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I Don't Exist

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    I Don't Have A Life... Therefore I Don't Exist

    I'm not even in my right state of mind right now, so this is just rambling. I'm not even concentrating. This won't make any sense. I've been in the military for almost a year now, and I've always knew I never mattered to anyone before then. It wasn't until now that I just don't...
    jf31 jf31 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 20, 2011

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    Thats the One

    after a year of deep and meaningful thought i reached the conclusion that i do not exist, simply due to the fact that this illusion of existence is so pointless and painful that if it was real i wont be able to cope with it. it may not be sane but it works.
    Arktos Arktos 16-18, M Mar 25, 2008

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    Je N'existe Pas...

    car je suis le vide . . . . . . .
    Vide Vide 21-25, M Nov 27, 2007

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    On Being Nowhere

    As I walked upon the stair, I met a girl who wasn't there. She wasn't there again today, gee I wish she'd go away.
    will999 will999 61-65, M Jul 27, 2013

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    Invisible...

    I am invisible. I do not exist outside of my own mind. I am just a figment of your imagination. Do not speak to the imaginary person standing next to you as you critisize her every being, laughing at what is left of her soul... It won't hurt anyone.. For I do not exist
    FolsomOrchid FolsomOrchid 26-30, F Jul 31, 2008

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    Where Am I?

    The eyes they will see The nose it will smell The toungue it will taste The ears they hear well But where am I? The brain it will think The mouth it will talk The heart it will sing These legs they will walk but amongst all of these I see no me
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 28, 2011

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    Nothing

    In this world I am nothing. :'(
    Haruhi16 Haruhi16 16-17 2 Responses Sep 7, 2012

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    Antidepressants Erased My Soul

    I no longer exist thanks to antidepressants, which have completely destroyed my soul. Here is my story: EP Link
    DeVoid DeVoid 31-35, M May 2, 2011

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    My Brother

    He's only half, on my mom's side. He had it rough as a kid and uses it as an excuse to completely ignore me. He had to go overseas when I was in high school. I sometimes wish he had died there and spare me these negative thoughts that are overwhelming.
    Bridgernin Bridgernin 22-25, F 1 Response May 27, 2012

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    Fawlessly Orchestrated Illusion

    I don't exist, It is true. I am just a picture in your mind based on whatever limited sense of knowledge you have about me and your emotional reaction to those vague images. It doesn't really matter if you met me once in passing or if you are my lover, for no matter how elaborate...
    CopperCoil CopperCoil 36-40, M 6 Responses Jul 11, 2008

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    Seriously

    Not such a bad thing, seeming how it takes the pressure off of many things.... Don't know when it started, maybe its an obvious consequence of losing interest in everything and alienating myself from people... I am severed from everything and my life is just that...a life, not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 12, 2011

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    The one I was doesn't exist And never did He's

    dead, like they all are I'm empty And I can't prove my existence
    Xnow Xnow 16-17, M a week ago

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    The Mind's I Does Not Appear In The Mirror

    When I look in the mirror I see all these eyes and mouth and stuff, and when I look into my past I see all these actions, friends, enemies, events, etc. I'm nothing of that. I'm freedom, I'm consciousness. I'm the will to do or not even try. I'm the consciousness that allows for...
    SeaofThought SeaofThought 36-40, M Nov 18, 2010

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    I Get Mad At Myself Because I Still Can't Get It Though My Head

    That I don't matter. I keep trying to and sometimes get to a point that I think I do. Then whenever I show just a little self esteem it comes crashing back to me that I am different from other people and I have to stay in the shadows and just go along in life being a doormat...
    GiGiLafoo GiGiLafoo 46-50, F Mar 13, 2010

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    There In No Me In Reality, And There Is No You Either

    The thought of a ME that exists. Is only a thought that is happening RIGHT NOW. there is actually no ME in reality. Its like this, the thought of a unicorn appears, does that make the unicorn itself exist in reality no the only thing that exists in reality is the THOUGHT of a...
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 9 Responses Jan 2, 2011

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    LIke I Was Never There

    Now i normaly feel this way but right now it is really bothering me because right now i am on this website that i go on and u can chat with people and see them. This guy that was trying to be friends wit and i were talking then all of a sudden more people come in and i dont exist...
    Darkfarey Darkfarey 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 25, 2009

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    People often ask me (especially in this nation of drunks we call Australia!) why I don't drink or smoke. I tell them that it saves me dollars and brain cells - and I don't have...
    murphysmaster murphysmaster 51-55, M 4 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    My intention with this post isn't to be inflammatory, but to rather state what I believe and why. I don't think less of people who believe in god, in some ways I envy them. I don't...
    dontknowmylife dontknowmylife 18-21, M 3 Responses Sep 8

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    It seems a common misconception among theists I talk to that atheists don't believe in god because they think they have some definitive proof that Go does not exist. That isn't...
    Leannaix Leannaix 18-21, F 5 Responses Sep 8

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    I am a 14 year old that has relationship problems with my mother. I recall constantly getting bullied in my elementary years because of my social awkwardness. I remember my mom...
    anushkapatel44 anushkapatel44 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    I want to have self-control and self-discipline but it's something that I lack. I have so many wonderful ideas and plans but it seems like motivation fades when it comes time to...
    TheDiscardedImage TheDiscardedImage 36-40, F 6 days ago

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    Warning- highly controversial, read with an open mind.. I am not a smart man, nor a rich man, hell, I didn't even finish high school- but like most of us I see through the smoke...
    Shedog99 Shedog99 70+, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Ugh. This has plagued me my whole life. Even as hard as I try there's still something awkward in my approach. I wish I wasn't such a people pleaser at times and I've been told that...
    tessa4ever tessa4ever 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 9

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    Obtaining hard to locate assets for assistance with alcohol, drug along with other rehab relevant challenges is exactly what FreeRehabCenters.Our Georgetown outpatient drug and...
    William162d6ol9 William162d6ol9 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 20

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    I know that i am existing and not living and that is a real thing. It hurts a s i know but what i can do as for my health situation and for being trapped in a lot of issues that...
    Egyptianguy34 Egyptianguy34 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 22

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    Why don't people understand that I am who I am. Yes I'm socially awkward. Yes I'm shy. Yes I'm crazy, insecure and confused. But I am still me. No one seems to understand me or...
    ScarletWilliams ScarletWilliams 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 23

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    Have you ever felt like you just want to break down in tears and you don't know why? Only to find you have no more tears left to cry? I feel empty - numb, almost as if existing...
    TaintedSnowflakes TaintedSnowflakes 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    Good guys finish last? Nope, don't think so. There's a misconception that "good guys" are generally idiots, just because we're kind doesn't mean were idiots. I hate it when people...
    TheTrueStory TheTrueStory 70+ 5 days ago

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    It doesn't exist it really doesn't
    fuglygirlonthebench fuglygirlonthebench 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 19

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    Ever since I was 14 years old, I never wanted to have kids. I have no maternal instincts and don't like being around kids very long. Even though I live with my parents, I love my...
    inspirelove inspirelove 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 18

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    Center of attention once again but you don't understand no you don't understand then they try to tell me who i am but they don't understand no...you want a perfect picture to...
    Yovanna Yovanna 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    This is a song by Dido and it very nicely describes how I feel about love. How I am capable of falling in love deeply yet I hold myself back for my own good. "Don't Believe In...
    daeneryss daeneryss 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Today I was talking with one of my EP friends about how a guy on here ignored me for no apparent reason. No matter what I tried to say to him, he wouldn't respond.. I don't believe...
    Tazzu Tazzu 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 18

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    I read about all these, "I am the other woman/man" and about how much it sucks that they aren't there when u need them... I don't get it, is there some sort of thrill being the...
    Besidmyself Besidmyself 31-35, F Aug 18

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    I'm primarily writing this to the vets out there. My name is John. I'm a Vietnam Vet. Class of 68-69. I know how tough it is to come back to the "world" and pick up life where you...
    lifeisforfree lifeisforfree 61-65, M Aug 18

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    I just don't get it. I'm good in school. I'm always getting good marks and awards. And I'm working especially hard to get into a good science set in year 9 because I want to get...
    ofsquidgyandcarlile ofsquidgyandcarlile 13-15, F Aug 19

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    Well this is not d ideal experience, I was going for d title "I don't like asking for too much". Anyways, I really don't, I don't like feeling like a burden but over d years...
    Someoneatschoolfoundme Someoneatschoolfoundme 16-17, F Aug 19

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    The reasons I don't have friends is because I like everything old. And I don't like anything that's new. Old tv shows, old cars, ect. I don't fit in with my younger generation...
    Justadarkhole Justadarkhole 18-21, M Aug 19

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    I don't know if I should answer him "yes", because I don't know which is which, is it because I love him or pity him? I don't even know what should I feel about him right now...
    Misaki7590 Misaki7590 16-17, F Aug 22

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    I am 29 and finally admitting to myself that I don't like or really love my father. On paper he's the perfect Dad. Despite the divorce with my Mum and periods of separation he...
    wombattle wombattle 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 22

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    I think it's childish and often collusive "My fren blocked you so im blocking you too 'cos my fren says im not her fren if i don't do what she does and she's my fren so i...
    mickyisback mickyisback 51-55, M 4 Responses Aug 23

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    It happened to me yesterday and I still don't know what to think about it. There already is someone I already love (we're not in a relationship though, I wrote about it in my...
    GlowingHeart GlowingHeart 18-21, F Aug 24

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    I want to do whatever makes me happy, I want let out the free spirit I have in my mind. I wanted to be a nurse, but I noticed how complicated it is getting into nursing schools in...
    EbbsBreaux EbbsBreaux 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 25

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    I asked her calmly and politely if she could please not leave a bunch of clutter on the kitchen counters. Usually I just ignore it and end up cleaning it all up myself, but I'm...
    noodleloaf noodleloaf 36-40, M 1 Response Aug 28

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    I do believe that people that need drugs and alcohol are just throwing their lives away, I personally don't have any troubles with anyone drinking around me but the drugs have got...
    acissej10 acissej10 13-15, F 6 Responses Aug 30

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