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I Don't Exist

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    Je N'existe Pas...

    car je suis le vide . . . . . . .
    Vide Vide 18-21, M Nov 27, 2007

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    Fawlessly Orchestrated Illusion

    I don't exist, It is true. I am just a picture in your mind based on whatever limited sense of knowledge you have about me and your emotional reaction to those vague images. It doesn't really matter if you met me once in passing or if you are my lover, for no matter how elaborate...
    CopperCoil CopperCoil 36-40, M 6 Responses Jul 11, 2008

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    Antidepressants Erased My Soul

    I no longer exist thanks to antidepressants, which have completely destroyed my soul. Here is my story: EP Link
    DeVoid DeVoid 31-35, M May 2, 2011

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    I Don't Have A Life... Therefore I Don't Exist

    I'm not even in my right state of mind right now, so this is just rambling. I'm not even concentrating. This won't make any sense. I've been in the military for almost a year now, and I've always knew I never mattered to anyone before then. It wasn't until now that I just don't...
    jf31 jf31 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 20, 2011

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    I Get Mad At Myself Because I Still Can't Get It Though My Head

    That I don't matter. I keep trying to and sometimes get to a point that I think I do. Then whenever I show just a little self esteem it comes crashing back to me that I am different from other people and I have to stay in the shadows and just go along in life being a doormat...
    GiGiLafoo GiGiLafoo 46-50, F Mar 13, 2010

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    My Brother

    He's only half, on my mom's side. He had it rough as a kid and uses it as an excuse to completely ignore me. He had to go overseas when I was in high school. I sometimes wish he had died there and spare me these negative thoughts that are overwhelming.
    Bridgernin Bridgernin 22-25, F 1 Response May 27, 2012

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    Where Am I?

    The eyes they will see The nose it will smell The toungue it will taste The ears they hear well But where am I? The brain it will think The mouth it will talk The heart it will sing These legs they will walk but amongst all of these I see no me
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 28, 2011

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    On Being Nowhere

    As I walked upon the stair, I met a girl who wasn't there. She wasn't there again today, gee I wish she'd go away.
    will999 will999 61-65, M Jul 27, 2013

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    Invisible...

    I am invisible. I do not exist outside of my own mind. I am just a figment of your imagination. Do not speak to the imaginary person standing next to you as you critisize her every being, laughing at what is left of her soul... It won't hurt anyone.. For I do not exist
    FolsomOrchid FolsomOrchid 26-30, F Jul 31, 2008

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    Thats the One

    after a year of deep and meaningful thought i reached the conclusion that i do not exist, simply due to the fact that this illusion of existence is so pointless and painful that if it was real i wont be able to cope with it. it may not be sane but it works.
    Arktos Arktos 16-17, M Mar 25, 2008

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    The Mind's I Does Not Appear In The Mirror

    When I look in the mirror I see all these eyes and mouth and stuff, and when I look into my past I see all these actions, friends, enemies, events, etc. I'm nothing of that. I'm freedom, I'm consciousness. I'm the will to do or not even try. I'm the consciousness that allows for...
    SeaofThought SeaofThought 36-40, M Nov 18, 2010

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    There In No Me In Reality, And There Is No You Either

    The thought of a ME that exists. Is only a thought that is happening RIGHT NOW. there is actually no ME in reality. Its like this, the thought of a unicorn appears, does that make the unicorn itself exist in reality no the only thing that exists in reality is the THOUGHT of a...
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 9 Responses Jan 2, 2011

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    LIke I Was Never There

    Now i normaly feel this way but right now it is really bothering me because right now i am on this website that i go on and u can chat with people and see them. This guy that was trying to be friends wit and i were talking then all of a sudden more people come in and i dont exist...
    Darkfarey Darkfarey 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 25, 2009

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    The one I was doesn't exist And never did He's

    dead, like they all are I'm empty And I can't prove my existence
    Xnow Xnow 16-17, M Sep 10, 2014

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    Seriously

    Not such a bad thing, seeming how it takes the pressure off of many things.... Don't know when it started, maybe its an obvious consequence of losing interest in everything and alienating myself from people... I am severed from everything and my life is just that...a life, not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 12, 2011

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    Nothing

    In this world I am nothing. :'(
    Haruhi16 Haruhi16 16-17 2 Responses Sep 7, 2012

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    Not only do i not like haters but i won't listen to haters because there arguments are simply that to argue or cause disruption. If i see hate you're blocked because, no it's not...
    DriftingLeaf DriftingLeaf 18-21 May 12

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    He isn't nice, at least not with me. He never helps me, he treats leave like I don't exist, he is rude. He doesn't know how I actually am and he doesn't wants to.
    Anna160800 Anna160800 13-15, F 3 Responses May 18

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    PMWhite PMWhite 31-35, M 2 Responses May 6

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    I do feel comfortable enough with my cycle to predict with certainty when I am fertile and when I am not so I definitely won't think of any other control birth bullshit (sorry...
    Aurelielavraie Aurelielavraie 31-35, F 4 Responses May 17

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    I grow exhausted of presumptional apologetics. I mention spiritually speaking I don't want to be under the authority of a higher power because I say that none of us consented to...
    ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix 26-30, M 1 Response May 15

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    Why do i have so many mental disorders? I have bipolar disorder, schizotypal, shizoid, depression, multiple personality disorder, and social anxiety. But i feel like i'm just fine...
    alessandrajazmyn alessandrajazmyn 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Hi everyone, My problem is related to my relationship. I used to be the kind of girl who would never depend on a man - that's why I would say I wasn't the best girlfriend to my SO...
    LadyCinephile LadyCinephile 26-30, F 15 hrs ago

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    I don't even exist to her. I bet she wishes I was dead; she acts as if I already am. Then she won't need to ignore me anymore. Come kill me then. If you're brave enough, instead of...
    MissNexp MissNexp 26-30, F May 14

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    When I was younger, I knew I was different than all the other kids. I always believed in more than just this life. I felt more and understood more than the kids my age. Most adults...
    twentyout24 twentyout24 16-17 1 Response May 14

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    I just don't get why people smoke, all it does is cost u money to either die early or get cancer, I really don't see the point in it x
    Lotty15 Lotty15 16-17, F 49 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    Do I want to be liked? Sure. It's preferable. Am I willing to be something or do something or miss out on something in the hopes of gaining approval? No. I make an effort to be...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 9 Responses May 8

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    What a thing to complain about! Sure, a person with a heart has plenty of reason to lament about the pains of having one, but what excuse do I have? Well, first, I'm bored. I'm so...
    Lue4028 Lue4028 22-25, M 5 days ago

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    Doors?! I didn't realize they make doors behind the old oak tree! And apparently my son Still doesn't get that said tree ISN'T the bathroom either! But when he does make it to the...
    emerald emerald 36-40, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I don't believe it exists. All religion is either disorganized or no one attends it. (Joking) :D I do tend to think though that whenever you get a collection of people together...
    JaxyBaine JaxyBaine 26-30, F 4 Responses May 7

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    in my real life, I am a sweetheart. I try to be that way here as well. I swear I try to treat others the way I would want to be treated. I believe in Karma big time. So, being mean...
    jerseyjenna jerseyjenna 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Whenever I see my old best friend, she doesn't really talk to me much unless we are alone. But when we are with others, I try to not say anything. I become irritated and greatly...
    z1a2r3a z1a2r3a 13-15, F 16 hrs ago

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    I usually don't, because I'm afraid. But I write down my feelings in letters, poems, or even songs, but I love you so much and you need to know that. You're my rock and no matter...
    xoxostarburst xoxostarburst 22-25, F 16 hrs ago

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    Beer and I were once best friends but that relationship came to an end, now things can get a bit strange whenever we are in range because Beer still wants me to kiss her...
    oneinawillian oneinawillian 41-45, M 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    On CNN and all these donation commercial when they say donate to orphanages and stuff they show black kids. And I hate that expression " your wasting this while there are starving...
    Adaeze123 Adaeze123 13-15, F 2 hrs ago

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    Besides my mom, i don't trust women. At work, when they try to get close to me, it always seem like they want something from me. I'm not that friendly when women try to invite me...
    sfdrboy sfdrboy 22-25, M 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    Sorry guys but I wouldn't chat with you so don't bother messaging me
    freak66 freak66 31-35, F 1 hr ago

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    Before you criticise me for being weak, let me ask you something," Why do I?!" I am not someone important and not even something important. I am a Christian but I still have...
    colourflame colourflame 13-15, F 3 Responses May 4

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    He did not have my back when I needed him most. Worse, he added to my troubles. It's been over a year since we talked and I'm hurt and angry every day. I asked him to fix this when...
    witsfhah witsfhah 46-50, T May 19

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    I've studied sociology, anthropology, psychology and biochemistry and I don't think I'll ever get it. I've experienced infatuation and lust but love..... Nope. I'm not sure it's...
    4science 4science 22-25 1 Response May 24

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    I've been working mostly with men for three years now and I know that almost all of them are not loyal to their girlfriends and wives. You may know a guy good enough and may think...
    AllyBad AllyBad 22-25, F 16 hrs ago

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