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I Don't Think You Realise How Much I Hurt

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    Losing My Mind.

    I'm loseing my ******* mind being controlled by the state I hate being in states custody I want the **** outta of here I need to get out of this place I hate my worker who controls where I go I'm so mad I'm so sad I'm hurting so ******* bad I wanna get outta here I need to get...
    Sexidesi1 Sexidesi1 16-17, F Nov 8, 2013

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    A Life Of Hurt

    sometimes i wonder at nights as i lay in my bed if it is really worth it... is all the hurt worth it... was it just a regret or was it intentional? most of my life was pain as of recent the hurt just increased. no one will ever understand how much words or even actions can hurt a...
    CoolRockerChic CoolRockerChic 22-25, F 4 Responses Apr 6, 2012

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    Eternal Hurt...

    I am crying as I write this, My thoughts flow through my tears. Each stain on the page where a tear falls, Mapping out the anguish and agony inside. Your words hurt. They burn through my soul, Touch paper that catches, And spreads to my core. The longer I stay, The more pieces I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 8 Responses Jul 15, 2013

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    I want to have long passionate kisses.

    I want a man to go slow. Not just move my head towards his groin!! And then his done ready to sleep!
    IlBacio IlBacio 46-50, F 14 Responses Jan 3

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    Background .... My mother has a whole host of

    medical problems . When my husband and I got together we decided that we would stay with mom so she would not be alone and we can take care of her . In the past eight years it has went from voluntary to trapped . Please donor misunderstand me, I adore my mother and my...
    Questioningashes Questioningashes 22-25 1 Response Dec 12, 2013

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    I have told my parents I'm depressed.

    They never helped me. I don't understand. I am exhausted. I sleep for insane amounts of time. I skip meals constantly. I hate myself. After four years, I'm tired. I'm tired of talking about this, or rather pouring my hearts out to online strangers. I'm tired of thinking awful...
    mysteryhatcat mysteryhatcat 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 11

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    Love Is Pain

    You say you love me, I believe it. You say you care about me, I believe it. You say you want to be with me, I believe it. You say you need me in your life, I believe it. You say that it's going to always be just us, I believe it. I ask you to show that you love me, you don't. I...
    DestinyLovexo DestinyLovexo 16-17, F 5 Responses Apr 27, 2012

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    Well first time around the bend hurt like hell

    I can't shake the memories yet you still try and force me to crawl back. I'm done crawling I'm done taking the crap you threw at me I do matter regardless of what you think. I am what I am and I'd rather you hate me for who I am than say you love me for who I am not. I found...
    shadow721 shadow721 18-21, M Jan 5

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    Broken

    Sitting here in my room crying is not something new its something I've done many many times. No one can see of course they never seem to notice my tears. How ever since they've made more changes I've cried so much. Now tonight i made a mistake, did something I knew was wrong...
    deleted deleted 26-30 9 Responses Oct 20, 2011

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    Life'S Story

    I an gonna take you back to were this all began. I am adopted. Okay my real parents I did know. Well one of them. My mother got pregnant with me at 19. Who is ready for a baby at that age? Crazy people! My dad I never met. He left before I was born. Then my stepdad 1 came in. He...
    hopeless101 hopeless101 13-15, F 4 Responses Apr 14, 2013

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    As So I've Become

    All my life ive had patience and kindness to brighten my way, But such a perfect lie was sure to die within time. I was always a friend if someone wanted to talk, Always courteous, gentle, and caring. I gave everything to help anyone and everyone... Not a glance i gave to myself...
    riddik4321 riddik4321 16-17, F Oct 2, 2013

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    He Really Has No Idea.

    I have always been a very loving, devoted wife to my husband. We were married in 1999. In 2008, I encouraged him to chase his dream to be a cop. He succeeded and we were transferred 5000 km's away from our family and friends. I became severely depressed at leaving my family...
    Nolangela Nolangela 31-35, F 2 Responses Dec 9, 2012

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    And I'll Never Let You Know...

    Last night my partner grabbed me and screamed in my face in front of my son. He'd been taking his temper out on my boy for a while and every time I confronted him with it.  Twice now he's sent innappropriate text messages to my 16 year old daughter. He refuses to accept he does...
    charlie248 charlie248 36-40, F 17 Responses Jan 23, 2012

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    No One Does

    I hide a lot of pain on the inside that no one ever sees on the outside. I have my moments of extreme depression, where I just become detached from everyone I know, and stop doing the things I love to do. People notice that I'm distant and sullen and reclusive, but they have no...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 11 Responses Dec 13, 2010

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    I Can Never Be Your Girlfriend Again

    Ive cried myself to sleep, barely eaten, been lonely, gotten high, and I'm in a lot of pain right now because of you. You were my first love for 2 years and 8 months. It took you two days to decide to breakup with me to date another girl. You want me to keep our relationship "on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 4 Responses Aug 14, 2012

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    I have been with my fiancé

    for 2 years and we have a 5 month old together. I have never felt more alone than when we are together. I do not get any affection or attention. Sometimes I feel as if he wouldn't care if I was here at all. I am so emotionally hurt and things never change. He tells me he will...
    agxo agxo 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 7

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    Why?

    Why this pain? What's the point of it? Biologically speaking, pain is a way of your body telling you that something is wrong. Well, i ALREADY F***ING KNOW WHAT'S WRONG. But i can't do anything about it. Message for my stupid body: I can't fix this, so stop sending your god awful...
    ImmaSlender ImmaSlender 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 11, 2012

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    just to feel that ur mother sees u less

    as person like u r never good enough nomatter what feeling like she is acting hard and rude as if she is not really ur mom to the point when u look throu all ur birth certificate when u were teenager just to make sure she is really ur MOTHER?!
    justme26 justme26 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 13

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    "nothing Hurts More Than Unreturned Love"

    There's this girl I'm talking to, I think I let my guard down since she sort of distanced me from her a bit. I guess through my actions I gave her an overwhelming feeling of my attraction to her. She's a virgin and claims to be gay, but she tells me that she wants to try being in...
    WalterMighty WalterMighty 22-25 3 Responses May 5, 2012

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    They Dont Realize How Much It Hurts

    Don't your realize how painful it is? Why can't you see my pain!?! Why can't you hear my silent cries!?! I thought you knew me!!! I thought that maybe if you could just understand the pain maybe then, just then I could be free. You! the very person I trusted betrayed me!!! Oh no...
    ScaredFlower ScaredFlower 16-17, F 1 Response Aug 2, 2012

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    I'm tired of feeling sad,

    feeling lonely. I'm tired of wishful thinking. I have a **** life and a **** family. These holiday seasons, I don't like them. I always get depressed around this time. I'm always reminded of how little I have when the holiday season comes around. It's like the pain won't stop...
    HighYellaKoolChris HighYellaKoolChris 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 27, 2013

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    Me: "What do you like about me?

    " Him: "Your body" it stabs me in the heart... I want to be loved for my character not to be made to feel like a object...
    Rosesanddiamonds Rosesanddiamonds 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 27

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    People see.

    I tend to run into the wrong people and get hurt. Over the years I've learned that people aren't oblivious to your struggles, they are just to uncomfortable to be there for you. Some people think their pain goes un-noticed, but it is noticed. People are too afraid to ask.
    MsPetrichor MsPetrichor 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 4, 2013

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    You Really Don'T

    I don't think you realize how much I cry. I don't think you realize how much I ache. I don't think you realize how much I try. I don't think you realize how much you mean to me I don't think you realize how much I care about you. I don't think you realize how much I go...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Apr 5, 2013

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    I Don,tthink You Realizehow Much I Hurt

    i am hurting right now but i think in the long haul i will be fine sometimes we want what we can,t have i am starting to realize if someone wants another over me then fine it was not meant to be , yes we all hurt we feel rejected but sometimes it,s not us they are rejecting they...
    mycuzinvinni mycuzinvinni 46-50, M 2 Responses Oct 17, 2011

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    No....

    Because I don't let it on just HOW much I am hurting, I feel like that is not a good idea to do, because it gives people a chance to get in, and a chance to try and get close to you, and that is not a good thing, because in the end, people just use that to hurt you in the end. I...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Aug 2, 2010

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    Completely Ignorant Or Just Ignoring Me??

    I have been on both sides of this so I suppose I understand both sides of the pain and disappointment. And I still am not sure what is worse. I love you, despite my better judgement. You are not that lost, innocent 16 year old anymore. Though a lot of you has not changed most of...
    DaniCatEyes DaniCatEyes 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 1, 2013

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    The Deepest Pain I Have Ever Faced

    I knew it was time to go our separate ways after eight wonderful years together. I knew we both needed time and space to heal and to grow individually before we could continue together. Both of our scars ran so deep. There was so much pain we each had endured in our lives that...
    prior79 prior79 31-35, F Oct 29, 2013

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    YOU HURT ME!! YOU HURT ME soo much I can't stop

    crying I can't stop thinking about you I can't Stop feeling this pain that's inside that you just left me with GOD I TRUSTED YOU AND I LOVE YOU!! And you left me here to die!! I HATE YOU!
    up97 up97 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 15, 2013

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    When Will I Ever Learn???

    When will I learn…. This is not who I am… I have much more to offer than Just being your number one fan. The reason you think that Is because I let you… I was always available Just waiting to hear from you… I’d get excited and anxious… Like a stupid little girl...
    Babydoll42 Babydoll42 41-45, F 11 Responses May 29, 2012

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    I'm messed up you. I'm not going to go into

    detail to make you upset, I just hurt.
    richierich22 richierich22 16-17, M 3 Responses Jan 8

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    Nobody Gets It.

    I've tried to explain the extent of my hurt to the one I love... He doesn't get it. And I don't think anyone does.
    nickeew nickeew 18-21, F Oct 28, 2013

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    You said you would do what.

    It takes to help me, yet, you sweep our issues under a rug hoping they will go away, but that isn't helping me. I NEED to talk about things, you told me I am your best friend, well, don't best friends talk about everything together. I told you about my bad dreamland how real it...
    Solagurl Solagurl 41-45, F 1 Response Dec 16, 2013

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    I Don't Know What To Do Anymore

    I'm in such a low point in my life, everyday I feel like the battle gets harder and harder to fight, I've been fighting to just stay afloat in my sea of depression and I just feel like letting the waves consume me. So why fight to see another day of suffering?
    palerainbow palerainbow 16-17, F 9 Responses Sep 16, 2012

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    ThatOtherGuy16 ThatOtherGuy16 16-17, M Feb 23

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    I No Longer Want Just His Happiness...

    He used me. He hurt me physically and I took him back,after all the mind games and the physical pain,the scars both inside and out. Even after the fight I took him back and he leaves me a month later due to me having depression and 'freak outs',but all he had to do was listen or...
    DarthPancake DarthPancake 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 6, 2013

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    What'S Going On?

    There's this void inside of me. It keeps yearning to be filled with hope and joy like it once was. But every day it gets darker and deeper. The light that was once there is fading. They see me but they don't see what's really happening. They don't see how fast the light is...
    mac2485 mac2485 18-21, F Oct 9, 2013

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    Its so sad when the people you love take you

    for granted all the time. I don't know until when can I hold on and just forgive for every hurt I feel inside with your emotional blackmails. It's so unfair. Clearly he doesn't have any respect for me.:(
    datj datj 36-40, F 3 Responses Nov 30, 2013

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    I Wish You Understood

    i wish you understood the fact that ive been right here all along. i miss you so much you don't even know how hard it is, i mean this is. i feel so alone without you. it's like my heart fell into my stomach and it can't find it's way back to where it belongs. im sitting here...
    hellloitsjayden hellloitsjayden 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 31, 2013

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    A Smile Hides Everything

    My heart has been broken so many times and each time it is I'm the one left to cry it out. One boy I have been in love with for two years. He finally told me he didn't like me anymore. To this day I still care for him, but you always have to stand up, turn the other way and start...
    depressionsucks depressionsucks 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 25, 2012

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    I'M Tired Of Running

    It's 1:45 am. Another tormented sleep. I was having a dream about him again. This time i was undeniably pathetic, with my pathetic futile attempt to have his attention again. to make him remember me, remember our story. I saw him, my heart was racing and so happy to see him. I...
    michidabrainfreezer michidabrainfreezer 22-25, F 4 Responses May 4, 2013

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    Everybody Hurts

    I have been selfish, I have been inconsiderate. In this world we live in now, I am not the only one hurting. Everyone is hurting, To others who has received more painful experiences, they think others pain is not that painful. but no matter what that experience is either big or...
    ScaredFlower ScaredFlower 16-17, F 2 Responses May 7, 2013

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    Wow, Again!!

    Well I figured something was up. She's been paying me less and less attention lately. Still, I wasn't even expecting the friendship to end. Sucks because she was like my ONLY friend. Talked to her every day. Now the days are gonna be full if me thinking all the bad ****. Nobody...
    HighYellaKoolChris HighYellaKoolChris 26-30, M Nov 2, 2013

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    I Don't Want To Be Your Wife Anymore...

    Do you know how it feels to love someone so much? They keep making you feel worthless and like you just wont be good enough? Im not one of those women that have "let it go cold in the bedroom". I make sure of that, even if I do have a kid I've prided myself on keeping myself up...
    beautyqueen17 beautyqueen17 22-25, F 4 Responses Aug 23, 2012

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    Where It All Began

    When I was a freshman of the same school, I met her, the girl who is a year older than me. The school was having their Christmas party by class and as a result of fate, she passed by our classroom and everything started. Our classroom was filled with colorful balloons so I...
    ImWithJesus ImWithJesus 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 17, 2012

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    I feel like burning my house down.

    I just want to get rid of everything and start over. I try to be a good person and keep a good attitude but seriously life just keeps on ******** on me. I feel like a failure. I want to cry but I can't because I have no tears left. I feel like crying is just another sign if...
    Lalalauli Lalalauli 31-35, F 3 Responses Jan 11

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    Blind

    My friend and family know I self harm. But they think just because I "look" better they think it's ok to stop worrying about me. I guess it's good. Because I wouldn't want to burden them. But I wish they would just ask how I'm doing or feeling. I guess I don't know what I want.
    littlelou16 littlelou16 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 21, 2013

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    LilyB157 LilyB157 22-25, F 3 Responses Feb 3

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    I have friends who care about me,

    and I go to church, where people really love one another and take care of our community. But year after year nobody celebrates my birthday or gives me Christmas gifts. I have no family and I'm single. It hurts so bad. I can remind people but I feel so sucky doing that, like I'm...
    24LUV 24LUV 41-45, F 2 Responses Nov 28, 2013

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    Hurting

    I am in pain. I don't think one story will be able to encompass the hurt that I am feeling about certain things. Family, friends, love... It only hurts more because there is no one to talk to. Its like I am screaming at the top of my lungs and no one even looks up.
    lostmemories lostmemories 22-25 9 Responses Jul 30, 2010

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    Not entirely. Not unless you've been through

    something or are going through something that is slowly crushing you. Makes me wonder how I can see the beauty in such a world but I refuse to let this feeling drown me.
    shaylusilax shaylusilax 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 23

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    Really Good At Hiding My Feelings

    I have so much resentment anger and frustration that I hold inside... I can't afford therapy... so everyday I struggle to get through..I just wish someone understood... its so hard I am just a shell.. I feel like I'm going on and on and on one cares but maybe someone here does...
    solost26 solost26 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 26, 2012

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    Daddy oh Daddy don't you realize how much you

    hurt me? All those things you said to me all those secrets you made me keep you weren't thinking about me you just wanted mommy to notice how much YOU were hurt all those bad things you said about my mother, who is as bad as you. all those times you called me telling me goodbye...
    Br0KenWhisper Br0KenWhisper 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 9, 2013

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    Mommy oh Mommy where did you go?

    You are always on you computer and I never see you anymore, Mommy oh Mommy why is daddy sleeping in the RV tonight? Mommy oh Mommy you made Daddy move out. Mommy oh Mommy you started locking your door and yelling at us sometimes when we ask about it. Mommy oh Mommy whenever I...
    Br0KenWhisper Br0KenWhisper 13-15, F Dec 12, 2013

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