I Don't Trust Easily, Thanks to a Dysfunctional Childhood

The Best Revenge is Living Well 54 People

    Trust Issues

    I do have some trust issues, due to the fact that almost everyone I had trusted in life turned out be horrible people. And they used my own trust for them against me. It started when I was a child. I trusted many adults to be there for me and to keep their word. None of them did...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Nov 13, 2008

    Well Here Goes Nuthing

    Well basically from the age of 5 to 10 i have been throught every kind of abuse u heard on the NSPCC adverts (which i still cant watch at the age of 19) by my step-dad and his brother... wondering what my mum did? sweet FA... luckily the doctors saw through my lieing and spoke...
    AutumnChild AutumnChild
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 18, 2009

    Thanks Mom and Dad

    My dad made sure I felt worthless. he threatened to disown me. I wasn't allowed to cry and if I did he would threaten to get his belt out and I knew what that meant and stopped. whenever I had something I was proud of, both my parents would say something along the lines of, "...
    cassandrathethinkerbleedsteal cassandrathethinkerbleedsteal
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Oct 15, 2008

    Never Had A Chance

    It's a wonder I am not dead My family Parents Brother Aunts, Uncles and Cousins took every opportunity to tell Me how worthless I am and lied to me and about me at every turn. here is one the favorites. "If We would have known you turn out like this We would have your Mother get...
    slappedtomuch slappedtomuch
    46-50, M
    Aug 2, 2011

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