I Dont Want To Exist

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 271 People

    I've came up with the conclusion

    that not everybody is meant to live, and ones of those people are me.
    TheRouge TheRouge
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Sep 17, 2014
    Kaiririri Kaiririri
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 14, 2015

    Man I don't think I've ever been happy existing

    as a natural sober human being. I remember as a kid walking around my grandparents house when I was like 8 thinking to myself oh my god I am real I am real I am real and would repeat it over and over and would like touch my face and get freaked out cuz I was alive. I think that...
    lyakamovich lyakamovich
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 24, 2014

    I'm a 23 year old guy

    that has never had a friend. I'm a 23 year old guy who had one relationship in his life that lasted seven years. I'm a 23 year old guy and my first relationship is gone. I'm a 23 year old guy with nothing to lose.
    Ecarie Ecarie
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 13, 2014

    Life is tooo hard you know .

    All i want is to die
    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 13, 2015

    I feel invisible when Im with my friends

    and the people that live around me. Why exist then if I'm invisible to the people I love?
    Diamondgirly Diamondgirly
    22-25, F
    Jul 19, 2014

    i close my eyes and i am at peace.

    i open them and im in a living nightmare. when will this end? time is not my friend.
    notlostnotfound notlostnotfound
    36-40, M
    Apr 15, 2015

    I don't want just to exist,

    I want to really live! :)
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 14, 2015

    I feel like a mistake.

    like there isn't any place for me in this world and I'm just trying to force myself into someplace I'm not meant to be.
    TheWanderingWarrior TheWanderingWarrior
    26-30, M
    Mar 8, 2015

    Not What I Expected

    everyday its the same thing and it doesn't get better. i think of what happened to my life and i just don't know what went wrong. i get this feeling of not wanting to exist in fits too. sometimes i'm just cruising along and the next i just want to fade into nothingness. nobody...
    tigttfn tigttfn
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 16, 2009

    I really just want to fade out of existence.

    I know it's impossible but I wish I was gone. Nothing to remember of me, and not have been around at all. Life sucks and I don't want to be apart of it. Suicide only fixes l me not participating in the future. I want to have never been at all. That's my wish
    IAimForHonor IAimForHonor
    22-25, M
    Apr 5, 2014

    I feel irrelevant and inadequate 95% of the

    time. I just feel really alone, and I don't ever feel like I'm good enough. For anybody.
    blxnde blxnde
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Mar 8, 2015

    I Dont Want Too Exist

    sometimes i fell so empty and dead inside, i dont want too exist, i dont want too be thought of or remembered or called like my life is so miserable i just cant bare it. its not that i want too or would kill myself. its just that i hate my life, im sleepy, i want too escape, be...
    nobody2 nobody2
    31-35
    4 Responses Nov 4, 2009
    misanthropicpessimist misanthropicpessimist
    16-17, F
    Dec 21, 2015

    I don't understand, why I feel this way.

    I don't want to be here. I have and would never ever consider suicide, but I have always dreamed of another place Where I can just be me, a place Where Time froze and you can just be chilled and not exist. Not have to be anywhere or do anything. A place where your allowed to be...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 3, 2015

    i cannot survive. i am crazy

    and i need support here. I feel depressed everyday .
    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Apr 14, 2015

    I wish I had never been born!

    I don't wanna be here! I don't know how to do this anymore. Everyday, I feel more and more alone. I'm dying inside. The darkness consumes me.... It controls my mind, body, and heart.... I'm a slave to the darkness.... I have to obey the darkness, or else it hurts me. I wanna die...
    Ellias95 Ellias95
    22-25, F
    Jun 29, 2014

    I am married and fell in love with someone

    that was also married. I've never met anyone like her and she has a little boy and decided we couldn't be together so she told her husband and we haven't spoken in a month and it hurts like crazy. I miss her so much she was exactly like me and I wonder if she even thinks of me...
    jakers77 jakers77
    36-40, M
    Aug 20, 2015

    Can I just stop, now?

    Everything feels way too hard and I can't cope.
    caroarevalo caroarevalo
    26-30, F
    1 Response Mar 15, 2015

    the worst part is that im not

    even sad anymore. i just want to go away like when someone moves into town and youve never seen them before i want to exist as the thought of that person before anyone knew them. not there. not dead dead would imply i was there at some time. my life is starting to become a...
    oceanescape oceanescape
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jan 9, 2014

    yes. When I live , I feel great .

    But when problems arise and i cannot cope anymore , I exist right. And when i exist , i feel jealous till Im envious of others and i kill them spiritually . what the hell. When all i want is love love love. And this is all i get out of existing. i went from living to existing. I...
    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Apr 11, 2015

    Have you ever just wanted to stop existing,

    not to die, just stop being there, even just for a moment, so that you can remember why existing is so great in the first place? Or even better a question have you ever been disconnected from your whole body? Like watching yourself doing something without even realizing it's you...
    Lilypantz Lilypantz
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Dec 20, 2013

    Same Stuff

    It's the same **** everyday..  over and over.. I know it seems.. so trivial, buti it drives me insane.. All the little things, little problems that happen in a person's day.. add up, until I can't take it.. just stupid little things, school, girls...
    UpYourJuiceBox UpYourJuiceBox
    18-21, M
    Nov 5, 2009

    What's the point of life

    if you are not free to do all that you want?...I wish there were a serum which could cure your sensitivity and neuter your desires..no feelings, no expectations...life would be so easy then...
    DressRehearsalRag DressRehearsalRag
    26-30, M
    Apr 16, 2015

    I wonder more often when will the balance break,

    the only reason that keeps me alive is the fear of hurting people in my life. I'm just tired, broken alone and in pain..
    EternalHermit EternalHermit
    41-45, M
    2 Responses May 22, 2014

    I had been suicidal for a

    while now and I've finally convinced myself recently that won't kill myself, but still I long to not live and I've came up with the conclusion that I don't want to kill myself, I don't, that would be too hard. I merely just wish that i didn't exist. I resent the day I born into...
    TheRouge TheRouge
    18-21, F
    1 Response Sep 3, 2014

    My life is no life anymore.

    It´s just a nightmare. I am just waiting for the day where I can leave this world.
    Loretta78 Loretta78
    36-40, F
    4 Responses Oct 14, 2015

    I'm just so tired. always trying to get money,

    sitting there awkwardly as everyone is on their phones doing Facebook and selfies, tired of trying to find things that will make me happy, continually realizing that I may never be happy. I don't know why I try anymore, I don't know the point of it all anymore, really you can...
    Vespion437 Vespion437
    22-25, M
    3 Responses Jun 23, 2015

    I Should Love My Life...

    Nothing really bad happens in my life. I am just bored with my life. I do not want to die. I just wish I never existed from the start. My life is boring. I feel lonely even when I am surrounded by friends or family. I just do not feel the same as I did when I was younger. I miss...
    bellaunq bellaunq
    18-21, F
    1 Response Feb 12, 2011
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