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I Died Inside

If you've felt like you've died inside at one point or another 145 People

    Have You Ever Thought About It?

     Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren't you anymore? If you were suddenly gone, how would the world react? Whatever you imagined is wrong. There;s nothing romantic about death. Grief is like the Ocean. It's deep and Dark and bigger than all of us. And...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    But Now I Am Coming Back To Life

    Feeling life coming back into me, now that I have reduced the conflict in my life and found a special someone that is wanting me to be there. I did die during my marriage and was re-signed to live that fate... But now that I have been liberated from that life and I find myself...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 9 Responses Aug 15, 2010

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    What Doesnt Kill You...

    There's always a reason anything happens to us, i suppose.  What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger - I'm still alive physically, but emotionally i have died many times.  The last time i will never recover from. There is no way i can truly be free knowing that all of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    Part Of My Heart

    At some point on my journey, I faded away little by little. I lost the self I once was. I was once happy & full of life and then the emptiness & loneliness set in. I was greeted by a harsh reality and part of me died inside.   My belief in love, hope, friendship and trust...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 13, 2010

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    2005

    In the year of 2005 my world came crumbling down. I got into the biggest trouble of my life, my grandmother and aunt died and I was literally a wreck. I didn't eat much, didn't talk to anybody much. I LITERALLY died inside. But, thanks to God, he brought me out of it-and i...
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    Very Recently

    I've realised that emotions are overrated. When there is no love around, no hope, and no peace, why bother with joy? Why bother with caring about other people anymore, when you're the only one that does? When there's nothing to live for, but you are forced to go on, everything...
    Shroomguy Shroomguy 13-15, M Nov 1, 2009

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    ...and It Wasn't Enjoyable.

    I was reading through the stories... and this one is copied and pasted from musicroxyou's, tailored slightly to fit me precisely. I suffered from some traumatic experiences in my life. None of them on their own was particularly awful, but together they destroyed me. One...
    13rznsy 13rznsy 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 23, 2009

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    I Was...

    what seems like forever ago. i was dead to the world. my eyes were an empty view into nothing. no light in or out. back i'm coming back. slowly. with a little help from the right people and other things. and it's a good thing. i'm really starting to feel again.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    .....

    the first time i saw her lying on the sofa, surrounded by my toys, a kids show on in the background, sick dribbling out of her mouth, covered in blood.     when i saw him stumbling through the door at 1am, crying, throwing up, then passing out on the stairs.  ...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Jan 18, 2009

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    What's the Point?

    I suffered from some seriously traumatic experience in my life. One day I needed to tell someone or I thought I'd explode. So, being the idiot that I am, I told a "trust-worthy" friend. This "friend" just happened to mention my experiences with my mom...
    xxbloodyfretboardxx xxbloodyfretboardxx 18-21, F 6 Responses Feb 15, 2009

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    A Little Bit a Lot of Times

    they're all too long a stories...  I'll let my title speak for them all.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 9 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    Grandparents

    I died a little inside today.  I lost the last of my grandparents. I have such fond memories of them all. I can close my eyes and see and hear each and every one of the, It is hard realizing that they are all gone. A part of my life that can never be replaced, just...
    Percheron Percheron 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 14, 2010

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    In That One Moment

    The moment he mouth spat hate towards me and the moment he touched me to hurt was the moment I died inside.  I have never fully recovered to this day and still there are parts inside of me that have never come back alive.  The pain cuts deeply like a knife...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 2 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    Today is a sad day, this morning my dog sadly

    got put to sleep due to having cancer in the stomach, he was 14 years old and I got him when I was just three so we've spend 14 years together and for him to suddenly be gone is so heart breaking to me, I know he's in peace but it's so hard to deal with, I remember the first...
    leahmusic96 leahmusic96 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    May 2000

    I was attacked & I died that night. Everything that I thought I had gotten back from my abusers, all the dreams I had. All that I was going to do with my life..........Gone in less than a moment. One violent act & I was no longer me. No longer the woman I had worked YEARS...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 10, 2009

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    Shattered Into Pieces

    At some point along the way, I faded little by little. I lost the self I once was. Once so full of life and energy, I became empty. The harsh reality of the world greeted me with full force and a part of me died inside, not knowing how to protect myself. My hope shattered, and I...
    flyingintherain flyingintherain 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 24, 2009

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    I Don'T Like It

    When old friends see how much I've changed, it saddens me. Because I know they're looking for the old me. The sweet me, the one that would take a risk or a bullet for them. And when they can't find it, they usually don't like the new me...the cold me, the heartless me...the one...
    ToxicRyu ToxicRyu 18-21, F Mar 17, 2013

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    Awaiting

    Who I was before has died, now I just hold on to that happy nice girl's face I had to masquerade myself so that people accept and think highly of me. I'm still awaiting to let go of that niceness and feel nothing at all.
    AngelsReflection AngelsReflection 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2010

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    ...

    I've died inside more than once. When I was a kid and my sister was ill, and now everytime she has a seizure. When I was raped. When I miscarried. When he told me he was going to be a dad. But each time I've managed to come back to myself. Each time, I ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    Truly.

    I mean to say that I lost my entire ego. The very thing that separates me from the rest of the world. There was no "I" or "me". Reality was but a dream to me. If I had stayed in that state I probably would have killed myself eventually, the decision only weighing as much as...
    hitoarazu hitoarazu 22-25 1 Response Jan 20, 2011

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    Dead, Emptyness.

    It's like your just a puppet, or your going through the motions. Its the sorrow, anger, and hate eating away at you from the inside. It makes you feel like you're going to vomit out your insides. In my mind, I picture it as me becoming a emotionless doll, with no feeling.
    sujib sujib 18-21, F Jul 29, 2012

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    I Need A Clear And Correct And Exact Answer That What Should I Do Now? And How To Face The Balance Unwanted Days?

    My story is a long one, and full of tragedy, i briefly telling  it here , as i could not explain the whole thing . My time from my birth is very worst, and I left with two children by my husband  and for past 20 years I have gone through several difficulties to brought...
    mothi mothi 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2010

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    It was me who has died. Dead on the inside. I am a mere shell. I have lost the ability to love and to feel. Or rather, it was brutally stolen from me. Take me back to the jovial...
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    My boyfriend died 10 months ago. Since he died I feel like a zombie- only hoping to get through the days alone. Friday nights are the worst, because I think about what we...
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    At one point, we are all going to die. It may be 50 years from now, it could be tomorrow, or it could be this minute. Yoy never know.. So what's stopping you? What's stopping you...
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    I lost my father (50) 10 years ago along with my grandfather (his father 78) just 6 months later. Both died of heart attacks and I was 19. My grandmother (She was 64, his mother...
    lastdaysman lastdaysman 26-30, M 2 Responses Sep 20

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    My little brother he died last year, he was poisoned and he was only 7 years old. He died in my arms in the morning. I couldn't breathe. But I miss him dearly, he would always have...
    cittykatluv cittykatluv 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 20

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    My perfect prince has died today. He had trouble breathing this morning and died on the way to the vet. I met him Friday so I didn't really know him well but I loved him just the...
    Gayminniemouse Gayminniemouse 16-17, F 5 Responses Oct 6

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    My father died June 27 2009. He was 78 years of age and we were very close. He was a great man who did much for me throughout my life. I think of him every day. My best friend also...
    frankred frankred 46-50 Oct 9

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    Imiss my mom was died almost 3 months ago becoz of cancer... I wish I can talk to her and tell her... Heyyy mom,,, I love u so much and imiss u ... Just be happy wherever you r...
    Lonelygir27 Lonelygir27 26-30, F 3 Responses Sep 20

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    I still miss my ex who died 13 years ago. I'm now married with kids but I miss him everyday
    bonafidediva bonafidediva 36-40, F 2 Responses Sep 20

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    I had a friend in fourth grade. He was a really good person and was an amazing friend. He was diagnosed with a cancer. He had a brain tumor. I had to watch y best friend be treated...
    Kelnea Kelnea 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 20

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    Me and my friends found a baby squirrel who feel outa a tree so one of my friends took him home then tried to return it to it's mother the next day his mom didn't come do he took...
    jaquelynlupi123 jaquelynlupi123 13-15, F Sep 20

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    My dad. He died when I was nine. RIP. 08-16-09
    jeaaane jeaaane 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 20

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    My little brother he was 18 died in a car accident September - 20 - 2013
    mparker7789 mparker7789 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 20

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    I miss my best friend, which died 3 years ago. I think about him every day...
    dickensyou dickensyou 18-21, F Sep 20

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    My dad he died when I was 3 it's been hard without him
    livelovehopefree livelovehopefree 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 22

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    I recently almost died from alcohol poisoning and can't get over it. The last thing I remembered was running to the bathroom and just feeling like I was going to die. I kept saying...
    Cory45 Cory45 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 22

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    I must start by saying to my good EP friends; I apologize for not being in contact this past week. I missed you dearly. One week ago today, I almost died. I blacked out from...
    AphroditeComplex AphroditeComplex 22-25, F 2 Responses Sep 23

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    When i was nine there was a little girl named addy and we were good friends until she got leukemia and died about a year after
    Kitry Kitry 13-15, F 3 Responses Sep 29

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    My boyfriend died on September 9,2014 by a car accident. I don't know what to do without him. We had a life to start together. We were together for three and a half years & he was...
    serenaleeee serenaleeee 18-21, F Sep 29

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    I had a twisted vain which is one in a million (:/) and could have died from the surgery!
    fatality500 fatality500 13-15, M Oct 6

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    I've almost died too when I nearly drowned because I swam too faraway and now I'm seriously afraid of water!
    SuckerPunch35 SuckerPunch35 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 6

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    Yes. Just recently. My mom and I were sleeping when the fire started. I'm relieved she woke up and woke me up too. When I got out of the room, the smoke was too thick I nearly...
    jesssaying1997 jesssaying1997 16-17, F Oct 7

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    I actually don't remember this because I was still only a baby, but my parents tell me all the time this story of how I almost died of an illness. It must have been a heavy flu I'm...
    Isa44 Isa44 26-30, M Oct 8

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    If I died today i just hope that no one will be sad because this is part of life why cry and morn? Lives life happily .
    jamesstr jamesstr 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 9

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    I've been on a wander around London today, snapping some pics on my phone. My beloved friend, who saw little bits of magic all around us (and usually took iPhone pics, which show...
    EttaS EttaS 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 9

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