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I Don't Want to Live a Lie

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    I'm 19 years old, and I have never felt

    so pressured to be someone else. My family doesn't know anything about the real me. They don't know that I smoke, don't know the music I listen to, don't know what really goes on in my mind. I'm not allowed to drive on the interstate, I can't speak my mind (regardless of the...
    Weightlessfigures Weightlessfigures 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 29, 2014

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    But They Live - Especially Them

    A VERY HUGE LIE THEY MAKE LIVE, AND MAKE EVERYBODY ELSE LIVE TOO.
    Thought1 Thought1 22-25 Dec 23, 2009

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    The Problem Is That

    THIS WHOLE WORLD IS A VERY BIG LIE. I don't want to live a lie, but IT'S EVERYWHERE. And I already have problems because I know the world is a huge lie. It's almost nothing else left already BUT LIES EVERYWHERE. Most people never see that; those who do, BOTH ARE VERY...
    Thought1 Thought1 22-25 5 Responses Jul 13, 2009

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    Everyday Is a Lie

    I wake up everyday to the realization that my ex-boyfriend that I am still seeing and still in love with, will more and likely never leave the person he lives with. Thus living a lie daily. We sneak around behind her back. How bad is that? I do not want to keep up this pace...
    cinfullynn cinfullynn 46-50, F 1 Response Jan 31, 2008

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    It Would Be the Worse

    Live all  my life believing something that is false. I would die of it. lol. Seriously, I prefer one to tell me clearly things, even if it hurts on the moment. Then I'm free to choose, forgive, or move on, or both. I want to live my life like it is now, not like it could...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jan 29, 2008

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    my husband and I are so happy we made the decision to forego kids. we love the quiet, the freedom, and our kitties!! hell I can barely take care of myself some days, I don't need...
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    3 days ago I moved to Spain to start my bachelors degree. Ive been looking forward to this for so long, I could not wait to get out of my country and start a new and more exciting...
    moretotheeyes moretotheeyes 18-21, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Period Period, Go away I don't need you, I don't want kids some day
    0KatieKat0 0KatieKat0 18-21, F 1 Response 6 days ago

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    There, I said it. I am not having a baby! Yes, my hips look like they could plop one out in a heart beat. Yes, my large breast probably could feed 10 of them a peice,a day. Yes...
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    Alone is not bad, when it is a choice. When it isn't a choice, it is not necessarily bad, but it is lonely. I find it strange that I am lonely, when in the past, being alone didn...
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    I didn't say I don't want to be rich though.
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    Every Thursday I am forced to go food shopping with my Fake Mother, a woman who is not even my real Mother. She is currently collecting my Social Security money from a disability...
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    I don't want kids because I don't want kids. Age, race, gender, etc has nothing to do with it. It's not something I want to put my mind and body through. Because I don't have to.
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    I don't want any friends at all, at least from a conscious theoretical perspective. From an evolutionary perspective, I see friendship as a way to ensure survival by combining...
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    Because of the medical problems I have, I feel like I'd have a really tough pregnancy. Also, I tire out easily, so I don't think I'll have the energy to take care of a kid. And I...
    hiddenkitty hiddenkitty 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 18

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    I'm only 20, but I feel like I can get by without driving. I can carpool or use public transportation. In certain cities, I can get an Uber, especially if I don't need to go too...
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