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I Don't Love Her Anymore

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 25 People

    For the Last Time

    I saw K. yesterday, probably for the last time.  She is moving in with her boyfriends parents far towards Kansas. While it's okay to visit her when I'm in the area and have some time. I cannot bring myself to go out to where she is living so i can be reminded of the way she...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F 1 Response Mar 1, 2008

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    Mutual Friends

    I think that as far as "She" goes- mutual friends are the hardest thing right now.   We were together for so long that some people almost see us as a 2 headed creature- we always know whats going on with one another and the like. It's hit me hard right now...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F Jun 2, 2008

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    Daydreams Lost

    I never in a million years imagined a life without her.  In our minds we planned out the future, and sure much of it was fantasy but- it was the kind of fantasy you can live in. I never expected to live further than 100ft from where she was, she was going to be right next...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 14, 2008

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    So I Lied-

    I still love her, and i always will.  I'm a sucker that way. It's hard now that i get to talk to her on-line. Because then it seems a little bit more like it used to be- we talk about real things with substance, or BS- but none of this dragging through a long tunnel with no...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F Mar 25, 2008

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    Not Quite Like Anything Else

    As such, many people just aren't going to understand what i have to say here.  That is why i made a different group to tell this story.  Because, she's never been my "girlfriend, or my best friend.... She was my lover, and my sister, and my mother and my daughter...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F 3 Responses Nov 29, 2007

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    When you fall in love young you never consider

    that one day it'll be over. I didn't. But the days keep rolling by and I keep waking up next to her knowing that she feels something I don't, knowing that I can't be hiding my unhappiness well, and that apparently she is content to just hold pat. She's a good woman in her way...
    jjsdaddy86 jjsdaddy86 26-30, M Dec 24, 2013

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    Trying to Be "Normal"

    It sucks- when you have a parting of ways of this magnitude, because it's never "really" over. Because the fact of the matter is, when you've been turning to the same person for 16 years of your life (and you are only 24) you aren't going to stop. You are going to try...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 10, 2007

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    Missing Her Today

    I wonder sometimes, if there will ever be a time in my life that i wont miss her.  When i wont feel a big empty gaping hole in my life where she is missing. It's humbling to admit how much i need her in my life and how lost i feel without her effortless reassurances. ...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F Mar 31, 2009

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    Reflections

    She made me old before it was my time.  She's made me want to stay inside a shell where it is warm happy and safe. She has made me doubt my faith in humankind. I cant say she led me there, but she reminds me of stupid people, stupid decisions, and jackass...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F Jan 13, 2008

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    I Went to See Her

    So I went to see her while I was on my christmas holiday. well not really her specificly.. iwent to pick up my neice for family christmas and spent some time there... It was kind of surreal... being in this worn-out trailer with probably $4000 worth of enternainment equipment in...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F Jan 16, 2009

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    Dear K.

    Why aren't you the girl i feel in love with?  Why cant you be who i thought you were, who you said you were?  Instead, looking at me is a stranger.  A stranger i never knew. I need you so much now.  I'm lonely and afraid and hurting.  All i want is to...
    Shierke Shierke 26-30, F Feb 1, 2008

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    msr721 msr721 46-50, F 2 Responses Oct 13

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    My Mom left me when I was four. I don't remember her. My older brothers remember her and talk about how devistated they were when she left. She came back into my life when I was...
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    Today I went to college to see a good friend of mine since it's his birthday and I wanted to tell him in person rather than on the internet since it means more in person. Looking...
    jamie1292 jamie1292 22-25, M Sep 30

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    Personally, I find life to be too short to waste it on somebody who doesn't make your life fantastic. If they don't, make life fantastic yourself.
    JadedDivinity JadedDivinity 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 2

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    If I didn't love someone I would not be with them...period! I cant see the point wasting you time and theirs. I am confident in living life alone, and would choose this over a...
    ultimatehacker ultimatehacker 26-30, M Oct 9

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    Used to. But even those who swore to never lie or betray you and "you can trust them" change. I've learnt to build a wall up and to be wise. Even with those I love
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45, T 3 Responses Oct 12

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    I miss painting and drawing but just can't bring myself to do it. Partly i think due to the fear of how awful i am now. I used to be pretty good and often regret quitting. I...
    dmeanr dmeanr 26-30, F Oct 12

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    I couldn't do it. it would be like living half of a life to me. I can't try to force a dynamic that is clearly not right for me or another person. in the end, we'd both be in each...
    ajrestless ajrestless 22-25, F Sep 28

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    Never believe a person who says I love you too soon.
    redvelvetfairy redvelvetfairy 41-45, F 4 Responses Oct 7

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    Never believe someone that said I love you to soon
    Strangerdanger47 Strangerdanger47 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 16

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    the most expensive thing in the world is trust. It can take years to earn and just a matter of second to lose. -_-
    ElizabethSwannTurner ElizabethSwannTurner 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 26

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    He said I'm worst than a cold hearted guy.
    amberlynnapple amberlynnapple 22-25, F 4 Responses Oct 12

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    Trust me. I really would...
    123peppy 123peppy 16-17, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    It has been over a year since my affair ended, and I have managed to work through the intense roller coaster ride of emotional ups and downs. Details are in my previous experience...
    inacloud inacloud 31-35, M Sep 26

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    I am so very scared. I don't know which way turn anymore. I have managed to royally **** up my life....again. I feel completely worthless. I don't know what I want anymore. On the...
    onebirdinacage onebirdinacage 36-40, F 3 Responses Oct 16

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    I've never really been able to relate to people's emotions... or at least, I haven't been able to in the last year or so. I know I sound completely horrible, but I don't know how...
    VeronicaVoom VeronicaVoom 18-21, F Oct 15

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    Don't tell me you love me. You don't know me you can't love something you don't know anything about. So please don't think you love me because you don't love me but you love what...
    mymindsalivingnightmare mymindsalivingnightmare 13-15, F 3 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I needed you more than anything tonight. Once again life has proven that you can't rely on anyone but yourself. I love you, and want to be with you. Is it really worth it now...
    forgottenheart forgottenheart 18-21, F Sep 28

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    I'm not sure if I'm bi or not. But about a year ago, I started feeling really strongly for my (female) best friend. One of my other friends introduced me to her, and we got really...
    skywords skywords 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 29

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    Say it so many times to one person, knowing you're being true to th, and hoping they're being true to you, and then you don't talk later anymore.... why does this happen?
    mangadrawer12321 mangadrawer12321 13-15, F 5 hrs ago

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    But I never say anything about it. My parents like arguing just outside my room and it just came to the point that I don't get suprised anymore and just wait for either my mom or...
    acitythatneverwakesup acitythatneverwakesup 16-17, F Oct 5

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    I don't add men anymore. There are exceptions, but they barely exist on this site.
    KazeDream KazeDream 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 5

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    This is part 2 from my another post (I kissed a girl and I liked it. (http://www.experienceproject.com/groups/Kissed-A-Girl-And-I-Liked-It/122501) So I came back from my trip. And...
    Amanesama Amanesama 26-30, F 2 Responses Oct 7

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    I remember the feeling of looking at people who indulge in drowning themselves in alcohol and thinking, "I just don't get it anymore." Whats hard however is when your spouse is...
    destinationanywhere destinationanywhere 31-35, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Actually I know that I'm not, but the important thing is that I don't really care anymore. Caring won't change anything. Besides, I've come to terms with myself and now I'm happy.
    WillMeer WillMeer 46-50, M 1 Response a week ago

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    It's just so funny to me. Really, it is. I currently have 93 unread messages in my inbox. I'm sorry it's taking me a minute to write back to you. If I can see in the message...
    KaylaNicole93 KaylaNicole93 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 6

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    I know ,I'm addicted to sex. But you know ,when I'm with her or when I'm texting with her .I don't get the feeling of sex I just feel special . I don't know i deserve her or not...
    ssg9 ssg9 18-21, M Oct 14

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    As growing up being abused by my mom bc of her drugs & alcohol! She was abuse as well with everything even sexually abuse! For years my mom had kept her dark secret a till she told...
    ncsweetfem ncsweetfem 36-40, F 1 Response Oct 14

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    All I ever see or hear is people b!tching about how they don't love themselves or how they think they're ugly, how they honestly believe people are lying to them if the person...
    NostalgiaAndStars NostalgiaAndStars 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    I love two people, I love one more even though I don't know her too well, but she lives in the USA, and one is my therapist and I know she loves me, I just don't know what to do.
    RazorToMySkin RazorToMySkin 16-17, M 1 Response Sep 30

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    This has happened a lot to me actually. Well I haven't loved many people in my life but there's always someone else. And it's also like, people I love treat me like crap and when...
    Kmarcum99 Kmarcum99 13-15, F Oct 8

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    I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm 16 and in the 12th grade, and I've skipped so many classes that I could have to do another year. But that would honestly be devastating...
    dickdurk dickdurk 16-17, F 3 Responses Oct 10

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    I'm in a relationship and although I can't find any "proof" of cheating. I don't trust her. Honestly, I feel like she's faithful. I'm 90% sure but my past has gotten me so paranoid...
    FriendlyPoet FriendlyPoet 18-21, F Oct 16

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    People assume I'm a fan of Marilyn Monroe because my name is "Marilynn" yes spelled with two N's.. Idk why lol. My father and uncle gave me that name because they were fans. I'm...
    marilynnrox marilynnrox 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 1

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    I've learnt you can never really trust someone... I push away everyone, because I don't want to leave a trail of destruction when I leave... I hate the fact people push themselves...
    catho catho 16-17, F 1 hr ago

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    I mean, it's okay, but I don't actually enjoy listening. Everyone I tell this to just suggest different artists, but it's no use. I just don't enjoy it.
    AnnaKanna AnnaKanna 13-15, F 2 hrs ago

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    I don't like feeling lonely, but I cant imagine not feeling lonely. Its my defining characteristic. But I draw on the 'loneliness' do some really creative things. And I'd hate to...
    Anch0rMan Anch0rMan 41-45, M