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I Don't Know If I Should Trust God Anymore

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 7 People

    My Heart Is In A Million Pieces...never To Be Mended!!!

      I don't want to mkae this post my personal pity party. I was browsing the net and found this site, saw thetopic and it fascinated me because this is how I have felt for pretty much all of my life. In short it has been a roller coaster of things like everyone else I...
    orichgirl orichgirl 26-30, F 5 Responses Nov 18, 2009

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    Everything Is Wrong.

    My mom has never been to cope with her stress and the sad things that have happened to her in her life. She is always crying in her room and never around to feed me or my little brother. She lives in the past;always talking about her old friends from college that she doesn't know...
    Queso81 Queso81 16-17 Aug 26, 2012

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    I don’t know why I knocked on the door of my only friend when I hit rock bottom and was afraid to being alone. I don’t know why he took advantage of me, I was 17, and I didn...
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    Am I kind? Am I heartless? Am I purely seductive? Am I sensitive? Can I love? Am I crazy? Sadly I don't know. I have so many roles that I have used to protect myself. I think the...
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    If somebody ever asked me about my life, I will always refer to you. It will always start with the day I first saw your face, and how everything seemed to change. I will continue...
    Darkthoughtsallover Darkthoughtsallover 16-17, F 8 hrs ago

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    I posted this up as a response, but it's rather reflective of my view on the idea of a god. I'm more a believer in the individual person and people and the common good than I am...
    YohKomori YohKomori 22-25, M 3 days ago

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    Sorry for everyone who thinks this is an update. That guy I mentioned before? He told me actually does like me, and we've talked a lot, but the thing is, I don't know if I like him...
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    I don't know what I am doing anymore. I am going in circles, I am okay for a few days and then randomly I get bad again. I don't know what to do or what is going on. I just want to...
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