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I Dont Want to Be Depressed

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 234 People

    Depression

    Depression,Had enough,Ain't me,No more,Need a lift,This way,Not for me.For me this is an experience I've had more than once in the past. I seem to be lifting now.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Jan 25, 2012

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    It's Time to Make a Decision.

    For so long in my life I've been living in a strange depressive state or lived in a life that I didn't and don't want to live.  It's either been, "Great, I have to get up again and spend another day in this corpse", or, "Ugh.  Another day." ...
    Mitosis Mitosis 16-17, M Jul 20, 2008

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    Dont Want To Be Alone And Depressed

    i HAD A DREAM WHEN I WAS A KID OF HAVEING A FAMILY  AND BEING ABLE TO BE HAPPY. I got married when i was 21 years old meet my frist real love when i was 19 and moved in with her when i grad from high school. Man i wish i didnt do that now she took it all when she left me...
    ddayton85 ddayton85 31-35, M 2 Responses Feb 26, 2010

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    This Is Not Me

    This last months have not being the best for me for many reasons and I've being feeling so depressed I cant even believe it. I mean I cry every single day, day and night, I cry over stupid things, I cry over serious things.  My mind has being full of thoughts from my past...
    Secretpoem Secretpoem 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 10, 2007

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    sighselly sighselly 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2014

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    Same Post New Section

    I'm kind of copying this one over from the need to talk section because it may do me more good here. I just needs some sort of advice or at least something to grasp onto. Well, i don't really know how i feel about this but i don't know where else to go. To start, I'm a 24 year...
    fairsight3 fairsight3 22-25, M Sep 18, 2012

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    It feels like the whole world has passed me by.

    Now I know that's a melancholic exaggeration, but it's been really hard to feel that I belong. Sometimes I Imagine myself in the positions of some of my peers. And truly it becomes so out of character. I can't see myself with children, I can't even begin to imagine all the...
    ACrueljape ACrueljape 22-25 Jan 12, 2015

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    Crying

    I wake up every day and for just a few seconds every thing is ok then it hits me like a truck the feeling of horror the feeling of fear the massive gut wrenching feeling of being suspended in limbo and my life is going nowwhere but down. I try so hard to be happy for the kids but...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 28, 2009

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    Sometimes I'm afraid of being too happy

    because usually when I'm in a good mood, something bad always comes up and ruin it. Well, not always but sometimes. That's why whenever something good happens to me, I always end up feeling anxious. As absurd as it sounds, that's how it is. If only I could control my happiness...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 11, 2015

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    I'm scared of myself.

    I'm scared that if I stay, i'll continue to feel this way, if I go, im letting go of what my life could've been. The problem is that I don't see what my life could bring. I don't see myself being any use, I don't see my future, and I want to, it's just that I'm inside my head...
    ast313 ast313 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 17, 2014

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    I am still battling depression

    for almost 2 years. I had my great moments but also those moments when I just want to die in a hole. I really want this to end. I want to smile and feel great for a longer period of time. I want to be in the sunshine and not inside feeling like I am pointless. I want to get back...
    Alyzza123 Alyzza123 13-15, F Aug 15, 2014

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    Related Experiences

    People ask me how can I be so happy after all that's happened to me, well the truth is... I chose to be happy and to live my life to the fullest instead of laying in bed all day...
    writingforlife6 writingforlife6 18-21, F 1 Response 49 mins ago

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    My normal anyway. My normal is a bit unpredictable and I generally feel comfortable with it being that way. That said, I have created many accounts on different social sites that...
    JessicaMarie35 JessicaMarie35 36-40, T 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I myself, have no clue what to do with my life. I finished year 12 last year and even then, whenever a peer would ask me questions like "what do you want to study in university...
    breesworld breesworld 16-17, F 1 Response 19 hrs ago

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    I'm not really depressed, but I need someone to talk to. I want a story, something..... please. (desperate for internet friends. Basically someone I can confide in)
    TeRiiFiiC TeRiiFiiC 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    again i am setting in a dark room smoking, having a drink, tv on for background noise. feeling depressed
    kometsr kometsr 61-65, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    Heads up not saying I am depressed but lately I've been feeling so unmotivated, quiet, uninterested, giving up and feel like everything is my fault. I just have the urge to not...
    jennifer5006 jennifer5006 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I been depressed for a long time now... I was molested four times by different people. Two were girls when i was younger. I just got out of a controlling relationship. I dont have...
    SimplyEbonie SimplyEbonie 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    Hello. I'm new here. I found this great forum while searching for "how to handle a bipolar spouse" I noticed a lot of other people deal with this and could really use the support...
    Tjm1919 Tjm1919 26-30, F 1 day ago

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    Envying somebody who is about to die or died. This is my feelings right now. Somebody I barely knew had a cancer. That person sent a message to my parents. "I don't want to die...
    Tazmanou Tazmanou 18-21, M 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I feel like a broken record everyday. School, family, and life overall have made me feel overwhelmed. I can't act like myself because I'm too depressed and my school is...
    Imbolcumbra Imbolcumbra 16-17, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I have been depressed over 3 weeks and none of my friends and family realize it because I always fake smile and fake laugh and it's so easy to foul them and I know that they won't...
    Iszy143 Iszy143 16-17, M 3 Responses 3 days ago

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    I've noticed a change in my mood in the past month or so and I think it's because of Spring and Summer approaching. I don't know why but I'm dreading the hotter months and the bugs...
    emjm013 emjm013 18-21, F 4 days ago

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    Nothing ever goes right for me it seems like. My asshat husband is going to get everything in the divorce while I'll get almost nothing. He was emotionally abusive to me...
    GoldenHeart69 GoldenHeart69 22-25, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm sick of everyone's profile, saying that they are so depressed. They're gonna be depressed if they don't cheer up. Sorry. I'm not being abrupt. I just want people to feel happy...
    Harryp0tter Harryp0tter 13-15, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I randomly came across this website when I was looking for ways to assuage my unhappiness. I have been feeling depressed for the past year and I couldn't heal myself with...
    Silh0uettes Silh0uettes 16-17, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I am with the love of my life. In 2002 we were good friends, then dated each other for a while, fell in love, only for us to get into a huge argument, part and go our separate...
    MartiniMagic MartiniMagic 36-40, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I figured out how to fix it. I have to change. But in order to understand what I have to change I have to be able to identify what's causing me pain. My pain seems to stem from...
    imjustaghost imjustaghost 26-30, M 1 Response a week ago

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    Soo deeply and badly. I am dying to have the life I ORIGINALLY WANTED before I came to Earth . And i want my love life this time to be predestined by ME. As i know what i want...
    Angelinawhitepromdresseveryday Angelinawhitepromdresseveryday 16-17, F Feb 2

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    I dont know if i am really this depressed. I feel sometimes useless and powerless. I was born in a broken family and that makes me becomes insecure in so many ways, ashamed, no one...
    findingmerlyn findingmerlyn 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 31

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    I like to help the depressed populace because I may not be going through the same situation that they're facing; but depression, that is something I have suffered like so many...
    MyLifeIsStrange MyLifeIsStrange 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    "Be happy with yourself." Right..how can I be happy with myself if I am not really. I've been truggling to lose weight but I might as well give up. I've failed too many times and...
    PassionForCreativity PassionForCreativity 26-30, F Jan 30

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    I'm depressed because I feel like life isn't getting any better . I feel like I'm trapped in this depressing cage of a life . Every time something bad happens I long for the past...
    deleted deleted 26-30 3 Responses Jan 29

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    I wish I hadn't had so much to drink at my friend's birthday party. I got very upset later because I had way too much, possibly the most I've ever had. I think it was because I'd...
    WingsofTime WingsofTime 22-25, F 3 Responses Jan 29

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    normal people avoid depressed people like the plague. EP is the only place where people listen with empathy
    Q2013 Q2013 46-50, F 4 Responses Jan 29

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    Self diagnosed and completely hidden in my real life. I've known for a while now that I'd crept past just simply feeling down to something more serious. I'm an intelligent woman...
    snoopysgirl snoopysgirl 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 29

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    I don't like to use the word "Depressed" lightly. But I think I'm allowed to use it now, after not wanting to admit it for months, maybe even years. It's later than 3 am and I...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T 2 Responses Jan 29

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    hi am very very depressed hi do need love in my heart my nasty family have depress me my brother and his daughter
    Kittymad1968 Kittymad1968 46-50, M Jan 28

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    Being depressed sucks. Like why do humans have to feel pain hahah..
    Kylahhh Kylahhh 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 28

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    If we are depressed it is to lead us back to the light; and when we're there in the light we can give the light to others!
    LoveIsWithinYou LoveIsWithinYou 26-30, M Jan 27

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    I am so sad and can't hold my cries out. There's nobody can understand me, nobody cares. All of my family and friends weren't understand, cares and believes how I felt about...
    jazelynblirz jazelynblirz 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 26

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