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I Dont Have A Wall Around Me

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    No Defences

    Lots of people naturally enough use their self-image to make a pattern of defences to be able to fend off aspects of life which they feel they are either not prepared to deal with, or aren't empowered in themselves to comprehend. It is a complexity of personality. They say there...
    Anuledroan Anuledroan 18-21, F Jan 12, 2013

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    I put a wall up because then i won't get hurt, but if you think i am worth the time and effort to break that wall down, then i will know you're worth letting in... slw
    submissivelittlewoman submissivelittlewoman 41-45, F Jan 5

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    Wooow I just realized we've been in this house for five years now. That's the longest we've ever lived in one place lol. Our house in on the market again though and my mom wants to...
    tarara0414 tarara0414 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 20

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    I have always blocked myself off from the world. Ever since kindergarten. Now, as I've aged & been beaten down by life / relationships. I now have walls so high I am untrusting...
    Foenix Foenix 36-40, M 1 Response 30 mins ago

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    So often we build walls around our hearts to protect ourselves. We hide behind them the parts of ourselves we deem too vulnerable to ever share and we feel safe and secure in the...
    diablesse34 diablesse34 46-50, F 19 Responses Jan 18

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    A wall around my heart that I have been building for 41 years. And apparently I'm not done yet. Surfing is most people guys come into contact with have a tendency to be cold and...
    NG725324 NG725324 41-45, M 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Life is too short to wallow around in self-pity all the time. I try to look on the bright side.
    IngensImpetum IngensImpetum 18-21, M 1 Response 10 hrs ago

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    I am married 32 ' have one daughter she is 3' I fancy my sister in law ' she is 29 very attractive ' great figure and nice to be around ' i never met her before not even talk to...
    davin007 davin007 31-35, M 2 Responses Jan 2

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    Tonight I have a lot of anxiety and I can't sleep, so I figured why not write? I'm sure that everyone has anxiety, but everyone processes it differently. Anxiety can be crippling...
    AnnUrban AnnUrban 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 11

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    Ever since I was a young child I have battled social anxiety disorder. Social situations always made me anxious and at times panicky. When I was a teen I came to realize that I was...
    tormentedinternally tormentedinternally 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 12

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    I turned 30 in the past week. Loads of people wished me happy birthday on Facebook. They wished me a great day, surrounded by loved ones, being spoilt. It was none of those things...
    Sentiphant Sentiphant 26-30, M 3 Responses Jan 17

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    Though I have people around me that love me, I always have a void.
    yeudi yeudi 22-25, M Jan 8

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    This is a open letter to my amazing girlfriend to read if she ever wonders why I truly love her. If you ever wonder why I love you here is why. The first time I ever really saw...
    ECrierie ECrierie 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 11

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    The most crucial matter for one to do is your homework. Research all you can about other Offshore banks structures, Offshore banks Banks and offshore banking. In this way you are...
    Georgebankssi1 Georgebankssi1 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 18

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    I am so tired of feeling like I have to put on a front for everyone and pretend that everything is ok and all rainbows and sunshine so cps doesn't take my daughter away cause...
    RedsSaphire RedsSaphire 31-35, F 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I had a dream today literally second ago that i just move in the house i live in now and that like it randomly stuff was laying around and it was a bed in the hall way with wood on...
    PurpleLove18 PurpleLove18 16-17, F Jan 5

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    Here is how I feel.... In my room I have a picture on the wall that has provided me joy for many years. This picture shows a beautiful stream with clear water, graceful rushes...
    wantadoover wantadoover 56-60, M 2 days ago

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    I decided to put a whole bunch of my weight gaining life into this one experience. It's really long, but if you want to read it, do so :) My scales are sadly broken. The last...
    FlabPack FlabPack 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 4

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    The road to my diagnosis was a long and rocky journey. I've had problems with depression since I was a teenager. My parents just wrote it off as me being a moody kid. During my...
    Imagine20 Imagine20 31-35, F 1 Response Jan 10

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    The whole Fall season here is spent around a bonfire or camping fire. Such a wonderful glow, the smell that won't come out of your hair and the warmth.
    WhatAMadWorldWeAreIn WhatAMadWorldWeAreIn 26-30, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    Any suggestions? Sucks not having your parents around lol. Seriously though I've been getting hot and cold flashes all night and have a huge headache as well and it gets worse...
    teehee342 teehee342 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    I was walking around the house this morning in just a sweater... My brother makes the comment 'are you wearing any panties, because I can see your butt!?' I bend over and say 'well...
    BamaSexyGirl26 BamaSexyGirl26 26-30, F 19 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    It was nighttime, I was out for a walk in a narrow and walled off highway, the walls looked to be 20 feet tall protecting what seemed like an endlessly curving highway. Nobody...
    Justjonathan Justjonathan 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    I was alone at home with a little girl I could not recognize. She looked to be at least 4 years old and she was the absolute most adorable thing I'd ever laid my eyes on, her eyes...
    Justjonathan Justjonathan 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    I do I seriously do! I can make the colors of the walls change and I can make them sparkle. It only works at night. If I close my eyes and concentrate really hard the walls change...
    StupidRobert StupidRobert 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    My dream was similar to rjmommy245 ... The dream started out normal. Racing on a crotch rocket down a broken track that lead down into the depths of the earth. I crashed, my bike...
    Prettyboy82 Prettyboy82 31-35, M 3 days ago

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    It's my favorite book and movie so far Charlie's poem: Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines he wrote a poem and he called it "chops" because that was the name of his...
    lolitamunchkin lolitamunchkin 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    So there's this guy, we started talking when i was 15 a freshman he was 16 a sophomore; we got really close that year and started hooking up. (Don't Judge i get it i was young i'm...
    Weeedisahellofadrug Weeedisahellofadrug 16-17, F Jan 1

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    I remember looking at the pool of blood forming around my leg. I remember the look of absolute shock of the one who would unknowingly condemn me to that program in Utah for the...
    Lebonix Lebonix 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 7

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    I'm going to start off this experience with a little background info. It was 10:00 at night when all of this started . I was in my room. My dad was in the living room drinking beer...
    EvilAngels EvilAngels 18-21, M Jan 10

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    Uncle Adam There are a lot of alcoholics in my family, including my father, now sober. But the first in our family to be recognised for this disease was my uncle, Adam. He was...
    PersonalGenesis PersonalGenesis 22-25, F Jan 7

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    Misophonia literally translates into 'hatred of sound,' and I have it. A misophonia sufferer has certain 'trigger sounds,' that are generally quiet, soft and repetitive, and most...
    Ceredwyn2000 Ceredwyn2000 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 8

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    As we daily go about our lives. We are constantly building and remodeling our walls of security. I like to call mine "prison". It is the daily defense to anything from something we...
    gowithmyheart gowithmyheart 56-60, M 2 Responses Jan 12

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    WHAT !-!-! ????The GOP and 35 House Democrats have voted to 'dismantle' important protections created by the Wall Street reform bill of 2010.We Were Lucky - This TimeAlthough...
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    I guess this is karma for someone like me. I don't know. When I start to like someone, it always starts with an attraction. Crushes don't really last long in my case, and sometimes...
    ZeraSummers ZeraSummers 16-17, F Dec 29, 2014

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    For some reason I've come across people I've never met that passed away and I've had the need to mourn their loss. The fist guy was Eric. He was 8 years old and he hung himself off...
    SRayne SRayne 41-45 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    Really rough day. Was in tears and now just emotionally defeated and depleted but I need to pick myself up, dust myself off and try again tomorrow...the eternal optimist:) I need...
    Messybutbeautiful Messybutbeautiful 31-35 3 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    The invisible illness. We suffer terrible symptoms that, though often aren't life threatening, greatly handicap us and begin to take control of our life. Yet to most people we...
    rbeccalynn rbeccalynn 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 8

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    Beautiful man. Everyone seems to want you, even other men. You say you're mine but are you really? I won't let myself get too close to you. I want to... But I've been let down so...
    aanicole aanicole 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 9

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    Walking alone on this path chosen for me decades ago Hiding my pain and sorrow so no one would know Trying to evade from the demons hiding behind my smile Chasing ghosts of old...
    ocecas ocecas 41-45, F Jan 16

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    I was cleaning out my bookcase, and I stumbled across a few pieces of paper. Not just any pieces of paper, but the papers of my feelings.I am not sure how old they are, but they...
    BlackBloodDemon BlackBloodDemon 13-15, M Jan 20

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    She was very awful to me when we were younger. She used to sing this stupid rhyme "fatty, fatty 2 by 4 can't fit through the bathroom door". she and her friends put baby oil in my...
    Annamania1 Annamania1 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    One particular dream that keeps popping up is me standing in a vast white-walled room that seems endless. In that dream.. a HUGE gray rolling ball rolls around and here I am...
    mercifulpennies mercifulpennies 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    This time was better. When I graduated from high school, my family was torn apart, my mother disowned me, and everyone in kelly green gowns around me was just so done with our sad...
    BuzzFanatic BuzzFanatic 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    Lmao!!! I was in the grocery store yesterday. OOH look! A new ketchup bottle with 25% extra, Cool! I took the stuff I was going to buy to the counter (keep in mind that the...
    InnocentPigeon InnocentPigeon 70+ 1 Response 2 days ago

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