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I Do Not Want Any More Pain In My Life

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 506 People

    Hate Myself

    hiii! i'm a 11th grade student ,preparing for iit-jee.....i daily study zero hours while i'm supposed to study 6hours a day i have no will power and self displine..! i always keep on searching ways to improve myself , on google.com every night i scold myself for wasting time all...
    sumit0008 sumit0008 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 10, 2010

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    Pain No More:)

    No more pain for this girl,thats' done.
    angelwithoutwings angelwithoutwings 26-30, F May 16, 2011

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    Enough Pain Already

    I have had enough pain for one life already. I am 18 yrs old. Found my family mostly by myself. Have a sister whod doesn't want to know me even. I just started smoking again recently. I am afraid to go out in public anymore as I get overwhelmed with emotions...
    kthimm1 kthimm1 18-21, F 1 Response May 30, 2009

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    End It

    I don't know why I bothered coming to this site, because I feel like I've been trying to reach out for someone to help me not hate life so much for as long as I've lived and no one ever really reaches back. Posting my story would just be another waste of time and energy...
    AbandonedArchangel AbandonedArchangel 26-30, M 1 Response Jun 19, 2010

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    This Is Making Me Strong...

    Over and over i have been pressed down by people with a point to prove yet its helping me face facts about things in my life that i never really thought much about,all i have ever done is block things out by smoking my head off and trying not to face the reality of whats going...
    nuttyrocker nuttyrocker 26-30, F Mar 7, 2010

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    I Just Want to Move Out From Mother In Law House

    I JUST WANT TO MOVE OUT FROM MY MOTHER IN LAWS HOUSE . EVERY DAY FOR THE PASSED 4 MONTHS OR SO ITS BEEN NICE ITS REALLY BEEN NICE BUT I REALLY WANT OUT YEAH SHES BEEN NICE BUT EVERY DAY I HAVE TO FAKE SMILE AND SAY GOOD MORNING ALWAYS REMINDED HOW SHES USED US. AND WHAT DID WE...
    lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 5 Responses Dec 26, 2008

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    Enoughhhhhh Is Enough

    All my life is pain and suffering i  seek happiness in small things too but now its too much no smile,no happiness,no peace just everlasting pain,i m stuck in a cage of unlimited pain i just want to escape is want to be free, i cann't run away leaving everything behind ,cann't...
    evilkilllingme evilkilllingme 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 22, 2012

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    It Just Doesn't Seem to Stop

    Why does it seem like painful things seem to happen all at once.  Is it a test?  Is it meant to test your strength and resilience, see how much you can handle without breaking?  Is it just me this happens to hit?  This year started out...
    rhettbuttler69 rhettbuttler69 61-65, M 5 Responses Apr 5, 2009

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    Pain and I

    Hi my name is jennyc...and I have encounterd so much pain in my life, seens childhood that I don't want anymore pain in my life....I need to learn to let go, and try to live my life to the fullest,But I feel that sometimes it's hard to do specially when you have been hurt so bad...
    jennyc jennyc 41-45, F 3 Responses Sep 25, 2009

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    Had Too Much

    Things just haven't gone the way I planned them to. 2007 was the worst year of my life and I promised that 2008 would be much better. Well, it was definatly better, but it should be much better than this cause I don't feel that much better than I did before. My faith in love is...
    SoMuchToSay SoMuchToSay 36-40, M 2 Responses Jul 20, 2008

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    "the Choice About Living With Neufribromatosis Pain"..............

    Often dealing with my health problems.....I see myself sitting on the small ledge tucked away on the side of a moutain. Beneath me is the endless abyss of darkness and fear. So deep it takes my breath away. There is only a small branch to hold on to and there are days I am...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F Aug 12, 2011

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    To Whom It May Concern

    Ok, whoevers up there listening, this is for you........... I think i've had enough of life's kickings now....31 yrs to be exact....and yeah, it has been from the day i was born. I know i've had my pain threshold tested on numerous occasions......even while i'm writing this i...
    Evernight Evernight 31-35, F 9 Responses Jan 1, 2010

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    I am sick of Pain!!!!

    ! I've tried everything and I still have a lingering week and a half migraine. My nervous system is hyper sensitive so I shake, I bruise and it hurts to be touched at all! My neck and back have huge knots that can never be worked out because of my CNS along with the herniated...
    WarriorPrincess862 WarriorPrincess862 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 22, 2014

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    We Can Chose

    To be happy, or unhappy. I have learned through the years that it is up to me how i look at things.. It is so easy to look at the bad, and fall into the negative thought patterns.. to sink into the oblivion of depression... After so much of this it can be very difficult to get...
    simplysubmissive simplysubmissive 46-50, F 2 Responses Sep 13, 2010

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    I Have Had Too Much For One Lifetime

    i watched one of my brothers die as a toddler,watched my family go through years of pure h***,ate from garbage bens,nearly died twice.i watched all the ones outside of my mom and dad act as though i was less than human.had my fatheer have a complete breakdown right in front of me...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 8 Responses May 30, 2009

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    Lostm Self Through Existence

    to put it simply... no father, no love, all the talent in the world.. but its all wasted......
    lost00 lost00 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 11, 2009

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    Trying To Move On

    i dont know how to start .. hmmm. well i am a single mom here in philippines i stop in school because i got pregnant ,i love to make friends with different people blah blah blah...  , well i guess i have so much pain inside me that i really want to  forget it but ...
    rollercoastergirl rollercoastergirl 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 19, 2010

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    Perfect For A Lifetime Movie

    I'm an orphan. Both my parents were abusive when they were alive. So, having them gone isnt the worst thing in the world. My father would beat me, and tried to kill me on several occasions. My mother thought her children were rivals, and sought to destroy them without any thought...
    SullenDreamer SullenDreamer 26-30 2 Responses Sep 5, 2011

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    Hurdling Over The Pain Slowly But Surely

    everything started on May 2009, when I just met my first boyfriend. We were 2 complete strangers who found a little chemistry in each others, and so our relationship began to grow and blossom. It was not the best start for my first relationship since it was a long distance, but...
    sadgirl1990 sadgirl1990 18-21, F Feb 9, 2010

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    An Unfullfilled Dream

    To face a day without pain of one form or another is not somthing I see in my future. It hang's over my head as an unfullfilled dream.
    Robert1256 Robert1256 51-55, M Sep 12, 2010

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    Pain No More^^

    For a good portion of my life, I shared the perspective of those who rail against God for allowing pain. I could find no way to rationalize a world as toxic as this one. As I visited people whose pain far exceeded my own, though, I was surprised by its effects. Suffering...
    maeevan maeevan 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 12, 2011

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    Pain=Life

    Sometimes in life we have to experinece pain and hardship. I have decided today I will divorce all the pain from the past and work towards bettering myself as a person. I will make positive changes and choices for my family. Pain shoo..out the door.. U are no longer welcomed in...
    MiseducatedChik MiseducatedChik 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 8, 2008

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    Was That My Fault?

    Living together for 3 year not make me more happy. I wanna have a real familly, husband & kids. But after i left all ( work & familly ) to move to "his"  country, untill now i fill useless. He still no word for "marry" me. No kids. No job, because my languange where i live now...
    piffi piffi 36-40 Feb 22, 2012

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    Dear Brother

    you took something from me something that i didn't want to share why did you take something that wasn't for you to take from seven years old to ten years old i always knew something was wrong you were so evil to me you had no disregard if i was sick as dog or well and kicking i...
    CowardlyMistakes CowardlyMistakes 18-21, F Dec 31, 2012

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    Feeling Hopeless...

    i feel hopeless for myself , i dont have job while all my relatives are giving me no hope in helping me to find job, then my parent are telling me to look for a job but i can't because i know employers will turn me down like i've tried so many times before.. (and being rejected...
    shadowintears shadowintears 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 4, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    im just ranting and im depressed always and constantly feel lonely no matter what I always feel im a bother no matter, I guess im just upset I had to cut down a tree now my whole...
    poeticnightmare poeticnightmare 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    Most painful life experience... Not being able to be with the one you love, having to wait for so long to finally be with that person..! I just hope the wait is worth it!
    Unbroken831 Unbroken831 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    why is that, am i that stupid or naive that i can't understand simple rules and manners of daily routines. i argue with myself all the time that its all my fault that i am not...
    furmal furmal 26-30 Jan 8

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    And this seems to be the only explanation I can offer up as to why I quiver and shake in my solitude, and in the presence of the very thought of you. You introduced yourself by...
    persayous persayous 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 17

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    I feel like all i do nowadays is annoy everybody I talk to. Im doing nothing productive with my life. I probably wont ever find a job even after i take these classes. Nobody really...
    cat1024 cat1024 18-21, M 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    My Top 3 Most Painful Experiences 1. Putting hot glue on my thumb nail. (Young and stupid) 2. Spilling boiling water on myself. (Today; 1st degree burn..) 3. The random Ice Pick...
    MysticIllusions MysticIllusions 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 12

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    Youd have to ask a psychiatrist . Pain is pain .
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 13

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    I think the hardest experience of my life so far was when my mother died. It's been just over four years. The first year I cried everyday... Then slowly it was every other day then...
    Borabudur Borabudur 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 14

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    I grew up with it it's all I know everyday of my life filled with fright pain hurt no matter what so I make my self suffer by causing pain to my person I can't stop
    Wolfy14 Wolfy14 13-15, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    One time I did a thing to my neck that resulted in me not being able to move it for 3 weeks without extreme pain and once I ripped a tendon in my finger and ****** it up enough...
    FuckingFlamingo FuckingFlamingo 18-21, M Jan 13

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    I was raped in September 2013. That night instead of seeking help I went home and pretended nothing happened. A day later I broke down. The attack has left me in fear but it also...
    edkelly2k edkelly2k 31-35, M 2 Responses Jan 13

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    I was raped by my boyfriend and he thought he did nothing wrong it happened for a year when I was 14 now I'm 17 and still have nightmares to this day... Any suggestions on how to...
    Devonbaby Devonbaby 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 14

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    Ever feel like you aren't truly living up to your potential. That there is more to your life than clocking in and punching out. My greatest fear is to die unsatisfied with my life...
    Acirem Acirem 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 17

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    Life is a beautiful gift. Even through all of the problems and struggles, life can be gorgeous when we step back, take our minds away from our daily lives, and just enjoy the...
    Lala365 Lala365 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 21

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    What was the use of making me feel loved and caring. I told you u were all I ******* had and u left me!!# why couldn't u tell me u didn't want me anymore why leave me with no...
    Lovelyk117 Lovelyk117 13-15, F Jan 20

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    My son was PTSD due to sexual abuse done by a relative. I found about after he had a flash back on vacation. I found him near death once and I feel like I can never really get...
    reydog reydog 46-50, F 2 Responses Jan 10

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    Every time she sees me getting by, either with education or weight loss, or be it anything positive, she hurts me, beats me, and spites me... She literally broke apart my family's...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    I dont want to kill myself but im here for anyone who needs to talk
    25ImBeth 25ImBeth 41-45, F Jan 2

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    i CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!! being a grown up is soo much harder than i thought!!! im in soo much debt than my *** is worth! just want to disappear! :'(
    ashworrell ashworrell 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    2015's here and I still don't know how to twerk. I therefore believe that twerking will change my life :D
    SweeterThanToblerone SweeterThanToblerone 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    Sometimes when the things of this life threatening the very core of the spiritual being you have become: And someone whispers, "do you love em now?".( after a terrible deed) Guess...
    mommaceitta mommaceitta 51-55, F Jan 11

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    So much worrying, I wanted to go in a car, drive off and rear end someone so hard.
    mynameispaul23 mynameispaul23 18-21, M 4 days ago

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    I feel so disgusted, alone and I want to go back to self harming... Striving to be perfect is really hard yet worth it I know! -Food's my worst enemy -Exercise until exhaustion...
    exhuberantviolet exhuberantviolet 18-21, F Jan 5