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I Don't Want to See Myself In the Mirror

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    That's Not Me

    I'm actually ok looking but for some reason, Its like I'm looking at another person.  Even when I look at videos of me the way I look saying something or doing something isn't how I imagined I would have looked saying it or doing it. Its as if my outside doesn't match my inside...
    aymanmujab aymanmujab 22-25 Oct 20, 2011

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    Mirror

    no way I have one mirror on my bathroom cabnet and I turn other way when in there or only look if I have to. Wow scary. LOL
    silvercoins4 silvercoins4 70+, F 6 Responses Sep 9, 2008

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    The Mirror Has Never Been Kind

    I've always dreaded looking in the mirror. I've struggled with overweight and a poor body image all my life.  My face was pretty when I was younger and I had a clear, beautiful complexion that people would comment on. The only part of my body that I was proud of were my...
    AntonioRose AntonioRose 56-60, F 2 Responses Nov 8, 2010

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    Avoidance

    I have a complete aversion to mirrors and cameras, and have done since I was very young. Anything that involves me seeing myself or other people looking at me is something I avoid at all costs. Obviously I do look in the mirror but it is purely functional, like making sure there...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 22, 2012

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    Same

    Every time I look in the mirror I see every spot, every dry patch of skin and just the overall redness of my face. No 15 year old girl should feel this way.
    Jan 14, 2013

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    I Look Anyways

    I hate looking in the mirror yet whenever there is one in front of me I am staring in it. What I see are things that I'm sure other people don't notice at all. One of my eyes is bigger than the other. My eyelashes on my right eye are longer than the ones on my left. My right...
    Metanoia Metanoia 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 24, 2009

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    Always

    especially in stores..with plenty of lighting..   there's always too much fat.. skin never quite perfect hair usually messy..   and at the very moment i look up...there are a group of cute girls..to make obvious...
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 4 Responses May 14, 2009

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    The Mirror.....

    The good you find in others, is in you too. The faults you find in others, are your faults as well. After all, to recognize something you must know it. The possibleilities you see in others, are possible for you as well. The beauty you see around you, is your beauty. The world...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F Nov 6, 2010

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    It's Not Nice..

    I do look in the mirror a lot actually... but I hate looking at myself. I just look horrible.... especially in the morning. I always just see all these things wrong with me.
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 3, 2010

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    Ugly

    I don't know how other people see me but when I see myself in the mirror I think of myself as fat, overweight, ugly. I don't know how anyone can even bare to look at me for a minute. I always think I am so ugly that nobody else will ever be able to love me
    kthimm12 kthimm12 18-21, F Mar 12, 2011

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    If The World Was Blind......

    If the world was blind maybe then we'd see the true beauty,deep within you and me. Noone could judge us by our looks, like fancy covers on expensive books. We'd see with our hearts,and not just our eyes and what we'd discover might be no need to try to impress, with the way we...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 2 Responses Nov 6, 2010

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    Said It Before

    In my mind I'm still that teen who works out and runs and plays and acts silly and more. When I see that perosn looking back at me, well it is to much of a reminder of what I've become.
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 3 Responses Sep 9, 2008

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    Monster

    There is this monster living inside of me Mocking me whenever I look in the mirror From inside I hear it Whispering to me "Why bother putting make-up on?  It's not going to help." "Why bother with life?  You're ugly, foolish, and stupid." I wish I could...
    ShatteredSilk ShatteredSilk 36-40, F Mar 13, 2010

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    Fat

    I hate looking in the mirror.I am overweight and hate it. Every time I look into the mirror, I'm reminded of how out-of-control I am regarding my body, thanks to my PCOS. It really disgusts me. My Body Dysmorphic Disorder is in full bloom tonight. *sigh*
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 2, 2012

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    I have been disconnected from the world for a while now and i don't know how to reconnect. I find i am hiding myself away from people just because i don't want to be hurt any more...
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    I need so much attention, I'll start a group on a really cool premise and then ruin it with my first post. I need sooo much attention that I'll tell you I don't want it for even...
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    Why should I? Too often it is people wanting to sell me something I don't want and lying about it.
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    I'm already 21, I don't want to get old :( I don't want to have wrinkles I want to stay young forever? Is it even normal?
    itachiuchiha07 itachiuchiha07 18-21, F 7 Responses Sep 8

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    I just want to be numb. I don't want feelings to get in the way. I don't want to get hurt again. I will build a thicker wall, change my door with a steel one, with more locks and...
    pepperdoll pepperdoll 31-35, F Sep 19

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    ALL of my friends say that they wanna have kids when they're 20, I feel like I'm more mature, in this anyways, I don't want to start having kids until 30, or around that, I'm...
    Bflyboo14 Bflyboo14 13-15, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    I don't want to dispense or take advice, I don't want a troll under my bridge, I just wanted to share a {hopefully} common experience- I love the sh#t out of my girlfriend and want...
    cavedweller2 cavedweller2 36-40, F 4 days ago

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    I don't even feel guilty about not answering the phone when I don't want to, like I do about not answering emails or messages. I guess, as technology has moved on the text has...
    DarkwingGoslyn DarkwingGoslyn 31-35 2 Responses 2 days ago

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    My life isn't perfect but I've always managed to be happy even when I was going through bad things. My life has changed a lot in the past year and I feel like I should be happier...
    fairynymph fairynymph 16-17, F 1 day ago

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    I don't want a typical wedding. Im not a typical bride!
    BabyGirlAtHeart BabyGirlAtHeart 13-15, F 1 Response Sep 4

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    I'm too ambitious & have things I want to do with my life instead of focusing all my energy into something like a kid for 20 years. Really it's not self-centered because I'd be a...
    SimpleShares SimpleShares 18-21, F 3 Responses Sep 14

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    I have come to the point where I don't want to let people in my life anymore. I can't handle it when they leave me. No on ever stays. My (ex)best friend left me because I was too...
    ChanelLove12 ChanelLove12 16-17, F 5 Responses 4 days ago

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    just sent my mother to the mental illness ward after 14 years of abuse and neglect, finally I am released from that grasp that was held on for so long. No I do not worry about her...
    vividmemorieslost vividmemorieslost 18-21, F 1 Response 1 day ago

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    I almost crashed my car today. I tried to overtake a Mack truck on a u turn with a double lane, and floored it. I realized there was no way in hell I was gonna make it so I slammed...
    elleke elleke 31-35, F Sep 3

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    Warning- highly controversial, read with an open mind.. I am not a smart man, nor a rich man, hell, I didn't even finish high school- but like most of us I see through the smoke...
    Shedog99 Shedog99 70+, M 1 Response Sep 16

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    I never really wanted kids. It´s just never was plan for my life. Many women see it as a goal for their life to find the "right one" and have a familiy, but I don´t see it this...
    TheUndesired TheUndesired 22-25, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    Being myself doesn't work, I'm too weird for everyone. I don't know what should I be instead.
    ThatAwkwardOne ThatAwkwardOne 16-17, M Sep 12

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    I recently had a fight with a close friend and now she hates me and all the people I knew that knew here hate me now. I am often alone and now my friends who don't even know her...
    Cheshirecupacat Cheshirecupacat 13-15, F 2 Responses Sep 17

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    So my guy best friend ( the boy i like ) went out to a party last weekend. I couldn't go because i was sick. So anyway after the party had finished he called me when he got home to...
    ruinedminds09 ruinedminds09 13-15, F a week ago

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    I have been in love with a particular girl for over a year now. We never dated, we were just best friends until she broke my heart when she couldn't accept the fact that I am gay...
    lonleygirl01 lonleygirl01 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 18

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    I found someone who I completely connect to. Everything was perfect when we decided to be together after being friends for a couple of years. I knew I had relationship problems...
    Cass1618 Cass1618 26-30, F 1 Response Sep 20

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    Ugh... so my mom is very loving and supportive, but she's also lazy and crazy. I know that those are common adjectives, but hear me out: my mother is obese and doesn't have a job...
    peacelove75 peacelove75 22-25, F a week ago

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    My Anxiety: You can sense him all around you. He is careful not to show himself, but you feel the predator's presence. He stalks you like a shadow and follows you wherever you go...
    GetYourFreakOn GetYourFreakOn 16-17, F 4 days ago

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    I always thought I wanted at least one child. I even almost had one. Gave birth & everything.. Then had a funeral. Then years went by, and then a few more. It doesn't really seem...
    SirenaVonLee SirenaVonLee 36-40, F 1 day ago

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    I live in a town where teenagers and 20-somethings are offing themselves like it's a new fad. I see what is left behind. The families are left so unbelievably heartbroken that...
    reyna319 reyna319 36-40, F 13 hrs ago

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    We function in tight partnership with our mother Boston party bus and limo rental providers company - Roman Limousine. Without the trust of its prospects no corporation would...
    Lillafyq Lillafyq 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 4

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    I always knew I was different from other little girls. I hated baby dolls, I never wanted to play "mommy" and when I heard babies in restaurants screaming their heads off I wanted...
    missbellelettres missbellelettres 41-45, M 2 Responses Sep 10

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    I am so confused right now and I can't tell anyone...I've been best friends with a guy (we'll call him Larry) for about 3 years. Larry is married and has 2 kids; I've always...
    meowmeowkitten meowmeowkitten 31-35, F Sep 5

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    It seems to be mutual. Society doesn't want me to be a part of it. So whatever, I'll do my own thing. It's okay.
    Reallifeperson Reallifeperson 22-25, M Sep 16

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    i create enough drama internally in my life i don't need extra from the outside. people want to gossip about rumors at work around me and i try my best to avoid it. i now try...
    trailsonrails trailsonrails 51-55, M 1 Response Sep 21

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    I don't ever want to have kids.
    MeowSaidTheCat MeowSaidTheCat 26-30, F 1 day ago

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