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    I found out today that my ex has been seeing

    someone, and for some reason I'm cut up about it, don't know why!
    EllieBexx EllieBexx 16-17, F 1 Response May 22

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    Im Canadian but I lived in Hong Kong

    for 6 years and I have suffered there due to bullying, being hit with a wooden spoon (by my parents) and my autism controlling me. I feel like my entire childhood has turned me into a loser because Hong Kong has little to no manners, Humid hot weather and the fact that my...
    Miserablechildhood Miserablechildhood 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 26

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    I hate myself. Plain

    and simple. I revert to being whiny and clingy whenever my husband doesn't reassure that he loves me. I pout when I don't get attention. I'm always making him cuddle with me because I need to feel loved. I know I'm going to push him away with all my negative emotions but I just...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 12, 2013

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    I have broken up with someone

    that I'm still in love with
    anbadnabor anbadnabor 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 4

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    One moment im happy and bubbly then the next im

    sad or angry and having a "plus-one" has never mattered to me now sometimes when i see a couple i feel empty inside . i looked it up it said it could be depression, i told my older sister but she said it wasnt. It's becoming hard to hide the mood swings and i dont know what to...
    Hellokitty1313 Hellokitty1313 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 13

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    I overthink things a little bit too much.

    What type of person am I? I can't even manage to maintain a perfect relationship. Who am I? I'm a failure. When are things going to get better? Things won't get better. They never do. Why are you hurting youself? Because, I can't find myself. I don't know who I am.
    LovingChihiro LovingChihiro 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 16

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    I don't get really sad

    when people die but I absolutely break down if I see an animal in even the slightest bit of pain. I don't know what I'll do when my 2 cats die eventually. I just don't understand why animal death and pain affects me more than human.
    scarynipple scarynipple 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    I don't. Maybe I never will.

    Maybe I'm just trying too hard. Maybe I'm just thinking of too many maybes. One thing I don't understand is my emotions. They make sense at first, but then it's like they run wild and then I have no clue what I'm feeling. I don't understand how I can feel so happy and full of...
    Mimi7777 Mimi7777 16-17, F Jan 6

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    I Dont Now..

    as if being in a labyrinth of thoughts?1.i want to talk about something yet i dont think i can-if i want to talk i dont understand why i dont do it,maybe coz feeling uncomfortable talkin?2.im talking with friends on ep n now feel as if im alone,with noone-i dont understand why is...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 6, 2010

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    Like Right Now

    Well I kinda do most times. but like right now, I just joined this group because the guy in the avatar is so hot! Which reminds me, I once friended someone on this site because their avatar was so hot. I didn't even realise how much I'd been distracted by it until they changed it...
    anadude anadude 22-25, M Oct 3, 2009

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    I never understand myself.

    Whenever Im trying to talk about something, I'll get quiet just because I don't feel like talking anymore. It's stupid. Other times I'll just say a whole bunch of words that don't make sense at all and not even comprehend. I don't even know if what Im typing right now makes...
    AshLovesLink AshLovesLink 18-21, F Mar 4

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    I don't get why im not pretty

    why no one like me why they don't wanna be my friend ....
    nicolecadman12345678910 nicolecadman12345678910 13-15, F 4 Responses Oct 10

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    I have friends, but I always feel inadequate

    when I'm around them. I always feel pushed back and ignored, even though they insist it isn't like that. All I've ever wanted in my life is a best friend who understands me and surprises me, and I can surprise them. Someone who would keep me strong. I used to be able to make...
    awaterlinesky awaterlinesky 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 24

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    QuiteElementary QuiteElementary 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    SavAleMar SavAleMar 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 28

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