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I Dont Understand Myself

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    So yeah, i can wake up one day

    and be really helpful... I'd be kind polite and id do as told but after a while its like something clicks and i start ignoring not being sociable and being even more shy than i usually am... Then i could be all mad and moody id take things out on my family they would ask me why...
    otakugamerwolf otakugamerwolf 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 1

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    I hate myself. Plain

    and simple. I revert to being whiny and clingy whenever my husband doesn't reassure that he loves me. I pout when I don't get attention. I'm always making him cuddle with me because I need to feel loved. I know I'm going to push him away with all my negative emotions but I just...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Dec 12, 2013

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    Im Canadian but I lived in Hong Kong

    for 6 years and I have suffered there due to bullying, being hit with a wooden spoon (by my parents) and my autism controlling me. I feel like my entire childhood has turned me into a loser because Hong Kong has little to no manners, Humid hot weather and the fact that my...
    FoxFan64 FoxFan64 13-15, M 1 Response Jun 26, 2014

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    I Dont Now..

    as if being in a labyrinth of thoughts?1.i want to talk about something yet i dont think i can-if i want to talk i dont understand why i dont do it,maybe coz feeling uncomfortable talkin?2.im talking with friends on ep n now feel as if im alone,with noone-i dont understand why is...
    amysangels amysangels 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 6, 2010

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    I don't get why im not pretty

    why no one like me why they don't wanna be my friend ....
    nicolecadman12345678910 nicolecadman12345678910 13-15, F 3 Responses Oct 10, 2014

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    I have friends, but I always feel inadequate

    when I'm around them. I always feel pushed back and ignored, even though they insist it isn't like that. All I've ever wanted in my life is a best friend who understands me and surprises me, and I can surprise them. Someone who would keep me strong. I used to be able to make...
    awaterlinesky awaterlinesky 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 24, 2014

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    I don't. Maybe I never will.

    Maybe I'm just trying too hard. Maybe I'm just thinking of too many maybes. One thing I don't understand is my emotions. They make sense at first, but then it's like they run wild and then I have no clue what I'm feeling. I don't understand how I can feel so happy and full of...
    Mimi7777 Mimi7777 16-17, F Jan 6, 2014

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    Like Right Now

    Well I kinda do most times. but like right now, I just joined this group because the guy in the avatar is so hot! Which reminds me, I once friended someone on this site because their avatar was so hot. I didn't even realise how much I'd been distracted by it until they changed it...
    anadude anadude 22-25, M Oct 3, 2009

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    I found out today that my ex has been seeing

    someone, and for some reason I'm cut up about it, don't know why!
    EllieBexx EllieBexx 16-17, F 1 Response May 22, 2014

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    I have broken up with someone

    that I'm still in love with
    anbadnabor anbadnabor 13-15, M 1 Response Mar 4, 2014

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    I overthink things a little bit too much.

    What type of person am I? I can't even manage to maintain a perfect relationship. Who am I? I'm a failure. When are things going to get better? Things won't get better. They never do. Why are you hurting youself? Because, I can't find myself. I don't know who I am.
    LovingChihiro LovingChihiro 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 16, 2014

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    I never understand myself.

    Whenever Im trying to talk about something, I'll get quiet just because I don't feel like talking anymore. It's stupid. Other times I'll just say a whole bunch of words that don't make sense at all and not even comprehend. I don't even know if what Im typing right now makes...
    AshLovesLink AshLovesLink 18-21, F Mar 4, 2014

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    One moment im happy and bubbly then the next im

    sad or angry and having a "plus-one" has never mattered to me now sometimes when i see a couple i feel empty inside . i looked it up it said it could be depression, i told my older sister but she said it wasnt. It's becoming hard to hide the mood swings and i dont know what to...
    Hellokitty1313 Hellokitty1313 13-15, F 1 Response Oct 13, 2014

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    I don't get really sad

    when people die but I absolutely break down if I see an animal in even the slightest bit of pain. I don't know what I'll do when my 2 cats die eventually. I just don't understand why animal death and pain affects me more than human.
    scarynipple scarynipple 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 4, 2014

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    I'm always so shy. I'd act like something was more interesting or act like I'm busy so I don't have to do something simple, like greet friends. I can't even ask the salesperson for...
    kaylemkun kaylemkun 13-15, M Jan 15

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    Although I have a friend who always tell me that he understands me but Im not really sure that he really understands!! Actually I highly doubt anyone can understand me but I still...
    rainsnducks rainsnducks 18-21, F Jan 17

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    Part of the reason is because I am still young and don't fully understand myself. However, now that I have a toddler, school, work, my house and bf I have learned to open up and...
    RjMommy245 RjMommy245 22-25, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    how can people understand me when I don't even understand myself.
    EnjoyTheSilenceX EnjoyTheSilenceX 13-15, F Dec 31, 2014

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    I am depressed for 5-6 months now. I sleep a lot during the day, Im always late for school because I have difficulty getting up in the morning. I have no motivation, everything...
    jadzullaik3 jadzullaik3 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    Sometimes, I don't even understand myself!
    weirduo weirduo 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 1

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    More than anything in this existence. "What could be So bad about you?" don't ask me that, you shouldn't ask me that, very annoying. I take everything out on myself because I feel...
    Britt4ny Britt4ny 70+, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Self Reflections My skin is not a tough armor, its too thin and easily broken. The air i am inhaling is attenuating with each gasp for breath. My shins are quivering and small...
    writingmyrelease writingmyrelease 26-30, F 3 hrs ago

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    I've talked to myself ever since I can remember... it's how I fall asleep at night. I like to place myself as a character into my favorite sci-fi of the time and just act out...
    emilyannie emilyannie 18-21, F 9 hrs ago

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    So the other day I was at olive garden for my brothers birthday and we were having a great time with his friends but I while I was having fun I was forgetting that I really had to...
    NapalmNinja NapalmNinja 18-21, F 7 Responses 8 hrs ago

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    I was born with a gift. Sounds like a blessing, right? But in some ways it is a curse. I've called myself a monster for so many times. I feel like Elsa from Frozen, and its no...
    Seaspiritaria Seaspiritaria 13-15, F 3 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    When a person says, "I'm homesick," what most people hear is, "I miss my home." That's fair. That's what most people mean when they utter that phrase. But homesickness can mean so...
    FriendlyBryan FriendlyBryan 41-45, M 2 Responses Jan 3

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    I have an urgent need to forgive myself for something I did in high school. For years I've been very harsh with myself about this mistake and I've been telling myself that what I...
    NamelessNomad NamelessNomad 22-25, F Jan 20

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    I made a mistake I told myself I would never make, I let someone else be my happiness. Now I feel like my world is being torn apart. I had never believed in love, and I had...
    Unbloomed Unbloomed 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    I hate being strong when I know I'm weak...but I act that way so ppl don't look at me with pity I hate being beautiful when I feel ugly, i put on makeup and dress to impress, but...
    boxgirl1987 boxgirl1987 26-30, F Jan 4

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    have you ever had this moment when reality/life just hits you and you ask yourself "what the hell is wrong with me ? I really need to get a grip of myself and my life!" after this...
    Solitaire91 Solitaire91 22-25, M 8 hrs ago

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    I thought I was reborn but that was wrong. I just finally found myself it took me a while but it's good to find the true intent of my good character and finally having the strength...
    iamstarlord iamstarlord 26-30 4 hrs ago

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    A night of messy boxer shorts so last year I was up till really late a night I needed to poop but I wanted to poop my boxers late so I wouldn't get caught so in the end I went...
    Mushypanties12 Mushypanties12 18-21 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I can't remember the six first years of my life but they were the happiest years i've had for sure.I lived my life thinking that i had everything,that i was the luckiest person on...
    Rockzanne Rockzanne 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 13

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    Dear people in my life, Please understand why I am the way I am. Yes I'm supposed to act professional but sometimes I just want to have fun while I can. Yes I'm supposed to have my...
    DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt DeterminedToMakeLifeWorthIt 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 6

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    …and I never get bored of myself or hate myself... I love being myself at all times; perhaps I am a little narcissistic... Oh well, better than self hating, no? Although I don't...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 15

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    My relationship is so rocky... No matter what I say or do, for some reason it's wrong, rude, disrespectful, or dumb... I don't understand... I disagree with that 100%... I have...
    Chipperme21 Chipperme21 22-25, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Hey guys. I wrote this as a letter ill never send. let me know what you think? I stopped writing for a while, mostly because, well, I wanted to block out how I had been feeling...
    abbylynn98 abbylynn98 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Today marks the day of change. I've noticed I've gotten better with myself in growth. A year ago today I wanted to die, I hated myself more than anything in the world. But now I...
    acorn288 acorn288 16-17, F Jan 9

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    I did it! I established my boundary and stood up for myself! Im learning this is for any relationship, not just romantic partners. So, I have a friend who is a bit younger than I...
    Jhayne Jhayne 26-30 Jan 18

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    Its almost 5:30 in the morning and I'm still awake, I am wondering what my dad really thought of me. I thought he'd loved me, but really maybe he only loved my kids. Every one...
    shygirl1986 shygirl1986 26-30, F 2 Responses Jan 21

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    Guilt. Self doubt. Two character flaws that have tainted every part if my life. I wasted many years living in the past, dwelling on experiences that simply did not matter, feeling...
    nipplelover43 nipplelover43 36-40, M 2 Responses Jan 11

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    Improvement can mean different things. I think I improve myself in smaller ways, because I become less ignorant over time. With time, comes knowledge. I try to find logic to things...
    RhinosaurusRex RhinosaurusRex 18-21, F 6 Responses Jan 13

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    Today I read a lovely and inspiring story about relationships. The run down is that this lady spent a great deal of time belittling her husband over silly things. How he did them...
    aquagrl aquagrl 31-35, F Jan 14

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    I never placed a lot of stock in IQ or personality tests or horoscopes or astrology. Not saying they don't serve a purpose. Just always struck me as woefully inadequate assessments...
    justNIK justNIK 41-45, F 1 Response Jan 21

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    Welp... Here's another mental breakdown.. Today isn't the best day... I was in the bathroom brushing my teeth when I just looked in the mirror and realized how ugly I am. All my...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 10 Responses 6 days ago

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