I Don't Know How Much More I Can Take

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    I think I do No more.

    NO MORE!!! I can't take any more of this. At all......
    sassyg1rl sassyg1rl
    46-50, F
    Dec 15, 2013

    So the past year has been a lot of changes.

    5 different jobs, homeless for 3 months, and finally settled into a new apartment. But I'm still just lost. Bouncing around, not knowing anyone or anything really, just trying to survive- but barely. I've hit a rock, lower than any rock bottom I could have ever imagined hitting...
    Humming247 Humming247
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 6, 2014

    Think I hit the wall today.

    Clinically exhausted...if you've never been here, trust me you can't imagine what this means. So much worse than tired. So much worse than depressed. So much worse than anxious. So much worse than sick. Work is a nightmare. Like the kind of nightmare where you scream and are...
    sassyg1rl sassyg1rl
    46-50, F
    Jan 27, 2014

    It's Not That I Think Nothing Will Change...

     ...it's that I just don't care whether it changes, any more. Yeah, it'll change --- for the worse. That's the only direction things have gone in the past 18 months, even when it looked like they might be improving. Early May 2008: I meet a guy I'm really interested in...
    Cueroso Cueroso
    1 Response Jul 14, 2009


    Mixed emotion Mental muddle What a commotion I have to juggle
    angel7 angel7
    Mar 29, 2008

    Everything's been going wrong today

    and yesterday. ******* everything. I'm already depressed and suicidal and anxiety-ridden even before the last couple of days, but now I'm just plain miserable. It hurts so much physically and emotionally. I don't know how long I can take this.
    polyglotparrot polyglotparrot
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Feb 8, 2015

    I think I am at my wit's end,

    and then even more **** comes my way. It will only be so long before I break down entirely. I wish this would all just stop for once.
    ErraticSarcastic ErraticSarcastic
    31-35, F
    1 Response Oct 6, 2015

    It's Just One Thing After Another

    2011 is a year that I will be happy to put behind me.Back in April my husband had to have a skin cancer removed. I will never forget that phone call from our doctor asking him to come in so he could 'discuss the results of the biopsy" he had to have. My poor darling just fell...
    heavenisaplaceonearth heavenisaplaceonearth
    41-45, F
    Jul 20, 2011

    I Don't Know

    I Don't know,How much more I can take,The crap life's dealt,I've had enough,Not enjoying it,Like I used to,Good old days,The expression,So true,Things were much better then.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    1 Response Jan 17, 2012

    I Feel I Am Stuck

    I have written previously on how much I hate my husband and his drug usage he went to dr and started medication for this so of course I thought this was a turning point. How wrong could I be I also stated previously that I would stay for the sake of my daughter she is now 15 and...
    Barnzi Barnzi
    1 Response Jun 1, 2013

    school it's just so hard

    and I get in trouble to much
    deleted deleted
    Jan 24

    All of a Sudden He Was With Me.

    So, here's a little back story:  So, I dated this guy for about 3 months... things were wonderful... and then, he got scared and needed to take a step back and figure out some things for himself... but, we continued to be together for the next month... just not "...
    RedC2 RedC2
    2 Responses Mar 14, 2008

    How Much Longer?

    Every night, the idea of death crosses my mind.  Every night I always think about everything, and how I pretty much fail at it all.  My "friends" ignore me, I'm failing in my major, even though I love it (the major), I always feel constantly alone, and every...
    DarkShinigami DarkShinigami
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Aug 7, 2008

    Cant Take It Anymmore

    cant take the pain anymore....dis state of mine dat i abhor..no ray of hope for me...its only darkness dats left after every sunset....wish i cud do smtin abt it....
    killme89 killme89
    22-25, F
    Jun 24, 2012

    My Best Friend Saved Me, But She Doesn't Know.

    Yesterday, I planned of killing myself tonight. I don't know what happened. I woke up, but I didn't feel depressed. I felt nothing, empty, and tired. Just so very, very tired. Tired of living, going though everyday, thinking of the past, and thinking of the future. I don't want...
    imgettingthere imgettingthere
    18-21, F
    Sep 11, 2011


    Im cold so cold inside my soul I can not feel the sun There once was a point Too my existance But now my race is run.
    angel7 angel7
    Mar 30, 2008

    That noxious moment in life

    when you're thrown down by depression and the only way you can express your feelings is through the power of words only you can understand, and so do words themselves: Poetry
    silentarab silentarab
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 27, 2014


    Some things need to change... But I doubt they will. I will continue 'dealing' with the things I cannot change, continue feeling wounded by them... I wish I knew when the camel's back will break, but I don't. I wish I knew how much of this I could take, but I don't. This...
    iFortiTude iFortiTude
    2 Responses Aug 13, 2008

    Don't Think I Can Take It Anymore.

    My brother is God! My parents favour him over my sister and I. He married the most evil, evil woman and earlier this year she did some terrible unforgivable things. They were angry and said they wanted nothing more to do with her, even banned her from the farm. But guess what...
    Lynette234 Lynette234
    41-45, F
    Oct 9, 2012

    My wife has been cheating on me online.

    It's nothing physical but it's tearing me up inside. This is the 5th time I caught her. She says she is trying to stop but she keeps going back to those guys. I'm the one she loves, so she says, but she cant stop. I don't know how much I can take. I don't want to divorce because...
    JPhoenix99 JPhoenix99
    31-35, M
    1 Response Dec 29, 2015

    I might never fall in love again.

    .might never kiss or touch another person. Life is too long.
    UrbanSWF UrbanSWF
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 14, 2015

    idk if you can see them

    but I've been doing it for over 8 years, hoping to stop this year.
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Dec 30, 2015

    The father of my kids is driving me crazy!

    Every time something doesn't go his way, or I don't do something he tells me to, he yells at me, and if I stand up for myself, he threatens me just about everything, but worst of all to take my kids, and though I know he can't do what I do it be a nightmare to see them go. Did I...
    L0v3M3 L0v3M3
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 20, 2014

    What Am I Supposed To Do?

    So, my story is a bit long, so let me spare you the details. My name is Diane, But everyone calls me Tori, for Victoria. I have 6 brothers and sisters. I have 4 brothers and 2 sisters.Throughout my childhood, i've always been alone. It's been Michael&Malcolm bonded, Faith...
    xtori xtori
    16-17, F
    Jul 25, 2012

    Hopefully The End Is Near

    I'm trying so hard to change my life, but every step I take in the right direction gets me nowhere. I'm fighting a battle that I don't think I can win. I tell the truth and no1 believes me, I do the right thing only to be accused of doing more wrong. My wife hates me more each...
    peedy5 peedy5
    36-40, M
    Oct 15, 2013

    I don't know how much can I take.

    Trying to be strong for my little girl. I really don't want to be associated with him I don't have any choice at all because I want to have peace for all of us.
    mabuhayka mabuhayka
    31-35, F
    1 Response Dec 30, 2015

    What Else Is Going To Happen To Me?

    I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia and depression for 12 years now and have suffered ever since. Last year my boyfriend moved in with me, we had a fight and i came to mums. Since then he has been at the flat and refuses to budge. Only now is the housing association...
    melancholy1 melancholy1
    Nov 15, 2012

    almost a disney love story?

    almost a disney love story? (hang in there, i put alot of effort to pull this choppy story into words from my feelings) *2 brothers bestfriends with an ex* -prior- i was nearly inlove with my bestfriend.. we'll call him brother#1 for years growing up everything was casual...
    lurkerton757 lurkerton757
    22-25, F
    Dec 5, 2013

    so me and my boyfriend are moving away from

    each other this year for school and i want thiz relationship to work but when ever i ask him about are we still gonna date and are you gonna leave me he answers with yes we will still date but i feel like he is unsure about this and i have a feeling we wont last and idk if this...
    Alicehoffman Alicehoffman
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 3

    I don't know if I can be considered a 'gold

    digger'. I acknowledge the fact that I look like one and that might thoughts might be of one but I'm definitely aware of it and I want to change the problem or be aware of it if that's the case. I worked since I was 17, I was a single mom for a very long time with no financial...
    Hmidk Hmidk
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Oct 6, 2015

    One Day

    How things can flip in one day. One day I seem to be getting out of the darkness I've been fighting to escape from for so long, and then the next day a wave of darkness is succumbing me again. I can feel myself drowning and there's nothing or anyone to save me. Better yet, no one...
    Jeanellaisha Jeanellaisha
    22-25, F
    Jul 3, 2012

    I really don't. Wake up every day,

    so tired and defeated that have to live another day, and that‘s even if I do sleep, which is extremely rare anymore. Have to force myself to get out of bed, which can take quite awhile, because I just don't want to anymore. I see no hope, no happiness in my future, no happy...
    GhostOfGrey GhostOfGrey
    36-40, F
    5 Responses Nov 30, 2014

    Dragging Me Back In.

    I want to help, I tried to help. It didn't work the first time and it didn't work the second time, it didn't even work the third time (regardless of how much it is considered "the charm"). Two of my oldest friends were in a relationship (Let's call them A and D). However they had...
    Syimthesis Syimthesis
    16-17, M
    Jun 24, 2012


    What is LIFE Can someone tell me Is life meant to be happy Because all I see is sadness Is life meant to be fair Because I cant see that it is Why do some people have more money than they want And some people in this world are starving What right have we as humans kill...
    angel7 angel7
    1 Response Apr 3, 2008

    I Just Don't Care Anymore...

    Every day I wonder what it would be like if I just stopped... Stress crowds in from everywhere and I really just want to stop everything... and just go... I still am torn up over April 16th... (VT Shooting), even though I wasn't in Norris Hall nor did I know anyone who was at...
    DarkShinigami DarkShinigami
    18-21, M
    1 Response Feb 27, 2008

    How Much Longer

    I dont know how much longer I can take living in this crazy world. I hate pretending every thing is ok to the people I dont want to hurt. I put on this fake smile chat and laugh with them. They dont know at the back of my mind all I think about is suicide...
    angel7 angel7
    3 Responses Mar 26, 2008

    It's getting to the point now

    if I don't know if I can keep going. I am practising acceptance and making peace with what may come to me. But what I can't take anymore is the constant reminders of it, the de Ja vu moments which are becoming more frequent, I have not slept once this year without any lucid...
    deleted deleted
    Jan 27

    When Vill D Painful Movie Of My Life End...

    please...just come here n help me breathe..i feel choked....i feel choked.....plzz tell d demon dat m waitin for him to com to me n kill me..plzz....anybody.....plzz.....
    killme89 killme89
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 26, 2012

    Sued to Death

    I have to testify next week.  I am a nurse.  I made an error.  One which in my own heart I know did not hurt my patient.  My patient was dying, and possibly my error prolonged her life.  However, the family of the patient, a child, does not see it that...
    msmonkey msmonkey
    6 Responses Dec 8, 2008

    How Much Longer

    Life is so unimportant. I feel seperated from the world around me. I hate this existance.
    angel7 angel7
    Mar 24, 2008

    OK I lost my story. So here's the executive

    summary. Long distance relationship. She has low sex drive and doesn't exercise much (but changing that slowly). Girls at work where I live want me. They're stunning and genuinely lovely, creative and interesting. One in particular has a boyfriend who's lovely but doesn't want...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Oct 6, 2015
    WellDressedandDepressed WellDressedandDepressed
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jun 21, 2014

    About to My Limit

    I dont know how much more of my home life I can take, I am at my wits end.  I do not feel any love from my wife, nor that she cares in any way?  I feel that I have treated her like a queen, never asked much, and that she has abused that and I am tired of it.  I...
    TruePal TruePal
    31-35, M
    6 Responses Aug 7, 2008

    Bound For Glory Or Another Turning Point?

    Sometimes in truth I am not sure how much more even I can take. I do tend to feel like I have taken potshots in search of my dreams, I've been lured by false prophets and had my faith robbed of me. At times my emotional stamina has been run into the ground. Not by choice you...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Dec 19, 2009
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