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I Don't Know How to Feel

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    My Family'S Deaths.

    I've always thought about death like an abstract idea. Even when i've had the feelign that i'm going to die young, it's never felt quite as real as yesterday. My grandma says she has stopped taking her medication. She says she'll leave it all in God's hands and then she'll leave...
    dearstranger dearstranger 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 5, 2013

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    A Wonderful Story Full Of Hidden Anxiety Masked By Defense Mechanisms;

    This is definitely not my style. I am the type of person to bottle up all of the bad emotions and let the finer things in life bring me happiness... or atleast that is what I tell people. The truth is happiness has never come easily for me. I always had to make it myself. I had...
    amb93 amb93 22-25, F Mar 27, 2013

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    I'm dating this new guy.

    He's really sweet.his job requires him to be gone for a month and back with me for a month on and off.my issue is that he doesn't trust me when He's gone.idk how to feel and I don't know what I can say for him to trust me for the month that He's gone. :((
    itsalwayspink itsalwayspink 22-25, F Jul 20, 2014

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    This Is All So Weird

    Things are better than they have ever been with my ex and I. However, this is all including due to distance. Him traveling all the time. Him getting the right help and us being clear that we are not married anymore. Keeping distance has kept us sane. A month of calm passed by...
    Tekkamaki Tekkamaki 31-35 2 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    In General, About Everything I Never Really Know

    I feel like sometimes my feelings aren't appropriate for the situation.  In a situation where I should probably be angered or envious or extremely upset, I find myself feeling calm and undisturbed.  However, there seem to be other situations in which I can't avoid...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech 22-25, F 4 Responses May 11, 2009

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    I Don't Know

    I don't know,How I feel,How I should,And why,Things driving me,Every which way,But loose,How am I,Supposed to know,How to feel?
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Jan 23, 2012

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    So I Guess I Should Just...feel

     Ever get into a situation where you don't know how to feel? I fell asleep late after an early evening nap, then had a weird sleep with weird dreams, some of them felt creepy, but I can't remember them. Woke up to learn someone very close to me was in a lot of pain.  ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Aug 13, 2008

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    Mostly I'm Just Tired

    My Girlfriend has Bi-polar Disorder.  I never know which girlfriend is going to come home.  Naturally I'm tentative when I first greet her and until I get it figured out.  This makes her angry because she tells me that I'm "holding myself back", and "...
    GrooverShandy GrooverShandy 46-50, M 8 Responses Aug 17, 2008

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    No, I Legitimately Dont Know How To Feel...

    I mean I knew how to feel once. And it's not that I can't feel anything at all. I feel love for the person beside me. In fact, I can't make myself unfeel that feeling toward them. Otherwise, I feel nothing. It's different from the numbness, more like I feel lost. I can't figure...
    danivixen09 danivixen09 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 18, 2013

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    Lost And Don't Know Where To Go.

    I love my ex. He means everything to me. He broke up with me a few days ago. So much has gone on. He told me things that have made me think. He truly means everything to me and wants to try a relationship with me again in the future. I know I have to be patient, but what am I...
    darkfire004 darkfire004 16-17, F Sep 26, 2011

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    Im Screwed.

    the one i really love is gay. all my friends ditched me for other friends. my parents hate me. my grades are dropping.  im gaining alot of weight. and i feel like the most worthless thing in the world. i dont know how to feel.
    lilxxninja lilxxninja 13-15, F Oct 13, 2009

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    All This Darkness

    with these things that are going on around me i dont know how or what to do.my brothers have never talked to me.they just acknowlege me and move on.my father dosen`t talk about what hurts him.and i have no one to turn to.i am lost,drifting.i can`t seem to get myself going anymore...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 3 Responses Jun 27, 2009

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    I M Guilty

    i was not able to help a friend of mine who was being abused by her brother i was 14 my friend was 14 her brother was 22 when she told me her brother threatened my life i did fight her brother many times and end up bloody messed broke my ribs many times it was hard for me to...
    Dark225 Dark225 26-30, M 3 Responses Nov 10, 2013

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    Sick and Tired of Everything.

    I don't know how to feel about life. One day I want to live it, one moment I want to live it, on second I want to live it, and the next I want to die, I want to cry, I want it all to fade. I don't know what to think about relationships. I want to love with all my heart, but...
    McBeck McBeck 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 15, 2008

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    Numbed to Feel For Something Tragic?

    This young high school kid I work with in the shoe store was just in a quadding accident just down the road from my house. His girlfriend was driving and rearended the quad in front of her, both her and the guy went flying a good 15 feet in the air; the girl hit the sign and died...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech 22-25, F May 23, 2009

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    Subject Matter

    I've danced pretty well about certain subject matters here on EP over the last two years. Not just for privacy reasons, but mainly because I've been unwilling, unable to share my feelings. I wish I could describe these matters which are taboo for me. I wish they didn't trigger...
    angelwings626 angelwings626 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 16, 2010

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    The Ex-sister-in-law

     She is driving me crazy. By all means I should despise this woman. In a single episode she tore down something that has been building for years. I was never close with females in general. Being one myself was enough and of course there was my mom and my aunt, g-mother and a...
    tmmarion tmmarion 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 24, 2009

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    Babymama Is Ruining My Relationship

    So, my boyfriend has a 6 months old baby, she is the cutest little thing ever, every time he gets a chance he brings her to me so i can see her, i totally love her and she gets super happy around me, he tells her that i'm her mommy BUT here is the catch! his mom doesn't know...
    baybiiboobear baybiiboobear 18-21, F Dec 23, 2011

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    Yah It's Caused Me The Most & Least Problems

    Plus side to being dispassionate is that I'm not easily offended. My day doesn't get ruined by someone's comments or actions. I'm unaware of bad occurrences so I don't suffer like others do. I don't know how to feel most of the time, in most situations. Problem with how I am is...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F Sep 26, 2012

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    I have been dating this guy

    for awhile now, and I lost my virginity to him.... I love him a lot, and I am glad that I'm not a virgin anymore, but at the same time, I wish I could have kept it longer, and I really don't ever want to regret it...
    Lanigga14 Lanigga14 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 9

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    So I"m stuck in a marriage to a man

    who wants to be a woman... We've been married three years, and last summer he tells me he's trans. I thought, at first, I could handle it and make it work because we have a child together but it's been a year now and I can't do this much longer. And no matter what I choose it...
    leahD1993 leahD1993 18-21, F Jun 6

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    Meal Ticket

    I've been in a relationship for five years and i'm 25 years old.  My boyfriend is almost 31 and is prone to depression which seems to come and go in waves.  He's smashed up our belongings before and he's been physically violent on two occassions (not that I didn't give...
    VoidDevine VoidDevine 22-25 2 Responses Jun 15, 2010

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    I'm in a long-distance relationship at the moment and the possibility that my boyfriend doesn't love me back scares the **** out of me. Being constantly terrified that I'm not his...
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    I don't know who my Father is? I was born in 1965, my mother was very promiscuous in the summer of love. I don't blame her for this. Life's been very tough without a dad. I...
    roots2life roots2life 46-50, M 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I just get this thought, "Why did I write that? Is that really me?" Not in the sense that I doubt that it was me who wrote it, more like... I don't know, just like "am I...
    FittingUsername FittingUsername 22-25, M 22 hrs ago

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    My mom is hard to live with. She is obsessed with Facebook and taking photos. She wants me and 2 of my siblings to go to church camp, and is determined that we go. She registered...
    UnknownPrincess02 UnknownPrincess02 13-15, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Some morning I look in the mirror and I feel like I'm beautiful, but most days I look in the mirror and I feel like I'm ugly. I've been told more than once that I'm attractive and...
    xxxMeeThreexxx xxxMeeThreexxx 13-15, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    When you thought it's yours when it's not. Now I know why I like specific things. Solving a puzzle without the right answer is hard, taking the next level is not easy and...
    etude etude 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I don't know what kind of people I want in my life. I don't know what to do about my failing education. I don't know what I want to do for a career. I don't even know what my...
    whaleking whaleking 16-17, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Growing up I didn't have very good learning experiences socially. My parents didn't have friends and we didn't really spend time with family so I was pretty isolated. Both my...
    LaGentilleDame LaGentilleDame 31-35, F 3 days ago

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    I just don't know because I don't have a lot of friends at school because I like school and homework and tests so people tease me and I really don't care when they do but I start...
    AmyPond11th AmyPond11th 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I've gotten to the point in my life where I've figured out who my parents favorites are out of my siblings and I'm neither of their favorite. In fact, I'm probably the most loathed...
    Gcardenas Gcardenas 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I happen to see a guy I use to work with. We started talking about everything, nothing special. Then he asked me about one of my old friends. You see I had asked her out and she...
    solojo solojo 31-35, M 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    I've come to the conclusion that I can't be a real person. It's like someone tried to make a person and made some mistakes, so here i am. Everyone I knows wants something, whether...
    geminixleo geminixleo 18-21, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    Sometimes I really don't know what the hell is going on with me or anything else. But most of the time I really just feel like I'm not even real and then I find myself feeling...
    Killljoy Killljoy 18-21 4 days ago

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    I've been reading a book on how to better discipline my children, pretty much how to get them to listen to me better. I ran out of options, tried everything I could think of. I...
    motherwhowantstheworld motherwhowantstheworld 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    I've been plagued by contempt for my father for many years, and I'm trying to figure out if it's just an issue with my brain, with me as a person, or if I was actually emotionally...
    expandingforward expandingforward 36-40, M a week ago

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    I have many, many medical issues physical and emotional and am only 28 years old. I cannot get permanent disability I keep trying though but meanwhile I am on temporary disability...
    butterflyangels2387 butterflyangels2387 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    At first you're serious and feel like you know what you're doing. It's tiresome but it feels like you have control. Then, you loosen up. It feels good and right - like you've made...
    FittingUsername FittingUsername 22-25, M a week ago

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    I really don't know who I am anymore. Or what I want. I had the perfect life 7 months ago nothing could've been better. Now I hate everything and can't stand anything about my life...
    IngloriousJoker IngloriousJoker 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 24

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    Whenever someone gives me a compliment i just stare at them like they grew two heads while my face is bright red and feels really hot.
    IHateYourSmile IHateYourSmile 13-15, F Jul 24

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    I'm really shy when I meet people I don't know although sometimes if I meet someone and we get on straightaway then I am fine. I remember when I was young I was so shy I never...
    Tofi786 Tofi786 22-25, F Jul 24

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    I always compliment others, but whenever they compliment me I just feel weird and think about how exaggerated they sound so I sometimes awkwardly say thanks to end it all ??
    Theworldandme Theworldandme 16-17, F Jul 22

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    I can't tell if someone is flirting with me or just being nice/friendly.
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