I Don't Want To Feel This Way Anymore

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 488 People

    I hate life. So cliche

    but true. My whole life is an act, a game, and I'm constantly losing to myself. I guess I'll just start by telling you about me and some important things that affected me in life. My name is Kaylynn, I'm 14 years old but I guess if I'm going to tell you my whole story I should...
    XxBellabixtch49xX XxBellabixtch49xX
    16-17, F
    2 Responses Apr 23, 2014

    Sometimes I wish there was no technology.

    .. No computers or cell phones. So much drama seems to be happening because of this. I wish life could be simpler. No hiding feelings. Peace and happiness
    capecodlovin capecodlovin
    18-21, F
    May 7, 2014

    Ok I'm just starting this

    so please don't judge me. I had to move recently because a group of people at my old school told me to kill myself so constantly that I tried and failed miserably. As soon as I tried everyone freaked out and said I was amazing and beautiful and all this dumb stuff. When they...
    Izzymontana Izzymontana
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 6, 2014
    visaforlove visaforlove
    31-35, F
    Aug 12, 2015

    So Sick Of It

    I've been depressed ( I mean seriously, clinically) for over a year now and I AM TIRED OF IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All I want to do is learn how to deal with my emotions like a normal person!!!!!!!! I want this darkness OUT OF ME! It is ruining my life and I am...
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
    36-40, F
    1 Response Mar 18, 2010

    I had this friend, she judges everyone.

    I thought she'll change, but I was wrong. So I decided to stop being friends with her and she went all crazy and harass me on twitter. She was subtweeting me. I was mad and sad because I never thought she'll do these stuffs to me. I treated her so well and at the end I always...
    meganchang meganchang
    16-17, F
    1 Response Aug 12, 2014

    Why is death so bad. Why is it

    such a big deal. Why can't I just kill myself and it not matter. I just want to leave.
    tori1717 tori1717
    18-21, F
    4 Responses Apr 14, 2014

    I feel like no one in my life cares anymore.

    I feel like life is too hard for me. Idk what to do, I just want somebody to cry on.. :(:(:(
    makaiajane makaiajane
    18-21, F
    2 Responses May 14, 2014

    I am usually always sad

    or upset. I've recently been trying to be positive and happy and humorous, but there's always some bad moment that occurs that makes me overthink it and create negative thoughts.
    MisunderstoodGirl69 MisunderstoodGirl69
    13-15, F
    Jun 4, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    9 Responses Oct 31, 2015

    I didnt wanna feel that way

    that i felt, things changed and now i don't anymore. But now i am totally empty, cant feel a damn thing... And i am desperate to feel again, even if that would only be excrutiating pain, like i did before... Emptyness us worse, trust me...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 7, 2015

    Every time I try not to let it happens to me I

    fail again and again. I'm always depressed and at the end of everyday I tell myself that I have to be another one and start a new life without depression, but when I break again I don't find someone who cares. I feel my heart is breaking from this pain
    LastSunrise LastSunrise
    16-17, F
    1 Response Nov 15, 2015

    My palms are sweaty and my heart is racing.

    . All I have to do is turn off the light.. But I'm too "afraid".. I'm pathetic.. I'm tired.. I don't want to live anymore..
    sukie13 sukie13
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 23, 2014

    Why do I keep doing this to myself?

    I know I regret it afterwards and the self hatred that follows is killing me. I need to stop. But I can't. It has become an addiction.
    BrokenBabygirlx BrokenBabygirlx
    18-21, F
    Jun 7, 2015
    randomzaroni randomzaroni
    22-25, F
    1 Response Jun 3, 2015

    I feel like I been played I'm mad

    and sad at the same time.
    rasberryup rasberryup
    18-21, F
    1 Response May 6, 2014

    Hi. So i sexually experimented with my friend

    (same sex) when i was young and ive really been shameful of it. Ive just got out of a relationship with my girl friend who was that friends ex from a long time ago. The guilt from being friends for so long and him being hurt from it made me feel bad and turned me off. I would...
    whoknows2112 whoknows2112
    22-25, M
    2 Responses Apr 5, 2014

    I'm tired of feeling useless all the time.

    I'm tired of feeling that I can't do anything right. I'm tired of pushing the ones I love away. I'm tired of my mind being my worst enemy. I'm tired of being locked in its prison with no hope for escape. I'm tired of trying and getting nowhere.
    Jeebitjeebs Jeebitjeebs
    26-30, M
    1 Response Dec 2, 2015

    In my last relationship i started to grow

    unattracted to my gf. We would never fight or anything but i seemed to just grow physically unattracted to her and little things wuld just turn me off .even tho i felt like i culd be with her forever.She was really good to me tho like the best but i called things off and i felt...
    whoknows2112 whoknows2112
    22-25, M
    1 Response Jun 10, 2014

    She said "no". I didn't listen.

    It was fun for me. Like a game. I showed her who's boss. She's weak. I'm strong. But during the lonely hours Between midnight and dawn I hear something in the distance. Justice will come for me someday. In this life or the next. I can't get away with this.
    seasonedspy seasonedspy
    46-50, M
    3 Responses May 6, 2014
    makaiajane makaiajane
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 4, 2014

    I am feeling afraid and paranoid.

    No judgments please. I met this guy on the internet. We were chatting for months. Got closer and closer until we got into a relationship. Well, it wasn't really serious for me but i trusted him. I only told him my first name but he found out my full name through facebook...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jun 30, 2015

    Feeling Trapped

    I dont want to feel this depressed and confused my whole life. I dont want to have paranoid thoughts every day and start fights because of it. I love my partner and he doesnt deserve to be treated like a criminal. I know he isnt an angel, but my thought patterns and feelings are...
    PrincessLulu PrincessLulu
    26-30, F
    Oct 18, 2010
    BehappyToday BehappyToday
    18-21, F
    May 6, 2014
    vf702 vf702
    26-30, F
    Jun 4, 2015

    Depression isn't the first thing to come to

    mind, but it's still there, waiting to drag me into its depths never to be seen again. I know that I may be in fault for saying these things, especially for what I've achieved: As the valedictorian of my graduating class of 2014 and the acceptance to a fine fully-paid college...
    uscoo234 uscoo234
    18-21, F
    Mar 30, 2014

    I feel so sick everyday bc of my anxity am I

    the only one:( if not what are your sympotoms
    keishaking keishaking
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Apr 17, 2014

    Im thinking about him everyday

    and he will never know
    kribz kribz
    18-21, F
    Jun 4, 2015

    Alone in the World. No parents No family No No

    boyfriend They say life is what you make it , but after a while being alone really gets to you.
    AmericanPie91 AmericanPie91
    22-25, F
    1 Response Apr 22, 2014
    tori1717 tori1717
    18-21, F
    Apr 8, 2014

    I am almost always angry.

    I say horrible things to people because I can't control my anger. Then I must clean up after, and it pushes people away. I am with bipolar disorder and I take medicine for it, but sometimes I don't think it works. I want to be happy and calm. I am almost always stressed and...
    Shampati Shampati
    36-40, F
    Jun 4, 2015

    Some people come into your life

    and you just know you will never be able to replace them if they left.
    visaforlove visaforlove
    31-35, F
    Oct 31, 2015
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Dec 9, 2014

    These past few days I have been slipping back

    into depression. I have no idea why, things have been pretty great.. But I find it very difficult to smile. I can't get out of bed and when I do I don't have motivation for much else. I used to be anorexic and bulimic and I've been having urges to get into it again. I know I...
    makaiajane makaiajane
    18-21, F
    1 Response Apr 30, 2014

    I don't want to feel this way anymore.

    I can't even describe how I feel. I just know that it's unpleasant. I hate it. I'm tired of life. I'm tired of all the bull crap. I'm tired of being judged. I'm tired of being told that I need to "suck it up" because "no one has a perfect life". I've told my friend that I'm...
    tRueInSAnItY tRueInSAnItY
    18-21, F
    1 Response Dec 7, 2014
    tomatohq0202 tomatohq0202
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jun 4, 2014

    I like attention from people

    as much as any other person. You want to feel understood and appreciated by the people you talk to and share mutual experiences which makes you connect to them. I love that feeling, It's like feeling at home around people in a big world that can make you feel really lonely at...
    GuiltBear GuiltBear
    31-35, M
    1 Response Jun 22, 2015
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