I Don't Want You to See Me Break Down

What and who are you afraid to break down in front of and why? Share your story or write a letter to them about why. 2,080 People

    Rocks Don't Bleed Or Cry

    I'm an emotional rock. Rocks do not bleed and they do not cry, they remain strong for everyone else. What cruel flick of a higher power's wrist decided that I was to bear the burdens of others? Why am I not allowed to cry or bleed or feel at all? Years ago, I used to be capable...
    LovelessL LovelessL
    22-25, F
    1 Response Dec 29, 2010

    I don't want anyone to think of me

    as the weakling I am, I have crumbled before an people have watched silently as I fell, As I crashed beneath the surface, So I will act like a girl who doesn't care, To hide the girl who does, Because the girl who does gets hurt, Lied to, Cheated, Is the girl who cares...
    summertimesadness16 summertimesadness16
    22-25, F
    Mar 15, 2014
    gingerwilson gingerwilson
    46-50, F
    1 Response Mar 13, 2015

    I Do This For Others.

    I love the feeling of breaking, it's the only thing that keeps me humane. I can't sympathize with others and I cant empathize with others. I can't love others but I can hate others. I've been broken for about 1.5 years now but nobody knows, I live a lie for others because I love...
    LightlySaltedSalmon LightlySaltedSalmon
    18-21, F
    Oct 24, 2013

    I'm Sorry

    I'm sorry you see me break down sometimes. I like it when you see me happy. When I'm able to joke, when I feel amused and chill with the world. But there are sometimes, some nights, some long days were I feel too much. When my head gets weighed down by thoughts and my heart rips...
    Girlonwire Girlonwire
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jun 13, 2011

    Can't Be Seen Crying By Any Person

    I'll look weak and it invites attack, so I really do avoid being out in public in daylight. It's nice to be out in the country where no-one is around anyway because I don't have to be so paranoid about being seen.
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo
    31-35, M
    4 Responses Mar 13, 2009

    I just cut myself 3 times.

    I have so much pain and hurt in me that it don't make sense. People think they know the real me but don't not even my mother.. No one dose I want to run away to think things are going to be better but it's not. It's not the real me I think it's time that I go why should I be...
    Lovethat207 Lovethat207
    18-21, F
    5 Responses Sep 6, 2015

    I break down since Im stressed out

    for school. Im not a good student. All my performance of my studies make me feel like I am a worthless piece if s**t. I feel really upset. I hv just opened the book and revised. But I couldn't focus, I just cried so hard with my head in hands. Im so done. But I can't tell anyone...
    Acrylic19 Acrylic19
    18-21, F
    May 3, 2015

    i never let people see me brake down

    or cry so everyone just assumes that i am strong when honestly i am not. when people are not around i break and realize that i am weak physically and mentally. It does not help that the sight of food makes me want to vomit
    Scarletflare Scarletflare
    13-15, F
    Dec 18, 2015

    Push

    She waded by the shore Uncertain and restrained He walked nearby Glancing and intrigued She looked back Curious yet controlled He walked closer Eager yet patient. They danced through time Twirling in knowing Spinning in understanding Hearts aware Souls sense The dance was meant...
    Sylphy Sylphy
    41-45, F
    7 Responses Feb 20, 2011

    I Am Shameful...

    I don't break down easily. I am the kind of person who lets everything build up inside. I am proud and I feel as if I need to be the strong one that everyone looks up to. I feel so weak when I break down. I will let it out in front of my best friend and my fiance. But that is...
    ashenseraph ashenseraph
    18-21, F
    Apr 15, 2009

    I Put Up A Front

    I dont like people to see me cry. i dont want people to think im weak, so i dont cry or freak out in front of people. i save it for when im alone and no one can see me. ive had break downs, many in fact, but no one knows. i put up the front that im a strong and nothing bothers me...
    Silent20 Silent20
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 13, 2012

    The One Thing You'Ll Never See

    -I won't let you. No matter how bad things get on the inside, I will always be your anchor. And anchors don't break.
    themanoflegends themanoflegends
    26-30, M
    1 Response Apr 24, 2013

    Asked her if she would stay home tonight

    after being out earlier this week. Told her i need her company after a long, stressful week. Without a pause she says no, she's looking forward to the party. I don't want to control my wife but I was disappointed that I couldn't be the exception.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Feb 27, 2015

    I don't want you to see me crumble,

    to see cry, to see me fall from cloud nine and land close to the ground that I can feel the heat from hell on my skin. I don't want you to see me as someone who is weak, a coward, as someone who can't. I don't want you to see me break down because I won't let that happen. I am...
    RegretfullySO RegretfullySO
    18-21, F
    1 Response Mar 11, 2014

    I Cant Tell Him

    I keep my deepest feelings buried. We talk and share more than most couples but how can I tell you that i don't know me. I pretend to be so logical and real all the time but truth is I have no clue. Our intimate life has suffered because I feel like such a liar. Its not in my...
    LifeAsunder LifeAsunder
    26-30, F
    Oct 30, 2012

    I Hate To See You Cry...

    I hate to see you cry, The tears spill from your eyes, Like a waterfall of emotions, Pouring out from your soul. Consoling is no use, You are a tirade of self abuse, Hating the face that is open to see, Tear stained and broken and full of pain. I hate to see you cry, It tears...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    May 11, 2013

    I Hide My Tears

    Dear Babee...I've written you many a letter on this site. I doubt you will ever see a single one. But I digress.If you could see the tears I've shed for you, would you still ignore me from time to time? Would you ever ask me why I'm being antisocial again, or wold you understand...
    Veronica4 Veronica4
    18-21, F
    Jul 17, 2011

    Have Real Issues With This......

    I am pretty sure it stems from my childhood. I have always been sensitive even from a very young age. My mother constantly used to say to me that I was being silly and over-sensitive. As soon as I hit my twenties, I changed. I despise the thought of anyone seeing me at a weak and...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response May 12, 2012

    What Do You Want From Me!!!

    your always asking me whats wrong. and you know that if i tell you whats wrong with me im just gonna break down and cry and i dont want you to see me cry!! but you always insist on me to tell you whats wrong! what do you want from me!!is this what you want to hear.... im am not...
    lizziebobizzielovesyou lizziebobizzielovesyou
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Sep 4, 2012

    Joel texted me today.

    "Do you work tonight?" "Yeah, at 4. Why?" Then the phone rang. It was an unknown number, so I didn't answer it. Then it rang again. I picked up. "Hello?" "Hi," he said. I can tell that he is busy, I can hear phones ringing in the background, and a murmur of people talking...
    YouBeTheAnchor YouBeTheAnchor
    22-25, F
    2 Responses Jan 8, 2014

    Tears

    Some people use tears to control others but I am not able to do that with mine.  I would prefer that no one ever see me cry especially a lover.  Tears are healing but I just don't want to share them with everyone.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
    41-45, F
    16 Responses Dec 4, 2008

    I Don'T...

    I really don't want anyone to see me break down. I don't want anyone to think I am weak, and that I can't handle life. I want to be the strong one. The one who gets everyone else through the breakdowns. I just don't want anyone to see me breakdown. Its hard for me to lean on...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Apr 28, 2013

    But do I actually want to?

    Does the fact that i'm sad about not being in love with him means that I still love him?
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 10, 2015

    Losing It In The Living Room

    Tonight one of my housemates was watching some sappy movie on TV when I went out there to cook my supper.I don't know what about that movie hit me so hard...but I started to cry.Right there in the main room of the house.  In front of both housemates.  I stood there, out of...
    Plaid Plaid
    31-35, F
    1 Response Feb 25, 2012

    I Want Others To View Me As A Pleasant Company..

    Everyone will have problems.I usually do not show my emotions to the people around me. I will be breaking inside while  I act  like a clown and make others laugh.I do mimicry or whatever i can to release the tension in the atmosphere.I am good at that.Probably those...
    tenderheart35 tenderheart35
    31-35, F
    16 Responses Aug 29, 2010

    To the Point of Irrationality

    I genuinely think I'm incapable of leaning on others. Even when I'm close to the breaking point (which I have been these last few days) and I know I should talk about things, I still push others away. If someone tries to get me to talk about what or why I'm upset, I get angry...
    vinividivici21 vinividivici21
    22-25, F
    13 Responses Dec 17, 2008

    My little cousin was killed by a hit

    and run last week. She was 18years old.. The driver is still at large 🐾🐉 I have so many different emotions tied into one big bubble which I must contained. I just gotta except death as I do a new born baby. We buried my last uncle which carried the last name Battle...
    gingerwilson gingerwilson
    46-50, F
    1 Response Mar 18, 2015

    I just told my mum and dad everything

    that happend to me and they don't know what to do my dad won't look at me and my mum won't stop crying I'm going to my room to cut and have a drink
    Ripjr Ripjr
    18-21, M
    1 Response Jun 21, 2014

    I Need Some Help Please

    I don't know what to do anymore, I live with my two best friends, and lately they keep getting into more and more, arguments, and each one is worse then the last, then they come to me for help, and I try to give the best advice that I can, but then they just get mad at me and...
    onewingedangel917 onewingedangel917
    26-30, M
    4 Responses Apr 29, 2009

    I'm losing it I can't hold on anymore.

    I just want to be done with life. I've never hurt this badly before. He destroyed me I hate him for it. I loved him I was there. He doesn't love me even though he says he does. I hate you. I hate her. I hate everything you've made me become. I hate you for making me hate you...
    imjustme8268 imjustme8268
    18-21, F
    1 Response Jan 26, 2015

    They tell me to be myself.

    But I know that my true self is destructive and I'm going to hurt people. I remember I used to be a selfish child. One day when I was about 8, I told myself to act nice and be a good person. I'm scared that I'll break down one day and become a psychopath. And then I'd shut...
    PinksTheNewBlack PinksTheNewBlack
    16-17, F
    3 Responses Oct 31, 2015

    “You say you love rain,

    but you use an umbrella to walk under it. You say you love sun, but you seek shelter when it is shining. You say you love wind, but when it comes you close your windows. So that's why I'm scared when you say you love me...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Aug 27, 2014

    Here is Practical Explanation about Next Life,

    Purpose of Human Life, philosophical/religious facts, theories etc. ___________________________ *********** Practical Explanation ( For Example ) :- `1st of all can you tell me every single seconds detail from that time when you born ?? ( i need every seconds detail ?? that what...
    thunder0 thunder0
    22-25, M
    Dec 9, 2013

    Im really stressed and shutting people out

    and being shutting down im like a stick of dynamite rite know could us help!
    oakdolphinking oakdolphinking
    16-17, M
    2 Responses Jan 27, 2014

    Ever since I was 6 I never cried in front of

    people, to me it always felt like a sign of weakness( even though i'm a female)
    DoYouUnderstand DoYouUnderstand
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Aug 2, 2014

    I just don't want her to see my weakness,

    inside im falling to pieces but what good will it do to let it take over ?
    dixiecrystal1 dixiecrystal1
    18-21, F
    Apr 4, 2014

    After Tonight

    “You know the way I feel alone at night;I ache to feel your body by my side.Then fear, like smoke, will chase away the light,Remembered secrets lost in gray can’t hideThe silence in the dark as we get dressed.I’ve just grown tired of begging you to stay,Left wishing you...
    Kimba2992 Kimba2992
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Nov 30, 2011

    I Really Don't...

    I really don't want anyone to see me break down. I don't want anyone to think I am weak, and that I can't handle life. I want to be the strong one. The one who gets everyone else through the breakdowns. I just don't want anyone to see me breakdown. Its hard for me...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Jul 23, 2009

    How Dare You Cry, You Weak Ungrateful Child !

    It was never an option for me to break down. Crying was never the solution only the problem, opening up was weakness not strength.. perfection was power, visible flaws or problems was the end of you. So imagine you grow up with this mentality, you try to break free and do the...
    OldSoulYoungBody OldSoulYoungBody
    18-21, F
    2 Responses Jun 18, 2012

    I'm Crying In A Bathroom Just To Hide My Tears

    Right now it's 4:24 am as I start to write this. I didn't think the stuff in my life could get worse but my life loves to prove me wrong. Because I am afraid of anyone in my family seeing me cry I'm in the bathroom siting on the floor. Crying silently to my self hoping no one...
    Alisaperne6446 Alisaperne6446
    18-21, F
    1 Response Nov 6, 2013

    Two Weeks Too Weak

    I've been hiding a little these past couple of weeks. I feel like I can't stop crying. I can't even express why. People I trusted before turned on me, and there's no way I'm letting them see how they managed to effect me. I feel stupid for being unable to calm down and control...
    TigersEyeAndTurquoise TigersEyeAndTurquoise
    70+, F
    Aug 22, 2013

    I Broke. But Found Joy In The Process.

    For some reason, I just don't feel right today. The world seems to be passing me by at an abnormal rate, and I feel like I'm living in fast forward. Even though, the time I spent with my brother today was amazing, when I left to go hang out with my other friends, I just felt...
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    Oct 3, 2013

    Yeah Right

    I don't really know what I am, but breaking down, being weak, and showing emotions out in the open is just something I'm not. Yes, im that friend that listens to everybodys problems, and now I find myself caught up in it. I would never go and cry...to anybody. I think I've gotten...
    HopeInConstruction HopeInConstruction
    18-21, F
    3 Responses Aug 13, 2010

    Well I think it's simple.

    ..unless there is no alternative no one needs to see another's pain if it can be avoided. Seeing a person break down is painful. You can feel their pain, you experience some of the intensity and helplessness that they are feeling. Unless I have there is no alternative. But...
    Kynkanjis Kynkanjis
    41-45, M
    Dec 7, 2013

    Hiding The Person I Cant Stand

    I spend most of my time alone today as I want to avoid anybody that knew thr person I once was. I dont want them to see melt down and who and what I now become. I hide because it come's on fast and without notice and almost anything can bring it on. I fear these breakdown's as I...
    Robert1256 Robert1256
    51-55, M
    2 Responses Dec 21, 2010

    I Do Not

        i don't want anyone to see me break down . i won't let anyone except the women i love see me even cry. becuase i was always told crying or anything like that is a sign of weakness.
    deleted deleted
    26-30
    1 Response Nov 5, 2009

    Breaking Down On The Inside

    My dad always likes to tell me how proud he is of me for being so strong and not letting little flaws get to me. What he doesn't know is that every little thing gets to me. I can't tell him, he can't know! If he ever found out how weak I really was he wouldn't look at me the same...
    Jan 27, 2013

    It is really ugly and shattering.

    .. the most vulnerable personal moment for noone to see. No one will be there capable to hold my fall... And if by any chance that happens all is possible.
    4biandu 4biandu
    31-35, F
    2 Responses Aug 5, 2015

    My private hell I will hide.

    Withdraw. Send you away. Repel you if needed. Break your heart if I must. Just stay away from me!! This is my hell to endure, not yours. I want to be held, comforted, told I will be ok...but I know no one will do that. So don't make me breakdown in front of you just to...
    sassyg1rl sassyg1rl
    41-45, F
    Dec 15, 2013
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