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I Dont Understand Myself

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    I Dont Now..

    as if being in a labyrinth of thoughts?1.i want to talk about something yet i dont think i can-if i want to talk i dont understand why i dont do it,maybe coz feeling uncomfortable talkin?2.im talking with friends on ep n now feel as if im alone,with noone-i dont understand why is...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 6, 2010

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    I'm so helpless ugh..

    . I can't do anything right
    perny92 perny92 22-25, M Jun 28

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    Like Right Now

    Well I kinda do most times. but like right now, I just joined this group because the guy in the avatar is so hot! Which reminds me, I once friended someone on this site because their avatar was so hot. I didn't even realise how much I'd been distracted by it until they changed it...
    anadude anadude 22-25, M Oct 3, 2009

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    I hate myself. Plain

    and simple. I revert to being whiny and clingy whenever my husband doesn't reassure that he loves me. I pout when I don't get attention. I'm always making him cuddle with me because I need to feel loved. I know I'm going to push him away with all my negative emotions but I just...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 12, 2013

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    I don't get really sad

    when people die but I absolutely break down if I see an animal in even the slightest bit of pain. I don't know what I'll do when my 2 cats die eventually. I just don't understand why animal death and pain affects me more than human.
    scarynipple scarynipple 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    I never understand myself.

    Whenever Im trying to talk about something, I'll get quiet just because I don't feel like talking anymore. It's stupid. Other times I'll just say a whole bunch of words that don't make sense at all and not even comprehend. I don't even know if what Im typing right now makes...
    AshLovesLink AshLovesLink 16-17, F Mar 4

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    I don't. Maybe I never will.

    Maybe I'm just trying too hard. Maybe I'm just thinking of too many maybes. One thing I don't understand is my emotions. They make sense at first, but then it's like they run wild and then I have no clue what I'm feeling. I don't understand how I can feel so happy and full of...
    Mimi7777 Mimi7777 16-17, F Jan 6

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    Im Canadian but I lived in Hong Kong

    for 6 years and I have suffered there due to bullying, being hit with a wooden spoon (by my parents) and my autism controlling me. I feel like my entire childhood has turned me into a loser because Hong Kong has little to no manners, Humid hot weather and the fact that my...
    Miserablechildhood Miserablechildhood 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 26

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    I overthink things a little bit too much.

    What type of person am I? I can't even manage to maintain a perfect relationship. Who am I? I'm a failure. When are things going to get better? Things won't get better. They never do. Why are you hurting youself? Because, I can't find myself. I don't know who I am.
    LovingChihiro LovingChihiro 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 16

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    I found out today that my ex has been seeing

    someone, and for some reason I'm cut up about it, don't know why!
    EllieBexx EllieBexx 16-17, F 1 Response May 22

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    I have broken up with someone

    that I'm still in love with
    anbadnabor anbadnabor 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 4

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    I'm really disconnected from my emotions...a couple of years ago it was easy to tell if I was sad or happy or in love or anything. Anger is easy to identify for sure, but not...
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    I wanna hang out with my emotional bullshit. Like use it to my advantage. Cause I don't make a whole lot of sense in that area. I like to call it "emotionally Ill". So with all...
    Augusttonic Augusttonic 16-17, F a week ago

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    I have been staying in my room for 3 days now...maybe 4....I have been doing much els sleeping, eating and watching grey's anatomy, I'm so sad I just don't wanna socialize with...
    catxfreak catxfreak 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 12

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    Too many. It sucks. I've had to stop saying I won't do stuff and just expect the unexpected because I don't even understand myself.
    JadedDivinity JadedDivinity 18-21, F Jul 17

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    I need your opinion would this make you understand? You said you didn't know? I'm tired of feeling hurt... I love you but I don't know what to believe at the moment one minute...
    Rachelmarie94 Rachelmarie94 18-21, F 5 hrs ago

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    When I first arrived in Ibiza it was very difficult for anyone to get to know me. I was afraid to smile and socialize because I cared too much about what other people thought. I...
    Badtimanonymous Badtimanonymous 31-35, M Jul 6

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    Author's note: I'm sorry if all this doesn't make sense. It was written to understand, and I worked through a lot writing it. It feels odd posting it but I haven't posted here in a...
    theologian theologian 18-21, M Jul 4

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    first off please forgive my typing as i only have use of my left hand. In Short: friends think differently and i don't get it. to them i appear emotional and fearful, my life is...
    HorrorFlic HorrorFlic 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 12

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    Before now I had thought that they were judging me, or being obtuse and purposefully unhelpful. I used to be so fallen, I did not know myself. I couldn't see. I would rant and rave...
    PurpleGlassPalace PurpleGlassPalace 26-30 Jul 18

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    I hate myself, absolutely hate myself. Why do I feel like this, why can't I be normal? Why can't I love myself unconditionally, even if I were to be flawed, why? Why did I have to...
    EmmaTrowwy EmmaTrowwy 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 13

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    On Thriving and Surviving Surviving is to continue to live or exist, especially in spite of danger or hardship. I have been surviving all of my life. To survive is to tap into a...
    jfrender jfrender 31-35, F 3 Responses Jun 29

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    I need to find a special alarm clock To remind of myself You're falling for some one else When it starts crawling back to you
    ItsAnnaLena ItsAnnaLena 26-30, F 2 hrs ago

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    Sometimes I swear I have split personalities! Part of me Thinks of Brenda as a loving mother and part of me doesn't understand her. I love her dearly, but I find myself not...
    SaphiraJane SaphiraJane 16-17, F Jun 29

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    There have been plenty of times in my life where I felt that no one really understood me or how I felt. I think that this feeling of no one understanding me has caused me to push...
    burton318 burton318 22-25, M 3 Responses Jul 19

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    I love my family i really do, but at times i feel torn and angry. i have a twin sister, she's very funny and has a charismatic personality. but she also has extreme amounts...
    cobrabubbles cobrabubbles 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    Yesterday I was in the car with my sister in law and she asked me why did u do it again? I said Cus and then she said does it hurt when you cut? I gave her a look like really did...
    cristina44 cristina44 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 8

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    I do this.....simply because a lot of people do not understand me. I try and help them understand me, and it is too difficult to. I try and work it out of my way, through...
    SassyBabe39 SassyBabe39 41-45, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    I am not les. Myself but I don't understand them... Like people accept you so you met to be accepting or should I say tolerant. Gay and lesbian people get so much hate that is...
    rachelmu22 rachelmu22 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    I hate myself. I immediately regret everything I say or do, or don't say or don't do, from the deepest conversations to the tiniest facial expressions I might make while ordering a...
    biggoron biggoron 26-30, M Jul 8

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    Identity is a state of mind in which someone recognizes/identifies their traits that leads to finding out who they are and what they do and not that of someone else. For the first...
    Sanora Sanora 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    I feel very bored with myself. Lately I feel like I've lost me zeal for live. I have stopped living and started just passing through. Surviving life instead of living. I see others...
    flowerloverxxv flowerloverxxv 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    My first cut(s) were 5 years ago I swore to myself I would never do it again A year later I found myself self harming and it hasn't stopped since.. I just want to warn you guys...
    gorgeoushobo gorgeoushobo 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    As I watched the movie "Earthlings" (narrated by Joaquin Phoenix), I couldn't stop myself from crying. I actually bawled my eyes out. The things people do to animals worldwide is...
    TrailrunnerMN TrailrunnerMN 31-35, M Jul 2

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    Ok, so my mom and step dad always argue. Its not physical though. People make fun of me. I am very self concious. I'm 13 and my name is Lauren. I have been cutting for a while now...
    lauren1194 lauren1194 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 2

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    It took me till college to find people that I'm comfortable with but we just got along really well. I believe that in a world with 7 billion people we can't be 100% unique, so...
    Annapie Annapie 18-21, F Jul 2

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    I love my family. Don't get me wrong. They mean well and have good intentions. I don't feel like I can fully be myself around them. Sometimes it's just the disbelieving looks...
    ajrestless ajrestless 18-21, F Jul 12

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    Why can't my mother understand! Every night I destroy myself into tears cause I feel like I didn't eat that much food. Now that dad is away and mom is working I'm forced to stay...
    broadwaybabe99 broadwaybabe99 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    I hate my life. Very much. The main reason is because of my purpose. Since I was 6 I have been inspired by many people. This made me a good person, i suppose. But outside is like a...
    Aram8361 Aram8361 18-21, M Jul 16

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    Sometimes I just have to stop. I don't understand my life or where it's taking me. I want to shut myself into my room and never talk to anyone ever again. I'm so scared of making...
    Livvy2 Livvy2 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    I do cut myself and I can admit it but I need some advice. I don't wanna be lectured and told not to cut, only people who cut will understand so please don't tell me not to!!! I...
    emi37y emi37y 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 19

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    My other post: "I used to cut myself" has changed, by the way. I still have those 4 scars, but there are 2 fresh ones. It's odd- the feeling I get after I have done the deed. I'm...
    MyNameMeansLight MyNameMeansLight 16-17, F 2 Responses Jun 28

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    I'm comfortable with who I am for the most part. What I absolutely hate is that I just can't get myself to clean my apartment most of the time. I'm good with personal hygiene like...
    Cetacean Cetacean 36-40, M 1 Response Jun 28

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    I express myself best in writing. When I'm talking to someone (especially when I don't understand my role in that situation), I tend to overstep. I like to write stories on EP...
    AlwaysPersevere71 AlwaysPersevere71 41-45, M 2 Responses Jun 29

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    before anyone point this out I know it sounds like a contradiction to one my other stories. Buts it's not. My other stories may sound like I hate myself or something but I dont. I...
    fallenzero fallenzero 22-25, M Jun 30

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    I'm very stressed right now. I would carve words in my skin, but never make myself bleed. I still haven't found someone who understands. I've found someone to make me laugh and...
    MyNameIsDeath MyNameIsDeath 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 3

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    I always try to live up to others' expectation of me. It has now come to the point where I want to breathe and live for myself. Still, 22 years of habit is not that easy to break...
    northsky northsky 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    I try to read more, write more and listen to positive input more. I'm training myself to understand people and be more accepting to how different each and everyone are.
    annpharos21 annpharos21 36-40, F 1 Response Jul 9

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