I Dont Know How To Deal With Death

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 25 People

    So Many Lost In So Little Time.

    I lost my nephew to suicide in 2005 then his mother , my sister in 2007, then my unborn sons father in 2009 , my best friend in 2009, and my girlfriend of three years just passed one  month ago! i dont understand how to deal with all this loss its hurts so much i just almost...
    mimigirlnephrem mimigirlnephrem
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Sep 17, 2010

    I'll save you the sob story

    and get straight to the point. I've lost 4 people that are very close to me in my life. In the past 5 years my brother, 2 great grandmothers, and my grandfather. When it seems like I can almost deal with my emotions from the most recent death, someone else I love dies and the...
    madielynn137 madielynn137
    18-21, F
    Mar 7

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