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I Don't Exist

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    There In No Me In Reality, And There Is No You Either

    The thought of a ME that exists. Is only a thought that is happening RIGHT NOW. there is actually no ME in reality. Its like this, the thought of a unicorn appears, does that make the unicorn itself exist in reality no the only thing that exists in reality is the THOUGHT of a...
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 9 Responses Jan 2, 2011

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    Je N'existe Pas...

    car je suis le vide . . . . . . .
    Vide Vide 18-21, M Nov 27, 2007

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    I Get Mad At Myself Because I Still Can't Get It Though My Head

    That I don't matter. I keep trying to and sometimes get to a point that I think I do. Then whenever I show just a little self esteem it comes crashing back to me that I am different from other people and I have to stay in the shadows and just go along in life being a doormat...
    GiGiLafoo GiGiLafoo 46-50, F Mar 13, 2010

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    The Mind's I Does Not Appear In The Mirror

    When I look in the mirror I see all these eyes and mouth and stuff, and when I look into my past I see all these actions, friends, enemies, events, etc. I'm nothing of that. I'm freedom, I'm consciousness. I'm the will to do or not even try. I'm the consciousness that allows for...
    SeaofThought SeaofThought 36-40, M Nov 18, 2010

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    Antidepressants Erased My Soul

    I no longer exist thanks to antidepressants, which have completely destroyed my soul. Here is my story: EP Link
    DeVoid DeVoid 31-35, M May 2, 2011

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    Where Am I?

    The eyes they will see The nose it will smell The toungue it will taste The ears they hear well But where am I? The brain it will think The mouth it will talk The heart it will sing These legs they will walk but amongst all of these I see no me
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 28, 2011

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    The one I was doesn't exist And never did He's

    dead, like they all are I'm empty And I can't prove my existence
    Xnow Xnow 16-17, M Sep 10, 2014

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    My Brother

    He's only half, on my mom's side. He had it rough as a kid and uses it as an excuse to completely ignore me. He had to go overseas when I was in high school. I sometimes wish he had died there and spare me these negative thoughts that are overwhelming.
    Bridgernin Bridgernin 22-25, F 1 Response May 27, 2012

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    LIke I Was Never There

    Now i normaly feel this way but right now it is really bothering me because right now i am on this website that i go on and u can chat with people and see them. This guy that was trying to be friends wit and i were talking then all of a sudden more people come in and i dont exist...
    Darkfarey Darkfarey 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 25, 2009

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    Invisible...

    I am invisible. I do not exist outside of my own mind. I am just a figment of your imagination. Do not speak to the imaginary person standing next to you as you critisize her every being, laughing at what is left of her soul... It won't hurt anyone.. For I do not exist
    FolsomOrchid FolsomOrchid 26-30, F Jul 31, 2008

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    Nothing

    In this world I am nothing. :'(
    Haruhi16 Haruhi16 16-17 2 Responses Sep 7, 2012

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    Seriously

    Not such a bad thing, seeming how it takes the pressure off of many things.... Don't know when it started, maybe its an obvious consequence of losing interest in everything and alienating myself from people... I am severed from everything and my life is just that...a life, not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 12, 2011

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    Thats the One

    after a year of deep and meaningful thought i reached the conclusion that i do not exist, simply due to the fact that this illusion of existence is so pointless and painful that if it was real i wont be able to cope with it. it may not be sane but it works.
    Arktos Arktos 16-17, M Mar 25, 2008

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    I Don't Have A Life... Therefore I Don't Exist

    I'm not even in my right state of mind right now, so this is just rambling. I'm not even concentrating. This won't make any sense. I've been in the military for almost a year now, and I've always knew I never mattered to anyone before then. It wasn't until now that I just don't...
    jf31 jf31 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 20, 2011

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    On Being Nowhere

    As I walked upon the stair, I met a girl who wasn't there. She wasn't there again today, gee I wish she'd go away.
    will999 will999 61-65, M Jul 27, 2013

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    Fawlessly Orchestrated Illusion

    I don't exist, It is true. I am just a picture in your mind based on whatever limited sense of knowledge you have about me and your emotional reaction to those vague images. It doesn't really matter if you met me once in passing or if you are my lover, for no matter how elaborate...
    CopperCoil CopperCoil 36-40, M 6 Responses Jul 11, 2008

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    My feelings are hurt, and I am telling it how I feel, but I really don't believe someone Like you, can love someone like me, hell, i don't think anyone can love someone like me...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 1 hr ago

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    Not Anymore.... I am not going to wear myself thin, and go out of my way to be there for my friends in their time of need, when, it comes that I need them for one reason or...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 2 hrs ago

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    I hate when people think they understand my situation or try to downplay my feelings as if they have the fcking right. THAT ****** me off, you don't KNOW me unless I let you in and...
    xBlackyChan xBlackyChan 22-25, M 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I hate when people feel the need to tell me they don't like me. Like okay, and? Do you think I care?
    lifesacruelgame lifesacruelgame 16-17, F 2 hrs ago

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    Our life is temporary. The people we see is only temporary and so is our family and friends. What has life turned us to be? We are all different but similar. I wish you here but...
    TheeHatedOne TheeHatedOne 18-21, M 2 hrs ago

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    I don't always expect an answer from my Ep friends, sometimes, the person who I message, hasn't been online for a few months, but I just wanted to send them a message, letting them...
    BroknGirl89 BroknGirl89 26-30, F 2 hrs ago

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    When I'm lyin' in my bed at night I don't wanna grow up Nothin' ever seems to turn out right I don't wanna grow up How do you move in a world of fog That's always changing things...
    ThatMetalDude ThatMetalDude 22-25, M 13 hrs ago

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    On Saturday, a good friend of mine asked me to go to church with her. I didn't want to go, but I still went with her to make her happy. I don't normally go to church, so I thought...
    moose73630 moose73630 16-17, M 4 Responses 3 days ago

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    Many years ago now I went to an event and met someone there who I felt was pretty interesting. He was a poet and artist so we exchanged info and have kept in touch sort of through...
    LaGentilleDame LaGentilleDame 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    Not so much my grandparents, just my grandpa, I love my grandmother more than anyone because she raised me since the day I was born. My grandpa on the other hand is the most...
    DiamondInTheSkye DiamondInTheSkye 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    Ok so I've been with this guy for 8 months now and I recently brought up that there's no depth to our relationship, It happened to be that time of the month and he asked "are u...
    AnnieLouisez AnnieLouisez 26-30, F 9 Responses 6 days ago

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    I am just an ordinary girl in an ordinary world seeking escapism from my solitary existence as a college student. No time for Partying just an ever expanding brain being...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    We live in a world where you're told to let your emotions out in a controlled setting. At least, I do. As I child, I was taught it's good to cry, healthy even. Those who say it is...
    TheBlasphemousOptimist TheBlasphemousOptimist 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 26

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    I don't know if you mean they don't want them in the sense that when they have them they put them up for adoption or let someone else take care of them or if you mean parents who...
    thehobbits thehobbits 22-25 Jun 25

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    Emphasis of the 'feel'. I'm not saying they actually don't. I had to move back home after finishing an art degree so I could build up my career to go freelance. It's been hard...
    EleanorPainting EleanorPainting 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    He's gone and I don't know how to breathe properly without him. He's gone and every sight, sound and word assaults my mind with thoughts of him. It didn't matter that his part was...
    forgedindarkness forgedindarkness 31-35, F 1 Response Jun 25

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    Sometimes I think being gay is a curse. I wonder if his friends or whomever he's told about me would've viewed me differently had I been straight. I don't think he truly...
    gottabeBOLd gottabeBOLd 31-35, M Jun 24

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    I look at the sunset and inwardly smile. I know it's always going to be there for me. I look at the moon and worry. I don't know why I get so scared at night. I can feel the tiny...
    zax2 zax2 51-55, M Jun 24

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    I was fine, just laying.. And then I started thinking.. Looking back. Everyone I knew used me, I have a good heart, I'm always nice to people, and the took adventage of that...
    Extrano Extrano 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 24

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    Soooooo,Hmm(clearing throat) I met a woman in college in 2009 after a breakup with another woman that just up and left me with these words ''Later on in life you'll see that it...
    SchizoEffective6 SchizoEffective6 36-40, M Jun 23

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    Yes, that's it, to judge the character of a person I don't use looks but what a person believe, the way that person behaves and the responsability they have for their own actions...
    oneiric13 oneiric13 26-30, M Jun 23

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    I'm turning 15 the day after tomorrow, and I feel that I'm growing up, but I really don't want to. I never did. You know how kids always say: "I wish I was a grown-up!" Well I...
    ThatOneDepressedKid ThatOneDepressedKid 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    Can I please just let this out? (it's pretty long O__O) It's summer break and my dad keeps on ordering everyone in the family around. He calls at least 3~4 times a day everyday...
    sweetcolors123 sweetcolors123 16-17 Jun 23

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    Working on my behavior has been a great journey: I overcame thinking about people and situations who don't exist because If I'm not around not them they shouldn't be thought of...
    Brandnewhim2015 Brandnewhim2015 26-30, M Jun 23

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    Marriage shouldn't exist anymore. Everyone don't follow the rules. Everyone fuckkk everyone else but they're husband or wife. Why get married? You know you can't control your...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 23

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    I've never had a social group. I don't have a place. I don't have a pack. I have my brother. And I have a few or so friends at a time who eventually ditch me. Probably my fault. I...
    chaekowski chaekowski 26-30, M 2 Responses Jun 21

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    I used to be friends with this female. We had our fun as we were still in our teens but I was young, naive, and innocent. I let her walk all over me. So when I grew up and grew a...
    taminglife taminglife 22-25, F Jun 21

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