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I Dont Want to Be Depressed

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 239 People

    It's Time to Make a Decision.

    For so long in my life I've been living in a strange depressive state or lived in a life that I didn't and don't want to live.  It's either been, "Great, I have to get up again and spend another day in this corpse", or, "Ugh.  Another day." ...
    Mitosis Mitosis 16-17, M Jul 20, 2008

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    Sometimes I'm afraid of being too happy

    because usually when I'm in a good mood, something bad always comes up and ruin it. Well, not always but sometimes. That's why whenever something good happens to me, I always end up feeling anxious. As absurd as it sounds, that's how it is. If only I could control my happiness...
    sarasakun sarasakun 18-21, F Aug 11

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    This Is Not Me

    This last months have not being the best for me for many reasons and I've being feeling so depressed I cant even believe it. I mean I cry every single day, day and night, I cry over stupid things, I cry over serious things.  My mind has being full of thoughts from my past...
    Secretpoem Secretpoem 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 10, 2007

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    Dont Want To Be Alone And Depressed

    i HAD A DREAM WHEN I WAS A KID OF HAVEING A FAMILY  AND BEING ABLE TO BE HAPPY. I got married when i was 21 years old meet my frist real love when i was 19 and moved in with her when i grad from high school. Man i wish i didnt do that now she took it all when she left me...
    ddayton85 ddayton85 31-35, M 2 Responses Feb 26, 2010

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    It feels like the whole world has passed me by.

    Now I know that's a melancholic exaggeration, but it's been really hard to feel that I belong. Sometimes I Imagine myself in the positions of some of my peers. And truly it becomes so out of character. I can't see myself with children, I can't even begin to imagine all the...
    ACrueljape ACrueljape 22-25 Jan 12

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    I'm scared of myself.

    I'm scared that if I stay, i'll continue to feel this way, if I go, im letting go of what my life could've been. The problem is that I don't see what my life could bring. I don't see myself being any use, I don't see my future, and I want to, it's just that I'm inside my head...
    ast313 ast313 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 17, 2014

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    Depression

    Depression,Had enough,Ain't me,No more,Need a lift,This way,Not for me.For me this is an experience I've had more than once in the past. I seem to be lifting now.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Jan 25, 2012

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    Same Post New Section

    I'm kind of copying this one over from the need to talk section because it may do me more good here. I just needs some sort of advice or at least something to grasp onto. Well, i don't really know how i feel about this but i don't know where else to go. To start, I'm a 24 year...
    fairsight3 fairsight3 22-25, M Sep 18, 2012

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    Crying

    I wake up every day and for just a few seconds every thing is ok then it hits me like a truck the feeling of horror the feeling of fear the massive gut wrenching feeling of being suspended in limbo and my life is going nowwhere but down. I try so hard to be happy for the kids but...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 28, 2009

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    I am still battling depression

    for almost 2 years. I had my great moments but also those moments when I just want to die in a hole. I really want this to end. I want to smile and feel great for a longer period of time. I want to be in the sunshine and not inside feeling like I am pointless. I want to get back...
    Alyzza123 Alyzza123 13-15, F Aug 15, 2014

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    Elly2020 Elly2020 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2014

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