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I Don't Exist

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    Fawlessly Orchestrated Illusion

    I don't exist, It is true. I am just a picture in your mind based on whatever limited sense of knowledge you have about me and your emotional reaction to those vague images. It doesn't really matter if you met me once in passing or if you are my lover, for no matter how elaborate...
    CopperCoil CopperCoil 36-40, M 6 Responses Jul 11, 2008

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    Seriously

    Not such a bad thing, seeming how it takes the pressure off of many things.... Don't know when it started, maybe its an obvious consequence of losing interest in everything and alienating myself from people... I am severed from everything and my life is just that...a life, not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 12, 2011

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    Nothing

    In this world I am nothing. :'(
    Haruhi16 Haruhi16 16-17 2 Responses Sep 7, 2012

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    There In No Me In Reality, And There Is No You Either

    The thought of a ME that exists. Is only a thought that is happening RIGHT NOW. there is actually no ME in reality. Its like this, the thought of a unicorn appears, does that make the unicorn itself exist in reality no the only thing that exists in reality is the THOUGHT of a...
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 9 Responses Jan 2, 2011

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    LIke I Was Never There

    Now i normaly feel this way but right now it is really bothering me because right now i am on this website that i go on and u can chat with people and see them. This guy that was trying to be friends wit and i were talking then all of a sudden more people come in and i dont exist...
    Darkfarey Darkfarey 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 25, 2009

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    The Mind's I Does Not Appear In The Mirror

    When I look in the mirror I see all these eyes and mouth and stuff, and when I look into my past I see all these actions, friends, enemies, events, etc. I'm nothing of that. I'm freedom, I'm consciousness. I'm the will to do or not even try. I'm the consciousness that allows for...
    SeaofThought SeaofThought 36-40, M Nov 18, 2010

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    The one I was doesn't exist And never did He's

    dead, like they all are I'm empty And I can't prove my existence
    Xnow Xnow 16-17, M Sep 10, 2014

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    I Get Mad At Myself Because I Still Can't Get It Though My Head

    That I don't matter. I keep trying to and sometimes get to a point that I think I do. Then whenever I show just a little self esteem it comes crashing back to me that I am different from other people and I have to stay in the shadows and just go along in life being a doormat...
    GiGiLafoo GiGiLafoo 46-50, F Mar 13, 2010

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    On Being Nowhere

    As I walked upon the stair, I met a girl who wasn't there. She wasn't there again today, gee I wish she'd go away.
    will999 will999 61-65, M Jul 27, 2013

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    Invisible...

    I am invisible. I do not exist outside of my own mind. I am just a figment of your imagination. Do not speak to the imaginary person standing next to you as you critisize her every being, laughing at what is left of her soul... It won't hurt anyone.. For I do not exist
    FolsomOrchid FolsomOrchid 26-30, F Jul 31, 2008

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    Where Am I?

    The eyes they will see The nose it will smell The toungue it will taste The ears they hear well But where am I? The brain it will think The mouth it will talk The heart it will sing These legs they will walk but amongst all of these I see no me
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 28, 2011

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    Antidepressants Erased My Soul

    I no longer exist thanks to antidepressants, which have completely destroyed my soul. Here is my story: EP Link
    DeVoid DeVoid 31-35, M May 2, 2011

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    Thats the One

    after a year of deep and meaningful thought i reached the conclusion that i do not exist, simply due to the fact that this illusion of existence is so pointless and painful that if it was real i wont be able to cope with it. it may not be sane but it works.
    Arktos Arktos 16-17, M Mar 25, 2008

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    My Brother

    He's only half, on my mom's side. He had it rough as a kid and uses it as an excuse to completely ignore me. He had to go overseas when I was in high school. I sometimes wish he had died there and spare me these negative thoughts that are overwhelming.
    Bridgernin Bridgernin 22-25, F 1 Response May 27, 2012

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    I Don't Have A Life... Therefore I Don't Exist

    I'm not even in my right state of mind right now, so this is just rambling. I'm not even concentrating. This won't make any sense. I've been in the military for almost a year now, and I've always knew I never mattered to anyone before then. It wasn't until now that I just don't...
    jf31 jf31 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 20, 2011

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    Je N'existe Pas...

    car je suis le vide . . . . . . .
    Vide Vide 18-21, M Nov 27, 2007

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    When I was young I grew up taking people at face value, believing what I was told and treating everyone like a new friend. Sadly, the world isn't quite as rose tinted as Disney...
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    I speak my mind I'm cold and blunt by most definitions if I don't like u il say it to you're face simple as that but this makes it hard well I don't even do it on purpose it's just...
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    I don't give a **** really. I'm too busy focusing on my life and trying to be happy. If you like girls, dudes or trans then that's your business and your life. You're living to...
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    I had an epiphany today. Already. 7:30 in the mornin! I hadn't wanted to move on before (past few months) because it's scary. I didn't know what was ahead, what would happen in my...
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    I guess I don't understand why this group exists. Why would anyone say this to someone if it wasn't true? To get what you want and then hurt them? Some people in this world are...
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    In a literal sense, sometimes I don't feel real. I feel like I'm without substance and my entire life is really just a dream I'm having in another person's sleep. I sometimes...
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    Whenever I think of connecting with my father, I make sure to make myself see how much he doesn’t deserve it, because you know what? My life is already empty of any love and I...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    I agree. I don't really think about my gender often unless it comes up in debate or discussion. In fact, I prefer to base my identity around other things that don't relate to...
    LittleMidnight LittleMidnight 18-21 1 Response 5 days ago

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    This evening was talking with my hubby and I tried to tell him I have been feeling really suicidal of late. Tried a few times now... I don't know how to approach it as I have had...
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    It's not that I'm not happy with my life, I have great friends and family, but I truly do not understand why I exist. I don't know why anyone on this planet exists. Why should I...
    sociallyunacceptable sociallyunacceptable 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    I have a lot of say rn so idk if it'll be really long or not. So basically I'll just be talking to myself I guess. I'm confused. Who tf am I. I need to get my life together, stop...
    kidLeftInTheDark kidLeftInTheDark 13-15, F 4 Responses Aug 26

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    I'm tired of putting myself out there and being kicked around.. I'm married with 2 beautiful girls. My husband ignores me. I have to ask for any kind of affection and I rarely get...
    HarleighQuinn007 HarleighQuinn007 31-35, F 6 Responses Aug 25

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    my family believe in them so much but i don't at all, i just want to wear my hair a certain way and dress a certain way, but they have such a problem with it.
    aohana aohana 13-15, M 1 Response Aug 25

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    I just found out something... Something that broke my heart. Something that keeps me sad for days. Someone who has a place in my heart just blocked me... I don't know what is he...
    JustAnotherGirlOnEP JustAnotherGirlOnEP 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 22

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    Imagine falling madly in love, and then having a child. Is it reasonable to force your infant to choose a political party? And if they don't choose yours you disown them as your...
    Taynk Taynk 18-21, M 5 Responses Aug 22

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    My parents (actually my mom because I don't talk to my dad so much) say that they love my sister and I equally but they don't. It's clear to me that my mom likes my sister more...
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    He's back so many times I have wished for him to come back so many times I prayed for the second chance to love him so many times I cried for it will never gonna happen so many...
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