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I Don't Know My Father

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    An Impossible Void To Fill

    I am so very conflicted right now. I do not know who my father is. Tonight, right now it has consumed me. I suddenly feel the need to share my story and I hope that you will listen. I have rarely spoken about this, because I feel ashamed. Exactly why, I cannot explain...
    apricotears apricotears 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2012

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    I Don't Know My Father.

    When I was fourteen I found out my dad wasn't my dad. I thought he would still be in life but I was wrong. Now I have this void that I'm afraid will never be filled. My mother doesn't know my real fathers last name and I'm sure he doesn't know I exist. I'm so afraid of not...
    leannaleanna leannaleanna 22-25, F 3 Responses Nov 8, 2013

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    I Dont Know What To Feel...

    I'm 21 years old && for 21 years I've been wondering who my father is.When I was little some nights I used to stay up && think maybe one day he'll show up && I can finally see his face...needless to say that day never came.Growing up without a father was hard for me because my 2...
    dopekiddee dopekiddee 18-21 3 Responses Sep 12, 2011

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    My mom was taken advantage of

    when she was 23 with a 3 year old. She apparently has absolutely no idea who my real father is. A man, the doctor that took care of me after I was born, and my mother fell in love and he decided to adopt me and my older sister as his own. I'd always known my sister and I had...
    LadyMerida LadyMerida 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 26, 2014

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    I Just Want A Dad

    I never knew who my dad was, my mother refuses to talk about it and there is no father listed on my birth certificate, I don't think I will ever know anything about my dad. I don't even know how he looks like. I go to my best friends house and she has such a good friendship with...
    jeannie14 jeannie14 13-15, F 4 Responses Aug 26, 2013

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    My Mother

    never told me and she gave me up to a childrens home after 3 days
    christinemelody christinemelody 56-60, T 1 Response Sep 13, 2013

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    I Wish I Knew My Fathers Side Of The Family.

    I have always wondered about my traits and where my physical traits have come from. I have meet my father a couple of time for brief moments so I know what he looks like. It's not just my father who I would love to get to know more ( His personality, his habits..etc), but I want...
    melisa1211 melisa1211 18-21, F Dec 23, 2011

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    I'm 28 and have never met my dad.

    I first spoke to him on the phone when I was 20 years old and also found out I have two brothers and a sister, all half siblings of course. From what I have gathered he's a complete failure, liar, and heavy drug user. Has never taken care of any 4 of his kids, all grown now. I...
    jrene87 jrene87 26-30, F 1 Response May 3

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    who are you? i was 10

    when i asked my mom about fathers. I was at a mind set that you didn't need a guy to have a kid, and i got bullied for it. my mom told me to be quiet and never ask her again, its 17 years later an i see my bestfriend with her father an i want that more than anyone could ever...
    bannaaaa627 bannaaaa627 16-17, F 1 Response Apr 9

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    16 years old, adopted,

    birth certificate says "father unknown" I know who my biological mother is. my only option is to ask her, but that's entirely out of the question. I just want to know who he is. I'm not close with my adopted family and I've wondered who he might be for a long time now. Maybe he...
    ImperfectSouls ImperfectSouls 16-17, F Dec 29, 2014

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    Just Another Sob Story Because I Don't Know Who My Father Is.

    I grew up thinking my entire life thinking the man that raised me was my biological father, why would I have any reason to think otherwise? Through the years, my siblings always joked that I looked nothing like my dad (the man that raised me) but I never paid any attention to it...
    Asheepnomore Asheepnomore 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 9, 2013

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    I Think I Found My Real Dad

    I joined this forum because right now I'm not sure who to talk to about this. And I'm really not sure what to do. All my life my mom said I was from the father that raised me and my five brothers and sisters, I've always felt very uncomfortable around him even though he's never...
    LostAngel94 LostAngel94 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 26, 2012

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    I Dont Know Him

    Hi im shelby. I dont know my daddy I have never met him I have had replacements But ... It doesnt work. Ive always wanted a dad. To hold me when im crying and kiss me good night. To walk me to school and take me places. Ive never had that. Its sad but. Ive seen him. But never...
    skittleskitten skittleskitten 13-15, F Aug 13, 2013

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    I write to anyone who shares my life long

    emotion of not knowing my biological father. I start by being totally thankful and loving of the man who IS my dad, the man who took me to be his own when I was only a small baby and the man who still wakes up every day with my mum who I truly love as much as any man can love...
    yugecin yugecin 41-45, M 1 Response Jan 26, 2014

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    I may live with the guy,

    but he is never go u ng to be my father. He missed the boat years ago when he never did anything for me.
    nomnommings nomnommings 16-17, F 2 Responses Mar 20

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    Father Refuses DNA Test

    I am 40 years old. My dad and i both doubt that we are biologically related. My mom was promiscuous when she was young, and she got pregnant. My dad has his doubts, but refuses to know for sure. My mother refuses to talk about it.
    FrankHotdog FrankHotdog 41-45, M 1 Response Nov 16, 2013

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    Lost

    I have always felt like as children, we kind of idolize our parents, imitate them, pick up on their traits and habits and stuff.  We pick up a little from our moms, and a little from our dads. If youre like me, then half of you might feel lost from not having that half to be...
    eroticdancer eroticdancer 26-30, F 7 Responses Jan 10, 2008

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    Who Is He?

    Hi, I'm 15 years old and I don't know anything about my father..My mother never didn't mentioned him..When I was 11 I asked her who is he, but she didn't answer..I wanna ask her again but i don't feel comfortable when I talk about this subject..I have many questions..I even don...
    maryyyann7 maryyyann7 16-17, F 6 Responses Oct 25, 2011

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    I'm tired. I can't sleep.

    I'm stressed and I don't know what to do. I have a wonderful wife and 3 incredible children. About 30 days ago I saw a picture of my ex-girlfriend (about 16 years ago) and her 3 children. When we broke you she was angry and told me she was pregnant. She got married 3 months...
    jallen100 jallen100 51-55, F 1 Response Dec 11, 2013

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    OK so I am 22. Just found out this past August

    the father that has been in my life for all off these years is not my biological father. My whole family kept that from me this long! I have been wanting to contact this other man but I have no way to at this moment.. I have a horrible relationship with my mother and I live with...
    beachygirl91 beachygirl91 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 2, 2014

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    A Letter From Your Unknown Dad

    I don't know what you've been told, but I would never purposely hurt you. I don't care how you got here, or who your mother is, you are part of me, and hurting you is hurting myself. I know we have never met, but I want to explain something to you just in case we never do. There...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 8, 2013

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    I've been wallowing in this strange state of

    nostalgia lately. As if something is missing. All the Trans* guys I know claim that they look more like their dads now. I don't even remember him. I forgot the sound of his voice, or how tall he was next to me. My brother tells me he was a good guy, a fun but very reserved kind...
    fexars fexars 26-30, T 1 Response Apr 14

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    Possession of a Controlled Substance X 42

    I've never met my "father," although I doubt I'll ever want to. Since the year after I was born he's been doing lines and stealing things. I can look up his record on my county's police website arrest inquiry. It goes back seven years. I've been looking it up the past...
    UnoriginalForumID UnoriginalForumID 26-30, M 26 Responses Apr 16, 2009

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    My Biological Father Tried To Kill Me When I Was a Baby

    I never met him and never wanted to.  My mother split with him when I was a baby, after he tried to smother me with a pillow while I was in my crib.  My grandmother walked in on him while he was trying to kill me. He was an alcoholic and I was costing too much money...
    wordsforliving wordsforliving 46-50, F 4 Responses Oct 10, 2010

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    My Patience Is Running Out

    I have posted my story on the internet before, specifically on "The Anonymous Us Project". But here I go again, reaching out, in hopes that I will find someone I can relate with or someone I am biologically related to. So, here we go... I was donor conceived, for those of you...
    mek1115 mek1115 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 15, 2013

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    I Don'T Even Know Who The Man Is...

    25 yrs old and I still have no idea of who this man is. 25 yrs have passed and many questions still remain unanswered. Not saying my mom wasn’t enough because she truly was. It’s just I want to know. Don’t I have the right to know? I think so. I have tried and asked my mom...
    deleted deleted 26-30 17 Responses May 7, 2013

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    My dad is in my life I talk to him every

    once in a while but as I get older I feel like something's are missing. I never had a daughter to Father Time with my dad without it being another women there. I know my dad to be funny and one with women in and out if his life. I just wish he didn't bring those women in and out...
    mia16 mia16 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    So here's my sad little story.

    I've never met my father, nor have I ever had any kind of father to speak of (aka, my mom never got married). Not really a huge deal - I'm a pretty awesome person - until all of a sudden when my mom ran into my biological dad a few days ago. Naturally, I've always had some...
    Coffeelover90 Coffeelover90 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 24, 2014

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    Did You Date Christy (Christine) Ann Johnson In Grand Forks, ND / Thief River Falls, MN Area In 1978?

    If you did you could be my dad. I have no fathers name on my birth certificate and my mother refuses to give me his name. I have no information about my father not even a single picture. If you are reading this and know anything about anyone dating Christy Johnson in Grand Forks...
    johnson1979 johnson1979 31-35 1 Response Sep 30, 2013

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    My Father, Martin Luther King and the KKK

    Although I was 5 1/2 years old, I remember even now as clearly as if it were last night laying on the floor that Thursday night in April 1968 watching TV (when TVs were mostly "floor models") while my father sat on the sofa behind me. "Bewitched" was in its original run then and...
    cmmacneil cmmacneil 41-45, M 5 Responses Jul 17, 2012

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    I Know The Father, It Is Me... But, Does My Daughter Know Me?

    I know this is about people who do not know their Father. But, I am a Father who lost his dauther...sort of. My ex divorced me because I have a severe anxiety disorder, coupled with depression... to a point that I am on SSDI. I had no idea I actually had it. I just was...
    Sparrowhawk1161 Sparrowhawk1161 51-55 2 Responses Apr 18, 2012

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    Ironic

    I can only remember what she told me about you. She tried to be sensitive to my delicate sense of connection to you, but I could see the anger and resentment through her carefully chosen words. I wanted to please her, so I didn't ask about you much. Who was I to make her...
    CopperCoil CopperCoil 36-40, M 10 Responses Mar 27, 2008

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    I Love Him, But I Dont Know Him

    I have pictures with my Dad when i was about 3 years old but come on now, I don't even remember him. My father went to jail and my mom never told me the story behind it because I was too young to even understand according to her. He would send letter to my sisters and I...
    KarinaG KarinaG 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 12, 2013

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    I Have No Idea Who My Dad Is.

    hi. im 14 years old. i have never met my dad. all i know is his name, and im not sure how its spelled. i was born in seattle so im guessing he lives near there. well he did 14 years ago anyway. i want to know who he is. my mom remmarried when i was 4 and this guy has mainly been...
    lucy4911 lucy4911 13-15 2 Responses May 25, 2009

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    The Other Day I Saw A Child With Their Father.

    I'm new to this and don't know if I am doing this right. So I'll just write. The other day I saw a child with their father. I don't know why it hit me that moment but I just wanted to cry. I live in a household with my mother and my half sister. I never feel love from my mother...
    freebird430 freebird430 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 23, 2011

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    I am the product of a one night stand.

    My mother married the man I call my dad, but I have no connection or knowledge of my biological father. Even worse, I have a half-sister, and I always feel as if my dad favours her, because she's his. I feel like I don't belong in my family. I don't look like anyone in my family...
    JaiTor JaiTor 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 21

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    For the longest time,

    I have pondered the identity of my father. As a product of harlotry and substance abuse, my father could have been anyone out there. I used to feel empty, as if I had been lacking part of myself. Despite having accepted the reality of my situation, my endeavour continues to...
    sinenomine6 sinenomine6 18-21, M 3 Responses Feb 4, 2014

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    I have all these questions

    for the man that's been there all along but I am so scared to ask because I'm tired of getting hurt in the long run.
    beachygirl91 beachygirl91 22-25, F Feb 2, 2014

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    As a kid I was always glad Father's Day was

    "celebrated" after the school ended....
    tatwood78 tatwood78 36-40, F 1 Response Jun 14, 2014

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    Confused

    So I'm 16. I've never really cared too much about not knowing my dad, but recently it's constantly been on my mind. I have no idea why. Like tonight I just broke down. I'm so confused as to why this is even on my mind lately and it's actually making me feel pretty depressed. I...
    Justsomeguy115 Justsomeguy115 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 22, 2013

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    Easy & Tough

     i dont know my real fatheri dont know if i would like towhen my mom was 18 she had a one night stand and got pregnant, she didnt get any of the guys information at all, not even a first name, this resulted in me never knowing who my biological father is, its also means im never...
    sean1993 sean1993 18-21, M 1 Response Jan 16, 2012

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    What Would You Do?

    I met my father for the first time, that I can remember, last Easter. I was 31 years old and I thought, FINALLY, my life is complete.... A year later, and he won't even speak to me. The August before we met, I found him and his mother on Facebook. I added his mother as a...
    MissyKnowsZiltch MissyKnowsZiltch 31-35, F 2 Responses Mar 31, 2013

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    Does Daddy Finally Want To Talk?

    When I say I don't know who my father is I don't mean I've never met the man. I'm just stating that I truly don't know who the guy is or what he does and I can't recall what his name is. He left when I was four maybe five and I still do have blurred memories of that guy that left...
    lanawillowbones lanawillowbones 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 27, 2013

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    Found My Father After 31 Years

    My mother met a Saudi pilot in 1981 (stationed in Texas) and fell in love. Shortly after He returned back and I was born. No letters or communication with him. A few pictures and stories is what fueled my life long search. I always dreamed growing up he would come and rescue me...
    judeadam judeadam 31-35, M 2 Responses Oct 17, 2013

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    I Met Him...once...

     Yeah...I met him when I was like 8...we talked for like an hour...and he left....I dont think he's a bad guy...I just think he's sad for giving me up...I realize how much kids need their fathers...and I will be there everyday for my kids. :) I wont let what...
    Mindfreak3015 Mindfreak3015 16-17, M 5 Responses Aug 29, 2009

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    Never Knowing

    Never have I learned who my father is. im 23 years old and his name remains my mothers secret. She refuses to tell me, whether because she is afraid or doesn't remember, I don't know. I'll never know if he knew i exsisted or if i was secret in its self she kept from him. i may...
    luluharris luluharris 22-25 3 Responses Jun 15, 2012

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