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I Don't Think I Have the Courage to Be Who I Want to Be

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    I Never Thought I Did

    But now I think I do, and more importantly, always have. I have never been afraid to be myself, happy to be different and different from other's. But for a long time I thought I didn't have the courage to be who I want to be and live my dreams. But now, I think I do. I just need...
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 22-25, M Dec 5, 2012

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    Please Help Me (blog Repost)

    I'm freaking out again! I really can't decide anything! I'm in the Army, but I haven't shipped out yet! But I'm positive I only joined because I'm not smart enough for college! I want to get out! I want out! I can't live without my computer! I'm so afraid my boyfriend will...
    OrbManson OrbManson 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 30, 2010

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    I Won't Ever Be Who I Want To Be

    People always tell me that I can do... and I can be who I want but I'm not sure if I can anymore. I'm too shy and I've got no confidence at all really.. I'm too scared to do anything.. even the most simple things because I'm scared of failing and being a disappointment. I...
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 19, 2010

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    Not For The Lack Of Trying

    I want to be the mysterious social lady at the party that everyone wants to know more about. I want the aura that attracts people to you and gives off a confident feeling. I want to dye my hair blond and wear beautiful clothing. Be able to have the confidence to presue what I...
    LittleSunGirl LittleSunGirl 18-21 2 Responses May 15, 2011

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    It's mostly out of fear of being judged.

    But I'm getting better at it. Very, very slowly.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 11, 2014

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    Taking The Step Out

    Well all my life I always thought that I would be a buisnessman or a scientist or a doctor. Recently though I've found out that I'm a good singer and writer. I never thought I would be happy doing any of those other jobs, but I've always loved singing and prefoming. I have the...
    MariusValjean MariusValjean 18-21, M Jan 23, 2010

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    ....or the motivation.

    .. Or the ability. I'm an absolute toilet bowl of a mess.
    ifearsnowmen ifearsnowmen 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 22, 2014

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    whenever i try to please my parents by striving

    for my best in many ways, i would always end up in an argument with them, said being too immature. i don't think i am immature, why can't they understand what truly is my desire to achieve? i did try to bond more with my family numerous times before, yet nothing seems to work...
    yunisaurus yunisaurus 13-15, F Aug 22, 2014

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    It's so strange I'm crazy confident,

    around certain people and cripplingly shy around others, I've lost a lot do to my shyness and I don't want to lose anymore so if anyone has any advice on building confidence in high school, I'm open to it
    shaunrain shaunrain 18-21, M Aug 22, 2014

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    Courage Is Just One Small Part

    To be honest I am not sure if I should post here, but I am going to anyway and have people tell me to go bug off. So I know that courage is a part of it. However, in all honesty I lack a couple of other things needed to be who I want to be as well. The very first is any kind of...
    ForgottenMale ForgottenMale 26-30, M Jun 15, 2013

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    I don't say that to be self deprecating or to put myself down in any way. I just think I'm sort of average. And that's ok. I think one the ways we find contentment is we face...
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    These last couple of days have been the worst of my life, I found a lump in my underarm, I was worried but enough to go to the doc, but not that much. Cancer goes in my family, but...
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    My biggest fear is that I'll marry and have kids with someone who wakes up one day and decides they don't love me anymore.
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    I'm 20 yrs old already and I've never loved. I'm starting to think I'll die sad and alone and that I'm incapable of love. I'm miserable and it gets worse each year. I feel even...
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    It shouldn't bother me because you explained it me.. That you've known her forever, that you guys have been through several difficult times but I can not help it. It bothers me...
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    I think older men have a lot to teach younger guys like me. Besides, they appreciate me more :)
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    my parents always say stuff to me that they sometimes regret having me they ALWAYS shout at me all the people at school think I have a great life AMAZING parents But no its so not...
    sonalichaggar2003 sonalichaggar2003 13-15, F Mar 7

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    I think it is life experience that indicates intelligence over Grades.
    sroonaka616 sroonaka616 18-21 3 Responses Mar 13

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    I think I need a life accountability group!!!
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    I wouldn't, most of my family wouldn't. No one really would. They'd put on a nice, depressing show for a funeral, then go back to their now free lives. And I'd just be in my happy...
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    I paid to play again and again. ...I'm left with broken tickets broken promises and a broken heart
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    When I first arrived here., I remember seeing a dear friend....fungirlmmm (never sure how many M's :).... Anyhoo..... I noticed she had lots....and I mean lots of experiences...
    expressomarkie expressomarkie 46-50, M 2 Responses Mar 5

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    Well, with some of her songs you can tell she wrote them from her heart such as "bed of lies".however some of her songs such as anaconda are just pure trash.Also, if you listen to...
    coolio12234 coolio12234 31-35, F Mar 5

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    At least I was....now I'm pretty sure five-year-olds are smarter than me XD
    AKALadyRed AKALadyRed 16-17, F Mar 10

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    Nobody would defenitely miss me... :/
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    More and more people that I knew in high school are getting engaged or are settling down with someone. I'm not ready to start dealing with this
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    Death, it is a main factor in our lives. In my opinion, death is the center of many things in human life and society, like the principle of “carpe diem” (enjoy the present...
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    I saw this caption type thing today about a girl who killed herself recently and the whole thing was just saying how everyone is too late and how no one speaks up and asks if...
    yoursecretlifestylee yoursecretlifestylee 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 22

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