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I Don't Want to Be Me Anymore

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    I can't stand how critical I am of myself.

    I can't stand how hard I push myself, and how terrified of failure I am. I can't stand how I can't see beyond the short term misery. I am tired of myself.
    mrosel mrosel 22-25, F 1 Response May 8, 2014

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    I don't think there was ever a time in

    which I wanted to be me..
    PendulEmPlum PendulEmPlum 18-21, F 2 Responses May 12, 2015

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    Recently, I've been trying new things,

    things maybe a thirteen year old shouldn't be doing yet. Such as makeup, hair color, and hairstyles, but it depends on the opinion ya know? Anyways, I've been trying everything to change me from who I really am. I personally think I'm not a pretty girl in any way, and I just...
    meiralaurel meiralaurel 16-17, F 1 Response Jun 17, 2014

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    Me.I

    I don't even know,I'm not sure what to write here. I've been battling self conflict my whole life. I'm a mess, I'm alone. And I want to escape my brain, I want to escape me.
    Fairlyismagic Fairlyismagic 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 27, 2013

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    I Hate Being Me.

    I'm twenty-five years old. I've suffered from depression since I was a child, and I've always felt like I had no right to feel so upset all the time. My life was not traumatic. I didn't experience anything that would justify feeling the things that I feel. But because of my...
    CJShel CJShel 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 3, 2013

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    I'm so sick of being alive now.

    Too scared to kill myself, too tired to keep going. I cut till I bleed and I don't have to feel anymore. I just want this life to be over. I won't be missed. The man I was going to marry has left me. My friends are all gone. My family has never cared. I just want this to be...
    Latekin Latekin 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 5, 2014

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    i wish i could erase myself

    so i dont have to feel this kind of pain again
    Gina1993 Gina1993 22-25, F 4 Responses May 12, 2015

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    I Am No-One.

    wanting to be someone. but i can't find my way... i'm lost in anxieties.
    kushieface kushieface 22-25, F May 6, 2013

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    My husband has an anger problem.

    I'm really passive and soft. But little things will turn him into this mean raging man. The rest of the time he's super affectionate. Often inappropriately so in public. If I don't feel super kissy because I'm tired or stressed from school or busy working on something, he can...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Oct 2, 2015

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    i don't want to be me,

    i don't like myself, every time i look in the mirror i see someone who i don't want to see. i don't want to hear the voices in my head any more i just really don't want to be me
    makeitsomeday makeitsomeday 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 6, 2015

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    I'm an actual Mess...

    ..... so I've 6 months off for college where we have to do work experience. It's getting closer and closer and I'm not organised. The reason is because I want to do something adventuristic by going abroad because most of my fellow classmates are... but there's something pulling...
    BeeKay20 BeeKay20 22-25, F May 12, 2015

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    I hate being alive. I hate

    who I am and the things I do. I'm vain and shellfish. I've been told so by all those closest to me. I feel it, so it must be true. I went to a psychiatrist who told me I have PTSD... I don't really know what to do with that. My first response was 'no sh**, you don't f****** say...
    Pixiemist Pixiemist 26-30, F Dec 12, 2013

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    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses May 11, 2015

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    There is nothing wrong with me

    that I can tell. I'm a normal social teen with a good group of friends. I'm decently attractive. But no matter what I do I am a failure. It feels like I'm given a ton of pieces but just can't put them together. I get signs from girls that they're into me but I just can't pull it...
    imjustgonnausethisonce1 imjustgonnausethisonce1 18-21, M Feb 14, 2014

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    My husband has an anger problem.

    I'm really passive and soft. But little things will turn him into this mean raging man. The rest of the time he's super affectionate. Often inappropriately so in public. If I don't feel super kissy because I'm tired or stressed from school or busy working on something, he can...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Oct 2, 2015

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    woozieee woozieee 16-17, F 1 Response Dec 1, 2015

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    The thing you have to understand about me is

    that I am a deeply unhappy person.
    Madison18 Madison18 18-21, F 4 Responses Apr 12, 2015

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    i cant anymore i hate being me,

    i am so stupid and dumb i cant talk and nobody listens to me and i just hate it i wish i was beyonce
    Angel861 Angel861 13-15 1 Response May 12, 2015

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    A Long, Hard Road.

    Ever since I can remember I've been an outcast. In school I was the kid that everyone picked on because they could get away with it. I've never been the type to stand up for myself. Or, if I did stand up for myself, I only made things worse. When I was thirteen my sister...
    Ashtyn Ashtyn 26-30, M 5 Responses Apr 10, 2010

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    I Want To Be More Like My Friends

    I haven't had anything traumatic in my life. I don't understand why i should be like this. I'm 19 and i spend any of my time i'm not at college in my room. Either on old game systems or on the computer. When i left school i left with 1 friend, he's my closest friend in the world...
    lillyth616 lillyth616 18-21 May 4, 2012

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    SRayne SRayne 51-55, M Nov 3, 2015

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    I don't want to be me anymore.

    I'm a good person, who always tries hard to be nice to everyone. But I grew up in a different world, where people interact differently. Plus my mother has borderline personality disorder, so as a child of a borderline I relate to people differently, as well as having...
    olasucks olasucks 41-45, F 1 Response May 7, 2014

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    Nobody To Talk To

    Think I'm having a nervous breakdown. This happens way too much to not say anything anymore but I literally have nobody I can talk to about it. Really just wish the world would end so I didn't have to try anymore. I don't want to be myself, wish I was someone else that was happy...
    Lizzyloopin Lizzyloopin 18-21 3 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    I Really Don't.

    I'd like to be someone who has their sh*t together...Someone smart, capable, and confident. Someone beautiful, someone who can think fast and work brilliantly under pressure. Someone who can have kids. Someone lovable. Someone with a healthy past. Someone who knows how to let the...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 4 Responses Nov 3, 2011

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    I was sexually abused

    for years when I was younger. I suffered from severe, suicidal depression when I was at school. I was sexually assaulted by some guys I thought were my friends at college. I hate my body. I hate my awkward, annoying personality. I am living my dream and yet I still don't want to...
    PlayingARole PlayingARole 22-25, F 1 Response Feb 14, 2015

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    Yleng Yleng 26-30, F 2 Responses Nov 3, 2014

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    I Just Get Sick Of Being Me

    Sometimes I just don't want to be me anymore and I want to change everything about myself but I cant I want to be brave not the biggest chicken in the world I want to be smart so dumb and so ditsy I want to be strong physically not just emotionally I want to be outgoing and not...
    willieverbegoodenough willieverbegoodenough 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 21, 2013

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    if I could be pink for a little while,

    that'd be awesome. then I wouldn't have to deal with the same crap
    CallmeHopelessNotRomantic CallmeHopelessNotRomantic 36-40, F Oct 3, 2015

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    I want to be someone else,

    someone who is genuinely happy and lives with little anxiety. Someone who is not afraid to take risks of getting hurt both physically and emotionally.
    carazami carazami 16-17 2 Responses Oct 2, 2015

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    I'm just sick to death of my whole existence.

    I feel so good one minute and then I feel like I want to jump off a bridge the next. I'm back on my meds and it feels worse. I just can't handle the high peaks and deep valleys. I don't like to leave depressing posts but while the world sees me doing the daily grind the inner me...
    SRayne SRayne 51-55, M 4 Responses Nov 4, 2014

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    Autism, OCD, ADHD, Aspergers, Infertility, Balanced Translocation, Depression, PCOS, Endometriosis. Inside my head everything is confused. Imagine being a passenger on a train which is going too fast and could lose control. I can see every twist but can do nothing to slow down...
    raebabe1981 raebabe1981 31-35, F Oct 16, 2013

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    Hate The Person I Am Since Husbands Affair

    i don want to me any more, not the me i am since his affair i used to be confident and felt good about me, since my attempted suicide due to the affair and the following verbal and physical abuse i am now self loathing insecure nervous and doubt myself i hate me my body and...
    browneyedgirl1965 browneyedgirl1965 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 11, 2010

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    I just don't fit anywhere.

    I don't believe I ever have. Growing up I was always picked on. I always said the wrong thing or acted the wrong way. Even in the military I felt like an outcast in my own platoon. Everyone who comes into my life leaves for one reason or another. I have no friends. I live alone...
    justanotherguy86 justanotherguy86 26-30, M 1 Response Dec 14, 2014

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    I Want To Change

    I am a 13 year old boy and I want to be different because I Love maths, I am one of the smartest kids in school I have braces and glasses and I have 2 friends. I only have 2 because all the friends I used to have which was allot, I found out have been talking about me behind my...
    mainguner0918 mainguner0918 13-15 9 Responses Feb 25, 2012

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    my story starts at the tender age of five.

    I know i was young, I suppose that is one of the reasons i became a master at hiding my emotions. My mask was and if i want it to be still is impenetrable, its imposable for someone to see through it.by the time i was eight i was no longer a happy child i had learnt the hard way...
    reie1 reie1 18-21, F 2 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    When I'm trying to type a nice good bye story

    but I'm crashing hard so it's going to be short. I'm over the past haunting me bye
    Ripjr Ripjr 18-21, M May 12, 2015

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    I'm not pretty, no one notices me,

    no one cares so what's the point of me being around? I wish people liked me I try so hard to be friendly and a good person. Just for a day I want to be some gorgeous woman
    SeanaO SeanaO 22-25, F 8 Responses Apr 27, 2014

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    Why Can'T I Be Someone Else?

    Why can't I be someone else? Someone who doesn't get into trouble Someone who doesn't get involved in fights Someone who doesn't have to pretend that she's fine Someone who doesn't pretend to be happy Someone who doesn't hide her fears,and pains Someone who can be able to show...
    ScaredFlower ScaredFlower 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 30, 2013

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    Yeah

    I can relate to this group, but it also reminded me of some lyrics. I bash myself to sleep What you sow I will reap I scar myself you see I wish I wasn't me I am the little stick You stir me into **** I hate therefore I am ******* your righteous hand I think it's appropriate.
    LordNothing LordNothing 26-30, M Nov 2, 2011

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