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I Don't Know How to Break Down My Defensive Wall

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    I Just Don't Know How To Fix It

    Hey, I'm in a relationship with this guy who loves me and I live him back, but I can't give him or anyone in my life my complete love because it's guarded by a wall. This wall is so strong, it sometimes feels like it's phycically there. History:  I haven't always been...
    Lyssmix Lyssmix 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 27, 2010

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    Instincts

    I do not know how to tear down walls that have been built by unconscious processes. In all honesty, I don't think I would want to break down my walls.  They are there for a reason.  They are there to protect me.  They are the result of time and of lessons learned.  No longer...
    permafrost21 permafrost21 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 22, 2012

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    Here is Practical Explanation about Next Life,

    Purpose of Human Life, philosophical/religious facts, theories etc. ___________________________ *********** Practical Explanation ( For Example ) :- `1st of all can you tell me every single seconds detail from that time when you born ?? ( i need every seconds detail ?? that what...
    bolt0 bolt0 22-25, M Dec 8, 2013

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    Life After Abuse

    I was also abused in a 11 year marriage and have two great kids from that time. I have been hiding behind my kids, work, college. I managed to get my bachelor's degree with an online university. I've been divorced for over 6 years. A few nice men have asked me out, but I...
    michlhi michlhi 41-45 Aug 11, 2010

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    Cold Dark Mask :D

    i hid my emotions. i never let it out. because if i did she wouldn't tell me how she was feeling. i was down but still more stable then she was. i now really struggle to get rid of my emotion . i can express it but i bottle it up and up and just cant get rid of it ! >.<...
    MiskaMaskedOne MiskaMaskedOne 18-21 Sep 26, 2013

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    Looking For a Job

    I hate being a teenager looking for a job. I walk into a store that looks promising, a store that looks as though it is hiring, with head held up high. But then I walk inside the store itself and boom! It's like all my self-confidence has flown into the ionosphere. I don't...
    rustyguy rustyguy 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 3, 2008

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    At Long Last

    I fell in love with my current boyfriend back when I was 12.  We never dated through out high school, and later in life he broke my heart.   I've since created a wall around my heart.  For the first time, we actually started a relationship with each other. ...
    NoOneOfConsequence NoOneOfConsequence 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 20, 2008

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    How Do You Trust Enough, and How Do I Handle the Pain That Is Bound to Come?

    Every time my wall comes down, I end up getting hurt ... and I don't mean just a little hurt, no, the real thing When I let people in, I really let them in, and more often then not, I get the sand kicked in my eyes.
    kinkitty kinkitty 36-40, F 50 Responses Apr 27, 2008

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    I honestly don't 0.0 it's like I don't even know what it is or something , is it like giving compliments ? idk but even if I do know I'm sure i won't be good at it
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    One of my friends keeps saying things like I'm "wonderful" or "alluring" and I'm just like "I'm not. But thanks, I guess..." He'll argue with me, saying that I am, and I'll just...
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    I've tried and tried to find someone to date and have been failing for all my adult life now. I've gotten to where I don't care what my profiles on the dating sites say. I don't...
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    Lucylubbsgolda Lucylubbsgolda 22-25, F 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I don't click to add them, I just end up in them after I add a story. Um.. why is there no confused emotion?? o.o
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    My husband spent about an hour this morning calling me every name he could think of. I destroyed his career and I am the reason our 15 year old is transgender. He wishes I would...
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    AlexandraSandy AlexandraSandy 26-30, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Just ignore them ?? .
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    magicrabbit magicrabbit 51-55 1 Response 6 days ago

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    my close friend's mom has been contacting me recently searching for some answer on her suspensions to her daughter's actions and whereabouts.. she does confirm to me if what my...
    micz521 micz521 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 21

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    Lavenderwingless Lavenderwingless 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    Were we friends? Were we lovers? Did we ever become more than just instances of thought sharing? Did you ever feel that thoughts and feelings were reciprocated across the miles...
    LastGirlScout LastGirlScout 31-35, F Aug 17

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    Right now, I am thinking about my life and wish I was dead. People tell me I have potential and stuff but honestly, I don't see it. I lost myself when I was in a crappy...
    WeirdOtaku WeirdOtaku 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 16

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    This are is like free therapy right now. Tomorrow I'm going to confront my wife. She knows I'm coming over, we agreed to sit down and talk. It will be the first time I've seen and...
    Sbpetro Sbpetro 36-40, M 1 Response Aug 14

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    Sometimes I want to stand up for myself in so I am just quiet sometimes and let every thing happen for reasons I can't explain. So I usually don't know how or what to say to people...
    Singingbutterfly Singingbutterfly 13-15, F Aug 14

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    I have always been very laid back and a lil lazy hahaha I'm the type that has always got good grades with out trying never studied in my life for anything. but now I gotta learn...
    skykidx1 skykidx1 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 14

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    Annodumbaknee Annodumbaknee 36-40, M Aug 12

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    I am horrible at flirting. I just end up looking either desperate, creepy, or both. lol
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    I used to be a confident, secure woman in my early 50's. Married for 33 years, two beautiful daughters that I am really proud of, and a wonderful baby grandson who is the apple of...
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    Learning the words "I Don't Know" was a challenge for me, and still is, but to a lesser degree. People just come up to me out of nowhere and ask me questions all the time. I...
    cjkenton cjkenton 36-40 2 Responses Aug 11

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    I don't know what I'm doing on here, or what to say. I know what I want, don't know how to ask for it.
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    I have been trying to figure out how to tell my girl friend about my powers. But I don't want to put her in danger.
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