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I Dont Know How To Deal With Death

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 17 People

    So Many Lost In So Little Time.

    I lost my nephew to suicide in 2005 then his mother , my sister in 2007, then my unborn sons father in 2009 , my best friend in 2009, and my girlfriend of three years just passed one  month ago! i dont understand how to deal with all this loss its hurts so much i just almost...
    mimigirlnephrem mimigirlnephrem 31-35, F 2 Responses Sep 17, 2010

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