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I Don't Exist

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    Je N'existe Pas...

    car je suis le vide . . . . . . .
    Vide Vide 21-25, M Nov 27, 2007

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    Fawlessly Orchestrated Illusion

    I don't exist, It is true. I am just a picture in your mind based on whatever limited sense of knowledge you have about me and your emotional reaction to those vague images. It doesn't really matter if you met me once in passing or if you are my lover, for no matter how elaborate...
    CopperCoil CopperCoil 36-40, M 6 Responses Jul 11, 2008

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    I Get Mad At Myself Because I Still Can't Get It Though My Head

    That I don't matter. I keep trying to and sometimes get to a point that I think I do. Then whenever I show just a little self esteem it comes crashing back to me that I am different from other people and I have to stay in the shadows and just go along in life being a doormat...
    GiGiLafoo GiGiLafoo 46-50, F Mar 13, 2010

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    I Don't Have A Life... Therefore I Don't Exist

    I'm not even in my right state of mind right now, so this is just rambling. I'm not even concentrating. This won't make any sense. I've been in the military for almost a year now, and I've always knew I never mattered to anyone before then. It wasn't until now that I just don't...
    jf31 jf31 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 20, 2011

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    LIke I Was Never There

    Now i normaly feel this way but right now it is really bothering me because right now i am on this website that i go on and u can chat with people and see them. This guy that was trying to be friends wit and i were talking then all of a sudden more people come in and i dont exist...
    Darkfarey Darkfarey 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 25, 2009

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    My Brother

    He's only half, on my mom's side. He had it rough as a kid and uses it as an excuse to completely ignore me. He had to go overseas when I was in high school. I sometimes wish he had died there and spare me these negative thoughts that are overwhelming.
    Bridgernin Bridgernin 22-25, F 1 Response May 27, 2012

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    The one I was doesn't exist And never did He's

    dead, like they all are I'm empty And I can't prove my existence
    Xnow Xnow 16-17, M Sep 10

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    Nothing

    In this world I am nothing. :'(
    Haruhi16 Haruhi16 16-17 2 Responses Sep 7, 2012

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    Seriously

    Not such a bad thing, seeming how it takes the pressure off of many things.... Don't know when it started, maybe its an obvious consequence of losing interest in everything and alienating myself from people... I am severed from everything and my life is just that...a life, not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 12, 2011

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    On Being Nowhere

    As I walked upon the stair, I met a girl who wasn't there. She wasn't there again today, gee I wish she'd go away.
    will999 will999 61-65, M Jul 27, 2013

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    Thats the One

    after a year of deep and meaningful thought i reached the conclusion that i do not exist, simply due to the fact that this illusion of existence is so pointless and painful that if it was real i wont be able to cope with it. it may not be sane but it works.
    Arktos Arktos 16-18, M Mar 25, 2008

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    Where Am I?

    The eyes they will see The nose it will smell The toungue it will taste The ears they hear well But where am I? The brain it will think The mouth it will talk The heart it will sing These legs they will walk but amongst all of these I see no me
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 28, 2011

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    Invisible...

    I am invisible. I do not exist outside of my own mind. I am just a figment of your imagination. Do not speak to the imaginary person standing next to you as you critisize her every being, laughing at what is left of her soul... It won't hurt anyone.. For I do not exist
    FolsomOrchid FolsomOrchid 26-30, F Jul 31, 2008

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    The Mind's I Does Not Appear In The Mirror

    When I look in the mirror I see all these eyes and mouth and stuff, and when I look into my past I see all these actions, friends, enemies, events, etc. I'm nothing of that. I'm freedom, I'm consciousness. I'm the will to do or not even try. I'm the consciousness that allows for...
    SeaofThought SeaofThought 36-40, M Nov 18, 2010

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    There In No Me In Reality, And There Is No You Either

    The thought of a ME that exists. Is only a thought that is happening RIGHT NOW. there is actually no ME in reality. Its like this, the thought of a unicorn appears, does that make the unicorn itself exist in reality no the only thing that exists in reality is the THOUGHT of a...
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 9 Responses Jan 2, 2011

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    Antidepressants Erased My Soul

    I no longer exist thanks to antidepressants, which have completely destroyed my soul. Here is my story: EP Link
    DeVoid DeVoid 31-35, M May 2, 2011

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    It seems like I could take off tomorrow and no one would notice.
    katariffik katariffik 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 17

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    I honestly thing guys like this don't exist any more....
    Miamunoz Miamunoz 22-25, F 5 Responses Nov 2

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    My love is 23 years older than me. We met a few years ago online via AgeMeet.com. It was totally platonic but I broke off contact due to doing other things in my life, I wasn't...
    toylycc11 toylycc11 26-30, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    My love is 23 years older than me. We met a few years ago online via AgeMeet.com. It was totally platonic but I broke off contact due to doing other things in my life, I wasn't...
    toylycc11 toylycc11 26-30, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    Why? Why am i here? What purpose do i have? I'm useless. I've hurt people, made wrongs that can't be fixed. I know we all do that sometimes. But, i still feel empty... As i lay...
    white701 white701 18-21, M Nov 14

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    People don't think that Supernaturals exist. I mean, Jimmy Hoffa has been hidden for a super long time, and people still say he exists! Yes, we hide from most people. Why? That is...
    Chaos42249 Chaos42249 13-15 3 Responses Oct 27

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    I am existing and going through the motions but i can't live. I am invisible but can't hide. I need to disappear but don't know how.
    StephKH46 StephKH46 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 9

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    I waited almost an entire month to contact him. I finally send him a positive message, asking if we could talk, and he read it on the app we talked on that night. I waited 6 days...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I don't add minors or people in their 20's unfortunately.... I have tried but I found their naiveness and just general immaturity gets on my nerves badly.
    Coffeetyme Coffeetyme 41-45, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I don't consider what I do every day to be living but merely existing. I'll go through the motions and put the mask on to convince people I'm ok.
    ShyGuy990 ShyGuy990 22-25, M Nov 11

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    I said college would be a rebirth experience for me, because I truly am starting from zero. But in order to start over successfully, I needed to have already gained the skills...
    Shamandora Shamandora 16-17, F Nov 14

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    But it is. Everyday I wake up I think about my past. I can't move forward mentally. My brain is so consumed with my past self (childhood). I experienced so many trials as a kid...
    forestchild forestchild 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 30

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    I don't believe everything happens for a reason. There is so much in each of our perceived little realities that simply cannot be predicted. Horrible things happen where fault...
    Unalike Unalike 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 7

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    I've probably said this to 20 people on here. But its worth repeating: The source of all unhappiness is having expectation. Expectations exist solely in your mind. They are a...
    hmmhmmhmm hmmhmmhmm 26-30 6 days ago

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    I was going through letters my dad wrote to his first wife and my oldest brother from 1974 to 1984. There are so many things I don't understand. My brother doesn't acknowledge...
    SgtsLittleGirl SgtsLittleGirl 22-25, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    ... I am married and in a committed and Polyamorous marriage.. I love my lovers.. what I don't have to do is bring their lovers into my marriage or my relationships. If their...
    GypsyHeartedPoet GypsyHeartedPoet 36-40, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm just sick to death of my whole existence. I feel so good one minute and then I feel like I want to jump off a bridge the next. I'm back on my meds and it feels worse. I just...
    SRayne SRayne 41-45 5 Responses Nov 4

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    Superstitions are the work of the devil. Charles Stanley has talked about it. Don't believe in them. They exist to make you upset, stressed, worried and keep you from God!
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response Oct 30

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    I have a few in another state, but they are always busy, so they never have time to talk to me. When they do talk to me, I get the vibe that they could care less if I never spoke...
    anonymouslymysterious anonymouslymysterious 16-17, F 2 Responses Oct 31

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    I really feel these. That I don't belong, my opinions, my suggestions and support wasn't really what they needed instead of money. If only it would be easier for me to move out and...
    lanhancupto lanhancupto 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 3

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    To be honest I don't know why anyone is alive... What's the point in love and hate, jobs, money, sex, family, people. These things wouldn't exist without humans to experience them...
    spotofhope spotofhope 13-15, F Nov 4

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    As if my existence is an imagination or idea of some other consciousness. I'm viewing and I'm experiencing but my actions and chosen paths are not my own, I am only an observer...
    kronenburg kronenburg 31-35, M Nov 5

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    When I was a teen I meet a person who was in to same sex relationships. Although he never came out of the closet to me until the last year of his life We became very good friends...
    doom99 doom99 41-45, M Nov 5

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    This is what I DO believe: nothing matters. Not a single thing we do will ever matter. Why? Because we will all be forgotten in time. Sure celebrities, famous history figures will...
    PimpledCorpse PimpledCorpse 16-17, F 10 Responses Nov 10

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    I don't know how I'm going to react if that were to ever happen- you know running into my ex. I'm relieved in a way that that's not going to happen anytime soon because he lives in...
    ira01 ira01 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Karma doesn't exist. I've never believed in it. It's not of The Lord. Punishment comes after death.
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response Oct 30

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    My love is 23 years older than me. We met a few years ago online via mutual spiritual interests. It was totally platonic but I broke off contact due to doing other things in my...
    bettecc11 bettecc11 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 16

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    Let me clarify that it FEELS like I don't fit in anywhere, esp. right now in my life, but I know I fit in somewhere and have fit-in society in the past. I live in America, the most...
    relating2u79 relating2u79 31-35, M 3 Responses Oct 31

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    A little set up for you: I'm a 19 year old girl. Portuguese. Lived in England most of my life. Born in SA. Confident in my appearance. I write. I draw (at university, so it's legit...
    exulansis exulansis 18-21, F Nov 3

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    I don't want it to define me. I don't want this experience to define me for the rest of my life but I have to validate my anger and sadness. I don't let those emotions become...
    KelseyLeigh123 KelseyLeigh123 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 11

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    I don't know why I feel this way. I don't know why I spend time analyzing what others think about me and what I do. I don't know when it started to matter. I don't know WHEN I...
    NRC163 NRC163 18-21, F Nov 3

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