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I Died Inside

If you've felt like you've died inside at one point or another 188 People

    Grandparents

    I died a little inside today.  I lost the last of my grandparents. I have such fond memories of them all. I can close my eyes and see and hear each and every one of the, It is hard realizing that they are all gone. A part of my life that can never be replaced, just...
    Percheron Percheron 41-45, M 2 Responses Aug 14, 2010

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    Truly.

    I mean to say that I lost my entire ego. The very thing that separates me from the rest of the world. There was no "I" or "me". Reality was but a dream to me. If I had stayed in that state I probably would have killed myself eventually, the decision only weighing as much as...
    hitoarazu hitoarazu 22-25 Jan 20, 2011

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    ...and It Wasn't Enjoyable.

    I was reading through the stories... and this one is copied and pasted from musicroxyou's, tailored slightly to fit me precisely. I suffered from some traumatic experiences in my life. None of them on their own was particularly awful, but together they destroyed me. One...
    13rznsy 13rznsy 18-21, F 8 Responses Jun 23, 2009

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    Very Recently

    I've realised that emotions are overrated. When there is no love around, no hope, and no peace, why bother with joy? Why bother with caring about other people anymore, when you're the only one that does? When there's nothing to live for, but you are forced to go on, everything...
    Shroomguy Shroomguy 13-15, M Nov 1, 2009

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    I Need A Clear And Correct And Exact Answer That What Should I Do Now? And How To Face The Balance Unwanted Days?

    My story is a long one, and full of tragedy, i briefly telling  it here , as i could not explain the whole thing . My time from my birth is very worst, and I left with two children by my husband  and for past 20 years I have gone through several difficulties to brought...
    mothi mothi 41-45, F 1 Response Aug 14, 2010

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    I am dead inside. 100%!

    Why keep my body going when everything inside me is dead?
    Whoami30 Whoami30 31-35, M 1 Response May 10, 2015

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    .....

    the first time i saw her lying on the sofa, surrounded by my toys, a kids show on in the background, sick dribbling out of her mouth, covered in blood.     when i saw him stumbling through the door at 1am, crying, throwing up, then passing out on the stairs.  ...
    Tesse Tesse 18-21, F Jan 18, 2009

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    It's funny when you're dead,

    people start listening to what you have to say
    Killingmesoftly78 Killingmesoftly78 13-15, F Sep 13, 2015

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    I am not who I used to be

    and I keep telling my mom that. Back then, I used to care about the fundamentals of education, going outside to explore the world, and even go out in public without having no problems at all. But after I died inside when my ex and my sister treated me like real dirt, I am this...
    ILoveBacon23 ILoveBacon23 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    But Now I Am Coming Back To Life

    Feeling life coming back into me, now that I have reduced the conflict in my life and found a special someone that is wanting me to be there. I did die during my marriage and was re-signed to live that fate... But now that I have been liberated from that life and I find myself...
    mtvlm mtvlm 41-45, M 9 Responses Aug 15, 2010

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    Today is a sad day, this morning my dog sadly

    got put to sleep due to having cancer in the stomach, he was 14 years old and I got him when I was just three so we've spend 14 years together and for him to suddenly be gone is so heart breaking to me, I know he's in peace but it's so hard to deal with, I remember the first...
    leahmusic96 leahmusic96 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2013

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    May 2000

    I was attacked & I died that night. Everything that I thought I had gotten back from my abusers, all the dreams I had. All that I was going to do with my life..........Gone in less than a moment. One violent act & I was no longer me. No longer the woman I had worked YEARS...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 10, 2009

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    Awaiting

    Who I was before has died, now I just hold on to that happy nice girl's face I had to masquerade myself so that people accept and think highly of me. I'm still awaiting to let go of that niceness and feel nothing at all.
    AngelsReflection AngelsReflection 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 4, 2010

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    2005

    In the year of 2005 my world came crumbling down. I got into the biggest trouble of my life, my grandmother and aunt died and I was literally a wreck. I didn't eat much, didn't talk to anybody much. I LITERALLY died inside. But, thanks to God, he brought me out of it-and i...
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 5, 2009

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    Have You Ever Thought About It?

     Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren't you anymore? If you were suddenly gone, how would the world react? Whatever you imagined is wrong. There;s nothing romantic about death. Grief is like the Ocean. It's deep and Dark and bigger than all of us. And...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    ...

    I've died inside more than once. When I was a kid and my sister was ill, and now everytime she has a seizure. When I was raped. When I miscarried. When he told me he was going to be a dad. But each time I've managed to come back to myself. Each time, I ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    Part Of My Heart

    At some point on my journey, I faded away little by little. I lost the self I once was. I was once happy & full of life and then the emptiness & loneliness set in. I was greeted by a harsh reality and part of me died inside.   My belief in love, hope, friendship and trust...
    snowbunny1002 snowbunny1002 46-50, F 32 Responses Aug 13, 2010

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    What Doesnt Kill You...

    There's always a reason anything happens to us, i suppose.  What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger - I'm still alive physically, but emotionally i have died many times.  The last time i will never recover from. There is no way i can truly be free knowing that all of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 10, 2009

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    Dead, Emptyness.

    It's like your just a puppet, or your going through the motions. Its the sorrow, anger, and hate eating away at you from the inside. It makes you feel like you're going to vomit out your insides. In my mind, I picture it as me becoming a emotionless doll, with no feeling.
    sujib sujib 18-21, F Jul 29, 2012

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    Shattered Into Pieces

    At some point along the way, I faded little by little. I lost the self I once was. Once so full of life and energy, I became empty. The harsh reality of the world greeted me with full force and a part of me died inside, not knowing how to protect myself. My hope shattered, and I...
    flyingintherain flyingintherain 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 24, 2009

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    i want to die this world going insane.

    ..i don't see good one right now..people are crazy about sex,money,prestigous,career etc..i am stressed out see all of that....i hate it..i wish invisible
    myselfhere myselfhere 22-25, F 2 Responses May 20, 2015

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    In That One Moment

    The moment he mouth spat hate towards me and the moment he touched me to hurt was the moment I died inside.  I have never fully recovered to this day and still there are parts inside of me that have never come back alive.  The pain cuts deeply like a knife...
    tatteredwings tatteredwings 36-40 2 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    We had dated for 2years

    and got a son on the 3rd year.its all i had ever dreamed of,and worked for...for the longest time, and at that point life was bliss.i had the perfect family and it was all fun. Her mother did not like me.because of my religious bacground,i was born a cristian but i stoped...
    mbithi mbithi 26-30, M Dec 2, 2014

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    I died completely this year.

    I was enduring it since my elementary days and from the day we moved countries.
    Fampyu Fampyu 16-17, F Dec 30, 2015

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    A Little Bit a Lot of Times

    they're all too long a stories...  I'll let my title speak for them all.
    rockyj rockyj 31-35, F 9 Responses Feb 12, 2009

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    I Was...

    what seems like forever ago. i was dead to the world. my eyes were an empty view into nothing. no light in or out. back i'm coming back. slowly. with a little help from the right people and other things. and it's a good thing. i'm really starting to feel again.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 4 Responses Jan 17, 2009

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    Monday wasn't a good day and neither was today, my mom keep crying and I can't seem to anymore after yesterday when I broke down at his Small funeral. I feel like a joke in the...
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    I lost my mother a long time ago when I was only 13. I cursed God for the longest time for her death. At that time, I felt like when she died, she took a huge part of me with her...
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    My mum died on the 30th june 2015 at 10 20 am.we was all there befor she passed away her 4 granchildren my brother and my self . But she waited for evry one to go exsept my brother...
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    i hate to show him this side of me. I say i'm fine with every being of mine. I try and mean it i know its not right to lie. It eats me up inside. but i cannot show him that side...
    learellie learellie 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 1

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    This is dedicated to the emptiness I feel inside: ahahhhhhhhhhhh ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh *crying intensifies.......!
    cvlt cvlt 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 1

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    I've been crying on the inside all my life. I cry even more on the outside. I'm just not happy at all. In all honesty if I came across a button that would put me into a permanent...
    ThisStrangeEffect ThisStrangeEffect 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    What do you do when you are being ripped, torn, and killed inside? What is the point of living life half dead? Might as well be fully dead instead of half. Half dead is too painful...
    ThatFallenMer1 ThatFallenMer1 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 28

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    Don't let my expression fool you if I am smiling. The one on my face is transitory and does not reflect what's really going on inside. But then, the one on my face is all anyone...
    Mossonarock Mossonarock 41-45, M Jan 27

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    My 81 year old grandpa died today. I'm kinda not surprised because he's been sick for so long but I'm still very sad about it. I didn't want him to die!!!
    ParanoidGirl ParanoidGirl 26-30 1 Response Jan 26

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    I am married, I have two grow kids, but I would so love to know that I was making a baby inside of a woman that really wanted one. My wife can't have anymore, but I would so love...
    knightsdolive knightsdolive 46-50, M 1 Response Jan 26

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    I won't go into much detail but that's how I feel inside. There is no intimacy or emotion in my life. I am in a stalemate, a quagmire and it way's heavily on my heart. I am...
    bigmountain1 bigmountain1 51-55, M 3 Responses Jan 25

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    After watching "Hotarubi no Mori e" I finally can cry out! thanks, for being a part of my life memories! thanks for hurting me! thanks for teaching me! thanks for everything before...
    kimlys kimlys 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 25

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    I almost died many times in my life. Death has attempted to enter my life through multiple drownings, chokings, car accidents, heights, and last but not lease fire.
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