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I Dont Have A Wall Around Me

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    No Defences

    Lots of people naturally enough use their self-image to make a pattern of defences to be able to fend off aspects of life which they feel they are either not prepared to deal with, or aren't empowered in themselves to comprehend. It is a complexity of personality. They say there...
    Anuledroan Anuledroan 18-21, F Jan 12, 2013

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    Walls of protection. Can be built from sorrow, abuse, or just fear. For some we give all or none, for me it is usually all. The wall crumbles life is good then all at once it...
    Leeand29 Leeand29 51-55, F Nov 22

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    Believe me, I didn't used to!! I was open, naive, trusting. Well those days are gone.:( I have been hurt a few times in my life...have let my heart get broken. Then I build up...
    RubyLane RubyLane 41-45, F 4 Responses Nov 22

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    Let my walls down for a boy. Ended up getting hurt. I always am the the one who gets hurt. Guess it's time to start rebuilding and keeping everyone out. This time I'm not gonna be...
    jajolly12 jajolly12 13-15, F Dec 9

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    There is a quote that goes 'the heart wants what the heart wants.' I believe a heart that is hurting wants different things to what the happy heart wants. So which one do you go...
    wtf70 wtf70 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 18

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    A few months ago I was joking with a friend. I told her I was in a love hate relationship. I hate that I love him. She gave me the best advice ever. She said protect your heart...
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F Nov 18

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    My panic attacks have always been the worst. It was so severe a while ago, but it's getting better. I used to have at least 10 anxiety attacks per day. Now? It's down to none (I do...
    losingNemo losingNemo 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 1

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    I wonder how many guys have had crushes on me in school because seriously nobody ever made a move.. or it was me that didn't realize or made a wall around me..
    meandmythought meandmythought 26-30, F Nov 19

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    So I just really need to vent about this stuff so this is going to be a pretty long post... But in a nutshell my boyfriend cheated on me and has lied multiple times about girls he...
    TaeDD TaeDD 22-25, F Dec 3

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    Just found out... I wasn't surprised when the doctor told me the news. I had already been doing my research on it and my symptoms were practically identical to everything I was...
    anomalnonomous anomalnonomous 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 21

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    People brag about having trust issues but that's how I can tell who does or does not have them because those of us who really have trust issues are at war with it. We don't like it...
    SheIsHealing SheIsHealing 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 24

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    People brag about having trust issues but that's how I can tell who does or does not have them because those of us who really have trust issues are at war with it. We don't like it...
    SheIsHealing SheIsHealing 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    The Blue Chair I remember it vividly, recreate the setting constantly in my head, whether i like it or not. It's stuck in there like a tape..playing, pausing, and rewinding. I sat...
    smellsliketeenspiritl05 smellsliketeenspiritl05 18-21, F 3 hrs ago

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    3He opened his kit. And took out the book.. wrapped in a cloth..He sat down on the floor..He unwrapped it..Eyes tearing up... his fingers touched the leather cover..The anger...
    TheTestOfTimeAndPain TheTestOfTimeAndPain 26-30 9 hrs ago

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    Again, excuse the awkward wordings to get around the censors, but it won't let me post this story without them. I was in one for six days in February, and then they forced me to...
    Boulier Boulier 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 7

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    I am 30 years old and have BIID. I am new here, and glad to see there are others that deal with this. I am a little farther a long than many as I do live full time as a...
    WendiWheels WendiWheels 31-35, F 3 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    It's Getting Better All of The Time - Online Business ArticlesContemporary art work is being found in businesses, restaurants, hotels, as well as other hospitality services around...
    David939d9ydi David939d9ydi 31-35, M Dec 6

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    Well it starts off as Colin Farrell the guy from the actual movie playing as the main character and somehow im the camera in this dream filming everything....so my dream is set up...
    CoolIntellectualJames88 CoolIntellectualJames88 26-30, M Nov 30

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    I am contemplating divorcing my husband. The problem is that this will be my third divorce and I am only 43. I made some bad decisions in my twenties based on growing up in an...
    strikes3 strikes3 41-45, F 1 hr ago

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    Words that hurt, and cut. Walls are built. Actions that are empty, and meaningless. Walls are built. Change that never comes, but promised. Walls are built. Hope that lingers...
    SecretEscape SecretEscape 36-40, F 3 Responses Dec 8

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    my wall protects me makes me feel safe I don't have to worry about my words being used against me or my scars being reopened my wall protects others from the real me the monster...
    boxgirl1987 boxgirl1987 26-30, F Nov 23

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    My depression is a Demon. I've had Sleep Paralysis my whole life. I have memories of dreams about what i thought were the golden eyes of my beloved rottweilers, but were instead...
    TwentyTwoReasons TwentyTwoReasons 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 25

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    I must admit, I had my fair share of wading around in that cesspool. It helps to listen to other people's problems though, to keep things real. They might slighter than yours, less...
    FryyM FryyM 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 21

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    Wall Street and banking are necessary in a capitalist society. Prior to Clinton era deregulation banks, brokerages, investment houses, etc., made plenty of money. The economy was...
    SilverPagan SilverPagan 51-55, M 1 Response Nov 17

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    The walls are tall and thick, for what lies behind them are protected from the harsh world.Once there were no walls at all....torn to pieces by people who kept taking piece by...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F Nov 29

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    Sitting around the camp fire is so relaxing with a nice beer or glass of wine, cheers :-)
    IwasCandyWhite26 IwasCandyWhite26 56-60, M 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    Well not only in my room, but when I'm cleaning. All around the house. Nothing is off limits to becoming my microphone. I am generally caught, then I drop my microphone, give them...
    orchids2blu orchids2blu 36-40, F 13 hrs ago

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    Unless I'm around them all the time--and I hate it. Talking to anyone but the ones truly close to me, I basically try to play off how uncomfortable I really am. And it's not that I...
    ChrisGriffen ChrisGriffen 31-35, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    My name is Lyla. I have had alopecia since I was a freshman in high school. I am now a freshman in college. I am a twin and a Native American from Arizona. When it first started...
    lhatathlie lhatathlie 18-21, F Nov 18

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    I'm so tired of this... I'm so tired of wanting someone who I'll never have, tired of denying my own feelings, tired of not being able to tell any of my friends about this, tired...
    auntnichole auntnichole 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 19

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    What if you lost your ability to Love ? What if the ability to enjoy everything was taken away from one day to the next ? This is a glimpse into my life suffering from a mental...
    jeromeleegriffin jeromeleegriffin 41-45, M Nov 30

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    This is another reoccurring nightmare that has been happening pretty much all my life, but each dream has had different scenarios. Either way, it still always manages to invoke...
    SgtRecker97 SgtRecker97 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 1

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    I lost my wallet and I am very angry at myself. it's not the material loss, or the hassle I have to go through to cancel all my cards, or the money I have to pay to get another ID...
    mixalisduddy mixalisduddy 22-25, M Nov 18

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    I can't remember if it was in kindergarten or first grade, but I do remember that I scared the ____ out of my teacher when one of my classmates pointed me out to her. It was mosty...
    abcdeltabob abcdeltabob 16-17, M Dec 8

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    I have this one recurring nightmare, it's dark outside and storming, lightning but not raining. I'm on the roof of an old building made of grey bricks and it almost looks like a...
    SkollHati SkollHati 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Ok so here is everything I wanna do during winter, hence forth, My Winter Bucket List: 1. Decorate a Christmas Tree 2.Enjoy some homemade hot chocolate 3. Throw Confetti on New...
    SweetcakesJr SweetcakesJr 13-15, F 2 Responses 10 hrs ago

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    If you had have asked me a year ago what depression was, I would have given you that same old answer about how it just seems to be a thrown around term for people who "get a bit...
    Georgiana72 Georgiana72 16-17, F 2 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I used to have a love. He came to me when I least expected it and blindsided me. Somehow, he got past all my defenses and went straight for that secret place in my heart I'd...
    abrokenlittlegirl abrokenlittlegirl 46-50, F 5 Responses Nov 24

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    This was a couple days ago~ This was around 9 PM I went to the restroom to brush my teeth I was looking at the wall and I notice something strange about my shadow? I moved so to...
    RainbowWolf13 RainbowWolf13 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 28

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    My dad is such a ****. He's always smacking me around and making me clean his messes. He likes to break his bottles against walls and make me pick it up with my bare hands. Ugh...
    SomeDepressedTeenx SomeDepressedTeenx 13-15, F Nov 30

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    Well it starts off as me being in this Huge School Gym with Bleachers....I mean this gym was about the size of three to four large movie theater rooms at the theaters put together...
    CoolIntellectualJames88 CoolIntellectualJames88 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 30

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    Well all I remember about this dream is being in a parking lot covered in snow and ice and it was empty no cars. I start playing and throwing snowballs at friend and this mall was...
    CoolIntellectualJames88 CoolIntellectualJames88 26-30, M Nov 30

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    I was sleeping one night in Hinesville Georgia in my dream in an apartment on ground level I use to live in. I was in my room and all of a sudden my window and part of the wall is...
    CoolIntellectualJames88 CoolIntellectualJames88 26-30, M Nov 30

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    In college, I live in an all boys' dorm. It's all college boys and no modesty; no one is nervous about being e-rect since there are no girls to offend. We all just walk around with...
    Triangulate Triangulate 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 2

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    I just turned 25 a few months ago and went to the eye Dr only to find out that I have RP. It actually answered a lot of questions for me. I have been night blind for as long as I...
    rshelly22000 rshelly22000 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 8

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