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I Don't Exist

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    Je N'existe Pas...

    car je suis le vide . . . . . . .
    Vide Vide 18-21, M Nov 27, 2007

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    Where Am I?

    The eyes they will see The nose it will smell The toungue it will taste The ears they hear well But where am I? The brain it will think The mouth it will talk The heart it will sing These legs they will walk but amongst all of these I see no me
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 28, 2011

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    Fawlessly Orchestrated Illusion

    I don't exist, It is true. I am just a picture in your mind based on whatever limited sense of knowledge you have about me and your emotional reaction to those vague images. It doesn't really matter if you met me once in passing or if you are my lover, for no matter how elaborate...
    CopperCoil CopperCoil 36-40, M 6 Responses Jul 11, 2008

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    There In No Me In Reality, And There Is No You Either

    The thought of a ME that exists. Is only a thought that is happening RIGHT NOW. there is actually no ME in reality. Its like this, the thought of a unicorn appears, does that make the unicorn itself exist in reality no the only thing that exists in reality is the THOUGHT of a...
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 9 Responses Jan 2, 2011

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    The one I was doesn't exist And never did He's

    dead, like they all are I'm empty And I can't prove my existence
    Xnow Xnow 16-17, M Sep 10, 2014

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    Thats the One

    after a year of deep and meaningful thought i reached the conclusion that i do not exist, simply due to the fact that this illusion of existence is so pointless and painful that if it was real i wont be able to cope with it. it may not be sane but it works.
    Arktos Arktos 16-17, M Mar 25, 2008

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    Antidepressants Erased My Soul

    I no longer exist thanks to antidepressants, which have completely destroyed my soul. Here is my story: EP Link
    DeVoid DeVoid 31-35, M May 2, 2011

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    The Mind's I Does Not Appear In The Mirror

    When I look in the mirror I see all these eyes and mouth and stuff, and when I look into my past I see all these actions, friends, enemies, events, etc. I'm nothing of that. I'm freedom, I'm consciousness. I'm the will to do or not even try. I'm the consciousness that allows for...
    SeaofThought SeaofThought 36-40, M Nov 18, 2010

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    I Get Mad At Myself Because I Still Can't Get It Though My Head

    That I don't matter. I keep trying to and sometimes get to a point that I think I do. Then whenever I show just a little self esteem it comes crashing back to me that I am different from other people and I have to stay in the shadows and just go along in life being a doormat...
    GiGiLafoo GiGiLafoo 46-50, F Mar 13, 2010

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    LIke I Was Never There

    Now i normaly feel this way but right now it is really bothering me because right now i am on this website that i go on and u can chat with people and see them. This guy that was trying to be friends wit and i were talking then all of a sudden more people come in and i dont exist...
    Darkfarey Darkfarey 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 25, 2009

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    Invisible...

    I am invisible. I do not exist outside of my own mind. I am just a figment of your imagination. Do not speak to the imaginary person standing next to you as you critisize her every being, laughing at what is left of her soul... It won't hurt anyone.. For I do not exist
    FolsomOrchid FolsomOrchid 26-30, F Jul 31, 2008

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    Nothing

    In this world I am nothing. :'(
    Haruhi16 Haruhi16 16-17 2 Responses Sep 7, 2012

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    Seriously

    Not such a bad thing, seeming how it takes the pressure off of many things.... Don't know when it started, maybe its an obvious consequence of losing interest in everything and alienating myself from people... I am severed from everything and my life is just that...a life, not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 12, 2011

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    On Being Nowhere

    As I walked upon the stair, I met a girl who wasn't there. She wasn't there again today, gee I wish she'd go away.
    will999 will999 61-65, M Jul 27, 2013

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    I Don't Have A Life... Therefore I Don't Exist

    I'm not even in my right state of mind right now, so this is just rambling. I'm not even concentrating. This won't make any sense. I've been in the military for almost a year now, and I've always knew I never mattered to anyone before then. It wasn't until now that I just don't...
    jf31 jf31 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 20, 2011

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    My Brother

    He's only half, on my mom's side. He had it rough as a kid and uses it as an excuse to completely ignore me. He had to go overseas when I was in high school. I sometimes wish he had died there and spare me these negative thoughts that are overwhelming.
    Bridgernin Bridgernin 22-25, F 1 Response May 27, 2012

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    If you think the truth will hurt me, lying will hurt twice as much. If you don't care, tell me. If you think I'm ugly but call me beautiful anyways, leave.
    FreeXNow FreeXNow 18-21, F 9 hrs ago

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    This is most likely my final and last post on EP. My body burns and aches because all the pain I'm holding in. I feel like if i don't let it out somewhere, I'm going to crumble...
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    My biggest fear used to be that I might someday cease to exist. Now I don't really fear it anymore, because if I didn't exist, I would never know, now would I? I even sometimes...
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    You told me how I mattered right to my face, and how there was no way I'd ever be replaced. Well your words have etched out disgrace. BS. And I wonder how it tastes? Repeating it...
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    SweetDreamsRubi SweetDreamsRubi 22-25, F Feb 2

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    I am 23 years old, and I recently moved downtown into a sublet until April. Up until last week, I lived at home with my family. My family lives outside the city and moved there 5...
    blackdove3746 blackdove3746 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 2

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    Hello, What I'm about to say I have never told anyone for fear of rejection or criticism. I feel lost, I feel like no matter what I do it's always a step back. 3 years ago I moved...
    Thranix Thranix 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 31

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    Please youngsters, don't be offended by what i have to say. I have nothing against you, i just am at a different time in my life. I've become a little more impatient. I don't...
    rottenrobi rottenrobi 46-50, F 4 Responses Jan 28

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