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I Don't Want to Be Lost Anymore

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 46 People

    8/19/09

    A few weeks ago, my friends were going a little road trip to visit some schools. Just Blueberry and Banana were going. They mentioned this while I was there, and believe me, I was completely unaware. Both on the fact that I wasn't invited and they assumed that I had all...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F Aug 19, 2009

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    Mission Philly: What I Did, Soon to Help Change All That Walk Before My Face

    Ok, the first day we traveled about 10 hours and stayed at a church in Ohio. It was 3 stories high!!! We didn't go into the basement though. We did order pizza and speghettie...(noodles with sauce), and of course i had to bring a big, big, big, bag of candy along the way. What...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F Aug 10, 2008

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    I've Always Wandered

    But how lost am I really? I've always been searching for that one thing... The one thing that's been missing in my life. The balance... Connection... That aha moment when it all comes in to focus. The time you discover your purpose. After you accomplish a life goal.... How do you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 28, 2012

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    1/28/2010

    Today I was feeling ill, again. All week I have been feeling as though I was going to throw-up. I told my mom after my shower but she just laughed in disbelief. Apparently Cody (my older brother) has also expressed that he wasn’t feeling well. He went to jazz band practice...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F Jan 28, 2010

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    Lost And Found

    i'm tired of feeling lost. everywhere i turn is something new to show me how lost i am. you think you can trust people but then that backfires. being lost is like knowing there is no real way out. you're just stuck in the same situation never to be found. with no one really...
    metalgirl99 metalgirl99 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 2, 2010

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    10/5/08

    You know my pain lord, so please help. Show me a way to abolish this ugly sceen. They hurt me, so i leave. i've tried to help; tried to change the way i see them. But it never works. They'll never be viewed differently. Which is why i want to leave this town and go somewhere else...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 5, 2008

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    8/4/09

    It's odd...I want to write about my experiences but for some reason I can not. All I know is, where I am is very cold. The wind pushes onto my skin and my throat sinks into the fluid that travels it. It collapses and releases a flow of frozen air. And all my mind can be clouded...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 4, 2009

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    7/20/08

    Walking in the forest. On top of the clear unseen path. The birds i realized...weren't there. No animals at all: not even the nats. It's quiet but I'm not alone. I see shadows of others yet they don't talk, just move. The forest dissapeared from my feet. Where i stand is now a...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 20, 2008

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    My adoptive-parents forgot about my up coming birthday. They know that I've been molested and raped and they just shrugged their shoulders and said "sucks". A lot of the time I...
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    I'm a recovering addict and I have two years clean from drugs and alcohol.. I lost my kids my house my career. I'm starting all over again I have my kids back in my life but from...
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    hey all ! ... this is important and big. can i have a small time of yours, just little.. few minutes.. i sign up here around a year back to share my story with people and i did. i...
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    Today is mine and my husband's 10 year anniversary. I'm not thrilled at all. Quite frankly, I'm depressed. Nothing about today is exciting for me. I've been unhappy food the past 5...
    lonelysara1211 lonelysara1211 31-35, F 4 Responses 1 day ago

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    I'm very comfortable with myself and I know exactly what I want and I may be young but I'm 100 percent sure I don't want kids and it's a deal breaker for me. People have told me...
    SophieBabe20 SophieBabe20 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 13

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    I was introduced to this guy at a town street fair the other night. We chatted and had fun. I don't know many people in the area, but the ones I do know are twice my age and this...
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    So There's this guy.. I'm really tall like 5'9 and he's quite taller than me like 9" taller and I think I like him but it's getting a little irritating that he doesn't talk much...
    inspiredwriterxx inspiredwriterxx 13-15, F 18 hrs ago

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    I can understand how people romanticize marriage and build it up with words like commitment, faithfulness, loyalty, etc. A marriage in itself doesn’t actually have the power to...
    GiantKaiju GiantKaiju 22-25, M 2 Responses Jul 12

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    I've been staying in my parents apartment for the summer, but now were going home this weekend for our town's homecoming. I don't want to go but I have to. I'll run into my pot...
    crystal234 crystal234 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 13

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    I just hate it when people say “you will change your mind as you get older”! Guess what, I said I didn't want kids when I was 15, now I'm 25 and I still don't want kids! I just...
    Naturalsimple Naturalsimple 22-25, F 7 Responses Jul 23

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    I DON'T WANT TO GROW UP, I'M A TOYS R US KID, THERE'S LOTS OF TOYS AT TOYS R US THAT I CAN PLAY WITH, FROM BOOKS TO TOYS TO VIDEO GAMES, IT'S THE BIGGEST TOY STORE THERE IS, GEE...
    HUMAN2BME HUMAN2BME 26-30, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I find no use in meeting people as very few turn out to be helpful, they just pretend to be friends but apparently they are not.I do know that I am in secured in terms of trust but...
    darkheart93 darkheart93 18-21, M 2 days ago

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    I really don't :'( she's my whole world. Life means nothing if she's not in it :'( what's the point of life if you can't be woth the one you love most in the entire universe :'( I...
    ywilliam31 ywilliam31 16-17, M 2 Responses 22 hrs ago

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    I don't want to stay with my family(my parents), because we often have quarrel. Perhaps, it is good for us to keep a distance.
    Aspada Aspada 16-17, M Jul 13

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    My mom has cancer I don't want to lose her
    Countrycutie2098 Countrycutie2098 16-17, F 4 Responses Jul 15

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    I'd rather just crawl back into my sheets and watch the perks of being a wallflower and be sad together with charlie. I don't want to have to act happy and energetic all day...
    sproetje sproetje 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 20

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    But I don't want to not have someone to take care of me when I'm old.. lol.
    NatashaRose NatashaRose 18-21, F Jul 20

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    hey all ! ... this is important and big. can i have a small time of yours, just little.. few minutes.. i sign up here around a year back to share my story with people and i did. i...
    heartless2 heartless2 22-25, M Jul 22

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    I don't want kids because I know I wouldn't be a good mother. I would rather go out and have fun with friends instead of stay at home and change diapers. Does that make me a bad or...
    ashizz ashizz 22-25, F 2 Responses Jul 23

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    I currently live with a roommate who has a baby (approximately one year old). I didn't know I would be living with a baby when I decided to move in, I was told all of the roommates...
    secretgarden22 secretgarden22 22-25, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Well I want a party........ Let me explain. My friend and I have a pact. This pact isn't a suicide pact do not worry, is more of a if I'm too old to live without pain, I'm on life...
    KateTheStraightedge KateTheStraightedge 16-17, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Sometimes I wonder why am I alive, what is my purpose in life to be here, why did god choose to create me. I hate my life, I hate everything about it. Nothing good ever happen to...
    emmiecarmi emmiecarmi 26-30, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I want a life that is fully mine and the life that is right for me. My path, my own destiny, a purpose and belonging. A life that I feel comfortable and at ease in. Nothing is...
    ajrestless ajrestless 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    and i don't want to lie bout myself. If people don't like me its ok. I understand.
    yodatheching yodatheching 22-25, F 17 hrs ago

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    Lately things around me have been relatively normal. People have been the same but I got tired of it and even if I listen and try to be sympathetic towards them or at least try to...
    Agreyish Agreyish 13-15, F Jul 13

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    After what I've been through with relationships, It's hard to trust anymore. When I try to start one I doubt them and I think anything they're saying is a lie. Not calling all gals...
    MacgyverSmith MacgyverSmith 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 21

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    Don't trust too much. Don't love too much. Don't hope too much, because that too much can hurt you so much...
    AnnaKhit AnnaKhit 26-30, F 5 Responses Jul 4

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    You have changed now.I don't know who you are.We used to tell each other everything and you would always make me smile :) we would be there for each other 24/7 and we used to have...
    itzpaola itzpaola 13-15, F Jul 16

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    I learned the hard way in losing trust in my parents. Last week during an argument, my dad claimed:" I could care less about you, my mom died already, there's no worse feeling. I...
    confusedsoul88 confusedsoul88 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 21

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    I mean it would be cool to see slender and possibly other proxies but you would have to do anything slenderman says including killing innocent lives. Think this stuff through...
    TicciToby11 TicciToby11 22-25, M Jul 23

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    It's not people I don't trust, it's relationships and friendships. The people themselves are usually fine, it's easy to find people you can trust once you know what lies look like...
    sammykins101 sammykins101 22-25, M Jul 5

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    I Love helping people here on EP And in real life i don't do it for the thanks or the feelings or to boost my ego to think i'm a better person then others or for any sort of...
    ILeo ILeo 18-21, M Jul 14

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    I had enough of explaining! I have to say I find it incredibly hard to find the right words and explain exactly how it is so when I have got the courage to explain please don't...
    MilweePetite MilweePetite 18-21, F Jul 9

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    I learned in life not to be so trusting and that nobody is perfect, there's good and bad in all of us so don't be so hard on people.
    kissssmykiki kissssmykiki 22-25, F 2 days ago

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    one crazy conversation... acquaintance: "Hey, you want to have kids one day?" me: "No." acquaintance: "Why not? You seem like you’d be a good mom. Or is it that you don’t...
    Neiymara Neiymara 22-25, F Jul 8

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    I don't feel comfortable in my own home. Having to worry and having fear every night before going to sleep isn't normal. I don't feel safe. I'm 16 years old and want to move in...
    kaaligirl kaaligirl 16-17, F Jul 6

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