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I Don't Want to See Myself In the Mirror

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    I Look Anyways

    I hate looking in the mirror yet whenever there is one in front of me I am staring in it. What I see are things that I'm sure other people don't notice at all. One of my eyes is bigger than the other. My eyelashes on my right eye are longer than the ones on my left. My right...
    Metanoia Metanoia 18-21, F 1 Response Dec 24, 2009

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    The Mirror Has Never Been Kind

    I've always dreaded looking in the mirror. I've struggled with overweight and a poor body image all my life.  My face was pretty when I was younger and I had a clear, beautiful complexion that people would comment on. The only part of my body that I was proud of were my...
    AntonioRose AntonioRose 56-60, F 2 Responses Nov 8, 2010

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    Ugly

    I don't know how other people see me but when I see myself in the mirror I think of myself as fat, overweight, ugly. I don't know how anyone can even bare to look at me for a minute. I always think I am so ugly that nobody else will ever be able to love me
    kthimm12 kthimm12 18-21, F Mar 12, 2011

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    Monster

    There is this monster living inside of me Mocking me whenever I look in the mirror From inside I hear it Whispering to me "Why bother putting make-up on?  It's not going to help." "Why bother with life?  You're ugly, foolish, and stupid." I wish I could...
    ShatteredSilk ShatteredSilk 36-40, F Mar 13, 2010

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    It's Not Nice..

    I do look in the mirror a lot actually... but I hate looking at myself. I just look horrible.... especially in the morning. I always just see all these things wrong with me.
    BrokenAngelWishes BrokenAngelWishes 18-21, F 1 Response Feb 3, 2010

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    Avoidance

    I have a complete aversion to mirrors and cameras, and have done since I was very young. Anything that involves me seeing myself or other people looking at me is something I avoid at all costs. Obviously I do look in the mirror but it is purely functional, like making sure there...
    deleted deleted 26-30 May 22, 2012

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    Always

    especially in stores..with plenty of lighting..   there's always too much fat.. skin never quite perfect hair usually messy..   and at the very moment i look up...there are a group of cute girls..to make obvious...
    lostprophet lostprophet 22-25, F 4 Responses May 14, 2009

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    Said It Before

    In my mind I'm still that teen who works out and runs and plays and acts silly and more. When I see that perosn looking back at me, well it is to much of a reminder of what I've become.
    mysplitpersonality mysplitpersonality 36-40, F 3 Responses Sep 9, 2008

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    That's Not Me

    I'm actually ok looking but for some reason, Its like I'm looking at another person.  Even when I look at videos of me the way I look saying something or doing something isn't how I imagined I would have looked saying it or doing it. Its as if my outside doesn't match my inside...
    aymanmujab aymanmujab 22-25 Oct 20, 2011

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    Fat

    I hate looking in the mirror.I am overweight and hate it. Every time I look into the mirror, I'm reminded of how out-of-control I am regarding my body, thanks to my PCOS. It really disgusts me. My Body Dysmorphic Disorder is in full bloom tonight. *sigh*
    SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit 31-35, F 1 Response Apr 2, 2012

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    If The World Was Blind......

    If the world was blind maybe then we'd see the true beauty,deep within you and me. Noone could judge us by our looks, like fancy covers on expensive books. We'd see with our hearts,and not just our eyes and what we'd discover might be no need to try to impress, with the way we...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F 2 Responses Nov 6, 2010

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    The Mirror.....

    The good you find in others, is in you too. The faults you find in others, are your faults as well. After all, to recognize something you must know it. The possibleilities you see in others, are possible for you as well. The beauty you see around you, is your beauty. The world...
    Anto815 Anto815 46-50, F Nov 6, 2010

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    Mirror

    no way I have one mirror on my bathroom cabnet and I turn other way when in there or only look if I have to. Wow scary. LOL
    silvercoins4 silvercoins4 70+, F 6 Responses Sep 9, 2008

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