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I Dont Understand Myself

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    I don't get really sad

    when people die but I absolutely break down if I see an animal in even the slightest bit of pain. I don't know what I'll do when my 2 cats die eventually. I just don't understand why animal death and pain affects me more than human.
    scarynipple scarynipple 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 4

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    I don't get why im not pretty

    why no one like me why they don't wanna be my friend ....
    nicolecadman12345678910 nicolecadman12345678910 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 10

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    I never understand myself.

    Whenever Im trying to talk about something, I'll get quiet just because I don't feel like talking anymore. It's stupid. Other times I'll just say a whole bunch of words that don't make sense at all and not even comprehend. I don't even know if what Im typing right now makes...
    AshLovesLink AshLovesLink 18-21, F Mar 4

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    I overthink things a little bit too much.

    What type of person am I? I can't even manage to maintain a perfect relationship. Who am I? I'm a failure. When are things going to get better? Things won't get better. They never do. Why are you hurting youself? Because, I can't find myself. I don't know who I am.
    LovingChihiro LovingChihiro 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 16

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    I have broken up with someone

    that I'm still in love with
    anbadnabor anbadnabor 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 4

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    Im Canadian but I lived in Hong Kong

    for 6 years and I have suffered there due to bullying, being hit with a wooden spoon (by my parents) and my autism controlling me. I feel like my entire childhood has turned me into a loser because Hong Kong has little to no manners, Humid hot weather and the fact that my...
    FoxFan64 FoxFan64 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 26

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    One moment im happy and bubbly then the next im

    sad or angry and having a "plus-one" has never mattered to me now sometimes when i see a couple i feel empty inside . i looked it up it said it could be depression, i told my older sister but she said it wasnt. It's becoming hard to hide the mood swings and i dont know what to...
    Hellokitty1313 Hellokitty1313 13-15, F 2 Responses Oct 13

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    I don't. Maybe I never will.

    Maybe I'm just trying too hard. Maybe I'm just thinking of too many maybes. One thing I don't understand is my emotions. They make sense at first, but then it's like they run wild and then I have no clue what I'm feeling. I don't understand how I can feel so happy and full of...
    Mimi7777 Mimi7777 16-17, F Jan 6

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    I have friends, but I always feel inadequate

    when I'm around them. I always feel pushed back and ignored, even though they insist it isn't like that. All I've ever wanted in my life is a best friend who understands me and surprises me, and I can surprise them. Someone who would keep me strong. I used to be able to make...
    awaterlinesky awaterlinesky 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 24

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    Like Right Now

    Well I kinda do most times. but like right now, I just joined this group because the guy in the avatar is so hot! Which reminds me, I once friended someone on this site because their avatar was so hot. I didn't even realise how much I'd been distracted by it until they changed it...
    anadude anadude 22-25, M Oct 3, 2009

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    I hate myself. Plain

    and simple. I revert to being whiny and clingy whenever my husband doesn't reassure that he loves me. I pout when I don't get attention. I'm always making him cuddle with me because I need to feel loved. I know I'm going to push him away with all my negative emotions but I just...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 12, 2013

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    I Dont Now..

    as if being in a labyrinth of thoughts?1.i want to talk about something yet i dont think i can-if i want to talk i dont understand why i dont do it,maybe coz feeling uncomfortable talkin?2.im talking with friends on ep n now feel as if im alone,with noone-i dont understand why is...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 6, 2010

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    I found out today that my ex has been seeing

    someone, and for some reason I'm cut up about it, don't know why!
    EllieBexx EllieBexx 16-17, F 1 Response May 22

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    As I'm sitting this house wondering what going to happen in my later life. As right now I do not understand myself because there so much stuff that I wanted to do. Well I can't do...
    colonaileen colonaileen 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I guess you could say it's a defense mechanism... My mind repressed everytime my ex fought with me and emotionally abused me. So it's only fair to think my brain would repress my...
    AlysonBlack AlysonBlack 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 13

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    I am lucky to have happy, healthy parents and brothers. But my other relatives are so annoying, that I can't stand being with them. My parents want me to spend time with them this...
    sangeunkim sangeunkim 22-25, F 1 Response 23 hrs ago

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    I haven't slept well for the past 3 days. I'm moody, depressed and exhausted. telling myself to hang on.. forcing my body to adapt the new changes. I even struggle to express...
    DNightTrain DNightTrain 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 13

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    Texting is hard sometimes. words are hard. you pulled everything you have to make an effort, to say something, but.... texting is just hard. hmmmm.. I know my expression could say...
    DNightTrain DNightTrain 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 13

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    Parents just fought again. Some days I enjoy their fighting and other days like today I just wish they would stop. I'm not sure why I enjoy their fighting. I think part of it may...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F Dec 13

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    I have 3 moods 1. Helpful and Loving to others 2. Quiet and isolated from everyone 3. Pissed off at everyone who leads normal lives whereas I don't
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 4 Responses Dec 15

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    My ex and I keep breaking up and getting back together. Right now we're apart but it's impossible to stay away from her.
    Jasonmendoza1 Jasonmendoza1 22-25, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I want chocolate chip cinnamon rolls,I want chocolate chip cinnamon rolls,I want chocolate chip cinnamon rolls,I want chocolate chip cinnamon rolls,I want chocolate chip cinnamon...
    DNightTrain DNightTrain 26-30, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I don't really understand myself. I don't really feel like there is much motivation for me being here, but at the same time I know I'll never off myself. I'm just super confused...
    dabram71 dabram71 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 3

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    When my bf asks what I want for a gift and I say " nothing big, maybe something romantic", why doesn't he understand? I like the keurig, not very romantic though...
    sparklestef sparklestef 22-25, F 5 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I keep way to many things to myself and then I explode
    hedleygirl hedleygirl 13-15, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I deserve the pain that comes. I deserve to feel the blade as it cuts into my skin. I deserve the pain from my lighter. I deserve the pain of loosing the people I once truly...
    DWIA DWIA 13-15, F 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    Like, a proper conversation and everyone around me thinks I'm nuts :(. But, I like talking to myself because...well...I can become people I wish I am actually talking to and it...
    TheKidInTheCorner TheKidInTheCorner 13-15, M 4 hrs ago

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    ... At least I try. I am not any good at small talk. And I am not super great at conversation. So I try to share myself through writing. Sadly, unless I wear a chalk board...
    OldNRusty OldNRusty 41-45, M 1 hr ago

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    I am about to open my heart completely in here. Today I am living one of the worst days of my life and yes. It's depression, this ghost that has been haunting my life for a long...
    Allaloneandpoisoned Allaloneandpoisoned 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 29

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    I won't kill myself. I will get through this. I've dealt with too much to give up. No, I don't want this life anymore. It's already been ruined. But I think this is our punishment...
    Levi1 Levi1 13-15, M 4 Responses Dec 4

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    I don't know where to start this off, but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 14

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    What you fail to understand is the complexity of the human mind. We are not all one way. No one is, however we have been conditioned to act a certain way that's parallel with what...
    AndrogynousBeauty AndrogynousBeauty 22-25 Nov 26

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    Explaining yourself. Don't understand why the hell is it required in first place? Why anyone needs to explain anyone about anything. Your action speak louder than your words. So...
    thesnug thesnug 26-30, M 1 Response Nov 27

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    It's not what this post is about...this post is about getting my feelings out there... My life is so awful, my past was so horrific...I feel so emotionally fcked. You have no idea...
    Levi1 Levi1 13-15, M 2 Responses Dec 7

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    Why do we have to struggle so much to be empathetic to others? Is it because we are so different from them? Is it because we cannot understand their behaviour patterns? Or is it...
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 5 days ago

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    I hate myself. I know people don't like me. I hate my gender and my skin colour. I hate that I have issues understanding words when others speak to me. I can't finish projects...
    zvezdnyy zvezdnyy 22-25, F 2 Responses Dec 1

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    I don't know where to start this off, but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 14

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    I don't know where to start this off, but I'll just first say that I can't do anything remarkable. I'm not special. I'm not good at anything. I'm just ordinary. I try so hard to...
    torr62 torr62 13-15, F Dec 14

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    I tend to do this a lot because I'm a very shy/quiet person who suffers from Social Anxiety, Depression, and a Learning Disability. I have full conversations with myself when I'm...
    Ice26 Ice26 31-35, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    It's so easy to create a list of everything I hate about myself. I filled up a page in minutes. It's a lot more difficult to make a list of good things. Especially since many if...
    JJjenniejones JJjenniejones 41-45, F 4 Responses Nov 29

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    my history is dark and gruesome where I thou I could protect those I loved where I didn't have to hide but those days are long since gone I still remember the pain of the past I...
    ronchetto ronchetto 22-25, M 1 Response Nov 29

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    A letter- by A.Leek I decided that it's about time to just focus on me. To love myself unconditionally. I've not only neglected but I have been so abusive to myself. I have put...
    alxvii alxvii 18-21, F Dec 1

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    When people call me beautiful I used to say no I'm not. They don't understand that I'm not fishing for compliments I'm genuinely saying how I feel. I don't like people telling me I...
    alicepulkin alicepulkin 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 2

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    I'm craving for the blade to go across my skin, I'm craving for the taste of a cigarette on my lips. What's wrong with me >.< please help me. I'm falling apart so fast and...
    pleasedontrunaway pleasedontrunaway 16-17, F Dec 4

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    I hate my self sooooo much and a lot of people don't understand that because I also don't care what anyone thinks of me. I just critic myself so badly and I'll never be good enough...
    123me321 123me321 13-15, F Dec 5

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    im Christians, and dont believe gays go to hell seriously, I have don't understand people anymore, how ignorant and stupid they can be. I myself am bi, and I dont believe paul...
    HandyMannyWanny HandyMannyWanny 16-17, M 1 Response Dec 7

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    I more often now I talk to myself full conversations & answer my own questions & laff ...so much do i forget people are around me & they think im talking to them haha .. I say i...
    missyluvsmissy4me missyluvsmissy4me 41-45, F Dec 14