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I Dont Want to Be Depressed

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 205 People

    It feels like the whole world has passed me by.

    Now I know that's a melancholic exaggeration, but it's been really hard to feel that I belong. Sometimes I Imagine myself in the positions of some of my peers. And truly it becomes so out of character. I can't see myself with children, I can't even begin to imagine all the...
    ACrueljape ACrueljape 22-25 Jan 12

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    Theycallherelly Theycallherelly 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2014

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    I am still battling depression

    for almost 2 years. I had my great moments but also those moments when I just want to die in a hole. I really want this to end. I want to smile and feel great for a longer period of time. I want to be in the sunshine and not inside feeling like I am pointless. I want to get back...
    Alyzza123 Alyzza123 13-15, F Aug 15, 2014

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    This Is Not Me

    This last months have not being the best for me for many reasons and I've being feeling so depressed I cant even believe it. I mean I cry every single day, day and night, I cry over stupid things, I cry over serious things.  My mind has being full of thoughts from my past...
    Secretpoem Secretpoem 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 10, 2007

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    Depression

    Depression,Had enough,Ain't me,No more,Need a lift,This way,Not for me.For me this is an experience I've had more than once in the past. I seem to be lifting now.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Jan 25, 2012

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    I'm scared of myself.

    I'm scared that if I stay, i'll continue to feel this way, if I go, im letting go of what my life could've been. The problem is that I don't see what my life could bring. I don't see myself being any use, I don't see my future, and I want to, it's just that I'm inside my head...
    ast313 ast313 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 17, 2014

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    Same Post New Section

    I'm kind of copying this one over from the need to talk section because it may do me more good here. I just needs some sort of advice or at least something to grasp onto. Well, i don't really know how i feel about this but i don't know where else to go. To start, I'm a 24 year...
    fairsight3 fairsight3 22-25, M Sep 18, 2012

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    Dont Want To Be Alone And Depressed

    i HAD A DREAM WHEN I WAS A KID OF HAVEING A FAMILY  AND BEING ABLE TO BE HAPPY. I got married when i was 21 years old meet my frist real love when i was 19 and moved in with her when i grad from high school. Man i wish i didnt do that now she took it all when she left me...
    ddayton85 ddayton85 31-35, M 2 Responses Feb 26, 2010

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    It's Time to Make a Decision.

    For so long in my life I've been living in a strange depressive state or lived in a life that I didn't and don't want to live.  It's either been, "Great, I have to get up again and spend another day in this corpse", or, "Ugh.  Another day." ...
    Mitosis Mitosis 16-17, M Jul 20, 2008

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    Crying

    I wake up every day and for just a few seconds every thing is ok then it hits me like a truck the feeling of horror the feeling of fear the massive gut wrenching feeling of being suspended in limbo and my life is going nowwhere but down. I try so hard to be happy for the kids but...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 28, 2009

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    Related Experiences

    Well, basically I decided I need to write. Plain and simple.. So write away I will... I guess some where along the journey I lost sight of the fact that for the longest time I...
    WaterfallDrops WaterfallDrops 26-30, M 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    Today was my 17th birthday and just like last year, I did nothing on my bday, I was sad I didn't hangout with anyone and I was home with my family. I got presents and I'm grateful...
    itscarolina27 itscarolina27 16-17, F 2 Responses 16 hrs ago

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    Wow didn't know so many users are depressed. Wonder what we're all hoping to find here or are we all just passing the time venting our lives in different experiences?
    tangledweb94 tangledweb94 18-21, M 13 hrs ago

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    I have a lot going on right now, mostly things that are out of my control. Maybe I am a bit of a control freak, I'm not sure, but having so many things "up in the air" is making me...
    PuertoRicanPrincess PuertoRicanPrincess 41-45, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    This world is really starting to get to me...I have not been on here much because I have been so busy with other people who think I am some kind of angel...which I am not an angel...
    MMMartin MMMartin 51-55, F 3 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    im just ranting and im depressed always and constantly feel lonely no matter what I always feel im a bother no matter, I guess im just upset I had to cut down a tree now my whole...
    poeticnightmare poeticnightmare 18-21, M 2 Responses 5 hrs ago

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    I've grown and matured ALOT from the last post I made here. That 14 year old depressed boy isn't me any more. Im 16 now and it's amazing how much you can learn about your self...
    Aliroman Aliroman 16-17, M 10 hrs ago

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    I really do think i'm depressed. My guardian won't take me to a doctor to see if something is wrong with me because she says i'll just use it as an excuse for the rest of my life...
    ImYourLady ImYourLady 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 1

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    So, I'm a 16 y/o who's depressed, big deal... That's what I want to be believe. Anyway, I've been depressed for over 2 years, it affected me so much that it got to the point that...
    freedeer freedeer 16-17, M 2 Responses Jan 19

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    I'm fifteen. I'm a sophomore and I've been continually depressed since last summer when the first girl I legitimately fell for got really mad at me and then moved away. I just sent...
    GuiltyLover GuiltyLover 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 17

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    It's weird to admit that. Actually it's almost scary to admit being depressed. Until recently I couldn't even form the words 'I'm depressed', and honestly I still have trouble...
    TrappedInAWonderland TrappedInAWonderland 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 10

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    At first I did not know I am depressed. I was just...sad, and completely lack motivation in everything. My chest always feels heavy?not literally?and it is like having a dark and...
    littleowlet littleowlet 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 11

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    Everywhere I go I don't belong Everywhere I go I am lonely Everywhere I go I am ignored Everywhere I go I am talked about Everywhere I go I am depressed All I want to do is die...
    Newgirl00 Newgirl00 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 14

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    I haven't been on here in a really long time. But I'm getting really desperate. I've been in so much physical pain I can't even watch tv anymore. I just wandered around my house...
    Invisibleninja12 Invisibleninja12 18-21, F Jan 14

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    I do not know what to ******* do right now!!! I have been depressed these days!!! I feel lonely, I feel like no cares for me and it is like everyday !!! I feel ugly !!! I am so...
    Katt007 Katt007 18-21, F Jan 5

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    I hate it that I don't know what to say when I see a depressed person's story on here. I am an albino with weak eyesight and I hate the sun. My father passed away when I was nine...
    anonymousmuslimteen anonymousmuslimteen 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 16

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    it's always on and of . im starting to wonder if depression ever truly goes away. I thought my meds were working and I was getting better and then all of a sudden one afternoon I...
    EnjoyTheSilenceX EnjoyTheSilenceX 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 1

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    This happens every few months. I get super depressed and don't even want to get out of bed. It's also not helping that people are being jerks. A friend of mine was suppose to text...
    maggiemae89 maggiemae89 22-25, F 3 Responses Dec 28, 2014

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    I am writing this incase anyone else finds themselves in a similar situation . . . Please do not worry about me, I have been free of this relationship for 7 years now. I am a lot...
    elimarie7 elimarie7 31-35, F Dec 31, 2014

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    I am writing this incase anyone else finds themselves in a similar situation . . . Please do not worry about me, I have been free of this relationship for 7 years now. I am a lot...
    elimarie7 elimarie7 31-35, F 1 Response Dec 31, 2014

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    Sometimes I feel like I hate my mother so much I just don't want to talk to her for years. I know it seems unfair, but I just feel like maybe if she gave me a little space on my...
    Wewerethereinthattime Wewerethereinthattime 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    I don't what I'm going to do with my life. I'm failing school when I used to be a straight a student. I try studying but I have a hard time being able to focus. Even when I do...
    IntrovertedKat IntrovertedKat 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    My only friend never wants to hang out with me. Every time I ask her she says she is not feeling well or is busy. Today I asked why she never wanted to hangout with me , she said...
    IntrovertedKat IntrovertedKat 16-17, F Dec 29, 2014

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    It's one of those mornings. I feel beyond depressed, and I don't want to die at the moment... but that constantly changes. I feel like there is no hope and nothing in my life will...
    ally109 ally109 22-25, F Jan 1

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    I have this thought for a long time. But I've never got the guts to do it. Sometimes I wish that I can just disappear to somewhere new, where no one knows me. Sometimes I have the...
    hRtXIII hRtXIII 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    Every time I seem to find myself getting to better place...my mind just won't let it happen. I've been in such a good state of mind all week, but last night my nightmares came back...
    vault101 vault101 26-30, F Jan 18

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    I'm just so tired. Everything I do now wears me out, even the smallest things make me want to sleep for a long time. I was hoping it'd be over after the last time, but what they...
    absenceofsound absenceofsound 13-15, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    So I'm 13 and an 8th grader in NYC. I've never ever been concerned with looks. But last year, I dont know why, I just got more concerned with looks. Being pretty isn't on my life...
    skittlesandanimals skittlesandanimals 13-15, F 1 day ago

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    I Hate being at parties or around people when I feel depressed. I feel like I will cry at any moment and that would be a disaster. Everyone asking what's wrong when I don't know...
    nadia50 nadia50 16-17, M 2 Responses Dec 31, 2014

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    I had a major breakdown a couple of days ago and my family had to call the ambulance cause I was completely out of it. We were almost at the hospital when I began coming back to my...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F Jan 3

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    I get everything I ******* want, I have lots of friends, I do good in school. Why do I continue to feel this way? I have no back story. I have never had to feel the grief of a loss...
    Spookitty Spookitty 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    I've posted this before but I have not received a response . I am really depressed, I have been ever since my best friend left, my other friends and starting to ignore me. I...
    DeathlyLlama459 DeathlyLlama459 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 15

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    I've been depressed for a long time now. I wish that my mom and dad thought about having kids before actually having me. I wish I wasn't born because everyone blames me for...
    WeirdOtaku WeirdOtaku 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 16

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    I sleep 12 hours a day and all I want is to not have to wake up anymore. Please, please, please let me just stop waking up. I don't like being here. I hate myself and I hate life...
    mysteryhatcat mysteryhatcat 18-21, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I just want to be held and to feel the tender warm touch of a woman. I crave affection when i am depressed and lonely. :( Holding a stuffed animals just is not the same...
    Stephanieloveowl Stephanieloveowl 26-30, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    To anyone who believe in vibes and such or just knows about psychology, I have a few narsassists in my life. Recently I've had a change in spirit and went from being depressed to a...
    strawberryletter22 strawberryletter22 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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