I Don't Think There Is "The One" Out There For Me

Just don't think Love and Happiness is for me anymore... 46 People

    I just don't think that I have ever been really

    loved by a man before. I never knew my father and I really don't think I have ever been loved by any of my boyfriends I have ever had.So I don't what it feels like to be loved by another person.
    BOBBIESB BOBBIESB
    31-35, F
    Dec 7, 2013

    I highly doubt it and my life kinda doesn't

    matter and I feel like I should have gone. I hope I find a nice girl and change this thinking. Like if they even care.
    MichaelLife MichaelLife
    13-15, M
    Nov 12, 2015

    ive thought ive found "the one" im

    so difficult and damaged i dont want to settle. im probably kidding myself because everything is give and take but i want it to just fit. 3 years into a relationship i dont want to have doubts or find reasons to doubt. i stuck with a 25 yr marriage. didnt work out. i was all...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 17, 2015
    Loretta78 Loretta78
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Nov 15, 2015

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