I Don't Want To Live

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    I'm just tired of my father

    such a **** about things that don't matter in the end, and just because he THINKS he saw what happened, means that he has every right to punish me over **** that I didn't do. I'm just tired him saying "Oh, what I saw you doing as a jerk move, now I'm gonna tell you the...
    sonicrulesdude sonicrulesdude
    16-17, M
    Jul 6, 2015

    its over i ******* quit this ****** *** excuse

    of a ******* life... goodbye...
    Thatrandompersonme1 Thatrandompersonme1
    18-21, M
    2 Responses Mar 13, 2015

    I know that suicide isn’t allowed in

    Christianity. But I have already failed God. I am already a walking sin. I’m nothing worth saving. I’m nothing worth pitying. I am nothing important. In fact, I never was. If I am in a car’s way, I don’t think I would try to avoid it, maybe I’ll just stand...
    colourflame colourflame
    13-15, F
    3 Responses Jul 17, 2015

    there was a point in life

    where I was done with everything ... I was willing to suicide & be done with everything but I somehow didn't do anything & i am here writing this now .-.
    asparkinbetween asparkinbetween
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Jun 9, 2014

    I AM IN SUCH A PAINFUL SITUATION I NEED JESUS

    but nothing is happening. HE isn't helping any . AND I DON"T wish to be born and I have to die. I really want to be in heaven playing and dancing and I am not. I rather pass on. It is so so so so terrible. I need peace . I need God , I need to be in heaven right NOW. It is
    Thedepressedgirlatthewindow Thedepressedgirlatthewindow
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 24, 2015

    I feel ungrateful for preferring to be dead

    and let people mourn me instead of wanting to live to keep them happy, but I honestly can't quite see the point of life anymore. I just... want it to end. I had brought my family pleasure, brought them joy for the fifteen years of my life, or so they say. I feel like I deserve...
    qqautumnfox qqautumnfox
    18-21
    17 Responses Mar 10, 2014

    Honestly, i should have killed myself 5 years

    ago. If i had, then a funeral might be covered or something. Right now would be a bad time. My mom couldn't afford it. I really just don't see a point in living. I have very little interests in things. Everyday is the same. All my life is is just passing time. Getting closer...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Feb 9, 2015

    I'm done. I'm fcking done.

    I've been living my whole life with a neurological disease that prevents me from doing ANYTHING. And the worst part is, my parents are completely oblivious to what I am experiencing. They think they know what's going on, but they really don't. I just would rather kill myself...
    theskyisarainbow theskyisarainbow
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jun 15, 2014

    whats the point when the things

    that hold you together disappear, and leave you.
    Darkerthanlightash Darkerthanlightash
    18-21, F
    Jun 18, 2014

    Oh my God, why do I even bother?

    I just want to kill myself. I ******* hate myself so much, oh my God. I'm so boring and annoying and horrible to be around. I'm such a worthless piece of ****.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    8 Responses Dec 9, 2014
    Thatrandompersonme1 Thatrandompersonme1
    18-21, M
    Mar 16, 2015

    I guess there's nothing really wrong with my

    life. I'm getting decent grades. I don't have nearly as many friends as I did before but the few I have I know I can count on. Of course most people tend to have family issues, as do I. But I guess if one saw me they would say that I have a pretty good life. Yet still, on most...
    poetess15 poetess15
    18-21
    1 Response Aug 1, 2014

    So, what is the point of living

    when life is so unfair..
    trueloveriamonly trueloveriamonly
    22-25, M
    Nov 15, 2014

    Seriously wondering why I'm alive.

    Nobody wants to even see my face. Just want to join my best friend in heaven. Gathering the courage to make the final move.
    Lonelyndepressedgirl Lonelyndepressedgirl
    22-25, F
    6 Responses Aug 4, 2014

    I'm not really feeling motivated enough to keep

    up with the cards I'm being dealt. I don't wanna force myself into the efforts that are demanded of me in life. So if you don't hear from me, I'm not running away or looking for you to look for me, I'm hoping you could just forget me.
    v1ol3ntjokz v1ol3ntjokz
    22-25, M
    Sep 24, 2014

    My life is ****** up.

    Don't want to live anymore
    hadiwasii hadiwasii
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 19, 2014

    Rejection

    I just want you to love me big brother ... Why is that so hard... Its not my fault I was born from our father's affair... It's not my fault my birth destroyed the family... It's not my fault our father didn't want me... None of it is my fault... But still... You act like you hate...
    Cerorizo Cerorizo
    18-21, M
    1 Response Apr 7, 2013

    Kill me... Please. I'd be happy

    if you did. I want to die.
    AIaska AIaska
    16-17, F
    1 Response May 22, 2015

    I don't want to live anymore.

    I am a failure as a mother and wife. I can't do anything right. I feel like my family would be better off without me. I've tried suicide twice in the past but can't seem to get that right either. I'm done trying a life. I just want out. Feeling hopeless and defeated.
    feelinghopeless33 feelinghopeless33
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Jun 15, 2014

    I'm a waste of space.

    Why do I exist? No one likes me. I don't want to commit suicide because then I'll go to Hell. But I'm not worthy of going to Heaven. I guess I'm getting depressed. I came home with a black eye and a few cuts today. I got in a fight and it was me against the world. I was...
    PurplePuppy68 PurplePuppy68
    16-17, F
    1 Response Jan 16, 2015

    If I don't want to live now,

    why in the hell would you think I want to live to my 70's?
    youcthrume youcthrume
    36-40, M
    Jun 4, 2015

    I don't want to be alive anymore

    yet I'm afraid to die. The world and society sucks. My life has been s****y forever and I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I can't trust anyone because human nature is to lie and if I do find someone to trust and love then they'll break the trust eventually. I've seen...
    FutureVet2014 FutureVet2014
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jul 7, 2015

    its a new year (over rated)

    and well i dont know how im going to make it through this year. Last year was the worst so many damn times at my breaking point and i promise that if this year is just as bad as last year i will kill myself.
    Thatrandompersonme1 Thatrandompersonme1
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jan 1, 2015

    I Just Feel Like Telling Someone The Truth...

    I've been telling everyone around me that I've enjoyed being sober and I'm glad my life is going how it is...  But I just want someone out there to hear the truth come out of me...  I'm tired of being alive...  Like it really hurts to look at my life and try...
    Brother00 Brother00
    18-21, M
    4 Responses Oct 22, 2009

    I'm miserable and lonely.

    The thought of living more than a few years longer is unbearable, let alone 50 or 60 more. Before, I think I still had hope that I could get better, but now I've just given up. It feels like I'm just riding out what time I have left because I don't know what to do.
    Korban3 Korban3
    22-25, M
    Dec 27, 2014

    If i gave you a loaded gun.

    Told you to point in at my heart. Told you to squeeze the trigger, would you? What if you couldn't be jailed for it. Would you then? I don't really want to kill myself. But i wouldn't mine someone killing me. I wouldn't mind at all. I don't want to live with myself. I may not...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Jul 26, 2015

    Why Doesn't This Kill Me

      I have been depressed for as long as I can remember… my whole life I have never had a place where I fit in. I am so overwhelmed by sadness that I don’t want to continue… I have completely lost the will to live. I feel like a ghost watching...
    marti3662 marti3662
    26-30, F
    2 Responses Dec 6, 2009

    Hello. My name is... I'm just a user of this

    site (sorry). I'm going to tell a story of my life to everyone, who will read it. I don't know, why am I writing here, I don't want to ask something here, rather it's going to be a story like in a diary. I am 22 years old. All my life I tried to live for others, to help them...
    111nobody111 111nobody111
    26-30, M
    1 Response Jun 9, 2014

    I have nothing to live for.

    I don't have any real friends. My boyfriend just broke up with me for some reason I don't understand. I get up, go to work and come home to an empty house. There is nothing to look forward to, nothing to live for. I hope I don't wake up in the morning.
    scgal127 scgal127
    36-40, F
    3 Responses Jun 15, 2014

    I hate being back here again.

    The temptation to do it is so strong right now. Thankfully, I'm not alone so I can't act on my frame of mind. I'm trying to cling on to a special person, but the silence is deafening me.
    LoneSouls LoneSouls
    31-35, F
    1 Response Jan 1, 2016

    I have postponed this

    for awhile but I am thinking of taking my life this week. I am so ashamed of myself for not having the strength to make life better for me or for those I love and there is nothing left for me here but pain, suffering and misery that I don't have the strength to get out of.
    jlg813 jlg813
    26-30, F
    Feb 21, 2016

    I just don't want it anymore.

    .. I don't want to pretend I am a lucky girl anymore. I just can't... Bye.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    2 Responses Aug 22, 2015
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