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I Don't Know What I Want Anymore

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    I keep thinking that i know what i'm doing.

    i keep thinking that i'm doing the right thing but i'm not everybody is eating there cake and being happy andi feel so left out. what have i been trying for? what have i been doing with my life? it's been eighteen years and i have nothing to show for it. i'm not on the honor...
    talktome96 talktome96 18-21, F 1 Response May 22, 2014

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    I Am the Most Confused Person In the Whole Wide World

    I have no clue what I want anymore.  I was the kind of person who used to know exactly where I wanted to be and the kind of people I wanted near me and now I feel like I've lost myself and my dreams or something.  I lost a man I loved immensely, college seems like a...
    rocknroll88 rocknroll88 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 21, 2008

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    Idk

    I sit many times trying to figure out what I want in my life. Sometimes I feel that if I had a commited partner or husband then I would better be able to be happy and feel secure, loved, and protected. I love my kids, but they need a dad. Career wise I'm in the rut where I WANT...
    bbwqueenofhearts bbwqueenofhearts 26-30, F Feb 3, 2011

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    Doesnt Make Sence,,

    We all have something that we really want, that one thing we want desperately more than anything else. Well ive been faced with a chance to get what ive desperately wanted, except now...i dunno if i want it anymore, Why does this happen... What do i do??  
    username13 username13 22-25, M 2 Responses Mar 31, 2009

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    I feel so disgusted, alone

    and I want to go back to self harming... Striving to be perfect is really hard yet worth it I know! -Food's my worst enemy -Exercise until exhaustion -Drink to feel full -Eat lesser than 500kcal -Compare sizes -Watch your weight and the list goes on!! I'm lost..
    exhuberantviolet exhuberantviolet 18-21, F Jan 5

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    Eh

    You know my 3 favourite words? I don't know.What're your dreams? I don't know. What do you like doing? I don't know. What do you want? I don't know. =/It's always been what other people want, more specifically, what my parents want. It's always been about pleasing them. Ever...
    DarkAngel123 DarkAngel123 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 26, 2011

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    I don't know what I want anymore,

    with school that is. I have always wanted to provide, but I just don't see that happening what with how my college grades are turning out. I just can't seem to focus. I just can seem to understand and get a grip on this. I enjoy this field, funeral services, but I am not as...
    CryingAndStressed CryingAndStressed 18-21, F Mar 20, 2014

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    At My Age

    You would think I would know what I want but every day it changes or is slipped down on my priory list.......Just want to have the knot hole I am being through these dazes to quit getting smaller and smaller.......tired of own lies, trying to justified some of my actions and...
    PoppaBear53 PoppaBear53 56-60, M Jul 17, 2011

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    What Do Think This Is Going To Be About I'll Let The Reader Descide

    I have recently experienced a lot of emotions in a very short amount of time. Anger, sorrow, happiness, ect. I had a relationship with this girl who didn't see what we had anymore and the thing is I wanted her more than ever I would of changed for her be more assertive not second...
    Yort18 Yort18 16-17 Jul 30, 2012

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    And this seems to be the only explanation I can

    offer up as to why I quiver and shake in my solitude, and in the presence of the very thought of you. You introduced yourself by your name, and I would never want to enjoy anything more about you, than what you offer up to me personally, simply because that's how my ideals...
    SunshineAnderson13 SunshineAnderson13 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 17

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    Choices, Choices, Choices

    I'm getting a thousand kinds of lifestyles thrown at me in every direction. I want to do this. I want to do that. I have way too many hobbies, so that nothing is fun anymore. I really just wish I could be a kid again. Every day was fun and happy and my friends would always play...
    PixieCake PixieCake 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 17, 2013

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    Indifference Can Sometimes Hurt People, But Can You Really Blame Someone Who Doesnt Even Know They Are Hurting You?

    Its weird. Its hard to even try and explain this story because i dont know how, hah ironic isnt it? What can I say? I feel like i never know whats going on with me or around me, but I think should. I feel like everyone is awake and im in some kind of weird dream world or...
    fairynila fairynila 16-17, F Jul 27, 2011

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    I Don't Know

    I don't know,Who am I?What do I want?Where to?If I knew,Life'd be a breeze.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Feb 29, 2012

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    Just An Example

    I was coming out of the green room today, when I saw someone I knew, but hadn't talked to in a while. She asked where I was coming from, I told her the drama club meeting. She asked about the big red toolbox I was carrying, and I told her it was the supplies for my baking class...
    garbanzobean garbanzobean 22-25, F 3 Responses Sep 29, 2008

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    And Im Getting Old

    Ill be 52 yrs old in October. 30 years or more ago id have read these stories,and said "Oh Boo Hoo,get over it"! Then life happened.Oh boy did it happen.Im a diffirent person now. Now after being put thru the ringer time and time again,Having what i thought i wanted and losing...
    The1960texan The1960texan 51-55, M Aug 11, 2012

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    What I Want

    I don't know what I want anymore. So I guess I better figure it out then. I am going to make a list of things I want. What is the point in moaning about something you can fix after all? I want: 1. My boyfriend - I want him to remain in my life. 2. To finish the course I am...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F May 13, 2013

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    Love Or No Love?

    I m getting really scared of falling for anyone. Because i know if i fail again, any strength to be with someone will be totally gone. I wish someone amazing can pull me back and assure me that i m truly appreciated for who I m and he loves me with all his heart and wont let go...
    MissisNobody MissisNobody 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 22, 2011

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    Revised List:Four months ago,

    I sat down and made a list of ten things I wanted out of life/myself at that point in time. I recently came upon the list and found myself surprised to see that only one item on the list remains the same. In a mere four months almost everything I thought I wanted, has changed...
    Lullacus Lullacus 22-25, F Dec 16, 2013

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    I Don't Know What I Want

    I don't really know what I want to be as a career. I hate my job but don't know how to get a better one. I have been to mucho school but that does not seem to help.  I want a new husband but am still legally married to the old. Actually, i don't even have a boyfriend. I...
    cemev cemev 31-35, F Apr 30, 2010

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    I Don't Know...

    I'm sure some of us don't know what we truly want in life - I sure don't!
    Ichilicious Ichilicious 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 4, 2012

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    I Just Don't Know Anymore. What's The Point?

    I don't know what I want anymore, yet up until recently I've always new where I wanted to be and exactly how I'm going to get there, I always felt in control. I've had big ambitions - dreams. I was thinking about going to University, but right now I don't know what I want to do...
    JKC93 JKC93 18-21 2 Responses Feb 28, 2013

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    I Am At A Crossroads In My Life

    I am single, I have a 1 year old, I am unemployed, but in a place where I can do something else with my life. I have so many diffrent interests I just can't settle on one. I hve wanted to be a Medical Assistant, Baby sit kids, go back to my old line (animal hospital) take up...
    ImUrWILDESTDrm ImUrWILDESTDrm 36-40, F 2 Responses Apr 1, 2010

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