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I Don't Think I Have the Courage to Be Who I Want to Be

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 135 People

    Courage Is Just One Small Part

    To be honest I am not sure if I should post here, but I am going to anyway and have people tell me to go bug off. So I know that courage is a part of it. However, in all honesty I lack a couple of other things needed to be who I want to be as well. The very first is any kind of...
    ForgottenMale ForgottenMale 26-30, M Jun 15, 2013

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    It's mostly out of fear of being judged.

    But I'm getting better at it. Very, very slowly.
    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 11, 2014

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    whenever i try to please my parents by striving

    for my best in many ways, i would always end up in an argument with them, said being too immature. i don't think i am immature, why can't they understand what truly is my desire to achieve? i did try to bond more with my family numerous times before, yet nothing seems to work...
    yunisaurus yunisaurus 13-15, F Aug 22, 2014

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    Not For The Lack Of Trying

    I want to be the mysterious social lady at the party that everyone wants to know more about. I want the aura that attracts people to you and gives off a confident feeling. I want to dye my hair blond and wear beautiful clothing. Be able to have the confidence to presue what I...
    LittleSunGirl LittleSunGirl 18-21 2 Responses May 15, 2011

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    I Won't Ever Be Who I Want To Be

    People always tell me that I can do... and I can be who I want but I'm not sure if I can anymore. I'm too shy and I've got no confidence at all really.. I'm too scared to do anything.. even the most simple things because I'm scared of failing and being a disappointment. I...
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 19, 2010

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    ....or the motivation.

    .. Or the ability. I'm an absolute toilet bowl of a mess.
    ifearsnowmen ifearsnowmen 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 22, 2014

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    It's so strange I'm crazy confident,

    around certain people and cripplingly shy around others, I've lost a lot do to my shyness and I don't want to lose anymore so if anyone has any advice on building confidence in high school, I'm open to it
    shaunrain shaunrain 18-21, M Aug 22, 2014

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    I Never Thought I Did

    But now I think I do, and more importantly, always have. I have never been afraid to be myself, happy to be different and different from other's. But for a long time I thought I didn't have the courage to be who I want to be and live my dreams. But now, I think I do. I just need...
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 22-25, M Dec 5, 2012

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    Taking The Step Out

    Well all my life I always thought that I would be a buisnessman or a scientist or a doctor. Recently though I've found out that I'm a good singer and writer. I never thought I would be happy doing any of those other jobs, but I've always loved singing and prefoming. I have the...
    MariusValjean MariusValjean 18-21, M Jan 23, 2010

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    Please Help Me (blog Repost)

    I'm freaking out again! I really can't decide anything! I'm in the Army, but I haven't shipped out yet! But I'm positive I only joined because I'm not smart enough for college! I want to get out! I want out! I can't live without my computer! I'm so afraid my boyfriend will...
    OrbManson OrbManson 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 30, 2010

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    Related Experiences

    Just my opinion, but I don't think most of us know who we really are. We think we can hit it pretty close based on our perceptions and the perceptions of those close to us, but as...
    Extant1 Extant1 51-55, M 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    More to the point, I don't think people should police others based on their genitalia. In some areas of my life, I am quite feminine. I also have a few "masculine" characteristics...
    notthis78 notthis78 36-40, F Feb 10

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    So I haven't been going to church in awhile. I keep telling myself that I will go but never do. I think I have doubts about God existing. I've been wondering if I really believe in...
    DiamondInTheSkye DiamondInTheSkye 18-21, F Jan 26

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    When I was little, my twin sister and I were BEST friends, (Her name is Nevaeh) even though we did have our "small" issues now and then. Before Nevaeh and I started kindergarten...
    HeavenElizabeth6262 HeavenElizabeth6262 13-15, F 2 Responses Feb 16

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    Do we keep a part of selves hidden for fear of rejection and getting hurt? Why is it so hard to just put myself out there for all to see? Naked and vulnerable. Even here on EP...
    dancingWATERz dancingWATERz 51-55, F 13 Responses Feb 10

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    Tough. Fiery. Brash. Intelligent. Strong. Confident. That's how the world sees me. Inside....total opposite. Scared? Lonely? Even frightened. My own worst enemy? Absolutely...
    darlaseekspeace darlaseekspeace 46-50, F 1 day ago

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    This is how she dresses normally when we have guests, especially her coworkers.She isn't so pretty daily in home, but she's told me that all women in her office dress well to...
    Merovingiox Merovingiox 26-30, M 30 Responses Jan 28

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    I don't have a sexual orientation. A lot of people who are closed minded have an issue with this. I don't feel like anyone can wrap their mind around it.
    ShayMitch ShayMitch 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I'm a really caring person, and i will drop everything to make someone else feel better. I care for people, but the problem is, they don't bother to see past the ******* part.
    kingbrizo kingbrizo 18-21 22 hrs ago

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    I need to be on it to continue living (requirement I must be getting medical treatment to be paid for not working) But I don't even think they work and haven't in a very long time...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 1 Response Feb 16

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    The best way to get through pain is to not think about it, right? Just try to ignore it as it either intensifies or dissipates. I can't think about life or people or dreams or...
    Guest4111 Guest4111 13-15, M a week ago

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    I think it is more about missing a connection - emotional or physical. I think there are many of us who can occupy their time quite efficiently. Yet, you want someone to come...
    moonchild0315 moonchild0315 36-40, F 2 Responses Jan 28

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    There are numerous older men in the world who are single and seeking someone special in their life. For all such men, AgeMeet.com has been created as a reliable online platform to...
    angiestong angiestong 26-30, F 20 hrs ago

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    here is what i think of trans people. A person born biologically a gender but they act a lot like the opposite gender. well if people didn't define what males are suppose to act...
    daniel147 daniel147 13-15, M Feb 13

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    I suffer from body dismorphic disorder, and that's the worst thing ever. It's literally -100 on the self-esteem scale. It can seriouslly ruin your life and relationships. I hope...
    HelenTheWolfy HelenTheWolfy 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    People say why do you choose to be gay, when in fact they have no idea what they are talking about,it is not a choice, it is life, we are all different, you did not choose to be...
    nathchalk97 nathchalk97 16-17, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I am passionate and sensual. I love to submerge myself in an experience. I also sensitive and fragile, though I appear to be strong. I am not a toy, a maid, a cook. I can cook...
    simplyafriend simplyafriend 41-45, F 1 day ago

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    Clearly some think that's what experience project is about? If their popularity is taken away they create an almighty stink!
    ALaCoit ALaCoit 31-35, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    This applies really when I'm home. Love my dad and grammy though but still.
    ForTheFallen ForTheFallen 22-25, M 16 hrs ago

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    confident.. happy within myself.. nothing bothers me. I've let that be a complete lie towards everyone in my life I'm just really good a faking it.. not even my best friend or my...
    Rachxox Rachxox 22-25, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    Public schools systems, colleges, and universities take the day off for Columbus Day (at least everywhere I've lived). But not Veteran's Day! Really? I could go for ever about...
    cmh229 cmh229 36-40, M Jan 26

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    Yes, I've changed. Pain does that to people....
    lovebug19980 lovebug19980 18-21, F 5 Responses Jan 28

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    Unless you happen to live next door to a golf course...
    kangaroo32 kangaroo32 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 29

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    Try to up my medicine and my doctor just ignores me. Asks how I'm going with it and I said "I'd like to up my dose to be honest" and he just smirks and changes the conversation...
    1lonelydaisy 1lonelydaisy 41-45 Feb 18

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    I like looking at wedding dresses even though I'll probably never get married. Is that pathetic or what
    Madison18 Madison18 18-21, F 4 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    I wish I had more time to spend on EP
    jekypeters jekypeters 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 2

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    Dear World, Dear God, Dear Buddha, Dear whoever or whatever you are out there, I am listening as of now. I applied for a fast food job and got an interview - and hired. That was...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife 26-30, M Feb 11

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    I can't stand being with my boyfriend any longer, but I don't know if I can leave him...I'm too afraid to let go. So this is our story: We're at a long distance relationship...
    Bitterlove Bitterlove 16-17, F Feb 10

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    I've been fat my whole life. I have no idea what it's like to be skinny. But I do know what it's like to not be able to do the things the skinny people do. I'd like to think I'm...
    wefallbutoursoulsfly wefallbutoursoulsfly 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 29

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    I get absolutely NO enjoyment out of being a part of a family, especially. "Oh, it's Christmas? So that means I have to see my cousin? Why?" No thanks to obligatory family...
    FrauTeller FrauTeller 26-30, F 4 days ago

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    This is kinda hard to write about just because it is embarrassing. .. I mean what 18 year old doesn't have friends?? I try and I have tried my whole life but nothing seems to...
    JaneEbony JaneEbony 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    Yuck. I feel like crap. Went out with some friends last night & although it was great to see them, I don't miss the bar scene or The drinking. They kept buying drink after drink...
    Stickwithmebabe Stickwithmebabe 36-40, F 3 Responses Jan 31

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    I don't think I'll be adding anyone really because I'm not looking for online relationships, I've tried them before and I'm not really good at them. I tend to walk away after a...
    louisetiger1 louisetiger1 31-35, F 2 Responses Feb 2

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    I love singing. I can sing all day and I do it VERY well. I had never had any one tell me to stop singing, but when my husband told me to stop because he needed a break, I felt...
    ElledaDreamer ElledaDreamer 22-25, F Feb 3

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    I guess you could argue that I brought it on myself, that it's a choice. Then again, I still don't think there's anything wrong with being an idealist. Back in the day when I was...
    SpaceTurtle SpaceTurtle 31-35, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I have no relationship with my father...he left when I Was six...he told me he was just going to do a job...then he left and only came back every other day. Those visits became...
    ChrisLN99 ChrisLN99 13-15, M Feb 2

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