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I Don't Think I Have the Courage to Be Who I Want to Be

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    ....or the motivation.

    .. Or the ability. I'm an absolute toilet bowl of a mess.
    ifearsnowmen ifearsnowmen 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 22

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    whenever i try to please my parents by striving

    for my best in many ways, i would always end up in an argument with them, said being too immature. i don't think i am immature, why can't they understand what truly is my desire to achieve? i did try to bond more with my family numerous times before, yet nothing seems to work...
    yunisaurus yunisaurus 13-15, F Aug 22

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    Please Help Me (blog Repost)

    I'm freaking out again! I really can't decide anything! I'm in the Army, but I haven't shipped out yet! But I'm positive I only joined because I'm not smart enough for college! I want to get out! I want out! I can't live without my computer! I'm so afraid my boyfriend will...
    OrbManson OrbManson 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 30, 2010

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    It's mostly out of fear of being judged.

    But I'm getting better at it. Very, very slowly.
    Reallifeperson Reallifeperson 22-25, M Sep 11

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    Taking The Step Out

    Well all my life I always thought that I would be a buisnessman or a scientist or a doctor. Recently though I've found out that I'm a good singer and writer. I never thought I would be happy doing any of those other jobs, but I've always loved singing and prefoming. I have the...
    MariusValjean MariusValjean 18-21, M Jan 23, 2010

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    Not For The Lack Of Trying

    I want to be the mysterious social lady at the party that everyone wants to know more about. I want the aura that attracts people to you and gives off a confident feeling. I want to dye my hair blond and wear beautiful clothing. Be able to have the confidence to presue what I...
    LittleSunGirl LittleSunGirl 18-21 2 Responses May 15, 2011

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    I Won't Ever Be Who I Want To Be

    People always tell me that I can do... and I can be who I want but I'm not sure if I can anymore. I'm too shy and I've got no confidence at all really.. I'm too scared to do anything.. even the most simple things because I'm scared of failing and being a disappointment. I...
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 19, 2010

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    I Never Thought I Did

    But now I think I do, and more importantly, always have. I have never been afraid to be myself, happy to be different and different from other's. But for a long time I thought I didn't have the courage to be who I want to be and live my dreams. But now, I think I do. I just need...
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 22-25, M Dec 5, 2012

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    It's so strange I'm crazy confident,

    around certain people and cripplingly shy around others, I've lost a lot do to my shyness and I don't want to lose anymore so if anyone has any advice on building confidence in high school, I'm open to it
    shaunrain shaunrain 16-17, M 1 Response Aug 22

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    Courage Is Just One Small Part

    To be honest I am not sure if I should post here, but I am going to anyway and have people tell me to go bug off. So I know that courage is a part of it. However, in all honesty I lack a couple of other things needed to be who I want to be as well. The very first is any kind of...
    ForgottenMale ForgottenMale 26-30, M Jun 15, 2013

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    midorijane midorijane 16-17, T 1 Response Nov 8

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    To look through someone's diary, just because it's left on the table. Why does EP allow anyone to look in your activity log without your permission. When a friend goes searching...
    hopefullz1 hopefullz1 51-55, M 2 Responses Oct 31

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    confuziiled confuziiled 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 3

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    wabbey wabbey 13-15 2 Responses Nov 3

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    I live with my mother but I never been in the habit of telling her my personal stuff. I just don't like it. My friend recently got a boyfriend, so she's too busy with him. My...
    moonstruckdelight moonstruckdelight 41-45, F 1 Response Nov 8

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    I really need help and I want somebody willing to help me. Thank you.
    gracegodduaghter gracegodduaghter 16-17, F 15 hrs ago

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    I just want unconditional love .. a love where there is no pain and abuse . an unbreakable type of love where nothing could tear apart the two .. but that isnt reality .. that is...
    imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty 18-21, F 4 Responses Nov 4

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    Well am not sure how this topic even qualifies to be an experience.. coz it's not really an experience but rather an individual's preference.. So it doesn't really matter whether...
    uselessguy uselessguy 36-40, M Nov 3

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    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 3

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    siraj2888 siraj2888 22-25, M Nov 5

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    Is it too much to ask for? Love? Devotion? Adoration? Respect? Companionship? I am capable of it so ( I hope) there must be someone out there who can return the emotions to me. I...
    Etheros Etheros 46-50, F 2 Responses Nov 5

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    mamaberry27 mamaberry27 31-35, F 2 Responses Nov 5

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    ... "Bleh." That's all I can think when I see myself x3 Whoo..
    C5PiE C5PiE 13-15, F 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    Guys who smoke are mostly irresponsible.. Their breath suxks too .. Bruh😑
    nonorawi nonorawi 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 3

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    I lived... I loved... And i cried all because of loving you. I cared for you but you never noticed. I stare at you but u never look back. I say hi to you, you never noticed me. I...
    ikayla123 ikayla123 13-15, F Nov 4

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    Cigar company ruins everything by giving a cool image, on every cigar advertisement, (like malrb*** with that cool cowboy ads) only dumb people eaten those ads wholly, and started...
    Weepinguy Weepinguy 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 4

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    In fact I know. All this time I read the signs wrong. All the long conversations, imitation of body language, doing what I say, bring me chocolates! AND! Turns out, he is dating my...
    SpiritualBunny SpiritualBunny 22-25, F Nov 14

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    The real me is outgoing,kind,and caring. But everyone thinks of me as quiet and shy
    metalchick18 metalchick18 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 28

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    Sometimes I just do not think. And it sometimes backfires then that's when I realize it probably wasn't smart to do.
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