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I Don't Know Where I Am

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    Waiting For The Mad

    I am waiting for the mad. I keep waiting for it. I feel like I am standing on the platform at the station. I can hear it coming, the rattling, the clanging, the tremors; I can see the lights, smell the exhaust, I feel the heat. But that infernal train is running late, off...
    Quintesse Quintesse 51-55, F 38 Responses Aug 4, 2012

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    I dont know where the **** I am in life

    and i dont know where i want to go from here. I know the short term future...the same mundane crap,bills, money, work, friends, blah blah but wtf does it matter and what a
    Unmasked Unmasked 22-25, F 2 Responses Feb 11, 2014

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    And Usually I Like It

    Well, I don't know where I am every time I get really drunk xD Which means every night x) It also happens to me when I'm sober, I get a feeling that I'm in the middle of the 90's or 70's or something, like it's a totally different time and place.. But I like it. I LOVE that...
    wilddarksick wilddarksick 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 29, 2011

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    You'll Be Fine.

    We prowl through the streets in a blur, flanked on each side by the remaining, living breathing evidence of our lives together, it's not all so pretty.........   ................it IS beautiful, but it hurts, in that particular fashion exclusive to regret.   (Aldous...
    Miserablistbboygothslut Miserablistbboygothslut 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 31, 2008

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    Vacant Parallel.

    Everything Is hazy.........................and you can't see straight. Conditional perception, delusion and .................. ...................................fear, taken neat, no rocks!   Take in their proportions and filter them for profit. Take out your hand...
    Miserablistbboygothslut Miserablistbboygothslut 31-35, M 2 Responses Aug 24, 2008

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    Pressing The Play

    This morning, my daughter asked me where did I get the calmness to lead a life as I do, even when I should be nervous, when others would have gone crazy. For a moment, I didn’t know what to say... There are certain times in our lives when everything around us seems to be...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses May 10, 2012

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    I Do, But I Don't

    Physically, I know exactly where I am....thank goodness for that! However, mentally I'm lost....lost in my thoughts and feelings, astray inside my head and heart. I have days when I can articulate exactly what is going on inside my mind, days when I know exactly how I'm feeling...
    LG76 LG76 36-40, F 3 Responses May 9, 2012

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    Limbo

    I'm in between countriesI'm in between starving and wanting to eat a steak dinnerI'm in between being celibate and pretending Im having sex with someoneI know Im on Earth but its not fairMy life is an ironic soap opera...Am I becoming what I despise? Or have I already?
    Kittychanel Kittychanel 41-45, F 9 Responses Aug 5, 2012

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    ...

    who I am.... what I am... how I am... or even if I exist.  I guess I took too much allergy medication.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 1 Response Apr 21, 2010

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    I'm sitting in my room right now listening to my kat. I have been talking gathering up info and stored it where it would be save, so that could get to it and organize it. my...
    awsome2 awsome2 18-21, M 2 Responses Feb 18

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    I wish I could say I am on EP because I want to be. But I'm here because I need to be. It is sometimes difficult for a man to admit weakness but this is the only place I can be...
    KevinAdams123 KevinAdams123 31-35, M 6 Responses Feb 10

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    I don't know what I've become anymore. I'm just so tired. I had a little drink and got buzzed I call my boyfriend because I miss him and he said he doesn't wanna talk to me when I...
    XxDeadlyAngelxX XxDeadlyAngelxX 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 3

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    I don't know what to make of you either. You are just sooo.....aargh! Confusing! You know this thing between us, you keep sending out mixed signals which confuse me, and then I...
    rabinafrost rabinafrost 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 4

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    My boyfriend has been telling his friends he wishes I could drive and how I keep getting interviews, but never get hired for the job. On top of all that I just found out I am...
    Deadlynightshade5 Deadlynightshade5 22-25, F 5 Responses Feb 6

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    I feel happy but i still feel sad and I feel like I want something but I don't know what it is. I wan't something but I don't want it and I'm just not sure if I actually want it or...
    mypawshaveprints mypawshaveprints 18-21, F Feb 6

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    I don't know what to think about God anymore!!! I mean still believe In him I just don't know if I want to serve him. I'm just tired of praying over and over again..... I'm lost, I...
    isabel16 isabel16 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 18

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    It's so cliche... but I really don't know what to do with my life. I'm in the first year of law school. I find it interesting but it's too much for me. Ikeep failing in EVERY...
    notcoolmarvin notcoolmarvin 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I don't understand what my problem is. I'm so socially awkward and uncoordinated and self conscious and I wish it would stop. I feel so terrified of what people think of me that I...
    brimc7 brimc7 16-17, F 2 days ago

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    Hi, I'm Angelina. I wanted to tell you about myself before I get into the post so you have a better understanding of my situation. I'm 13 years old, in 7th grade, and I'm an honors...
    AngelinaBlog AngelinaBlog 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 4

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    I take care of others before myself, so much that I don't know me anymore. It's not that I care what others think about me, I just like making others happy, I like to treat others...
    Sweetbeotch Sweetbeotch 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 7

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    My boyfriend might be deployed to Kuwait and i don't know how to cope with this we have been together since my sophmore year in high school when i moved here i am now in the middle...
    Klong121 Klong121 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 9

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    I'm so stressed in my life right now. I have so much going on. I have a court date in April because my uncle raped me. I already had the arraignment and I had an anxiety and panic...
    tristesol tristesol 16-17, F 2 Responses Feb 12

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    There's this girl and i really like her but i don't know what to think about her. She is straight, but told me that she likes a girl. When i asked her who she said she couldn't...
    HarleyHart HarleyHart 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 14

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    Like everyone here, I don't know how to flirt, so I kind of use an alternative. Lately I'd been reading about random psychology ****, including body language, and it seemed a bit...
    carmansoul carmansoul 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 15

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    I am born and raised in the Netherlands. Discrimination and Racism is something I experience almost daily. Through jokes, subtle hints or serious remarks. I always get to hear from...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 18

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    So frustrated that I keep thinking about how to talk to him in person. Yet, it's hard, because we rarely have sometimes alone to meet afterward. My shyness is at the top that...
    Bunnie486 Bunnie486 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    I'm almost 28 years old and have never been in a relationship. I've never had a man tell me he loves me. Never really been on a date. I can be shy, but people tell me I'm funny and...
    CaliLove1387 CaliLove1387 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Ever since I was in kindergarten, I was learning how to play volleyball with my best friend. But when sixth grade finally came along and I actually played the season, I realized...
    tubularbook tubularbook 13-15, F 17 hrs ago

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    Don't show anything to Koke123 ! It´s a weird person, he always ask questions to you but never reply your questions and if you force him he block you ! He asked me my face :0 i...
    Engdestroyer Engdestroyer 13-15, M 3 Responses Feb 10

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    Every morning I wake up nervous,anxious,and jittery. That's because this guy I used to see has a girlfriend and he only posts things about her on Facebook. I haven't checked his...
    BunniMoney BunniMoney 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 13

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    My relationship is so boring. When I was single I used to have fun even though I did not have a job. I was having fun. I thought having a relationship is fun - doing something...
    Cinderella73 Cinderella73 36-40, F Feb 17

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    I don't know, I ******* hate this website with a passion but I'm still writing here, very hypocritical of me I know. Just under a lot of stress, like a lot.
    ImminentDomain ImminentDomain 16-17, M 1 Response Feb 18

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    He says he loves me every single day. We act like a couple, and we have been since September, but we haven't actually been in a relationship, because he doesn't want to be in one...
    Amusical135 Amusical135 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 4

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    Everything's been going wrong today and yesterday. ******* everything. I'm already depressed and suicidal and anxiety-ridden even before the last couple of days, but now I'm just...
    polyglotparrot polyglotparrot 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 8

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    When other people have problems, I'm the first to help. I enjoy it because the problem is the focus and not me. I do things for others because I don't know how to be myself.
    eludesme eludesme 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 8

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    I feel like the my world is slowly slipping away, like when you're about to lose consciousness. I'm losing control of life and I don't know what to do. I feel like as if my life...
    150035039m 150035039m 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 11

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    I've been married for 14 years and finally left him and was gone for 2 years until he got sick and went into the hospital then I went to be by his side and now I don't know how to...
    gina1970 gina1970 41-45, F 2 Responses Feb 13

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    I hate coming home from a camp... It's like when I walk through the door I get so sad and I want to cry and I don't know why
    jeyhere jeyhere 13-15, F 1 Response Feb 15

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    My profile picture is from my birthday all the way back from July when I was tan and had long curly hair when I looked good. Now since I'm not lifeguarding right now and it's not...
    andreaespe andreaespe 18-21, F 12 Responses Feb 15

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    Am I a girl? Sometimes Am I a boy? No. Am I relevant? I don't know Am I fat? Yes Do people like me? Maybe
    winception winception 13-15, T 1 Response Feb 19

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    I already has SA so of course around people I don't know, I try to be as careful as I can, not to say something stupid or stutter trying to get words out.
    SentimentalMood SentimentalMood 36-40, F Feb 20

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    Female. Maybe not completely female. I don't know. I bind. But I'm not transgender, I'm not a guy. What is this? Do I make sense? Does This make sense?
    DarkOnTheInside13 DarkOnTheInside13 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    but im feeling 22 Everything will be alright if You keep me next to you You don't know about me But i’ll bet you want to Everything will be alright if We just keep dancing...
    ThatOneSomaliGirl ThatOneSomaliGirl 13-15, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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