jan 8

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    I remember someone that i really love. And i got a message from his family that he wrote a letter to me. So i came to his mom's house and receive the letter he wrote to me before...
    annaambrose annaambrose 13-15 Jan 12

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    Sometimes I have a feeling tht people just want to see me fail and wouldn't really give a **** if I died!!! Would anyone miss me??? Well I wouldn't blame them if they didn't! I'm...
    jordanpaige jordanpaige 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    A girl at my school died today. I didn't even know her. But she was in my class. I could have helped but I didn't know. This is the 3rd time I failed to help someone.
    canadatalia canadatalia 13-15, F 4 Responses Jan 13

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    Today I was told a girl of my career in the university has died. Her name was Dianeth. We werent so close, but i got to know her a little bit at least. She seemed a nice person, a...
    iamnotbabe iamnotbabe 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    My dear friend of almost 30 years died this week from a heroin overdose. He was the love of my life the first few years but the party never stopped for him and I couldn't live like...
    pkkitty pkkitty 41-45, F 3 Responses Jan 19

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    Yes, I have almost died. When I was little I almost drowned in a pool. But, that is not the point of this story for me. This is about me, so before you add me, you can read this...
    chocoflower24 chocoflower24 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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