I Don't Remember My Childhood

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    So Many Disjointed Flashes Of Nothing.

    I'm 26 years old, and there is very little of my childhood that I can recall. There are little glimpses of memories here and there, but as soon as I find them, they seem to fade away. It's quite frustrating. I've considered attempting to construct a sort of timeline for myself...
    rachynymph rachynymph
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jan 5, 2010

    I'm 20 Years Old And...

    I can barely remember my childhood. And not much of middle school. I don't think they were happy times for me, I guess that's why I've forgotten it all.
    CrazyWuWu CrazyWuWu
    18-21, M
    1 Response Mar 14, 2010

    I Repressed It

    at least the 70's portions of it.  Something very bad happened to me then.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    8 Responses May 14, 2009

    Wasn't That Bad, Wasn't That Good

    I'm only 16 currently, but still I only have one memory from anything before probably 12 or 13 and that was my tenth birthday party... that's about it. I'll see photos and sometimes wonder if whatever was going on in the photo actually happened, I have no recollection of any of...
    blueox blueox
    16-17
    Jan 18, 2010

    Its Kind Of Weird

     i cant remember certain things... i only remember maybe 10 things from when i was 10 and down... i dont remember being small...i dont remember much at all. i do remember all the people. i was always observant as a kid. always looking at things around me...i remember even...
    kittycat101303 kittycat101303
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Jan 14, 2010

    Broken Glass.

    For the most part, I have no memories. There are fragments here or there, but in whole, they mean nothing. I have one very clear memory though; I suppose the only proof that I even HAD a childhood. I can't share it sadly. No one would understand its significance.
    OblitusAuri OblitusAuri
    22-25, F
    6 Responses May 11, 2010

    Except the bad parts- like my mom sleeping in

    while I got up for school by myself, got myself ready alone, made my own lunch etc.. Sometimes when I'm getting my daughter ready for school in the morning I think of this and promise myself never to be like that.
    AriesFairy AriesFairy
    31-35, F
    Dec 9, 2013

    No Idea Why.

    I am 15 and I have almost no memory. I can recall a few events, but none of the details. I have no idea when or why this happened. All I know is that I do not remember anything about my past/childhood. I find it slightly comforting that I am not the only person like this, but at...
    LongBasher LongBasher
    13-15, M
    Aug 29, 2010

    Late Bloomer

    It's not that I don't remember it, it's just that I don't really like to think about it. I grew up painfully shy. I always let my Mom do all the talking for me. I never asked someone to hang out on my own, I always asked my Mom to call up my friends to arrange a "play date." (I...
    Elysiaaa Elysiaaa
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Mar 8, 2011

    Felt, But Not Remembered ...

    I've forgotten so much of my childhood, I forgot I even joined this group ... lol.I've remembered the important parts.  Not the details, just enough to make sense of it's impact.I've accepted I can't change it.I know I didn't deserve it.I'm ready to let it go now.As the rest of...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy
    51-55, F
    9 Responses Jan 4, 2011

    Never Had One

    I was in an accident when I was 15 years old.  That's as far back as I can really remember.  My parents are always telling me that I was a good kid before the accident.  They say I changed ( I guess that means I'm no good now).  I can't remember ever having a...
    boarderline boarderline
    36-40, F
    7 Responses Nov 18, 2008

    Blocked Out.

    I don't remember most of my childhood. Which I guess is a good thing, there are a lot of things that I don't want to remember.
    CowgirlBebop CowgirlBebop
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 10, 2012

    Empty Pages

    I am 22 almost 23 years old and i can't remember anything substantial from my childhood til about 3rd or 4th grade and i don't know why. this really bothers me. i remember a few things but most of what i remember i only remember cause i read or saw pictures or videos about it. I...
    yourfaceisyourface yourfaceisyourface
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 17, 2013

    Memory Loss

    I am 19 years old. My little sister is 16 and older sister is 23. I remember nothing at all from my childhood except things really big like my best friend and brother dying. or moving. They will talk about things that happened when i was 16 i should remember that i do not. ...
    lynn777 lynn777
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 12, 2009

    Un-cracked Shell

    I tend to forget my childhood years, why? Because my childhood is pretty much the one of the worst. Not that I was abuse or stuff, I just don't feel like a child back then. I mean I play and get hurt, but I really didn't feel my parents presence and love. My dad always want...
    sunsetglow sunsetglow
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 16, 2010

    That's What I Always Said

    When people would ask me about my childhood I would say that I didn't remember. The truth was that I did remember some, but I didn't want to remember more. And if I started recalling one memory, it would only lead to others. And I don't to go there. This past week someone...
    accomplice accomplice
    46-50, M
    4 Responses Nov 23, 2010

    I don't remember much - most are of me not

    wanting to be home for some reason, perhaps I just loved being outside exploring - I do remember lots of bad things... Being ignored... Anytime my siblings and I got in trouble, dad would come and talk to my two step sisters, say sorry to them and talk to them, never to me...
    dreamwithme55 dreamwithme55
    22-25, F
    Apr 28, 2014

    Not Much, Anyway.

    i repressed a lot of everything. now all that i do remember, i dont want to.
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme
    18-21, F
    May 28, 2012

    I only remember the fights,

    the fear, and detailed night terrors ( brutal murders in my house, dead bodies in my basement) from age 2-6. I'm still creeped out and confused about those dreams... Oh yeah and I forgot looking out the window until 2 am waiting for my mother to come home from night clubs until...
    dragthewaters4 dragthewaters4
    22-25, F
    Oct 29, 2014

    I had a concussion when I was a junior in high

    school it caused me to have amnesia. It took two days to remember who I was and left me with short term memory loss. Now I remember small things by someone telling me. With this I can honestly say I should "jumped the cliff" years ago so I wouldn't remember painful things. My...
    cittykatluv cittykatluv
    18-21, F
    Oct 6, 2014

    Do Not Remember.......

    I do not remember my childhood.....not much of it any ways, I come from a very abusive, tramatic back ground, both parents had substance abuse, so there was a lot of bad violence in the home, from my father, he was the abuser, Mom tried to sheild us best she could, as I am told...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Dec 9, 2010

    Its Gone

    Some people saw i got a grate membery and that they could never remember what i do. When truth be known i can remember very much of part of something in my childhood but the full memberys are gone i don't have a clue as to sometimes how the day wen't or what i did or said i dont...
    Deathsin Deathsin
    18-21, F
    Feb 14, 2013

    ...As Much As I Would Like To

    I remember several incidents from being little and a little girl very well. Others have faded away. It's kind of sad, that way. I can see the images in my childhood neighborhood if I close my eyes and concentrate...hard. Usually, I can see them when I'm falling asleep. But I...
    MaryJanine MaryJanine
    61-65, F
    Jun 19, 2013

    I Just Cant Remember...

    I do remember stories i have been told by my dad but that is it. I try to think back but all i see is a snap shot of the house we lived in and thats about it. I have been asked so many times lately about my childhood but i dont remember so i just make it up as i go along. The...
    falling27 falling27
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jul 22, 2008

    At Some Point In My Life I Chose To Forget

    At some point in my life I chose to forget. I was provably around 15 or 16. I lost myself in drugs, alcohol, work, school, fitness and anything else that would keep my mind occupied; now I am still doing the same thing. It keeps me pretty even most of the time but, it makes it...
    outdoorsman1980 outdoorsman1980
    31-35, M
    1 Response Apr 11, 2012

    Foggy

    I was at therapy the other day and my therapist asked me to remember a time when I felt that my mom loved me. I can't remember anything from my childhood. No feelings and very little memories. Of the ones that I do remember are about my brothers. I was too embarrassed to say that...
    thesewalls thesewalls
    13-15, F
    Apr 1, 2012

    I Had No Childhood, only Nightmare

     I don't recall my childhood except those scary stories told by some young wives in the neighbourhood who chilled with my teenage sister who actually brought me up and those scaring scenes and moments directed by them in a small village in Northeast China. What is worse is...
    Apoorplayer Apoorplayer
    46-50, F
    Jan 19, 2010

    No Clue Why, The Memories Just Aren't There.

    I don't think I had any trauma when I was small, I mean my dad would randomly snap and we would barricade our bedroom doors against him, often unsuccesfuly, but he never did any real physical damage. I just don't remember much of anything before I was about 9, and it's still only...
    MrWinstonSmith MrWinstonSmith
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Dec 17, 2012

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