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I Don't Exist

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    I Don't Have A Life... Therefore I Don't Exist

    I'm not even in my right state of mind right now, so this is just rambling. I'm not even concentrating. This won't make any sense. I've been in the military for almost a year now, and I've always knew I never mattered to anyone before then. It wasn't until now that I just don't...
    jf31 jf31 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 20, 2011

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    Je N'existe Pas...

    car je suis le vide . . . . . . .
    Vide Vide 21-25, M Nov 27, 2007

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    Invisible...

    I am invisible. I do not exist outside of my own mind. I am just a figment of your imagination. Do not speak to the imaginary person standing next to you as you critisize her every being, laughing at what is left of her soul... It won't hurt anyone.. For I do not exist
    FolsomOrchid FolsomOrchid 26-30, F Jul 31, 2008

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    There In No Me In Reality, And There Is No You Either

    The thought of a ME that exists. Is only a thought that is happening RIGHT NOW. there is actually no ME in reality. Its like this, the thought of a unicorn appears, does that make the unicorn itself exist in reality no the only thing that exists in reality is the THOUGHT of a...
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 9 Responses Jan 2, 2011

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    Nothing

    In this world I am nothing. :'(
    Haruhi16 Haruhi16 16-17 2 Responses Sep 7, 2012

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    Where Am I?

    The eyes they will see The nose it will smell The toungue it will taste The ears they hear well But where am I? The brain it will think The mouth it will talk The heart it will sing These legs they will walk but amongst all of these I see no me
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 28, 2011

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    Thats the One

    after a year of deep and meaningful thought i reached the conclusion that i do not exist, simply due to the fact that this illusion of existence is so pointless and painful that if it was real i wont be able to cope with it. it may not be sane but it works.
    Arktos Arktos 16-18, M Mar 25, 2008

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    Fawlessly Orchestrated Illusion

    I don't exist, It is true. I am just a picture in your mind based on whatever limited sense of knowledge you have about me and your emotional reaction to those vague images. It doesn't really matter if you met me once in passing or if you are my lover, for no matter how elaborate...
    CopperCoil CopperCoil 36-40, M 6 Responses Jul 11, 2008

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    Seriously

    Not such a bad thing, seeming how it takes the pressure off of many things.... Don't know when it started, maybe its an obvious consequence of losing interest in everything and alienating myself from people... I am severed from everything and my life is just that...a life, not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 12, 2011

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    My Brother

    He's only half, on my mom's side. He had it rough as a kid and uses it as an excuse to completely ignore me. He had to go overseas when I was in high school. I sometimes wish he had died there and spare me these negative thoughts that are overwhelming.
    Bridgernin Bridgernin 22-25, F 1 Response May 27, 2012

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    I Get Mad At Myself Because I Still Can't Get It Though My Head

    That I don't matter. I keep trying to and sometimes get to a point that I think I do. Then whenever I show just a little self esteem it comes crashing back to me that I am different from other people and I have to stay in the shadows and just go along in life being a doormat...
    GiGiLafoo GiGiLafoo 46-50, F Mar 13, 2010

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    LIke I Was Never There

    Now i normaly feel this way but right now it is really bothering me because right now i am on this website that i go on and u can chat with people and see them. This guy that was trying to be friends wit and i were talking then all of a sudden more people come in and i dont exist...
    Darkfarey Darkfarey 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 25, 2009

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    On Being Nowhere

    As I walked upon the stair, I met a girl who wasn't there. She wasn't there again today, gee I wish she'd go away.
    will999 will999 61-65, M Jul 27, 2013

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    The Mind's I Does Not Appear In The Mirror

    When I look in the mirror I see all these eyes and mouth and stuff, and when I look into my past I see all these actions, friends, enemies, events, etc. I'm nothing of that. I'm freedom, I'm consciousness. I'm the will to do or not even try. I'm the consciousness that allows for...
    SeaofThought SeaofThought 36-40, M Nov 18, 2010

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    Antidepressants Erased My Soul

    I no longer exist thanks to antidepressants, which have completely destroyed my soul. Here is my story: EP Link
    DeVoid DeVoid 31-35, M May 2, 2011

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    i personally.... don't share your belief on quite the same level, i think. I think it's super neat that you can find something that you have put your faith into believing. I think...
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    I don't fear death because I'm not traumatized or have horrible (or any memories) of what was before birth. That non-existence is my only connection to death, and I can't remember...
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    Take any religion Hindu Christian Muslim Jewish Jains all these says we are his children its he who created and he is the one who is responsible for everything. It also says it is...
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    I probably fear life more than I fear death. There are far worse things in life than there are in death. I’d like to think of death as a liberation of struggles, diseases...
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    I think I told this story before, but here I go again... I have lost my faith in so many things. I have lost my faith in myself, in people, in life. When I was a kid, I had a...
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    Little girl, little girl don't you fret. There is a god in heaven who will take care of you and keep you safe. Little angel, my angel don't be scared. God will make all crooked...
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    I need to write this somewhere to get it out of my head. I have been feeling extremely suicidal recently and I just had one of the most disturbing yet eye-opening dreams. I...
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    I was prompted to type this after seeing a question about it. Also, because I wanted an excuse to reference the Cosmic Turtle. I don't want kids. Although I admit it's slightly...
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    I don't fear death, I fear my existence meaning nothing to anyone. I am afraid I have not changed someone's life. I am scared that I won't matter.
    skybaby0 skybaby0 18-21 3 Responses Aug 3

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    ... I know some people don't believe in god, and neither do I.. But if he actually did exist.. What IS he? What kind of creature is he? Does he drink alcohol or smoke weed? Does he...
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    I think karma is just probable or a coincidence, I don't think a person's every action will have an equal response. If this were the case then why do bad things happen to 'good...
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    Married almost 20 years with teens. We were not a match when we married but I thought I was just being fussy and went ahead with it. Intimacy became sparse and them non-existent...
    elizabeth111 elizabeth111 46-50, F Aug 13

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    Perhaps God exists. And perhaps I will "burn in hell" when I stand before Him because I did not believe in Him when I was alive. But I guess that will be my problem, and no one...
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    Dear Christians, please DO NOT tell me what to do. Okay, maybe I'm ready to burn in hell. Maybe, I don't care. God is dead to me. I think that being a good person is better than...
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    I guess in my case the perfect world wouldn't have gender rolls and stereotypes, but we live in a world that isn't perfect. I understand and accept that fact. I find it funny most...
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    I know that i am existing and not living and that is a real thing. It hurts a s i know but what i can do as for my health situation and for being trapped in a lot of issues that...
    Egyptianguy34 Egyptianguy34 31-35, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Why don't people understand that I am who I am. Yes I'm socially awkward. Yes I'm shy. Yes I'm crazy, insecure and confused. But I am still me. No one seems to understand me or...
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    I've reached this stage where i don't see why these things are necessary to live your "life" you're not missing anything and i bet if you were never exposed to it you wouldn't care...
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