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I Don't Think You Realise How Much I Hurt

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    No One Does

    I hide a lot of pain on the inside that no one ever sees on the outside. I have my moments of extreme depression, where I just become detached from everyone I know, and stop doing the things I love to do. People notice that I'm distant and sullen and reclusive, but they have no...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 11 Responses Dec 13, 2010

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    I Don't Know What To Do Anymore

    I'm in such a low point in my life, everyday I feel like the battle gets harder and harder to fight, I've been fighting to just stay afloat in my sea of depression and I just feel like letting the waves consume me. So why fight to see another day of suffering?
    palerainbow palerainbow 16-17, F 9 Responses Sep 16, 2012

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    I cry every day and not

    even you can see through my fake smile, every day you look into my broken eyes but you see nothing wrong
    Error404nameunknown Error404nameunknown 13-15, F May 25

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    Broken

    Sitting here in my room crying is not something new its something I've done many many times. No one can see of course they never seem to notice my tears. How ever since they've made more changes I've cried so much. Now tonight i made a mistake, did something I knew was wrong...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Oct 20, 2011

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    When you instantly devalue,

    with just a few words, years worth of hard work that I've accomplished. For us. When you constantly put me last on your list of priorities. When you take everything I do and all that I am for granted. Wake the **** up.
    neveragoodusername neveragoodusername 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    No

    I have been vilified because of some things. Maybe because I take pills to numb the pain. Maybe because I fight back when I'm insulted. But I don't think you realise how I feel. That I want to end this whole charade of life sometimes. The happy people won't understand. I have...
    deleted deleted 26-30 6 Responses May 3, 2010

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    Daddy oh Daddy don't you realize how much you

    hurt me? All those things you said to me all those secrets you made me keep you weren't thinking about me you just wanted mommy to notice how much YOU were hurt all those bad things you said about my mother, who is as bad as you. all those times you called me telling me goodbye...
    Br0KenWhisper Br0KenWhisper 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 9, 2013

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    Life'S Story

    I an gonna take you back to were this all began. I am adopted. Okay my real parents I did know. Well one of them. My mother got pregnant with me at 19. Who is ready for a baby at that age? Crazy people! My dad I never met. He left before I was born. Then my stepdad 1 came in. He...
    hopeless101 hopeless101 13-15, F 4 Responses Apr 14, 2013

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    When I cry my eyes are

    so good at hiding it that no one even notices. Unless I started crying in front of them...
    unbroken3993 unbroken3993 13-15, F 1 Response May 25

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    Everybody Hurts

    I have been selfish, I have been inconsiderate. In this world we live in now, I am not the only one hurting. Everyone is hurting, To others who has received more painful experiences, they think others pain is not that painful. but no matter what that experience is either big or...
    ScaredFlower ScaredFlower 16-17, F 2 Responses May 7, 2013

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    ThatOtherGuy17 ThatOtherGuy17 16-17, M Feb 23

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    I want to have long passionate kisses.

    I want a man to go slow. Not just move my head towards his groin!! And then his done ready to sleep!
    IlBacio IlBacio 46-50, F 17 Responses Jan 3

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    When Will I Ever Learn???

    When will I learn…. This is not who I am… I have much more to offer than Just being your number one fan. The reason you think that Is because I let you… I was always available Just waiting to hear from you… I’d get excited and anxious… Like a stupid little girl...
    Babydoll42 Babydoll42 41-45, F 10 Responses May 29, 2012

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    He Really Has No Idea.

    I have always been a very loving, devoted wife to my husband. We were married in 1999. In 2008, I encouraged him to chase his dream to be a cop. He succeeded and we were transferred 5000 km's away from our family and friends. I became severely depressed at leaving my family...
    Nolangela Nolangela 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 9, 2012

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    Hurting

    I am in pain. I don't think one story will be able to encompass the hurt that I am feeling about certain things. Family, friends, love... It only hurts more because there is no one to talk to. Its like I am screaming at the top of my lungs and no one even looks up.
    lostmemories lostmemories 22-25 9 Responses Jul 30, 2010

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    Well, i know this doesnt interest the most of

    EP readers. But i love to let it out. So i dont have to keep it all inside every day. I was hurt from all people who i met in life. It sounds unbelievable and its like i cant stand people, but its true. I was emotionally abused everywhere. At family, at school, at work and even...
    angel8i angel8i 31-35, F May 25

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    I feel like burning my house down.

    I just want to get rid of everything and start over. I try to be a good person and keep a good attitude but seriously life just keeps on ******** on me. I feel like a failure. I want to cry but I can't because I have no tears left. I feel like crying is just another sign if...
    Lalalauli Lalalauli 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 11

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    Love Is Pain

    You say you love me, I believe it. You say you care about me, I believe it. You say you want to be with me, I believe it. You say you need me in your life, I believe it. You say that it's going to always be just us, I believe it. I ask you to show that you love me, you don't. I...
    DestinyLovexo DestinyLovexo 16-17, F 5 Responses Apr 27, 2012

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    I have told my parents I'm depressed.

    They never helped me. I don't understand. I am exhausted. I sleep for insane amounts of time. I skip meals constantly. I hate myself. After four years, I'm tired. I'm tired of talking about this, or rather pouring my hearts out to online strangers. I'm tired of thinking awful...
    mysteryhatcat mysteryhatcat 16-17, F 5 Responses Mar 11

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    A Life Of Hurt

    sometimes i wonder at nights as i lay in my bed if it is really worth it... is all the hurt worth it... was it just a regret or was it intentional? most of my life was pain as of recent the hurt just increased. no one will ever understand how much words or even actions can hurt a...
    CoolRockerChic CoolRockerChic 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 6, 2012

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    I deleted my friend off of snap chat

    because I was jealous of seeing her having fun while I'm at home alone with my abusive parents.
    hidingunderwater hidingunderwater 16-17, F 4 Responses Jun 9

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    You Really Don'T

    I don't think you realize how much I cry. I don't think you realize how much I ache. I don't think you realize how much I try. I don't think you realize how much you mean to me I don't think you realize how much I care about you. I don't think you realize how much I go...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 5, 2013

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    Really Good At Hiding My Feelings

    I have so much resentment anger and frustration that I hold inside... I can't afford therapy... so everyday I struggle to get through..I just wish someone understood... its so hard I am just a shell.. I feel like I'm going on and on and on one cares but maybe someone here does...
    solost26 solost26 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 26, 2012

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    Dear you these are my thoughts this very moment,

    Why is it that other girls are on your mind? Am I not good enough? What'd i do wrong? I am hurt... So basically we've been talking since before April. We've been dating 19 days. 4 of those days I've been left ignored wondering what happened. What did happen? After a short...
    Sunshinebarbie Sunshinebarbie 16-17, F Jul 16

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    Eternal Hurt...

    I am crying as I write this, My thoughts flow through my tears. Each stain on the page where a tear falls, Mapping out the anguish and agony inside. Your words hurt. They burn through my soul, Touch paper that catches, And spreads to my core. The longer I stay, The more pieces I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 7 Responses Jul 15, 2013

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    Quelessir Quelessir 16-17, M Feb 19

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    mcfartcloud mcfartcloud 31-35, M 2 Responses Jul 11

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    And I'll Never Let You Know...

    Last night my partner grabbed me and screamed in my face in front of my son. He'd been taking his temper out on my boy for a while and every time I confronted him with it.  Twice now he's sent innappropriate text messages to my 16 year old daughter. He refuses to accept he does...
    charlie248 charlie248 36-40, F 17 Responses Jan 23, 2012

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    I have no one to share,

    am very much lovng and caring my family, but when am broken, there is no one to say stop cry...
    Nish05 Nish05 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 9

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    im just so sad and the more i cry the more hurt

    i get and it hurts me so bad, i feel this terrible pain in my heart and no one understands, i just feel so alone someone please help me from this hell :(
    AngelAvila AngelAvila 13-15, F 6 Responses Jul 9

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    I have so much hurt inside no one will ever

    know. It starts when I was 13 & goes to the present.
    graeff120 graeff120 36-40, F 3 Responses May 25

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    Your face runs through the back of my mind more

    often than any crush ever did. I remember what happened between us, the look on your face with every deliberate movement of your body. I remember my hands pushing against your chest, being disgusted by the feel of your body hair in my palms as I pushed at you. I said stop but...
    MsPetrichor MsPetrichor 22-25, F 1 Response May 29

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    I Don,tthink You Realizehow Much I Hurt

    i am hurting right now but i think in the long haul i will be fine sometimes we want what we can,t have i am starting to realize if someone wants another over me then fine it was not meant to be , yes we all hurt we feel rejected but sometimes it,s not us they are rejecting they...
    mycuzinvinni mycuzinvinni 46-50, M 2 Responses Oct 17, 2011

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    So I was talking to my best friend

    who is also best friends with my 'best friend' that hurt me and left me for no reason that I still don't know to this day. Call me stupid but I was check up on her to see if she misses me but it turns out she isn't and that still the one in the past. She just doesn't know that...
    FighterWolf FighterWolf 13-15, F Jun 22

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    I Don't Want To Be Your Wife Anymore...

    Do you know how it feels to love someone so much? They keep making you feel worthless and like you just wont be good enough? Im not one of those women that have "let it go cold in the bedroom". I make sure of that, even if I do have a kid I've prided myself on keeping myself up...
    beautyqueen17 beautyqueen17 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 23, 2012

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    I long to spill out all of my secrets.

    But I can't. I am human. I try to protect my secrets. If only someone was attracted to me...
    Supercat8835 Supercat8835 13-15, M 2 Responses Jun 23

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    LilyB157 LilyB157 26-30, F 3 Responses Feb 3

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    just to feel that ur mother sees u less

    as person like u r never good enough nomatter what feeling like she is acting hard and rude as if she is not really ur mom to the point when u look throu all ur birth certificate when u were teenager just to make sure she is really ur MOTHER?!
    justme26 justme26 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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    "nothing Hurts More Than Unreturned Love"

    There's this girl I'm talking to, I think I let my guard down since she sort of distanced me from her a bit. I guess through my actions I gave her an overwhelming feeling of my attraction to her. She's a virgin and claims to be gay, but she tells me that she wants to try being in...
    WalterMighty WalterMighty 22-25 3 Responses May 5, 2012

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    I'M Tired Of Running

    It's 1:45 am. Another tormented sleep. I was having a dream about him again. This time i was undeniably pathetic, with my pathetic futile attempt to have his attention again. to make him remember me, remember our story. I saw him, my heart was racing and so happy to see him. I...
    michidabrainfreezer michidabrainfreezer 22-25, F 3 Responses May 4, 2013

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    No one does... I recently started being open

    about it and I realized how cruel life truly can be :( I also realized I need to be more selfish and do what's good in terms for me and not just for others :) I dont need to be nice to anyone who doesnt deserve it! I'm going to go back to a new school next year with this...
    Ilovecharlie Ilovecharlie 16-17, M 3 Responses May 25

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    I'm messed up you. I'm not going to go into

    detail to make you upset, I just hurt.
    richierich22 richierich22 16-17, M 3 Responses Jan 8

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    Well first time around the bend hurt like hell

    I can't shake the memories yet you still try and force me to crawl back. I'm done crawling I'm done taking the crap you threw at me I do matter regardless of what you think. I am what I am and I'd rather you hate me for who I am than say you love me for who I am not. I found...
    shadow721 shadow721 18-21, M Jan 5

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    I've been married for 21 years to a man

    who could care less if I lived or died. I'm not allowed to show any emotion. I'm disrespected on a daily basis and he's cheated at least 3 times that I know of. Why am I still with him? I have no way to support myself and my child. I can't talk to anyone about this because it's...
    sears1297 sears1297 46-50, F 5 Responses Jul 16

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    Where It All Began

    When I was a freshman of the same school, I met her, the girl who is a year older than me. The school was having their Christmas party by class and as a result of fate, she passed by our classroom and everything started. Our classroom was filled with colorful balloons so I...
    ImWithJesus ImWithJesus 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 17, 2012

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    Me: "What do you like about me?

    " Him: "Your body" it stabs me in the heart... I want to be loved for my character not to be made to feel like a object...
    deleted deleted 26-30 5 Responses Mar 27

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    i hurt alot and i always feel like people don't

    understand it at all i mean iv'e sat right in front of therapists a social workers and shrinks alike and told them that i'm regularly thinking about killing myself and they just ignore me as if i wasn't even in the room. i feel like it doesn't matter what i say or do cause...
    BenjaminChapman BenjaminChapman 18-21, M 2 Responses Jun 3

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    People who hurted me has no clue to what extend

    they have made me broken.Perhaps some of them would be even glad to know.Anyhow if they could feel what I feel...that would be another story.I am sure some wanted to hurt me only a little when actually pain went really deep.Others were totally unconscious...I guess that is the...
    4biandu 4biandu 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 11

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    I Can Never Be Your Girlfriend Again

    Ive cried myself to sleep, barely eaten, been lonely, gotten high, and I'm in a lot of pain right now because of you. You were my first love for 2 years and 8 months. It took you two days to decide to breakup with me to date another girl. You want me to keep our relationship "on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Aug 14, 2012

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    No....

    Because I don't let it on just HOW much I am hurting, I feel like that is not a good idea to do, because it gives people a chance to get in, and a chance to try and get close to you, and that is not a good thing, because in the end, people just use that to hurt you in the end. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 2, 2010

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    Mommy oh Mommy where did you go?

    You are always on you computer and I never see you anymore, Mommy oh Mommy why is daddy sleeping in the RV tonight? Mommy oh Mommy you made Daddy move out. Mommy oh Mommy you started locking your door and yelling at us sometimes when we ask about it. Mommy oh Mommy whenever I...
    Br0KenWhisper Br0KenWhisper 13-15, F Dec 12, 2013

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    Not entirely. Not unless you've been through

    something or are going through something that is slowly crushing you. Makes me wonder how I can see the beauty in such a world but I refuse to let this feeling drown me.
    shaylusilax shaylusilax 18-21, F Feb 23

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    I just wish I could stop being sad.

    Plain and simple. If that means closing my eyes and never waking up, so be it.
    secretloverlonelygirl secretloverlonelygirl 16-17, F 1 Response Feb 23

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