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I Dont Want to Be Depressed

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    I wake up every day and for just a few seconds every thing is ok then it hits me like a truck the feeling of horror the feeling of fear the massive gut wrenching feeling of being suspended in limbo and my life is going nowwhere but down. I try so hard to be happy for the kids but...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 28, 2009

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    Dont Want To Be Alone And Depressed

    i HAD A DREAM WHEN I WAS A KID OF HAVEING A FAMILY  AND BEING ABLE TO BE HAPPY. I got married when i was 21 years old meet my frist real love when i was 19 and moved in with her when i grad from high school. Man i wish i didnt do that now she took it all when she left me...
    ddayton85 ddayton85 31-35, M 2 Responses Feb 26, 2010

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    It's Time to Make a Decision.

    For so long in my life I've been living in a strange depressive state or lived in a life that I didn't and don't want to live.  It's either been, "Great, I have to get up again and spend another day in this corpse", or, "Ugh.  Another day." ...
    Mitosis Mitosis 16-17, M Jul 20, 2008

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    This Is Not Me

    This last months have not being the best for me for many reasons and I've being feeling so depressed I cant even believe it. I mean I cry every single day, day and night, I cry over stupid things, I cry over serious things.  My mind has being full of thoughts from my past...
    Secretpoem Secretpoem 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 10, 2007

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    Same Post New Section

    I'm kind of copying this one over from the need to talk section because it may do me more good here. I just needs some sort of advice or at least something to grasp onto. Well, i don't really know how i feel about this but i don't know where else to go. To start, I'm a 24 year...
    fairsight3 fairsight3 22-25, M Sep 18, 2012

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    I am still battling depression

    for almost 2 years. I had my great moments but also those moments when I just want to die in a hole. I really want this to end. I want to smile and feel great for a longer period of time. I want to be in the sunshine and not inside feeling like I am pointless. I want to get back...
    Alyzza123 Alyzza123 13-15, F Aug 15

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    Depression

    Depression,Had enough,Ain't me,No more,Need a lift,This way,Not for me.For me this is an experience I've had more than once in the past. I seem to be lifting now.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Jan 25, 2012

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    I'm scared of myself.

    I'm scared that if I stay, i'll continue to feel this way, if I go, im letting go of what my life could've been. The problem is that I don't see what my life could bring. I don't see myself being any use, I don't see my future, and I want to, it's just that I'm inside my head...
    ast313 ast313 13-15, F 3 Responses Aug 17

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    Theycallherelly Theycallherelly 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 15

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    The last time I was on EP was quite a long time ago when I wrote a small paragraph thanking everyone who had read "My Story" and gave me tremendous support. Though I was overjoyed...
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    I am afraid today not because I am depressed. But the pain is ready to touch the max limit.. I've bipolar. Was diagnosed when I was in my late teen. Though my mom's friend who...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Dec 16

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    I'm 21 and I am nowhere were I wanted to be at this age. No matter what I do I seem to have travelled backwards to a point where I feel stuck, alone, angry, and frustrated. My...
    maleoftheyear maleoftheyear 18-21, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I feel like my problems are minuscule after reading some of the posts on here, it makes me feel bad for being sad... I can’t help it though, I feel so worthless. I just turned...
    thecap246 thecap246 18-21, F Nov 27

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    Its not that im giving up... i just dont feel like fighting anymore. Im 16 and im so depressed. I dont know why..i dont know what to do..i havnt even been outside in 4 days the...
    bunnydisaster77 bunnydisaster77 22-25, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    I am thankful for the little things in life, and I try to smile and laugh, but it's not enough to help me. My head is fuzzy like a cotton ball. And grey, like a sorrowful sky. The...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    I always act happy so no one really knows how depressed I am I'm just the weirdo that doesn't talk and doesn't have friends but I can't make friends when I get scared to talk to...
    christinelol christinelol 13-15, F 2 Responses Nov 24

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    People around me know that I have a tendency to get depressed and be sad. But it still hurts when people ask what's wrong and I give an honest answer, "I'm depressed.", and they...
    poopy0219 poopy0219 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 15

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    I am a kind hearted and I truly do want (almost) everyone to be happy but seeing happy people only worsens my depression. I will see people having fun and smiling with their...
    oohfiretwerks oohfiretwerks 13-15, F Dec 14

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    Why is it so hard for me to open up to people? I need support because I feel as though I'm getting worse but I don't open up to anyone and when I'm around people, I act the...
    fatality500 fatality500 13-15, M Dec 12

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    I don't want nobody to know I am depressed. Nobody have a thing about my life. I am the only one who can decide what is better. The biggest problem of exposing my feelings is...
    roberamar roberamar 22-25, M Nov 24

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    I don't want to be depressed. I just want to be happy. My mom doesn't let me go out the house nor hang out with friends when I ask her if I can go she flips out and she says that...
    Delssy Delssy 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    Hi everyone. I used to be depressed because I felt like I was alone, but not anymore. I used to feel pressure in high school that I needed to cling on to someone, whether it be a...
    thisisausernametoo thisisausernametoo 18-21 1 Response Dec 10

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    We have been together for 10 years, had a ceremony but not legally married in 2007. We have a four year old boy together. We have been having the same argument for past 5 plus...
    Ashleys44 Ashleys44 26-30, F 1 Response Dec 15

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    One of my mates killed themself last week, I went to his funeral but all I could think was how it should be me in that coffin. I've probably been feeling pretty depressed since I...
    drawmysmile drawmysmile 16-17, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    Have so many thoughts in my head right now...idk I'm really messed up emotionally and mentally right now I'm scared to tell anyone how I feel and I don't want to be judged I don...
    BadGirl0312 BadGirl0312 26-30, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I'm so tierd of feeling this way, I feel so alone and just so sad. I try staying positive that things will be better again but they never are it seems like everything comes...
    taid2000 taid2000 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    I'm so depressed. I don't know what to do. I feel like droping out of school, because I don't care anymore. Nothing gives me the joy it used to. I'm just so tired and stressed. I...
    KimTin33 KimTin33 22-25, F 4 Responses Nov 29

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    I am constantly depressed due to stress, but even more now that I've finally found someone I truly love, not just crushing on, and they're gone. Now I know most people are going to...
    CindyLEvans CindyLEvans 16-17, F 3 Responses Nov 30

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    I am extremely depressed. I feel so bad. I just want to die or hurt myself really bad. No one likes to be around me. I'm a burden to my family. I feel like I have an anchor tied to...
    yonnie97 yonnie97 16-17, F 2 Responses Nov 30

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    Hey! I feel very sad and depressed because no one ever loved me romantically. I feel very lonley... What is wrong with me? My female friends had already a few boyfriends, yet no...
    Charlene1603 Charlene1603 18-21, F 3 Responses Dec 1

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    i need a friend to speak. i am depressed, want to share my feelings right now
    rushikesh99 rushikesh99 18-21, M 3 Responses Dec 7

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    Everyone at home think that I am the optimist of our family. I'm not. I am seriously depressed and have cut, OD'd, and have hurt myself in many other ways. I don't want help... I'm...
    AveiraAmaria AveiraAmaria 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 13

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    The last time I posted in this section, It was 2008, and I was 216 pounds. I was feeling discouraged and upset because I started to gain again. That was 6 years ago. Up until about...
    Rinoa Rinoa 26-30, F 6 Responses Dec 16

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    Even though my own mother is in complete denial, I am depressed. It's her job at making this easier for me, but she tends to always love doing the opposite. I'm feeling like I no...
    alexis3000 alexis3000 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 30

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    I've decided to stop trying to talk about my depression. I'm also ignoring the irony of talking about it right now. I just need to get this out of my mind. I've seen doctors for...
    NeverTrulyWanted NeverTrulyWanted 22-25, F 4 Responses Dec 11

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    i thought I was getting better. I told my parents about my depression and I confessed about cutting myself and self harming. i got put on antidepressants, they took a really long...
    EnjoyTheSilenceX EnjoyTheSilenceX 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 12

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    today i'm depressed , like every day and today i didn't just smoke weed like all time but also am absolutely drunk right now and i also took shrooms i am a depressed suicidal...
    Xnow Xnow 16-17, M 3 Responses Dec 15

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    I've been depressed for about 2-3 years now, funny thing is that if one was to see me normally, I am a very social person. I like talking to people, and making them laugh I guess...
    JaRuss JaRuss 18-21 Nov 24

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    I've thought of cutting myself many times, pretty much daily. Yet I've never done it. No one in my life knows I'm depressed, and I can't go to them to talk about this. Every time...
    Mokuba Mokuba 13-15, F 1 Response Nov 24

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    My two best friends ****** me over an now I'm so depressed, my family is now noticing. They kept me smiling and making me feel like I existed but lately they have been ignoring me...
    BrokenDesires BrokenDesires 13-15, F 4 Responses Nov 28

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    I had a friend, who was my biggest confidante. I loved him so much, but now the things are messed up. I hid something from him as I was afraid to lose him.. And now he has got to...
    TheLivingDead TheLivingDead 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 29

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    The past few weeks I've just been feeling so hopeless and I hate it. I was happy for a while - I think last summer, I was the happiest I've been in years, but over the past month...
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