I Don't Matter to Anyone

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 43 People

    I lost my stepmother to suicide nine years ago

    and am still struggling with it today. I feel like I just drag everyone down into my sadness. I push everyone away because I don't want them to go through what I did, but I'm lonely. I want to be able to talk to people, and I want to believe that I'm allowed to. I want to be...
    beaconirl beaconirl
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Sep 8, 2014


    For the last 10 or so years I've felt like I've lived my life in a vaccum.  I've made no friends had no mutual loving relationships and have pretty much existed on my own.  I got married to a sociopath who humiliated and used me...we have a child, who I love but I am so filled...
    agoodlife08 agoodlife08
    3 Responses Nov 14, 2011

    I try and try so hard all of the time at

    everything. I get yelled at while at work for doing something wrong while everything I do right goes unnoticed. My husband worked for 24 hours straight and while I missed him terribly he walked right past me and got on his computer game. When I'm cleaning my home my kids and...
    greenapple0307 greenapple0307
    31-35, F
    Nov 5, 2015

    Nobody Cares, I Don't Matter

    I tell people my problems. They hear what I say and it goes out the other ear. My foot has a torn tendon and I'm not supposed to run, I both work and go to school around the clock to pay bills and try to get somewhere, and I wish I could have a boyfriend on top of it all. I lead...
    kristine4560 kristine4560
    3 Responses Oct 15, 2012

    I don't think I have ever really mattered to

    anyone. People care but it's different. I just feel tht if I died or dissapeared today it would take weeks of months before anyone realized my abscence, and more because my decayed body would have started to smell. I feel I am irrelevant. And I have always felt this way. I used...
    Guashu Guashu
    41-45, F
    Sep 25, 2014

    When They Shout At Me, It's Legitimate

    When I tell them this is unnecessary, I'm told that I'm not being respectful. My voice doesn't matter. I don't matter. I'm told that I'm too young. However, I'm old enough to be trusted to vote, drive, have a job, remember to run errands, pay taxes and bills, etc. It's not like I...
    thoughtspeech thoughtspeech
    1 Response Dec 21, 2012

    I Just Googled This

    and i guess i'm just writing to vent. i have a lot of anxiety that my life just doesn't really amount to much. and when i look around me at what i have (or, more accurately, what i don't have) i can't help but agree. and no one calls me or texts me, no one is all that interested...
    riverwalk659 riverwalk659
    4 Responses May 18, 2011

    I Am Alone

    I am in so much emotional pain everyday, I am alone. I can't even find peace when sleeping (when I sleep which is often interrupted by a horrible uneasy feeling) I am alone. I am married with seven children and six grandchildren. I am alone. I don't exist to anyone except...
    happyisashappydoes happyisashappydoes
    1 Response Aug 16, 2013

    Nothing to No One

    How often does your phone ring? In an average day, how many new emails or text messages would you recieve? Include everything, calls from work or your family, messages reminding you to pick up some milk, anything at all except marketing materials. If you have even a slightly...
    Musical Musical
    36-40, M
    9 Responses Jun 9, 2008

    I Should've Never Been Born

    I have no friends, no family, no one who cares about me unless they need something from me. I am married, even my husband lacks the capacity to acknowledge or see me. But to his defense he has EndStage Renal Disease, nCoronary Artery Disease, Congestive Heart Failure, Hepititis C...
    LIPZ91 LIPZ91
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Jan 23, 2012

    It Feels Like It...

    I really feel like I don't matter. I'm sick of being mediocre - or worse. I'm sick of everything. And I feel like such an attention ***** because I almost want people to try and prove me wrong. It's not like they'd be able to anyway. I just feel like nothing in the world...
    permafrost21 permafrost21
    22-25, F
    7 Responses Oct 26, 2010

    All Alone

    I have been single for the last 10 years and feel like my life is just not worth living. I have a little boy who I adore if it weren't for him I know I simply wouldn't be here. I have just plodded along dealing with fair weather friends who I know would not be there in a crisis...
    Pouchie Pouchie
    41-45, F
    1 Response Nov 24, 2013

    I Dont Belong

    The saying " I dont matter" goes threw my head often. Im sure some of it is my fault. Ive been hurt and betrayed by family, friends and strangers so much that I dont want to belong. I dont want anyone inside my bubble of pain. I feel so awkward and uncomfortable around people...
    Ava365 Ava365
    31-35, F
    Sep 3, 2012
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