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I Dont Want to Be Depressed

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 220 People

    It's Time to Make a Decision.

    For so long in my life I've been living in a strange depressive state or lived in a life that I didn't and don't want to live.  It's either been, "Great, I have to get up again and spend another day in this corpse", or, "Ugh.  Another day." ...
    Mitosis Mitosis 16-17, M Jul 20, 2008

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    It feels like the whole world has passed me by.

    Now I know that's a melancholic exaggeration, but it's been really hard to feel that I belong. Sometimes I Imagine myself in the positions of some of my peers. And truly it becomes so out of character. I can't see myself with children, I can't even begin to imagine all the...
    ACrueljape ACrueljape 22-25 Jan 12

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    This Is Not Me

    This last months have not being the best for me for many reasons and I've being feeling so depressed I cant even believe it. I mean I cry every single day, day and night, I cry over stupid things, I cry over serious things.  My mind has being full of thoughts from my past...
    Secretpoem Secretpoem 22-25, F 1 Response Oct 10, 2007

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    I'm scared of myself.

    I'm scared that if I stay, i'll continue to feel this way, if I go, im letting go of what my life could've been. The problem is that I don't see what my life could bring. I don't see myself being any use, I don't see my future, and I want to, it's just that I'm inside my head...
    ast313 ast313 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 17, 2014

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    Same Post New Section

    I'm kind of copying this one over from the need to talk section because it may do me more good here. I just needs some sort of advice or at least something to grasp onto. Well, i don't really know how i feel about this but i don't know where else to go. To start, I'm a 24 year...
    fairsight3 fairsight3 22-25, M Sep 18, 2012

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    Dont Want To Be Alone And Depressed

    i HAD A DREAM WHEN I WAS A KID OF HAVEING A FAMILY  AND BEING ABLE TO BE HAPPY. I got married when i was 21 years old meet my frist real love when i was 19 and moved in with her when i grad from high school. Man i wish i didnt do that now she took it all when she left me...
    ddayton85 ddayton85 31-35, M 2 Responses Feb 26, 2010

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    I am still battling depression

    for almost 2 years. I had my great moments but also those moments when I just want to die in a hole. I really want this to end. I want to smile and feel great for a longer period of time. I want to be in the sunshine and not inside feeling like I am pointless. I want to get back...
    Alyzza123 Alyzza123 13-15, F Aug 15, 2014

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    Crying

    I wake up every day and for just a few seconds every thing is ok then it hits me like a truck the feeling of horror the feeling of fear the massive gut wrenching feeling of being suspended in limbo and my life is going nowwhere but down. I try so hard to be happy for the kids but...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 28, 2009

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    imveryboring imveryboring 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 15, 2014

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    Depression

    Depression,Had enough,Ain't me,No more,Need a lift,This way,Not for me.For me this is an experience I've had more than once in the past. I seem to be lifting now.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M Jan 25, 2012

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    I think people often underestimate what depression does to a person. I go from externalization/narcissism in dissociative states to internalization/depression. In other words; I...
    Outdoctrination Outdoctrination 18-21 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    Why am I so depressed.......I wanna die...I want to run away....I wanna stop being a joke to people
    Iguessimajoke Iguessimajoke 18-21, M 1 day ago

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    I am new member but infact have been reading stories/experiences for about six months. It seems to be a good site to express oneself as well as seek advice/suggestions. My problem...
    sologhost sologhost 36-40, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    It's currently 4:41am where I am, I have to wake up for work in less than 3 hours and I can't seem to stop thinking... It's been a while since I've had a "low" like this... When I...
    Bu0611 Bu0611 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I just changed my status to a quote by myself that i like. No this isn't about me being narcissistic, it's actually about the way the status mode things works. I'm feeling down...
    ProcessOfBecoming ProcessOfBecoming 18-21, T 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    As well as me being depressed, I make my friends depressed... Even if im happy, I still manage to make my friends depressed.... im such a bad friend..
    bpc2415 bpc2415 13-15, F 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    If anyone is depressed, I'm depressed too.
    laurenzerbe laurenzerbe 16-17, F 5 Responses 3 days ago

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    The reasons why I feel depressed is because i was going to go to a family wedding but now I'm left alone abandoned at home doing nothing and now I'm drinking more alcohol heavily...
    agdnn agdnn 26-30, M 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I guess I'm weird....I pick a random title and write a story to match it. So I'm depressed now...I don't like that. Nope, not one bit. It makes me sad. Like the time the MP's...
    rick4545 rick4545 36-40, M 5 days ago

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    I don't really think I'm depressed. I've felt this way for a while, and I don't necessarily correlate it with one singular event or period. Maybe it started after I changed schools...
    amazingamelia amazingamelia 13-15, F 5 days ago

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    I don't know if im the only oneā€¦ but it annoys me when there are guys like "converted" who give bullshit advice and try to help, it's the same exact advice on every post and it's...
    Depressedgolfer96 Depressedgolfer96 18-21, M 1 Response 5 days ago

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    In the past two years over time ive been getting quieter and quieter these past 8 months ive had to admit to myself that im officialy depressed. Its hard when people ask me are you...
    jessie8g jessie8g 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    I refuse to be depressed. I have so many things going on in my life that most people don't even realize. I have family issues, health issues, financial issues, and social issues...
    sweetiepoo sweetiepoo 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    I refuse to be depressed. I have so many things going on in my life that most people don't even realize. I have family issues, health issues, financial issues, and social issues...
    sweetiepoo sweetiepoo 26-30, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    I refuse to be depressed. I have so many things going on in my life that most people don't even realize. I have family issues, health issues, financial issues, and social issues...
    sweetiepoo sweetiepoo 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    I refuse to be depressed. I have so many things going on in my life that most people don't even realize. I have family issues, health issues, financial issues, and social issues...
    sweetiepoo sweetiepoo 26-30, F 6 days ago

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    I'm on immigration process and am not allowed to work or get a driver's license until I'm authorized. My husband needs to take me places even though he is exhausted with hard work...
    VogueChloe VogueChloe 26-30, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    For the last two months I have been throwing a pity party for myself. After having a rude guy tell me : "Your depressed and go get therapy but don't kill yourself." The sweetest...
    LoveisBeautiful5013 LoveisBeautiful5013 18-21, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I was talking to my mom about one of my friends. This friend got in an argument with her parents and needed to get out of the house. Knowing all too well how it feels to be in a...
    AKGhost98 AKGhost98 16-17, F Jul 22

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    Dear Bipolar Depression, Wanted to thank you ,for dragging me back into the black hole again(sarcasm)Um how long will this episode last?Just so i know.All my energy is gone,i'm...
    1prettygirl 1prettygirl 36-40, F 5 Responses Jul 21

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    I have many issues. I'm not an easy person to get along with. I don't have any real friends and I don't speak to my family. I was abused most of my life and rejected and used by...
    Amioknow Amioknow 36-40, M 1 Response Jul 19

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    It wasn't till today that I realized how much I have screwed up my life! When my parents got a divorce, I became an adult, I gained trust issues, and most importantly, I refused to...
    sm1ttay sm1ttay 16-17, M Jul 19

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    I am not sure why, but I always do, I get depressed and feel low in holidays. The only thing I remember from my psychology class in high school is that when people feel low during...
    MissGaga MissGaga 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 18

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    Am I depressed because I am lonely, or am I lonely because I am depressed?? I don't know the difference..
    halohai halohai 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 18

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    i am the most depressed teenager in my family i lock myself in my room i isolate myself from friends and fily and the only way i can stay sane is to paint things with nail varnish
    hater2610 hater2610 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 18

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    I don't struggle with clinical depression. I'm not what you would probably think of as someone who struggles with depression. I don't have a chemical imbalance or anything like...
    anewman1993 anewman1993 22-25, M Jul 16

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    And when I do get depressed, I just want to be alone. I push everyone away for fear that I'll just bother or annoy them. Or perhaps it's because I just don't want to talk about it...
    Icrossmyheart Icrossmyheart 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 16

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    I'm already depressed but I want to get away from the hurt the sorrow the yelling the fighting everything I'm 13 but for years everybody said I'm the good one I'm the one that's...
    ASR3292 ASR3292 13-15, F Jul 15

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    I think I'm more depressed than I've ever been before. Everything is spiraling out of control. I feel different, worse than before and sometimes even numb. I know I need help but I...
    starling156 starling156 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 15

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    I'm so depressed right now everything seems like it is not getting better my leg my life my spirit
    Bill19641111 Bill19641111 46-50, M 1 Response Jul 14

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    Hi, thank you for being so kind. I think what made me feel depressed in the first place was that I fell out with my best friend but it wasn't just a typical fall out. Then I was...
    GDPunk GDPunk 16-17, F Jul 14