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I Don't Know How to Break Down My Defensive Wall

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    Here is Practical Explanation about Next Life,

    Purpose of Human Life, philosophical/religious facts, theories etc. ___________________________ *********** Practical Explanation ( For Example ) :- `1st of all can you tell me every single seconds detail from that time when you born ?? ( i need every seconds detail ?? that what...
    bolt0 bolt0 22-25, M Dec 8, 2013

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    Life After Abuse

    I was also abused in a 11 year marriage and have two great kids from that time. I have been hiding behind my kids, work, college. I managed to get my bachelor's degree with an online university. I've been divorced for over 6 years. A few nice men have asked me out, but I...
    michlhi michlhi 41-45 Aug 11, 2010

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    How Do You Trust Enough, and How Do I Handle the Pain That Is Bound to Come?

    Every time my wall comes down, I end up getting hurt ... and I don't mean just a little hurt, no, the real thing When I let people in, I really let them in, and more often then not, I get the sand kicked in my eyes.
    kinkitty kinkitty 36-40, F 50 Responses Apr 27, 2008

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    At Long Last

    I fell in love with my current boyfriend back when I was 12.  We never dated through out high school, and later in life he broke my heart.   I've since created a wall around my heart.  For the first time, we actually started a relationship with each other. ...
    NoOneOfConsequence NoOneOfConsequence 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 20, 2008

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    Looking For a Job

    I hate being a teenager looking for a job. I walk into a store that looks promising, a store that looks as though it is hiring, with head held up high. But then I walk inside the store itself and boom! It's like all my self-confidence has flown into the ionosphere. I don't...
    rustyguy rustyguy 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 3, 2008

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    I Just Don't Know How To Fix It

    Hey, I'm in a relationship with this guy who loves me and I live him back, but I can't give him or anyone in my life my complete love because it's guarded by a wall. This wall is so strong, it sometimes feels like it's phycically there. History:  I haven't always been...
    Lyssmix Lyssmix 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    Cold Dark Mask :D

    i hid my emotions. i never let it out. because if i did she wouldn't tell me how she was feeling. i was down but still more stable then she was. i now really struggle to get rid of my emotion . i can express it but i bottle it up and up and just cant get rid of it ! >.<...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 Sep 26, 2013

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    Instincts

    I do not know how to tear down walls that have been built by unconscious processes. In all honesty, I don't think I would want to break down my walls.  They are there for a reason.  They are there to protect me.  They are the result of time and of lessons learned.  No longer...
    permafrost21 permafrost21 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 22, 2012

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    I honestly could have killed myself today and no one would have any idea. No one would have asked for me, no one would have gone downstairs looking for me, and no one would have...
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    I come across so many people dealing with suicidal thoughts, self-harm, depression, loneliness, loss... just people going through a hard time and are at their wit's end, pouring...
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    Indomitable6811 Indomitable6811 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I left home when I was 16 yrs old. I quickly learned the harsh realities of REAL LIFE. I have seen many disheartening things. I have learned most life lessons the hard way, and I...
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    RedHwaiting RedHwaiting 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    I don't even have a ****** estimate for ya. Record me everywhere. When I drop to the floor lol that long. XD
    PartyGuy21 PartyGuy21 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    We text a good bit but he's never actually said if he likes me or what :/ how do I know without asking
    CrystalMuffins CrystalMuffins 13-15, F 1 Response May 14

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    Am i Afraid to l lose weight because i feel as if i have in to what everyone wants but i want it to. I want to be respected for who i am not what i look like. But at the same time...
    HigherCalling HigherCalling 26-30, F 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    Suppppp I'm horrible at flirting
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    Why did I ever decide being kind, open, and loving was better... HEALTHIER... Than being hard and cold?
    wayward71 wayward71 41-45, M 2 Responses May 12

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    I run out of words within a minute😌
    dreamydoc dreamydoc 22-25, M 1 Response May 14

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    I tried to not let the negative thoughts take over, yet it still did. Sometimes it makes me wonder: Maybe being happy has been such a foreign and unfamiliar feeling to me that I...
    starrywinter starrywinter 13-15, F May 15

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    Why is it as females, we feel the proper response to a compliment is to decline? Like our natural instinct is to tell somebody no, we do not look nice today.
    RedHwaiting RedHwaiting 18-21, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    I hate being a stereotype.
    WhatTheFrenchToast WhatTheFrenchToast 18-21, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Im just so sad about everything. Nothing is going right. I dont eat or sleep. And im just so lonely... Even tho i have friends.
    james13456 james13456 13-15, M 2 days ago

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    What do you do if your cousin Thinks he owns the Place, And Your Afraid Of Conflict So When You Get Into A Situation You Stay Quiet All The time, But Then Again You Try And Stand...
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    It feels like I have lived numerous different lives or that certain times in my life never really happened.. They were just figments of my imagination. Dreams. The relationships I...
    Peebsxx Peebsxx 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I don't know how to fix this. I messed up so bad. I was stupid and accidently told this chick at my school about my step-brother abusing me 7 years ago. Now there's cops hanging...
    crystal234 crystal234 13-15, F 1 Response May 4

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    Hi. I don't know how to start this, so I'll just jump right in. I live with a larger than average family with little to no income. I'm a 14 year old high school freshman. I...
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    My family owns a small local hotel and we also live in it. Yesterday, I was getting late for my interview and was in a rush and it was raining. I backed out of the parking lot, and...
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    Before I logged on today, I had to take a deep breath and count a bit. Because I was terrified of logging on again, and telling my secrets once more. But it's something I need to...
    loveyourselfalwaysxx loveyourselfalwaysxx 13-15, F 1 Response May 10

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    1.) He went out w/ friends, got drunk, didnt come home until the morning. (4-5 Months Ago) 2.) Asked me to pose as a former landlord. I refused & he told me to stop speaking to...
    Lisst Lisst 22-25, F 2 Responses May 3

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    i'm 30 years old. I have 2 children. No life. I was kicked out at 12 years old by my mother on xmas eve. I was forced to grow up on the streets and survive. I managed to finish...
    IdiditTOmyselfTwice IdiditTOmyselfTwice 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 27

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    smc92079 smc92079 31-35, F May 14

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