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I Don't Know Where I Am

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    Waiting For The Mad

    I am waiting for the mad. I keep waiting for it. I feel like I am standing on the platform at the station. I can hear it coming, the rattling, the clanging, the tremors; I can see the lights, smell the exhaust, I feel the heat. But that infernal train is running late, off...
    Quintesse Quintesse 51-55, F 38 Responses Aug 4, 2012

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    You'll Be Fine.

    We prowl through the streets in a blur, flanked on each side by the remaining, living breathing evidence of our lives together, it's not all so pretty.........   ................it IS beautiful, but it hurts, in that particular fashion exclusive to regret.   (Aldous...
    Miserablistbboygothslut Miserablistbboygothslut 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 31, 2008

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    Pressing The Play

    This morning, my daughter asked me where did I get the calmness to lead a life as I do, even when I should be nervous, when others would have gone crazy. For a moment, I didn’t know what to say... There are certain times in our lives when everything around us seems to be...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses May 10, 2012

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    And Usually I Like It

    Well, I don't know where I am every time I get really drunk xD Which means every night x) It also happens to me when I'm sober, I get a feeling that I'm in the middle of the 90's or 70's or something, like it's a totally different time and place.. But I like it. I LOVE that...
    wilddarksick wilddarksick 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 29, 2011

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    Limbo

    I'm in between countriesI'm in between starving and wanting to eat a steak dinnerI'm in between being celibate and pretending Im having sex with someoneI know Im on Earth but its not fairMy life is an ironic soap opera...Am I becoming what I despise? Or have I already?
    Kittychanel Kittychanel 41-45, F 9 Responses Aug 5, 2012

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    Vacant Parallel.

    Everything Is hazy.........................and you can't see straight. Conditional perception, delusion and .................. ...................................fear, taken neat, no rocks!   Take in their proportions and filter them for profit. Take out your hand...
    Miserablistbboygothslut Miserablistbboygothslut 31-35, M 2 Responses Aug 24, 2008

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    ...

    who I am.... what I am... how I am... or even if I exist.  I guess I took too much allergy medication.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 21, 2010

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    I dont know where the **** I am in life

    and i dont know where i want to go from here. I know the short term future...the same mundane crap,bills, money, work, friends, blah blah but wtf does it matter and what a
    Unmasked Unmasked 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 11, 2014

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    I Do, But I Don't

    Physically, I know exactly where I am....thank goodness for that! However, mentally I'm lost....lost in my thoughts and feelings, astray inside my head and heart. I have days when I can articulate exactly what is going on inside my mind, days when I know exactly how I'm feeling...
    LG76 LG76 36-40, F 3 Responses May 9, 2012

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    Related Experiences

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    I've been plagued by contempt for my father for many years, and I'm trying to figure out if it's just an issue with my brain, with me as a person, or if I was actually emotionally...
    expandingforward expandingforward 36-40, M 2 days ago

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    Gahhh. I feel as if a herd of bison trampled on me, and then packed off bits of me to Turkmenistan, where they all do a shamanistic ritual and **** on my corpse. Despite this, I...
    Longpatrol90 Longpatrol90 22-25, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    I have many, many medical issues physical and emotional and am only 28 years old. I cannot get permanent disability I keep trying though but meanwhile I am on temporary disability...
    butterflyangels2387 butterflyangels2387 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    At first you're serious and feel like you know what you're doing. It's tiresome but it feels like you have control. Then, you loosen up. It feels good and right - like you've made...
    FittingUsername FittingUsername 22-25, M 2 days ago

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    I really don't know who I am anymore. Or what I want. I had the perfect life 7 months ago nothing could've been better. Now I hate everything and can't stand anything about my life...
    IngloriousJoker IngloriousJoker 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I'm really shy when I meet people I don't know although sometimes if I meet someone and we get on straightaway then I am fine. I remember when I was young I was so shy I never...
    Tofi786 Tofi786 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    I'm having a hard time messaging people on this account for some reason so I made a new one if you wanna talk to me add me on my new account Lucieepie
    CutestDragon CutestDragon 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I thought everything was better. I thought I was okay, but I just don't know anything anymore. It feels wrong most days. She makes me feel like **** with what she tells me. And...
    dkcorde13 dkcorde13 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I had this convo yesterday in my car and I didnt realize what was happening. The guy: How come I never see you? Me: its probably because I'm the invisible one in my family. A lot...
    TheNewBatman TheNewBatman 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I just had a DNA test to prove that the man on my birth certificate is not my father. I am 46 and knew my whole life, but my mother was in deep denial. The man who is my father is...
    mimimc7 mimimc7 46-50, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I just lose myself sometimes. I know that I am strong and that I can make it through a lot of things, but when it seems like, with the exception of some friends, that I am the only...
    AverageJane123 AverageJane123 18-21, F 6 days ago

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    I feel like something g should be happening my best friend almost died two months ago in a skiing accident and everyone was crying but I didn't feel like it would drastically...
    nannalovet113 nannalovet113 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Can't predict the future so I can only hope
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 18

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    Because there is so much competition at school to be attractive and stuff it makes me feel pretty crap about myself:/ I don't think that I'm fat but I just really don't like my...
    EmilyyLouise EmilyyLouise 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 18

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    Its true ha ha ha fuckkk five years from now I don't even know where im gonna be next frigggin week never mind five years!!!!!!!!
    brokenupinsideforeva brokenupinsideforeva 31-35, F 3 Responses Jul 17

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    I don't have a meaning in life or even an existence. Everyone I've ever truly cared about wants to leave me. Life is too hard. Wish I could have chosen a difficulty... I can't do...
    ZER0RPHEUS ZER0RPHEUS 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    I'm in relationship with two boys and I'm dating and going out with one of them.But I don't like him enough and I can't show him my feeling and he wants me to do some flirty things...
    maryviolin maryviolin 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 17

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    Hi my name is Preston and I have lived a long and sad 16 years of life. For so long I have wondered why am I so different, why do I care about others more than myself, why do I...
    myfriendscallmeDePreston myfriendscallmeDePreston 16-17, M Jul 16

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    Apparently I'm mentally in my mid-30s. I wonder what's going to happen when I actually turn 30. Will my wisdom surpass life expectancy?
    Asia06 Asia06 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 16

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    I want to be in university studying something I love <3
    Escapist101 Escapist101 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    But then, what is five years to me? A breath, the blink of an eye.
    SilverTonguedTricksterGod SilverTonguedTricksterGod 70+, M Jul 16

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    today has been so ******* ******
    ster97 ster97 18-21, F Jul 15

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    I hope I installed a portale A/C correctly while inebriated. lol
    Myzery Myzery 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    I am 23 years old. I have made $350,000 dollars in the last five years. I have a two and a half year old son. His mother and i have been involved in a very bitter lawsuit for the...
    ihavenoimaginationatall ihavenoimaginationatall 22-25, M Jul 15

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    I hate when people ask me what I'll be doing in 5 years time, come on guys I don't have 2020 vision. :3 This joke only works for the next 5 months and then it will never ever apply...
    Emsickles Emsickles 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 15

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    Or a lot of the time actually. I came on here in the hopes of making some good friends and having an outlet for things that bother me or are giving me trouble in life. For advice...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 15

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    Why I want to keep trying so hard at something that is long gone. Why I keep lying to everyone including myself. I don't know why I can't be honest and say I am not okay, that i...
    TiredOfBeingHurt TiredOfBeingHurt 18-21, F Jul 14

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    I have a 6-year old sibling who won't listen at all. He has violent tantrums whenever he doesn't get what he wants or whenever he does not want to do something like cleaning or...
    Shrous Shrous 16-17, M 1 Response Jul 14

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    I still love him and I think that is what's keeping me from letting him go. I keep thinking of all the good times and less of the bad times. I don't understand why I can't just...
    soulfulmuse soulfulmuse 18-21, F Jul 13

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    Lol just in case any1 cares, i am back! I gotta new phone, then couldnt remember my password...
    PanamanianPenguin PanamanianPenguin 18-21, F Jul 13

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    Got up late, still feeling tired. Had some vivid dreams, I like that. Don't know what to do today. I usually don't. I often end up gaming. It can be fun, but it can also be...
    FittingUsername FittingUsername 22-25, M Jul 13

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    I wish could start over and be born a different person. I like who I am and I like the things I like and I'm different from other people but I don't stand out. Sometimes I think...
    papayalyn papayalyn 16-17, F Jul 10

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