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I Died Inside

If you've felt like you've died inside at one point or another 142 People

    But Now I Am Coming Back To Life

    Feeling life coming back into me, now that I have reduced the conflict in my life and found a special someone that is wanting me to be there. I did die during my marriage and was re-signed to live that fate... But now that I have been liberated from that life and I find myself...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 9 Responses Aug 15, 2010

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    ...

    I've died inside more than once. When I was a kid and my sister was ill, and now everytime she has a seizure. When I was raped. When I miscarried. When he told me he was going to be a dad. But each time I've managed to come back to myself. Each time, I ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    ...and It Wasn't Enjoyable.

    I was reading through the stories... and this one is copied and pasted from musicroxyou's, tailored slightly to fit me precisely. I suffered from some traumatic experiences in my life. None of them on their own was particularly awful, but together they destroyed me. One...
    13rznsy 13rznsy 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 23, 2009

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    What Doesnt Kill You...

    There's always a reason anything happens to us, i suppose.  What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger - I'm still alive physically, but emotionally i have died many times.  The last time i will never recover from. There is no way i can truly be free knowing that all of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    Very Recently

    I've realised that emotions are overrated. When there is no love around, no hope, and no peace, why bother with joy? Why bother with caring about other people anymore, when you're the only one that does? When there's nothing to live for, but you are forced to go on, everything...
    Shroomguy Shroomguy 13-15, M Nov 1, 2009

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    I Need A Clear And Correct And Exact Answer That What Should I Do Now? And How To Face The Balance Unwanted Days?

    My story is a long one, and full of tragedy, i briefly telling  it here , as i could not explain the whole thing . My time from my birth is very worst, and I left with two children by my husband  and for past 20 years I have gone through several difficulties to brought...
    mothi mothi 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2010

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    A Little Bit a Lot of Times

    they're all too long a stories...  I'll let my title speak for them all.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 9 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    2005

    In the year of 2005 my world came crumbling down. I got into the biggest trouble of my life, my grandmother and aunt died and I was literally a wreck. I didn't eat much, didn't talk to anybody much. I LITERALLY died inside. But, thanks to God, he brought me out of it-and i...
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    In That One Moment

    The moment he mouth spat hate towards me and the moment he touched me to hurt was the moment I died inside.  I have never fully recovered to this day and still there are parts inside of me that have never come back alive.  The pain cuts deeply like a knife...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 2 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    What's the Point?

    I suffered from some seriously traumatic experience in my life. One day I needed to tell someone or I thought I'd explode. So, being the idiot that I am, I told a "trust-worthy" friend. This "friend" just happened to mention my experiences with my mom...
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 15, 2009

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    Today is a sad day, this morning my dog sadly

    got put to sleep due to having cancer in the stomach, he was 14 years old and I got him when I was just three so we've spend 14 years together and for him to suddenly be gone is so heart breaking to me, I know he's in peace but it's so hard to deal with, I remember the first...
    leahmusic96 leahmusic96 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    Dead, Emptyness.

    It's like your just a puppet, or your going through the motions. Its the sorrow, anger, and hate eating away at you from the inside. It makes you feel like you're going to vomit out your insides. In my mind, I picture it as me becoming a emotionless doll, with no feeling.
    sujib sujib 18-21, F Jul 29, 2012

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    Part Of My Heart

    At some point on my journey, I faded away little by little. I lost the self I once was. I was once happy & full of life and then the emptiness & loneliness set in. I was greeted by a harsh reality and part of me died inside.   My belief in love, hope, friendship and trust...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 13, 2010

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    Grandparents

    I died a little inside today.  I lost the last of my grandparents. I have such fond memories of them all. I can close my eyes and see and hear each and every one of the, It is hard realizing that they are all gone. A part of my life that can never be replaced, just...
    Percheron Percheron 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 14, 2010

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    .....

    the first time i saw her lying on the sofa, surrounded by my toys, a kids show on in the background, sick dribbling out of her mouth, covered in blood.     when i saw him stumbling through the door at 1am, crying, throwing up, then passing out on the stairs.  ...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Jan 18, 2009

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    Truly.

    I mean to say that I lost my entire ego. The very thing that separates me from the rest of the world. There was no "I" or "me". Reality was but a dream to me. If I had stayed in that state I probably would have killed myself eventually, the decision only weighing as much as...
    hitoarazu hitoarazu 22-25 1 Response Jan 20, 2011

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    I Was...

    what seems like forever ago. i was dead to the world. my eyes were an empty view into nothing. no light in or out. back i'm coming back. slowly. with a little help from the right people and other things. and it's a good thing. i'm really starting to feel again.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    Have You Ever Thought About It?

     Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren't you anymore? If you were suddenly gone, how would the world react? Whatever you imagined is wrong. There;s nothing romantic about death. Grief is like the Ocean. It's deep and Dark and bigger than all of us. And...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    Shattered Into Pieces

    At some point along the way, I faded little by little. I lost the self I once was. Once so full of life and energy, I became empty. The harsh reality of the world greeted me with full force and a part of me died inside, not knowing how to protect myself. My hope shattered, and I...
    flyingintherain flyingintherain 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 24, 2009

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    May 2000

    I was attacked & I died that night. Everything that I thought I had gotten back from my abusers, all the dreams I had. All that I was going to do with my life..........Gone in less than a moment. One violent act & I was no longer me. No longer the woman I had worked YEARS...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 10, 2009

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    Awaiting

    Who I was before has died, now I just hold on to that happy nice girl's face I had to masquerade myself so that people accept and think highly of me. I'm still awaiting to let go of that niceness and feel nothing at all.
    AngelsReflection AngelsReflection 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2010

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    I Don'T Like It

    When old friends see how much I've changed, it saddens me. Because I know they're looking for the old me. The sweet me, the one that would take a risk or a bullet for them. And when they can't find it, they usually don't like the new me...the cold me, the heartless me...the one...
    ToxicRyu ToxicRyu 18-21, F Mar 17, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    I remember sitting in my fathers car. He was dropping me off outside my apartment. He was going back to Greece for several months as he had done the year before. I started to speak...
    Amazonium Amazonium 36-40, M 1 Response Aug 16

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    I am not the type to speak aloud to someone about this issue, this is more space for me to vent than anything else. I have been suffering for bulimia for the last 8 years, and it...
    Yourbaaaby Yourbaaaby 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 7

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    No, I think I've already died. Is this common post untreated depression?
    SecretsOut14 SecretsOut14 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 12

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    I'm 30 and recently found out I'm pregnant. I have two kids and I got pregnant from a close friend who I wasn't in a relationship with. I battle a drug addiction that had ruined my...
    Rosielocs Rosielocs 26-30, F Aug 21

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    A friend of my was in a car wreck two weeks ago headed to work. She died the next day in the hospital. I feel for her family so bad she has a son who will grown up without his mom...
    megann08092012 megann08092012 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 31

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    When I was younger in spite of my parents always fighting I also was always going to the hospital for my critical asthma I was like 4-6 days a week always in the hospital with...
    Angel2345 Angel2345 13-15, F Aug 7

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    When my dad died a few days before we had a small fight and we were avoiding each other I just wish we were both happy with each other before he died since I'll never see him again...
    Englishmuffin15 Englishmuffin15 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 17

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    I know I am breathing but sadly I feel like I am partly dead, my dog went to sleep yesterday but for some reason I believe he never died he`s still with me. he was 12yrs old and is...
    mizael1995 mizael1995 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    Today I found out that a boy killed himself. I did not know the boy very much as we only chatted one time. Last time I spoke to him he was going through a real rough time but he...
    hurlyboy hurlyboy 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 31

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    One of the boys I go to school with was cousins with a girl who died playing chicken in the middle of the road.
    Ellyhi Ellyhi 13-15, F Jul 31

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    When I was in 8th grade I met a guy named Cody. Cody was smart, funny, charming, and handsome a total teen heart throb. We sat together in a science class, made fun of the teacher...
    eaarcher93 eaarcher93 18-21, F Jul 31

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    My boyfriends dad has recently died from cancer and was taken to soon as he was only a 59 year old man
    g147854 g147854 22-25, F Jul 31

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    My cousin scotty. Found a gun in the woods. Played gunslinger. The gun went off. He died.
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M Jul 31

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    Well actually I have flat lined and died before. When I was younger my heart would stop and then after a little bit it would restart on its own.
    curiousgirl1214 curiousgirl1214 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 31

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    I am in the Navy, been overseas for 3 years. My father just became a part of my life about 4 years ago. My mom wouldn't let me see him for almost 13 years. I took the time to...
    itisbob7 itisbob7 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 1

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    The higher you build your barriers The taller I become The farther you take my rights away The faster I will run You can deny me You can decide to turn your face away No matter...
    2BlossomBlue 2BlossomBlue 51-55, F Aug 3

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    Mom died of pancreatic cancer when I was 12. I watched her die for 2 yrs.
    pennyannenichols pennyannenichols 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 4

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    My mom just died two weeks ago.
    HelloOutThere89 HelloOutThere89 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 6

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    I've never talked about this before but here we go.... His name Blake Tomas Boothe, he was 14 when we died. It was in April.. He went to a differnt school then me but we lived in...
    crazyhyperkid crazyhyperkid 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 10

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    The greatest man on earth has just died..
    zacisbest45 zacisbest45 16-17, M Aug 11

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    OMG I was almost crying!! Cuz he was in some of my most favorite movies and its soo sad that he died!!! 😭😲
    believerofwolf believerofwolf 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 11

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    This ****** up my day today. Like, he was part of my childhood, and he would always manage to make me laugh even though I never saw him in person. I literally cried when I found...
    MacabreCannibal MacabreCannibal 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 12

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    I don't know who to deal with this. Now that he's gone, I think about him ALL the time, and I'm consumed by grief. Why him, why why why??? I saved his life in 2008 from a heroin...
    Armorkillo Armorkillo 26-30 Aug 12

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    Twice actually. Once when I was just a baby and another time when I was about 6 or 7. I've always wondered how my family would be if I would have died. Sometimes I feel like they...
    LoveandLoss17 LoveandLoss17 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 12

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    When I was 7 years old, my Dad died of cancer. The year after, I became more and more antisocial and quiet, thinking that "I wouldn't be like this if Daddy was still alive". I...
    cassandrasavel cassandrasavel 13-15, F Aug 12

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    I am 47 years old. My boyfriend died when I was 21 and he was just 19. I hate to tell you all that it doesn't get any easier with time. And in some ways it gets harder. I will...
    only1vandy only1vandy 46-50, F 6 Responses Aug 18

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    I had a severe allergic reaction to fire ant bites and stings on Monday. Had it been more, doctor said I would have died. Reality check !
    MissJourney360 MissJourney360 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    My beautiful kitty, Rachel died almost 3 weeks ago. I had to have her put down because she was so sick. I miss her so much.
    lonelydaisy lonelydaisy 31-35, F