I Don't Know What I'm Doing

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    I daydream about doing nothing

    while I work. About being nothing. I presume to know what people around me want of me and pretend to respond to them. Because having a job is better than being homeless, I suppose. I prefer being alone because other people remind me how all I have is pain, anxiety, rejection...
    paul0wonder paul0wonder
    36-40, M
    1 Response Sep 9, 2014
    BrandanDR BrandanDR
    18-21, M
    1 Response Nov 12, 2015
    BrandanDR BrandanDR
    18-21, M
    1 Response Oct 30, 2015

    I've been reading a book on how to better

    discipline my children, pretty much how to get them to listen to me better. I ran out of options, tried everything I could think of. I have a daughter who is overly whiny to get her way and a son who uses guilt to get his ('you don't love me' type of sayings) This book sounds...
    motherwhowantstheworld motherwhowantstheworld
    26-30, F
    Jul 28, 2015

    At first you're serious

    and feel like you know what you're doing. It's tiresome but it feels like you have control. Then, you loosen up. It feels good and right - like you've made progress and you relax more. But suddenly the direction is unclear again. Something is still missing, but you don't know...
    FittingUsername FittingUsername
    22-25, M
    Jul 25, 2015

    I'm in my fourth year of college,

    and my heart isn't in it. I started off as an elementary education major, and then the very last day of my sophomore year, I switched it to journalism. I love children, and I love writing, but I feel that I simply don't belong in college. Ever since my junior year, I've been...
    whimsicalescapes whimsicalescapes
    22-25, F
    Dec 9, 2013

    Sigh....

    Sometimes I feel as if I'm missing out on my life and personally, I have no clue what I'm doing.  I just try not to do nothing.  I have this fear that if I sleep too much or just am inactive, life will pass me by, which I'm sure is true.  But I am...
    SumthinSumthin SumthinSumthin
    22-25
    1 Response Feb 23, 2009

    I'm 21 years old. I've always dated men.

    I cut my hair short (like Keira Knightley in Domino) when I was 13. I was called "dyke spikes" all through high school, even after my hair grew out. No matter how many guys I went with, everyone always assumed I was a lesbian. I had friends whose parents said I was a bad...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 26, 2014

    He broke up with me a day

    before our 11 month anniversary. He wasn't necessarily being nice about it. We talked a little a few minutes ago. He told me he wanted me back. But I broke our promise and I cut last night. A while ago, he told me that if I broke that promise again, we were going to be done for...
    stillYDGN stillYDGN
    18-21, F
    Jul 17, 2014

    I'm stumbling again..

    .I just can't help myself.
    dramirezs23 dramirezs23
    31-35, M
    1 Response Feb 17, 2014

    Got up late, still feeling tired.

    Had some vivid dreams, I like that. Don't know what to do today. I usually don't. I often end up gaming. It can be fun, but it can also be draining and leave me with a slight headache certain days. I want to get out, but I don't want to get out just for the sake of getting out...
    FittingUsername FittingUsername
    22-25, M
    Jul 13, 2015

    I don't know how to do things right.

    I'm alone, because i don't know how to make friends, talk to new people or do things on my own. I 'm just stumbling through the world, making a mess and hurting people. I get in the way of my family and i'm too afraid and distrusting of people to go out and do things. I keep...
    LlamaThePink LlamaThePink
    22-25, M
    Jan 30, 2014

    I feel like I have friends,

    but I don't care so much about them anymore. They're always busy and I'm always not. I feel like I'm always the one who has to contact them, and if it's not me who has to take contact, it's still me who has to come with suggestions for what to do and when to meet. I feel like...
    FittingUsername FittingUsername
    22-25, M
    Jul 4, 2015

    Sometimes I just get this thought,

    "Why did I write that? Is that really me?" Not in the sense that I doubt that it was me who wrote it, more like... I don't know, just like "am I so certain I believe that" or "why did I feel the need to write that". It's like I almost want to delete things I've written, but at...
    FittingUsername FittingUsername
    22-25, M
    Aug 1, 2015

    I'm at a point where I'm getting low on money,

    time, hope, and options, and I'm panicking internally, not knowing what I should do. I feel like I can't really talk to anyone I know because anyone I talk to just seems to either scold me for moving in the first place, wants me to fail and have to move back in with one of my...
    NateTheQuiet NateTheQuiet
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Apr 11

    I turned thirty this year.

    It felt better than I thought it would. Many people came to the first adult birthday party; my partner threw it for me. I visited my hometown and saw many people I loved. Then...we had my partner's two children for a month. I love them more than anything. Their mother harassed...
    Shishamo Shishamo
    31-35, F
    Sep 2, 2014

    i have no idea what i'm supposed to do with my

    life anymore everything i thought i knew isin't true and it's freaking me out
    Superwholockian Superwholockian
    16-17, M
    Sep 8, 2014

    The Buddhists suggest

    that in order to achieve a higher state of being, one has to detach from material things and people. So, I tried that and it didn't work. I don't know what I'm doing or what I'm supposed to do.
    Griet11 Griet11
    41-45, F
    1 Response Aug 10, 2015

    Came across this website hoping to find a place

    to vent, and BINGO! Here it go's; One of my best friends and favorite person in the world had his first swim meet of the season today. I had promised I would go, he really wanted me there his last meet of the season last year, need less to say I had let him down. I once again...
    donttellana donttellana
    22-25, F
    Sep 4, 2014
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