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I Don't Want to Live a Lie

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 131 People

    But They Live - Especially Them

    A VERY HUGE LIE THEY MAKE LIVE, AND MAKE EVERYBODY ELSE LIVE TOO.
    Thought1 Thought1 22-25 Dec 23, 2009

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    I'm 19 years old, and I have never felt

    so pressured to be someone else. My family doesn't know anything about the real me. They don't know that I smoke, don't know the music I listen to, don't know what really goes on in my mind. I'm not allowed to drive on the interstate, I can't speak my mind (regardless of the...
    Weightlessfigures Weightlessfigures 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 29, 2014

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    deleted deleted 26-30 Sep 5, 2015

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    The Problem Is That

    THIS WHOLE WORLD IS A VERY BIG LIE. I don't want to live a lie, but IT'S EVERYWHERE. And I already have problems because I know the world is a huge lie. It's almost nothing else left already BUT LIES EVERYWHERE. Most people never see that; those who do, BOTH ARE VERY...
    Thought1 Thought1 22-25 5 Responses Jul 13, 2009

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    Everyday Is a Lie

    I wake up everyday to the realization that my ex-boyfriend that I am still seeing and still in love with, will more and likely never leave the person he lives with. Thus living a lie daily. We sneak around behind her back. How bad is that? I do not want to keep up this pace...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 31, 2008

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    It Would Be the Worse

    Live all  my life believing something that is false. I would die of it. lol. Seriously, I prefer one to tell me clearly things, even if it hurts on the moment. Then I'm free to choose, forgive, or move on, or both. I want to live my life like it is now, not like it could...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 29, 2008

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    i asked before and chosen to be loved but honestly i hate love by every painful pain i feel right now!!!, i hate it i hate it and i never hated something in my life but it...
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    I have started avoiding places I've been going to for years just in case I see him... I know that no way to live but it's easier than the possible confrontation that would happen...
    Jenezebel Jenezebel 26-30, F 1 Response 13 hrs ago

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    My mom was abused by her mother, went to live with her dad, later in life she had kids, and then abused them. That is what has happened for generations in my family. History has...
    Valeph Valeph 13-15, F 2 Responses 23 hrs ago

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    Especially if it's an ex that had the most terificly bad things to say about u... Also when people ask u what ur doing now and ur like... erm... I am looking for a job... I...
    Backspaceblogger Backspaceblogger 26-30 1 day ago

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    I have a feeling so many of my friends parents pity me. I don't want that. They've seen me go throughout so much family related issues and I feel like they're overly cautious when...
    PearlyyJayy PearlyyJayy 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    Here I am, another spring semester, another crisis. I am currently awaiting results from a brain scan. Could be a brain tumor, could be epilepsy, who knows? Not me. Understandably...
    BuzzFanatic BuzzFanatic 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I get antsy when people want to talk on the phone for more than 5 minutes. I thought this anxiety would be gone by now.
    Jewelz62 Jewelz62 26-30, F 2 days ago

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    I don't get any pleasure when people who know nothing about me leave comments like "I'm sure you are beautiful" and "Lots of men find X really sexy" after I say something about...
    adel66 adel66 46-50, F 2 days ago

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    My energy is severely limited by a disease and I don't think I could physically handle the care for a child. That lack of energy also gets in the way of gathering the money for...
    Gentle153 Gentle153 26-30, M 4 Responses 2 days ago

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    I don't understand today's "obsessional" priority of a phone call...we've all got voice mail, so use it...if you're actually with someone that took the time out of their day to be...
    BooBoo493 BooBoo493 61-65, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    No i won't be, i refuse to be a verbally abusive lazy alcoholic. Who didn't want kids but had them anyways.
    PanHead1989 PanHead1989 26-30, M 7 Responses 3 days ago

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    Pain pain pain pain pain. That's all I feel is pain. I want to scream it hurts so much. Pain inside. Driving me crazy. I want others to see my pain. Know my pain, but I can't tell...
    faeriefate faeriefate 18-21 1 Response 4 days ago

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    Though I really don't know what defines a boing life. Since no one's life is completely boring.
    Cutiepeachpie Cutiepeachpie 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    I dont want to do that. I dont care what all the other ones do. I dont feel comfortable. I have a hard time saying no because I dont want to hurt feelings or lose friendship and...
    ChelseaMonroe ChelseaMonroe 22-25, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    Do you find it ****** up that most people want you to respect their decision of wanting kids, but they won't respect your decision of not wanting any?
    Peridot23 Peridot23 22-25, F 9 Responses a week ago

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    I just don't do it. There is no good that comes from lying to myself or others.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Feb 2

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    Not having kids is for me a charity act to the world. I believe there are too many people on Earth, and millions do not live good. I think that reducing the number of person would...
    JuPond JuPond 22-25, F 4 Responses Feb 1

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    I could stare at her for hours. Her kissable lips her beautiful eyes. Her contagious smile. She's everything I've ever wanted and yet some. She's perfect to me. I shall call her my...
    CleansedSoul CleansedSoul 36-40, M 1 Response Feb 1

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    Sometimes you care too much about someone who doesn't give a **** about you. Life sucks
    LoloRegz LoloRegz 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 31

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    I have started to feel more powerfully about this since my friends started to have them themselves. Good, old, Female friends that are essentially permanently off the market and...
    ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix 26-30, M 6 Responses Jan 31

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    It's crazy. When you are friends with someone for so long, only to realize years later that you can't talk about EVERYTHING. I learned that over the past weekend. I love this...
    Jazzy1234 Jazzy1234 31-35, F Jan 31

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    I was just informed that a very good friend of mine is having a kid. I'm feeling very conflicted about the news. On one hand, I want to be happy for him. Kids are supposed to be a...
    AmayaTsuki AmayaTsuki 26-30, F 3 Responses Jan 30

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    We drove by her house today. I wasn't the same for the rest of the night.
    kayla459 kayla459 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    I want my first time to be with someone special, on the other hand I get h0rny and just want to have sex with whoever. It's hard.
    awaywego4 awaywego4 26-30, F 1 Response Jan 30

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    ughhhh really don't wanna go.
    hexKrona hexKrona 18-21, M 2 Responses Jan 30

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    I don't want children nor do I have children and it's staying that way. First when becoming intimate with my husband when get the mood all of the sudden kids come in no thank you...
    Cynthia1976 Cynthia1976 36-40, F 1 Response Jan 29

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    im madly, deeply in love with a man that dosnt love me back. i want to marry him but he wants to lie and cheat. i need to forget about him so i can be happy but its difficult to...
    jbrose413 jbrose413 22-25 Jan 29

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    Going out en femme first time in a month or less I think. Still waiting to get an appointment for a makeover on "go live" date. Questions: Do I pee in the women's bathroom...
    Rebeccah37 Rebeccah37 36-40, T 2 Responses Jan 27

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    In my opinion, I'm not a very smart person, have not made the smartest choices, and have not had the funnest time on earth. I don't want to raise a child in a world like this to...
    ghostofthesun ghostofthesun 22-25, F 5 Responses Jan 27

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    If I help you, it's because I have made the choice. Although I don't ask for anything in return, understand that I will not allow myself, or my family to be taken advantage of.
    ZenGrrrlLioNESS ZenGrrrlLioNESS 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    I accidentally gave my boyfriend hope today by talking about surrogate mothers out of curiosity. Not only do I not want to carry a child (which he thinks is the only reason) I...
    Nadiiaa Nadiiaa 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 26

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    Unless it is from family or a friend who i am certain is not just going to want to chit chat for the sake of passing time I ignore the phone unless I really want to kill time...
    shadowgurl444 shadowgurl444 26-30, F 4 Responses Jan 26

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    I've been out with acquaintances and friends a lot lately, indulging in the nightclub scene even though it's not really my thing. They're fun enough but the only reason I wanted to...
    TheBadgeringWitness TheBadgeringWitness 31-35 1 Response Jan 26

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    So tired of aches and pains and emotions and bodies and just bleh. I'm going to go live on the moon.
    thecutestpanda thecutestpanda 26-30, M 2 Responses Jan 26

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    Reasons why I don't want kids: 1) I argue with them 2) I have no patience 3) I get mad at them if they're being naughty 4) And I have to watch my cussing
    Peridot23 Peridot23 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 25