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I Don't Think You Realise How Much I Hurt

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    I want to have long passionate kisses.

    I want a man to go slow. Not just move my head towards his groin!! And then his done ready to sleep!
    deleted deleted 26-30 14 Responses Jan 3, 2014

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    Listening to Daughtry

    and looking through memories on my old blackberry... The fact that I have a selfie of me and my ex is killing me. It hurts so much to see that we looked so happy and loved up. This phone has also got all his old messages to me stored on the memory card and as I read them my...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 23, 2014

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    I put on an act to the rest of the world

    that I am allright but really I feel constantly sad and depressed but I can't tell anyone because no one will belive me
    Jonathanba Jonathanba 36-40, M 1 Response Aug 15, 2015

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    Today is probably the saddest day of my life.

    I have to let my daughter go live with her father 1000 miles away. The same father that walked out on her, and said horrible things because he never wanted her. The child that was always my world. She doesn't get along with her sisters because they take attention away from her...
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 11, 2015

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    I'M Tired Of Running

    It's 1:45 am. Another tormented sleep. I was having a dream about him again. This time i was undeniably pathetic, with my pathetic futile attempt to have his attention again. to make him remember me, remember our story. I saw him, my heart was racing and so happy to see him. I...
    michidabrainfreezer michidabrainfreezer 22-25, F 3 Responses May 4, 2013

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    I Don,tthink You Realizehow Much I Hurt

    i am hurting right now but i think in the long haul i will be fine sometimes we want what we can,t have i am starting to realize if someone wants another over me then fine it was not meant to be , yes we all hurt we feel rejected but sometimes it,s not us they are rejecting they...
    mycuzinvinni mycuzinvinni 46-50, M 2 Responses Oct 17, 2011

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    and if you do realise then

    why dont you care? im too sensitive I know that but I cant help feeling it none the less
    FromTheHeartOfaWoman FromTheHeartOfaWoman 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 22, 2014

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    "nothing Hurts More Than Unreturned Love"

    There's this girl I'm talking to, I think I let my guard down since she sort of distanced me from her a bit. I guess through my actions I gave her an overwhelming feeling of my attraction to her. She's a virgin and claims to be gay, but she tells me that she wants to try being in...
    WalterMighty WalterMighty 22-25 3 Responses May 5, 2012

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    Talking to some hoe and I can't crack the

    account to see whats going on and being said but I do remember the past and you met her on Craigslist I believe... And I always see you checking your Voxer when you think I'm not looking... I noticed a chick was added that never seen or know and then I looked up her face book...
    Nannyxd Nannyxd 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 1, 2015

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    Eternal Hurt...

    I am crying as I write this, My thoughts flow through my tears. Each stain on the page where a tear falls, Mapping out the anguish and agony inside. Your words hurt. They burn through my soul, Touch paper that catches, And spreads to my core. The longer I stay, The more pieces I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses Jul 15, 2013

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    Song-time! Nothing cheers up like a spontaneous

    musical act! (Well, I can think of quite a few things actually, but that's besides the point!) When the day is long and the nightThe night is yours aloneWhen you're sure you've had enoughOf this life, well hang onDon't let yourself go, 'cause everybody criesAnd everybody hurts...
    Faust76 Faust76 70+, M 2 Responses Aug 12, 2014

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    my bf has a pof account,

    he told me he never use it, he didn't know the password so I thought I'd delete it for him and when I wet on there he had been talking to girls up till 5/4/15 .... I'm so hurt, he says he is insecure with me... well I failed a class cause I spent so much time with him yet I...
    JazzyJazzy90 JazzyJazzy90 22-25, F 1 Response May 7, 2015

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    The hidden broken heart ?

    ? *********** Why? Why now when everything is going well? Why now when everything is alright? I see you break down because of her. I see you wanting her so bad. It shocked me. It suddenly felt like someone poured a bucket full of ice cold water all over me. All this time, it's...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa 22-25, F Oct 16, 2015

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    Hurting

    I am in pain. I don't think one story will be able to encompass the hurt that I am feeling about certain things. Family, friends, love... It only hurts more because there is no one to talk to. Its like I am screaming at the top of my lungs and no one even looks up.
    lostmemories lostmemories 22-25 8 Responses Jul 30, 2010

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    No One Does

    I hide a lot of pain on the inside that no one ever sees on the outside. I have my moments of extreme depression, where I just become detached from everyone I know, and stop doing the things I love to do. People notice that I'm distant and sullen and reclusive, but they have no...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 11 Responses Dec 13, 2010

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    I believe I have truly hit bottom.

    Wow 2 years of hell and I still carry that black cloud. Last July I lost my job of 15 years because of my ex, began working for a temp agency in December, I got let go along with 5 others at the end of February. I do not trust anyone. I believe my 16 yr old sneaks and is seeing...
    mb1973 mb1973 41-45, F 4 Responses Mar 5, 2015

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    My Fake Mother, in relevance to my other

    stories, filed taxes on my behalf, stating that "I am not head of household and that I could not file". She drains me of my money, please read my other stories and you will understand. The little that I have, she robs me of it, really and truly the only thing that enriches me...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F Apr 13, 2015

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    How Does Someone I Love Not Care About The Effect That Their Cruelty Has On Me? I Feel Broken Down.

    So to give you guys a little background story into our relationship, I knew my ex all through my adolescent years and we were always very good friends and hung out in the same circles. When we were 18 years old, we started dating. He struggled with addiction problems in the...
    pugs390 pugs390 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 8, 2013

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    hi this I can really relate to the horrible

    people that have upset me or hurt me don't realize how they have made me feel they don't care about the affect it has on me it has left me so deeply upset and lost inside I know that my horrible family and bullys at school and all the other bullys don't care I don't think anyone...
    lor44 lor44 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 16, 2015

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    Funny how you think your relationship is all

    well, but then find out things could never be further from the truth.
    Nannyxd Nannyxd 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 3, 2015

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    i hurt alot and i always feel like people don't

    understand it at all i mean iv'e sat right in front of therapists a social workers and shrinks alike and told them that i'm regularly thinking about killing myself and they just ignore me as if i wasn't even in the room. i feel like it doesn't matter what i say or do cause...
    BenjaminWittmann BenjaminWittmann 22-25, M 2 Responses Jun 3, 2014

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    Every time I have a bad thought,

    it always brings me to tears. I cry almost 4 times a week in my sleep. I'm sick of being hurt all the time. I hate telling most people of my problems, but I would just rather say that everything's fine. I only tell very few people about all the cr@p I go through.
    HypnoticFever HypnoticFever 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I feel like burning my house down.

    I just want to get rid of everything and start over. I try to be a good person and keep a good attitude but seriously life just keeps on ******** on me. I feel like a failure. I want to cry but I can't because I have no tears left. I feel like crying is just another sign if...
    Lalalauli Lalalauli 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 11, 2014

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    my relationship has hit an all time rock hard

    bottom - at this rate we will most likely go underground and say hi to hades before the month is over
    confusednormalness confusednormalness 22-25, F Jun 30, 2015

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    I have told my parents I'm depressed.

    They never helped me. I don't understand. I am exhausted. I sleep for insane amounts of time. I skip meals constantly. I hate myself. After four years, I'm tired. I'm tired of talking about this, or rather pouring my hearts out to online strangers. I'm tired of thinking awful...
    mysteryhatcat mysteryhatcat 18-21, F 4 Responses Mar 11, 2014

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    I've been married for 21 years to a man

    who could care less if I lived or died. I'm not allowed to show any emotion. I'm disrespected on a daily basis and he's cheated at least 3 times that I know of. Why am I still with him? I have no way to support myself and my child. I can't talk to anyone about this because it's...
    sears1297 sears1297 46-50, F 2 Responses Jul 16, 2014

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    Jealous; You said you loved me: what you mean

    your going to the club? I could be the one to dance with you and give you shots. For real your talking to her? I could be your boost of confidence. How could you look at them? I wouldn't look twice at another. Why would you roll over? I want to see you, hold you, and snuggle...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 21, 2015

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    I am missing you and hurting

    so much because of you. It hurts soo much bc my feelings are true.. it hurts bc it feels like I been cast away.. I found my beacon of light. I was truly happy.. I hadn't been happy in a long time.. Now my beacon of light been torn from me.. we are part and I don't truly...
    missjdragon20 missjdragon20 26-30, F 2 Responses Aug 24, 2015

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    Love Is Pain

    You say you love me, I believe it. You say you care about me, I believe it. You say you want to be with me, I believe it. You say you need me in your life, I believe it. You say that it's going to always be just us, I believe it. I ask you to show that you love me, you don't. I...
    DestinyLovexo DestinyLovexo 16-17, F 5 Responses Apr 27, 2012

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    My life is like a long

    and dark tunnel of self hatred and depression. I gave up on everything, and it's about time I give up on myself too. I remember my own father saying I look like a pig in my prom dress, and I remember being locked in my room and starved by my mother simply because I told our...
    MavisWalker MavisWalker 18-21, F Oct 17, 2015

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    Love hurts... Deception hurts.

    .. Hurts more to think I wasn't important to you.
    YoungHeartedSoul YoungHeartedSoul 41-45, M Oct 21, 2014

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    Everybody Hurts

    I have been selfish, I have been inconsiderate. In this world we live in now, I am not the only one hurting. Everyone is hurting, To others who has received more painful experiences, they think others pain is not that painful. but no matter what that experience is either big or...
    ScaredFlower ScaredFlower 16-17, F 2 Responses May 7, 2013

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    Many times, the decisions we make affect

    and hurt your closest friends and family the most. I have a lot of regrets in that regard. But God has forgiven me, which I am very thankful for. It has enabled me to forgive myself and move forward one day at a time
    rajbj rajbj 22-25, M 1 Response Dec 25, 2014

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    And I'll Never Let You Know...

    Last night my partner grabbed me and screamed in my face in front of my son. He'd been taking his temper out on my boy for a while and every time I confronted him with it.  Twice now he's sent innappropriate text messages to my 16 year old daughter. He refuses to accept he does...
    charlie248 charlie248 36-40, F 17 Responses Jan 23, 2012

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    When Will I Ever Learn???

    When will I learn…. This is not who I am… I have much more to offer than Just being your number one fan. The reason you think that Is because I let you… I was always available Just waiting to hear from you… I’d get excited and anxious… Like a stupid little girl...
    NotHisBabydoll NotHisBabydoll 46-50, F 10 Responses May 29, 2012

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    I am smiling on the outside,

    and dying in the inside.
    Sylvia79 Sylvia79 36-40, F May 16, 2015

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    Life'S Story

    I an gonna take you back to were this all began. I am adopted. Okay my real parents I did know. Well one of them. My mother got pregnant with me at 19. Who is ready for a baby at that age? Crazy people! My dad I never met. He left before I was born. Then my stepdad 1 came in. He...
    hopeless101 hopeless101 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 14, 2013

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    I'm the person where people know me specifically

    for wanting to see you always happy. Why not? I think it's only fair we have too many people dying, dsyfunctional families, war and ect. They just don't realise how they treat me in return. If they only could feel the hurt of their words or see how it has affected me physically...
    SymphonyChild SymphonyChild 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 23, 2015

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    I can't say what I feel

    or do what I want right now and its killing me. All I want is to get up and get a soda so I can talk with my best friend and my little brother but I'm so convinced that if I either move off my bed or say anything about how I feel, something bad will happen to them. This isn't...
    WarriorsHeart WarriorsHeart 22-25, M Sep 3, 2015

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    If only you cared, then you might understand.

    Sadly, that isn't what usually happens. No one usually cares. I end up lost and scared. I end up closing everyone out. Why would I trust people anyway? They've only caused me pain. Now all I know are memories of pain and fear of future pain...I'm scared to trust people. But if...
    MuteSurvivor MuteSurvivor 16-17 2 Responses Sep 6, 2014

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    They are the one who made you promise them a

    forever. Although they are the one who left and ended that forever.
    xurypa xurypa 13-15, F Dec 26, 2014

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    I have two daughters.

    18 and 17. I have spoken many times about my oldest. But have neglected to speak of my youngest. It has been four years since I let her go. This decision haunts me.....my heart is broken as a result of it. Four years ago....my oldest attempted suicide. She was admitted...
    snowberry75 snowberry75 36-40, F 5 Responses Jul 10, 2015

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    No....

    Because I don't let it on just HOW much I am hurting, I feel like that is not a good idea to do, because it gives people a chance to get in, and a chance to try and get close to you, and that is not a good thing, because in the end, people just use that to hurt you in the end. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 2, 2010

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    a long trip abroad, anger,

    misery for me, deliberate hatred and a u-turn. where to begin. my girlfriend said she was going to south Africa for a bit back in October 2012. like a year or two. Come with our stay home. ultimatum stylee. I was unhappy with my relationship with my boss and his bosses...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife 26-30, M 1 Response Jan 7, 2015

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    Where It All Began

    When I was a freshman of the same school, I met her, the girl who is a year older than me. The school was having their Christmas party by class and as a result of fate, she passed by our classroom and everything started. Our classroom was filled with colorful balloons so I...
    callmegee callmegee 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 17, 2012

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