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I Dont Want to Be Depressed

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 203 People

    Theycallherelly Theycallherelly 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2014

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    It's Time to Make a Decision.

    For so long in my life I've been living in a strange depressive state or lived in a life that I didn't and don't want to live.  It's either been, "Great, I have to get up again and spend another day in this corpse", or, "Ugh.  Another day." ...
    Mitosis Mitosis 16-17, M Jul 20, 2008

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    Crying

    I wake up every day and for just a few seconds every thing is ok then it hits me like a truck the feeling of horror the feeling of fear the massive gut wrenching feeling of being suspended in limbo and my life is going nowwhere but down. I try so hard to be happy for the kids but...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 28, 2009

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    This Is Not Me

    This last months have not being the best for me for many reasons and I've being feeling so depressed I cant even believe it. I mean I cry every single day, day and night, I cry over stupid things, I cry over serious things.  My mind has being full of thoughts from my past...
    Secretpoem Secretpoem 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 10, 2007

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    Dont Want To Be Alone And Depressed

    i HAD A DREAM WHEN I WAS A KID OF HAVEING A FAMILY  AND BEING ABLE TO BE HAPPY. I got married when i was 21 years old meet my frist real love when i was 19 and moved in with her when i grad from high school. Man i wish i didnt do that now she took it all when she left me...
    ddayton85 ddayton85 31-35, M 2 Responses Feb 26, 2010

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    Same Post New Section

    I'm kind of copying this one over from the need to talk section because it may do me more good here. I just needs some sort of advice or at least something to grasp onto. Well, i don't really know how i feel about this but i don't know where else to go. To start, I'm a 24 year...
    fairsight3 fairsight3 22-25, M Sep 18, 2012

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    I am still battling depression

    for almost 2 years. I had my great moments but also those moments when I just want to die in a hole. I really want this to end. I want to smile and feel great for a longer period of time. I want to be in the sunshine and not inside feeling like I am pointless. I want to get back...
    Alyzza123 Alyzza123 13-15, F Aug 15, 2014

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    I'm scared of myself.

    I'm scared that if I stay, i'll continue to feel this way, if I go, im letting go of what my life could've been. The problem is that I don't see what my life could bring. I don't see myself being any use, I don't see my future, and I want to, it's just that I'm inside my head...
    ast313 ast313 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 17, 2014

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    It feels like the whole world has passed me by.

    Now I know that's a melancholic exaggeration, but it's been really hard to feel that I belong. Sometimes I Imagine myself in the positions of some of my peers. And truly it becomes so out of character. I can't see myself with children, I can't even begin to imagine all the...
    ACrueljape ACrueljape 22-25 Jan 12

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    Depression

    Depression,Had enough,Ain't me,No more,Need a lift,This way,Not for me.For me this is an experience I've had more than once in the past. I seem to be lifting now.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Jan 25, 2012

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    The worse thing about being depressed and lonely is not knowing that no one cares about you but knowing that no one will try to care.
    paradisiacal paradisiacal 16-17, F 12 hrs ago

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    They aren't 'just cold' in the middle of summer. It wasn't 'just the cat" who left perfect parallel lines on their wrists. They aren't 'just hungry' and they didn't 'already eat...
    callmeLys callmeLys 13-15, F 11 hrs ago

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    The bravest thing I've ever done is have the courage to live another day even when I want to quit so badly.
    emiveritas emiveritas 18-21, F 5 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I’m not sure how to start this and if someone will ever read this, but I need to get it off my chest. My name is Anna, I am 18 years old and I've been suffering from depression...
    azarr azarr 18-21, F 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I don't know what to do. I'm still being checked for scars, but it's not helping. My eyes are heavy but I can't cry. I can't cut. I feel too bad. I don't know what to do. I don't...
    AveiraAmaria AveiraAmaria 18-21, F 1 hr ago

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    I really do think i'm depressed. My guardian won't take me to a doctor to see if something is wrong with me because she says i'll just use it as an excuse for the rest of my life...
    ImYourLady ImYourLady 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 1

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    So, I'm a 16 y/o who's depressed, big deal... That's what I want to be believe. Anyway, I've been depressed for over 2 years, it affected me so much that it got to the point that...
    freedeer freedeer 16-17, M 2 Responses Jan 19

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    I'm fifteen. I'm a sophomore and I've been continually depressed since last summer when the first girl I legitimately fell for got really mad at me and then moved away. I just sent...
    GuiltyLover GuiltyLover 13-15, M 1 Response Jan 17

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    It's weird to admit that. Actually it's almost scary to admit being depressed. Until recently I couldn't even form the words 'I'm depressed', and honestly I still have trouble...
    TrappedInAWonderland TrappedInAWonderland 16-17, F 3 Responses Jan 10

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    At first I did not know I am depressed. I was just...sad, and completely lack motivation in everything. My chest always feels heavy?not literally?and it is like having a dark and...
    littleowlet littleowlet 13-15, F 3 Responses Jan 11

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    Everywhere I go I don't belong Everywhere I go I am lonely Everywhere I go I am ignored Everywhere I go I am talked about Everywhere I go I am depressed All I want to do is die...
    Newgirl00 Newgirl00 13-15, F 2 Responses Jan 14

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    I haven't been on here in a really long time. But I'm getting really desperate. I've been in so much physical pain I can't even watch tv anymore. I just wandered around my house...
    Invisibleninja12 Invisibleninja12 18-21, F Jan 14

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    I never have any energy. I'm like a zombie. I feel lifeless. I basically live in my bed and have for 6 - 7 years. It's hard for me to do small and necessary tasks. My motivation is...
    cutemuffin524 cutemuffin524 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    I do not know what to ******* do right now!!! I have been depressed these days!!! I feel lonely, I feel like no cares for me and it is like everyday !!! I feel ugly !!! I am so...
    Katt007 Katt007 18-21, F Jan 5

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    I hate it that I don't know what to say when I see a depressed person's story on here. I am an albino with weak eyesight and I hate the sun. My father passed away when I was nine...
    anonymousmuslimteen anonymousmuslimteen 16-17, M 1 Response Jan 16

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    it's always on and of . im starting to wonder if depression ever truly goes away. I thought my meds were working and I was getting better and then all of a sudden one afternoon I...
    EnjoyTheSilenceX EnjoyTheSilenceX 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 1

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    Sometimes I feel like I hate my mother so much I just don't want to talk to her for years. I know it seems unfair, but I just feel like maybe if she gave me a little space on my...
    Wewerethereinthattime Wewerethereinthattime 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 3

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    I don't what I'm going to do with my life. I'm failing school when I used to be a straight a student. I try studying but I have a hard time being able to focus. Even when I do...
    IntrovertedKat IntrovertedKat 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    All I've wanted to do today was to either get in a wreck or fall and get a big bloody gash. I dont know what to do anymore. He's all I think about and i desperately want to be...
    blackspikex blackspikex 18-21, F 2 days ago

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    It's one of those mornings. I feel beyond depressed, and I don't want to die at the moment... but that constantly changes. I feel like there is no hope and nothing in my life will...
    ally109 ally109 22-25, F Jan 1

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    I have this thought for a long time. But I've never got the guts to do it. Sometimes I wish that I can just disappear to somewhere new, where no one knows me. Sometimes I have the...
    hRtXIII hRtXIII 22-25, F 1 Response Jan 2

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    Every time I seem to find myself getting to better place...my mind just won't let it happen. I've been in such a good state of mind all week, but last night my nightmares came back...
    vault101 vault101 26-30, F Jan 18

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    I'm just so tired. Everything I do now wears me out, even the smallest things make me want to sleep for a long time. I was hoping it'd be over after the last time, but what they...
    absenceofsound absenceofsound 13-15, F 1 Response a week ago

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    So I'm 13 and an 8th grader in NYC. I've never ever been concerned with looks. But last year, I dont know why, I just got more concerned with looks. Being pretty isn't on my life...
    skittlesandanimals skittlesandanimals 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    Well, basically I decided I need to write. Plain and simple.. So write away I will... I guess some where along the journey I lost sight of the fact that for the longest time I...
    WaterfallDrops WaterfallDrops 26-30, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Well as most might have read I am about to go through my separation and will have to move in July. Right now I love where I live and spent my entire life hating where I grew up and...
    VBLOVE1106 VBLOVE1106 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    I'm so depressed its not even funny. I'm so mean to all my family and everyone and I'm just really angry. I feel like killing myself and I hate people...like...I HATE people. My...
    hellerpeople hellerpeople 18-21, F 1 Response 18 hrs ago

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    I had a major breakdown a couple of days ago and my family had to call the ambulance cause I was completely out of it. We were almost at the hospital when I began coming back to my...
    lily449 lily449 18-21, F Jan 3

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    I get everything I ******* want, I have lots of friends, I do good in school. Why do I continue to feel this way? I have no back story. I have never had to feel the grief of a loss...
    Spookitty Spookitty 13-15, F 1 Response Jan 5

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    I've posted this before but I have not received a response . I am really depressed, I have been ever since my best friend left, my other friends and starting to ignore me. I...
    DeathlyLlama459 DeathlyLlama459 22-25, M 2 Responses Jan 15

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    I've been depressed for a long time now. I wish that my mom and dad thought about having kids before actually having me. I wish I wasn't born because everyone blames me for...
    WeirdOtaku WeirdOtaku 18-21, M 3 Responses Jan 16

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    I sleep 12 hours a day and all I want is to not have to wake up anymore. Please, please, please let me just stop waking up. I don't like being here. I hate myself and I hate life...
    mysteryhatcat mysteryhatcat 18-21, F 3 Responses Jan 22

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    I just want to be held and to feel the tender warm touch of a woman. I crave affection when i am depressed and lonely. :( Holding a stuffed animals just is not the same...
    Stephanieloveowl Stephanieloveowl 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 23

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    To anyone who believe in vibes and such or just knows about psychology, I have a few narsassists in my life. Recently I've had a change in spirit and went from being depressed to a...
    strawberryletter22 strawberryletter22 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I have been feeling depressed for so many years now I'd rather not count, but I am really starting to question will ever get any bettet for me. As every time I allow myself to...
    dstarbuck dstarbuck 22-25, M 1 Response Jan 6

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    When I feel depressed the thought of eating sickens me. If I am severely depressed I could starve myself for days on end up to a week, instead I drink up to 4 V cans a day (a drink...
    WokenandOpen WokenandOpen 31-35, M 1 Response Jan 9

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