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I Don't Know How to Feel

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    Meal Ticket

    I've been in a relationship for five years and i'm 25 years old.  My boyfriend is almost 31 and is prone to depression which seems to come and go in waves.  He's smashed up our belongings before and he's been physically violent on two occassions (not that I didn't give...
    VoidDevine VoidDevine 22-25 2 Responses Jun 15, 2010

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    Subject Matter

    I've danced pretty well about certain subject matters here on EP over the last two years. Not just for privacy reasons, but mainly because I've been unwilling, unable to share my feelings. I wish I could describe these matters which are taboo for me. I wish they didn't trigger...
    angelwings626 angelwings626 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 16, 2010

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    All This Darkness

    with these things that are going on around me i dont know how or what to do.my brothers have never talked to me.they just acknowlege me and move on.my father dosen`t talk about what hurts him.and i have no one to turn to.i am lost,drifting.i can`t seem to get myself going anymore...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 3 Responses Jun 27, 2009

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    Babymama Is Ruining My Relationship

    So, my boyfriend has a 6 months old baby, she is the cutest little thing ever, every time he gets a chance he brings her to me so i can see her, i totally love her and she gets super happy around me, he tells her that i'm her mommy BUT here is the catch! his mom doesn't know...
    baybiiboobear baybiiboobear 18-21, F Dec 23, 2011

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    Mostly I'm Just Tired

    My Girlfriend has Bi-polar Disorder.  I never know which girlfriend is going to come home.  Naturally I'm tentative when I first greet her and until I get it figured out.  This makes her angry because she tells me that I'm "holding myself back", and "...
    GrooverShandy GrooverShandy 46-50, M 8 Responses Aug 17, 2008

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    My Family'S Deaths.

    I've always thought about death like an abstract idea. Even when i've had the feelign that i'm going to die young, it's never felt quite as real as yesterday. My grandma says she has stopped taking her medication. She says she'll leave it all in God's hands and then she'll leave...
    dearstranger dearstranger 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 5, 2013

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    Im Screwed.

    the one i really love is gay. all my friends ditched me for other friends. my parents hate me. my grades are dropping.  im gaining alot of weight. and i feel like the most worthless thing in the world. i dont know how to feel.
    lilxxninja lilxxninja 13-15, F Oct 13, 2009

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    I'm dating this new guy.

    He's really sweet.his job requires him to be gone for a month and back with me for a month on and off.my issue is that he doesn't trust me when He's gone.idk how to feel and I don't know what I can say for him to trust me for the month that He's gone. :((
    itsalwayspink itsalwayspink 22-25, F Jul 20

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    The Ex-sister-in-law

     She is driving me crazy. By all means I should despise this woman. In a single episode she tore down something that has been building for years. I was never close with females in general. Being one myself was enough and of course there was my mom and my aunt, g-mother and a...
    tmmarion tmmarion 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 24, 2009

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    In General, About Everything I Never Really Know

    I feel like sometimes my feelings aren't appropriate for the situation.  In a situation where I should probably be angered or envious or extremely upset, I find myself feeling calm and undisturbed.  However, there seem to be other situations in which I can't avoid...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech 22-25, F 4 Responses May 11, 2009

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    So I Guess I Should Just...feel

     Ever get into a situation where you don't know how to feel? I fell asleep late after an early evening nap, then had a weird sleep with weird dreams, some of them felt creepy, but I can't remember them. Woke up to learn someone very close to me was in a lot of pain.  ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Aug 13, 2008

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    This Is All So Weird

    Things are better than they have ever been with my ex and I. However, this is all including due to distance. Him traveling all the time. Him getting the right help and us being clear that we are not married anymore. Keeping distance has kept us sane. A month of calm passed by...
    Tekkamaki Tekkamaki 31-35 2 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    No, I Legitimately Dont Know How To Feel...

    I mean I knew how to feel once. And it's not that I can't feel anything at all. I feel love for the person beside me. In fact, I can't make myself unfeel that feeling toward them. Otherwise, I feel nothing. It's different from the numbness, more like I feel lost. I can't figure...
    danivixen09 danivixen09 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 18, 2013

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    Sick and Tired of Everything.

    I don't know how to feel about life. One day I want to live it, one moment I want to live it, on second I want to live it, and the next I want to die, I want to cry, I want it all to fade. I don't know what to think about relationships. I want to love with all my heart, but...
    McBeck McBeck 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 15, 2008

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    Yah It's Caused Me The Most & Least Problems

    Plus side to being dispassionate is that I'm not easily offended. My day doesn't get ruined by someone's comments or actions. I'm unaware of bad occurrences so I don't suffer like others do. I don't know how to feel most of the time, in most situations. Problem with how I am is...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F Sep 26, 2012

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    Numbed to Feel For Something Tragic?

    This young high school kid I work with in the shoe store was just in a quadding accident just down the road from my house. His girlfriend was driving and rearended the quad in front of her, both her and the guy went flying a good 15 feet in the air; the girl hit the sign and died...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech 22-25, F May 23, 2009

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    A Wonderful Story Full Of Hidden Anxiety Masked By Defense Mechanisms;

    This is definitely not my style. I am the type of person to bottle up all of the bad emotions and let the finer things in life bring me happiness... or atleast that is what I tell people. The truth is happiness has never come easily for me. I always had to make it myself. I had...
    amb93 amb93 18-21, F Mar 27, 2013

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    I M Guilty

    i was not able to help a friend of mine who was being abused by her brother i was 14 my friend was 14 her brother was 22 when she told me her brother threatened my life i did fight her brother many times and end up bloody messed broke my ribs many times it was hard for me to...
    Dark225 Dark225 22-25, M 3 Responses Nov 10, 2013

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    I Don't Know

    I don't know,How I feel,How I should,And why,Things driving me,Every which way,But loose,How am I,Supposed to know,How to feel?
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Jan 23, 2012

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    Lost And Don't Know Where To Go.

    I love my ex. He means everything to me. He broke up with me a few days ago. So much has gone on. He told me things that have made me think. He truly means everything to me and wants to try a relationship with me again in the future. I know I have to be patient, but what am I...
    darkfire004 darkfire004 16-17, F Sep 26, 2011

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    Related Experiences

    Ok to make this brief, my husbands stepsister is the person who introduced us. When I actually started going out with him she did a complete U-turn and became quiet nasty. By the...
    hopingformiracles hopingformiracles 22-25 1 Response Aug 17

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    I want one and need one but don't know how to ask plz help
    livelovehopefree livelovehopefree 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 5

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    Everytime someone flirts with me I'm flattered and all and I want to flirt back but something in me panics and I stop responding and I don't know I feel like it makes me look...
    MossPrincess MossPrincess 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    I don't know how to flirt. Nor even do I want to Say what you mean, mean what you say is how I like to live.
    dontcareforlabels dontcareforlabels 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 30

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    I really don't know how to flirt and reciprocate to flirt. any one good in that?
    Saarikaa Saarikaa 36-40, F 17 Responses Aug 26

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    I don't know if I should answer him "yes", because I don't know which is which, is it because I love him or pity him? I don't even know what should I feel about him right now...
    Misaki7590 Misaki7590 16-17, F Aug 22

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    I want to help people but its hard. I can barely help myself. I have so many issues too. When I go to get some "me" time I end up leaving my friends to suffer alone. I feel so bad...
    ponycupcake ponycupcake 18-21, F 6 Responses Aug 22

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    So the past year has been a lot of changes. 5 different jobs, homeless for 3 months, and finally settled into a new apartment. But I'm still just lost. Bouncing around, not knowing...
    Humming247 Humming247 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 6

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    Honestly I need I girlfriend. I don't know why but the girls at my school always go for the douches while the actual popular people (im a part of) get none of them. Im nice, I care...
    GingaJustice GingaJustice 13-15, M Aug 21

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    It's never as easy as just saying "thank you". I already don't think much of myself and I don't want anyone else to think so either. Saying "thank you" typically indicates that the...
    JustAnotherHuman34 JustAnotherHuman34 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I'm not even sure if I really really like him, but he's on my mind so much. But I don't want to make a move, because I don't want to give in to this temptation; I know the outcome...
    averagecomplicatedhuman averagecomplicatedhuman 18-21, F Aug 30

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    So this is a weird situation this is more of a question than a story but ok I'm only 13 I've never had a bf never had my first kiss nothing...my 11 year old friend has a 14 year...
    kathie2000 kathie2000 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 25

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    I get nervous when someone tells me a compliment. I just say "Thank you" without saying anything else. I do not like to show off or get any kind of attention about myself, so I...
    s4019t s4019t 26-30, M 1 Response Aug 18

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    I think my girlfriend likes to seduce her dad. He compliments her allot. She wears no bra when we are going to be around him and really short skirts or shorts with no panties on...
    MrSecretGuy MrSecretGuy 31-35, M Aug 22

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    Yes I've been complemented. I've been called pretty the occasional cute, I've even been told I'm perfect (witch I don't believe) but even tho I get compliments I never know how to...
    internetrodo internetrodo 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 7

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    I think this experience thread is a little one sided and hypocritical. Firstly, every person has a limit of stress and pain that they can handle, which to them when pushed beyond...
    AnonR AnonR 70+, T 1 Response Sep 1

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    I know that probably sounds absurd. I'm not sure why, and I have taken notice to it, but do not know how to change the way I address them! Maybe it's social anxiety/awkwardness...
    JaidIsAWildflower JaidIsAWildflower 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    I do but I don't . I mean I can do it professionally if its beneficial to my wallet or my performance but if I like someone or think theyre attractive I lose all positive social...
    Alylovespuppies Alylovespuppies 16-17, F Aug 17

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    I'm such a bad flirter with girls in real life, I never know what to say or do. Even when I know the other girl likes me already. And most times I'm scare that I could get caught...
    Quietguy1234 Quietguy1234 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 18

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    Strange guy: Hey, you are cute. Me: Emmm.... Do we know each other? Strange guy: Eh... no... i just wanted to say that. Me: Why? In another situation...... Me: Oh my god, that...
    Mynameistooweird Mynameistooweird 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    Im really good at giving compliments. But taking them is awkward for me. Since i dont usually get that many compliments. It surprises me. So i dont know what to say or do.
    ninjadentistinspace ninjadentistinspace 16-17, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    Lol. Too true. Even my flattery is bad.
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M 1 Response Aug 18

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    it's so awkward when the person you're talking to is really good at it. Like all I could do was smile and nod and walk away
    sairaa sairaa 16-17, F Aug 18

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    whenever someone compliments me, i find it hard to believe its true and i freak out.
    buttney buttney 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 18

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    When I'm around a good looking guy, I just laugh or blush or say something stupid. I'm totally not myself; I'm terrible at flirting and showing them I'm actually intelligent and...
    Seblett Seblett 13-15, F 7 Responses Aug 22

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    I want to make a difference but it's so hard when no one will accept help.
    taytayjohns taytayjohns 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 22

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    I'll see a chick, walk up to here after my knees stop shaking from nervousness, and then stare at her with a stupid or funny face. She and her friends either laugh, look disgusted...
    LeonardFinch LeonardFinch 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 24

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    "I'm fine" or "I'm okay" two words hiding a world of pain
    Kampion Kampion 18-21, M 4 Responses Aug 31

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    So many lucky bipeds whine. Wish me could trade places with such.
    Livyn4pals Livyn4pals 46-50, M Sep 1

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