I Don't Pray Anymore

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    It is not that I do it on purpose

    or that I "want" to stop praying, but I feel my heart is dead now, I really do. When I hear the prayers call now, I feel as if it is something irrelevant to me, it doesn't even occur to me that I should get up and pray, it is as if the prayers call is not really calling me, it...
    MissGaga MissGaga
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 1, 2014

    Whats The Use??????

    I NEVER in a million years thought I would even get to a place where I just couldn't pray. My life has been NOTHING short of a mess (well at least I think so) and its always been that way (no matter how much I try to run from the past, the past won't leave me alone) I wish I...
    orichgirl orichgirl
    26-30, F
    6 Responses Jan 18, 2011

    A Long Road

    I grew up in what some might call a sort of hell. I won't state the exact surrounding but I grew up in a refinery controlled town. This time has a title, the rise of crystal meth and the reforms of the refineries. This area from when I was young and till now produces 25% of the...
    bassist9 bassist9
    22-25, M
    10 Responses Nov 15, 2009

    I Used To Pray Every Night

    I guess I started having my doubts about the bible and God in general, but didn't like the thought of doubting, in case I was wrong. (Even though, God shouldn't care if we doubt, after all, we have free will) All my life I prayed every night. I went to church every Sunday when I...
    bdmthrfkr bdmthrfkr
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Feb 2, 2012

    Newsflash - Prayer Does Not Work.

    I stopped believing in prayer even when I was a Christian. If god is omniscient, omnipotent and omnipresent and has a plan for the universe, the physical rules will not break and all the pleading in the world wont do anything to change the course of nature if there is a master...
    chips24 chips24
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 25, 2013

    Even As Spiritual As I Am, Praying Is Lost Act For Me

    Too many unanswered prayiors, too much gone undone.  I have not been protected when I beckoned for it.  I have not been assured when I needed it and I have not been answered when it meant most.  So I no longer pray, life is the same but I keep my dignity I...
    XxJamberxX XxJamberxX
    18-21, F
    Jun 25, 2010

    Confusing

    I am one of those people who aren't sure what religion they are. I like to stay as open-minded as I can be about religions, but I have a problem with a few of the stories. Mostly it's the Christian/Catholic faiths that confuse me. Mostly because they seem slightly hypocritical...
    morrisjey morrisjey
    16-17, M
    1 Response Jun 15, 2011

    But...

    Oddly enough I can't get this out of my mind... over and over but only the beginning "Now I lay me down to sleep..." then again I'm also singing "ashes ashes we all fall down" so who knows where my mind is. .... life is but a dream
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Jul 5, 2009

    Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep...

    I pray the Lord My soul to keep If I should die Before I wake I pray the Lord My soul to take.   Everynight I recited this prayer.  Everynight I felt secure.  Everynight I believed that God truly looked down on me at that moment and smiled.  That He...
    moonlit1 moonlit1
    22-25, F
    1 Response Nov 5, 2008

    God Knows

    Prayer always made me uncomfortable, especially those group prayers. Just hearing other people's prayers made me uncomfortable. They just seem too private and personal. I don't care to have anything to do with them.
    itworkedintheory itworkedintheory
    31-35
    Jul 30, 2012

    I'm Not A Child Anymore.

    I lost my religious beliefs in my childhood, along with Santa and the tooth fairy. I wonder how people can be adults and be so irrational. There's no-one listening!
    Dexagon Dexagon
    18-21, M
    6 Responses May 18, 2010

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