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I Don't Know If I Should Trust God Anymore

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    My Heart Is In A Million Pieces...never To Be Mended!!!

      I don't want to mkae this post my personal pity party. I was browsing the net and found this site, saw thetopic and it fascinated me because this is how I have felt for pretty much all of my life. In short it has been a roller coaster of things like everyone else I...
    orichgirl orichgirl 26-30, F 5 Responses Nov 18, 2009

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    Everything Is Wrong.

    My mom has never been to cope with her stress and the sad things that have happened to her in her life. She is always crying in her room and never around to feed me or my little brother. She lives in the past;always talking about her old friends from college that she doesn't know...
    Queso81 Queso81 16-17 Aug 26, 2012

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    I want to believe in you so badly. I want something to instill my hopes in. I wish I could feel your unconditional love. I yearn for your eternal forgiveness. Life is really hard...
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    ... I know some people don't believe in god, and neither do I.. But if he actually did exist.. What IS he? What kind of creature is he? Does he drink alcohol or smoke weed? Does he...
    CheeseBomb500 CheeseBomb500 13-15, M 6 Responses Aug 5

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