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I Don't Want to Be Lost Anymore

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 47 People

    10/5/08

    You know my pain lord, so please help. Show me a way to abolish this ugly sceen. They hurt me, so i leave. i've tried to help; tried to change the way i see them. But it never works. They'll never be viewed differently. Which is why i want to leave this town and go somewhere else...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 5, 2008

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    Mission Philly: What I Did, Soon to Help Change All That Walk Before My Face

    Ok, the first day we traveled about 10 hours and stayed at a church in Ohio. It was 3 stories high!!! We didn't go into the basement though. We did order pizza and speghettie...(noodles with sauce), and of course i had to bring a big, big, big, bag of candy along the way. What...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F Aug 10, 2008

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    1/28/2010

    Today I was feeling ill, again. All week I have been feeling as though I was going to throw-up. I told my mom after my shower but she just laughed in disbelief. Apparently Cody (my older brother) has also expressed that he wasn’t feeling well. He went to jazz band practice...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F Jan 28, 2010

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    8/4/09

    It's odd...I want to write about my experiences but for some reason I can not. All I know is, where I am is very cold. The wind pushes onto my skin and my throat sinks into the fluid that travels it. It collapses and releases a flow of frozen air. And all my mind can be clouded...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 4, 2009

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    8/19/09

    A few weeks ago, my friends were going a little road trip to visit some schools. Just Blueberry and Banana were going. They mentioned this while I was there, and believe me, I was completely unaware. Both on the fact that I wasn't invited and they assumed that I had all...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F Aug 19, 2009

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    I've Always Wandered

    But how lost am I really? I've always been searching for that one thing... The one thing that's been missing in my life. The balance... Connection... That aha moment when it all comes in to focus. The time you discover your purpose. After you accomplish a life goal.... How do you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 28, 2012

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    Lost And Found

    i'm tired of feeling lost. everywhere i turn is something new to show me how lost i am. you think you can trust people but then that backfires. being lost is like knowing there is no real way out. you're just stuck in the same situation never to be found. with no one really...
    metalgirl99 metalgirl99 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 2, 2010

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    7/20/08

    Walking in the forest. On top of the clear unseen path. The birds i realized...weren't there. No animals at all: not even the nats. It's quiet but I'm not alone. I see shadows of others yet they don't talk, just move. The forest dissapeared from my feet. Where i stand is now a...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 20, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    my husband and I are so happy we made the decision to forego kids. we love the quiet, the freedom, and our kitties!! hell I can barely take care of myself some days, I don't need...
    kdelrio kdelrio 26-30, F 3 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    What the hell do I do? My parents are both unreliable, and are putting me in a bad position. I lived with my father up until 8 months ago, as he was abusive, pulling me around my...
    Emigirl7 Emigirl7 16-17, F 9 hrs ago

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    Even though I prefer puppies, kittens, or any other baby animal than human babies, I still don't like seeing something giving birth.
    Peridot22 Peridot22 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    So I grew up trusting too much and loving people. I gave people benefit of the doubt I would encourage and support them. I woul be fully honest and I would be transparent. It...
    matthew3187 matthew3187 26-30, M 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    Period Period, Go away I don't need you, I don't want kids some day
    Outline Outline 18-21, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    There, I said it. I am not having a baby! Yes, my hips look like they could plop one out in a heart beat. Yes, my large breast probably could feed 10 of them a peice,a day. Yes...
    RealmRunner RealmRunner 22-25, F 2 Responses 3 days ago

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    So there's this girl who was my best friend and then she started hanging out with this other girl and she started being mean to everyone and then she started cussing all the time...
    SJ110 SJ110 13-15, F 3 days ago

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    Alone is not bad, when it is a choice. When it isn't a choice, it is not necessarily bad, but it is lonely. I find it strange that I am lonely, when in the past, being alone didn...
    comeonletsgo comeonletsgo 61-65, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    I want to be able to trust people and know they will care and keep my secrets but I know that I can't .. Sometimes I can't even trust my family
    mydreams345 mydreams345 16-17, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    I didn't say I don't want to be rich though.
    RealmRunner RealmRunner 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    I just don't want it anymore... I don't want to pretend I am a lucky girl anymore. I just can't... Bye.
    GirlyGirl1993 GirlyGirl1993 18-21, T 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I have been having a problem with food for the last few months. I am recovering from a stimulant addiction where I almost never had to eat, maybe a few times a week tops. I can't...
    EmTheRedhead EmTheRedhead 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    I'm feeling extremely lost
    badgalfrifri badgalfrifri 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    My whole family are nothing but bullies. They pray on the weak. They don't care who they hurt in order to get a laugh. I am no better than they are. I sit there silently and watch...
    veranique veranique 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Every Thursday I am forced to go food shopping with my Fake Mother, a woman who is not even my real Mother. She is currently collecting my Social Security money from a disability...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    I don't know how I feel, I do not know if this is official. I have this theory, where, if I ever had a girlfriend, another guy may take her away from me, somehow. I feel that way...
    ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT ONESTARRYSTARRYNIGHT 26-30, F a week ago

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    I don't want kids because I don't want kids. Age, race, gender, etc has nothing to do with it. It's not something I want to put my mind and body through. Because I don't have to.
    RealmRunner RealmRunner 22-25, F 1 Response a week ago

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    I don't want any friends at all, at least from a conscious theoretical perspective. From an evolutionary perspective, I see friendship as a way to ensure survival by combining...
    Zaxel Zaxel 18-21, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    my husband and i for married last year. I hate kids, particularly the young ones. I don't mind them as much if they're older, as long as they behave. however, my husband wants kids...
    gingerru gingerru 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 20

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    I find it sad that people think that the only way to find happiness and true love is if they have children. So, your friends, family, pets, bf/gf, or spouse don't make you happy...
    Peridot22 Peridot22 22-25, F 3 Responses Aug 19

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    "Oh when you get older, you'll change your mind." I'm not saying youre wrong. But I'm not saying youre correct either. When I get older, I don't see children in my life. I want a...
    Outline Outline 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 19

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    There are countless reasons why I don't want children. One being: People may call me selfish for not having children. However, I say that bringing a innocent, helpless child into a...
    Outline Outline 18-21, F 4 Responses Aug 19

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    I'm a real piece of work. I married the girl of my dreams and had three beautiful kids with her. But I have issues. Serious issues. I have PTSD, anxiety, anger issues...
    Cantevergetright Cantevergetright 31-35, M 1 Response Aug 19

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    Because of the medical problems I have, I feel like I'd have a really tough pregnancy. Also, I tire out easily, so I don't think I'll have the energy to take care of a kid. And I...
    hiddenkitty hiddenkitty 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 18

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    I'm only 20, but I feel like I can get by without driving. I can carpool or use public transportation. In certain cities, I can get an Uber, especially if I don't need to go too...
    hiddenkitty hiddenkitty 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 18

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    I don't want some sanctimonious, pompous vicar saying crap about me. Just dump me on the compost at the bottom of the garden or something. I don't know.
    jeannabeens71 jeannabeens71 41-45, F Aug 18

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    She's going to leave, this bright star. She will shoot across the heavens and lend light to the universe. My friend is amazing, is beautiful, and is going to move on. It is...
    moonchild0315 moonchild0315 36-40, F 1 Response Aug 17

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    I can not find anyone who loves me back. I'm gay. I have dated only once but it was long distance. All the guys who I have crushed on are straight or they don't know what they are...
    AlphaSolaAmator AlphaSolaAmator 13-15, M 2 Responses Aug 16

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    I hope that as I make my way through high school and then college after that I will have an interesting life. I don't want to live a boring ho hum life that no one cares about. I...
    olivia81401 olivia81401 13-15, F 1 Response Aug 16

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    I'm getting ready for my annual kayak trip.  So I've been going to my local lake to get reacquainted with the muscle groups involved.  I've been out here for a little...
    MrFoolery MrFoolery 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 16

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    I can't trust someone easily since I was betrayed by my ex-best friend in high school. Since then, trusting people hasn't been easy for me. Trusting someone just seems so hard...
    LittleUnicorn LittleUnicorn 18-21 1 Response Aug 16

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    I have seen it time and time again. People with their kids out in public yelling at them and calling them stupid. It's like they are very irritated by having kids because of all...
    allisonhashope allisonhashope 13-15, F 2 Responses Aug 15

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    I don't want to be retrained to kill. I've already BEEN in the military. >={
    RealmRunner RealmRunner 22-25, F Aug 15

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