I Don't Think I Have the Courage to Be Who I Want to Be

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    I Won't Ever Be Who I Want To Be

    People always tell me that I can do... and I can be who I want but I'm not sure if I can anymore. I'm too shy and I've got no confidence at all really.. I'm too scared to do anything.. even the most simple things because I'm scared of failing and being a disappointment. I...
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 19, 2010

    I Never Thought I Did

    But now I think I do, and more importantly, always have. I have never been afraid to be myself, happy to be different and different from other's. But for a long time I thought I didn't have the courage to be who I want to be and live my dreams. But now, I think I do. I just need...
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp
    26-30, M
    Dec 5, 2012

    Please Help Me (blog Repost)

    I'm freaking out again! I really can't decide anything! I'm in the Army, but I haven't shipped out yet! But I'm positive I only joined because I'm not smart enough for college! I want to get out! I want out! I can't live without my computer! I'm so afraid my boyfriend will...
    OrbManson OrbManson
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 30, 2010

    Not For The Lack Of Trying

    I want to be the mysterious social lady at the party that everyone wants to know more about. I want the aura that attracts people to you and gives off a confident feeling. I want to dye my hair blond and wear beautiful clothing. Be able to have the confidence to presue what I...
    LittleSunGirl LittleSunGirl
    18-21
    2 Responses May 15, 2011

    It's so strange I'm crazy confident,

    around certain people and cripplingly shy around others, I've lost a lot do to my shyness and I don't want to lose anymore so if anyone has any advice on building confidence in high school, I'm open to it
    shaunrain shaunrain
    18-21, M
    Aug 22, 2014

    whenever i try to please my parents by striving

    for my best in many ways, i would always end up in an argument with them, said being too immature. i don't think i am immature, why can't they understand what truly is my desire to achieve? i did try to bond more with my family numerous times before, yet nothing seems to work...
    yunisaurus yunisaurus
    13-15, F
    Aug 22, 2014

    ....or the motivation.

    .. Or the ability. I'm an absolute toilet bowl of a mess.
    ifearsnowmen ifearsnowmen
    18-21, M
    1 Response Aug 22, 2014

    It's mostly out of fear of being judged.

    But I'm getting better at it. Very, very slowly.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Sep 11, 2014

    Taking The Step Out

    Well all my life I always thought that I would be a buisnessman or a scientist or a doctor. Recently though I've found out that I'm a good singer and writer. I never thought I would be happy doing any of those other jobs, but I've always loved singing and prefoming. I have the...
    MariusValjean MariusValjean
    18-21, M
    Jan 23, 2010

    Courage Is Just One Small Part

    To be honest I am not sure if I should post here, but I am going to anyway and have people tell me to go bug off. So I know that courage is a part of it. However, in all honesty I lack a couple of other things needed to be who I want to be as well. The very first is any kind of...
    ForgottenMale ForgottenMale
    26-30, M
    Jun 15, 2013

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    26-30, M
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    16-17, F
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    flibsley flibsley
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    renewed2015 renewed2015
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    GabbyWoodBerry GabbyWoodBerry
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    DickerSchreiber DickerSchreiber
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    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    26-30
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    I don't have to be grateful if I don't want to. I don't have to be grateful that I'm cuter and richer than all of you! so stop telling me to be :)
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    13-15, F
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