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I Don't Think I Have the Courage to Be Who I Want to Be

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    I Never Thought I Did

    But now I think I do, and more importantly, always have. I have never been afraid to be myself, happy to be different and different from other's. But for a long time I thought I didn't have the courage to be who I want to be and live my dreams. But now, I think I do. I just need...
    TheWanderingSupertramp TheWanderingSupertramp 22-25, M Dec 5, 2012

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    I Won't Ever Be Who I Want To Be

    People always tell me that I can do... and I can be who I want but I'm not sure if I can anymore. I'm too shy and I've got no confidence at all really.. I'm too scared to do anything.. even the most simple things because I'm scared of failing and being a disappointment. I...
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 19, 2010

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    ....or the motivation.

    .. Or the ability. I'm an absolute toilet bowl of a mess.
    ifearsnowmen ifearsnowmen 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 22, 2014

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    Not For The Lack Of Trying

    I want to be the mysterious social lady at the party that everyone wants to know more about. I want the aura that attracts people to you and gives off a confident feeling. I want to dye my hair blond and wear beautiful clothing. Be able to have the confidence to presue what I...
    LittleSunGirl LittleSunGirl 18-21 2 Responses May 15, 2011

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    Courage Is Just One Small Part

    To be honest I am not sure if I should post here, but I am going to anyway and have people tell me to go bug off. So I know that courage is a part of it. However, in all honesty I lack a couple of other things needed to be who I want to be as well. The very first is any kind of...
    ForgottenMale ForgottenMale 26-30, M Jun 15, 2013

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    Taking The Step Out

    Well all my life I always thought that I would be a buisnessman or a scientist or a doctor. Recently though I've found out that I'm a good singer and writer. I never thought I would be happy doing any of those other jobs, but I've always loved singing and prefoming. I have the...
    MariusValjean MariusValjean 18-21, M Jan 23, 2010

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    whenever i try to please my parents by striving

    for my best in many ways, i would always end up in an argument with them, said being too immature. i don't think i am immature, why can't they understand what truly is my desire to achieve? i did try to bond more with my family numerous times before, yet nothing seems to work...
    yunisaurus yunisaurus 13-15, F Aug 22, 2014

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    It's so strange I'm crazy confident,

    around certain people and cripplingly shy around others, I've lost a lot do to my shyness and I don't want to lose anymore so if anyone has any advice on building confidence in high school, I'm open to it
    shaunrain shaunrain 16-17, M Aug 22, 2014

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    It's mostly out of fear of being judged.

    But I'm getting better at it. Very, very slowly.
    Reallifeperson Reallifeperson 22-25, M Sep 11, 2014

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    Please Help Me (blog Repost)

    I'm freaking out again! I really can't decide anything! I'm in the Army, but I haven't shipped out yet! But I'm positive I only joined because I'm not smart enough for college! I want to get out! I want out! I can't live without my computer! I'm so afraid my boyfriend will...
    OrbManson OrbManson 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 30, 2010

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    Yeah, so I was just called a hipster by my boyfriend and I was like "WHA-WHA-WHAAAT MAN?" Maybe I overreacted but it felt so bad and it still feels so bad because I mean We've been...
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    Its very hard for a guy to try to be open, i don't know why, but i want to be the real me but i guess I'm just afraid what people might say.
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    Now I know I don’t have it nearly as bad as others when it comes to suffocating parents. I live 2000 away from them, only call them once a week, and overall had a good...
    queenbeeaj queenbeeaj 22-25, F 12 hrs ago

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    So there's a girl I know with whom I have been on & off friends on Facebook. We were never close in high school so whenever I go through my friends list to delete the randos...
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    i don't feel like sharing everything to anybody. even my best friend doesn't know who i really am. i am very secretive. i don't blurt **** out so easily to get everyone's attention...
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    Talking to some hoe and I can't crack the account to see whats going on and being said but I do remember the past and you met her on Craigslist I believe... And I always see you...
    Nannyxd Nannyxd 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 1

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    Deppresion is a plague when people got small pox you didn't say "that ***** selfish getting small pox like that." I mean it hurts like hell and nobody wants it. I have to force a...
    sadnesskillsme sadnesskillsme 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 4

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    One of the worst things someone ever said to me was, "how can you be depressed when you have everything". We're told we're selfish because they believe we don't appreciate what we...
    willibemissed willibemissed 22-25, F Jan 4

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    I honestly don't and it maybe because I like smoking every once in a while myself. I don't know and I don't really care.
    FreaKxShoW FreaKxShoW 13-15, F Jan 5

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    This girl asked me out, but I rejected her because her personality wasn't the greatest and her looks were even worse. Now her friends say I'm mean because I don't want to lower my...
    lautrecofwinterfell lautrecofwinterfell 13-15, M Jan 10

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    Why is it so hard to accept that you don't want me as badly as I want you. :'(
    MrCutBleedSmile MrCutBleedSmile 18-21, M Jan 15

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    I don't appreciate it when people say that having depression or being depressed is being selfish because, yes there is a lot of things in the world that are going on and for people...
    theultimatesashacourtney theultimatesashacourtney 13-15, F Jan 4

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    Well I'm not on it anymore, but they didn't work. I was even more stressed than usual. On top of that I was tired all the time and I couldn't grasp new concepts, I was falling...
    CrimsonSkull CrimsonSkull 13-15, M Jan 8

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    Yup, today I learnt that before saying something, I have to think carefully if what I am going to say is what I really mean. Today, I learnt that what I say can not be changed...
    kindahipsta kindahipsta 18-21, F 6 hrs ago

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    a long trip abroad, anger, misery for me, deliberate hatred and a u-turn. where to begin. my girlfriend said she was going to south Africa for a bit back in October 2012. like a...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 7

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    again...nobody can love someone like me who is always in depression once a month or cries when she feels like it...I feel like I'm giving up this whole life even though it's...
    VerenaTheShadow VerenaTheShadow 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 24, 2014

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    So yes, my life is **** at the moment. But how much more down the drain can I go? There has to be a limit. And I think I have already hit the bottom. You know what happens when you...
    rabinafrost rabinafrost 18-21, F Dec 25, 2014

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    They are the one who made you promise them a forever. Although they are the one who left and ended that forever.
    xurypa xurypa 13-15, F Dec 26, 2014

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    ANYONE WhO LeGit doesn't have this experience, or feels this way, go get a traumatic life and see how you feel. Go get a father who was an alcoholic who did pills then killed...
    Hiiamawhovian Hiiamawhovian 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    I've noticed how there's so many people out there who think that just because you get high marks and do well in school you are automatically smart when in reality that is not the...
    believexo believexo 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 11

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    I've known lots of people who lie about one thing or another. Most of the time they at least had a reason, and understood the gravity of what they were doing. I can at least let...
    JackMann JackMann 18-21, M a week ago

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    I was in a relationship with a much older person when I was younger. I wanted it.
    MysteryAbove MysteryAbove 70+ Dec 31, 2014

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    Funny how you think your relationship is all well, but then find out things could never be further from the truth.
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    False. Depression and selfishness go hand in hand. Withdrawing from the world hurts the people we love. What is more selfish than wallowing in self-pity? Most of us want to...
    adianoeta adianoeta 26-30, F 6 Responses Jan 3

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    Do you guys think im ugly or pretty people at school say im pretty and one moment they say im ugly so idk
    jaddielove024 jaddielove024 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Many times, the decisions we make affect and hurt your closest friends and family the most. I have a lot of regrets in that regard. But God has forgiven me, which I am very...
    rajbj rajbj 18-21, M 2 Responses Dec 25, 2014

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    Actually I know that no ones knows the real me!! I mean I am a 55 year old transgender woman, and on one has a clue. I think most people will be blown away, when I come out , and...
    DawnR59 DawnR59 51-55, T 1 Response Jan 3

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    I have been in depression once when I was 5. I know its a young age but I actually had to take pills. But no I'm have never been in depression again. But I always hear people say...
    AlexV0707 AlexV0707 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 4

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    Something old Something new Something borrowed Got it from you Heart in my hand Soul in my shoe And steps on your spirit What will you do? Romance is old Your love is new My love...
    consistentshift consistentshift 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I can already hear her voicing her vehement denials. She is the least concerned by the various manifestations of vanity that usually seem to plague most of us. And if backed into a...
    pretender2687 pretender2687 26-30, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Seriously, there needs to be more open love around this world. There is way too much hate!
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