I Don't Think He Ever Really Cared About Me

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    Butterfly

    Butterfly, you think that love can be measured in a cup I wish I would take back half I gave to you I hear the rhythm of your heart and it does not beat for me She knows your pain shares your weaknesses I could never would rather die made different choices It is okay in life to...
    natalie343 natalie343
    31-35, F
    Jan 16, 2013

    Chameleon

    You are not the man you portray yourself to be You hide behind lies and smoke filled guise You were deceptive to a pure heart wasting precious time when you are unsettled in your thoughts and feelings The bond you share with another can not compare with the love you claim you...
    natalie343 natalie343
    31-35, F
    Jan 16, 2013

    2 Different Worlds

    my last boyfriend was not exactly my type, but he made me laugh and treated me well for a long time. when we were around his friends, he was always very close to me. very protective. but when we were alone, we'd run out of things to say to each other. we didn't have many of the...
    damagedsoul damagedsoul
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 18, 2008

    Numb Pain

    As the soldiers of pain stand in parallel to do battle I have secured all post with my guards As the river desires to reside permanently in the depths of the crevices within my face I hide within self ashamed that I once again allowed my power to be stolen by another As the enemy...
    natalie343 natalie343
    31-35, F
    Jan 16, 2013

    The Fire

    Smoke invaded my lungs in such a forceful way I stand screaming moving with no direction Then the cool breath of fresh air like candy to my lungs I told you then looking the damages I wanted us to leave I still see the damages all around me and I cry at the memory You say...
    natalie343 natalie343
    31-35, F
    Jan 11, 2013

    I do remember him saying a few times,

    "call me", but that's it. He never really cared for me did he. Did he? It would be great if I could read minds, it would be really great. He'll never get how insecure I am, how sad I am that he doesn't get it, how depressed I am. Am I really so hard to understand?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 21, 2015

    We Can Start Out New!! I Promise!!

     i will say again, i posted this story thing in the "i am too attached" i still am like in love with a guy that did everything possible to let me know he doesn't like me. I just keep holding like one day he will love me back and everything will be okay...
    rainbowclouds rainbowclouds
    18-21, F
    1 Response Aug 31, 2009

    ....

    not the way i believed he did.     but its ok. it is. we rarely talk now. i miss him. he did care. just for the wrong reasons and in the wrong ways.
    Tesse Tesse
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Dec 18, 2008

    He Never Loved Me Like I Loved Him.

    It really makes me sad - well mostly angry - when i think about him. Especially since i am still so attracted to him. I do think he is a beautiful person - but also very cruel - and simply not for me. We looked for completely different people in a partner. I'm aware of that...
    jasminjane jasminjane
    18-21, F
    7 Responses Dec 18, 2008

    Its A Pain In The A**

    It is so hard you when you already had tried some effort to do something for him, but later on it is useless. Unrequited love is something was being reaped out. What the hell I can do? It is after all it’s my fault anyway that’s why he doesn’t love me back. I have many...
    Eureka85 Eureka85
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Nov 1, 2011

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