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I Don't Exist

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    Antidepressants Erased My Soul

    I no longer exist thanks to antidepressants, which have completely destroyed my soul. Here is my story: EP Link
    DeVoid DeVoid 31-35, M May 2, 2011

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    Je N'existe Pas...

    car je suis le vide . . . . . . .
    Vide Vide 21-25, M Nov 27, 2007

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    LIke I Was Never There

    Now i normaly feel this way but right now it is really bothering me because right now i am on this website that i go on and u can chat with people and see them. This guy that was trying to be friends wit and i were talking then all of a sudden more people come in and i dont exist...
    Darkfarey Darkfarey 18-21, F 5 Responses Jul 25, 2009

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    Thats the One

    after a year of deep and meaningful thought i reached the conclusion that i do not exist, simply due to the fact that this illusion of existence is so pointless and painful that if it was real i wont be able to cope with it. it may not be sane but it works.
    Arktos Arktos 16-18, M Mar 25, 2008

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    Nothing

    In this world I am nothing. :'(
    Haruhi16 Haruhi16 16-17 2 Responses Sep 7, 2012

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    Where Am I?

    The eyes they will see The nose it will smell The toungue it will taste The ears they hear well But where am I? The brain it will think The mouth it will talk The heart it will sing These legs they will walk but amongst all of these I see no me
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 28, 2011

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    The one I was doesn't exist And never did He's

    dead, like they all are I'm empty And I can't prove my existence
    Xnow Xnow 16-17, M Sep 10

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    The Mind's I Does Not Appear In The Mirror

    When I look in the mirror I see all these eyes and mouth and stuff, and when I look into my past I see all these actions, friends, enemies, events, etc. I'm nothing of that. I'm freedom, I'm consciousness. I'm the will to do or not even try. I'm the consciousness that allows for...
    SeaofThought SeaofThought 36-40, M Nov 18, 2010

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    I Don't Have A Life... Therefore I Don't Exist

    I'm not even in my right state of mind right now, so this is just rambling. I'm not even concentrating. This won't make any sense. I've been in the military for almost a year now, and I've always knew I never mattered to anyone before then. It wasn't until now that I just don't...
    jf31 jf31 22-25, M 2 Responses Feb 20, 2011

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    Invisible...

    I am invisible. I do not exist outside of my own mind. I am just a figment of your imagination. Do not speak to the imaginary person standing next to you as you critisize her every being, laughing at what is left of her soul... It won't hurt anyone.. For I do not exist
    FolsomOrchid FolsomOrchid 26-30, F Jul 31, 2008

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    On Being Nowhere

    As I walked upon the stair, I met a girl who wasn't there. She wasn't there again today, gee I wish she'd go away.
    will999 will999 61-65, M Jul 27, 2013

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    I Get Mad At Myself Because I Still Can't Get It Though My Head

    That I don't matter. I keep trying to and sometimes get to a point that I think I do. Then whenever I show just a little self esteem it comes crashing back to me that I am different from other people and I have to stay in the shadows and just go along in life being a doormat...
    GiGiLafoo GiGiLafoo 46-50, F Mar 13, 2010

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    My Brother

    He's only half, on my mom's side. He had it rough as a kid and uses it as an excuse to completely ignore me. He had to go overseas when I was in high school. I sometimes wish he had died there and spare me these negative thoughts that are overwhelming.
    Bridgernin Bridgernin 22-25, F 1 Response May 27, 2012

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    There In No Me In Reality, And There Is No You Either

    The thought of a ME that exists. Is only a thought that is happening RIGHT NOW. there is actually no ME in reality. Its like this, the thought of a unicorn appears, does that make the unicorn itself exist in reality no the only thing that exists in reality is the THOUGHT of a...
    BodhiSvaha BodhiSvaha 22-25, M 9 Responses Jan 2, 2011

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    Seriously

    Not such a bad thing, seeming how it takes the pressure off of many things.... Don't know when it started, maybe its an obvious consequence of losing interest in everything and alienating myself from people... I am severed from everything and my life is just that...a life, not...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jun 12, 2011

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    Fawlessly Orchestrated Illusion

    I don't exist, It is true. I am just a picture in your mind based on whatever limited sense of knowledge you have about me and your emotional reaction to those vague images. It doesn't really matter if you met me once in passing or if you are my lover, for no matter how elaborate...
    CopperCoil CopperCoil 36-40, M 6 Responses Jul 11, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    Sorry in advance for the sob story. Growing up, I was always felt as if I was the thrid wheel or tag along around friends. Like many children I was the subject of bullying up...
    ToddleLoaf ToddleLoaf 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 6

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    Haha, bigots are always a bundle of fun, aren't they?? Considering I come from the Southern United States, they are absolutely everywhere, and you just learn to tune them out; you...
    Boulier Boulier 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 10

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    When I used to have a good job and earning money, have status in life. My mum used to say lots of nice things about me not that she's nasty to me now. But somehow she always says...
    Cinderella73 Cinderella73 36-40, F 6 days ago

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    It's like I'm talking to a brick wall. Almost as if I don't exist at all. I don't know what's worse, people who don't listen, or people with selective hearing. I'd at least love to...
    alexis3000 alexis3000 18-21, F 5 days ago

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    I don't like Christmas because of what I've learned as a child. The whole Santa Claus, elves and reindeer tales are great and fit the winter just fine, but don't tell children that...
    RailansDad RailansDad 26-30, M 3 hrs ago

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    "Don't say you love me. You don't even know me. if you really want me then give me some time. Don't go there baby. not before I'm ready. don't say your heart's in a hurry. it's...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F 9 hrs ago

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    Not even close. i spent the holidays with them once in like 19 years and it ended in disaster. im just not a sociable person. i don't always like to go out and do stuff. i don't...
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 6 hrs ago

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    I have done so many sexual stuff in public but as soon as I'm in a mood, don't touch me or kiss me, just hold my hand I don't wanna be suffocated by your love unless I want it
    Jusjellybean Jusjellybean 18-21, F 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I'm staying with my grandparents and father for the week instead of my mother, who I'd rather be with. Yes, I felt it was right to come here, but it doesn't change the fact that I...
    left4deadspace left4deadspace 16-17, M 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I contracted Herpes about a month ago. Right now, I am on vacation in California. My 4 year old daughter has been telling me that her throat is sore and her tongue hurts. (She...
    EczemaHerpes EczemaHerpes 26-30, F 6 hrs ago

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    I love you is a quasi commitment in the world of love so if you don't mean it, it'll only give false hope to someone. False hope means heartbreak. Heartbreak means pain and sadness...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F 2 Responses 12 hrs ago

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    I live in a family of hippies. That is not an exaggeration. Actual hippies. Vegan, colorful, dope-smoking, anti-government, free-spirited hippies. And I love them to death, I...
    jt1799 jt1799 13-15, F 5 hrs ago

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    I don't know if I should be sad or frustrated or infuriated......
    Leopard3487 Leopard3487 18-21, F 3 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I really don't. Wake up every day, so tired and defeated that have to live another day, and that‘s even if I do sleep, which is extremely rare anymore. Have to force myself to...
    GhostOfGrey GhostOfGrey 31-35, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    Sometimes, I will meet someone who knew me from when I was younger, before I came to live with my parents. They laugh and smile and look at me in wonder as they ask after how tall...
    Newydd Newydd 18-21 16 hrs ago

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    Ever since I heard about the word "soul mate", I always pondered whether it was true or not and I don't believe it is. I am very practical, so I was always a skeptic, anyway, but I...
    sesi1116 sesi1116 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Throughout my entire life I have always noticed how hard it is for me to form genuine connections with people. I am generally quite different from most people. The things that I...
    chelsieshay2626 chelsieshay2626 18-21, F Dec 4

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    You put your heart on the line for that person, You give it to him and tell him it is his to keep or break, exposing all what you are to him. All of your imperfections and...
    susipsikopat susipsikopat 22-25, F 7 Responses Dec 16

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    Have you ever met or talked to someone that you'll never forget even if you don't talk to them anymore because you're too afraid of that specific unknown dimension? It's hard to...
    OMgirldata OMgirldata 18-21, F Dec 7

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    I don't fear death because I've felt like I was dead for the longest. Nothing is more fearful in my opinion, then living a dead life....existing instead of thriving and living...
    SpanishRose10 SpanishRose10 31-35, F a week ago

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    My love is 23 years older than me. We met a few years ago online via AgeMeet.com. It was totally platonic but I broke off contact due to doing other things in my life, I wasn't...
    toylycc11 toylycc11 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    My love is 23 years older than me. We met a few years ago online via AgeMeet.com. It was totally platonic but I broke off contact due to doing other things in my life, I wasn't...
    toylycc11 toylycc11 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 26

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    My love is 23 years older than me. We met a few years ago online via AgeMeet.com. It was totally platonic but I broke off contact due to doing other things in my life, I wasn't...
    cassiecc11 cassiecc11 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 4

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    My love is 23 years older than me. We met a few years ago online via AgeMeet.com. It was totally platonic but I broke off contact due to doing other things in my life, I wasn't...
    candycc12 candycc12 26-30, F 2 Responses Dec 8

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    So, b*tches, you can't break something which doesn't exist
    BeingMe98 BeingMe98 16-17, M Dec 18

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    I'm only 16.. 3 years ago I cut myself and I have been doing it on and off since then. I don't understand what's wrong with me. I'd be out with my friends, enjoying my time. Then...
    Aly262 Aly262 16-17 1 Response Dec 1

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    Why? Why did you feel the need to ask my name and why did you feel the need to introduce yourself? I have seen you around for months and you never felt the need to say one word...
    socialdis socialdis 41-45, M 1 Response Nov 26

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    I really don't care. I accepted way back that not everyone is going to like me. Sure it may have bothered me a time or two. Now What bothers me is people who pretend to like me but...
    lake1107 lake1107 31-35, F Nov 29

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    I have this friend of mine. sometimes I really don't know how to describe her. I did so much but come to this point of time. I feel that she don't appreciate it? everytime when I...
    AnnxJoy AnnxJoy 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    It is sad, I live in a society where girls are brought up in such a way that their only dream becomes to get married and have kids. Regardless of all the changes that happened to...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 3

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    I really don't have any idea who I am or where I want to go in life. I'm on high school and am constantly questioned as to my goals in life. But I don't have any. I don't know what...
    Kylie2432 Kylie2432 16-17, T Dec 4