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I Don't Exist

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    On Being Nowhere

    As I walked upon the stair, I met a girl who wasn't there. She wasn't there again today, gee I wish she'd go away.
    will999 will999 61-65, M Jul 27, 2013

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    Seriously

    Not such a bad thing, seeming how it takes the pressure off of many things.... Don't know when it started, maybe its an obvious consequence of losing interest in everything and alienating myself from people... I am severed from everything and my life is just that...a life, not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 12, 2011

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    There In No Me In Reality, And There Is No You Either

    The thought of a ME that exists. Is only a thought that is happening RIGHT NOW. there is actually no ME in reality. Its like this, the thought of a unicorn appears, does that make the unicorn itself exist in reality no the only thing that exists in reality is the THOUGHT of a...
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 9 Responses Jan 2, 2011

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    Je N'existe Pas...

    car je suis le vide . . . . . . .
    Vide Vide 18-21, M Nov 27, 2007

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    Fawlessly Orchestrated Illusion

    I don't exist, It is true. I am just a picture in your mind based on whatever limited sense of knowledge you have about me and your emotional reaction to those vague images. It doesn't really matter if you met me once in passing or if you are my lover, for no matter how elaborate...
    CopperCoil CopperCoil 36-40, M 6 Responses Jul 11, 2008

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    LIke I Was Never There

    Now i normaly feel this way but right now it is really bothering me because right now i am on this website that i go on and u can chat with people and see them. This guy that was trying to be friends wit and i were talking then all of a sudden more people come in and i dont exist...
    Darkfarey Darkfarey 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 25, 2009

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    Nothing

    In this world I am nothing. :'(
    Haruhi16 Haruhi16 16-17 2 Responses Sep 7, 2012

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    I Don't Have A Life... Therefore I Don't Exist

    I'm not even in my right state of mind right now, so this is just rambling. I'm not even concentrating. This won't make any sense. I've been in the military for almost a year now, and I've always knew I never mattered to anyone before then. It wasn't until now that I just don't...
    jf31 jf31 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 20, 2011

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    Antidepressants Erased My Soul

    I no longer exist thanks to antidepressants, which have completely destroyed my soul. Here is my story: EP Link
    DeVoid DeVoid 31-35, M May 2, 2011

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    I Get Mad At Myself Because I Still Can't Get It Though My Head

    That I don't matter. I keep trying to and sometimes get to a point that I think I do. Then whenever I show just a little self esteem it comes crashing back to me that I am different from other people and I have to stay in the shadows and just go along in life being a doormat...
    GiGiLafoo GiGiLafoo 46-50, F Mar 13, 2010

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    Thats the One

    after a year of deep and meaningful thought i reached the conclusion that i do not exist, simply due to the fact that this illusion of existence is so pointless and painful that if it was real i wont be able to cope with it. it may not be sane but it works.
    Arktos Arktos 16-17, M Mar 25, 2008

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    The Mind's I Does Not Appear In The Mirror

    When I look in the mirror I see all these eyes and mouth and stuff, and when I look into my past I see all these actions, friends, enemies, events, etc. I'm nothing of that. I'm freedom, I'm consciousness. I'm the will to do or not even try. I'm the consciousness that allows for...
    SeaofThought SeaofThought 36-40, M Nov 18, 2010

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    The one I was doesn't exist And never did He's

    dead, like they all are I'm empty And I can't prove my existence
    Xnow Xnow 16-17, M Sep 10, 2014

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    Where Am I?

    The eyes they will see The nose it will smell The toungue it will taste The ears they hear well But where am I? The brain it will think The mouth it will talk The heart it will sing These legs they will walk but amongst all of these I see no me
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 28, 2011

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    Invisible...

    I am invisible. I do not exist outside of my own mind. I am just a figment of your imagination. Do not speak to the imaginary person standing next to you as you critisize her every being, laughing at what is left of her soul... It won't hurt anyone.. For I do not exist
    FolsomOrchid FolsomOrchid 26-30, F Jul 31, 2008

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    My Brother

    He's only half, on my mom's side. He had it rough as a kid and uses it as an excuse to completely ignore me. He had to go overseas when I was in high school. I sometimes wish he had died there and spare me these negative thoughts that are overwhelming.
    Bridgernin Bridgernin 22-25, F 1 Response May 27, 2012

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    My mind seems to be racing through millions of thoughts tonight, and I can honestly say that sleep feels so far away at this moment. I often wonder about life, and about my purpose...
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    I don't believe in God. When I say it out loud, it's hard for me to understand why. I've always believed in God as a kid. I was raised that God heals all and we must pray everyday...
    Shygal3029876 Shygal3029876 18-21, F 8 hrs ago

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    I totally respect and admire the fact of two people devoting themselves to each other for as long as they live, but I feel marriage is a way of requiring someone to stick around...
    blazinbree blazinbree 18-21, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    to have a boyfriend or girl friend it is only ever about looks figure how good you are in bed 3 main thing's men or women go for I don't have eny of them advantages I just don't...
    susangoga susangoga 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    When you don't feel happy, I'll love you LOL! When you feel lonely and sad, you can think about the new place you want to go, the country you want to travel to and the good things...
    HappyOrUnhappy HappyOrUnhappy 13-15, M 1 day ago

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    I have many, many medical issues physical and emotional and am only 28 years old. I cannot get permanent disability I keep trying though but meanwhile I am on temporary disability...
    butterflyangels2387 butterflyangels2387 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    my early suicide note. Dear Vanessa, My good old friend, I let you down, I can't change what I am or become happy, I only pretend, I keep hurting my friends and I am...
    psychopuppet23 psychopuppet23 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Frankly, my relationship with my mother sucks. I do not want it to suck. I do not want to be angry with her, but I am so tired. I moved back home over a year ago to get my life...
    DV527 DV527 26-30, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Perfect responses for these: "You'll change your mind": How do you know? You're not a fortune teller. Or: You'll change yours about wanting kids. "You're selfish!": Thank you for...
    Peridot22 Peridot22 22-25, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    It is horrible. I don't care if it is not a person yet, it will one day be a person. Even if can't afford to take care of it, or don't want it, give it up for adoption. If you don...
    AnyExperience AnyExperience 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    I am a disappointment. I am nothingness in the sense of the word. I don't belong here. I've known this for a very long time. life and love are not deserved here. not then not now...
    ForgetableMe ForgetableMe 31-35, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I think the problem is, a lot of times, parents don't try to understand. I don't think mine ever do. There's a video by a YouTuber called SuliBreaks, called "Parents are the...
    TheOpeningViolinist TheOpeningViolinist 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I don't wear makeup for a few reasons. The first is I have sensitive skin and most makeup makes me breakout. I have found a brand that doesn't so far though. The second is I just...
    EurydiceKallos EurydiceKallos 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I just lose myself sometimes. I know that I am strong and that I can make it through a lot of things, but when it seems like, with the exception of some friends, that I am the only...
    AverageJane123 AverageJane123 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I'm sorry to all of you who are over weight and might fell like this is rude, but its not. If your over weight then I don't hate you no, its just that I don't support people who...
    kelseypalmer08 kelseypalmer08 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    Hi! I am new in this website, and I have this little story. See, me and my dad never got along. We have nothing in common except watching Hey Arnold show that has a character named...
    TApostol TApostol 18-21, F a week ago

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    Again I'm trying to cry, It doesn't work no matter how hard I try, Part of me is dead the rest will soon die, Im left here ready for my good bye, My past haunts me, my pain isn't...
    psychopuppet23 psychopuppet23 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I fear I'll be stuck in a life which is dull. Especially as soon, the majority of people around my age will start to settle down and become boring. My best hope is probably a...
    usernameinneed usernameinneed 26-30, M Jul 19

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    I am gloriously 40 next month, genuinely looking forward to it. I also have a 23 year old daughter from a previous (read, teenage fling) relationship. I love my daughter...
    milotank milotank 36-40, F 3 Responses Jul 19

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    I haven't posted in a long while, but my mind has been clouded with many thoughts about my future and life as a whole. I'm worried about my future. I'm worried about how things are...
    AcousticSoul17 AcousticSoul17 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    Mostly just wonder why the men look at me. I'd rather nobody stared at me. I think it has to do with men wanting to compare themselves and feel better about themselves. Gonna start...
    Nixed Nixed 31-35, M Jul 18

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    I want to start with a disclaimer: I am not being hateful and am trying my best not to be judgmental, so please don't attack me for my lack of understanding. I don't understand...
    anhonestgirl anhonestgirl 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    I know that suicide isn’t allowed in Christianity. But I have already failed God. I am already a walking sin. I’m nothing worth saving. I’m nothing worth pitying. I am...
    colourflame colourflame 13-15, F 5 Responses Jul 17

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    I'm not even fully aware of what happened. I mean, I'm not really close to much of anyone in my family, or even out of it. But I don't understand why I have such a hard time with...
    dwyli33 dwyli33 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    I don't have a meaning in life or even an existence. Everyone I've ever truly cared about wants to leave me. Life is too hard. Wish I could have chosen a difficulty... I can't do...
    ZER0RPHEUS ZER0RPHEUS 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    Don't judge me for my Imperfections Don't judge me for my Flaws Don't judge me for my mistakes Don't judge me for my Appearance Don't judge me for my way of living Don't judge...
    AnnaSamanthaJohnson AnnaSamanthaJohnson 16-17, F 4 Responses Jul 15

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    I am 23 years old. I have made $350,000 dollars in the last five years. I have a two and a half year old son. His mother and i have been involved in a very bitter lawsuit for the...
    ihavenoimaginationatall ihavenoimaginationatall 22-25, M Jul 15

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