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I Don't Have a Kind Heart, I Have a Hurt Hateful Heart

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    Everyone says, I have such a kind heart, such a lovely heart, a heart of gold, but I don't feel that way. I have a really hateful hurt heart right now. I have been attacked, I have been bruised, and I have been hurt, and its taking me a little more than a few days to get over it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Aug 14, 2009

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    Deception...

    Im not really sure of who I am...it seems I can be kind and I can be hateful, depending on the pain others give...but im almost never kind when im away from EP... ...it is then that i am surrounded by strangers that probably dont understand...and then i feel alone...
    ConLocura ConLocura 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 20, 2009

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