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I Don't Exist

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    There In No Me In Reality, And There Is No You Either

    The thought of a ME that exists. Is only a thought that is happening RIGHT NOW. there is actually no ME in reality. Its like this, the thought of a unicorn appears, does that make the unicorn itself exist in reality no the only thing that exists in reality is the THOUGHT of a...
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 9 Responses Jan 2, 2011

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    Antidepressants Erased My Soul

    I no longer exist thanks to antidepressants, which have completely destroyed my soul. Here is my story: EP Link
    DeVoid DeVoid 31-35, M May 2, 2011

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    Nothing

    In this world I am nothing. :'(
    Haruhi16 Haruhi16 16-17 2 Responses Sep 7, 2012

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    Seriously

    Not such a bad thing, seeming how it takes the pressure off of many things.... Don't know when it started, maybe its an obvious consequence of losing interest in everything and alienating myself from people... I am severed from everything and my life is just that...a life, not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 12, 2011

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    My Brother

    He's only half, on my mom's side. He had it rough as a kid and uses it as an excuse to completely ignore me. He had to go overseas when I was in high school. I sometimes wish he had died there and spare me these negative thoughts that are overwhelming.
    Bridgernin Bridgernin 22-25, F 1 Response May 27, 2012

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    Je N'existe Pas...

    car je suis le vide . . . . . . .
    Vide Vide 21-25, M Nov 27, 2007

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    Fawlessly Orchestrated Illusion

    I don't exist, It is true. I am just a picture in your mind based on whatever limited sense of knowledge you have about me and your emotional reaction to those vague images. It doesn't really matter if you met me once in passing or if you are my lover, for no matter how elaborate...
    CopperCoil CopperCoil 36-40, M 6 Responses Jul 11, 2008

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    I Get Mad At Myself Because I Still Can't Get It Though My Head

    That I don't matter. I keep trying to and sometimes get to a point that I think I do. Then whenever I show just a little self esteem it comes crashing back to me that I am different from other people and I have to stay in the shadows and just go along in life being a doormat...
    GiGiLafoo GiGiLafoo 46-50, F Mar 13, 2010

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    The one I was doesn't exist And never did He's

    dead, like they all are I'm empty And I can't prove my existence
    Xnow Xnow 16-17, M Sep 10, 2014

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    The Mind's I Does Not Appear In The Mirror

    When I look in the mirror I see all these eyes and mouth and stuff, and when I look into my past I see all these actions, friends, enemies, events, etc. I'm nothing of that. I'm freedom, I'm consciousness. I'm the will to do or not even try. I'm the consciousness that allows for...
    SeaofThought SeaofThought 36-40, M Nov 18, 2010

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    LIke I Was Never There

    Now i normaly feel this way but right now it is really bothering me because right now i am on this website that i go on and u can chat with people and see them. This guy that was trying to be friends wit and i were talking then all of a sudden more people come in and i dont exist...
    Darkfarey Darkfarey 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 25, 2009

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    Thats the One

    after a year of deep and meaningful thought i reached the conclusion that i do not exist, simply due to the fact that this illusion of existence is so pointless and painful that if it was real i wont be able to cope with it. it may not be sane but it works.
    Arktos Arktos 16-18, M Mar 25, 2008

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    Invisible...

    I am invisible. I do not exist outside of my own mind. I am just a figment of your imagination. Do not speak to the imaginary person standing next to you as you critisize her every being, laughing at what is left of her soul... It won't hurt anyone.. For I do not exist
    FolsomOrchid FolsomOrchid 26-30, F Jul 31, 2008

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    Where Am I?

    The eyes they will see The nose it will smell The toungue it will taste The ears they hear well But where am I? The brain it will think The mouth it will talk The heart it will sing These legs they will walk but amongst all of these I see no me
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 28, 2011

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    I Don't Have A Life... Therefore I Don't Exist

    I'm not even in my right state of mind right now, so this is just rambling. I'm not even concentrating. This won't make any sense. I've been in the military for almost a year now, and I've always knew I never mattered to anyone before then. It wasn't until now that I just don't...
    jf31 jf31 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 20, 2011

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    On Being Nowhere

    As I walked upon the stair, I met a girl who wasn't there. She wasn't there again today, gee I wish she'd go away.
    will999 will999 61-65, M Jul 27, 2013

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    well people being bullied is not as bad as being ignored because at least they now you exist
    juicy1233 juicy1233 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 16

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    I always just ignore them and try to wish them away. Probably not good for me, right?
    BriFrey18 BriFrey18 13-15, M Jan 5

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    It's not that I don't love my wife and son. I can't imagine my life without them. I still feel very confined, however, by the social and legal pressures that come with having a...
    onlymortal onlymortal 26-30, M 7 hrs ago

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    "I wanna know what it's like, to be on the inside of love. Standing in-front of the gates, I see the beauty above" -Nada Surf Love... "People say the words, they sing the songs...
    YukaPlant YukaPlant 18-21, F 21 hrs ago

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    I was raised catholic...well not in a strict catholic manner...we frequently went to church. Before tucking me in I always said a prayer with my mother and at school we had...
    mishale80 mishale80 31-35, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    I get a little annoyed at the ignorance of people insisting that there is some magical cosmic force, called Karma, that will punish people they don't like. You have Christians...
    LifeHunter LifeHunter 31-35, M Jan 6

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    I'm certain God doesn't exist. Why? When you die, your brain shuts down. That's it. Besides, if God existed, something would've had to create him, and something would've had to...
    ftmFreddy ftmFreddy 18-21, T 4 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    Yuck. I feel like crap. Went out with some friends last night & although it was great to see them, I don't miss the bar scene or The drinking. They kept buying drink after drink...
    Stickwithmebabe Stickwithmebabe 36-40, F 6 hrs ago

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    The sad part is although my heart is broken I don't care because i'd suffer endlessly to see you happy. If that means you're happy with another woman than so be it. You mean more...
    cydneyxx cydneyxx 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    This gentleman Elder Sander from the Mormon church decided to talk to me. It was really nice though. Talking to him as a person. It felt nice. I hadn't had a good conversation in a...
    YukaPlant YukaPlant 18-21, F 22 hrs ago

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    I remember sitting in church with my parents when I was 14 and thinking I just don't believe any of this anymore. I really had no choice but to finish the confirmation program in...
    nogods4me nogods4me 41-45, M 3 hrs ago

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    It's not that i never want kids because that would be a lie; I know that i am definitely not ready for one. I am 16 and honestly i want to be like 30 and have my first baby. I want...
    lolawolf lolawolf 16-17, F 7 hrs ago

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    I'm obsessed with you, is it your eyes. I don’t know. I can't stop thinking about you. Part of me want to tell you how I feel. To let it all out, without any regrets. The other...
    aiofa aiofa 31-35, F 42 mins ago

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    Me and my boyfriend have been dating for a year. And I know he loves me but I just don't feel it, he does stuff like forget our anniversary, says he can't afford to take me out for...
    douglala20 douglala20 16-17, F 18 hrs ago

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    Today I made plans with a fellow co-worker and was ready and waiting on her to pick me up when I get a text saying she isn't coming anymore but then I see on her snapchat story she...
    Brensmith17 Brensmith17 18-21, F 2 hrs ago

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    What I would do, what I would give not to cuddle with just any random person but with that one special person. Unfortunately, I've come to understand that person doesn't exist for...
    Weretiger Weretiger 26-30 Jan 15

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    I'm a waste of space. Why do I exist? No one likes me. I don't want to commit suicide because then I'll go to Hell. But I'm not worthy of going to Heaven. I guess I'm getting...
    PurplePuppy68 PurplePuppy68 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 16

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    I don't know if it's because of all the experiences I've had working with children but it's definitely convinced me to not have kids. That, and I don't think I'll ever be satisfied...
    EmmyChi EmmyChi 22-25 2 Responses Jan 18

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    I'm curious about how I look like in the opinions of others. Honest opinions are great but please don't be too mean. :) Here's a picture of my face and body.
    PassionateIndifference PassionateIndifference 13-15, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    I don't understand why people care about the Illuminati. People can say 'Illuminati confirmed' just as easily as I can say 'Half Life 3 confirmed,' or 'God confirmed,' or even...
    JohnBobMac JohnBobMac 16-17, T 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    I listen to music quite often and who don't. The moment music penetrates our room walls and hit the eardrum of others, it become noise. Its not being decent music lover and its...
    Rightherenow Rightherenow 26-30, M 9 hrs ago

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    I never believed in love, never experienced it, I say it but don't feel it, and my life is full of hate
    craz3f8g craz3f8g 18-21 6 hrs ago

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    Once I did bother about others'opinions about me.Now I don't allow them to bother me as I know they are just opinions of someone and not a true reflection of who I am.
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 3 hrs ago

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    So after years of marriage, kids, friends, cars, boats, houses you decide you want out. Ok good to be an adult and say so. But you should not EVER forget that you still have...
    avgjoe71 avgjoe71 41-45, M 1 Response Jan 1

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    Shared via a very good friend of mine an author, and a amazing mystic herself.. A mystic is a wild creature. She is made. She is deliberately forged by something mysterious. She...
    musicmatters1111 musicmatters1111 36-40, M 1 Response Jan 15

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    So I haven't been going to church in awhile. I keep telling myself that I will go but never do. I think I have doubts about God existing. I've been wondering if I really believe in...
    DiamondInTheSkye DiamondInTheSkye 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    I found something very interesting (although overall not surprising) about this forum. Every popular and top hearted post on this forum, is from a female. Of course it's probably...
    theycallmetk theycallmetk 16-17, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Whether god exists or not makes no difference in my life. I respect your beliefs but don't try and pretend that your FAITH is relevant to MY life. I would rather side with LOGIC...
    QuixoticConquistador QuixoticConquistador 26-30, M 27 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    Hello everyone. Up until this point (for several years) I have decided to stay silent and observe posts similar to this one. Now, here on this website, on thos particular group it...
    Abufihamat Abufihamat 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    ooh that first kiss! ;) I have had millions of first kiss. Each time with the man whom I or will adore and loved. Sometimes funny. Sometimes sweet. Then, there are those awkward...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    My family where I was born into doesn't exist. I have more trust and loyalty with friends.
    Tantalum Tantalum 46-50, F Jan 13

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