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I Dont Want to Be Depressed

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    I'm kind of copying this one over from the need to talk section because it may do me more good here. I just needs some sort of advice or at least something to grasp onto. Well, i don't really know how i feel about this but i don't know where else to go. To start, I'm a 24 year...
    fairsight3 fairsight3 22-25, M Sep 18, 2012

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    It's Time to Make a Decision.

    For so long in my life I've been living in a strange depressive state or lived in a life that I didn't and don't want to live.  It's either been, "Great, I have to get up again and spend another day in this corpse", or, "Ugh.  Another day." ...
    Mitosis Mitosis 16-17, M Jul 20, 2008

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    This Is Not Me

    This last months have not being the best for me for many reasons and I've being feeling so depressed I cant even believe it. I mean I cry every single day, day and night, I cry over stupid things, I cry over serious things.  My mind has being full of thoughts from my past...
    Secretpoem Secretpoem 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 10, 2007

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    Ellytheoutcast Ellytheoutcast 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2014

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    Depression

    Depression,Had enough,Ain't me,No more,Need a lift,This way,Not for me.For me this is an experience I've had more than once in the past. I seem to be lifting now.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Jan 25, 2012

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    I'm scared of myself.

    I'm scared that if I stay, i'll continue to feel this way, if I go, im letting go of what my life could've been. The problem is that I don't see what my life could bring. I don't see myself being any use, I don't see my future, and I want to, it's just that I'm inside my head...
    ast313 ast313 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 17, 2014

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    I am still battling depression

    for almost 2 years. I had my great moments but also those moments when I just want to die in a hole. I really want this to end. I want to smile and feel great for a longer period of time. I want to be in the sunshine and not inside feeling like I am pointless. I want to get back...
    Alyzza123 Alyzza123 13-15, F Aug 15, 2014

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    It feels like the whole world has passed me by.

    Now I know that's a melancholic exaggeration, but it's been really hard to feel that I belong. Sometimes I Imagine myself in the positions of some of my peers. And truly it becomes so out of character. I can't see myself with children, I can't even begin to imagine all the...
    ACrueljape ACrueljape 22-25 Jan 12

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    Dont Want To Be Alone And Depressed

    i HAD A DREAM WHEN I WAS A KID OF HAVEING A FAMILY  AND BEING ABLE TO BE HAPPY. I got married when i was 21 years old meet my frist real love when i was 19 and moved in with her when i grad from high school. Man i wish i didnt do that now she took it all when she left me...
    ddayton85 ddayton85 31-35, M 2 Responses Feb 26, 2010

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    Crying

    I wake up every day and for just a few seconds every thing is ok then it hits me like a truck the feeling of horror the feeling of fear the massive gut wrenching feeling of being suspended in limbo and my life is going nowwhere but down. I try so hard to be happy for the kids but...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 28, 2009

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    My mind is racing, it's buzzing. I can't clear it. It makes my head hurt, so I cry. I don't like to cry so I try and stop myself. I guess I'm overwhelmed. Thoughts of School...
    MDCollegeMan MDCollegeMan 18-21, M 4 hrs ago

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    Ive been lonely for almost all of my life. As i became teenager and moved to another country with my parents, it got worse and i expirienced awful loneliness which lead me to...
    tokyo60s tokyo60s 31-35, F 2 Responses 9 hrs ago

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    I am 15 years old and I would say I have been depressed for a about four years or at least about the time I began secondary school. Some days I just get to a point where I can't...
    safiya999 safiya999 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 10

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    What random thoughts go through the mind of one depressed person? I decided to expose myself just this once, if not any more in future. If anyone out there relates to this, I know...
    mysteriouseverything mysteriouseverything 22-25, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    Hi Yesterday I went clubbing with friends for a birthday and had a goodnight. I was dancing all the time cause I love to dance and I can dance very good Shaking, twerking and...
    Bluerosered Bluerosered 26-30, F Apr 6

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    I've been depressed for most of my life and I hate it,sometimes I can't even remember the last time I was truly happy,it ****** me off when people think depression isn't a big...
    DepressedAngell DepressedAngell 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    Place your hand over your heart. Do you feel it? That is called purpose. You’re alive for a reason so don’t ever give up. The person who completes suicide, dies once. Those...
    ArtLover01 ArtLover01 66-70, F a week ago

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    I am sad a lot. But I am not depressed. I can be sad but I don't want to kill my self! I love life I don't want to leave so soon I just have a lot of sad days!! So whatever I say...
    Singingbutterfly Singingbutterfly 13-15, F Mar 31

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    A couple months ago I moved out of the family home (I was getting a depressed, isolated feeling). I didn't really feel like paying rent and just moved into my car. Have lived out...
    beatingdepression beatingdepression 22-25, M 2 Responses Apr 9

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    Ok. So I secretly had a boyfriend once, and when I broke up with him, I got so sad. Wait not sad, depressed. I didn't even like him, and yet, I got like super depressed. I thought...
    Jossy7899 Jossy7899 22-25, F 3 days ago

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    I've listened to the song "How Do You Get That Lonely" by Blaine Larsen. It's a song about a 18 year old boy who committed suicide Unexpectingly. It goes: How do you get that...
    TheEnduringSunrise TheEnduringSunrise 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I'm deceitful I'm like an empty shell; I lie about my excitement for my brother and sister in law being pregnant. I lie about my interest in my sister graduating medical school in...
    Quietwonderland Quietwonderland 16-17, F 4 Responses Mar 28

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    I tried to kill myself a few times... Kind of... Those were really lame attempts. Anyway, things are looking pretty bad again - only in my mind. It's spring break, I go out every...
    asami13 asami13 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 2

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    You know one of the worst things You can say to someone (at least me) who is depressed. I know how you feel, it gets better, time will heal. Ok 1, you have no ******* Idea how it...
    TheRealMe99 TheRealMe99 13-15, F Apr 2

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    I really do. That's why I sometimes don't leave my room or I go out on runs, it's because I keep thinking of things I hate and don't want to think about, then I feel depressed and...
    ThisIsLife13 ThisIsLife13 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 15

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    I am depressed and I give up. No I am not suicidal but I have given up. Tired of struggling to make it. I wanted to post my story somewhere to get it out. I have been knocked down...
    orbie orbie 41-45, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    After I spent half an hour talking with a customer service lady and all the work I did to get our internet back online my mom just steals the modem and says I had one day to use it...
    AnonymousCaleb AnonymousCaleb 13-15, M 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    Ever since it happened it became a weird habit . I've been depressed before when I'm out my buddies I show sign of happiness but deep inside I'm so depressed I don't know what...
    billyaldo billyaldo 22-25, M Mar 27

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    I mentioned "when I was depressed" to my sister while telling a story and she said "you werent depressed at that time" ... little does she know I was and was about to kill myself...
    Bigcat1697 Bigcat1697 16-17, F Mar 27

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    I fell in love with a guy who has a two year old. At first I truly believed I could handle everything that came with him and his child. The baby mama was civil and I actually would...
    howfarisheaven howfarisheaven 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 30

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    I'm living in an abusive household, and it's made me depressed. When I wasn't living here, I wasn't suicidal like I am now, and I wasn't depressed. Tim (my father), yells at me...
    Maelui Maelui 26-30, F Apr 7

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    I have had a really tough year. I guess I have reason to feel the way I do. I don't know how anyone wouldn't. why do I feel so ashamed at being depressed. I know I don't really...
    wthdoido wthdoido 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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    For months I have been getting more and more anxious and depressed. I mostly feel fine through out the day...but when night hits, I always have so many negative thoughts about...
    CoreyG97 CoreyG97 18-21, M 1 Response Apr 13

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    Someone was being mean to be at school and I was already in my depressed mood so I said yes I know I'm emo! So could u please leave this depressed emo b**** alone!
    butterflybaby123 butterflybaby123 13-15 1 Response Apr 14

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    Everyday I am secretly depressed but I don't tell the people that surround me because I don't want them to treat me any different or look and me a different way. I'm tired of...
    Unknown7411 Unknown7411 16-17, F Mar 30

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    a lot of the time, I can forget the reasons why. I'm depressed, sure, whatever. I ignore it, force my way past it, don't look at it, don't examine it. But then something happens...
    anata1 anata1 22-25, F Apr 4

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    It sucks to admit that i am secretly depressed. No one has no clue. I come from a good family and i have friends that care for me. I have problems mainly with letting people in...
    noone852 noone852 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I sometimes wish my online mommy wasn't so busy so she could have time to talk to her it makes me depressed I don't get to talk to her much. I love her very much and I want her to...
    babygirlh95 babygirlh95 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 7

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    I've struggled with depression for most of my life. I've tried medication, the works. And it doesn't get better. I don't want to, can't ask my friends for help. I'm too worried...
    QuietViolets QuietViolets 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago

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      So i just realized that i've been depressed all my life i really do i have no friends or family i ******* hate my life i really want to die and just end this horrible life...
    liamlee454 liamlee454 16-17, M 3 Responses a week ago

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    I'm okay right now (meaning today... I can never predict how I will be tomorrow), but my friend from school (who I at the time had a thing for) found out of my depression (long...
    fragilegirl6 fragilegirl6 13-15, F 6 days ago

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    It's has been a really long time since I was really happy. I have been depressed, angry, bitter, jealous, paranoid, fearful, sad, blah, and slightly content. . . However I have...
    RebekahWriter13 RebekahWriter13 31-35, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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