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I Don't Know What I Want

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    I Struggle With Relationships

    This doesn't mean just a romantic relationship, but relationships in general. I've been feeling lost and empty lately with relation with people. After 2 years of letting go of anger and pain from divorce, I'm becoming comfortable with who I am. I'm not super social, but I do...
    Sundress Sundress 41-45 2 Responses Jun 11, 2009

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    I can't have the one I want.

    He always reminds me that I'm married. Even if I weren't, his track record with women is terrible so I'd most likely be another statistic. I am not sure I want to be with my husband, but I've never been alone and I am afraid of making mistakes. I've been in this dilemma for...
    sally7 sally7 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 24, 2014

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    I really don't know what I want any more.

    What I want changes so constantly it's like I'm a different person each time. My boss already got on to me for not telling him what my expectations of my job are (Do I want full time? Part time? Do I want to close? open?) I would tell him, but I don't want to seem picky or needy...
    killakissa killakissa 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 21, 2015

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    I think I would go the world a big favour

    if I know what I want. But I don't. If I can believe that I can get what I want, it would help. Instead of me wasting time with second to the best, I may eventually focus on the best , in my perspective. I need a sign to know that getting what I want is possible.
    Mangostrawberrybanana Mangostrawberrybanana 31-35, F 3 Responses Oct 27, 2014

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    Everything feels like hell anyway

    so really I stopped wanting anything cuz after all nothing will ever go my way.
    PiecingMeBackTogether PiecingMeBackTogether 22-25, M 1 Response Sep 14, 2014

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    Overthinking

    I over think things, I'm always looking towards my friends for help deciding thing, especially for things I consider big decisions.  I think it's because I can be really insecure sometimes.  But then again even when I'm at the grocery store it takes me forever because I...
    keyna keyna 36-40, F Mar 29, 2008

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    it's true I really don't :( in a way I do know

    but I don't think I'll ever reach it!
    libragirl89 libragirl89 26-30, F 1 Response Nov 24, 2014

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    I don't get it. The things I have been wanting

    to have, give me more stress and anxiety when I have them than when I was depressed and wishing I had them. I hate this feeling, I would rather not deal with anything and end my life than go day to day and worry about everything.
    Bean2015 Bean2015 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 17, 2015

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    It is hard for me to make a decision

    for myself because at the end I don't want to regret it. At this point in my life I am still young but I am having difficulties in making decision in my life. I am believing that every decision we make is every regret we take.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 6, 2015

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    Ok, so where do I begin?

    7 years ago I met a man on line. I to him talked for just a very short time, before I got a wild hair and decided I would drive 600 miles to go meet this man. I spent the weekend as a matter of fact. After being a single mom for the last 11-12 years before this. What he offered...
    mommatrish mommatrish 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 10, 2015

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    It's so confusing. Sometimes,

    I say yes.. But a little later, regret and say no. I don't even know what I do want... It's so frustrating. And it doesn't just frustrates me but others too... Idk how to figure it out... I just don't know what I want... I'm so stupid.
    LittleUnicorn LittleUnicorn 18-21 1 Response Jun 15, 2015

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    Ah, erg, uhmmmm... OK,

    I'll fess up: I want Tim. But I also don't want him, cause he's a mess. Yes I broke it off (after he said he had nothing more to give). Several months later he tried to apologize for treating me badly, but here's the thing: you don't send someone a text message at 11:30 on a...
    elevating elevating 36-40, F Nov 24, 2014

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    I Know That What I Want Is ...

    I know that what I want is probably not the thing I should want. In fact, I don't know of anything I want that I would be ideal or healthy for me.
    havick havick 18-21, F Jun 6, 2008

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    I have a friend who has fallen in love with me

    but I only consider him as a friend. I told him that and he said he is willing to stay my friends and says he will stop loving me. I didn't believe that and told him we should separate. I miss him alot and hw want a second chance. now I don't know what to do. Should I still talk...
    Farhabee Farhabee 22-25, F Nov 26, 2014

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    Since I don't know exactly what I want,

    I will go general: Work I want to: make twice as much money as I make now, work with people I enjoy on a regular basis have variety in my job and a somewhat flexible schedule be valued for my contribution have opportunities to...
    elevating elevating 36-40, F Nov 24, 2014

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    In 19 years of life (almost 20) I still don't

    know what I want. In everything: school, life, lovelife, etc... And I'm starting to feel empty.
    Violet394 Violet394 18-21, F 1 Response May 4, 2014

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    Not Anymore

    All my life I have worn a badge - 'Dannys daughter', 'straight A student', 'Johns wife', 'an accountant' - i have always defined myself as who i am in relation to the people around me and in relation to my job...i think we all do. Now, I am separated, I am on a career break and...
    Flugelblues Flugelblues 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 20, 2008

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    Sometimes I want revenge,

    but I can't hurt him, I really do love him. But sometimes I feel like I'm just here for his amusement when he wants me. Sometimes I want to leave him, but I care too much and always wind up back with him.
    imjustthatgirl66 imjustthatgirl66 18-21, F Apr 20, 2015

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    I Really Don't

    ok so i'm 24 and a have no idea how i got there. i think i've been allowing circumstances to make all my life's major decisions for me, my major in college, my 1st job, my 2nd job....... i mean i've never been passionate about anything in life, i've never had a goal to work...
    bacaboza bacaboza 26-30, M 3 Responses Sep 4, 2008

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    I have no idea what the hell to major in.

    I want to do what I can to make a difference, I like math, and I like biology. Engineering sounds like a boring *** hell lump of corporate jobs. Being a Doctor is problematic, because of the stupidly high requirements. I can't be a premed, because if I don't get into medical...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 24, 2015

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    prettyballerina prettyballerina 31-35, F 1 Response Nov 26, 2014

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    I know what I don't want

    but that's it. It's such a stress factor for me trying to come up with an answer. I avoid making decisions about anything. Intimate relationships are plain impossible because of this. Anything demanding input from my side is an ordeal: answering or sending emails, making or...
    whoslife whoslife 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 23, 2014

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    What I want in life changes all the time.

    The desire for a husband and kids comes and goes, but mostly goes. When it comes to work, it changes every year as I evolve as a person and learn from my experiences. Do I want to keep my head down and work my way up to a higher salary over time and have a 401K or do I want to...
    sayhellnotobs sayhellnotobs 26-30, F Sep 29, 2015

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    i bit my tongue today

    for the 1st time in my adult life,im kind of proud of myself ....I always thought my head would explode if i suppress my emotions ........i didn't spontaneously combust soo im either growing older or colder not sure i like the choice between the 2
    Rain0069 Rain0069 26-30, F 1 Response Oct 2, 2015

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    I feel like I'm moving in slow motion

    and everything around me is moving so fast and I just wanna go back to when things were normal but I can't I need to move but I can't ... when did it get so complicated ?!!
    Medusa89 Medusa89 26-30, F Jun 29, 2015

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    I know that THE key to getting what you want is

    KNOWING what you want, specifically. And then focusing on it. For me, the knowing is one challenge, and the focusing is another. I have accomplished a lot in my life so far, I admit it. And all those things were - decisions that I made, based on a sense of - purpose, knowing...
    elevating elevating 36-40, F Nov 24, 2014

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    I want to do engineering

    because I wan to go into the energy field to help reverse global warming but I'm failing calc and mentally exhausted of trying. I love theater with all my heart, but majoring in technical theater wouldn't do anything fie the greater good if anything.
    elektronson elektronson 18-21, F 1 Response May 3, 2015

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    I Wish I Did Though

    I can't make up my mind about what I want. Sometimes I think I want one thing, while other times I want something else. Sometimes I really want to lose weight, while other times I don't care and I just want to eat. It's so confusing and upsetting for me. I wish I could make up my...
    skyhook2612 skyhook2612 18-21, F Jun 12, 2012

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    Too Tired

    I am a 22-year-old-girl and I still don't know what to do with my life. I'm not sure if I'm following the path I should follow or not!. I'm studying Ingeniere Science in a private university which is well-known by its brillant diplomas. That's obviously good. but the thing is...
    SkyD SkyD 26-30, F 1 Response May 2, 2008

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    Home I want a comfortable,

    warm, welcoming, home where I can show my personality and creativity I want to be comfortable hosting small social events at home I want a sense of community, to feel part of a larger circle of supportive, like-minded, adventurous people. I know that I am not all that good at...
    elevating elevating 36-40, F Nov 24, 2014

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    I've never been in a serious relationship

    and I'm not sure if I want to be. like, I want to be fully involved in a relationship and be all corny and adorable, but I also just want to chill. I don't think I want to date. I just want to see what all the fuss is about I guess
    sadmachine sadmachine 18-21, F Nov 19, 2014

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    This's my real problem!

    OMG tons of things in my mind and I can't find the right answer for me! What a feeling in everything!? Same problem in Work, travel even single or in relation, I'm over thinker person and sometimes it helps me to find bad things I did in my day and I try to fix it by myself, but...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 26, 2015

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    Is that fair that I have to put all my feelings

    and all my thoughts in EP cuz no one here know me .. why shouldn't I say it why should I keep it inside me I don't like to complain about anything happend to me even to my friends because they are all depends on me in thier life and problems .. Sometimes I just want...
    Medusa89 Medusa89 26-30, F 1 Response Jun 17, 2015

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    It's simple as that, really.

    I have depression and anxiety (general, separation, and social). I just don't know what I want.
    Shaywen Shaywen 16-17, F Mar 21, 2015

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    Conflicted- there are times

    where I want so badly to smash all of my pipes and stop smoking meth once and for all- but it's not too long afterwards that I realize I'm in this way too deep and there's no point in quitting anymore. I'll tell my friends I'm going to look into rehab facilities knowing that I...
    addictionbarbie addictionbarbie 18-21, F Mar 1, 2014

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    Well, I'm Never the One...

    Well, I'm never the one to suggest what we have for lunch at work.  Hazel gets mad at me, she doesn't want to think. I don't know what job I want to have next, for my "Real life" once I "grow up" lol if I grow up. At least I know who I want. :-)
    mandarose524 mandarose524 26-30, F Mar 22, 2008

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    Oh how true this is!!

    ! Life sure would be a lot simpler if I could come up with a list to work through!
    picklebobble picklebobble 46-50, M Sep 24, 2015

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    Sometimes I try and step back

    and figure out what the heck I want. There is the 90% of the time that I want someone I can pour every ounce of energy, love, and attention into. Then there is the other 10% that I want to be alone. Not talk to anyone, not see anyone, just completely alone. How can I want to be...
    TexasBrian TexasBrian 36-40, M Apr 19, 2015

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    Like I have no ******* clue.

    My entire life has been all about what other people want and I just accepted it early on. It always been about them so I never really thought about me. Now I'm almost 21 and I don't have a single clue what I want to do with my life. I don't even know how to make myself happy. I...
    steviehunt steviehunt 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 6, 2015

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    I know my favorites. I know what I like.

    But I don't know who I wanna be or where I want to work at. I don't know who I want to be with if with anyone at all.
    Zim0 Zim0 22-25, M Nov 28, 2014

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    I bought these really cool running shoes

    that I really, really, REALLY, want. Then, I found out they hurt my ankles from pushing up on them. WHAT DO I DO? Keep the shoes... Or return the shoes and get different ones.
    QBWR QBWR 13-15, M Feb 16, 2015

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