I Dont Know Who I Am Anymore

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 26,274 People

    hannahB3223 hannahB3223
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 14

    Who am I, seriously. I am a person comprised of

    three extremes; number one, happiness. The kind of happiness where you laugh til you cry and you feel like you're growing a six pack at the same time. Which is great when it lasts, then we switch to anger. The kind of anger where i have visions of breaking everything in the room...
    Cloudsandcream Cloudsandcream
    22-25, F
    1 Response Aug 31, 2015

    i wake up every morning secretly hoping the

    last 6 years were a dream. i wake up every morning disappointed that im still me. im not the same person i once was. when your younger everything seems so clear. im gunna work hard, be the best i can be and enjoy life. As u get older u realize things arent as simple as they...
    seductivesub69 seductivesub69
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 12, 2015

    I am losing myself to this cruel world of

    relationships and don't know how to be alone. Damn will the cycle ever end
    Newnina Newnina
    36-40, F
    11 Responses Jun 14, 2015

    I've always said my education

    and family were the most important thing to me but with everything happening I don't know where I stand anymore we're only half was through the semester I am ready to quit...
    Claura Claura
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 9

    He lied and manipulated.

    The doctor told me what he did is called 'Gaslighting.' Now I have trouble focussing on the simplest tasks. I feel constantly confused and can't trust my own feelings and thoughts anymore. I think medication is helping and I'm sure therapy will eventually. I just want to feel...
    MagMac MagMac
    41-45, F
    1 Response Apr 5

    I honestly don't know

    who the **** I am or why the **** I do anything anymore. I keep living my life for other people because I have such low self esteem. Let me tell you that my self esteem is so low, it just shines through me its just about the only distinctive thing I have left in my personality...
    whatthefox whatthefox
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 11, 2015

    I did the unspeakable tonight,

    I did harm to my wrists again I was a month clean, but I let a guy who I thought cared about me destroy me, I had sex with him because I thought he would like me more. How could I be so stupid.... I don't see the point in things anymore.
    crhh crhh
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Mar 2

    I am only 14 and I know I'm young,

    but I don't know what I'm doing with my high school life. I've been transporting from group to group trying to find a group of close people to stick with. But it's just not working out for me. I thought I finally found the group for me, and we were a solid group of friends...
    alowz alowz
    13-15, F
    4 Responses Mar 20

    on April 23rd I will have known my wife

    for 23 years and last valentines day we reached 21 years of marriage. she always knew I was a flirt and though I never slept around, but I was so unfaithful with my words, actions and i was a dog. I was viewed as a dog by most if the women at work and it attracted the attention...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Mar 10

    A Christmas story... “Dad?

    What are you doing?” “I don't know.” We're looking at the Living Room. At the floor. The floor is covered with guitars and cases. Very expensive guitars. I don't have much money but I'm applying to every credit card ad that comes in the mail. All the cards are maxed out...
    Hand1234 Hand1234
    61-65, M
    Dec 27, 2015

    In my relationship, I feel

    so misheard, not heard and judged. I feel guilty! He won't talk to me about anything. Tells me he doesn't talk to me because he doesn't want to say something to upset me, but I don't like being ignored. I want to talk about things, he wants to sweep under the rug and forget...
    littlejxoxo littlejxoxo
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Oct 22, 2015

    For years, I was verbally & physically abused

    by my parents. They're oppressive, cruel & hateful people; I wish they were loving, caring & supportive but I guess that's just too much to ask for. I feel like I don't deserve to happy anymore, otherwise, why would they treat me so badly? I must be a pretty terrible person for...
    CJFox CJFox
    18-21, F
    25 Responses May 28, 2015

    Everyone needs compassion,

    a love that's never failing, let mercy fall on us. Everyone needs forgiveness, the kindness of a Savior, the Hope of nations. Savior, He can move the mountains My God is mighty to save. He is mighty to save. Forever, author of Salvation He rose and conquered the grave. Jesus...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    1 Response Apr 3

    I can't remember the feeling of being truly

    happy. I remember the moment but it's feels like a sad memory. I just want a break from everything. Just be selfishly me...
    po90p po90p
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Aug 7, 2015

    I just feel like my words don't matter.

    They don't get across to people when I explain. Why am I always told I'm complaining when I'm just trying to address the situation and get past it? I want to be me, but who is me? What am I suppose to do to figure that out. I feel so broken down from the things that haunt me. I...
    littlejxoxo littlejxoxo
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Sep 20, 2015

    I just don't. And frankly I'm too tired to care

    or find out anymore. Really. I'm just too darn tired. My life force has left me.
    QuestionMarks QuestionMarks
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Mar 13
    prada1010 prada1010
    31-35, F
    4 Responses Apr 7

    Sometimes I feel like I'm missing out on life?

    I'm young. Everyone's busy partying, dating and I'm trying to take care of my mental health. I isolate myself from the world. Sometimes it feels lonely. Can anyone relate?
    deleted deleted
    9 Responses Aug 30, 2015

    I an not a monster. I have feelings.

    I can feel pain and i cant bear it anymore
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Mar 10

    Sometimes I feel so lost,

    disconnected...when I receive a compliment, get hit on or have sexual advances towards me, I just don't even know how to react...I have been rejected for so long that anything opposite from what I am used to just doesn't seem real.
    Simplyforgotten Simplyforgotten
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 9

    I really really wish I was the moon tonight.

    Why does loneliness have to be so tiring and confusing?
    KayBrooke KayBrooke
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 16, 2015

    Hello guys, I know it is kinda unrelated to the

    subject but here is the only place I can talk to people that will actually give me advice so, here is my somewhat of a problem : My school is organizing a 5 day trip to a distant city of my country ( I'll have to be 10 hours on bus) and there are many people that are interrested...
    16-17, M
    1 Response Mar 13

    For those of you who have lost your desire to

    pray, to sing,I'm asking God to put that melody back in your hearts tonight; cause you to lift your voice, even though you don't understand. Your Father in Heaven loves you, do not forsake Him...do not forget the benefits of the Lord. God bless you.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    3 Responses Apr 1

    When I was younger I was totally knew

    who I was as a person, I knew what I wanted and what I liked. But the older Im not so sure anymore. I feel like as an 'adult' I have to be squished and molded into so many different things that I feel like I've lost my identity. I seriously have no idea who I am anymore. I...
    SunriseSammie SunriseSammie
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Sep 5, 2015

    im just a shell of who I used to be.

    I truly hope this is all just temporary.
    wendysport2 wendysport2
    46-50, F
    5 Responses Dec 27, 2015

    Why am I this age I am

    and just now want to start into YouTube? Why is this what I wanna try? I for know who I am? I don't know my 'dream' at this moment.....why did I wanna start so late? Ugh just so many questions right now.... I don't know if it'll last a life time, but I know each day I'm...
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Mar 9

    When life is rough, pray.

    -----:------:------:----- Pray, when life is great.
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    1 Response Apr 1
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Apr 14

    I used to be a fun vibrant person.

    I used to have an appetite for life. I used to look forward to the tomorrow. I used to have the confidence that made me feel invincible. Now, every day is a struggle. All my friends have found their path, and I'm nowhere close to finding mine. I've been in a secret relationship...
    jns919 jns919
    26-30, F
    1 Response Nov 6, 2015

    it s been a while since i don't care about

    anything.stopped studying,4 or 5 hours sleeping no exercise or anything.i feel like nothing can satisfy me and have stopped doing things that usually entertain me.just surfing the internet,smoking constantly ,nonsense online games,and sad songs.there was a time i could hardly...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Mar 18

    For with God nothing will be impossible (Luke

    1:37). There yet is hope for you in Christ. Whatever your problem may be, and however seemingly grave the situation miay be, it is nothing to the Age of Ages. There yet is hope for you in Christ. All other things are void of actual help. Some may help in soothing the problem...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    1 Response Apr 3

    I've just gotten to stage

    where everyone who cares about me could leave and I wouldn't feel a thing
    lolurface69 lolurface69
    18-21, T
    1 Response Mar 13

    It's1.30am and my husband is snoring gently

    beside me. My children are all sleeping and my dogs are curled up around my curves. Everyone is utterly oblivious to how lonely I feel. How can my home be so full but my heart so empty?
    deleted deleted
    6 Responses May 9, 2015
    Harryjones1 Harryjones1
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Dec 6, 2015

    Its weird because I sometimes feel like I have

    it together; like I know exactly what I want and how to get it, but there are times where I look at myself in the mirror and I don't even recognize myself. Its creepy as hell. Like if I stare long enough l forget who I am. I'm not sure how I became so lost; I feel like I'm just...
    Overtherainbow66 Overtherainbow66
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 28, 2015

    i just feel so sad , like there is no reason

    for me to live. While i am with friends i put on a fake smile and pretend i am happy but when i am at home all i want to do is cry . I can't really trust or open up to anyone and the fact that i am not really social does not help.I am actually pretty sure that i'm ending up...
    justsad018 justsad018
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 9

    Slit your wrist and cut your thighs.

    Fake a smile and dry your eyes. Hate yourself and hate your life. Welcome to my world of lies.
    kati06 kati06
    26-30, F
    10 Responses Jul 21, 2015

    I really didn't mean to post that

    yet not sure what I did to do it. Dang my purpose in writing it was because I am in a bad marriage and I'm not the person I was before I started seeing him. I use to be a strong independent woman. I had a pretty good job, retirement, a nice car and great kids. I knew "John...
    raven1221 raven1221
    51-55, F
    16 Responses Aug 26, 2015

    I feel disconnected from reality.

    . I feel disconnected from the person I once was.. I feel like I have a cry locked inside.. No matter how much I cry I can't seem to reach that one to let it out.. I think my soul is screaming inside me, but I don't really know how to help it! I don't feel a connection to people...
    DonaSpecter DonaSpecter
    31-35, F
    3 Responses Dec 20, 2015
    oHDaily oHDaily
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 9, 2015
    amador01 amador01
    46-50, F
    4 Responses May 22, 2015

    Im struggling with self lately this

    unemployment sucks and being alone in life it takes a toll. I try my best and am doing best I can but seem to be a burden on people. If I am I apologize to all ive been a burden too.
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Aug 15, 2015

    I feel like I have no purpose in life,

    every day is the same day.
    veronicamoore veronicamoore
    16-17, F
    1 Response Feb 12

    my life has never been easy

    for me.. i dont know what i want. i feel so damn lost. i wanna do something different but i didnt know where to start.
    maine19 maine19
    18-21, M
    3 Responses Mar 9

    Sometimes even to live is an act of courage.

    It's becoming so hard. I'm going to be homeless soon....
    crhh crhh
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 12

    Is it right or wrong.

    . Or maybe im just too scared to lost it
    scorpion1983 scorpion1983
    31-35, F
    5 Responses Aug 9, 2015

    that moment when yu look into the mirror

    and dont recognise yurself
    alotharder alotharder
    18-21, F
    Dec 6, 2015

    Sometimes I feel lost.

    .. I wake up sad and I wake up crying and I feel like I'm missing the best part of me. You know that feeling when someone leaves you and they take everything with them.... It sucks. It sucks when you get cheated on and it's like you never wanted it to end or for that to happen...
    libraa10 libraa10
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 3, 2015

    I used to be nice and fun to be around

    now I'm grown up and got boring
    Spankme25 Spankme25
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Dec 31, 2015

    I used to be truly happy

    and confident. Now I spend most of the day wondering what people think about me. I constantly have to fake happiness. What happened to me? I used to be so care free. Now everything has changed in a negative way.
    Delicia1 Delicia1
    1 Response Mar 15

    (I refer this to Christians going through

    TRIALS or/and TEMPTATIONS, lest a fellow wishes to wrongly counter the write-up)  Dear Christians and whomever this may concern, God doesn't give us what we can handle but helps us handle what we are given, because, just as impure gold is passed through fire and made pure, we...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    1 Response Apr 10

    I would like to thank those

    who have added me to their circles
    tonymck101 tonymck101
    66-70, M
    1 Response Mar 6

    Here is where I'm currently at.

    I don't know where I'll be in a year, let alone six months. I'm only eighteen and I'm starting to feel the pressure of adult hood coming down on me. I can feel myself changing, my thoughts, my actions, and even my anxiety.
    dabrielle dabrielle
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Mar 2
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Mar 2

    My boyfriend and I have agreed to break up.

    We live together and I am looking for a new place. The problem is that he continues to try & initiate sex with me. We are breaking up because he wanted **********, an open relationship, and to swing. I just wanted a traditional relationship. I still love him and I always felt...
    DearAgony1515 DearAgony1515
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 16

    If you call to Him, He will answer you If you

    run to Him, He will run to you If you lift your hands, He will lift you up Draw near to Him, He is here for you Give Him your love, He's in love with you He will heal your heart, He will cleanse your hands If you rend your heart, He will heal your land. Come now praise His name...
    Lincoln98 Lincoln98
    16-17, M
    Mar 31

    I gave some guy that I had never met

    before $10 for gas. I don't know why I did. There was no way I could guarantee that it wasn't a scam, I didn't feel bad for him, and I didn't question him. I have no idea why I did that. I want someone to hold me and show me who I am. Take what you want from this, I just need to...
    stewartgreen stewartgreen
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 14

    I'm tired of everyone

    and everything. I just wish I could be whoever I want to be without having anyone judge me
    Wholenewworld123 Wholenewworld123
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Aug 18, 2015
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