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I Don't Know If I Should Trust God Anymore

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    My Heart Is In A Million Pieces...never To Be Mended!!!

      I don't want to mkae this post my personal pity party. I was browsing the net and found this site, saw thetopic and it fascinated me because this is how I have felt for pretty much all of my life. In short it has been a roller coaster of things like everyone else I...
    orichgirl orichgirl 26-30, F 5 Responses Nov 18, 2009

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    Everything Is Wrong.

    My mom has never been to cope with her stress and the sad things that have happened to her in her life. She is always crying in her room and never around to feed me or my little brother. She lives in the past;always talking about her old friends from college that she doesn't know...
    Queso81 Queso81 16-17 Aug 26, 2012

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    BabyBabz BabyBabz 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 23

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    I hate to stereotype God as some deity who takes pleasure in our suffering or humilation. Or God who claims to love us but does not interfere in the affairs of humans and sits upon...
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    ....tell me what I should do. Please please please is there a way to fix this?.....Is there a way.....to keep from ending everything?..... .....I hurt you if I stay, I hurt you if...
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