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I Don't Want to Die But I Don't Want to Live

Same Old Sh*t--Different Year 39 People

    Bipolar. Wish I Was Dead.

    I have bipolar. I wish I were dead. The only thing keeping me alive is that I don't want my thirteen year old daughter to find me. I take meds but they aren't working. I put a gun to my head and pulled the trigger one day but the safety was on. If it weren't for her I would be...
    Bshdah Bshdah
    36-40
    Jun 3, 2011

    How Do I Put One Foot In Front Of The Other To Go On?

    I have tried to commit suicide three times since August, the last one nearly did it.  My ten year old daughter lives with her father and I have hardly seen her because I'm trying to protect her from seeing what I'm really feeling.  All of my friends have dropped me.  I live in...
    girlietoes girlietoes
    41-45, F
    2 Responses Dec 29, 2010

    Nowhere Too Turn

    HOW DO YOU PUT 52 YEARS OF A MISTAKE ON A SPACE SO LITTLE.....I KNOW I WAS PUT HERE FOR A REASON BUT WHAT.....I WAS A LOUSY DAUGHTER,WIFE,MOTHER,I FEEL ANYWAY.....MY HUSBAND IS IN LOVE WITH A 25 YEAR OLD......I FEEL SO OLD AND USED UP.....I HAVE GAVE ALL THAT WAS IN ME TOO ALL...
    sadeyes54 sadeyes54
    51-55
    Apr 26, 2010

    It's A Wierd Feeling Stuck In The Middle

    I really don't want to die, I work pretty hard everyday to avoid it but everyday I can't help but wish that that car wouldn't see that stop sign and just do it. I've attempted suicide before but I think I'm totally beyond that. I just hate the world we live in. But I love some of...
    Secretsx3 Secretsx3
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Mar 29, 2012

    Life I Can't Find Motivations For My Life

    Hi I never thought Id be in this dark place again.... I believed it to be conquered, that I had everything found out and truly loved myself. But today, I turned on myself back to listening to Linkin Park their lyrics being my feelings. Feelings that I don't belong, that nothing...
    Ryuusei Ryuusei
    18-21
    1 Response Jan 8, 2012

    Living Dead

    I don't like my life much. I love the internet and animals and nature. I get a lot of internet acess but not enough animals and nature to enjoy. I wish that is all I was about to live with. I don't want to live with anyone. Having a friend, a good amazing (animal lover) friend...
    AnomicDeer AnomicDeer
    18-21
    Aug 27, 2009

    Me

    All my life I've never known where I fit in this world. My greatest fear is that I will not live my full life, that I will end it myself. I don't want that. I have so many good things surrounding me. Am I weak, foolish, or simple broken?
    mbarath mbarath
    51-55, M
    Apr 26, 2010

    It Hurtsa

    and i know tomorrow will be better. and i know i have to ride it out. and i know it will all be ok. and i know i cant die because people love me and want me around. and i know nothing was my fault and i did everything i could.     but it really ******* hurts. it...
    Tesse Tesse
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Oct 11, 2008

    When Does The Happy Ever After Start?

    Why does life hurt so much? Why is every day a struggle? Where is the joy? It seems that all I do is struggle. I struggle to pay bills. I struggle physically to do many things because I have arthritis all through my body. I struggle with my husband's bad financial planning and...
    stonesfan53 stonesfan53
    51-55
    1 Response Nov 30, 2009

    Blah.....

    my whole life recently has being tearing itself apart..i've lost so much, both in myself and in my friends who i just end up hurting..i'm a useless burden to everyone and i dont deserve to be alive. i take no enjoyment from living, i've never being able to..i can't remember a...
    lmpulsive lmpulsive
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Mar 24, 2011

    But I Do Want to Die

    i am 31 years old, and what is going on today is that i had a dream about my mother, i saw her in my dream and so i ran up and hugged her. since i woke up i've been crying. i lost my mom in 2000 when i was 21 years old. the worst part was that i was in prison and so i could...
    jessiechick1 jessiechick1
    31-35, F
    Sep 25, 2009

    Im Lost, I Feel The World Crashing Down On Me

    I am a 43 year old mother of 3. I hate myself I hate what I have become, I hate everything about me. I want to die and end it all, But I don't want to die and not be here. I have ben depressed most of my life been married for 20 years screwed that up. Im not responsible, Im an...
    llady66 llady66
    41-45
    1 Response Mar 16, 2011
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