I Don't Know How to Feel

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    All This Darkness

    with these things that are going on around me i dont know how or what to do.my brothers have never talked to me.they just acknowlege me and move on.my father dosen`t talk about what hurts him.and i have no one to turn to.i am lost,drifting.i can`t seem to get myself going anymore...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself
    36-40
    3 Responses Jun 27, 2009

    My Family'S Deaths.

    I've always thought about death like an abstract idea. Even when i've had the feelign that i'm going to die young, it's never felt quite as real as yesterday. My grandma says she has stopped taking her medication. She says she'll leave it all in God's hands and then she'll leave...
    dearstranger dearstranger
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 5, 2013

    In General, About Everything I Never Really Know

    I feel like sometimes my feelings aren't appropriate for the situation.  In a situation where I should probably be angered or envious or extremely upset, I find myself feeling calm and undisturbed.  However, there seem to be other situations in which I can't avoid...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech
    22-25, F
    4 Responses May 11, 2009

    Lost And Don't Know Where To Go.

    I love my ex. He means everything to me. He broke up with me a few days ago. So much has gone on. He told me things that have made me think. He truly means everything to me and wants to try a relationship with me again in the future. I know I have to be patient, but what am I...
    darkfire004 darkfire004
    16-17, F
    Sep 26, 2011

    The Ex-sister-in-law

     She is driving me crazy. By all means I should despise this woman. In a single episode she tore down something that has been building for years. I was never close with females in general. Being one myself was enough and of course there was my mom and my aunt, g-mother and a...
    tmmarion tmmarion
    41-45, F
    1 Response Apr 24, 2009

    I'm dating this new guy.

    He's really sweet.his job requires him to be gone for a month and back with me for a month on and off.my issue is that he doesn't trust me when He's gone.idk how to feel and I don't know what I can say for him to trust me for the month that He's gone. :((
    itsalwayspink itsalwayspink
    26-30, F
    Jul 20, 2014

    Im Screwed.

    the one i really love is gay. all my friends ditched me for other friends. my parents hate me. my grades are dropping.  im gaining alot of weight. and i feel like the most worthless thing in the world. i dont know how to feel.
    lilxxninja lilxxninja
    13-15, F
    Oct 13, 2009

    No, I Legitimately Dont Know How To Feel...

    I mean I knew how to feel once. And it's not that I can't feel anything at all. I feel love for the person beside me. In fact, I can't make myself unfeel that feeling toward them. Otherwise, I feel nothing. It's different from the numbness, more like I feel lost. I can't figure...
    danivixen09 danivixen09
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 18, 2013

    I Don't Know

    I don't know,How I feel,How I should,And why,Things driving me,Every which way,But loose,How am I,Supposed to know,How to feel?
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    Jan 23, 2012

    Yah It's Caused Me The Most & Least Problems

    Plus side to being dispassionate is that I'm not easily offended. My day doesn't get ruined by someone's comments or actions. I'm unaware of bad occurrences so I don't suffer like others do. I don't know how to feel most of the time, in most situations. Problem with how I am is...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable
    22-25, F
    Sep 26, 2012

    Babymama Is Ruining My Relationship

    So, my boyfriend has a 6 months old baby, she is the cutest little thing ever, every time he gets a chance he brings her to me so i can see her, i totally love her and she gets super happy around me, he tells her that i'm her mommy BUT here is the catch! his mom doesn't know...
    baybiiboobear baybiiboobear
    18-21, F
    Dec 23, 2011

    This Is All So Weird

    Things are better than they have ever been with my ex and I. However, this is all including due to distance. Him traveling all the time. Him getting the right help and us being clear that we are not married anymore. Keeping distance has kept us sane. A month of calm passed by...
    Tekkamaki Tekkamaki
    31-35
    2 Responses Nov 6, 2011

    So I Guess I Should Just...feel

     Ever get into a situation where you don't know how to feel? I fell asleep late after an early evening nap, then had a weird sleep with weird dreams, some of them felt creepy, but I can't remember them. Woke up to learn someone very close to me was in a lot of pain.  ...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    9 Responses Aug 13, 2008

    So I"m stuck in a marriage to a man

    who wants to be a woman... We've been married three years, and last summer he tells me he's trans. I thought, at first, I could handle it and make it work because we have a child together but it's been a year now and I can't do this much longer. And no matter what I choose it...
    leahD1993 leahD1993
    22-25, F
    Jun 6, 2015

    Numbed to Feel For Something Tragic?

    This young high school kid I work with in the shoe store was just in a quadding accident just down the road from my house. His girlfriend was driving and rearended the quad in front of her, both her and the guy went flying a good 15 feet in the air; the girl hit the sign and died...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech
    22-25, F
    May 23, 2009

    Mostly I'm Just Tired

    My Girlfriend has Bi-polar Disorder.  I never know which girlfriend is going to come home.  Naturally I'm tentative when I first greet her and until I get it figured out.  This makes her angry because she tells me that I'm "holding myself back", and "...
    GrooverShandy GrooverShandy
    46-50, M
    8 Responses Aug 17, 2008

    Meal Ticket

    I've been in a relationship for five years and i'm 25 years old.  My boyfriend is almost 31 and is prone to depression which seems to come and go in waves.  He's smashed up our belongings before and he's been physically violent on two occassions (not that I didn't give...
    VoidDevine VoidDevine
    22-25
    2 Responses Jun 15, 2010

    Sick and Tired of Everything.

    I don't know how to feel about life. One day I want to live it, one moment I want to live it, on second I want to live it, and the next I want to die, I want to cry, I want it all to fade. I don't know what to think about relationships. I want to love with all my heart, but...
    McBeck McBeck
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Dec 15, 2008

    I M Guilty

    i was not able to help a friend of mine who was being abused by her brother i was 14 my friend was 14 her brother was 22 when she told me her brother threatened my life i did fight her brother many times and end up bloody messed broke my ribs many times it was hard for me to...
    Dark225 Dark225
    26-30, M
    3 Responses Nov 10, 2013

    A Wonderful Story Full Of Hidden Anxiety Masked By Defense Mechanisms;

    This is definitely not my style. I am the type of person to bottle up all of the bad emotions and let the finer things in life bring me happiness... or atleast that is what I tell people. The truth is happiness has never come easily for me. I always had to make it myself. I had...
    amb93 amb93
    22-25, F
    Mar 27, 2013

    I have been dating this guy

    for awhile now, and I lost my virginity to him.... I love him a lot, and I am glad that I'm not a virgin anymore, but at the same time, I wish I could have kept it longer, and I really don't ever want to regret it...
    Lanigga15 Lanigga15
    13-15, F
    1 Response Mar 9, 2015

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