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I Don't Want to Live Anymore

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 186 People

    So Sick of Life

    Life I can’t stand the world as it is today, I’m sick of all the people and everything that they say, Take a look around tell me what do you see? Cuz you can’t feel the pain that’s inside of me, Do you see that kid sitting over there? He wants to...
    thesoundofsilence thesoundofsilence
    18-21, F
    6 Responses Jul 3, 2007

    I don't want to live anymore.

    I understand my life is the way it has to be. I know no matter what I can never change it. Nothing I do will do any good if it's not in the plan for me. So, meanwhile I sit and get more mentally ill by the day. I don't want to live like that. I live in shame...shame of things I...
    mystory37 mystory37
    41-45, F
    Mar 16, 2014

    I'm new to this site,

    so...I hope I'm posting this in the right place..Everything seems to have gone downhill, I don't feel like I'm alive anymore, and I'm hardly ever happy now. My dog passed away earlier this month on 9/11. I feel so wretched, I wasn't with her when she passed. I tried to stay...
    SpookyHollows SpookyHollows
    22-25, F
    4 Responses Sep 29, 2015

    (Probably no one will read this.

    Oh well. I should get used to it.) What do you do, when there's nothing to live for? When there's nothing that makes you happy any more, when you have no goals whatsoever, when all you want to do is to lay down and lose your conciousness? What do you do, when you feel like a...
    Mayome Mayome
    22-25, F
    3 Responses Jan 7, 2014

    I Dont Want To Live!

    I so wanted to die last night. An old friend made me promise I would not do it. I had the whole procedure set up. Then I woke up this morning wishing I hadn’t made that promise. I still want to die! I’m so tired seeing my kids pain and struggles and on top if that everyone...
    darkreality68 darkreality68
    41-45, M
    2 Responses Oct 13, 2010

    I can't live without them.

    .. I have no happiness, no purpose to get up... I can't get anything out of my head. The ideas of dying bring some happiness, but than I snap back to reality and notice I'm still nothing more than a tool to be discarded at will. Like do you truly know what it feels like to have...
    lostunit lostunit
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Sep 20, 2014

    My Beautiful Man

    i met my husband 34 years ago,it was love at first sight.My friends warned me to stay away from him as he was "no good"but i didnt listen and married him.We had two children and a very stormy marriage,he had affairs,hit me ,stole from me and in general was as my friends said no...
    manet manet
    Sep 12, 2010

    All I can think about is everything

    that I can't have back and the smoudling ruin my life is... And if I had a gun I'd end this painful life... I can't do it no more... I want to end it. No I NEED to end it. I can't live without those that I care about and love so much... Gawd dammit why. Why isn't there an easy...
    lostunit lostunit
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Sep 6, 2014

    I mean what's the point.

    Everyone hurts. I get treated like garbage. No body cares. I'm just here taking up air. No friends no family. Just heart aches... God please just kill me...
    lostunit lostunit
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Sep 24, 2014

    Because i know what i would need to be happy to

    do more in this world then just exist but I can never have that but I know i can't just exist i want to be alive i need to be alive the thought of living 60-80 more years just being comfortable never happy trapped in some gray space constantly stared at by my true self seeing...
    jackchurch jackchurch
    22-25, M
    1 Response Aug 6, 2014

    So... Here I am researching again.

    .. Today it was nothing but bad news... Everything is adding up and I got nothing... No money and no job has added to it. Got some rum left, got painkillers and a few sleepers. 2 gravol left... Now I just need something that can shut down my system for a minimal of 8 hrs... If...
    lostunit lostunit
    31-35, M
    Sep 24, 2014


    Funny little phone number mocking me at the top of this group...if you are in crisis...blah blah blah I'm beyond crisis now. I'm surrendering.  Another night of verbal abuse. Of what a POS I am. And I wonder what if I don't take my pretty little 50mg lifesavers what if I...
    GoodEnough09 GoodEnough09
    15 Responses Oct 19, 2009


    i have had bp for 30 yrs and iam tiered of medication the doctors & depression...
    luvmyorkies luvmyorkies
    51-55, F
    1 Response Aug 22, 2012


    Jess,It’s  Christmas  day, I’ve  opened  up all my  presents, I’ve worn, played, or read  them  all  by  now. I love  them, all  of  them,  they’re so polished and neat and new, maybe  I  won’t  be  saying that a couple of months from now, but right now...
    NoticeWhoIAm NoticeWhoIAm
    1 Response Dec 28, 2010

    I'm up to the point where i don't know what to

    do in my life. I had a pretty bad childhood. I grew up with a physically and emotionally abusive mom, and a father that would ignore everything. I have been beaten by my mom with clothes hangers, rods, chairs etc. One time she even put baby poop on my face. This was when i was 7...
    annehuang annehuang
    22-25, F
    Apr 19, 2015

    ...when half of the world is born better

    than you. They get to be the fighters and warriors I always want to be. I am forever cursed to be under their shadow as an inferior version of them being the real human beings unless if I end it sooner or later.
    ejy2 ejy2
    22-25, F
    Dec 19, 2013

    God please... If your reading this,

    if your seeing my pain, than please I beg you. Take my life... I don't care how just take it soon... I can't live like this anymore... I miss everyone that I love and care so much about, but I can't have them back! I've been used and abused, and I can't have those memonlents...
    lostunit lostunit
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Aug 12, 2014

    We All Have A Choice To Give A "piece Of Our Hearts" Or A "piece Of Our Mind"!!

    I call it the "Rippling Effect"...A pebble is dropped......and the ripples......find their way to the shores of those that otherwise we would never have come in contact with!! How powerful are our Words!! Ask anyone that has been hurt deeply by them! Words can stay with you...
    deleted deleted
    3 Responses Mar 12, 2011

    Have Joy In Your Life.... And Learn To Harness The Winds Of Discouragement!!

    There was a time in my life when I was so destitute I wanted to just end it all....and almost did!  There is no greater pain than that of the Internal Pain felt when your wanting to just give up!  The pain was so unbearable for me.....and me being of the...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Nov 13, 2010

    I feel so lost. I've been fighting this

    horrible feeling of sadness for the past few years on. I hate feeling like nothing I do is good enough. I'm a lot more confident that I used to be but it still cripples me and I find it so hard to believe in myself or my abilities. I have no idea what to do with my life. Since...
    LadyRed90 LadyRed90
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 20, 2014

    “I Hate Living, It’s Not My Choice.”

    How does one handle the morning When you wake but don’t want to live Having a list of agendas But not a care do you have to give Surviving every day Only because your children are alive on this earth Hating yourself chaotically And the Codependency that makes you feel like dirt...
    darkreality68 darkreality68
    41-45, M
    5 Responses Jun 8, 2011

    I'm such a loser. I'm 28 years old

    and I haven't had sex in 8 years. I'll try to get with girls but they always just pass me by. It's always the same, it's like a constant cycle of trying only to fail. All I do is fail. It seems so much easier. It seems like everyone else is having sex all the time. Why not me...
    statesofunrest statesofunrest
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Dec 17, 2013

    So here I am. Back to researching methods to

    kill myself. Cause I'm unsure that my plan will work... Its not fair... Everyone things this is some joke. If I had access to a gun I'd do it. If I had the keys to a car I'd do it. If I had access to the tall building I'd jump. But no... All I have access to is pills that...
    lostunit lostunit
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Sep 21, 2014

    I don't really know how to start this,

    but here I go... This year was my first semester in college, you might think, "Cool, you got something that much people would fight for", indeed, but I don't really see the point on studying, at least for me, I don't really care about working at all, I do like to learn but I don...
    SusAssasins SusAssasins
    18-21, F
    Dec 8, 2015

    Again I want to Die Another day of hating

    myself Broken and crushed is all I felt Wishing I didn't have children I love so much So my suicide would be easily dealt I’m so alone with no one in whom to confine My dog’s fur is soaking wet because I hold her when I cry I was once a fierce warrior and combat sergeant...
    darkreality68 darkreality68
    41-45, M
    1 Response Sep 22, 2014

    I Cant Bear The Pain Anymore

    I never thought I would get his low, yest I have had thought in the past but never this strong.  The pain I feel is too much to bear anymore.  I was emotionally, mentally and sexually abused my entire childhood.  I had my own child when I was only 16 I have fought and busted...
    Mammaoftwo09 Mammaoftwo09
    2 Responses Apr 25, 2011

    I Don'T Want To Live Anymore And I Don'T Know What To Do About It

    I don't have a bad live.I have plenty of people that love my or at list they say they do.I'm well respected at work.It's just I'm so tired,I can't see strait.Every thing takes such an enormous effort, it's emotionally and physically draining.I don't know what to do, how much...
    vladimir1144 vladimir1144
    46-50, M
    Jun 16, 2013

    One Thing After Another

    I have gotten to the point where I dont want to be here anymore. Ive known a few people in my lifetime that have killed themselves and each time I thought about how sad that was and I felt for them, but I never understood them. I understand them now and that scares me. Back in...
    janedoe6452 janedoe6452
    26-30, F
    1 Response Feb 28, 2013


    Sometimes I get this way, when I just think its better to throw the towel in and say **** it, and quit, because honestly, is it all worth the pain and suffering? I don't really know on most days, but today, when the pain *physical* is so bad, that yes, I do think of death as a...
    deleted deleted
    5 Responses Jan 6, 2011

    I went on a suicide chat site today,

    now I truly feel hopeless. My kids are young adults whom I raised as a single father. I wish I didn't love them so much that I could get over the guilt that my suicide would put them through. I know after I kill myself MY suffering will be gone and I really shouldn't care but I...
    darkreality68 darkreality68
    41-45, M
    1 Response Jan 7, 2015

    Life is to overwhelming

    when you don't have enough money to pay for my perscription medications, food, pay all your bills etc.
    Speedy589 Speedy589
    61-65, F
    Jan 8, 2014

    The Days Seem So Long, I Dont Want To Wake Tommorow

    Hello, my name is jeremiah, and i would like to tell you my story. I had a chaotic early childhood my parents always fought, dad was an alcoholic, but it made no difference to me cause i loved him and looked up to him. When i was six years, my parents seperated and i would live...
    6PathsofPain 6PathsofPain
    22-25, M
    Oct 29, 2013

    I Need To Prepare...

    I'm crying right now. I've fought for almost 23 years. I need prepare for my death. My health isn't getting any better. My life isn't getting better. I've tried to believe in God. I tried to trust other people and do good deeds. That was never enough. I just want to leave without...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe
    8 Responses Jun 19, 2011

    Oh Wait...Yeah I Do

    Silly me! I almost forgot. There's something about existing that's just so, what's the word again? OH that's right, PLEASANT. Something about consciousness makes me enjoy being alive.
    inexperienced inexperienced
    26-30, M
    2 Responses Jan 6, 2011

    I go on fighting and fighting,

    and I ask myself for what... I'm lonely... I'm left in the dark, no lights... I'm a stricken high seas battleship with out a home to return to... Correction... I was a high seas battleship... Now I'm just a rubber dingy... A life raft lost on the open sea... I want to die...
    lostunit lostunit
    31-35, M
    4 Responses Oct 4, 2014

    Its taking every ounce of my willpower not to

    start cutting! God dam it, I hate myself so much, all this physical and mental pain! God d it please just kill me. I know I can't have the people I love back, I know I can't fix anything, please just kill me now! If rather be 6 feet underground that way it won't matter what...
    lostunit lostunit
    31-35, M
    2 Responses Aug 5, 2014

    I'm up to the point where i don't know what to

    do in my life. I had a pretty bad childhood. I grew up with a physically and emotionally abusive mom, and a father that would ignore everything. I have been beaten by my mom with clothes hangers, rods, chairs etc. One time she even put baby poop on my face. This was when i was 7...
    annehuang annehuang
    22-25, F
    Apr 19, 2015

    the feeling im having is a bit unusual.

    the body feels floating and i can feel my blood in my veins so light and so tired. i am being recluse, having a pride i dont know where i got from makes me feel sick. i am confused between giving up and or enlightenment. im at the point that i dont know what to do with every...
    deleted deleted
    1 Response Jul 12, 2015

    I think this weekend is

    when I call it quits... The numbness has gone away and I have a blurred vision headache now and lights are effecting my eyesight and the pain... Even writing this is hard... The memories keep coming back of how I'm not good enough for work and losing the best thing that ever...
    lostunit lostunit
    31-35, M
    Sep 11, 2014

    This Is Not At Cry Out For Help.

    Life hurts, it hurts too ******* much!! You can have everything but feel nothing inside. I've shared stories about past tendencies to commit suicide but for reasons such as family members I couldn't do it. Well... I actually thought I can do this and they will get over it so, I...
    Phoenixxx84 Phoenixxx84
    26-30, F
    3 Responses Apr 15, 2013

    Been feeling all kinds of ways about life.

    Everything is bad. I miss my mom who has passed away and my father is out of state not which makes it even more difficult to cope with! My friends claim they're there for me but lately it seems they could give two flying ***** about me. I can't even turn to my own church becUse...
    Mystique91 Mystique91
    26-30, F
    1 Response Dec 27, 2014

    Made Up My Mind.

    I've decided to kill myself.  I just have to figure out how to do it successfully.    I thought once you decided to kill yourself you were supposed to feel happy and calm.  I still just want to cry. 
    missyfin missyfin
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Feb 24, 2010

    I Do Not Want To Live On This Planet Anymore

    I've always seemed to be a person with goals and objectives, and I have always wanted to be successful in my life, but nowadays I feel like life does not make any sense to me because I have never had a lot of money, I have never owed my first car or even gotten a driver's license...
    Piggillia81 Piggillia81
    36-40, M
    Mar 7, 2013

    I don't think I'll ever be happy

    as long I stay here around so many negative rude people. The only people who are actually somewhat nice are a lot older than me and every person I find to be around my age are total jerks. I have a long abusive background story that I won't dare speak of here. I grow tired of...
    deleted deleted
    Sep 8, 2014

    Tried Of Living

    Let me first introduce myself, I am 48 year old male that is in very good shape that cares about other people and treats people with respect and kindness, with that said I like to explain to everybody why I am tried of living.  About 8 years ago I married a lady that I...
    Art4812 Art4812
    46-50, M
    4 Responses Jun 12, 2010


    Seem like I have been married most of my life and now after 30 years I am on the edge of divorce . There is no hope, my prayers have not been answered; I do not want to go on / I do not want to live.I tried my level best to reconcile and asked for us to go to a counseler but...
    cobots cobots
    1 Response May 27, 2011

    I Want To Stay As Close To The Edge As I Can Without Going Over. Out On The Edge You See All Kinds Of Things You Can't See From The Center.

    I'm listening to Riverside- I believe- and I find this amusing. I finished my suicide letter a few minutes ago at the advice of some site trying to talk me out of killing myself. I'm a little apathetic having spent the past hour and a few pages on my macbook telling my family...
    DeliriumofSway DeliriumofSway
    22-25, F
    1 Response Feb 25, 2010
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