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I Don't Want to Be Lost Anymore

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 47 People

    I've Always Wandered

    But how lost am I really? I've always been searching for that one thing... The one thing that's been missing in my life. The balance... Connection... That aha moment when it all comes in to focus. The time you discover your purpose. After you accomplish a life goal.... How do you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 28, 2012

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    8/4/09

    It's odd...I want to write about my experiences but for some reason I can not. All I know is, where I am is very cold. The wind pushes onto my skin and my throat sinks into the fluid that travels it. It collapses and releases a flow of frozen air. And all my mind can be clouded...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 4, 2009

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    1/28/2010

    Today I was feeling ill, again. All week I have been feeling as though I was going to throw-up. I told my mom after my shower but she just laughed in disbelief. Apparently Cody (my older brother) has also expressed that he wasn’t feeling well. He went to jazz band practice...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F Jan 28, 2010

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    10/5/08

    You know my pain lord, so please help. Show me a way to abolish this ugly sceen. They hurt me, so i leave. i've tried to help; tried to change the way i see them. But it never works. They'll never be viewed differently. Which is why i want to leave this town and go somewhere else...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 5, 2008

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    8/19/09

    A few weeks ago, my friends were going a little road trip to visit some schools. Just Blueberry and Banana were going. They mentioned this while I was there, and believe me, I was completely unaware. Both on the fact that I wasn't invited and they assumed that I had all...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F Aug 19, 2009

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    Lost And Found

    i'm tired of feeling lost. everywhere i turn is something new to show me how lost i am. you think you can trust people but then that backfires. being lost is like knowing there is no real way out. you're just stuck in the same situation never to be found. with no one really...
    metalgirl99 metalgirl99 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 2, 2010

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    Mission Philly: What I Did, Soon to Help Change All That Walk Before My Face

    Ok, the first day we traveled about 10 hours and stayed at a church in Ohio. It was 3 stories high!!! We didn't go into the basement though. We did order pizza and speghettie...(noodles with sauce), and of course i had to bring a big, big, big, bag of candy along the way. What...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F Aug 10, 2008

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    7/20/08

    Walking in the forest. On top of the clear unseen path. The birds i realized...weren't there. No animals at all: not even the nats. It's quiet but I'm not alone. I see shadows of others yet they don't talk, just move. The forest dissapeared from my feet. Where i stand is now a...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 20, 2008

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