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I Don't Think There Is "The One" Out There For Me

Just don't think Love and Happiness is for me anymore... 15 People

    I just don't think that I have ever been really

    loved by a man before. I never knew my father and I really don't think I have ever been loved by any of my boyfriends I have ever had.So I don't what it feels like to be loved by another person.
    BOBBIESB BOBBIESB 31-35, F Dec 7, 2013

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