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I Don't Remember My Childhood

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    Do Not Remember.......

    I do not remember my childhood.....not much of it any ways, I come from a very abusive, tramatic back ground, both parents had substance abuse, so there was a lot of bad violence in the home, from my father, he was the abuser, Mom tried to sheild us best she could, as I am told...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 3 Responses Dec 9, 2010

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    I Repressed It

    at least the 70's portions of it.  Something very bad happened to me then.
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses May 14, 2009

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    No Clue Why, The Memories Just Aren't There.

    I don't think I had any trauma when I was small, I mean my dad would randomly snap and we would barricade our bedroom doors against him, often unsuccesfuly, but he never did any real physical damage. I just don't remember much of anything before I was about 9, and it's still only...
    MrWinstonSmith MrWinstonSmith 22-25, M 2 Responses Dec 17, 2012

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    Not Much, Anyway.

    i repressed a lot of everything. now all that i do remember, i dont want to.
    monsterwithinme monsterwithinme 18-21, F May 28, 2012

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    Late Bloomer

    It's not that I don't remember it, it's just that I don't really like to think about it. I grew up painfully shy. I always let my Mom do all the talking for me. I never asked someone to hang out on my own, I always asked my Mom to call up my friends to arrange a "play date." (I...
    Elysiaaa Elysiaaa 18-21, F 9 Responses Mar 8, 2011

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    Bits And Pieces

    I do remember parts of my childhood, but they aren't very happy memories. My father leaving, my sister filling my bed with broken glass, being abused by my step-father. My memories from ages 5-12 are almost non-existent. Ya know how you may forget something, but a picture of the...
    lawlietismine25 lawlietismine25 18-21, F Jul 27, 2013

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    ...As Much As I Would Like To

    I remember several incidents from being little and a little girl very well. Others have faded away. It's kind of sad, that way. I can see the images in my childhood neighborhood if I close my eyes and concentrate...hard. Usually, I can see them when I'm falling asleep. But I...
    MaryJanine MaryJanine 56-60, F Jun 19, 2013

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    Most Of It

     I look at pictures of myself from the past and I can't believe that that was me. I don't remember those moments. What I do remember are fragments. Little bits and pieces but they still feel like my imagination. Both of good and bad. I guess its because I have...
    reset reset 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 18, 2010

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    Its Gone

    Some people saw i got a grate membery and that they could never remember what i do. When truth be known i can remember very much of part of something in my childhood but the full memberys are gone i don't have a clue as to sometimes how the day wen't or what i did or said i dont...
    Deathsin Deathsin 18-21, F Feb 14, 2013

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    Wasn't That Bad, Wasn't That Good

    I'm only 16 currently, but still I only have one memory from anything before probably 12 or 13 and that was my tenth birthday party... that's about it. I'll see photos and sometimes wonder if whatever was going on in the photo actually happened, I have no recollection of any of...
    blueox blueox 16-17 Jan 18, 2010

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    At Some Point In My Life I Chose To Forget

    At some point in my life I chose to forget. I was provably around 15 or 16. I lost myself in drugs, alcohol, work, school, fitness and anything else that would keep my mind occupied; now I am still doing the same thing. It keeps me pretty even most of the time but, it makes it...
    outdoorsman1980 outdoorsman1980 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 11, 2012

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    I only remember the fights,

    the fear, and detailed night terrors ( brutal murders in my house, dead bodies in my basement) from age 2-6. I'm still creeped out and confused about those dreams... Oh yeah and I forgot looking out the window until 2 am waiting for my mother to come home from night clubs until...
    dragthewaters4 dragthewaters4 18-21, F Oct 29

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    I don't remember much - most are of me not

    wanting to be home for some reason, perhaps I just loved being outside exploring - I do remember lots of bad things... Being ignored... Anytime my siblings and I got in trouble, dad would come and talk to my two step sisters, say sorry to them and talk to them, never to me...
    dreamwithme55 dreamwithme55 22-25, F Apr 28

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    Foggy

    I was at therapy the other day and my therapist asked me to remember a time when I felt that my mom loved me. I can't remember anything from my childhood. No feelings and very little memories. Of the ones that I do remember are about my brothers. I was too embarrassed to say that...
    thesewalls thesewalls 13-15, F Apr 1, 2012

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    Un-cracked Shell

    I tend to forget my childhood years, why? Because my childhood is pretty much the one of the worst. Not that I was abuse or stuff, I just don't feel like a child back then. I mean I play and get hurt, but I really didn't feel my parents presence and love. My dad always want...
    sunsetglow sunsetglow 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2010

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    I'm 20 Years Old And...

    I can barely remember my childhood. And not much of middle school. I don't think they were happy times for me, I guess that's why I've forgotten it all.
    CrazyWuWu CrazyWuWu 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 14, 2010

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    That's What I Always Said

    When people would ask me about my childhood I would say that I didn't remember. The truth was that I did remember some, but I didn't want to remember more. And if I started recalling one memory, it would only lead to others. And I don't to go there. This past week someone...
    accomplice accomplice 41-45, M 4 Responses Nov 23, 2010

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    I Just Cant Remember...

    I do remember stories i have been told by my dad but that is it. I try to think back but all i see is a snap shot of the house we lived in and thats about it. I have been asked so many times lately about my childhood but i dont remember so i just make it up as i go along. The...
    falling27 falling27 26-30, M 1 Response Jul 22, 2008

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    Never Had One

    I was in an accident when I was 15 years old.  That's as far back as I can really remember.  My parents are always telling me that I was a good kid before the accident.  They say I changed ( I guess that means I'm no good now).  I can't remember ever having a...
    boarderline boarderline 36-40, F 7 Responses Nov 18, 2008

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    Empty Pages

    I am 22 almost 23 years old and i can't remember anything substantial from my childhood til about 3rd or 4th grade and i don't know why. this really bothers me. i remember a few things but most of what i remember i only remember cause i read or saw pictures or videos about it. I...
    yourfaceisyourface yourfaceisyourface 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 17, 2013

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    Blocked Out.

    I don't remember most of my childhood. Which I guess is a good thing, there are a lot of things that I don't want to remember.
    CowgirlBebop CowgirlBebop 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 10, 2012

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    Except the bad parts- like my mom sleeping in

    while I got up for school by myself, got myself ready alone, made my own lunch etc.. Sometimes when I'm getting my daughter ready for school in the morning I think of this and promise myself never to be like that.
    AriesFairy AriesFairy 26-30, F Dec 9, 2013

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    So Many Disjointed Flashes Of Nothing.

    I'm 26 years old, and there is very little of my childhood that I can recall. There are little glimpses of memories here and there, but as soon as I find them, they seem to fade away. It's quite frustrating. I've considered attempting to construct a sort of timeline for myself...
    rachynymph rachynymph 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 5, 2010

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    I had a concussion when I was a junior in high

    school it caused me to have amnesia. It took two days to remember who I was and left me with short term memory loss. Now I remember small things by someone telling me. With this I can honestly say I should "jumped the cliff" years ago so I wouldn't remember painful things. My...
    cittykatluv cittykatluv 18-21, F Oct 6

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    No Idea Why.

    I am 15 and I have almost no memory. I can recall a few events, but none of the details. I have no idea when or why this happened. All I know is that I do not remember anything about my past/childhood. I find it slightly comforting that I am not the only person like this, but at...
    LongBasher LongBasher 13-15, M Aug 29, 2010

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    I Had No Childhood, only Nightmare

     I don't recall my childhood except those scary stories told by some young wives in the neighbourhood who chilled with my teenage sister who actually brought me up and those scaring scenes and moments directed by them in a small village in Northeast China. What is worse is...
    Apoorplayer Apoorplayer 46-50, F Jan 19, 2010

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    Memory Loss

    I am 19 years old. My little sister is 16 and older sister is 23. I remember nothing at all from my childhood except things really big like my best friend and brother dying. or moving. They will talk about things that happened when i was 16 i should remember that i do not. ...
    lynn777 lynn777 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 12, 2009

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    Felt, But Not Remembered ...

    I've forgotten so much of my childhood, I forgot I even joined this group ... lol.I've remembered the important parts.  Not the details, just enough to make sense of it's impact.I've accepted I can't change it.I know I didn't deserve it.I'm ready to let it go now.As the rest of...
    SeriouslySappy SeriouslySappy 51-55, F 9 Responses Jan 4, 2011

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    Broken Glass.

    For the most part, I have no memories. There are fragments here or there, but in whole, they mean nothing. I have one very clear memory though; I suppose the only proof that I even HAD a childhood. I can't share it sadly. No one would understand its significance.
    OblitusAuri OblitusAuri 22-25, F 7 Responses May 11, 2010

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    Its Kind Of Weird

     i cant remember certain things... i only remember maybe 10 things from when i was 10 and down... i dont remember being small...i dont remember much at all. i do remember all the people. i was always observant as a kid. always looking at things around me...i remember even...
    kittycat101303 kittycat101303 18-21, F 4 Responses Jan 14, 2010

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    I don't remember when it started I was really young, like 4 or 5, I have this one memory, that stays with me, I can't shake it, I'm in his room playing in the closet, with...
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    I don't remember where I came from and I don't know where I am going. What I do know, is that the journey in between has been an amazing roller-coaster of fun and fear, joy...
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    Laughing yes. But it was taken so fast that i seek more.
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    I had nightmares for a week about his ex-wife. As he sleep in bed next to me, I would toss and turn from dreams of them re-uniting. It didn't make it OK for me to look, but I did...
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    My mother is a special woman. I don't mean that sarcastically surprisingly. She is special- she just also did the equivalent of killing me. She is an awkward, emotionally confused...
    Anaihsohs Anaihsohs 18-21, F Nov 11

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    your the best .. I love how sure and confident you are of my felling towards you ,i love the looks on your eyes and the way you rub and hold my hands ,i love how simple,nice and...
    haithamgg haithamgg 18-21, M Oct 29

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    I've become someone I don't recognize anymore. I hate this person I've become. I don't remember when we met, or when I let her take control of my life.
    hacky2012 hacky2012 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 31

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    Luckily I'm on pretty amicable terms with people from my past, at least 98.9% of them including all my ex's. (I say 98.9% because I don't remember all of them). How is this...
    Roz2014 Roz2014 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 19

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    But it is. Everyday I wake up I think about my past. I can't move forward mentally. My brain is so consumed with my past self (childhood). I experienced so many trials as a kid...
    forestchild forestchild 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 30

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    I am so tired that I don't know what to do with my life. I didn't knew how much my childhood impacted me until this past few months where I feel so depressed. My family,however...
    RienneVille RienneVille 18-21, F 3 Responses Nov 11

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    "rebelious","strong headed","impulsive","weirdo"...i've been called by these words my whole life,and in fact i am used to hearing people around me saying things that truely hurt me...
    ahlambensaga ahlambensaga 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 3

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    So I have an older sister who lives about a three hour drive away from me, and every couple of months I stay with her & her husband and kids for a few days. On one of these little...
    trevb22 trevb22 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 12

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    Let me clarify that it FEELS like I don't fit in anywhere, esp. right now in my life, but I know I fit in somewhere and have fit-in society in the past. I live in America, the most...
    relating2u79 relating2u79 31-35, M 3 Responses Oct 31

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    To the God whom i thought i knew, We are an entire generation with the broken pieces of our religion scattered on the floor around us. We are the children who learned fake...
    Ellabella95 Ellabella95 18-21 1 Response 14 hrs ago

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    I have been this way for as long as I can remember. My life has only ever had snippets of definite direction. You might think I would be used to it by now, but no. There are times...
    Heellover Heellover 36-40, M 5 Responses Nov 3

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    I guess i don't fit in with my friends because i don't drink and do drugs. I really don't see how doing drugs makes you cool. I remember i was at my friends house and we went out...
    Nerdasuar Nerdasuar 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 14

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    Why do I get high? I don't even like it Anymore It's pretty stupid Inhaling smoke To warp your mind Entangle your thoughts I guess I'm stupid For smoking weed Or maybe everyone...
    nogoodnamesleft26 nogoodnamesleft26 16-17, T a week ago

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    I remember when I was 5 I was sitting outside and I looked up at my older sister and told her. I don't belong here, she looked at me and said what do you mean? I replied with I don...
    mikaleigh mikaleigh 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 2

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