I Don't Want to Be Me Anymore

Well my Mum kept getting ill when i was young because she stopped eating. She was desperate for attention from my father. My father was cheating on her. Then she died and my dad abandoned me. I grew up getting into alot of fights and...

i don want to me any more, not the me i am since his affair i used to be confident and felt good about me, since my attempted suicide due to the affair and the following verbal and physical abuse i am now self loathing insecure nervous...

it's so annoying. I'm acting like a dumb five year old all the time, crying and being girly and whining and screaming. I decided I'm gonna try to be mature cuz I'm a teenager for petes sake and it's awful. I have been reading my other...

I haven't had anything traumatic in my life. I don't understand why i should be like this. I'm 19 and i spend any of my time i'm not at college in my room. Either on old game systems or on the computer. When i left school i left with 1...

Think I'm having a nervous breakdown. This happens way too much to not say anything anymore but I literally have nobody I can talk to about it. Really just wish the world would end so I didn't have to try anymore. I don't want to be...

I don't even know,I'm not sure what to write here. I've been battling self conflict my whole life. I'm a mess, I'm alone. And I want to escape my brain, I want to escape me.

I've lost the reason for life, and all I can see is people pretending that there is a physical goal to this maze we run for a century. Ok maybe that was strong for my first sentence, so let me start over. I'm 19, online I go by...

I know I can do better if I can just start over. Let me die and come back knowing just a little of what I've lived and I will go a different route and come out way ahead.

I completely hear what you guys are saying here.
I think I spend way too much time comparing myself with or fantasizing that I am another person, or whoever the particular person is that I'm thinking of.  I've done this for as...

I hate being me.
I fail why I try to do things I like. I hate my figure. I hate my smile.
I hate how I can't look into the mirror and smile. I hate the feeling when you let somebody down. People have unrealistically high assumptions of...

I can relate to this group, but it also reminded me of some lyrics.

I bash myself to sleep
What you sow I will reap
I scar myself you see
I wish I wasn't me
I am the little stick
You stir me into shit
I hate therefore I am
Goddamn your...

wanting to be someone.

but i can't find my way...

i'm lost in anxieties.

I am 8 years old all over again.
Wandering around the playground, drawing stick figures on the blacktop,
Never looking up, for fear that that might be the moment I realize how invisible I am.
In the midst of so many other kids my age...

I am a 13 year old boy and I want to be different because I Love maths, I am one of the smartest kids in school I have braces and glasses and I have 2 friends. I only have 2 because all the friends I used to have which was allot, I...

but for some reason i am so sad all the time.
i have been called the b word at least 4 times, by my family and friends. i dont know what i did wrong.
there's never a week where i dont cry at least two times anymore.
im scared to grow up...

Ever since I can remember I've been an outcast. In school I was the kid that everyone picked on because they could get away with it. I've never been the type to stand up for myself. Or, if I did stand up for myself, I only made things...

Why can't I be someone else?
Someone who doesn't get into trouble
Someone who doesn't get involved in fights
Someone who doesn't have to pretend that she's fine
Someone who doesn't pretend to be happy
Someone who doesn't hide her fears...

I'd like to be someone who has their sh*t together...Someone smart, capable, and confident. Someone beautiful, someone who can think fast and work brilliantly under pressure. Someone who can have kids. Someone lovable. Someone with a...