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I Dont Understand Myself

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    I don't. Maybe I never will.

    Maybe I'm just trying too hard. Maybe I'm just thinking of too many maybes. One thing I don't understand is my emotions. They make sense at first, but then it's like they run wild and then I have no clue what I'm feeling. I don't understand how I can feel so happy and full of...
    Mimi7777 Mimi7777 18-21, F Jan 6, 2014

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    i dont knoww. i just feel i need to keep on

    going, no matter what. Hmm its so hard, wasting to live like this. :( i want to go somewhere where none can bother me. Just natute and i. I want to meditate. Then i awake. I need this. I want this!
    Natureismagic Natureismagic 18-21, F Jan 1

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    Sorry if this seems like ranting,

    I just need to get this off my chest. Anyway, Im always yelling at myself (Not literally,just in my mind) to lose weight. Ive been doing so well, and then I screw up and im like "well, damn" I just completely give up what Im working towards. Like, ill eat perfect for a month...
    lekearns99 lekearns99 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 27

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    I've been feeling like this recently.

    Some days I'll be hopeful and confident with myself. I'll set goals, try to be more productive, and make plans for the future. But yesterday, today, and a couple days ago I wasn't motivated at all. I'm just scared of looking for a job and a career. I know I need to do...
    BeautifulSoul09 BeautifulSoul09 18-21, F Jan 30, 2015

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    Met a Jockey ....he told me he weighs 110lbs

    soaking wet....I told him that's what he gets for standing under his horse!
    575woodu 575woodu 70+, M Jul 5, 2015

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    I don't get really sad

    when people die but I absolutely break down if I see an animal in even the slightest bit of pain. I don't know what I'll do when my 2 cats die eventually. I just don't understand why animal death and pain affects me more than human.
    scarynipple scarynipple 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 4, 2014

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    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 28, 2015

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    I really really dont understand myself.

    i just cant stay focused on something longer. And I dont even know if i like boys or girls. Or just i love both of them. Or im dont like neither of girls and boys. Or im in just love with someone. But i dont know if im really in love and thats why push boys OR i dont like...
    Natureismagic Natureismagic 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 10

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    I Dont Now..

    as if being in a labyrinth of thoughts?1.i want to talk about something yet i dont think i can-if i want to talk i dont understand why i dont do it,maybe coz feeling uncomfortable talkin?2.im talking with friends on ep n now feel as if im alone,with noone-i dont understand why is...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 6, 2010

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    So yeah, i can wake up one day

    and be really helpful... I'd be kind polite and id do as told but after a while its like something clicks and i start ignoring not being sociable and being even more shy than i usually am... Then i could be all mad and moody id take things out on my family they would ask me why...
    otakugamerwolf otakugamerwolf 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 1, 2015

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    I have broken up with someone

    that I'm still in love with
    anbadnabor anbadnabor 16-17, M 1 Response Mar 4, 2014

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    I hate myself. Plain

    and simple. I revert to being whiny and clingy whenever my husband doesn't reassure that he loves me. I pout when I don't get attention. I'm always making him cuddle with me because I need to feel loved. I know I'm going to push him away with all my negative emotions but I just...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 12, 2013

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    My grandpa said he likes the "boobs" .

    .......he was talking about the three stooges!
    575woodu 575woodu 70+, M 1 Response Jul 5, 2015

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    I never understand myself.

    Whenever Im trying to talk about something, I'll get quiet just because I don't feel like talking anymore. It's stupid. Other times I'll just say a whole bunch of words that don't make sense at all and not even comprehend. I don't even know if what Im typing right now makes...
    AshLovesLink AshLovesLink 18-21, F Mar 4, 2014

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    I overthink things a little bit too much.

    What type of person am I? I can't even manage to maintain a perfect relationship. Who am I? I'm a failure. When are things going to get better? Things won't get better. They never do. Why are you hurting youself? Because, I can't find myself. I don't know who I am.
    LovingChihiro LovingChihiro 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 16, 2014

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    I found out today that my ex has been seeing

    someone, and for some reason I'm cut up about it, don't know why!
    EllieBexx EllieBexx 16-17, F 1 Response May 22, 2014

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    Is identity crisis a part of growing up

    or something, because I really do hate not understanding myself. It's like I don't even know who I really am, what do I love, what do I fear? I just don't know.
    LikeICare13 LikeICare13 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Like what are my goals in life.

    Or like how the **** did I make decisions in the past that I am having so many regrets.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Jul 6, 2015

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    I dont understand myself.

    I may be the most random person in the world. I got super different moods in a day. My thoughts run from one thought to another in just a minute. I overthink a lot and there are times that I cannot explain myself because I do not even know what I really want.
    Spencer024 Spencer024 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 2, 2015

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    I just want to be alone,

    I prefer it. it feels like no one understands. my family just aggravates me to no end and I feel like I'm going crazy sometimes listening to them. I'm so sheltered and I hate talking to people sometimes bc there is no point. I've found comfort in myself and I don't need anyone...
    awayfromlife awayfromlife 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 27, 2015

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    I have friends, but I always feel inadequate

    when I'm around them. I always feel pushed back and ignored, even though they insist it isn't like that. All I've ever wanted in my life is a best friend who understands me and surprises me, and I can surprise them. Someone who would keep me strong. I used to be able to make...
    awaterlinesky awaterlinesky 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 24, 2014

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    575woodu 575woodu 70+, M 1 Response Jul 5, 2015

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    Like Right Now

    Well I kinda do most times. but like right now, I just joined this group because the guy in the avatar is so hot! Which reminds me, I once friended someone on this site because their avatar was so hot. I didn't even realise how much I'd been distracted by it until they changed it...
    anadude anadude 22-25, M Oct 3, 2009

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    heart pounding, chest tight,

    running blindly, running blindly to you
    unhear unhear 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    lesbianpeter lesbianpeter 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    One moment im happy and bubbly then the next im

    sad or angry and having a "plus-one" has never mattered to me now sometimes when i see a couple i feel empty inside . i looked it up it said it could be depression, i told my older sister but she said it wasnt. It's becoming hard to hide the mood swings and i dont know what to...
    Hellokitty1313 Hellokitty1313 16-17, F Oct 13, 2014

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    I picked up my match.

    com date..... She was deep fried and double wide
    575woodu 575woodu 70+, M Jul 3, 2015

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    I don't get why im not pretty

    why no one like me why they don't wanna be my friend ....
    nicolecadman12345678910 nicolecadman12345678910 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 10, 2014

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    I feel like I need someone to talk to.

    Someone who will just ask me meaningful questions and listen to me. I want someone who cares and wants me to be happy but I can't give them the same back. Like a therapist. Maybe like a pen pal that I can email every now and then just to express myself.
    Carrrie Carrrie 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 24

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    On the Verge of Understanding Myself more

    Deeply ... Amazing Feeling
    Amnik Amnik 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    So I do understand myself

    but in the same breath I question why certain things are there. Things I have discussed on here but don care to discuss now. No matter how much we know ourselves there will always be mysteries that only God will know
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 5, 2015

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