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I Don't Know Who I Am Anymore

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    I use to be this girl with anger issues

    and now it seems that I don't have any anger. I am scared of the day that I'll snap and hate everyone and everything. But for now I am just a mellow person that even if you punch I'll be chill with it and take it.
    LoverOfAllSouls LoverOfAllSouls 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 9

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    Im Not Who I Used To Be

    Everyday i hear the sound Of the heartache knocking at my door I have no choice but to let it in And watch it transform who i was before Memories grow distant People change I no longer see, feel, smell , taste , sound the same I have been betrayed By those i loved My sister...
    Violet86 Violet86 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 5, 2011

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    I always thought that I had a strong sense of

    myself. That I knew who I was, when in reality I was being what people wanted me to be, but I didn't even realise because it was who I wanted to be in a sense. I would pull characteristics from the tv shows, movies, books etc. that I would watch/read and try my best to be them...
    WhoIreallyam WhoIreallyam 16-17, F Mar 19

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    I look in the mirror,

    and I don't know this girl staring back at me. She's a stranger. How can this girl possibly be me? If you asked me 3 years ago how I thought my life would be, I never thought I'd be here. Living this pain filled nightmare. I've done so many things I thought I would never do...
    LoveandLoss17 LoveandLoss17 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 11

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    I'm not sure what I want.

    A long life.. With everything I'm supposed to have, or a short one.. Live fast, die young.. Be wild and have fun, take life in one big bang and be dangerous, reckless, and carefree...
    Rosaalie Rosaalie 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 22

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    I Leave In Hell

    i made a mistake 4 years ago n contracted HIV i wanna 4get about it n start afresh even though am infected but i just dont know how n there is nobody 2 help me i have no job n the poverty in our family is a constant reminder that am suffering from a fatal illness please anybody...
    best32 best32 22-25 4 Responses Dec 13, 2012

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    Gone

    What am I, Who am I, Where have I gone   Look at me, Can’t you see, what I’ve become   He takes me; He rapes me, and tortures my soul   Just let me be, set me free, I want to be whole   The pain I feel is so very real I’m just dead...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 1 Response Nov 21, 2007

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    Splitting Me

    You know how Bruce Wayne is Batman and Peter Parker is Spiderman? How they go out and be someone else and keep it all organized between the two egos? I sort of feel I have a split of two lives but not exactly as easy and organized as putting on a spandex outfit and go out crime...
    UnfinishedEmily UnfinishedEmily 22-25 2 Responses May 21, 2012

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    I've been living with this person I'm with,

    for three years now. He's the first man I've been with, the only man I've been with. And I haven't been honest with him...not at all. It's complicated to describe all this. It's difficult just thinking about it...trying to make sense of it. But what else could I do now? I'm not...
    RedRidingHood97 RedRidingHood97 22-25 1 Response Jul 28

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    No One Really Knows Who They Are ....

    In my 33 years of living, I would have to say that my late teens and 20's were just one huge identity crisis. It was a crisis because I was desperately searching for a sense of self that was lost into adulthood. I am not a know-all kind of guy ( I actually know very little about...
    bedevo33 bedevo33 31-35, M 2 Responses Jul 27, 2012

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    I can't handle myself anymore.

    I barely even know who I am at this point. I can act one way but then flip the switch completely when something happens. I just feel like a soulless puppet being directed by my emotions. Regardless of what I may feel on the inside, it doesn't change my idiotic actions or my...
    jaden12345 jaden12345 16-17, M Sep 10

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    I live three lives, and only one of them is the

    real me. At school, I am reserved and very introverted. At home, I am more talkative but I'm still not the real me. I am only myself when I'm online. I wish I could just stop living separate lives and feel comfortable being myself.
    CompassionateCoffee CompassionateCoffee 13-15 4 Responses May 21

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    I don't know what i want,

    I don't know what i want to do. I had became numb to not get hurt, Now I am not sad, but not happy either. I know i am not doing good to myself, but this numbness is working like a drugs to me and i am unable to getting out of it. I am feeling like i am being cursed. I hate...
    visibleme visibleme 18-21 5 Responses Feb 22

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    I started changing in my mind

    when I was 17. I witnessed a car accident and tried to help the girl that got hit. I ripped her door off and pulled her out. She died in my arms. After that I threw myself into the one thing I knew I had and that was Football. I played my senior year of high school football...
    FamilyMan79 FamilyMan79 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 25

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    I morph into the people I'm around.

    But I want to be me. I don't know how. I feel lost and helpless. I don't know what to do.
    kaiiiiitlyn kaiiiiitlyn 18-21, F 7 Responses Jan 16

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    Where Did Kathie Go? I Sure Miss Her......

    I'm a happy person....I'll get over this. But, I want to stop and write this. I am sad...I miss myself. Indulge me, please. Four years ago I moved my demented, mostly blind, physically challenged Mother to the city I live in. I am her caregiver everyday....not 24/7, but close...
    Kathieredart Kathieredart 56-60, F 6 Responses Aug 19, 2012

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    When Darkness Falls

    When darkness falls, Dwell you there When darkness falls, Waiting patiently When darkness falls, I'm drawn to you When darkness falls, Passion breaks through When darkness falls, Touch you me When darkness falls, Torn at the heart When darkness falls, Hearts been branded...
    inChange inChange 41-45, M 3 Responses May 23, 2013

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    I go thru stages on a daily basis

    and they are sometimes hard to deal with. I'm happy one moment and in the blink of an eye I feel like my world is falling apart. Sometimes there's a trigger for these feelings and yet for the most part there's not. I break out into uncontrollable tears for no logical reason at...
    Noturninback Noturninback 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 9

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    I don't know who I'm anymore

    or why I'm here, and I'm scared of becoming the monster I was running from.
    ruthm ruthm 18-21, F Sep 9

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    i'm only 15 and i'm already lost,

    i just hate the fact that i don't have a real personality and that i'm not mentally Stable and can't make my own decision, i don't know what to do with my life and worser than that is i don't see the point of doing things/living. one minute i'm fine and the other i'm sad and...
    shayy13 shayy13 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    I'm a young woman working in the financial

    industry but what I really want is to have a family and stay at home.
    Fanzoe Fanzoe 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 9

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    I needed you more than anything tonight.

    Once again life has proven that you can't rely on anyone but yourself. I love you, and want to be with you. Is it really worth it now though. I don't think you feel the same. Nights like tonight makes me wish I would have stayed in NC. I just wish you felt the same way as I did...
    forgottenheart forgottenheart 18-21, F Sep 28

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    As part of the International Baccalaureate

    Programme that I study and one of the compulsory courses, I have Theory of Knowledge which basically questions our own knowledge. How do we know that the sky is blue, when we are not entirely sure whether other people see the same colour by the definition of 'blue'. We question...
    Cebe123 Cebe123 16-17 1 Response Jan 7

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    Last Sunday I had another anger episode.

    I took a baseball bat to the mailbox, I put my knee through some pictures, I punched a hole in the wall, and I said some things I think are true but were hurtful. I never used to let out my anger. I can control it anymore. Between my depression and anger, I have lost the sweet...
    IDontEvenKnowAnymore1 IDontEvenKnowAnymore1 13-15, M Aug 9

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    Dont Know Who I Am Or What I Want In Life Anymore!!

    I used to be such a loud child, so playfull, i was always low in confidence but i was out playing. I liked school until i got to secondry school. I was quiet in school, so i guess that made me a target, because i would never pay any attention, i was pushed and shoved but it never...
    lisastacey3 lisastacey3 22-25, F 3 Responses May 28, 2011

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    I really don't. I don't

    even know if I knew who I used to be or who I ever was. I have no purpose at the moment. I don't know where I'm going or where I want to go. Can I please just curl up in my bed and pull the covers over my face and never come out? Please?
    ImagineA ImagineA 16-17 Aug 16

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    There's A Scared Little Girl Inside Of Me.

    Since I can remember, I have defined myself through the eyes of others, looking outwards for their acceptance, approval and love.. Sometimes these  others were family, friends and boyfriends,  and at other times they were books, tv programmes, films..  I looked for...
    littlerusalka littlerusalka 26-30, F 4 Responses Oct 6, 2010

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    I am a vampire. I lost

    both my parents back in the forest when I was small. And I miss them so much. 😞
    Bellacallidora Bellacallidora 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 12

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    I've changed so much these years it's

    unbelievable! I was such a sweet girl when I was little, but starting at age 12 I was a little dirty devil aha. Oh well, I don't worry that much. I'm still sweet and innocent unless someone bugs me about things haha!
    innocentflower innocentflower 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 9

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    I thought i always knew

    who i was, but in the past year everything has been so confusing in my life. I went from having who i thought were my family; 3 siblings, a mom and dad, to finding out my siblings abused me when i was younger with my father, and still have bad intentions for me even today. I don...
    gardengirl17 gardengirl17 22-25, F 3 Responses Apr 3

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    My Constant Self Discovery

    'Out of everything and everyone I've lost... I miss myself the most.' When you’re little adults ask who you want to be when you grow up, and once you tell them they respond with such excitement and encouragement... but what they fail to tell you is... life has its own plans for...
    cherrytomatoes cherrytomatoes 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 21, 2013

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    I'Ve Never Really Known What I Wanted In Life

    From my father, I was taught to please others. This means to tell people what they want to hear, and try to become someone a bit different in order to make them like me. The thing is, I've been doing this my whole life, with so many people, that I don't know who I am or what I...
    CurlyBee CurlyBee 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 31, 2013

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    As the weeks and months pass I find myself

    becoming more lost without purpose or place. I used to define myself by what I considered meaningful or.....purposeful, a reason to get up in the morning a meaning to go to bed. Now it all seems pointless and repetitive tasks, the joy is gone and I'm scared like never before. I...
    fadedmind fadedmind 26-30, M Apr 2

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    I had a very strong sense of self

    as a child. I protected animals from kids who tried to torture them. I stood in between two of my friends who were fighting, and got punched in the face. I knew what I believed, and always stood up for it. Gradually, I lost my confidence. I don't know why. Maybe it was because I...
    HollywoodNil HollywoodNil 22-25, F 1 Response May 16

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    I just don't know. It isn't in a sad context of

    not knowing, just the fact that my entire life has been a lie. I also don't understand why I have been having more dreams lately, both nightmares and simplistic dreams. I've had one or two every night now for the past week. I'm just getting confused about a lot of things, I feel...
    treasureforever treasureforever 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 15

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    I miss the taste of your lips on mine I miss

    the way your freckles looked in the sun I missed the sound of your truck pulling up to pick me up I miss our tickle fights I miss your bear hugs I miss our late night texts I miss the way you looked at me I miss your touch and the way it gave me goosebumps I miss the old you...
    hopeless1012 hopeless1012 18-21, F Jun 20

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    Last Sunday I had another anger episode.

    I took a baseball bat to the mailbox, I put my knee through some pictures, I punched a hole in the wall, and I said some things I think are true but were hurtful. I never used to let out my anger. I can control it anymore. Between my depression and anger, I have lost the sweet...
    IDontEvenKnowAnymore1 IDontEvenKnowAnymore1 13-15, M Aug 9

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    So Confused

    Up until the day before yesterday I thought i knew who i was. Well, not really, but i had one part of me who i thought i knew, the only part that iv been sure of when everything else evaporated. And now im questioning that. In high school I was the music chick, the bass player...
    jazzcataly jazzcataly 22-25, F 2 Responses Jun 23, 2011

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    I Don't Know Who I Am Anymore...

    My life has been long and harsh, at merely thirty, I have tried to make the best of bad events. As a child my father died and I lived with my mother and brother. I was only 5 when my father died and I was told he died of a broken heart. Later I found out he committed suicide, and...
    tjtaz tjtaz 26-30 3 Responses Dec 29, 2011

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    I Wish I Could Be Who I Want To Be

    So many people believe that they are different but the truth is I think I am the most different of them all. I am almost 24 years old, never had a boyfriend in my life, never kissed a guy, never slept around, never been to a club, never gotten really drunk, etc. I am the type of...
    skydancer24 skydancer24 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 21, 2012

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    I have change and change

    and change for the people in my life, and now i don't even know who i am anymore.. Any way that i can get back my real self? I am sick of being in the middle of two personalities.
    Violinmelody Violinmelody 13-15, F 2 Responses May 2

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    I used to be a really nice

    and sweet girl. Really immature and innocent. That was 5 years ago. 3 years later I'm still the lil innocent girl who does not talk back. Did not even lash out. I keep my anger to myself. Now at 5 years later, I think I've matured a lot. I lash out and I curse and swear. I'm...
    Kywen97 Kywen97 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 9

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    I've always been a determined person,

    I knew exactly what I wanted. Now I'm not so sure of it anymore. This year I'm second-guessing everything: who I am,what I value the most and which should be my priorities. I've always cared about grades and studying was important to me although most of my excellent results...
    IcedPhoenix IcedPhoenix 18-21, F Mar 31

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    I Just Dont Anymore. . .

    . . . . .. . . . . . . . . . .. . . . . .. :-(
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Sep 2, 2013

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    Sometimes I feel like we join a particular

    personality group based on our personal appearance. Then I think that we only see our perception of how we feel on the inside. I don't look like anyone else in the world and I don't know how I really feel about me so when I look in the mirror, I see a ghost of my childhood. I...
    babaluba babaluba 36-40, M 2 Responses Mar 8

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    Months ago i was full of happiness.

    I had achieved so much! Now i'm just full of hatred and anger. I look in the mirror and i don't see mysf anymore. I see a person abused by their own emotions. I've come to hate everything. I'm a miserable person. I have been pushing the people i love the most away. I hate myself...
    abc0924 abc0924 18-21, M 1 Response Sep 16

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    I've lost myself and everything in my world

    that is important to me. I recently lost my wife because of online affairs and ***********. The fantasy of being with someone else was all a lie. The true love of my life is gone now. I am alone. I wish I never hurt her the way I have. I have broke her heart so many times...
    Qman85 Qman85 26-30, M 1 Response Feb 8

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    What Happened?

    When I was a little kid life was simple, I knew who I was, I wanted to be and astronaut when I grew up and I liked candy. I don't even like candy anymore. I don't know who I am, what kind of person am I? I'm all alone and have no one to talk to and no friends. How can I define...
    FoolYourself FoolYourself 16-18, M 17 Responses Dec 3, 2007

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    On second I feel like

    who I always have been wise and nice playful funny sad chained stuck person I feel like what I call my second personality a sassy diva I want to slap on my heels and hat (it's a sassy one) and head to the mall i feel confident and want to break my chains that I have been stuck...
    Dinosaurfanatic Dinosaurfanatic 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 12

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