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I Don't Want to Be Me Anymore

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    I Want A Life

    I occasionally have very vivid, lucid dreams about fantastical things, especially of myself thrust into a world of fantasy in some way or another. I am usually a hero, or something similar, and have to overcome some sort of hurdle or opponent in order to achieve victory, in...
    whatisfantasy whatisfantasy 18-21, M Dec 17, 2010

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    I Want To Change

    I am a 13 year old boy and I want to be different because I Love maths, I am one of the smartest kids in school I have braces and glasses and I have 2 friends. I only have 2 because all the friends I used to have which was allot, I found out have been talking about me behind my...
    mainguner0918 mainguner0918 13-15 9 Responses Feb 25, 2012

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    I Am No-One.

    wanting to be someone. but i can't find my way... i'm lost in anxieties.
    kushieface kushieface 22-25, F May 6, 2013

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    Being Me

    As a person I can be 100% certain that I am not the only one that feels the way I do. But why does it always feel like I am? I just really wish there were people out there that could really understand me.  I'm one of those people that comes across quite confident, enjoys...
    TheMagic TheMagic 18-21, M 8 Responses Jan 1, 2010

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    my story starts at the tender age of five.

    I know i was young, I suppose that is one of the reasons i became a master at hiding my emotions. My mask was and if i want it to be still is impenetrable, its imposable for someone to see through it.by the time i was eight i was no longer a happy child i had learnt the hard way...
    reie1 reie1 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 5, 2013

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    Autism, OCD, ADHD, Aspergers, Infertility, Balanced Translocation, Depression, PCOS, Endometriosis. Inside my head everything is confused. Imagine being a passenger on a train which is going too fast and could lose control. I can see every twist but can do nothing to slow down...
    raebabe1981 raebabe1981 31-35, F Oct 16, 2013

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    God Looked At Me And Said, "Ah To Hell With This One".

    Well my Mum kept getting ill when i was young because she stopped eating. She was desperate for attention from my father. My father was cheating on her. Then she died and my dad abandoned me. I grew up getting into alot of fights and problems at school. Im shy, i dont like...
    1 Response Feb 1, 2013

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    Failure.

    I hate being me. I fail why I try to do things I like. I hate my figure. I hate my smile. I hate how I can't look into the mirror and smile. I hate the feeling when you let somebody down. People have unrealistically high assumptions of me. I'm not innocent anymore. I can't handle...
    LunaViolet LunaViolet 13-15, F Jan 18, 2013

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    The Letter.

    this is a letter i want to send a really good person that i care about a lot and that is really close to me but there is a very big thing thats holding us apart. your the first person i think of to come to wheni dont get something going on in my head, i know that you wont judge...
    betty0the0boop betty0the0boop 70+, F 5 Responses May 26, 2010

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    A Long, Hard Road.

    Ever since I can remember I've been an outcast. In school I was the kid that everyone picked on because they could get away with it. I've never been the type to stand up for myself. Or, if I did stand up for myself, I only made things worse. When I was thirteen my sister...
    Ashtyn Ashtyn 26-30, M 5 Responses Apr 10, 2010

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    I can't stand how critical I am of myself.

    I can't stand how hard I push myself, and how terrified of failure I am. I can't stand how I can't see beyond the short term misery. I am tired of myself.
    mrosel mrosel 18-21, F 1 Response May 8

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    Nobody To Talk To

    Think I'm having a nervous breakdown. This happens way too much to not say anything anymore but I literally have nobody I can talk to about it. Really just wish the world would end so I didn't have to try anymore. I don't want to be myself, wish I was someone else that was happy...
    Lizzyloopin Lizzyloopin 18-21 4 Responses Nov 12, 2012

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    Frustrated....

    Completely distressed about being shy and having limited control over it.   Tired of trying to do things to overcome it.   Why even try anymore? Three years of acting classes, improv classes, aphorisms, voice training, meditation,  etc. etc. and the pain remains...
    waltersays waltersays 31-35 1 Response Aug 25, 2009

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    I think sometimes its okay to let the idea of

    yourself go, people cling too much to what they think they are instead of all the things they can be.
    dubdvl dubdvl 31-35, M Jul 2

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    I Hate Being Me.

    I'm twenty-five years old. I've suffered from depression since I was a child, and I've always felt like I had no right to feel so upset all the time. My life was not traumatic. I didn't experience anything that would justify feeling the things that I feel. But because of my...
    CJShel CJShel 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 3, 2013

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    Google...

    I hate myself. What I've done with my life. I just want to start over. And to try to find the answer to what I should do, I google it. What I need is a website that tells me what I should be like and how to get like that. Why can't life be simple?
    Bribry Bribry 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 29, 2012

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    Yeah

    I can relate to this group, but it also reminded me of some lyrics. I bash myself to sleep What you sow I will reap I scar myself you see I wish I wasn't me I am the little stick You stir me into **** I hate therefore I am ******* your righteous hand I think it's appropriate.
    LordNothing LordNothing 26-30, M Nov 2, 2011

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    I Don't Want

    I don't want,To be Me,Need change,Can't go on this way,Had enough,Can anyone help?
    lazycrazybasket lazycrazybasket 46-50, M 1 Response Nov 21, 2011

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    I Regret Every Choice I've Ever Made In My Life.

    I want to start over, with a new life, new personality, new everything. The choices I have made as a person are regretful and illogically irresponsible. I'm socially awkward and am either too loud or too quiet. I don't want to live anymore in the world I've created for myself...
    CrashingDown CrashingDown 16-17 2 Responses Jul 21, 2011

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    I'm Tired Of Being Me

    I’m a firm believer in fate. For years now, the only thing stopping me from going insane is the fact that everything happens for a reason, and you need to be patient to see why. Looking back, I don’t remember what kept me so strong. I think about everything I’ve been...
    cvasselin cvasselin 18-21 3 Responses Feb 13, 2012

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    There is nothing wrong with me

    that I can tell. I'm a normal social teen with a good group of friends. I'm decently attractive. But no matter what I do I am a failure. It feels like I'm given a ton of pieces but just can't put them together. I get signs from girls that they're into me but I just can't pull it...
    imjustgonnausethisonce1 imjustgonnausethisonce1 16-17, M Feb 14

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    I hate being alive. I hate

    who I am and the things I do. I'm vain and shellfish. I've been told so by all those closest to me. I feel it, so it must be true. I went to a psychiatrist who told me I have PTSD... I don't really know what to do with that. My first response was 'no sh**, you don't f****** say...
    Pixiemist Pixiemist 26-30, F Dec 12, 2013

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    I don't want to be me anymore.

    I'm a good person, who always tries hard to be nice to everyone. But I grew up in a different world, where people interact differently. Plus my mother has borderline personality disorder, so as a child of a borderline I relate to people differently, as well as having...
    olasucks olasucks 41-45, F 1 Response May 7

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    I Really Don't.

    I'd like to be someone who has their sh*t together...Someone smart, capable, and confident. Someone beautiful, someone who can think fast and work brilliantly under pressure. Someone who can have kids. Someone lovable. Someone with a healthy past. Someone who knows how to let the...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 4 Responses Nov 3, 2011

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    Me.I

    I don't even know,I'm not sure what to write here. I've been battling self conflict my whole life. I'm a mess, I'm alone. And I want to escape my brain, I want to escape me.
    Fairlyismagic Fairlyismagic 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 27, 2013

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    I Want To Be More Like My Friends

    I haven't had anything traumatic in my life. I don't understand why i should be like this. I'm 19 and i spend any of my time i'm not at college in my room. Either on old game systems or on the computer. When i left school i left with 1 friend, he's my closest friend in the world...
    lillyth616 lillyth616 18-21 May 4, 2012

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    Not Me.

    Me....I don't even know what me is anymore. All I know is under this 'me' is a lot of love/hate. I don't want to feel this 'me' anymore....it is crap. I'm just the 'sad emo child' and that is always what i will be in their eyes, I used to be set up to say a joke or to go off on a...
    CowgirlMagic CowgirlMagic 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 10, 2010

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    Why Can'T I Be Someone Else?

    Why can't I be someone else? Someone who doesn't get into trouble Someone who doesn't get involved in fights Someone who doesn't have to pretend that she's fine Someone who doesn't pretend to be happy Someone who doesn't hide her fears,and pains Someone who can be able to show...
    ScaredFlower ScaredFlower 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 30, 2013

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    I Dont Want To Be Me Anymore

    i hate who i am. im emotional all the time and no matter how hard i try i cant seem to be a better person.  from what ive been told and as i believe im a "spineless fuckup" . my fiance has his own issues and now hes losing me but i cant see my life without him. im so...
    froggo13 froggo13 18-21 1 Response Mar 17, 2010

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    Just For a Day

    i wish what it felt to be together and organized, just for a day know what its like to matter, just for a day i'd like to be loved if i had this chance to be someone else just for a day could i ever go back, i don't think so.
    sweetstacey sweetstacey 26-30, F 1 Response Aug 17, 2008

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    I Hate My Disorder.

    If I wasn't so sad anymore and if I didn't have my Social anxiety disorder, I believe that I would like myself. But that stuff is just not going away. So I just wish I wasn't me anymore. I hate being different. I hate being sad. I love the person I am, but just not...
    minnie22mouse minnie22mouse 18-21, F 3 Responses Oct 29, 2008

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    I Can't Escape Her.

    I am 8 years old all over again. Wandering around the playground, drawing stick figures on the blacktop, Never looking up, for fear that that might be the moment I realize how invisible I am. In the midst of so many other kids my age, Screaming, laughing, hopscotching, Swinging...
    tastedtherain tastedtherain 26-30, F Mar 22, 2013

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    Hate The Person I Am Since Husbands Affair

    i don want to me any more, not the me i am since his affair i used to be confident and felt good about me, since my attempted suicide due to the affair and the following verbal and physical abuse i am now self loathing insecure nervous and doubt myself i hate me my body and...
    browneyedgirl1965 browneyedgirl1965 41-45, F 2 Responses Jan 11, 2010

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    Behind A Curtain Of What They Think Is Normal.

    I've lost the reason for life, and all I can see is people pretending that there is a physical goal to this maze we run for a century. Ok maybe that was strong for my first sentence, so let me start over. I'm 19, online I go by shadeofaman, a name that I adopted for a number of...
    Shadeofaman Shadeofaman 22-25, M Apr 17, 2013

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    I Hate How Things Work Out...

    When I was 8 years old, I came home from school one day to my mother crying. I asked her "Whats wrong" and she told me that my favorite grandpa on my father's side had OD'd. It had always been difficult for me to stay in contact with my father because he left when I was young. By...
    rabbit29567 rabbit29567 13-15 1 Response Aug 9, 2011

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    Can Wait For This To Be Over

    I am 28 in three months and I can't stand the thought of living another year. I only have two friends actively in my life because I lost touch with everyone else over time - I have lots of excuses but I know it was my fault. People think I just have to get married and have kids...
    granad granad 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 28, 2013

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    I Can't Escape From Myself

    I completely hear what you guys are saying here. I think I spend way too much time comparing myself with or fantasizing that I am another person, or whoever the particular person is that I'm thinking of.  I've done this for as long as I remember. I just know that I would...
    wedneschild wedneschild 36-40 4 Responses Dec 16, 2008

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    Just Gotta Be Better

    I know I can do better if I can just start over. Let me die and come back knowing just a little of what I've lived and I will go a different route and come out way ahead.
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 20, 2008

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    Hunger For What I Never Had

    When i was a little kid my mom was always working. So that robbed me of having the life of an average kid. I didn't join extra activities outside of school because i knew my mom wouldn't be there. Having no support in the past has definiately made a huge impact as a teenager. I'm...
    HeartlessOne HeartlessOne 16-17, F 1 Response Nov 7, 2009

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    I Just Get Sick Of Being Me

    Sometimes I just don't want to be me anymore and I want to change everything about myself but I cant I want to be brave not the biggest chicken in the world I want to be smart so dumb and so ditsy I want to be strong physically not just emotionally I want to be outgoing and not...
    willieverbegoodenough willieverbegoodenough 22-25, F 1 Response Sep 21, 2013

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    I'm not pretty, no one notices me,

    no one cares so what's the point of me being around? I wish people liked me I try so hard to be friendly and a good person. Just for a day I want to be some gorgeous woman
    SeanaO SeanaO 18-21, F 9 Responses Apr 27

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    I'm so sick of being alive now.

    Too scared to kill myself, too tired to keep going. I cut till I bleed and I don't have to feel anymore. I just want this life to be over. I won't be missed. The man I was going to marry has left me. My friends are all gone. My family has never cared. I just want this to be...
    Latekin Latekin 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 5

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    Lost

    I don't know who I am anymore, I hardly recognise myself. I look back on the old photos of my teens and see how much I was enjoying life, and living it to the full, but I've just lost that spark. I look at my friends and I envy them, I envy them for what they have, I want to be...
    Faerdie Faerdie 18-21, F 2 Responses Oct 11, 2011

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    Recently, I've been trying new things,

    things maybe a thirteen year old shouldn't be doing yet. Such as makeup, hair color, and hairstyles, but it depends on the opinion ya know? Anyways, I've been trying everything to change me from who I really am. I personally think I'm not a pretty girl in any way, and I just...
    meiralaurel meiralaurel 13-15, F 1 Response Jun 17

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