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I Dont Understand Why Im Not Happy

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    Souless

    Well I havnt written anything in about 3 years but i finally have reached a point of insanity which noone i know can understand or be made aware. Where do I start this little peice of s***? hmm well Im angry, ****** ANGRY, but at who? why? and how can it be resolved? - I dont...
    username13 username13 22-25, M Jun 4, 2013

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    Just Dont Understand...

    im so depressed and suicidal...i live alone which is what i thought i wanted...i manage to pay rent and bills and i dont even have a job. i have a scholarship so i didnt have to pay but $50 in tuition. im doing well at u of m, a supposedly challenging university. i do so well in...
    imallihave imallihave 18-21, F Oct 15, 2011

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    Not Happy With The Way Things Have Turned Out

    Its really hard to put into words how I feel, but I just know I am not happy with myself and haven't been for a long time. Now a days I lack motivation to do anything, I struggle to get out of bed in the mornings and I struggle to do my university work. My life lacks routine. I...
    LollyMarv LollyMarv 18-21 1 Response May 11, 2012

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    .,.nj

    So when your not happy, you tend to think and think about it, trying desperatly to understand why, or what may be stopping you from being happy...well this is atleast true for me. Over the course of a few years (from when depression came into my life, til now) ive had many...
    username13 username13 22-25, M 3 Responses Mar 22, 2009

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    I Can't Understand

    I can't understand,Why I'm so sad,Everything,It seems,Goin' my way,I don't understand,Is somethin' missing,Or, am I,Missing the point?
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Mar 20, 2012

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    Well, I Do, But...

    I know the reason I'm not happy is because I cannot forgive myself for my past mistakes. What I don't understand is why I can't forgive myself. "It's all in the past", that's the mindset I should be taking, but I just keep going over everything I've done wrong in my head...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 16, 2011

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    Sad/Confusion

    I have a very supportive family, two best friends, a bright future etc. . . but i just feel empty and numb! I dont understand it! It's in my nature to analyse things that dont make sense, so i constantly question and agonise over why i'm like this. Why can't i just be...
    lostbutsearching lostbutsearching 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 16, 2009

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    Everyone always says to do what will make you

    happy. But I don't really know how to be happy. I guess to understand why I'm not happy I would first need to understand happiness. Obviously I get the denotation of the word happiness, but what is it. I struggle with understand what exactly causes happiness. And why is it so...
    AshleyWCSloth AshleyWCSloth 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 13

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    Same Thing Every Day..

    I get soo angry and sad I sometimes take it out on my mom.. When she asks whats wrong I have nothing to tell her. So she takes it in my way of trying to get attention. Then name calling happens and I eventually feel just as worse than before talking to anyone about it...
    summershine99 summershine99 16-17, F Apr 19, 2013

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    Recently

    I cannot say that I am sad, depressed, or any of that. I can say that sometimes, but not right now. Right now, I am just...fine. I am not happy. I am nervous, excited at times, have breif moments of happiness that never last, and many other emotions. I just can't find lasting...
    Doglover5290 Doglover5290 18-21, F Jul 16, 2009

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