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I Don't Know How to Feel

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    All This Darkness

    with these things that are going on around me i dont know how or what to do.my brothers have never talked to me.they just acknowlege me and move on.my father dosen`t talk about what hurts him.and i have no one to turn to.i am lost,drifting.i can`t seem to get myself going anymore...
    ghostofmyself ghostofmyself 36-40 3 Responses Jun 27, 2009

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    No, I Legitimately Dont Know How To Feel...

    I mean I knew how to feel once. And it's not that I can't feel anything at all. I feel love for the person beside me. In fact, I can't make myself unfeel that feeling toward them. Otherwise, I feel nothing. It's different from the numbness, more like I feel lost. I can't figure...
    danivixen09 danivixen09 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 18, 2013

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    Meal Ticket

    I've been in a relationship for five years and i'm 25 years old.  My boyfriend is almost 31 and is prone to depression which seems to come and go in waves.  He's smashed up our belongings before and he's been physically violent on two occassions (not that I didn't give...
    VoidDevine VoidDevine 22-25 2 Responses Jun 15, 2010

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    Mostly I'm Just Tired

    My Girlfriend has Bi-polar Disorder.  I never know which girlfriend is going to come home.  Naturally I'm tentative when I first greet her and until I get it figured out.  This makes her angry because she tells me that I'm "holding myself back", and "...
    GrooverShandy GrooverShandy 46-50, M 8 Responses Aug 17, 2008

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    I M Guilty

    i was not able to help a friend of mine who was being abused by her brother i was 14 my friend was 14 her brother was 22 when she told me her brother threatened my life i did fight her brother many times and end up bloody messed broke my ribs many times it was hard for me to...
    Dark225 Dark225 22-25, M 3 Responses Nov 10, 2013

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    My Family'S Deaths.

    I've always thought about death like an abstract idea. Even when i've had the feelign that i'm going to die young, it's never felt quite as real as yesterday. My grandma says she has stopped taking her medication. She says she'll leave it all in God's hands and then she'll leave...
    dearstranger dearstranger 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 5, 2013

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    Babymama Is Ruining My Relationship

    So, my boyfriend has a 6 months old baby, she is the cutest little thing ever, every time he gets a chance he brings her to me so i can see her, i totally love her and she gets super happy around me, he tells her that i'm her mommy BUT here is the catch! his mom doesn't know...
    baybiiboobear baybiiboobear 18-21, F Dec 23, 2011

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    I have been dating this guy

    for awhile now, and I lost my virginity to him.... I love him a lot, and I am glad that I'm not a virgin anymore, but at the same time, I wish I could have kept it longer, and I really don't ever want to regret it...
    Lanigga14 Lanigga14 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 9

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    I Don't Know

    I don't know,How I feel,How I should,And why,Things driving me,Every which way,But loose,How am I,Supposed to know,How to feel?
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Jan 23, 2012

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    Lost And Don't Know Where To Go.

    I love my ex. He means everything to me. He broke up with me a few days ago. So much has gone on. He told me things that have made me think. He truly means everything to me and wants to try a relationship with me again in the future. I know I have to be patient, but what am I...
    darkfire004 darkfire004 16-17, F Sep 26, 2011

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    In General, About Everything I Never Really Know

    I feel like sometimes my feelings aren't appropriate for the situation.  In a situation where I should probably be angered or envious or extremely upset, I find myself feeling calm and undisturbed.  However, there seem to be other situations in which I can't avoid...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech 22-25, F 4 Responses May 11, 2009

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    Im Screwed.

    the one i really love is gay. all my friends ditched me for other friends. my parents hate me. my grades are dropping.  im gaining alot of weight. and i feel like the most worthless thing in the world. i dont know how to feel.
    lilxxninja lilxxninja 13-15, F Oct 13, 2009

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    A Wonderful Story Full Of Hidden Anxiety Masked By Defense Mechanisms;

    This is definitely not my style. I am the type of person to bottle up all of the bad emotions and let the finer things in life bring me happiness... or atleast that is what I tell people. The truth is happiness has never come easily for me. I always had to make it myself. I had...
    amb93 amb93 18-21, F Mar 27, 2013

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    Sick and Tired of Everything.

    I don't know how to feel about life. One day I want to live it, one moment I want to live it, on second I want to live it, and the next I want to die, I want to cry, I want it all to fade. I don't know what to think about relationships. I want to love with all my heart, but...
    McBeck McBeck 18-21, F 5 Responses Dec 15, 2008

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    I'm dating this new guy.

    He's really sweet.his job requires him to be gone for a month and back with me for a month on and off.my issue is that he doesn't trust me when He's gone.idk how to feel and I don't know what I can say for him to trust me for the month that He's gone. :((
    itsalwayspink itsalwayspink 22-25, F Jul 20, 2014

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    Numbed to Feel For Something Tragic?

    This young high school kid I work with in the shoe store was just in a quadding accident just down the road from my house. His girlfriend was driving and rearended the quad in front of her, both her and the guy went flying a good 15 feet in the air; the girl hit the sign and died...
    filthydieseltech filthydieseltech 22-25, F May 23, 2009

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    This Is All So Weird

    Things are better than they have ever been with my ex and I. However, this is all including due to distance. Him traveling all the time. Him getting the right help and us being clear that we are not married anymore. Keeping distance has kept us sane. A month of calm passed by...
    Tekkamaki Tekkamaki 31-35 2 Responses Nov 6, 2011

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    The Ex-sister-in-law

     She is driving me crazy. By all means I should despise this woman. In a single episode she tore down something that has been building for years. I was never close with females in general. Being one myself was enough and of course there was my mom and my aunt, g-mother and a...
    tmmarion tmmarion 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 24, 2009

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    Subject Matter

    I've danced pretty well about certain subject matters here on EP over the last two years. Not just for privacy reasons, but mainly because I've been unwilling, unable to share my feelings. I wish I could describe these matters which are taboo for me. I wish they didn't trigger...
    angelwings626 angelwings626 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 16, 2010

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    So I Guess I Should Just...feel

     Ever get into a situation where you don't know how to feel? I fell asleep late after an early evening nap, then had a weird sleep with weird dreams, some of them felt creepy, but I can't remember them. Woke up to learn someone very close to me was in a lot of pain.  ...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Aug 13, 2008

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    Yah It's Caused Me The Most & Least Problems

    Plus side to being dispassionate is that I'm not easily offended. My day doesn't get ruined by someone's comments or actions. I'm unaware of bad occurrences so I don't suffer like others do. I don't know how to feel most of the time, in most situations. Problem with how I am is...
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F Sep 26, 2012

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    I don't know why just happy for no reason
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    I lost my grandfather in january. He had a stroke and I kept hoping he will get better until the last minute. I refused to go see him like that, believing that he will get better...
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    I like him but idk whether he like me or not.b4 this i can't even talk to u la G but recently we start to be friend.before this I just smile at u n u smile back n me and vice versa...
    ShyGirlbutStraightForward ShyGirlbutStraightForward 22-25, F 1 Response May 14

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    I think I grieve in a weird way my sister. 2 years since she passed away, I couldn't cry... then I would obsess about her for a while and get depressed and crying. Then I avoid...
    Blackberries Blackberries 26-30, F 1 Response May 12

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    I honestly could have killed myself today and no one would have any idea. No one would have asked for me, no one would have gone downstairs looking for me, and no one would have...
    Headlights Headlights 18-21, F 2 Responses May 7

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    I come across so many people dealing with suicidal thoughts, self-harm, depression, loneliness, loss... just people going through a hard time and are at their wit's end, pouring...
    astateofdisarray astateofdisarray 18-21, F 1 Response May 12

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    I'm going to end up beating the **** out of my boyfriends best friend's girlfriend. How do you deal with someone you're forced to hang out with and all you want to do is rip their...
    Indomitable6811 Indomitable6811 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I hate people who say that depression its just for attention. If I say i'm depressed, I think nobody would believe me. I eat pills 2 times in a day, because of depression...
    lostandalone98 lostandalone98 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    I left home when I was 16 yrs old. I quickly learned the harsh realities of REAL LIFE. I have seen many disheartening things. I have learned most life lessons the hard way, and I...
    BrokeBandit BrokeBandit 36-40, F May 9

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    Last night a guy said to me “You are very, very pretty” and i said “I know” and he said like “You KNOW?” and i said “You think you’re the first person to ever...
    RedHwaiting RedHwaiting 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    We text a good bit but he's never actually said if he likes me or what :/ how do I know without asking
    CrystalMuffins CrystalMuffins 13-15, F 1 Response May 14

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    I tried to not let the negative thoughts take over, yet it still did. Sometimes it makes me wonder: Maybe being happy has been such a foreign and unfamiliar feeling to me that I...
    starrywinter starrywinter 13-15, F May 15

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    Why is it as females, we feel the proper response to a compliment is to decline? Like our natural instinct is to tell somebody no, we do not look nice today.
    RedHwaiting RedHwaiting 18-21, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    Im just so sad about everything. Nothing is going right. I dont eat or sleep. And im just so lonely... Even tho i have friends.
    james13456 james13456 13-15, M 34 mins ago

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    Suppppp I'm horrible at flirting
    heyfellowllama heyfellowllama 13-15, M 1 Response May 2

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    Why did I ever decide being kind, open, and loving was better... HEALTHIER... Than being hard and cold?
    wayward71 wayward71 41-45, M 2 Responses May 12

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    I run out of words within a minute😌
    dreamydoc dreamydoc 22-25, M 1 Response May 14

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    I hate being a stereotype.
    WhatTheFrenchToast WhatTheFrenchToast 18-21, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    It feels like I have lived numerous different lives or that certain times in my life never really happened.. They were just figments of my imagination. Dreams. The relationships I...
    Peebsxx Peebsxx 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    Hi. I don't know how to start this, so I'll just jump right in. I live with a larger than average family with little to no income. I'm a 14 year old high school freshman. I...