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I Dont Understand Myself

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    I've been feeling like this recently.

    Some days I'll be hopeful and confident with myself. I'll set goals, try to be more productive, and make plans for the future. But yesterday, today, and a couple days ago I wasn't motivated at all. I'm just scared of looking for a job and a career. I know I need to do...
    HelloLovelyPerson HelloLovelyPerson 18-21, F Jan 30

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    I don't. Maybe I never will.

    Maybe I'm just trying too hard. Maybe I'm just thinking of too many maybes. One thing I don't understand is my emotions. They make sense at first, but then it's like they run wild and then I have no clue what I'm feeling. I don't understand how I can feel so happy and full of...
    Mimi7777 Mimi7777 16-17, F Jan 6, 2014

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    I overthink things a little bit too much.

    What type of person am I? I can't even manage to maintain a perfect relationship. Who am I? I'm a failure. When are things going to get better? Things won't get better. They never do. Why are you hurting youself? Because, I can't find myself. I don't know who I am.
    LovingChihiro LovingChihiro 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 16, 2014

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    I have broken up with someone

    that I'm still in love with
    anbadnabor anbadnabor 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 4, 2014

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    One moment im happy and bubbly then the next im

    sad or angry and having a "plus-one" has never mattered to me now sometimes when i see a couple i feel empty inside . i looked it up it said it could be depression, i told my older sister but she said it wasnt. It's becoming hard to hide the mood swings and i dont know what to...
    Hellokitty1313 Hellokitty1313 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 13, 2014

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    I never understand myself.

    Whenever Im trying to talk about something, I'll get quiet just because I don't feel like talking anymore. It's stupid. Other times I'll just say a whole bunch of words that don't make sense at all and not even comprehend. I don't even know if what Im typing right now makes...
    AshLovesLink AshLovesLink 18-21, F Mar 4, 2014

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    I don't get really sad

    when people die but I absolutely break down if I see an animal in even the slightest bit of pain. I don't know what I'll do when my 2 cats die eventually. I just don't understand why animal death and pain affects me more than human.
    scarynipple scarynipple 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 4, 2014

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    I Dont Now..

    as if being in a labyrinth of thoughts?1.i want to talk about something yet i dont think i can-if i want to talk i dont understand why i dont do it,maybe coz feeling uncomfortable talkin?2.im talking with friends on ep n now feel as if im alone,with noone-i dont understand why is...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 6, 2010

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    I have friends, but I always feel inadequate

    when I'm around them. I always feel pushed back and ignored, even though they insist it isn't like that. All I've ever wanted in my life is a best friend who understands me and surprises me, and I can surprise them. Someone who would keep me strong. I used to be able to make...
    awaterlinesky awaterlinesky 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 24, 2014

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    So yeah, i can wake up one day

    and be really helpful... I'd be kind polite and id do as told but after a while its like something clicks and i start ignoring not being sociable and being even more shy than i usually am... Then i could be all mad and moody id take things out on my family they would ask me why...
    otakugamerwolf otakugamerwolf 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 1

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    I found out today that my ex has been seeing

    someone, and for some reason I'm cut up about it, don't know why!
    EllieBexx EllieBexx 16-17, F 1 Response May 22, 2014

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    I hate myself. Plain

    and simple. I revert to being whiny and clingy whenever my husband doesn't reassure that he loves me. I pout when I don't get attention. I'm always making him cuddle with me because I need to feel loved. I know I'm going to push him away with all my negative emotions but I just...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 12, 2013

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    I don't get why im not pretty

    why no one like me why they don't wanna be my friend ....
    nicolecadman12345678910 nicolecadman12345678910 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 10, 2014

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    Like Right Now

    Well I kinda do most times. but like right now, I just joined this group because the guy in the avatar is so hot! Which reminds me, I once friended someone on this site because their avatar was so hot. I didn't even realise how much I'd been distracted by it until they changed it...
    anadude anadude 22-25, M Oct 3, 2009

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