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I Died Inside

If you've felt like you've died inside at one point or another 159 People

    Have You Ever Thought About It?

     Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren't you anymore? If you were suddenly gone, how would the world react? Whatever you imagined is wrong. There;s nothing romantic about death. Grief is like the Ocean. It's deep and Dark and bigger than all of us. And...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    Shattered Into Pieces

    At some point along the way, I faded little by little. I lost the self I once was. Once so full of life and energy, I became empty. The harsh reality of the world greeted me with full force and a part of me died inside, not knowing how to protect myself. My hope shattered, and I...
    flyingintherain flyingintherain 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 24, 2009

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    Today is a sad day, this morning my dog sadly

    got put to sleep due to having cancer in the stomach, he was 14 years old and I got him when I was just three so we've spend 14 years together and for him to suddenly be gone is so heart breaking to me, I know he's in peace but it's so hard to deal with, I remember the first...
    leahmusic96 leahmusic96 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    But Now I Am Coming Back To Life

    Feeling life coming back into me, now that I have reduced the conflict in my life and found a special someone that is wanting me to be there. I did die during my marriage and was re-signed to live that fate... But now that I have been liberated from that life and I find myself...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 9 Responses Aug 15, 2010

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    I Need A Clear And Correct And Exact Answer That What Should I Do Now? And How To Face The Balance Unwanted Days?

    My story is a long one, and full of tragedy, i briefly telling  it here , as i could not explain the whole thing . My time from my birth is very worst, and I left with two children by my husband  and for past 20 years I have gone through several difficulties to brought...
    mothi mothi 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2010

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    Dead, Emptyness.

    It's like your just a puppet, or your going through the motions. Its the sorrow, anger, and hate eating away at you from the inside. It makes you feel like you're going to vomit out your insides. In my mind, I picture it as me becoming a emotionless doll, with no feeling.
    sujib sujib 18-21, F Jul 29, 2012

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    What Doesnt Kill You...

    There's always a reason anything happens to us, i suppose.  What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger - I'm still alive physically, but emotionally i have died many times.  The last time i will never recover from. There is no way i can truly be free knowing that all of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    ...and It Wasn't Enjoyable.

    I was reading through the stories... and this one is copied and pasted from musicroxyou's, tailored slightly to fit me precisely. I suffered from some traumatic experiences in my life. None of them on their own was particularly awful, but together they destroyed me. One...
    13rznsy 13rznsy 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 23, 2009

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    May 2000

    I was attacked & I died that night. Everything that I thought I had gotten back from my abusers, all the dreams I had. All that I was going to do with my life..........Gone in less than a moment. One violent act & I was no longer me. No longer the woman I had worked YEARS...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 10, 2009

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    What's the Point?

    I suffered from some seriously traumatic experience in my life. One day I needed to tell someone or I thought I'd explode. So, being the idiot that I am, I told a "trust-worthy" friend. This "friend" just happened to mention my experiences with my mom...
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 15, 2009

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    Truly.

    I mean to say that I lost my entire ego. The very thing that separates me from the rest of the world. There was no "I" or "me". Reality was but a dream to me. If I had stayed in that state I probably would have killed myself eventually, the decision only weighing as much as...
    hitoarazu hitoarazu 22-25 Jan 20, 2011

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    I Was...

    what seems like forever ago. i was dead to the world. my eyes were an empty view into nothing. no light in or out. back i'm coming back. slowly. with a little help from the right people and other things. and it's a good thing. i'm really starting to feel again.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    i want to die this world going insane.

    ..i don't see good one right now..people are crazy about sex,money,prestigous,career etc..i am stressed out see all of that....i hate it..i wish invisible
    myselfhere myselfhere 22-25, F May 20

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    We had dated for 2years

    and got a son on the 3rd year.its all i had ever dreamed of,and worked for...for the longest time, and at that point life was bliss.i had the perfect family and it was all fun. Her mother did not like me.because of my religious bacground,i was born a cristian but i stoped...
    mbithi mbithi 26-30, M Dec 2, 2014

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    Grandparents

    I died a little inside today.  I lost the last of my grandparents. I have such fond memories of them all. I can close my eyes and see and hear each and every one of the, It is hard realizing that they are all gone. A part of my life that can never be replaced, just...
    Percheron Percheron 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 14, 2010

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    Very Recently

    I've realised that emotions are overrated. When there is no love around, no hope, and no peace, why bother with joy? Why bother with caring about other people anymore, when you're the only one that does? When there's nothing to live for, but you are forced to go on, everything...
    Shroomguy Shroomguy 13-15, M Nov 1, 2009

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    2005

    In the year of 2005 my world came crumbling down. I got into the biggest trouble of my life, my grandmother and aunt died and I was literally a wreck. I didn't eat much, didn't talk to anybody much. I LITERALLY died inside. But, thanks to God, he brought me out of it-and i...
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    In That One Moment

    The moment he mouth spat hate towards me and the moment he touched me to hurt was the moment I died inside.  I have never fully recovered to this day and still there are parts inside of me that have never come back alive.  The pain cuts deeply like a knife...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 2 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    Part Of My Heart

    At some point on my journey, I faded away little by little. I lost the self I once was. I was once happy & full of life and then the emptiness & loneliness set in. I was greeted by a harsh reality and part of me died inside.   My belief in love, hope, friendship and trust...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 13, 2010

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    .....

    the first time i saw her lying on the sofa, surrounded by my toys, a kids show on in the background, sick dribbling out of her mouth, covered in blood.     when i saw him stumbling through the door at 1am, crying, throwing up, then passing out on the stairs.  ...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Jan 18, 2009

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    Awaiting

    Who I was before has died, now I just hold on to that happy nice girl's face I had to masquerade myself so that people accept and think highly of me. I'm still awaiting to let go of that niceness and feel nothing at all.
    AngelsReflection AngelsReflection 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2010

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    I am dead inside. 100%!

    Why keep my body going when everything inside me is dead?
    Whoami30 Whoami30 26-30, M 1 Response May 10

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    ...

    I've died inside more than once. When I was a kid and my sister was ill, and now everytime she has a seizure. When I was raped. When I miscarried. When he told me he was going to be a dad. But each time I've managed to come back to myself. Each time, I ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    A Little Bit a Lot of Times

    they're all too long a stories...  I'll let my title speak for them all.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 9 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    NoUsernameInserted NoUsernameInserted 18-21, F 4 hrs ago

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    I feel empty inside I really don't have any friends but a few and I do have a crush that I've been talking to but I don't know if he likes me:|
    Thedarkprincessooo Thedarkprincessooo 18-21, F 9 hrs ago

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    I had a seizure and I died at a concert the singer named lisa (I forgot her last name) tried to save me but it didn't work.
    mylifewiththegirls mylifewiththegirls 22-25, F 1 Response 21 hrs ago

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    Sorry I haven't been on here since April, I had a really close friend to me that died and it's been hard on my family and theirs
    comeonhome comeonhome 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    When I was 8 years old my brother and my mother and I were going to visit my aunt. At the time I was only 8 and my brother was only 5 so my mother pack our things plus hers then...
    TheWordsOfDeadGirl TheWordsOfDeadGirl 13-15, F 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    you are so beautiful on the inside and out love everything about you
    susangoga susangoga 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    My Grandfather died of lung cancer. I was in the same room with him the day he left this world. A single tear rolled down his cheek as he exhaled his last breath. Even after over...
    BrokenAngel38 BrokenAngel38 36-40, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    To me, the worst feeling in the world is the feeling of being trapped. I have felt this way for as long as I can remember. However, in one sense, I must accept that everyone is...
    DepressedDemigod DepressedDemigod 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I almost died of a severe infection.
    comfi comfi 51-55, M 4 days ago

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    You ever look at yourself in the mirror and see a different person. I see someone that's never been noticed that's only been judged. I see a kid that should never think that the...
    aaronsevenseven aaronsevenseven 13-15, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    My dog died 9 months ago and I still cry and miss her every day. I am sadder about losing my beautiful girl than i am about losing my parents. I had wonderful parents who I loved...
    scofen scofen 26-30, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I got a call 3 days ago from my best friend in my original hometown saying that my bird coco died. Ive had her since i was 8 she was my honestly my pride and joy i loved her like a...
    jessie8g jessie8g 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    "Death is the end of our life. After a good life, we should have a good death. A good death is death without pain, where you can say "I had a good life, and I can now go to the...
    Mags40 Mags40 41-45, F 6 days ago

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    A dear friend of 14 years died yesterday. She had been going through health difficulties for these past three years. She brought joy to so many peoples' lives. She was an example...
    GreatLakesGuy GreatLakesGuy 51-55, M 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I often have this overwhelmingly sad feeling that just makes me feel really empty deep inside like I'm lost and stuck in a dark place and there's no light anywhere and no way to...
    Sammy1216 Sammy1216 16-17, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    Me and Twyla walked around the neighborhood at night and we walked by the park. As we passed the park we saw a rope being thrown up on a beam inside the picnic area. Then we saw a...
    vick8428 vick8428 31-35, F 3 Responses a week ago

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    Am crying so mush inside and they're about to come out why do I feel like this ohh I hate this every ******* summer
    Kellyfoster2000 Kellyfoster2000 13-15, F a week ago

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    I started crying for no reason. I just became overwhelming depressed. It's as if a wave of sadness splashed over me, flooding the beaches of my mind with its ever-present blueness...
    wishingforrecovery wishingforrecovery 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 22

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    My grandad died yesterday and I miss him
    cane4500 cane4500 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 21

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    I know deep down I have a beautiful soul inside of me and have a big heart of gold. But unfortunately people judge you on what you look like. I am not the tanned muscular guy every...
    WokenandOpen WokenandOpen 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 21

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