I Dont Want to Be Here Anymore

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 303 People

    Depressed And Fed Up

    i have suffered with depression for years now, but the last couple of years its got worse, i lost my mom when i was 22, and my dad at 14, ive got two sons who i love to pieces, and a granddaughter who is my world aswell, but the mother of my little princess as stopped me from...
    col2 col2
    41-45
    1 Response Apr 28, 2011

    I wish I could leave get away.

    . Because this place sucks
    Naniebananie Naniebananie
    16-17, F
    Jul 29, 2014

    They Say It's Therapeutic

    Sometimes I "stop"....... and think  "Where the hell am I" ???  It seem that suddenly I've just awaken on a different planet. I don't recognize anything or anyone. My "real" life is somewhere else .....in the past....? My days seem to just run together doing the same...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 17, 2010

    Not Sure What To Call This

    Not sure what is going on with me. I feel like I have been fighting both physically and mentally for a long time and I am completely exhausted. Nothing matters to me anymore; I feel as though my conscience has vanished. I have accepted my current state of affairs and have no...
    jobox23 jobox23
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Apr 21, 2012

    WAITING to Go Home

    I dont want to be here anymore. I look at this world as it truly is and  my heart breaks. I live in a world without concience and every day I see more and more hurt and pain. Man has lost his will to love his brother and most importantly himself. Love of wife,husband and...
    RESCUE RESCUE
    61-65, F
    1 Response Sep 14, 2008

    ...

    I don't like being here with people that just make me mad and upset. I want to go back home all the time but then I realize that I have to be here and have fun for summer vacation. I was talking to my sister about our future and everything and she said she doesn't want to be here...
    flyingunicorn1 flyingunicorn1
    18-21, F
    Aug 5, 2013

    Here, There, Everywhere

    I know for a fact that I'm sick of this small town. It shrinks in on me. I feel detached from it, already though. Luckily untethered from the people around me. And hopefully they aren't too fond of me back. One day I will leave, slip out without making a fuss never to return. The...
    Girlonwire Girlonwire
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Jul 31, 2011

    Yeah

      Sometimes, when I really think about life..it's a continous circle..you get up..u work..or go to school.. eat..do what ever entertains you..and it goes on and on forever. it gets old sometimes! i mean money will be made and money will be lost! ..and repeat.  ...
    lostprophet lostprophet
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 26, 2009

    Every single day I think about going

    and never coming back, but then I get too scared
    justakookiegirl justakookiegirl
    18-21, F
    Mar 30, 2015

    Here's A Nice Way Of Putting It......author Unknown

    Don't grieve for me, for now I'm free! I follow the plan God laid for me. I saw His face, I heard His call, I took His hand and left it all... I could not stay another day, To love, to laugh, to work or play; Tasks left undone must stay that way. And if my parting has left a void...
    Basinkim Basinkim
    36-40, F
    2 Responses Dec 2, 2011

    I am not cut out for this place,

    I am not strong as I once thought in my youth. I do not understand the things I thought once I had. I will never get used to the way things take precedence over love here. Lost and now so full of sorrow That it floods and encases the efforts of my will to be. Only one knows...
    LadyGallivanter LadyGallivanter
    41-45
    3 Responses Jun 20, 2015

    I've made a date for me committing suicide.

    It's going to be June 6, 2015, on my 14 birthday.
    Spankmeimnaughtyy Spankmeimnaughtyy
    13-15, F
    1 Response Jan 1, 2015

    We're talking about sexual assault,

    sexual abuse, and rape in class. I really don't want to listen to this. All I want to do is listen to music. Someone come to my school and pick me up. Lets drive somewhere far away from here. Lets drive into the sun and get lost.
    zbubbly603 zbubbly603
    18-21, F
    Mar 18, 2014

    have been at this job

    since high school... you dont want to know when that was... and im just so tired of the BS everyday. The same stories, same complaints and always the same result - absolutely nothing changes. These people are family... they are their own family, but have come to consider me...
    TherapySesh TherapySesh
    36-40, F
    Jun 18, 2015

    I Dont Want To Be Here

    i dont want to be here anymore ...ive always wanted to go to canada ever since i was a kid but now im at a point in my life where i just hate everthing about my life i hate waking up because every day is the same i go for a run come home check my facebook to find that my only...
    sadaskiwi sadaskiwi
    18-21
    1 Response Nov 1, 2012
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Oct 19, 2015

    I just want to leave,

    I really don't know what's holding me back anymore.
    kayleedawn kayleedawn
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 21, 2013

    End

    my depression gets worse by the day.harder and harder.i cannot see a way out.i dont think anyone can help me anymore.what about ect?could that stop the pain?why is everything the same?this is purgetory hard.
    leod20002000 leod20002000
    41-45
    Dec 27, 2011

    Laying here in bed beside him Don't want to be

    here Want to be in another place Yearning to be in another's arms Close my eyes and I see his face The one that's on my mind Then that knot forms in my gut The guilt sets in He knows I don't love him The one who shares my bed I've talked of leaving so many times He begs...
    zanyzoey zanyzoey
    41-45, F
    4 Responses Jun 10, 2015

    I'm Tired Of This Ride & I Want To Get Off.....

    I'm tired to this ride and i just want to get off....The woman of my dreams (actually), after being married for 19years left me because she wants "nice things"?? Whatever that means? My two einstein kids quit talking to me and dont want anything to do with me. I lived half my...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    3 Responses Jan 29, 2010

    Should I Stay Or Should I Go

    Some people know what they're desstined for, what they're purpose on earth is, what they're value is. As your about to read my life has left me unsure of myself. Fear of the unknown is paralyzing to me. I don't remember a time in my life where I felt sure of myself, of my purpose...
    libra604 libra604
    26-30, M
    6 Responses Feb 4, 2012

    Glad To Find This Place.

    First off Thank you for the comments on my "story". It's nice to know theres someone else out there that is going through a similar situation.....well...not really. it's nice to know your not alone, but i hate to think that anyone else is going through this type of thing. God...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 2, 2010

    Have you ever sat there with a knife/blade in

    your hand? I have. Have you ever let the cold sharp metal rest against your skin? Yes. Have you ever acted on your thoughts and/or feelings? Yes. Have you ever let the tears fall freely? Yes. Have you ever pushed people away whilst you sit alone? All the time. Have you ever...
    prettybrowneyes1993 prettybrowneyes1993
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 11, 2014

    Soon

    Soon,I'll be movin' on,Had enough,No course for me to stay,Bye,I'm off,Future's bright ahead,Time for movin' on,Life's on a roll,Depression,Don't need you no more.
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket
    46-50, M
    Feb 4, 2012

    Be Here Anymore

    Be here anymore,No thanks,I'd rather be there,Or over here,No , not here,Over there!
    startinover1 startinover1
    46-50
    1 Response Apr 25, 2012

    ..

    Ugh ok so I want to go home already. There's no place I would rather be. My sisters boyfriend is coming to visit with his little bro which is my ex. He's not brining his friend over like last year so me and him will be hanging out so it WILL be really boring for him because I don...
    flyingunicorn1 flyingunicorn1
    18-21, F
    Aug 6, 2013

    I'm empty, numb, aching.

    Lonely not a soul to talk too. I have no motivation to do anything. The past constantly replays in my head. Its so easy to let my emotions run, loose control and watch my tears gently cascade and braid their way down my face. I don't know how to describe this pain...its...
    pre125 pre125
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Apr 10

    Why am I here? Like by here I mean life.

    I will never fit in I am to lame and quite to go to school and live a normal life. I thought I could but I am depending on pills that keeps me together it makes me feel like I am living a lie. I can't
    Scaredmonster Scaredmonster
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 5, 2015

    since a year ago it feels like my life is

    falling apart. I used to be the happiest girl. I was always noticed for my constant smiling in school and questioned by my own friends as to how i was always so happy. thats all changed now and i dont understand why. i have a family who care about me a lot, friends who support...
    livingwithdepression livingwithdepression
    16-17, F
    Aug 22, 2014

    A Lonely & Broken Life

    Hi, I have no family, I have no friends, I'm not just saying that, it's fact. I have always been really shy, now, in my mid 40's I'm not as bad as I used to be but still have trouble talking to people. My parents divorced when I was 17, my father is gay. I found out a few months...
    mew196 mew196
    41-45
    3 Responses Aug 7, 2010

    I really dont want to be here anymore.

    . Idk what to do,. Im just a failure.. Im sorry bye
    uhhidk uhhidk
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Jan 25, 2014

    I See Your Pain

    my sistenlaw believes my baby boy is hers she stole him off me long story and i didnt do nothing to the baby im going through hell
    dolly99 dolly99
    41-45, F
    5 Responses May 20, 2012
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