I Don't Think You Realise How Much I Hurt

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    Because I don't let it on just HOW much I am hurting, I feel like that is not a good idea to do, because it gives people a chance to get in, and a chance to try and get close to you, and that is not a good thing, because in the end, people just use that to hurt you in the end. I...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Aug 2, 2010

    Listening to Daughtry

    and looking through memories on my old blackberry... The fact that I have a selfie of me and my ex is killing me. It hurts so much to see that we looked so happy and loved up. This phone has also got all his old messages to me stored on the memory card and as I read them my...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Dec 23, 2014

    Well......Do You?....

    Cocrispy Cocrispy
    22-25, M
    Oct 16, 2015

    My life is like a long

    and dark tunnel of self hatred and depression. I gave up on everything, and it's about time I give up on myself too. I remember my own father saying I look like a pig in my prom dress, and I remember being locked in my room and starved by my mother simply because I told our...
    MavisWalker MavisWalker
    18-21, F
    Oct 17, 2015

    Many times, the decisions we make affect

    and hurt your closest friends and family the most. I have a lot of regrets in that regard. But God has forgiven me, which I am very thankful for. It has enabled me to forgive myself and move forward one day at a time
    rajbj rajbj
    22-25, M
    1 Response Dec 25, 2014

    I have two daughters.

    18 and 17. I have spoken many times about my oldest. But have neglected to speak of my youngest. It has been four years since I let her go. This decision haunts me.....my heart is broken as a result of it. Four years ago....my oldest attempted suicide. She was admitted...
    snowberry75 snowberry75
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Jul 10, 2015

    When Will I Ever Learn???

    When will I learn…. This is not who I am… I have much more to offer than Just being your number one fan. The reason you think that Is because I let you… I was always available Just waiting to hear from you… I’d get excited and anxious… Like a stupid little girl...
    NotHisBabydoll NotHisBabydoll
    46-50, F
    10 Responses May 29, 2012

    I Don,tthink You Realizehow Much I Hurt

    i am hurting right now but i think in the long haul i will be fine sometimes we want what we can,t have i am starting to realize if someone wants another over me then fine it was not meant to be , yes we all hurt we feel rejected but sometimes it,s not us they are rejecting they...
    mycuzinvinni mycuzinvinni
    46-50, M
    2 Responses Oct 17, 2011

    No One Does

    I hide a lot of pain on the inside that no one ever sees on the outside. I have my moments of extreme depression, where I just become detached from everyone I know, and stop doing the things I love to do. People notice that I'm distant and sullen and reclusive, but they have no...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
    36-40, F
    10 Responses Dec 13, 2010

    The hidden broken heart ?

    ? *********** Why? Why now when everything is going well? Why now when everything is alright? I see you break down because of her. I see you wanting her so bad. It shocked me. It suddenly felt like someone poured a bucket full of ice cold water all over me. All this time, it's...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    Oct 16, 2015

    "nothing Hurts More Than Unreturned Love"

    There's this girl I'm talking to, I think I let my guard down since she sort of distanced me from her a bit. I guess through my actions I gave her an overwhelming feeling of my attraction to her. She's a virgin and claims to be gay, but she tells me that she wants to try being in...
    WalterMighty WalterMighty
    3 Responses May 5, 2012

    Eternal Hurt...

    I am crying as I write this, My thoughts flow through my tears. Each stain on the page where a tear falls, Mapping out the anguish and agony inside. Your words hurt. They burn through my soul, Touch paper that catches, And spreads to my core. The longer I stay, The more pieces I...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Jul 15, 2013

    And I'll Never Let You Know...

    Last night my partner grabbed me and screamed in my face in front of my son. He'd been taking his temper out on my boy for a while and every time I confronted him with it.  Twice now he's sent innappropriate text messages to my 16 year old daughter. He refuses to accept he does...
    charlie248 charlie248
    36-40, F
    16 Responses Jan 23, 2012

    Today is probably the saddest day of my life.

    I have to let my daughter go live with her father 1000 miles away. The same father that walked out on her, and said horrible things because he never wanted her. The child that was always my world. She doesn't get along with her sisters because they take attention away from her...
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic
    36-40, F
    1 Response Jul 11, 2015

    hi this I can really relate to the horrible

    people that have upset me or hurt me don't realize how they have made me feel they don't care about the affect it has on me it has left me so deeply upset and lost inside I know that my horrible family and bullys at school and all the other bullys don't care I don't think anyone...
    lor44 lor44
    18-21, F
    1 Response Oct 16, 2015

    They are the one who made you promise them a

    forever. Although they are the one who left and ended that forever.
    xurypa xurypa
    16-17, F
    Dec 26, 2014

    i hurt alot and i always feel like people don't

    understand it at all i mean iv'e sat right in front of therapists a social workers and shrinks alike and told them that i'm regularly thinking about killing myself and they just ignore me as if i wasn't even in the room. i feel like it doesn't matter what i say or do cause...
    BenjaminWittmann BenjaminWittmann
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jun 3, 2014

    Everybody Hurts

    I have been selfish, I have been inconsiderate. In this world we live in now, I am not the only one hurting. Everyone is hurting, To others who has received more painful experiences, they think others pain is not that painful. but no matter what that experience is either big or...
    ScaredFlower ScaredFlower
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 7, 2013

    When I met you I never thought

    that you'd become this important to me. You were there for me when I was at my lowest point and loved me when I couldn't love myself. You made me stop hurting myself and got me out of the bottomless pit that I was drowning in. I'm so grateful for that, I was blessed with someone...
    Rozemarijn Rozemarijn
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Feb 22, 2016

    Talking to some hoe and I can't crack the

    account to see whats going on and being said but I do remember the past and you met her on Craigslist I believe... And I always see you checking your Voxer when you think I'm not looking... I noticed a chick was added that never seen or know and then I looked up her face book...
    Nannyxd Nannyxd
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 1, 2015

    I put on an act to the rest of the world

    that I am allright but really I feel constantly sad and depressed but I can't tell anyone because no one will belive me
    Jonathanba Jonathanba
    36-40, M
    1 Response Aug 15, 2015

    Love Is Pain

    You say you love me, I believe it. You say you care about me, I believe it. You say you want to be with me, I believe it. You say you need me in your life, I believe it. You say that it's going to always be just us, I believe it. I ask you to show that you love me, you don't. I...
    DestinyLovexo DestinyLovexo
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Apr 27, 2012

    I'm a 15 year old girl with legitimate

    struggles. My older sister is almost eighteen. But she's been crazy ever since I've known her. My first memory (ever, not just my first memory pertaining to her) was of her dipping my moms toothbrush into our parents toilet, and then placing it carefully back on the sink. She...
    Lifeisweird599 Lifeisweird599
    18-21, F
    Aug 9, 2015

    my relationship has hit an all time rock hard

    bottom - at this rate we will most likely go underground and say hi to hades before the month is over
    confusednormalness confusednormalness
    22-25, F
    Jun 30, 2015

    I'm not selfless enough to think,

    'I hope you will be happy.' I hope you can't go anywhere without being constantly reminded of me. I hope you can't do anything without thinking of me. I hope you have trouble eating. I hope you have trouble sleeping. I hope you feel like you've forgotten how it felt like to...
    VioletVivid VioletVivid
    3 Responses Feb 17, 2016

    I have told my parents I'm depressed.

    They never helped me. I don't understand. I am exhausted. I sleep for insane amounts of time. I skip meals constantly. I hate myself. After four years, I'm tired. I'm tired of talking about this, or rather pouring my hearts out to online strangers. I'm tired of thinking awful...
    mysteryhatcat mysteryhatcat
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Mar 11, 2014

    Hii!I’ve been in unrequited love

    for 4 years now. I know it hurts a lot.I wrote a book on this topic too.The book trailer for my debut novel “You are my Wonderwall” is finally out.Please spare 2 minutes to have a look.The novel will be out pretty soon.Thanks.
    youaremywonderwall youaremywonderwall
    22-25, F
    Jul 11, 2015

    Where It All Began

    When I was a freshman of the same school, I met her, the girl who is a year older than me. The school was having their Christmas party by class and as a result of fate, she passed by our classroom and everything started. Our classroom was filled with colorful balloons so I...
    callmegee callmegee
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Aug 17, 2012

    a long trip abroad, anger,

    misery for me, deliberate hatred and a u-turn. where to begin. my girlfriend said she was going to south Africa for a bit back in October 2012. like a year or two. Come with our stay home. ultimatum stylee. I was unhappy with my relationship with my boss and his bosses...
    cloudsoflife cloudsoflife
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jan 7, 2015

    my bf has a pof account,

    he told me he never use it, he didn't know the password so I thought I'd delete it for him and when I wet on there he had been talking to girls up till 5/4/15 .... I'm so hurt, he says he is insecure with me... well I failed a class cause I spent so much time with him yet I...
    JazzyJazzy90 JazzyJazzy90
    26-30, F
    1 Response May 7, 2015

    If only you cared, then you might understand.

    Sadly, that isn't what usually happens. No one usually cares. I end up lost and scared. I end up closing everyone out. Why would I trust people anyway? They've only caused me pain. Now all I know are memories of pain and fear of future pain...I'm scared to trust people. But if...
    MuteSurvivor MuteSurvivor
    2 Responses Sep 6, 2014


    I am in pain. I don't think one story will be able to encompass the hurt that I am feeling about certain things. Family, friends, love... It only hurts more because there is no one to talk to. Its like I am screaming at the top of my lungs and no one even looks up.
    lostmemories lostmemories
    8 Responses Jul 30, 2010

    I am missing you and hurting

    so much because of you. It hurts soo much bc my feelings are true.. it hurts bc it feels like I been cast away.. I found my beacon of light. I was truly happy.. I hadn't been happy in a long time.. Now my beacon of light been torn from me.. we are part and I don't truly...
    missjdragon20 missjdragon20
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Aug 24, 2015

    Every time I have a bad thought,

    it always brings me to tears. I cry almost 4 times a week in my sleep. I'm sick of being hurt all the time. I hate telling most people of my problems, but I would just rather say that everything's fine. I only tell very few people about all the cr@p I go through.
    HypnoticFever HypnoticFever
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 11, 2016

    You're the one I wish to forget The only one I

    love to delete from my mind but then again I'll be deleting one of the best part of my life you made my heart sing but you also made it sad you left it shattered into pieces now I'm torn roses have thorns they've said but why do I still want to keep a hold of it when it causes...
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Aug 15, 2015

    I want to have long passionate kisses.

    I want a man to go slow. Not just move my head towards his groin!! And then his done ready to sleep!
    deleted deleted
    13 Responses Jan 3, 2014

    and if you do realise then

    why dont you care? im too sensitive I know that but I cant help feeling it none the less
    FromTheHeartOfaWoman FromTheHeartOfaWoman
    22-25, F
    1 Response Oct 22, 2014

    I am smiling on the outside,

    and dying in the inside.
    Sylvia79 Sylvia79
    36-40, F
    May 16, 2015

    How Does Someone I Love Not Care About The Effect That Their Cruelty Has On Me? I Feel Broken Down.

    So to give you guys a little background story into our relationship, I knew my ex all through my adolescent years and we were always very good friends and hung out in the same circles. When we were 18 years old, we started dating. He struggled with addiction problems in the...
    pugs390 pugs390
    26-30, F
    1 Response Jul 8, 2013

    Life'S Story

    I an gonna take you back to were this all began. I am adopted. Okay my real parents I did know. Well one of them. My mother got pregnant with me at 19. Who is ready for a baby at that age? Crazy people! My dad I never met. He left before I was born. Then my stepdad 1 came in. He...
    hopeless101 hopeless101
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Apr 14, 2013

    Jealous; You said you loved me: what you mean

    your going to the club? I could be the one to dance with you and give you shots. For real your talking to her? I could be your boost of confidence. How could you look at them? I wouldn't look twice at another. Why would you roll over? I want to see you, hold you, and snuggle...
    deleted deleted
    2 Responses Apr 21, 2015

    So I admitted that I really miss you.

    I didn't know what I was expecting you to say and in the end you ignored me. Again. It hurt even more. Why can't you just talk to me? Why can't you tell me the truth? Was it real or was your love just in my mind.
    Rozemarijn Rozemarijn
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 2, 2016

    You Really Don'T

    I don't think you realize how much I cry. I don't think you realize how much I ache. I don't think you realize how much I try. I don't think you realize how much you mean to me I don't think you realize how much I care about you. I don't think you realize how much I go...
    deleted deleted
    Apr 5, 2013

    It's hard to forget someone from the past when

    that person has been the one you ever wanted in your future.
    Rozemarijn Rozemarijn
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 26, 2016

    I've been married for 21 years to a man

    who could care less if I lived or died. I'm not allowed to show any emotion. I'm disrespected on a daily basis and he's cheated at least 3 times that I know of. Why am I still with him? I have no way to support myself and my child. I can't talk to anyone about this because it's...
    sears1297 sears1297
    46-50, F
    2 Responses Jul 16, 2014

    I believe I have truly hit bottom.

    Wow 2 years of hell and I still carry that black cloud. Last July I lost my job of 15 years because of my ex, began working for a temp agency in December, I got let go along with 5 others at the end of February. I do not trust anyone. I believe my 16 yr old sneaks and is seeing...
    mb1973 mb1973
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Mar 5, 2015

    I can't say what I feel

    or do what I want right now and its killing me. All I want is to get up and get a soda so I can talk with my best friend and my little brother but I'm so convinced that if I either move off my bed or say anything about how I feel, something bad will happen to them. This isn't...
    WarriorsHeart WarriorsHeart
    22-25, M
    Sep 3, 2015

    I'M Tired Of Running

    It's 1:45 am. Another tormented sleep. I was having a dream about him again. This time i was undeniably pathetic, with my pathetic futile attempt to have his attention again. to make him remember me, remember our story. I saw him, my heart was racing and so happy to see him. I...
    michidabrainfreezer michidabrainfreezer
    26-30, F
    3 Responses May 4, 2013

    Funny how you think your relationship is all

    well, but then find out things could never be further from the truth.
    Nannyxd Nannyxd
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jan 3, 2015

    Every Sunday like clock work I have a meeting

    with the Devil. He comes to my door whenever he pleases never when he is expected. It's like I have 7th sense. I know he's there before the doorbell rings making his presence known. It's the Devil! Don't answer the door! But I have to. Why? Because he is carrying my most prized...
    ch0colatechip ch0colatechip
    31-35, F
    Oct 19, 2015
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