I Disassociate

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    Another Brick In the Wall.

    I must say I have dissociated so many times I cannot even begin to ... or even remember. Well, I don't remember. The lot of my story is on the BPD, PTSD, and drug addiction forums. I have also experienced psychosis as well. There has been SO many time I have lost...
    EccentricOne EccentricOne
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Apr 22, 2009

    When It Starts Young

     I feel as if I have always disassociated... My entire life.  My years have passed by me and I have remained in the trance like state.  It's when you die at such a young age that makes everything vanish, it makes everything impossible to justify with a right or...
    RedEyeFrog RedEyeFrog
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Oct 26, 2009

    Too Easy

    It's far too easy for me to wander off and leave myself behind.  Much as my Ts are working with me on mindfulness, I struggle.  When this body and mind are hurting too much, why should I stick around?  I'll just go away....and stay a while....be back later....
    Plaid Plaid
    31-35, F
    May 18, 2011

    You Betcha.

    i disassociate my a$$ off. which contributes to my lack of childhood memories. i've written a few stories about that, so i won't cover it again here. but sometimes, psychologically, you've gotta do what you've gotta do. also, wikipedia would be happy to tell you more:http://en...
    journeyfulloflaughter journeyfulloflaughter
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 3, 2008
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    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 20, 2015
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    26-30
    Aug 6, 2015

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    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 25, 2015

    What An Afternoon

    I disassociate. I didn't know there was such a thing. I've been doing it since I was a child. Apparently if things become too much then I leave myself for a while. I could still tell you the month, year, the president or my address but I'm not in my head...Very interesting and it...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    4 Responses Mar 3, 2008
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    26-30
    2 Responses Apr 20, 2015

    Then I get angry and depressed

    because I feel like my life is slipping away.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Mar 15, 2015
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    26-30
    1 Response Apr 15, 2015

    I can do it whenever I want,

    but I can't stop it if I didn't disassociate on purpose
    justbnatural justbnatural
    22-25, M
    Mar 16

    Meltdown

    I had a meltdown today, things boiled over with my living arrangements, I moved back to my parents after not being able to handle my house in the city then it seems things are to hard to handle here,
    levid levid
    31-35, M
    Aug 30, 2013

    You Are Here and I Am Here

    I like to dissasociate. its impersonal. Its, strange. It's liberating... Its bittersweet. Cm
    chairmanmeow chairmanmeow
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 9, 2009

    Cool, Detached, Sadistic... Not Caring Never Felt This Good!

    I love arguments, fights, screaming matches where emotions run rampant. Just when everything seems like it's too much to bear, too overwhelming, something snaps. Cool, smooth, logical detachment rushes over me like a drug. I realize I have no emotional investment in anything, the...
    Phage Phage
    26-30, F
    22 Responses Feb 24, 2009

    There was a point that I didn't

    even feel human. I feel I was nothing. It was odd and it was scary because I had no idea how to fix it. I sometimes feel as though whatever I am experiencing is not humans and I should be taken away and raised somewhere else. I do not feel like a human or any other loving or...
    Saphuu Saphuu
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 13, 2015

    Love Is A Trigger For Me...

    I disassociate…I am not really sure when it began, but I have done this as long as I can remember… I have been diagnosed with several different things, but most of the time this is thought to be from PTSD… The saddest thing for me is that I don’t...
    deleted66 deleted66
    41-45, F
    May 7, 2010

    I've been in a state of oblivion ever

    since I was raped, when I was four. I don't like being left alone with my thoughts I'm either distracting myself with whatever or I'm just numb always just numb.
    bluemoon93 bluemoon93
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 12, 2013

    I Think..

    I think I dissociate.  I think, like the others, I started doing this when I was a child.  I didn't know it until recently (for better or worse) that I experienced a lot of trauma as a child.  A lot of trauma and a lot of undercutting remarks and dysfunction in my...
    outoftheshadows outoftheshadows
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Mar 8, 2008

    Going Crazy Here.

    As always, unreachable. Disassociated.
    imustbecrazy imustbecrazy
    18-21
    Feb 11, 2010

    Un Controllable Disassociation

    I have a complicated childhood, abuse, split parents that hate each other (my mum had an affair with my now step dad). This lead to my self and my cousins abusing drugs and alcohol. One of my cousins is now dead from a heroin overdose, this I no is due to a long downward spiral...
    levid levid
    31-35, M
    1 Response Aug 20, 2013

    Live In A Far Away Land...

    I dissossociate. ITs like floating and sinking at the same time. You dotn know whats going on and everything takes the utter most concentration... which you typically dont have. You lose track of time. Each breath is counted. You hand suddenly becomes like the most interesting...
    Lilibuth12 Lilibuth12
    18-21, F
    May 18, 2010

    It's Mild Now...

    but i have been dissociating for nearly my whole life.  This is very clear because there are months at a time in my recent life, and years in my distant past that i cant recall. things i should know that i have no clue about. In college whenever I'd get seriously stressed I...
    Shierke Shierke
    26-30, F
    Mar 27, 2008

    Do I Disassociate? Or Am I Just Immature?

    I often find myself worrying about my intelligence-- or lack of it. I graduated from high school & college, but I'm starting to wonder if there isn't something seriously wrong with me... I graduated as valedictorian. I'm not saying that to brag, merely just to point out that it's...
    hidingout hidingout
    22-25, F
    Feb 2, 2011

    Disassociating Is Scarey As Dying

    THE LAST TIME I DISASSOCIATED WAS JUST LAST NIGHT IM STILL SOO FREAKED OUT ABOUT IT AND STILL TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW I GOT TO WHERE I FOUND MYSELF AND WHAT ALLL HAPPENED DURING THE LOST TIME BUT THANK GOD IM SAFE NOW AND AM HOME
    KEMOJO KEMOJO
    46-50, F
    Jan 31, 2013
    GiannaFlorence GiannaFlorence
    36-40, F
    1 Response Aug 9, 2015
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