I Don't Exist

That I don't matter. I keep trying to and sometimes get to a point that I think I do. Then whenever I show just a little self esteem it comes crashing back to me that I am different from other people and I have to stay in the shadows...

I'm not even in my right state of mind right now, so this is just rambling. I'm not even concentrating. This won't make any sense.

I've been in the military for almost a year now, and I've always knew I never mattered to anyone before...

I sense others
solitude
as sweetness,
yet in mine i
sense an in-
-completeness.

I am invisible. I do not exist outside of my own mind. I am just a figment of your imagination. Do not speak to the imaginary person standing next to you as you critisize her every being, laughing at what is left of her soul... It...

Not such a bad thing, seeming how it takes the pressure off of many things.... Don't know when it started, maybe its an obvious consequence of losing interest in everything and alienating myself from people... I am severed from...

I don't exist, It is true. I am just a picture in your mind based on whatever limited sense of knowledge you have about me and your emotional reaction to those vague images. It doesn't really matter if you met me once in passing or if...

He's only half, on my mom's side. He had it rough as a kid and uses it as an excuse to completely ignore me. He had to go overseas when I was in high school. I sometimes wish he had died there and spare me these negative thoughts that...

When I look in the mirror I see all these eyes and mouth and stuff, and when I look into my past I see all these actions, friends, enemies, events, etc. I'm nothing of that. I'm freedom, I'm consciousness. I'm the will to do or not even...

I no longer exist thanks to antidepressants, which have completely destroyed my soul. Here is my story:

EP Link

and so I write a quick triolet
to prove to myself that I can write,
but not of daffodil or violet.

and so I write a quick triolet,
softly spun and without violence
that marrs many an inkless night.

and so I write a quick triolet
to...

Now i normaly feel this way but right now it is really bothering me because right now i am on this website that i go on and u can chat with people and see them. This guy that was trying to be friends wit and i were talking then all of a...

In this world I am nothing. :'(

after a year of deep and meaningful thought i reached the conclusion that i do not exist, simply due to the fact that this illusion of existence is so pointless and painful that if it was real i wont be able to cope with it. it may not...

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The thought of a ME that exists. Is only a thought that is happening RIGHT NOW.
there is actually no ME in reality.
Its like this,
the thought of a unicorn appears, does that make the unicorn itself exist in reality
no
the only thing...