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I Don't Exist

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    Fawlessly Orchestrated Illusion

    I don't exist, It is true. I am just a picture in your mind based on whatever limited sense of knowledge you have about me and your emotional reaction to those vague images. It doesn't really matter if you met me once in passing or if you are my lover, for no matter how elaborate...
    CopperCoil CopperCoil 36-40, M 6 Responses Jul 11, 2008

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    Antidepressants Erased My Soul

    I no longer exist thanks to antidepressants, which have completely destroyed my soul. Here is my story: EP Link
    DeVoid DeVoid 31-35, M May 2, 2011

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    Seriously

    Not such a bad thing, seeming how it takes the pressure off of many things.... Don't know when it started, maybe its an obvious consequence of losing interest in everything and alienating myself from people... I am severed from everything and my life is just that...a life, not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 12, 2011

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    Je N'existe Pas...

    car je suis le vide . . . . . . .
    Vide Vide 18-21, M Nov 27, 2007

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    I Get Mad At Myself Because I Still Can't Get It Though My Head

    That I don't matter. I keep trying to and sometimes get to a point that I think I do. Then whenever I show just a little self esteem it comes crashing back to me that I am different from other people and I have to stay in the shadows and just go along in life being a doormat...
    GiGiLafoo GiGiLafoo 46-50, F Mar 13, 2010

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    Where Am I?

    The eyes they will see The nose it will smell The toungue it will taste The ears they hear well But where am I? The brain it will think The mouth it will talk The heart it will sing These legs they will walk but amongst all of these I see no me
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 28, 2011

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    I Don't Have A Life... Therefore I Don't Exist

    I'm not even in my right state of mind right now, so this is just rambling. I'm not even concentrating. This won't make any sense. I've been in the military for almost a year now, and I've always knew I never mattered to anyone before then. It wasn't until now that I just don't...
    jf31 jf31 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 20, 2011

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    Nothing

    In this world I am nothing. :'(
    Haruhi16 Haruhi16 16-17 2 Responses Sep 7, 2012

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    My Brother

    He's only half, on my mom's side. He had it rough as a kid and uses it as an excuse to completely ignore me. He had to go overseas when I was in high school. I sometimes wish he had died there and spare me these negative thoughts that are overwhelming.
    Bridgernin Bridgernin 22-25, F 1 Response May 27, 2012

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    On Being Nowhere

    As I walked upon the stair, I met a girl who wasn't there. She wasn't there again today, gee I wish she'd go away.
    will999 will999 61-65, M Jul 27, 2013

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    Invisible...

    I am invisible. I do not exist outside of my own mind. I am just a figment of your imagination. Do not speak to the imaginary person standing next to you as you critisize her every being, laughing at what is left of her soul... It won't hurt anyone.. For I do not exist
    FolsomOrchid FolsomOrchid 26-30, F Jul 31, 2008

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    Thats the One

    after a year of deep and meaningful thought i reached the conclusion that i do not exist, simply due to the fact that this illusion of existence is so pointless and painful that if it was real i wont be able to cope with it. it may not be sane but it works.
    Arktos Arktos 16-17, M Mar 25, 2008

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    The Mind's I Does Not Appear In The Mirror

    When I look in the mirror I see all these eyes and mouth and stuff, and when I look into my past I see all these actions, friends, enemies, events, etc. I'm nothing of that. I'm freedom, I'm consciousness. I'm the will to do or not even try. I'm the consciousness that allows for...
    SeaofThought SeaofThought 36-40, M Nov 18, 2010

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    There In No Me In Reality, And There Is No You Either

    The thought of a ME that exists. Is only a thought that is happening RIGHT NOW. there is actually no ME in reality. Its like this, the thought of a unicorn appears, does that make the unicorn itself exist in reality no the only thing that exists in reality is the THOUGHT of a...
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 9 Responses Jan 2, 2011

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    LIke I Was Never There

    Now i normaly feel this way but right now it is really bothering me because right now i am on this website that i go on and u can chat with people and see them. This guy that was trying to be friends wit and i were talking then all of a sudden more people come in and i dont exist...
    Darkfarey Darkfarey 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 25, 2009

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    The one I was doesn't exist And never did He's

    dead, like they all are I'm empty And I can't prove my existence
    Xnow Xnow 16-17, M Sep 10, 2014

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    I have people around me but I feel like I don't exist because I have Borderline Personality Disorder and this is a symptom of the illness. It's a strange feeling. It's because I...
    LinkinParkMuse LinkinParkMuse 26-30, F Apr 6

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    My "friends" don't seem to care about me at all.
    idontgetthislifething2 idontgetthislifething2 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    90% of the time that I'm at work, nobody really talks to me and I have no desire to talk to them. Whenever my coworkers do strike a conversation it's usually about work and nothing...
    koojo129 koojo129 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 2

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    I feel invisible....and blah...hopeless
    imissdnce imissdnce 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 2

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    I have studied this for a while and would like to point out a few "FACTS" rather than hype. If you want to comment, read them! If you still doubt, check for yourselves. Don't...
    anonymuspersona anonymuspersona 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 13

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    I get so frustrated when I see people who don't appreciate what they have. They use their words too easily. I know a person who said she is irritated by her brother's existence. I...
    delusi0nal delusi0nal 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 12

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    Would you believe it??? LOL It's not the silence in my relationship that bothers me but the lack of communication. I love talking with someone who doesn't mind how my head works...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I wonder how many of us feel this way yet for many reasons have to......... or do...... stay with someone they don't love, or who does not love back? So what is love? It can...
    Walkby Walkby 56-60, M 1 Response 54 mins ago

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    You say I’m crazy Cause you don’t think I know what you’ve done But when you call me baby I know I’m not the only one I don’t believe in monogamy, in the conventional...
    kinkysexybabe kinkysexybabe 36-40, F 9 Responses Apr 6

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    I have a fondness for the aspirations that this site has, to connect people based on their experiences so that the sense of perpetual loneliness that's a side effect of just being...
    BriImani BriImani 18-21, F Apr 19

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    I have a mother who is emotionally abusive, lacks reason and I suspect she has bipolar disorder. She injects nothing but negativity in my life and I have told her numerous times...
    organizedmadness organizedmadness 41-45, F 23 hrs ago

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    why m i so overprotective for my best friend. .i don't like it when she interacts with other college mates and enjoy with them ..why m i so jealous ..help please!!
    mahak1234 mahak1234 18-21, F Mar 28

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    This is something I wish I could read to my mother, or at least, memorize it, so when we get into another argument, I could scream this at her. I'm Sorry Written By: Unknown...
    SweetcakesJr SweetcakesJr 13-15, F 2 Responses Mar 31

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    I used to carry a chip on my shoulder all the time believing that every person is bad..my outlook changed 4 years ago. The state agreed that my nieces were going to be placed with...
    jbm1984 jbm1984 31-35, F 2 Responses Apr 7

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    I've always thought of myself as incapable of being too close to a person. For me, it’s never good to know that you’re craving the person’s presence every time they’re not...
    Megarian Megarian 16-17, F Apr 13

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    Nothing physically keeps men from wearing a dress and high heels. Nothing physically prevents women from playing football or driving trucks. Not really. and even the things that do...
    InfiniteCorker InfiniteCorker 26-30, T 2 Responses Apr 14

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    People say you can just become someone new. They also say you shouldn't care about what other people say. I don't always but people get into my head which is part of the reason I...
    WearingMyFlaws WearingMyFlaws 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 14

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    I wouldn't say I don't because there is always a possibility but as I get older I think a lot deeper and question a lot of things I've been told and there is absolutely no proof it...
    bmorev bmorev 22-25, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    minimum wage shouldn't exist at all. the system regulates itself. if you want more money then don't take a job that pays very little. if you can get a bigger paying job then get...
    bckyltylr bckyltylr 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    My existence is futile I don't see the good in it just bad things happen I suck at everything I couldn't even commit suicide properly Its all just too much
    maleeny maleeny 18-21, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I speak my mind all the time, whether it hurts people's feelings or not. My sister Roxanne is more sensitive than me or my other sister. I have to remember to choose my words...
    JupiterCity JupiterCity 36-40, M Apr 1

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    I don't believe in God, but I hate pushy atheists who feel superior and criticize others for having a religion. My two sisters are atheists, and I'm pretty sure my parents are too...
    TheStarshipCat TheStarshipCat 13-15, F Apr 2

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    as I have said a long time it OUR fault ,we the people who don't vote ,who lets special interests groups to pull strings with their representative , I watch CSPAN when congress...
    rckt148 rckt148 56-60, M 1 Response Apr 6

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    I screwed something up (in hindsight, the culmination of a long series of screwups) and my GF (of 2 years) is very upset. Like "we're seeing a relationship counselor" upset. Like...
    OneIsTheLoneliestNbr OneIsTheLoneliestNbr 51-55, M Apr 7

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    But that does not mean I don't support them. or respect them. These days there are a number of police here in America (U.S.) that have gotten out of hand. When a man is running...
    AceWarbringer AceWarbringer 31-35, M Apr 13

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