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I Don't Want to Live a Lie

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 119 People

    I'm 19 years old, and I have never felt

    so pressured to be someone else. My family doesn't know anything about the real me. They don't know that I smoke, don't know the music I listen to, don't know what really goes on in my mind. I'm not allowed to drive on the interstate, I can't speak my mind (regardless of the...
    Weightlessfigures Weightlessfigures 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 29, 2014

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    It Would Be the Worse

    Live all  my life believing something that is false. I would die of it. lol. Seriously, I prefer one to tell me clearly things, even if it hurts on the moment. Then I'm free to choose, forgive, or move on, or both. I want to live my life like it is now, not like it could...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 29, 2008

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    But They Live - Especially Them

    A VERY HUGE LIE THEY MAKE LIVE, AND MAKE EVERYBODY ELSE LIVE TOO.
    Thought1 Thought1 22-25 Dec 23, 2009

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    The Problem Is That

    THIS WHOLE WORLD IS A VERY BIG LIE. I don't want to live a lie, but IT'S EVERYWHERE. And I already have problems because I know the world is a huge lie. It's almost nothing else left already BUT LIES EVERYWHERE. Most people never see that; those who do, BOTH ARE VERY...
    Thought1 Thought1 22-25 5 Responses Jul 13, 2009

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    Everyday Is a Lie

    I wake up everyday to the realization that my ex-boyfriend that I am still seeing and still in love with, will more and likely never leave the person he lives with. Thus living a lie daily. We sneak around behind her back. How bad is that? I do not want to keep up this pace...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 31, 2008

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