I Don't Want to Be a Disappointment Any More

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    I Hate When I Fake It

    I hate when I fake who I am. I want to be me but when people come around that don't know I have come out transgender I tend to act the way they exspect me to. It's not there fault it's mine. Some people just don't understand and I don't want to deal with there ignorance. I love...
    rickysworld rickysworld
    26-30, T
    2 Responses Feb 25, 2008

    FED Up !!!

    I am fed up, my wife can't deal with the fact I am trans she goes from being fine to acting off the wall about it. I am who I am I have not changed much from who I have always been. she just has troubble now that she knows I am trans. I have read stories of people who...
    rickysworld rickysworld
    26-30, T
    4 Responses Mar 22, 2008

    I Really Don't....

    I really don't want to be a disappointment anymore, to anyone. I don't want to let everyone down anymore. i want to be that person that makes my family proud, that does the right things, that is there for everyone. i don't want to be someone who lets everyone down all the...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 1, 2009

    I Am a Disappointment.

    Not to my parents or anyone around me though.  They all seem to think I'm fine and dandy.  To myself, I fail everyday at life.  I make great grades in school, and people all seem to think I'm really smart, but when I'm by myself, trying to write, to make music, or...
    Onaquest Onaquest
    13-15, M
    Aug 10, 2009

    All I Do Is Disappoint.

    I always just feel like I'm letting people down. Especially my mum. I just always somehow seem to mess everything up and then she gets angry and annoyed at me. For once I just want to make her happy... make her poiud. I can't seem to do it though. Even when I really try my...
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 27, 2009

    I'm sorry mom and dad,

    college wasn't for me I had to drop out, I know how you feel I think I wasn't made for school I've always struggle to stay I'm class, I apologize for quitting my jobs but they were making me depress and now I'm even more depressed because I'm unemployed and you think I'm just...
    stellahh stellahh
    22-25, F
    Aug 14, 2014

    My Parents

    Hi, I'm 14 (age listed was an accident) and I always feel i'm a dissapointment to my parents. I excel in academics with straight A's and was almost chosen to be valedictorian. But, they always find faults in me, as in not playing sports, or socializing alot (I text mainly, no...
    erod47 erod47
    18-21, M
    Aug 31, 2012

    What's This All About? This Frown, This Ugly Pout?

    (I know this is long, but this is one of the most important experiences I've had, please read and comment) I guess it all started when it ended really. Up until 3rd grade I was a shining example with plenty of promise. Then I was homeschooled. I don't think homeschooling was...
    MissChii MissChii
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 9, 2009

    I'm Ready To Move On

    I've disappointed myself and everyone else for years. I want to end the cycle, finish something I start, and move on with my life. I have so many goals, and I am afraid of dying before I reach them. I wish I could get past my emotional issues so that I could charge ahead and...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
    31-35, F
    1 Response Nov 1, 2009

    Related Experiences

    I want to say goodbye for everyone I had a great time on here hope for all of you that I chatted with love you all
    Christina2016 Christina2016
    31-35, T
    a week ago
    Well its been a long and bumpy road my friend, you've done so much for me it's unbelievable. you've saved my life and helped me find the one I love most in the world. ups and...
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    1 Response Apr 21
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    Dolunay80 Dolunay80
    31-35, M
    Apr 21
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    kingkyrie kingkyrie
    51-55, M
    1 Response Apr 20
    don't shut us down...if you shut Ep you have shut so many people down... don't shut us down.. no..
    Rosalindaag Rosalindaag
    22-25, F
    Apr 20
    don't shut us down...if you shut Ep you have shut so many people down... don't shut us down.. no..
    Rosalindaag Rosalindaag
    22-25, F
    Apr 20
    please don't shut Ep down..
    Rosalindaag Rosalindaag
    22-25, F
    Apr 20
    It's been a great experience here, and although I spent most of my time here in the shadows, too afraid to express myself by means of an account, I'm glad I finally stepped into...
    Javik0509 Javik0509
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 20
    But it's coming to a close here on EP. I'll be checking messages on fetlife under epjustnickyhere. I might try to sign in on answermug too but registration was down. I'll probably...
    justnicky justnicky
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 20
    I don't want to lose contact with you. My contact information is on my profile. Also don't forget to bookmark and use the new site: www.teen-concerns.blogspot.com It is up and...
    Humanist321 Humanist321
    70+, M
    Apr 18
    Please don't close EP! I have had lots of fun on this site for ages and don't want it to end too soon! :(
    kbpimpin87 kbpimpin87
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 17
    Watching all these ghost videos and murders and urban legends and videos where people say in the future people will find out and I'm just over here rethinking my whole existence...
    Botdf1shutup Botdf1shutup
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 16
    I really love kids. But I'm struggle with depression and anxiety too. I have some goals in life, and children would make me change those goals. I have really never felt an urgent...
    realcomplicated realcomplicated
    26-30, M
    Apr 15
    I'm very sad and I really hate myself. Everyday I wake up and I don't have a purpose. I don't know what to do with myself. I don't really have friend's and even when I'm with...
    tlmboo tlmboo
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 15
    All my moods and all my guises, dullness ain't one of them.
    savoy2 savoy2
    46-50, M
    Apr 14
    I had you, then I lost you. I just want you back!
    CallmeJenny CallmeJenny
    22-25
    3 Responses Apr 12
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    Peridot23 Peridot23
    22-25, F
    Apr 11
    I don't want it shut down but the ep staff are starting to annoy the crap out of me
    gaygamer9376 gaygamer9376
    18-21, M
    Apr 10
    If you're in for a rebound then go play ball not on someone's heart! I'm nice but anyone can be so bad when get hurt so don't even try. XD
    soyyoprincesa soyyoprincesa
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 9
    Today I'm happy for children. Because of them, one woman didn't use her sewing machine so it became mine. Yayyyy!!
    prettyprude prettyprude
    31-35, F
    Apr 9
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    geminikygirl16 geminikygirl16
    41-45, F
    8 Responses Apr 9
    What if it didn't have to be goodbye? This site in the works gives me hope. I wonder if it will be our new home http://exp2.xyz
    jarocho jarocho
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Apr 8
    Sad and Alone, Last year when my mom died, I felt really sad and felt like i couldn't stop feeling sad and crying, but at least i had Ep and my friends onEp to talk to and get some...
    RedEyesBlackDragon RedEyesBlackDragon
    51-55, M
    Apr 8
    I know that I have trust issue. It's a hard thing to decide to trust someone. Even it's a hard thing if I trust someone automatically, against my desire. But there's a little...
    Muramasha Muramasha
    26-30, F
    1 Response Apr 8
    I never used to be that scared person but now it feels like the only emotions I have are fear and sadness. I'm so afraid of becoming homeless one day and having no money. Failing...
    FatsXbambino FatsXbambino
    16-17, F
    Apr 7
    I dont want this to be the end but seeing as on the 15th this site will be no more and ill be on holiday till the 19th this may well be the last time I speak to you guys... I've...
    pollypatterson19 pollypatterson19
    18-21, F
    Apr 6
    After reading stories from here for a few years and finally joining EP I'm sad to see it closing. Now I wish I could've joined sooner. However I have a notebook so I guess if I...
    KandiGhostcat KandiGhostcat
    16-17, F
    Apr 6
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    Templetonlillian Templetonlillian
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 5
    Any time I've ever shown weakness through crying I've been taken advantage of so I'm done. I've trained myself to not cry in public and in private. I can't remember the last time I...
    soulhyalie soulhyalie
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 4
    I'm so frustrated trying to find a comparable replacement for EP. I want to write stories, not ask questions. Ugh.
    OMGitsRiley OMGitsRiley
    26-30, F
    4 Responses Apr 4
    When i was a child, i pictured that my self would work 8hours per day on a State-Owned Enterprise or be a university teacher. Well, my life now is far from what i was pictured of...
    sjifa sjifa
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 4
    I don't really even know if I do anymore. My feelings have changed. It's hard, because I go back and forth between feeling hurt, then somewhat okay- happy even, and then ...so...
    TheGoddessB TheGoddessB
    31-35, F
    Apr 3
    alaskandom@gmail.com if you want to stay in touch after ep goes down!
    DOMdoes DOMdoes
    41-45, M
    Apr 3
    EP is truly one of a kind. Saved me too many from sinking into depression and finding unlikely friends during sleepless nights. Other social websites can't compare. :(
    ObliviousSainte ObliviousSainte
    36-40, F
    1 Response Apr 3
    I like this site because it gives teens, adults, etc the escape they need from life or the help. please don't close on everyone who needs it
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Apr 3
    I can't stand when a child screams. It ****** me off and all I want to do is tell the child to shut up.
    Peridot23 Peridot23
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 3
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    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 3
    I'll miss having someplace to go to , to vent my feelings. Whenever something happens my first thoughts run to EP. I'll miss is so so much. This is the one place where I never feel...
    booklover200016 booklover200016
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Apr 3
    OMG finding a replacement for EP is not an easy task! First... Relate to That I don't like this site. It's not at all user friendly. I plan to delete my account. Second...
    OMGitsRiley OMGitsRiley
    26-30, F
    12 Responses Apr 3
    I want my life to be full of twists and turns, and adventure. I want to feel like i'm in an indie movie. I want to be able to tell my children my experiences so that they will...
    HarleyHart HarleyHart
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 3
    The thing I will miss about EP is really just joining experience groups and posting about it. It's something that I had wanted to start doing more so I'm a bit disappointed that I...
    Hannah1100 Hannah1100
    13-15, F
    Apr 2
    I love this place, sure I could do with out the perves.... This is the only place I feel comfortable sharing about my life.. Iv had so many messed up things happen.. And so many...
    ArriannaKatsumi ArriannaKatsumi
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 2
    I feel that if I do..and I am left alone with myself..something bad will happen.. I'm not sure how bad..but something bad..if i had a site to vent like this before I found it...I...
    Cocrispy Cocrispy
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Apr 2
    who does want it close. well that be nobody I think everyone in the EP world would like to stay. I like EP to stay. it helped me out a lot. wonder where I go after EP close.
    slivereyes slivereyes
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Apr 2
    I understand that it may be necessary to set EP on Pause for some time... But this is a place that so many people find comfort on. I could go on, but please reconsider. Thanks.
    Naty73 Naty73
    13-15, M
    2 Responses Apr 2
    hey im 14 I don't care if your 13 14 or 15 but if you live in Wilmington near the silver lake area and your interested reply
    Slenderman23 Slenderman23
    13-15, F
    1 Response Apr 1
    I belong in an imaginary category between the angels and the demons.
    Destiny8907 Destiny8907
    16-17, F
    Apr 1
    I know he was't traing to hurt me...no body said it was gonna be easy to be with him like this. When i chooesd to be with him in these conditions i knew i was probely gonna get...
    jrcervin jrcervin
    18-21, M
    Apr 1
    I'm idk..different I guess..I mean I have seen alot stranger people..and alot more normal..I got some strange place in the middle ..like my little remote island from all the types...
    Cocrispy Cocrispy
    22-25, M
    1 Response Apr 1
    I love you, even tho you're 8 years younger than me, I still love you. you've been in my life for about 3 maybe four years already and I can't live without you anymore. And now...
    MoriyaSuwako MoriyaSuwako
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 1
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