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I Don't Want to Die

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 68 People

    Today, I was overcome by sudden dizziness

    when I was going down the stairs. For a second, I didn't know which way was up or down and nearly fell down the stairs..., but instinctively, I reached out for the railings in time to save myself from falling. If I hadn't reached out, I'd probably have fallen on my head and...
    Letmebee Letmebee
    22-25, F
    1 Response Mar 10

    I don't want to die. I just want to be able to

    live rather than just muddle through it all.
    Goregon8790 Goregon8790
    18-21, M
    Oct 8, 2014
    soxfan2709 soxfan2709
    36-40, M
    2 Responses Mar 3, 2014


    I really don't want to die, obviously. But, according to the risk/insurance soothsayers, I obviously DO want to die because I continue to smoke cigarettes and cycle without a helmet on the open road. What they don't know about my suicidal intention is that often I smoke whilst...
    CrookedMan CrookedMan
    Sep 19, 2010

    Death makes me uneasy.

    The mysteriousness about it is unnerving. I have no idea where I'll go after I die. Heck, I might not go anywhere. Or maybe I'll come to life again as a different being. I have no idea what will happen. The other day, my boyfriend and I were talking about this. I told him that I...
    deleted deleted
    Mar 15, 2014


    Less amateur dramatics and more part-time dogmatic panic with a hooded blasphemous habit.If we’re cutting up and over rationalising semantics etc. just when it gets frantic- catch a breath -Curse the evil of irony, turn on a smile, and try not to think about expiry.
    CrookedMan CrookedMan
    May 20, 2011

    Watching all these ghost videos

    and murders and urban legends and videos where people say in the future people will find out and I'm just over here rethinking my whole existence and wondering if I'll end up murdered like those people or become an urban legend or my name be damned to everyone or just die...
    Botdf1shutup Botdf1shutup
    16-17, F
    1 Response Apr 16

    At least not yet. There are a few things I want

    to experience before I go, and I want to keep going until I have done just that. I got time.
    Whoami30 Whoami30
    31-35, M
    Mar 31, 2014

    I have just diagnosed with lung cancer.

    ......I am a retired Critical Care Nurse which doesn't make it any easier. Actually, it makes it harder in some respects. I know......I know.....I know.....I told my wife last nite. She was obviously devastated. If you have heard of Kubler Ross, you will understand that we are...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Feb 5, 2014

    For the past 10 years,

    suicide never seemed to leave my mind. Not for long, anyway. I've attempted it, failed, obviously. I've planned it out, plans always failed as well. A few months ago, I hatched the perfect plan. It was perfect. All I needed was a place where it wasn't too public, but public...
    Dereth Dereth
    26-30, M
    Dec 30, 2015

    Andei Codrescu - Eternal Youth

    Some tips from the great Romanian poet. 
    CrookedMan CrookedMan
    Dec 23, 2010
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