I Don't Know Who I Am Anymore

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    What am I, Who am I, Where have I gone   Look at me, Can’t you see, what I’ve become   He takes me; He rapes me, and tortures my soul   Just let me be, set me free, I want to be whole   The pain I feel is so very real I’m just dead...
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality
    36-40, F
    1 Response Nov 21, 2007

    I use to have this same feeling

    for a lot of years. Then one day, after working on my positives that I had not learned to eventually balancing my life. I came to a realisation, it's not who I am that is important, it's why I'm here is the most important. Because really, we are many, some have already lived 10...
    Create63 Create63
    51-55, M
    1 Response Oct 27, 2014

    Dont Know Who I Am Or What I Want In Life Anymore!!

    I used to be such a loud child, so playfull, i was always low in confidence but i was out playing. I liked school until i got to secondry school. I was quiet in school, so i guess that made me a target, because i would never pay any attention, i was pushed and shoved but it never...
    lisastacey3 lisastacey3
    22-25, F
    3 Responses May 28, 2011

    Splitting Me

    You know how Bruce Wayne is Batman and Peter Parker is Spiderman? How they go out and be someone else and keep it all organized between the two egos? I sort of feel I have a split of two lives but not exactly as easy and organized as putting on a spandex outfit and go out crime...
    UnfinishedEmily UnfinishedEmily
    2 Responses May 21, 2012

    I had a very strong sense of self

    as a child. I protected animals from kids who tried to torture them. I stood in between two of my friends who were fighting, and got punched in the face. I knew what I believed, and always stood up for it. Gradually, I lost my confidence. I don't know why. Maybe it was because I...
    HollywoodNil HollywoodNil
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 16, 2014

    Things are changing very quickly

    and I am not trying to keep up. Suddenly I feel entitled to happiness, I feel as though I do not have to process every last thing that goes on in my life, and I feel as though I do not have to capture each feeling in a jar and examine it relentlessly. Suddenly I want to be...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 11, 2016

    I hurt the people I love

    so I won't feel so guilty and make them feel like they're the problem when it's really me. I'm unsure of my intentions and I wish I was the old me per say, I hate the person I've become.
    moonshine97 moonshine97
    18-21, F
    Jul 21, 2015

    I Wish I Could Be Who I Want To Be

    So many people believe that they are different but the truth is I think I am the most different of them all. I am almost 24 years old, never had a boyfriend in my life, never kissed a guy, never slept around, never been to a club, never gotten really drunk, etc. I am the type of...
    skydancer24 skydancer24
    26-30, F
    5 Responses Jan 21, 2012

    No One Really Knows Who They Are ....

    In my 33 years of living, I would have to say that my late teens and 20's were just one huge identity crisis. It was a crisis because I was desperately searching for a sense of self that was lost into adulthood. I am not a know-all kind of guy ( I actually know very little about...
    bedevo33 bedevo33
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Jul 27, 2012

    So Confused

    Up until the day before yesterday I thought i knew who i was. Well, not really, but i had one part of me who i thought i knew, the only part that iv been sure of when everything else evaporated. And now im questioning that. In high school I was the music chick, the bass player...
    jazzcataly jazzcataly
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jun 23, 2011

    I just feel so empty.

    .. Everyday is the same, never moving forward it seems... I wish I had someone that really understood me. But a lot of the guys I've talked to are Jerks, sorry boys but it's true...why can't I have someone that truly cared...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Oct 26, 2015

    I Leave In Hell

    i made a mistake 4 years ago n contracted HIV i wanna 4get about it n start afresh even though am infected but i just dont know how n there is nobody 2 help me i have no job n the poverty in our family is a constant reminder that am suffering from a fatal illness please anybody...
    best32 best32
    4 Responses Dec 13, 2012

    There once was a time

    when all to life was to run around and play and now life is trying to hide and barely making it through another day . Silence screams louder than words and silence covers up those actions. But one day the smile will fall and every one will know. But it will scare everyone else...
    SecretKeeper01 SecretKeeper01
    18-21, F
    Apr 28, 2015

    Million dollar question.

    I can't bring myself to make a decision on where I want my life to go. I feel like I'm in a rut in my marriage, in my social and professional life. I need to get my crap together and I just keep running in circles when I know the path is right there to escape. Maybe, that's my...
    ladymadrox ladymadrox
    26-30, F
    1 Response Oct 9, 2015

    So much has changed. I've done things I never

    thought I would. I don't like who I am becoming. I'm too far gone to come back from this.
    DoneAnd0ver DoneAnd0ver
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 14, 2015

    It feels like there is something fundamental

    I'm missing. You can't see the whole picture, even if it's only one, insignificant piece missing. It's very frustrating.
    maiomeN maiomeN
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 26, 2014

    So I decided to go full out at school today.

    Im taking about curling my hair, full on make up, and the perfect outfit. For the first in a really long time, I didn't avoid looking at myself in a mirror, and honestly I couldn't stop looking at myself.Not out of self-ego or anything, but because for once, I actually felt like...
    Aujrennae Aujrennae
    18-21, F
    Jan 21, 2016

    I really don't last year I didn't give a flying

    **** about what happened I would just go with it. Now after she dumped me a month ago. I can't stand anything
    Bonjovi11 Bonjovi11
    18-21, M
    Jan 15, 2015

    I thought I was this good christian girl up

    until recently when I've discovered I don't really agree with a lot of my family's beliefs. I have nothing against Christians, I simply don't believe the same way. I don't really know much of anything for certain right now, my world feels as if it's shaking which I suppose is...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response May 12, 2015

    I am not sure who I am anymore.

    I am just a shell of the person that I once was, trampled, used and forgotten by someone whom claims to love me.
    Simplyforgotten Simplyforgotten
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Mar 6, 2016

    My Constant Self Discovery

    'Out of everything and everyone I've lost... I miss myself the most.' When you’re little adults ask who you want to be when you grow up, and once you tell them they respond with such excitement and encouragement... but what they fail to tell you is... life has its own plans for...
    cherrytomatoes cherrytomatoes
    31-35, F
    1 Response Apr 21, 2013

    June 21, 2009 I never knew

    that day could end up being one that was burned in the back of my brain for ever. Well buddy it's been six years since mommy lost you. To top that off today is also fathers day. I know your deadbeat doesn't acknowledge you ever existed but that's okay. Momma still talks to you...
    forgottenheart forgottenheart
    18-21, F
    Jun 21, 2015

    For a long time I would pretend to be somebody

    else, weather it was to please others or to escape myself. When it started out I promised myself I would only pretend at home. Somewhere along the way I forgot to return to myself, the lies I was selling to everyone became truths to me. I got so use to changing into what...
    DearFae DearFae
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 20, 2016

    To be honest, I don't know

    who I am anymore. I have changed. I have become a person I hate, a person I never wanted to become. I've turned into all those people who did horrible things to me and now I am doing those things to other people. It had become an addiction and I can't stop.
    EmilyPouliot EmilyPouliot
    26-30, F
    Jan 4, 2016

    I feel the same. I have had

    so many lives. I used to bounce back from anything and enjoyed turning things around. I feel I have lost the inner fight. I don't want to fight for something or try anything. Over the years I have got rid of partners and friends. Now 40, I own nothing and have nothing. I should...
    butterflyrays butterflyrays
    May 20, 2015

    I don't know what I've become anymore.

    I'm just so tired. I had a little drink and got buzzed I call my boyfriend because I miss him and he said he doesn't wanna talk to me when I'm like this. But like what? Happy silly stupid? Sometimes I just can't handle life. And I completely opened to him but it feels like it's...
    XxDeadlyAngelxX XxDeadlyAngelxX
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 3, 2015

    I graduated 2 years ago now.

    I'm stuck in a job I hate, that makes my degree seem pointless. My degree is pointless without the next course which costs about £10'000. I live on my own for the first time and I don't have many real friends here. It really feels like after a certain age, you can't make new...
    deleted deleted
    Aug 2, 2015

    I just want to be me,

    I just want the opportunity to be me, I just wish people would just accept that I'm different and respect my choices and respect the things I like, things I do, and the things I say.
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 5, 2015

    I live three lives, and only one of them is the

    real me. At school, I am reserved and very introverted. At home, I am more talkative but I'm still not the real me. I am only myself when I'm online. I wish I could just stop living separate lives and feel comfortable being myself.
    CompassionateCoffee CompassionateCoffee
    3 Responses May 21, 2014

    As the weeks and months pass I find myself

    becoming more lost without purpose or place. I used to define myself by what I considered meaningful or.....purposeful, a reason to get up in the morning a meaning to go to bed. Now it all seems pointless and repetitive tasks, the joy is gone and I'm scared like never before. I...
    deleted deleted
    Apr 2, 2014

    this is sad, so so sad.

    .. slipping away into the unseen, not seen nor heard... never will I see the sun rise again, or the melody of the song... notes dangling in midair, nowhere to land yet immobilized, the beautiful voice never again heard... the sun sets but one day it might not rise, and now I know...
    isohatetheworld isohatetheworld
    70+, F
    1 Response Jul 27, 2015

    I'm definitely not the same person I used to be.

    But I don't like how I've changed. I am always tired. I've lost almost all motivation I have ever had, and to be honest, I don't want to keep going. I'm not implying anything. In fact, I don't even know what tat means myself. But I just...can't even describe myself anymore...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Nov 11, 2014

    There was a time when I knew exactly

    who I was, what I was, and all that entailed. However, recently that sense of identity has escaped me. There used to be this clear-cut line of what was me, and what was not. Now I'm seeing that line blur as new experiences force me to look at myself in a different light. Was I...
    LaSouris LaSouris
    18-21, T
    1 Response Jan 27, 2015

    I'Ve Never Really Known What I Wanted In Life

    From my father, I was taught to please others. This means to tell people what they want to hear, and try to become someone a bit different in order to make them like me. The thing is, I've been doing this my whole life, with so many people, that I don't know who I am or what I...
    CurlyBee CurlyBee
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 31, 2013

    It feels like I have lived numerous different

    lives or that certain times in my life never really happened.. They were just figments of my imagination. Dreams. The relationships I once thought would last my lifetime seem to have only survived that point in my life. The person I thought I was and would become disappeared at...
    Peebsxx Peebsxx
    22-25, F
    2 Responses May 20, 2015

    I have been gang stalked in Michigan,

    even followed several states over and under, twice, for almost a year now. I had/have no help, no answers, and seemingly there will be no end. They have ruined the person I used to know. Hate, anger, and frustration Is what I know now.
    Pointblack Pointblack
    41-45, F
    1 Response Apr 3, 2015

    During my life I created this character

    so I could survive out there in the real world. I used to be strong, helpful, sympathetic, loved, cool and whatever makes you wanna be friends with someone. Really, I had lots of `friends`. I just knew exactly how to attract people. Listen to their problems, help them find a...
    creatingawildparadise creatingawildparadise
    22-25, M
    1 Response May 11, 2015

    I feel like I'm slipping away again.

    Just for a while, I had a sense of who I am but I keep relapsing into this weird state of not knowing who I am because I try new things and I like it but it goes against my logic and I keep asking myself is this really who I am and what I like. I've changed a lot and I keep...
    jacithepanda jacithepanda
    16-17, F
    Aug 8, 2015

    ...things change so fast I feel like life is

    slipping out of my hands ....I wish ...I wish ....I was better maybe I could make it all go away
    reddemonsoul reddemonsoul
    18-21, F
    Oct 22, 2015

    There's A Scared Little Girl Inside Of Me.

    Since I can remember, I have defined myself through the eyes of others, looking outwards for their acceptance, approval and love.. Sometimes these  others were family, friends and boyfriends,  and at other times they were books, tv programmes, films..  I looked for...
    littlerusalka littlerusalka
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Oct 6, 2010

    Been married for years

    but now feeling like I might be bisexual. How, if you love your wife, do you manage that?
    Fishfugazi Fishfugazi
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Sep 20, 2015

    I look in the mirror,

    and I don't know this girl staring back at me. She's a stranger. How can this girl possibly be me? If you asked me 3 years ago how I thought my life would be, I never thought I'd be here. Living this pain filled nightmare. I've done so many things I thought I would never do...
    LoveandLoss17 LoveandLoss17
    18-21, F
    Jul 11, 2014

    every day goes by and something changes.

    i think about how i used to be, and how i wanted to be, and how both of those people would be ashamed of who i am today... i don't like it. i have a lot of work ahead of me to get to where i want to be, but i don't know how to take that first step any more
    anata1 anata1
    22-25, F
    Mar 27, 2015

    I morph into the people I'm around.

    But I want to be me. I don't know how. I feel lost and helpless. I don't know what to do.
    kaiiiiitlyn kaiiiiitlyn
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Jan 16, 2014

    I Don't Know Who I Am Anymore...

    My life has been long and harsh, at merely thirty, I have tried to make the best of bad events. As a child my father died and I lived with my mother and brother. I was only 5 when my father died and I was told he died of a broken heart. Later I found out he committed suicide, and...
    tjtaz tjtaz
    3 Responses Dec 29, 2011

    What Happened?

    When I was a little kid life was simple, I knew who I was, I wanted to be and astronaut when I grew up and I liked candy. I don't even like candy anymore. I don't know who I am, what kind of person am I? I'm all alone and have no one to talk to and no friends. How can I define...
    FoolYourself FoolYourself
    18-21, M
    17 Responses Dec 3, 2007

    I Just Dont Anymore. . .

    . . . . .. . . . . . . . . . .. . . . . .. :-(
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Sep 2, 2013

    She was the most beautiful girl in the world,

    to me. Tall, with dark hair, freckles and the warmest brown eyes you could ever imagine. She was my everything, my entire soul, my entire being and I loved her to my very last for eight years. And then I left. I took a flight of fancy that had no purpose except to serve some...
    liu88 liu88
    Dec 17, 2015

    I'm tearing myself apart.

    I really don't know who I am anymore.
    escape1424 escape1424
    18-21, F
    May 17, 2015

    I am so confused with my life!

    I don't even know how to explain!! I love music it cheers me up and makes my laugh!! Idem if anyone really knows who I truly am! I am just well sad but don't show it!! 😝😞
    Singingbutterfly Singingbutterfly
    16-17, F
    1 Response Mar 26, 2015

    I just don't know anymore,

    I'm always tired. Miserable, have no desire to workout even though I did go today I just don't feel myself anymore
    titsandbarbells titsandbarbells
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Feb 21, 2016

    I Don'T Know Myself Anymore

    Once upon a time, there was a little boy and he was happy. The colours in the sky, ranging from... Nevermind that ****. Not what I'm here for. I knew myself once and I was happy, but I started losing faith, belief and recognition of God and myself. I know he's here, I just don't...
    GreenManley GreenManley
    22-25, M
    4 Responses Jun 6, 2013

    Im Not Who I Used To Be

    Everyday i hear the sound Of the heartache knocking at my door I have no choice but to let it in And watch it transform who i was before Memories grow distant People change I no longer see, feel, smell , taste , sound the same I have been betrayed By those i loved My sister...
    Violet86 Violet86
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jul 5, 2011

    Where Did Kathie Go? I Sure Miss Her......

    I'm a happy person....I'll get over this. But, I want to stop and write this. I am sad...I miss myself. Indulge me, please. Four years ago I moved my demented, mostly blind, physically challenged Mother to the city I live in. I am her caregiver everyday....not 24/7, but close...
    Kathieredart Kathieredart
    56-60, F
    5 Responses Aug 19, 2012

    I've lost myself and everything in my world

    that is important to me. I recently lost my wife because of online affairs and ***********. The fantasy of being with someone else was all a lie. The true love of my life is gone now. I am alone. I wish I never hurt her the way I have. I have broke her heart so many times...
    Qman85 Qman85
    31-35, M
    Feb 8, 2014
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