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I Don't Know How to Break Down My Defensive Wall

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 97 People

    Life After Abuse

    I was also abused in a 11 year marriage and have two great kids from that time. I have been hiding behind my kids, work, college. I managed to get my bachelor's degree with an online university. I've been divorced for over 6 years. A few nice men have asked me out, but I...
    michlhi michlhi 41-45 Aug 11, 2010

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    How Do You Trust Enough, and How Do I Handle the Pain That Is Bound to Come?

    Every time my wall comes down, I end up getting hurt ... and I don't mean just a little hurt, no, the real thing When I let people in, I really let them in, and more often then not, I get the sand kicked in my eyes.
    kinkitty kinkitty 36-40, F 50 Responses Apr 27, 2008

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    At Long Last

    I fell in love with my current boyfriend back when I was 12.  We never dated through out high school, and later in life he broke my heart.   I've since created a wall around my heart.  For the first time, we actually started a relationship with each other. ...
    NoOneOfConsequence NoOneOfConsequence 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 20, 2008

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    Cold Dark Mask :D

    i hid my emotions. i never let it out. because if i did she wouldn't tell me how she was feeling. i was down but still more stable then she was. i now really struggle to get rid of my emotion . i can express it but i bottle it up and up and just cant get rid of it ! >.<...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 Sep 26, 2013

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    Looking For a Job

    I hate being a teenager looking for a job. I walk into a store that looks promising, a store that looks as though it is hiring, with head held up high. But then I walk inside the store itself and boom! It's like all my self-confidence has flown into the ionosphere. I don't...
    rustyguy rustyguy 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 3, 2008

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    Instincts

    I do not know how to tear down walls that have been built by unconscious processes. In all honesty, I don't think I would want to break down my walls.  They are there for a reason.  They are there to protect me.  They are the result of time and of lessons learned.  No longer...
    permafrost21 permafrost21 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 22, 2012

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    I Just Don't Know How To Fix It

    Hey, I'm in a relationship with this guy who loves me and I live him back, but I can't give him or anyone in my life my complete love because it's guarded by a wall. This wall is so strong, it sometimes feels like it's phycically there. History:  I haven't always been...
    Lyssmix Lyssmix 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    Here is Practical Explanation about Next Life,

    Purpose of Human Life, philosophical/religious facts, theories etc. ___________________________ *********** Practical Explanation ( For Example ) :- `1st of all can you tell me every single seconds detail from that time when you born ?? ( i need every seconds detail ?? that what...
    bolt0 bolt0 22-25, M Dec 8, 2013

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    Related Experiences

    Ever feel as though your world around you is crumbling, like if you don't have somethign to hold on to, then your walls will fall and everything will fall apart? NO... Well I do...
    codenamekidnextdoor codenamekidnextdoor 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 27, 2014

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    My dad died 5 months before I was born in a car accident, and I never got to meet him. I know that he was an amazing man. My mom was widowed for 8 years, with 4 children at home...
    chloeangela chloeangela 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    did I spell that right? Yeah I know it sound kind of absurd but some how I can't be bothered to do anything Yeah I have passion. More like dead end ones. Like art and theatre (I...
    hollowboxies hollowboxies 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    I went on this date with a cute girl and I wanted to flirt but I was so nervous I forgot how. :( I don't know how to talk to girls.
    MoragaroM MoragaroM 31-35, F Dec 29, 2014

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    I'm 30, single with friends that are all married who don't hang out anymore I'm broke saving up money looking for apartments and just got out of a long relationship and just want...
    Darkne55 Darkne55 26-30, F Jan 1

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    This is the first deployment my boyfriend is going on and I don't know how I am going to be able to handle limited communication and not seeing him for 9 months. Any advice or...
    scarlettavery scarlettavery 18-21, F Jan 11

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    I seriously don't know how to react to flirt or flirt???? Gosh
    Actueeljdut Actueeljdut 18-21, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    I hope you guys would take time to read my story, and I'd really appreciate if you could maybe leave some comments below. So my ex-boyfriend and I were together for more than a...
    Pauline0497 Pauline0497 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2014

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    I don't know if I should be sad or frustrated or infuriated......
    Leopard3487 Leopard3487 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 26, 2014

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    I really screwed things up with my ex and from his perspective it looks like I cheated on him with his twin brother, but I didn't do that. I just went to him when I needed...
    oliviam22 oliviam22 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 28, 2014

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    He never admitted it but I knew he really liked this other girl... maybe even loved while we were together, and she hurt him and he always talked about and cried over her.... I...
    iwillfly iwillfly 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 30, 2014

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    I have this feeling of just rage and complete anger like I could just rip your head off look at you and through away and not think twice about it. Yeah I have issues but so do you...
    Rhykker Rhykker 16-17, M 3 Responses Jan 8

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    I don't really get complimented too often , so when I do get complimented I'm just standing there like an idiot . Smiling but not saying anything .
    domino00 domino00 13-15, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    My boyfriend and I are very religious and we are not suppose to have sex, until we are married. But suddenly he demanded it and I refused. He is very angry with me and is fighting...
    ihavemypains ihavemypains 18-21, F 2 Responses Jan 6

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    Yesterday was the first time we've seen each other in three weeks. You looked so good I almost cried. When you hugged me, it felt so right, I just didn't ever want it to end...
    overtherainbow47 overtherainbow47 41-45, M 1 Response Dec 27, 2014

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    For years upon years, I've been struggling with anxiety and symptoms of depression. This has negatively affected seveal aspects of my life, but me being the dumb and stubborn...
    sam394 sam394 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    I have done extensive research on how to do a belly inflation, but the instructions are never clear enough. I have no idea how to do it and what materials I need to do it. I've...
    Chubthetuboflard Chubthetuboflard 22-25, F Jan 6

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    How can someone as handicapped as Stephen Hawking live disabled for over 40 years? The life expectancy for ALS isn't that long. Living more than two years after diagnosis shouldn't...
    mengetpedicures mengetpedicures 26-30, M Jan 14

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    When someone compliments me, I either blush or laugh it off. The other day, I was complimented on something physically that made me laugh. Now, I've been complimented on my legs...
    Pinky65 Pinky65 46-50, F 5 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Since I've been a veterinary technician for five months now, I'm just starting to get into euthanasia. I euthanized two cats today with the help of the doctor and I'm not sure how...
    thefuturedoctor thefuturedoctor 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 3

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    I see people getting in relationships everyday and I'm just there like, whaaa how do they do it?
    michaelnutty25 michaelnutty25 16-17, M 2 Responses Jan 5

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    I'm a sarcastic wonderful evil ***** but I can't raise an eyebrow :D
    SweeterThanToblerone SweeterThanToblerone 13-15, F Jan 6

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    I like a guy alot. like he's constantly on my mind and he doesn't like me back. it sucks man. I feel so useless.
    lorinnicole lorinnicole 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 15

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    Like how do people do it? What do I say without making a fool of myself?
    Madscheers512 Madscheers512 13-15 4 Responses Jan 17

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    Some one told me I looked really nice once and all I didn't say thank you. I stood there blushed an said happy birthday. Yeah not used to compliments. :/
    KaylaBVB KaylaBVB 16-17, F a week ago

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    When I get complemented on, I usually try to joke it off and say "No one likes a kiss up" or "You talkin to me?" Then they say they mean it and all I can do is sheepishly say...
    Kckiss88 Kckiss88 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 25, 2014

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    The only thing that would've made this Christmas complete is so far away. :(
    whyusteens whyusteens 13-15, F Dec 25, 2014

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    i feel like this literally
    Jin777 Jin777 18-21, M Dec 30, 2014

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    Nod or shallow bow with a hesitant soft "thank you."
    CrossCresentCreed CrossCresentCreed 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 30, 2014

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    I'll say 'thank you,' but I'll be too shy to compliment you back.
    dilbert467 dilbert467 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 3

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    It's getting better. :D Now I can compliment back but sometimes it's still difficult...especially when so many people are complimenting me. I get suspicious lol
    ShakenButNotBroken ShakenButNotBroken 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    its really hard to talk to boys cuz i dont understand them and some of my besties can but i cant and i feel like a moron
    darcy10 darcy10 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    lol I'm not really the romantic type
    SkateColorado SkateColorado 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 6

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    although many guys flirt with me im really hard to date. I always look for my kindof guy which I havent met yet. guess I watch too many romantic movies lol
    95sarahz 95sarahz 18-21, F Jan 6

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    I proclaim myself as not being relationship material, I'm a very complicated person.
    LilahWolf LilahWolf 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 6

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    Is it Ok to have identity crisis at 23 ?
    monatonie monatonie 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 9

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    Any females want to hold their pee with me via skype?
    mybladderisfull mybladderisfull 22-25, M Jan 17

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    I always come up with witty flirty things to say 3 moments too late. v.v On the spot, all I can do is clam up and ignore people.
    skykanin skykanin 13-15, F a week ago

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