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I Don't Think Anybody Knows The Real Me

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    Dont Call Me A Victim Im A Survivor

    When I was a child I was put in foster care while I was there I was raped everyday for 3 years by my cousins then husband. My little cousin [her daughter] just heard from her brother for the first time in her life. This is the son of the man who raped me now all these feelings...
    jessiejm jessiejm 36-40, F Sep 15, 2013

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    Dont Think, I Know

    Even I dont know the real me anymore. Ive never told anyone everything about me before, I never will. First I want to find everything else out about me. I dont even know the half of who I am. I dont control myself anymore. If I ever told someone, just one person everything about...
    ImOkayNow ImOkayNow 16-17, F Oct 7, 2011

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    I don't expect a lot of responses.

    I haven't found much on the internet, but I did find this app, so who knows. I am a middle-aged adult who wishes they were 5 years old again. So much so that I actually live it. I spend most of my time playing pretend and thinking like a child. As soon as I'm alone, I play...
    LittlestFrenchie LittlestFrenchie 31-35, F 1 Response Jul 9

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    The Field Trip

    When I was 9 years old I almost drown . It all started when these kids were daring me to go down a water slide and they told me how fun it is so I said Ill see how fun it is so I slide down .at first I was doing great until I started to panic about that I couldn't swim. How could...
    Ericadiana Ericadiana 13-15, F May 4, 2012

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    Nobody Understands!!

    you know,there is nothing much getting in the way of me trying to tell people how i feel,its just that for everything i do and for everything i say,i cant seem to find anyone that understands me!! everyone i know,seem to have at least a couple of things that they understand about...
    cowshed123 cowshed123 31-35, M 25 Responses Mar 20, 2012

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    Nobody knows the real me

    because they won't even take the time to even try to understand me
    WeShareTheSamePain WeShareTheSamePain 18-21, M 1 Response May 5

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    I have become insanely lonely

    but I make up stories to tell my "friends" so they think I have a life. I put friends in quotes because none of my friends are completely true; most of them are selfish, fake, and flakey. I am a massive klepto, and as I become more alone I resort to stealing as an outlet. I am...
    downspiral downspiral 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 15, 2013

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    It's Because

    I don't even know the real me yet..........
    CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 3, 2010

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    Nobody Can See The Pain Behind My Smile

    I grew up in a very abusive household. I mean every bad thing a child could go threw I went threw. I learned how to smile at everything. Now I don't know how not to smile at everything. People think im happy they don't see the pain they don't see me
    jessiejm jessiejm 36-40, F Sep 8, 2013

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    Changing, For Better Or For Worse.

    Nobody knows who I really am. I am in a constant state of metamorphoses, flitting from one personality to the next to please whomever I'm with at the moment. I'm done with it. I'm done with pleasing everyone else. I just want to be myself, and **** them if they don't like me. I'm...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 3, 2011

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    Darkness Hides Behind This Beautiful Smile And These Charming Eyes Of Mine

    I've never been bullied by strangers, in fact almost all the positive things in my life were done for me by strangers. But all of these kind strangers who entered my life never knew the real me and even after i befriended them they still didn't really know who i am! Instead they...
    OldSoulYoungBody OldSoulYoungBody 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8, 2012

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    Some Have Come Close...

    A few have gotten really close. Those who have been closest to Me have gotten the most broad look at who I am, what I'm about, and what I'm into. But, since life keeps changing, and so do I, I can't say that anyone really fully knows Me. I've not had anyone in My life long...
    aktor1970 aktor1970 41-45, M 1 Response Jul 21, 2013

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    I Don't Even Know The Real Me

    I've come to accept the fact that I'm a pretty weird person, but when the question arises "Tell me about yourself" It scares me to see that I know myself so little. This goes for my friends and family. I keep a lot of things hidden from them, and even more so with myself. You...
    aaawhyme aaawhyme 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 1, 2012

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    Me But Not Me

    I am a very logical person, and also I can and want to be very random at times. I don't like politics or speaking about religion because its pointless to me. It starts arguments like no other topics. Music has a lot of control over my life and my emotions it helps me in many ways...
    dejin1 dejin1 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 18, 2011

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    Not Even...

    ...me. I am so lost with who I am anymore. I don't want people even knowing me.
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 30, 2010

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    Why Just Why

    I don't understand why guys say they want a good woman but when they have a good woman who wants to be there for him the guy wants someone else. Im too old to pretend to not care in your face. Id rather walk away.
    jessiejm jessiejm 36-40, F Sep 13, 2013

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    No One Knows...

    I hide behind a mask of happiness all the time. Everyone thinks that I'm this, happy, optimistic person. When in reality, I'm crying silently inside. It kills me to act like a different person, I just need to talk to someone and have them understand me for who I really am. I want...
    saxgurl212 saxgurl212 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 6, 2012

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    Find Me.

    There are so many masks I wear just to cover what I don't want you to know. I have a mask to tell you that I'm ok even when my heart is starting to freeze in pain. I have a mask to show laughter even when what you just said hurt me so bad that I feel like crying. I have a mask to...
    Ilikeclouds Ilikeclouds 13-15, F Jul 31, 2011

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    Who You See Is Not What I Am

    You may see me but it’s not me When you see the good that’s not me. When you hear the positive things I say that’s not me. A lot of people pretend that are something that they are not Some find it fun others could be ignorant to the fact that it’s still deception You may...
    Babeondwy Babeondwy 41-45, F Jun 2, 2012

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    Shyness Getting In The Way

    I think nobody knows the real me cause I am just too shy. I find it so hard to open up. I usually keep everyone at an arm's length and prefer to be the quiet one who keeps his opinions to himself. But it's not even an everyday thing, my shyness waxes and wanes with some days...
    johnArgus johnArgus 22-25 Jan 7, 2012

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    alyssabay alyssabay 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 9

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    Funny Isn't It?

    I was talking to this classmate of mine..let's call her T. Over the past days we had gotten to know each other more and I felt like we became friends. She was funny and quirky, it was refreshing from the usual. Then one day during lunch we began talking more toward personal...
    Ilikeclouds Ilikeclouds 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 26, 2012

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    Utterly Senseless.......

    my head is hurting real bad and sometime all i can think is to tape everyone'e mouth around me and force them to shut up...........!!!!!!!!!! what kind of life we are living..........dying daily in order to be peaceful and calm............!!!! there is no calm............nothing...
    destinygirl22 destinygirl22 26-30, F 2 Responses Apr 18, 2012

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    I feel like this had become a theme in my life.

    I genuinely want to be known and loved for who I am, but I often fear getting too close to people. I don't have many friends, and the ones I do have don't know me as well as I wish they did. I just want more open, honest relationships so I can **** up and actually have someone...
    firefly1991 firefly1991 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 26

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    No One Sees The Real Me

    i have been mentally scared in the past which still haunts me. I think the only person who really knows me is my mam and my best friend. I can have a heart a goal., and really do try my best alway to make people happy before myself. But since ive been scared (as i like to call it...
    Anon654 Anon654 16-17 Jan 25, 2011

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    Nobody opens up to me

    so why would I open up to people who don't trust me.
    stortos stortos 16-17, F 1 Response Jul 9

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    Throughout my years on earth,

    I've worn so many masks sometimes I don't remember what my real personality is. Maybe all of them are me? Maybe none of them are me? I guess I'll never figure that out.
    TheBlazingRedAugust TheBlazingRedAugust 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 15

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    Not All Of Me

    I think people have difficulty putting all the different bits of me together into one person there are so many contradictions. The dirty little pervert with a facination for ******** baiting, dating escorts, webcam fun, multiple **** buddies and drinking is actually...
    Ketsan Ketsan 31-35, M 2 Responses Jun 28, 2010

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    Am I Alone

    When I was little people would look at me all weird like in was a alien. I knew there weren't a lot of people like me
    Ericadiana Ericadiana 13-15, F May 4, 2012

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    If You Did...

    You would see what I'm going through, you wouldn't walk away and leave me hanging here waiting to see if you know. You wouldn't tell a joke thinking that I will laugh along just like I always pretend to do. You wouldn't tell me to stop acting so emotional.You wouldn't think that...
    Ilikeclouds Ilikeclouds 13-15, F Jul 30, 2011

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    Im Either

    Going to be alone for the rest of my life, OR just  settle for being only one way around certain people. Why is it that  people SCREAM about being taken for who they are, being accepted flaws and all, or how they like  differences in folks, yet I live this way by getting to...
    zalya zalya 36-40, F Apr 29, 2012

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    shimmersandsparkles shimmersandsparkles 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 5

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    No one knows, but I'm very insecure.

    Looking at me you wouldn't be able to tell, I'm a cheerleader, I'm usually surrounded by people but when I'm not I'm content with being alone, a lot of people know me.. But no one really knows me. I'm afraid.. I'm afraid of bring alone, not just standing by myself or going...
    avagrace03 avagrace03 13-15, F Jul 9

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    kaye23e kaye23e 22-25, F 2 Responses Mar 23

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    My husband always pretends to want to 'get to

    know me' but if I ever of share things he simply won't recall a single thing I said later. It's like we always stand on the same spot in our relationship, whereas I feel the connection should deepen as the years pass by.
    squirrelbounce squirrelbounce 36-40, F Jul 9

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    Little Me

    I am baby1birdstar I think this world is a special place but so hard.i am 3 some times and 18 some times to.some of you will not get that if you are not a abdl.i don’t where diapers but go to this site. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mCcNi9a3pOo .and you will see what I...
    baby1birdstar baby1birdstar 18-21, T Oct 3, 2010

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    The Real Me?

    I sometimes think that not even my fiance, Sam knows the real me. There's just so much rage and hate pent up inside me and half the time, I want to punch someone in the face or shout at them and tell them terrible, awful things. But if you met me, I'd be perfectly pleasant and...
    Meeoko Meeoko 18-21, F 3 Responses May 30, 2010

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    Except

    I don't think anybody knows the real me except for God and my husband.  I think my hubby knows me more then I know myself.
    Whateverrrrr Whateverrrrr 36-40, F 4 Responses Oct 17, 2010

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    Because not even me knows !

    We are rivers flowing and our waters changes with everyday experiences.How many "me"s there is? I think just one...the present one.
    4biandu 4biandu 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 9

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    I Don't Even Know Myself

    "There's nothing in the way I walk that could tell you where I'm going, There's nothing in the words I speak that can betray anything I'm knowing, Don't think about the way I dress, you can fit me on a labelled shelf, Don't pretend that you know me 'cause I don't even know myself...
    jjia25 jjia25 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 20, 2010

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    Diffrent Me

    ever since i was young i have realized that im diffrent from everyone else and i didnt fit in i created a whole new me for at school then at home i was pretty much a "hoe" without being one at school to get attention and for people to notice me and at home i was shy the problem...
    xxsuperlexi101xx xxsuperlexi101xx 16-17 Mar 3, 2011

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    I just don't. I don't think anybody's irredeemable or should just be written off.
    GeorgiaMackay GeorgiaMackay 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 1

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    whenever i try to please my parents by striving for my best in many ways, i would always end up in an argument with them, said being too immature. i don't think i am immature, why...
    yunisaurus yunisaurus 13-15, F Aug 22

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    3:30am and I'm awake in tears, I can't stop my mind from throwing the recent past in my face. Dating a recovering drug addict is so hard especially when he has messed up and hurt...
    secretdestiny secretdestiny 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 11

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    i don't think i'm all that attractive, and it upsets me cause i want to be, but alas my appearance does not match Americas standards of beauty in any regard
    Superwholockian Superwholockian 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 19

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    I haven't even noticed this until now but I'm always sad or upset. Even the people around me can see it in my face and in my eyes. They say I always look like I'm upset or sad and...
    NaNaJene NaNaJene 16-17, F Aug 26

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    I don't think that when people grow up, they will become morebroad-minded and can accept everything. Conversely, I think it's aselecting process, knowing what's the most important...
    QearlLee QearlLee 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 1

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    I don't think I'm better than anyone. I'm just me.
    kkmds kkmds 31-35, F Sep 4

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    I don't think I'm ever going to get to the point of where I can stare myself in the mirror and like what I see. The longer I stand there the more reasons come up for me to hate...
    MississippiChick18 MississippiChick18 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 6

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    Something i cant control Im fine as long as i don't think to much about things, i have never liked change and struggle to except things thrown at me at short notice Just recently...
    ExtremeNext ExtremeNext 26-30, F 5 Responses 5 days ago

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    I don't believe I will ever feel better. I will always be sad and lonely. I have tried everything I can think of to heal my broken heart. But, no matter what I try, it's only a...
    Beth1218 Beth1218 46-50 1 Response Sep 4

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    My mom has always called me fat and I'm not I'm 5ft 8 and wear a size 10 to 12 UK so I don't understand. I'm curvy I have huge boobs and sometimes can even get into a size 8. My...
    daniellaafelumo daniellaafelumo 22-25, F 1 Response Aug 24

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