I Don't Love Her Anymore

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 24 People

    Missing Her Today

    I wonder sometimes, if there will ever be a time in my life that i wont miss her.  When i wont feel a big empty gaping hole in my life where she is missing. It's humbling to admit how much i need her in my life and how lost i feel without her effortless reassurances. ...
    Shierke Shierke
    26-30, F
    Mar 31, 2009

    Dear K.

    Why aren't you the girl i feel in love with?  Why cant you be who i thought you were, who you said you were?  Instead, looking at me is a stranger.  A stranger i never knew. I need you so much now.  I'm lonely and afraid and hurting.  All i want is to...
    Shierke Shierke
    26-30, F
    Feb 1, 2008

    When you fall in love young you never consider

    that one day it'll be over. I didn't. But the days keep rolling by and I keep waking up next to her knowing that she feels something I don't, knowing that I can't be hiding my unhappiness well, and that apparently she is content to just hold pat. She's a good woman in her way...
    jjsdaddy86 jjsdaddy86
    26-30, M
    Dec 24, 2013

    Reflections

    She made me old before it was my time.  She's made me want to stay inside a shell where it is warm happy and safe. She has made me doubt my faith in humankind. I cant say she led me there, but she reminds me of stupid people, stupid decisions, and jackass...
    Shierke Shierke
    26-30, F
    Jan 13, 2008

    So I Lied-

    I still love her, and i always will.  I'm a sucker that way. It's hard now that i get to talk to her on-line. Because then it seems a little bit more like it used to be- we talk about real things with substance, or BS- but none of this dragging through a long tunnel with no...
    Shierke Shierke
    26-30, F
    Mar 25, 2008

    For the Last Time

    I saw K. yesterday, probably for the last time.  She is moving in with her boyfriends parents far towards Kansas. While it's okay to visit her when I'm in the area and have some time. I cannot bring myself to go out to where she is living so i can be reminded of the way she...
    Shierke Shierke
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 1, 2008

    Not Quite Like Anything Else

    As such, many people just aren't going to understand what i have to say here.  That is why i made a different group to tell this story.  Because, she's never been my "girlfriend, or my best friend.... She was my lover, and my sister, and my mother and my daughter...
    Shierke Shierke
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Nov 29, 2007

    I Went to See Her

    So I went to see her while I was on my christmas holiday. well not really her specificly.. iwent to pick up my neice for family christmas and spent some time there... It was kind of surreal... being in this worn-out trailer with probably $4000 worth of enternainment equipment in...
    Shierke Shierke
    26-30, F
    Jan 16, 2009

    I don't know. Maybe I do.

    Tonight I was thinking about it and in my head I was trying to say "I love her" but it just wouldn't come out and instead out loud I was able to say "I don't love her". It's terrifying. I'm finally moving on from her, something I hadn't been able to do for so long because she...
    MyDaddysSpecialGirl MyDaddysSpecialGirl
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 18, 2015

    Daydreams Lost

    I never in a million years imagined a life without her.  In our minds we planned out the future, and sure much of it was fantasy but- it was the kind of fantasy you can live in. I never expected to live further than 100ft from where she was, she was going to be right next...
    Shierke Shierke
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 14, 2008

    Trying to Be "Normal"

    It sucks- when you have a parting of ways of this magnitude, because it's never "really" over. Because the fact of the matter is, when you've been turning to the same person for 16 years of your life (and you are only 24) you aren't going to stop. You are going to try...
    Shierke Shierke
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 10, 2007

    Mutual Friends

    I think that as far as "She" goes- mutual friends are the hardest thing right now.   We were together for so long that some people almost see us as a 2 headed creature- we always know whats going on with one another and the like. It's hit me hard right now...
    Shierke Shierke
    26-30, F
    Jun 2, 2008
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