I Don't Understand Myself Sometimes

How can I know so much yet still want to go against what I know is the best thing to do. How can I know I'm heading for a cliff at 120mph yet still not hit the brakes when I see the edge.Oh yeah I forgot...

I wonder if maybe total understanding of me is beyond human comprehention
Bah, i'm learning more all the time, maybe it is and maybe it isn't. The next few years will have a lot to say

It's strange.  I'll sit and think about a situation for a long, long time and come to a reasonable conclusion.  Then, it will come time to put this conclusion into action and I will do the exact opposite.  I know better...

Its funny i can't remember understanding my complicated life but i know it wasn't always like this. I spent alot of time inside my mind. (Not talking to myself) just thinking. I don't enjoy many things anymore and i can get mad or...

I have these great imaginations in my head.. imagination about helping girls with eating disorders, since i overcame one, imagination about everyone being nice to each other...... why isn't it possible? what is the best way of life? i...

Well for a little over a month now I've been able to stay of my medication without any downsides. As of yesterday night I felt a relapse coming on, it's this feeling of having a dark blanket thrown over my being. Basically I felt off...

there are days when i don't recognize myself.........it feels like i m living somebody else's life and just watching myself from distance!!! i watch the tsunami of different emotions rising inside me and i don't even know why i am...

Umm, Its kinda shallow, but sometimes I feel all of a sudden that I'm all alone, confused and something inside bothers me without exactly knowing why. I don't know why. I feel like I have to do something important. I try to look for it...

my mind close down to a strange cluster of thoughts.............none of them happy!!!! i am not able to understand myself or this stupid hurt i am feeling inside my heart...................this could not be.............in no way!!! but...

I moved away from my hometown Mesa, Arizona to Scottsdale Arizona. About 30 minutes away. Mesa is my home. I loved it to death. And being away kills me. I can't let go of Mesa. It's where I wanna be all the time. My thoughts and...

I just had a talk with this girl that's not exactly my girlfriend, but we both really like each other. She asked if I've ever had a girlfriend, and I said no. She asked why, and I sort of told her why. I have many reasons, but I don...

no matter how upset i am, i feel right as rain.
i feel happy when i am depressed and depressed when i am happy.
i have no control over my mood, and no matter what type of mood stablizers i'm on, i'm never quite okay.
lately though, i...

This mood I've been in lately is very confusing.
I don't want anything, and when I say anything, I mean ANYTHING.

You could ask me,
"Do you want lunch?"
I'd say no.
"Do you want to skip lunch?"
I'd say no.

Do I want to go out and make...

Some days I just don't understand myself, I wonder what in God's name is going on up there in my head besides the party that goes on up there each and everyday. I look in the mirror and say to myself "My goodness you look sexy today...

For the past months, I feel something is not right with myself.
As years passed, the understanding of the real 'me' begun to blurred even more. Thanks to special someone who help me realize it.
Deep in my heart I know these 17 years, I...