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I Do Not Want Any More Pain In My Life

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 776 People

    I Have Had Too Much For One Lifetime

    i watched one of my brothers die as a toddler,watched my family go through years of pure h***,ate from garbage bens,nearly died twice.i watched all the ones outside of my mom and dad act as though i was less than human.had my fatheer have a complete breakdown right in front of me...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 8 Responses May 30, 2009

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    This pain that i have is wen i was abused by my

    mother , :/ just cant forget bout it , it hurts just thinking bout it , i wish i could take this pain away already , Another thing is wen i was with my ex bf he used to hit me , call me names , Another thing is wen i date guys , and i get all illusional and it sucks because...
    Ddghhtddghyg Ddghhtddghyg 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 23

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    I have a solution. Build a wall around your

    emotions so that everyone can't play with them like putty and you watch as they do so. Second, create doors and tunnels so that the right people may come in and engage with your emotions the way you want them too. However regulate those doors and be prepared to shut them off if...
    vfsghhju vfsghhju 46-50, T 1 Response Mar 8

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    I Just Want to Move Out From Mother In Law House

    I JUST WANT TO MOVE OUT FROM MY MOTHER IN LAWS HOUSE . EVERY DAY FOR THE PASSED 4 MONTHS OR SO ITS BEEN NICE ITS REALLY BEEN NICE BUT I REALLY WANT OUT YEAH SHES BEEN NICE BUT EVERY DAY I HAVE TO FAKE SMILE AND SAY GOOD MORNING ALWAYS REMINDED HOW SHES USED US. AND WHAT DID WE...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 5 Responses Dec 26, 2008

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    I m mistake many thing in my life

    and I couldn't return something . I have to move on in my future and keep everything That I want to apologize in my soul even thought how I want to apologize.I m run away it when I thought about something That I mistake in the pass and I hope someone forgave me as I want do...
    nimkansiri nimkansiri 22-25, F Mar 9

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    Was That My Fault?

    Living together for 3 year not make me more happy. I wanna have a real familly, husband & kids. But after i left all ( work & familly ) to move to "his"  country, untill now i fill useless. He still no word for "marry" me. No kids. No job, because my languange where i live now...
    piffi piffi 36-40 Feb 22, 2012

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    Hurdling Over The Pain Slowly But Surely

    everything started on May 2009, when I just met my first boyfriend. We were 2 complete strangers who found a little chemistry in each others, and so our relationship began to grow and blossom. It was not the best start for my first relationship since it was a long distance, but...
    sadgirl1990 sadgirl1990 18-21, F Feb 9, 2010

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    Enoughhhhhh Is Enough

    All my life is pain and suffering i  seek happiness in small things too but now its too much no smile,no happiness,no peace just everlasting pain,i m stuck in a cage of unlimited pain i just want to escape is want to be free, i cann't run away leaving everything behind ,cann't...
    evilkilllingme evilkilllingme 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 22, 2012

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    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 1 Response Mar 22

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    Hate Myself

    hiii! i'm a 11th grade student ,preparing for iit-jee.....i daily study zero hours while i'm supposed to study 6hours a day i have no will power and self displine..! i always keep on searching ways to improve myself , on google.com every night i scold myself for wasting time all...
    sumit0008 sumit0008 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 10, 2010

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    Pain No More:)

    No more pain for this girl,thats' done.
    angelwithoutwings angelwithoutwings 26-30, F May 16, 2011

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    End It

    I don't know why I bothered coming to this site, because I feel like I've been trying to reach out for someone to help me not hate life so much for as long as I've lived and no one ever really reaches back. Posting my story would just be another waste of time and energy...
    AbandonedArchangel AbandonedArchangel 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 19, 2010

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    Enough Pain Already

    I have had enough pain for one life already. I am 18 yrs old. Found my family mostly by myself. Have a sister whod doesn't want to know me even. I just started smoking again recently. I am afraid to go out in public anymore as I get overwhelmed with emotions...
    kthimm1 kthimm1 18-21, F 1 Response May 30, 2009

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    I have had enough pain,

    time to be happy for once
    anneloves anneloves 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    Lostm Self Through Existence

    to put it simply... no father, no love, all the talent in the world.. but its all wasted......
    lost00 lost00 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 11, 2009

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    Perfect For A Lifetime Movie

    I'm an orphan. Both my parents were abusive when they were alive. So, having them gone isnt the worst thing in the world. My father would beat me, and tried to kill me on several occasions. My mother thought her children were rivals, and sought to destroy them without any thought...
    SullenDreamer SullenDreamer 26-30 2 Responses Sep 5, 2011

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    Trying To Move On

    i dont know how to start .. hmmm. well i am a single mom here in philippines i stop in school because i got pregnant ,i love to make friends with different people blah blah blah...  , well i guess i have so much pain inside me that i really want to  forget it but ...
    rollercoastergirl rollercoastergirl 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 19, 2010

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    An Unfullfilled Dream

    To face a day without pain of one form or another is not somthing I see in my future. It hang's over my head as an unfullfilled dream.
    Robert1256 Robert1256 51-55, M Sep 12, 2010

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    Pain and I

    Hi my name is jennyc...and I have encounterd so much pain in my life, seens childhood that I don't want anymore pain in my life....I need to learn to let go, and try to live my life to the fullest,But I feel that sometimes it's hard to do specially when you have been hurt so bad...
    jennyc jennyc 41-45, F 3 Responses Sep 25, 2009

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    I am sick of Pain!!!!

    ! I've tried everything and I still have a lingering week and a half migraine. My nervous system is hyper sensitive so I shake, I bruise and it hurts to be touched at all! My neck and back have huge knots that can never be worked out because of my CNS along with the herniated...
    WarriorPrincess862 WarriorPrincess862 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 22, 2014

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    "the Choice About Living With Neufribromatosis Pain"..............

    Often dealing with my health problems.....I see myself sitting on the small ledge tucked away on the side of a moutain. Beneath me is the endless abyss of darkness and fear. So deep it takes my breath away. There is only a small branch to hold on to and there are days I am...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F Aug 12, 2011

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    Had Too Much

    Things just haven't gone the way I planned them to. 2007 was the worst year of my life and I promised that 2008 would be much better. Well, it was definatly better, but it should be much better than this cause I don't feel that much better than I did before. My faith in love is...
    SoMuchToSay SoMuchToSay 36-40, M 2 Responses Jul 20, 2008

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    I used to think my life was filled with pain.

    Once upon a time, I believed that all of my problems were going to kill me. The pain of heartbreak- my boyfriend falling for somebody else. The pain of rejection- I got cut from the team. The pain of humiliation- being ridiculed week in and week out for my dental issues, my...
    itsaggggthang itsaggggthang 26-30, F Mar 8

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    thelittlemonster thelittlemonster 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 8

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    Pain=Life

    Sometimes in life we have to experinece pain and hardship. I have decided today I will divorce all the pain from the past and work towards bettering myself as a person. I will make positive changes and choices for my family. Pain shoo..out the door.. U are no longer welcomed in...
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 8, 2008

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    Pain No More^^

    For a good portion of my life, I shared the perspective of those who rail against God for allowing pain. I could find no way to rationalize a world as toxic as this one. As I visited people whose pain far exceeded my own, though, I was surprised by its effects. Suffering...
    maeevan maeevan 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 12, 2011

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    Feeling Hopeless...

    i feel hopeless for myself , i dont have job while all my relatives are giving me no hope in helping me to find job, then my parent are telling me to look for a job but i can't because i know employers will turn me down like i've tried so many times before.. (and being rejected...
    shadowintears shadowintears 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 4, 2010

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    This Is Making Me Strong...

    Over and over i have been pressed down by people with a point to prove yet its helping me face facts about things in my life that i never really thought much about,all i have ever done is block things out by smoking my head off and trying not to face the reality of whats going...
    nuttyrocker nuttyrocker 26-30, F Mar 7, 2010

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    We Can Chose

    To be happy, or unhappy. I have learned through the years that it is up to me how i look at things.. It is so easy to look at the bad, and fall into the negative thought patterns.. to sink into the oblivion of depression... After so much of this it can be very difficult to get...
    simplysubmissive simplysubmissive 46-50, F 2 Responses Sep 13, 2010

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    It Just Doesn't Seem to Stop

    Why does it seem like painful things seem to happen all at once.  Is it a test?  Is it meant to test your strength and resilience, see how much you can handle without breaking?  Is it just me this happens to hit?  This year started out...
    rhettbuttler69 rhettbuttler69 61-65, M 5 Responses Apr 5, 2009

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    I have tried an tried again to be what he wants.

    I can never be. The moment I have any happiness. He has to crush it. Why do I not just go away? Six foot under cant be that bad. No hurt, no chest crushing pain, no loneliness, no more being not enough. All I ever wanted was to love and be loved. Why is that to much? Why am I...
    Txwoman123 Txwoman123 41-45, F Feb 22

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    Dear Brother

    you took something from me something that i didn't want to share why did you take something that wasn't for you to take from seven years old to ten years old i always knew something was wrong you were so evil to me you had no disregard if i was sick as dog or well and kicking i...
    CowardlyMistakes CowardlyMistakes 18-21, F Dec 31, 2012

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    I was in a car accident a couple of weeks ago. And instead of thanking God to be alive - I questioned why he kept me here in mental(emotional) pain. When there are so many people...
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    I just realized I only have one year left of high school.... And I haven't done anything I want to. I want to be a dramatic person- not like school drama but just Radical and...
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    The love in you're eyes, now turned to glass The tender in you're kiss, is now long past The charm in you're smile, now turned to hate The embrace of you're arms, is now not my...
    traceyannmay traceyannmay 22-25, F 3 Responses May 4

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    Suddenly i feel like all this damn inner world of mine is a huge wound, i want to cry but i can't, i wish i could cry, i hate myself
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    I have a mother who is emotionally abusive, lacks reason and I suspect she has bipolar disorder. She injects nothing but negativity in my life and I have told her numerous times...
    organizedmadness organizedmadness 41-45, F Apr 26

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    I am blessed I have 5 beautiful kids a loving devoted partner, but I want more I want to get out there and see the world and find myself again, I want to do something else I love.
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 23