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I Don't Know How to Break Down My Defensive Wall

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    I Just Don't Know How To Fix It

    Hey, I'm in a relationship with this guy who loves me and I live him back, but I can't give him or anyone in my life my complete love because it's guarded by a wall. This wall is so strong, it sometimes feels like it's phycically there. History:  I haven't always been...
    Lyssmix Lyssmix 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    Looking For a Job

    I hate being a teenager looking for a job. I walk into a store that looks promising, a store that looks as though it is hiring, with head held up high. But then I walk inside the store itself and boom! It's like all my self-confidence has flown into the ionosphere. I don't...
    rustyguy rustyguy 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 3, 2008

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    At Long Last

    I fell in love with my current boyfriend back when I was 12.  We never dated through out high school, and later in life he broke my heart.   I've since created a wall around my heart.  For the first time, we actually started a relationship with each other. ...
    NoOneOfConsequence NoOneOfConsequence 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 20, 2008

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    Life After Abuse

    I was also abused in a 11 year marriage and have two great kids from that time. I have been hiding behind my kids, work, college. I managed to get my bachelor's degree with an online university. I've been divorced for over 6 years. A few nice men have asked me out, but I...
    michlhi michlhi 41-45 1 Response Aug 11, 2010

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    How Do You Trust Enough, and How Do I Handle the Pain That Is Bound to Come?

    Every time my wall comes down, I end up getting hurt ... and I don't mean just a little hurt, no, the real thing When I let people in, I really let them in, and more often then not, I get the sand kicked in my eyes.
    kinkitty kinkitty 36-40, F 50 Responses Apr 27, 2008

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    Instincts

    I do not know how to tear down walls that have been built by unconscious processes. In all honesty, I don't think I would want to break down my walls.  They are there for a reason.  They are there to protect me.  They are the result of time and of lessons learned.  No longer...
    permafrost21 permafrost21 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 22, 2012

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    Here is Practical Explanation about Next Life,

    Purpose of Human Life, philosophical/religious facts, theories etc. ___________________________ *********** Practical Explanation ( For Example ) :- `1st of all can you tell me every single seconds detail from that time when you born ?? ( i need every seconds detail ?? that what...
    bolt0 bolt0 22-25, M Dec 8, 2013

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    Cold Dark Mask :D

    i hid my emotions. i never let it out. because if i did she wouldn't tell me how she was feeling. i was down but still more stable then she was. i now really struggle to get rid of my emotion . i can express it but i bottle it up and up and just cant get rid of it ! >.<...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 Sep 26, 2013

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    I had nightmares for a week about his ex-wife. As he sleep in bed next to me, I would toss and turn from dreams of them re-uniting. It didn't make it OK for me to look, but I did...
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    I don't like starting a conversation. I don't know how to either. Talking isn't just my thing really. I just feel like I bother a person when I start a conversation with them. And...
    PureLies PureLies 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 10

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    my Brother died since 2weeks.. he was 2years older than me, i don't know what happened to me since he's gone.. i don't know how people can get over such a terrible loss.. it kills...
    MoongirlDA MoongirlDA 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 17

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    I don't know how much longer I can hold on to acting nice. I'm tired of acting nice to this guy. I used to date this guy. I stopped talking to everyone for him. I had all his...
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 18

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    Im 13 , a girl and bisexual . I've came out to a fee friends at school and i would come out to anyone at school that asked . Im only having troubles coming out to my family. I...
    Fallenangel220 Fallenangel220 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    last week, it is the feast of our town, i had my elementary classmates with me. they slept over my place and we had some drinks. the day after, they got home and took a sleep on...
    makris makris 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 30

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    I am better at writing or typing one then starting one with people I don't know. I especially find it hard to talk to people older then me that I was just introduced to.
    Headlights Headlights 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 10

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    Ahhh!! I don't know if I'm over him or nah.
    trysten778 trysten778 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 10

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    people just don't like talking to me and I don't know why. I always feel so alone in whole life, no friend, no good relation with family.. I gave a bad bf.. everything just got so...
    Jaa190 Jaa190 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 11

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    I'm terrible with conversations... Especially with people I don't know ;-; my social anxiety just keeps me from speaking to people most times and when I have to I come off as...
    ACuriousCrossdresser ACuriousCrossdresser 18-21, T 1 Response Nov 15

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    I feel jittery, or overwhelmed, or panicky, but I'm not, really. I have no idea what I'm feeling right now. I don't know what I want, or what I need. Just kind of confused. I need...
    jaisikae jaisikae 26-30, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I try to hold on to good things and hope for the best, not the worse. But lately my walls are crumbling down on me. I'm so lost and confused. Not sure who is real, and who's...
    EyeDontGiveAHoot EyeDontGiveAHoot 36-40, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    In the dream, I was sleeping in my bed (the clock had read near 12 AM, so I had been asleep for nearly an hour in the dream, which is weird because I had actually gone to sleep in...
    Celticrose1991 Celticrose1991 22-25 Oct 26

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    I'm a pretty happy person for the most part; I tend to be pretty positive and look on the bright side of things but lately I've been feeling different. I had been feeling so...
    trevb22 trevb22 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Hey, I'm a 14/15 year old girl that just lived through a dark experience. I'm a very shy and timid person, so even though I love making friends and socializing, I found it hard to...
    politelyadorkable politelyadorkable 13-15, F Nov 8

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    Whenever people compliment me on, well, anything really. I'm left surprised, and kind of confused. I guess it's because I don't expect to many compliments to come my way. I expect...
    DeathstalkerScorpion DeathstalkerScorpion 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    Unfortunately, my first and only relationship was so dysfunctional and screwed up that i never tried again. now i want one but i don't even know where to start
    TheWickedJester TheWickedJester 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Over the last four years, I've slowly been coming to terms with the fact that I am FTM transgender. I'm currently terrified that if I come out to my parents, they'll be very angry...
    beingbrye beingbrye 22-25, T 1 day ago

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    This guy asked for a body pic so I sent him one (refer to pic above). I don't think he likes my true form. :'( He never responded back even though it said he read the message. I...
    InvaderGashloog InvaderGashloog 70+, F 4 Responses Oct 31

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    Lol I'm so awkward when it comes to flirting so I don't even try.
    xlyricbelle xlyricbelle 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 10

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    This is a long one but i try to keep it as short 2 months ago, I had a dream about a girl in my class named Rachel,we're just friends but a while back i had a small crush but...
    Athenian101 Athenian101 13-15, M 2 days ago

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    with the NEW EP... but how do I do TRIBUTES???? Who wants to help me out and let me know???
    MysticBeauty MysticBeauty 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 31

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    I literally need help, that's how bad I am
    AtlPunk1D AtlPunk1D 13-15, F 5 Responses Oct 31

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    I'm so bad at flirting. Maybe that's why guys that I like would never know that I like them.
    Asia06 Asia06 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 31

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    How do you speak to humans again? I feel like it should be easy. Do i just open my mouth and make noises? Gdftbct... Bbgfg... Rrrryfvj... Humans are weird with there silly sound...
    aFuzzyBlouw aFuzzyBlouw 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 8

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    Is it possible to love 2 people at once? I love my husband but if in honest with myself I'm still not over my ex. I keep thinking about him, about his kisses, his touch, his...
    Jenezebel Jenezebel 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 13

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    Whatever compliments I receive, I will never feel like it cuz I know I am not, it's not . The words are just there to keep the conversations going and for the sake of having...
    dakilangdreamer dakilangdreamer 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    So blank.. Just, nothing really. Been up all night, had a urge to cry, but I couldn't. I'm not mad, not sad, not happy. I'm just here.
    trinoctal trinoctal 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 12

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    Any females interested in a pee holding contest?
    burstingbadly burstingbadly 22-25, M Oct 26

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    Closet I've ever gotten with flirting with someone is complementing each other she says to me Man Chris your cute and I reply your really cute yourself Is that good way to...
    Dynamite500 Dynamite500 18-21, M 1 Response Oct 31

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    Flirting is very hard. I tried showing off my body but nobody seem to look at me. They prefer big butt chicks or huge breast. The max of flirting I do is smiling
    lorrena19 lorrena19 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 31

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    where can I meet people my age like men?
    AkibaKinji AkibaKinji 18-21, M Oct 31

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    Someone help me, before I make a fool of myself again
    AtlPunk1D AtlPunk1D 13-15, F Nov 1

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    ARRGGH have no clue if I'm making any progress she was helping my department again today and I kept up the flirty talk and behaviour (pretty sure she flirted with me a lot) I made...
    Dynamite500 Dynamite500 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 6

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    Can someone help me...., i have never really done it before....
    Loveless2000 Loveless2000 13-15, M 1 Response Nov 7

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    Children, listen to me. Shrek can help and will help and love all of you. All you have to do is accept him. And when the time comes and you are fully devoted to him. He will...
    AlwaysAnonnymous AlwaysAnonnymous 13-15, M Nov 8

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    This is so me. I really question whether I am relationship material at all.
    RememberingSunday22 RememberingSunday22 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 10

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