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I Don't Want to Be Lost Anymore

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 48 People

    10/5/08

    You know my pain lord, so please help. Show me a way to abolish this ugly sceen. They hurt me, so i leave. i've tried to help; tried to change the way i see them. But it never works. They'll never be viewed differently. Which is why i want to leave this town and go somewhere else...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F 1 Response Oct 5, 2008

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    1/28/2010

    Today I was feeling ill, again. All week I have been feeling as though I was going to throw-up. I told my mom after my shower but she just laughed in disbelief. Apparently Cody (my older brother) has also expressed that he wasn’t feeling well. He went to jazz band practice...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F Jan 28, 2010

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    7/20/08

    Walking in the forest. On top of the clear unseen path. The birds i realized...weren't there. No animals at all: not even the nats. It's quiet but I'm not alone. I see shadows of others yet they don't talk, just move. The forest dissapeared from my feet. Where i stand is now a...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 20, 2008

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    8/19/09

    A few weeks ago, my friends were going a little road trip to visit some schools. Just Blueberry and Banana were going. They mentioned this while I was there, and believe me, I was completely unaware. Both on the fact that I wasn't invited and they assumed that I had all...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F Aug 19, 2009

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    Mission Philly: What I Did, Soon to Help Change All That Walk Before My Face

    Ok, the first day we traveled about 10 hours and stayed at a church in Ohio. It was 3 stories high!!! We didn't go into the basement though. We did order pizza and speghettie...(noodles with sauce), and of course i had to bring a big, big, big, bag of candy along the way. What...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F Aug 10, 2008

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    I've Always Wandered

    But how lost am I really? I've always been searching for that one thing... The one thing that's been missing in my life. The balance... Connection... That aha moment when it all comes in to focus. The time you discover your purpose. After you accomplish a life goal.... How do you...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 28, 2012

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    Lost And Found

    i'm tired of feeling lost. everywhere i turn is something new to show me how lost i am. you think you can trust people but then that backfires. being lost is like knowing there is no real way out. you're just stuck in the same situation never to be found. with no one really...
    metalgirl99 metalgirl99 36-40, F 2 Responses Oct 2, 2010

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    8/4/09

    It's odd...I want to write about my experiences but for some reason I can not. All I know is, where I am is very cold. The wind pushes onto my skin and my throat sinks into the fluid that travels it. It collapses and releases a flow of frozen air. And all my mind can be clouded...
    sukaza4meshon sukaza4meshon 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 4, 2009

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    I don't want to feel this way anymore. I can't even describe how I feel. I just know that it's unpleasant. I hate it. I'm tired of life. I'm tired of all the bull crap. I'm tired...
    tRueInSAnItY tRueInSAnItY 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 7

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    I just don't fit anywhere. I don't believe I ever have. Growing up I was always picked on. I always said the wrong thing or acted the wrong way. Even in the military I felt like an...
    justanotherguy86 justanotherguy86 26-30, M 2 Responses Dec 14

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    I don't want to go to high school anymore but I want to go to college.
    Mylo248 Mylo248 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 4

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    I'm not perfect, but I'm true. I'm honest and considerate. I don't want to do you harm. I want someone to share with. I need someone. Someone to talk to, someone to touch. I don't...
    lovelywarpedlemon lovelywarpedlemon 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 18

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    When people tell me that I MUST have kids, I literally feel like this: http://theoatmeal.com/comics/kids I don't want children, and have never been interested in children. The...
    spacepixie spacepixie 26-30, F 5 Responses Dec 10

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    Yep. I don't want to talk to some people when I don't want to. Sometimes I'm just going through some stuff, so don't be mad when I don't text back. And I absolutely hate when older...
    JennyAB JennyAB 16-17, F 9 Responses Dec 14

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    I don't want to remember Bill. I don't want to remember my dad calling me a skit. I don't want to remember my husband had an affair. I don't want to remember I did the same thing...
    lehcar1977 lehcar1977 36-40, F a week ago

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    Like, I really want a baby. And there is so many people my age who have babies, like I personally wouldn't have one now cause like I'm 17. But like all the 13,14,15,16,17 year olds...
    wedgieshurtalot wedgieshurtalot 16-17, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Sometimes, I will meet someone who knew me from when I was younger, before I came to live with my parents. They laugh and smile and look at me in wonder as they ask after how tall...
    Newydd Newydd 18-21 2 days ago

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    I don't want to forget about the happier moments in the past, but I don't want to think about them either. Sometimes, the memories bring me some peace or a little happiness. Other...
    TheBadgeringWitness TheBadgeringWitness 26-30 Dec 8

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    The more the death of my grandma sinks in, the more I don't want to think about it. Saying good bye to her was the hardest thing I've ever done. She was my best friend. She was...
    tRueInSAnItY tRueInSAnItY 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 9

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    This is the closest thing to "I don't want to talk to creeps" Do not flirt with me in any situation, I don't want you, and if you're persistent I will block you. If you are...
    thegrasswillgetgreener thegrasswillgetgreener 16-17, F Dec 11

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    I love doing stand-up comedy and to act. I don't want to be famous either. I think the main reason is that I don't want for people to look me "Like a God", and I know 95% of them...
    dzordze dzordze 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 11

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    its not that I don't want to,but basically,years ago when I was learning to drive, I was doing great,and enjoyed it. but I started having seizures,and had one while at the wheel...
    cowshed123 cowshed123 31-35, M 2 Responses Dec 13

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    Almost half a year ago, my ex tried to kill me. He is doing it to countless other victims and I'm going to stop him. I don't want revenge, what he did showed me I needed to change...
    FrozenDark FrozenDark 16-17, M 3 Responses Nov 29

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    After living with old people my whole life and doing nothing but taking care of them, hell no I don't want kids. People think I'm selfish cause I want to live alone and never have...
    birdoparadise birdoparadise 22-25 2 Responses Dec 4

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    I hate that I can get so mad so easily sometimes. It embarrasses me and really hurts anyone who sees me like that. I don't want to lose my temper. I shake and quiver trying to calm...
    SheilaSmirks SheilaSmirks 41-45, T Dec 15

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    I don't want to hear any more 'sorries' It doesn't make it better. I've come to realize, there is no way around this. You consistently hurt me just by simply being YOU......how...
    NotHisBabydoll NotHisBabydoll 41-45, F 17 Responses Nov 28

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    Not again can I do the same mistake That moment will never be forgotten I try and try Through all my nights the same nightmares follow me Can't take it any longer The pain of...
    Sk13k Sk13k 13-15, F 1 Response Dec 1

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    I don't want to feel miserable. I rather have pets then children
    TheDesireToDance TheDesireToDance 22-25, F Dec 10

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    I don't want to have children, because I fear I may be forced to abandon them. If life happens, and I end up in poverty I'd rather abandon them, then spend the rest of my life...
    benson5132 benson5132 18-21, M Dec 10

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    This high I'm feeling from having him back. I don't want to let go. I can't let go.
    ShyGuy990 ShyGuy990 22-25, M Dec 12

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    When Asians or Americans or Muslims come around I just can't help but whisper one of those racist jokes in my friend's ear like: "Watch out, there's a terrorist on the plane!" Or...
    SugarAndStrawberries SugarAndStrawberries 13-15 2 Responses Dec 15

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    I hate personal memories, hate personal past:) I prefer past as history, but the things that became past within my lifetime are just pain...so quickly come and gone...I don't want...
    AmarieOfTheVanyar AmarieOfTheVanyar 18-21, F Dec 19

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    I wish I can help and make that someone change in a positive way. I don't want that someone to fall into the wrong path and suffer. Do it for the people around you, they appreciate...
    iTetra iTetra 13-15, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    I've had an amazing day and I don't want it to end :(
    Jred4ever Jred4ever 13-15, F 2 days ago

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    After watching and taking care of so many babies and toddlers, I pretty much had my share of child raising. I don't need my own, I'm 18 and already burned out. Plus, there are 7...
    Knixveus5 Knixveus5 18-21, M 1 Response Dec 7

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    One lie. It wasn't even a big deal of a lie, but it was enough to break the trust I have in that person. She had no reason to lie. I can let go of a lie or two when I spot them...
    TheBadgeringWitness TheBadgeringWitness 26-30 Dec 2

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    I don't trust anyone because it is more easier to just be to yourself instead of getting hurt by people that are suppose to be part of your life. I know things are slightly...
    jellyrolls34 jellyrolls34 18-21, F 1 Response 6 hrs ago

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    People lie don't tell me things hurt me abuse me I'm closed never to be open
    mickeymousecupcakelover mickeymousecupcakelover 13-15, F 2 Responses Dec 8

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    don?t need to explain myself, I know I?m right.
    weirdboyz weirdboyz 18-21, M 1 Response a week ago

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    I'm 19 years old, and I have never felt so pressured to be someone else. My family doesn't know anything about the real me. They don't know that I smoke, don't know the music I...
    Weightlessfigures Weightlessfigures 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 29

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    Ugh... It's called birth control... you can get on health plans that will pay for it for you! This makes me incredibly mad... I went to school with two girls. One was just dumb...
    Harlequingal93 Harlequingal93 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    People constantly call my phone all day. I usually avoid it, I know they usually want me to go visit them or the H needs something. I purposely avoid his phone call because I know...
    FreyjaInBattle FreyjaInBattle 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 3

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    Some people don't believe in the American dream. I was just thinking about a video I saw about North Korea. I noticed their streets look like ours in America, only one difference...
    Jakebrum Jakebrum 16-17, M Dec 7

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    This is a message to anyone who is beginning to give up on someone. It could be a family member, friend, or even a person you just met. You could begin to give up on anyone...
    ThisIsJustForFun ThisIsJustForFun 13-15, F Dec 15

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    My mom is a crazy drug addict who chose drugs and disgusting dirty men over her children. She lives in a camper trailer and moves place to place. More than anything I don't ever...
    sparrow412 sparrow412 26-30, F Nov 29

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    I'm literally terrified of children. I can hardly stand being in the same room as them. I don't know why, but I've always felt this way. I don't ever want to be pregnant or adopt.
    CaliginousHeart CaliginousHeart 18-21, F 7 Responses Dec 3

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