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I Died Inside

If you've felt like you've died inside at one point or another 135 People

    Have You Ever Thought About It?

     Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren't you anymore? If you were suddenly gone, how would the world react? Whatever you imagined is wrong. There;s nothing romantic about death. Grief is like the Ocean. It's deep and Dark and bigger than all of us. And...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    I've died inside more than once. When I was a kid and my sister was ill, and now everytime she has a seizure. When I was raped. When I miscarried. When he told me he was going to be a dad. But each time I've managed to come back to myself. Each time, I ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 18 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    In That One Moment

    The moment he mouth spat hate towards me and the moment he touched me to hurt was the moment I died inside.  I have never fully recovered to this day and still there are parts inside of me that have never come back alive.  The pain cuts deeply like a knife...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 2 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    Grandparents

    I died a little inside today.  I lost the last of my grandparents. I have such fond memories of them all. I can close my eyes and see and hear each and every one of the, It is hard realizing that they are all gone. A part of my life that can never be replaced, just...
    Percheron Percheron 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 14, 2010

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    the first time i saw her lying on the sofa, surrounded by my toys, a kids show on in the background, sick dribbling out of her mouth, covered in blood.     when i saw him stumbling through the door at 1am, crying, throwing up, then passing out on the stairs.  ...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Jan 18, 2009

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    What Doesnt Kill You...

    There's always a reason anything happens to us, i suppose.  What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger - I'm still alive physically, but emotionally i have died many times.  The last time i will never recover from. There is no way i can truly be free knowing that all of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    Today is a sad day, this morning my dog sadly

    got put to sleep due to having cancer in the stomach, he was 14 years old and I got him when I was just three so we've spend 14 years together and for him to suddenly be gone is so heart breaking to me, I know he's in peace but it's so hard to deal with, I remember the first...
    leahmusic96 leahmusic96 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    I Don'T Like It

    When old friends see how much I've changed, it saddens me. Because I know they're looking for the old me. The sweet me, the one that would take a risk or a bullet for them. And when they can't find it, they usually don't like the new me...the cold me, the heartless me...the one...
    ToxicRyu ToxicRyu 18-21, F Mar 17, 2013

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    Shattered Into Pieces

    At some point along the way, I faded little by little. I lost the self I once was. Once so full of life and energy, I became empty. The harsh reality of the world greeted me with full force and a part of me died inside, not knowing how to protect myself. My hope shattered, and I...
    flyingintherain flyingintherain 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 24, 2009

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    May 2000

    I was attacked & I died that night. Everything that I thought I had gotten back from my abusers, all the dreams I had. All that I was going to do with my life..........Gone in less than a moment. One violent act & I was no longer me. No longer the woman I had worked YEARS...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 10, 2009

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    I Need A Clear And Correct And Exact Answer That What Should I Do Now? And How To Face The Balance Unwanted Days?

    My story is a long one, and full of tragedy, i briefly telling  it here , as i could not explain the whole thing . My time from my birth is very worst, and I left with two children by my husband  and for past 20 years I have gone through several difficulties to brought...
    mothi mothi 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2010

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    2005

    In the year of 2005 my world came crumbling down. I got into the biggest trouble of my life, my grandmother and aunt died and I was literally a wreck. I didn't eat much, didn't talk to anybody much. I LITERALLY died inside. But, thanks to God, he brought me out of it-and i...
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    Dead, Emptyness.

    It's like your just a puppet, or your going through the motions. Its the sorrow, anger, and hate eating away at you from the inside. It makes you feel like you're going to vomit out your insides. In my mind, I picture it as me becoming a emotionless doll, with no feeling.
    sujib sujib 18-21, F Jul 29, 2012

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    I Was...

    what seems like forever ago. i was dead to the world. my eyes were an empty view into nothing. no light in or out. back i'm coming back. slowly. with a little help from the right people and other things. and it's a good thing. i'm really starting to feel again.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    Part Of My Heart

    At some point on my journey, I faded away little by little. I lost the self I once was. I was once happy & full of life and then the emptiness & loneliness set in. I was greeted by a harsh reality and part of me died inside.   My belief in love, hope, friendship and trust...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 33 Responses Aug 13, 2010

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    A Little Bit a Lot of Times

    they're all too long a stories...  I'll let my title speak for them all.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 9 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    Lately I have heard about friends relatives who have died. Like parents. I grew up without a true set of parents, well at least normal ones. I think about what my life would be...
    Kynearin Kynearin 22-25, F Apr 11

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    I was depressed all the time a mother of toe and one on the way I felt lost I had a home And husband a car a boat a family.. No reason I know now to be depressed I lost my 7 month...
    laceykight laceykight 26-30, F Apr 13

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    Our cat was hit by a car yesterday sometime. I saw her in the morning and then she wasn't around. When she didn't come for her tea my son went to look for her and found her behind...
    magfaw magfaw 56-60 1 Response a week ago

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    Broken heart on a broken day. She died on this day.
    Dane42 Dane42 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 12

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    She was found dead in her bedroom at 4am yesterday. No news yet with regards to the cause. She was one of those crazy party girls. But there was something wrong. For as...
    NekroNomikon NekroNomikon 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 15

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    My mother passed away 2 weeks ago after battling cancer for about 8 years. It all happened so quickly. She fought it so well and after all these years, it felt like she wasn't even...
    butterflies57 butterflies57 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    The day I found out my first love died, I didn't believe it. We were both still in high school, though he wasn't attending anymore, and it just seemed so unreal to me. It took me a...
    MichiganGirl420 MichiganGirl420 18-21, F Mar 25

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    I miss all of my friends that died especially this one friend me and her were so close we did everything together went everywhere together me and her were inseparable me and her we...
    Meeppeep Meeppeep 16-17, M Mar 28

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    I had this horrible nightmare the other day about you when I took a nap. I woke up, my sheets soaked in sweat. I couldn't stop my hands from shaking and suddenly burst into tears...
    skinnypsycho skinnypsycho 18-21, F Mar 26

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    Happened when I was young like really young at the time I didn't understand a single thing going just my friends mum saying to me "honey you won't be seeing Jemma for a long time...
    WhyDoYouThinkYouKnowMe WhyDoYouThinkYouKnowMe 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    My dog died yesterday and I miss him. When we baried him a put this picture of us on his grave. He was only 12 years old and died of a brain tumor. v.v I will always miss...
    Leilani19 Leilani19 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 3

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    For me it is "...Friends That Died" and many relatives, plus my dad. The first 2 friends died from a drunk driver when I was 7. Another passed away from brain cancer, and the...
    MrCorcks MrCorcks 31-35, M 6 days ago

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    My Dad's aunt and my sister's mum She just died about two hours ago i cant get over it. I do believe that God is watching over us and that we will meet Him someday. Things happen...
    ssaaraahh ssaaraahh 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    It is very difficult to lose someone very close to you.My cat "KHAN" recently died suddenly. Just 5 mins before his death he woke me up at 2.45 am and started licking my hand. He...
    abdulbasitshoaib abdulbasitshoaib 22-25, M 1 Response Mar 25

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    When I was crying I almost died I couldn't breath and no one was there to help I am still curios how I survived
    Lonelyvamp2 Lonelyvamp2 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 2

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    December 10th, 2013 was the day it happend.My dog Mickey they I wrote about in my last story died on this date. It was a regular,normal,average day on december tenth of 2013. I...
    MsStyles1920 MsStyles1920 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    My first cane from my grandmother's name in my dad's side. Her name was Patricia, and she died a few months before I was born. It makes me feel sad, yet proud to know that I'm...
    patrick199 patrick199 16-17, M 1 Response Apr 8

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    My father had a cardiac arrest almost 1 month ago and died a little over a week ago after spending an unconscious 2 weeks in the ICU. His heart stopped for too long for there to be...
    shannzzy shannzzy 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    Okay so I was in a pool , all alone and my mom was watching me ... Well I saw a floaty and I wanted it ( someone just left it there ) so I held on to the edge of the pool ( I was...
    emmawinterfrost emmawinterfrost 13-15, F Apr 14

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    I'm in high school, everywhere you go there is someone saying how teens are effected by peer pressure. The other day we had a whole class on it, and I started to laugh. My teacher...
    mcc1109 mcc1109 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    Jesus was a Man who came here...... and His life did He give. And He came here to make a sacrifice, So that we may all live. The price that He paid for us, Was MUCH more than we...
    zonus zonus 31-35, M 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    Today, 18 April 2014, I almost died. As i type this, I'm struggling but I've been told I will be okay. It was stupid but "you" picked the wrong time, wrong words at the "right...
    Quanitta Quanitta 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    My cat died yesterday (18/04/2014). She's not even one yet. Now I miss her so much. It pains me when looking around the house and cannot find her. I wish there's a miracle that she...
    mimicallas mimicallas 31-35 1 Response 5 days ago

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    There were a couple of times, but mainly two. 1st time was when I was 12 and living at my grandpas in Missouri, I was riding his 4-wheeler, drove it near his pond, tried to turn...
    FloralSmoke18 FloralSmoke18 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    For the past 5 years i have felt dead on the inside. I use to feel so alive but after the awestruck events of betrayal, backstab, lies, emotional abuse, destruction of my...
    Coolrocker Coolrocker 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 25

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    Lost. That is what I constantly feel. Everybody tells me that I should just die or kill myself, but why is it that when I try they always stop me. I cut. I love the constant...
    bulimicbixtch49 bulimicbixtch49 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    i was in love with a girl who said she loved me, she broke up with her boyfriend and told me to wait until she was ready which was fine, the next week she kisses me but still asks...
    Hemanwar Hemanwar 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 24

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    I don't know how to start this. I'm a new member and I feel like I need to get this out. I don't think I'm depressed, but I have no feeling of needing to do anything. My life right...
    MainMenuLobster MainMenuLobster 18-21, M 2 Responses Mar 27

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    I literally feel so empty inside.. I'm depressed and I literally have no self confidence. I look in the mirror and hate what I see. And I figured out no matter how fat or skinny I...
    sammylynn333 sammylynn333 16-17, F 3 Responses Mar 27

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    I just feel so empty inside like im always going to be stuck in this rut im in, i have nothing and no one to go to. I feel it all started 4 years ago when i transferred from public...
    koopakoop koopakoop 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 28

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    He said my anger was very scary. He's seen it. He knows. He said he's not scared for himself, but he's afraid for what I can do. What will I do to those around me who love me? What...
    Missjayne1 Missjayne1 31-35, F Mar 29

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    Im really ****** up. I stopped caring about everything and started hating every single person.. I don't feel anything, not even sad just empty. Its way worse than feeling sad, I...
    naivelittlegirl naivelittlegirl 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    This is my issue. I could have a straight face with everyone and laugh and stuff and smile But when I get inside my own head and/or someone else does it, I literally explode and...
    failsoflife failsoflife 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 31

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    i have experienced alot in my life and had to it all alone, i have never asked for help, i suppose this is why i am feeling the way i am today, alone, confused and very hurt.... i...
    jayne2468 jayne2468 46-50, F Apr 2

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    I feel like I'm dying in the inside, but I know I'm already dead. I just want to finish myself off. There is no point to go on.
    lshidonil lshidonil 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 6

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