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I Don't Want You to See Me Break Down

What and who are you afraid to break down in front of and why? Share your story or write a letter to them about why. 2,015 People

    True Story

    When I was New At The School I Go To, Students Messed with me ! But Its Funny Cause One Of The Students Tries To Talk To Me! Im Going To Act Like The Bigger Person !!!!
    kaemaryam kaemaryam 13-15, F Oct 6, 2012

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    Push

    She waded by the shore Uncertain and restrained He walked nearby Glancing and intrigued She looked back Curious yet controlled He walked closer Eager yet patient. They danced through time Twirling in knowing Spinning in understanding Hearts aware Souls sense The dance was meant...
    Sylphy Sylphy 41-45, F 7 Responses Feb 20, 2011

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    Have Real Issues With This......

    I am pretty sure it stems from my childhood. I have always been sensitive even from a very young age. My mother constantly used to say to me that I was being silly and over-sensitive. As soon as I hit my twenties, I changed. I despise the thought of anyone seeing me at a weak and...
    Jenni855 Jenni855 26-30, F 2 Responses May 12, 2012

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    I'm Sorry

    I'm sorry you see me break down sometimes. I like it when you see me happy. When I'm able to joke, when I feel amused and chill with the world. But there are sometimes, some nights, some long days were I feel too much. When my head gets weighed down by thoughts and my heart rips...
    Girlonwire Girlonwire 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 13, 2011

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    I Dont Want You To See Me Break Down

    i never have.. Like in 7th grade i went to this camp and i wore sunglasses all the time. On one of the last nights there was some sort of even and the person i'd had a crush on was dancing with someone else and my friends saw the tears overflowing the sunglasses so i ran. Or you...
    BudFrancis BudFrancis 18-21 Jun 5, 2012

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    I Really Don't...

    I really don't want anyone to see me break down. I don't want anyone to think I am weak, and that I can't handle life. I want to be the strong one. The one who gets everyone else through the breakdowns. I just don't want anyone to see me breakdown. Its hard for me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Jul 23, 2009

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    I Am Shameful...

    I don't break down easily. I am the kind of person who lets everything build up inside. I am proud and I feel as if I need to be the strong one that everyone looks up to. I feel so weak when I break down. I will let it out in front of my best friend and my fiance. But that is...
    ashenseraph ashenseraph 18-21, F Apr 15, 2009

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    Ever since I was 6 I never cried in front of

    people, to me it always felt like a sign of weakness( even though i'm a female)
    DoYouUnderstand DoYouUnderstand 16-17, F 3 Responses Aug 2

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    I Put Up A Front

    I dont like people to see me cry. i dont want people to think im weak, so i dont cry or freak out in front of people. i save it for when im alone and no one can see me. ive had break downs, many in fact, but no one knows. i put up the front that im a strong and nothing bothers me...
    Silent20 Silent20 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 13, 2012

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    I Don't Want Them To See Me Break...

    i don't want anyone i know to see me break down. in my family that is a sign of weakness as far as i can see. if i am going to beak down i hide away from everyone, or wait for everyone to leave. everyone i know seems so strong and i feel like i don't belong with them because...
    darkness101 darkness101 16-17, F 1 Response May 28, 2012

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    I Cant Tell Him

    I keep my deepest feelings buried. We talk and share more than most couples but how can I tell you that i don't know me. I pretend to be so logical and real all the time but truth is I have no clue. Our intimate life has suffered because I feel like such a liar. Its not in my...
    LifeAsunder LifeAsunder 26-30, F Oct 30, 2012

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    Yeah Right

    I don't really know what I am, but breaking down, being weak, and showing emotions out in the open is just something I'm not. Yes, im that friend that listens to everybodys problems, and now I find myself caught up in it. I would never go and cry...to anybody. I think I've gotten...
    HopeInConstruction HopeInConstruction 18-21, F 3 Responses Aug 13, 2010

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    I Am Stronger

    I refuse to break down before you Because I KNOW I AM STRONGER THAN YOU And you just wish to prove me wrong... You think that I AM weak That I must be a coward You think I must be fragile like a girl But I will show you I will be a better man than you'll ever be
    indigowitch indigowitch 22-25, F Oct 2, 2012

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    “You say you love rain,

    but you use an umbrella to walk under it. You say you love sun, but you seek shelter when it is shining. You say you love wind, but when it comes you close your windows. So that's why I'm scared when you say you love me...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Aug 27

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    I don't want anyone to think of me

    as the weakling I am, I have crumbled before an people have watched silently as I fell, As I crashed beneath the surface, So I will act like a girl who doesn't care, To hide the girl who does, Because the girl who does gets hurt, Lied to, Cheated, Is the girl who cares...
    summertimesadness16 summertimesadness16 22-25, F Mar 15

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    Tears

    Some people use tears to control others but I am not able to do that with mine.  I would prefer that no one ever see me cry especially a lover.  Tears are healing but I just don't want to share them with everyone.
    fungirlmmm fungirlmmm 41-45, F 18 Responses Dec 4, 2008

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    I just don't want her to see my weakness,

    inside im falling to pieces but what good will it do to let it take over ?
    dixiecrystal1 dixiecrystal1 18-21, F Apr 4

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    I Do Not

        i don't want anyone to see me break down . i won't let anyone except the women i love see me even cry. becuase i was always told crying or anything like that is a sign of weakness.
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Nov 5, 2009

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    Two Weeks Too Weak

    I've been hiding a little these past couple of weeks. I feel like I can't stop crying. I can't even express why. People I trusted before turned on me, and there's no way I'm letting them see how they managed to effect me. I feel stupid for being unable to calm down and control...
    Dyssey Dyssey 70+, F Aug 22, 2013

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    I Hate To See You Cry...

    I hate to see you cry, The tears spill from your eyes, Like a waterfall of emotions, Pouring out from your soul. Consoling is no use, You are a tirade of self abuse, Hating the face that is open to see, Tear stained and broken and full of pain. I hate to see you cry, It tears...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response May 11, 2013

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    Can't Be Seen Crying By Any Person

    I'll look weak and it invites attack, so I really do avoid being out in public in daylight. It's nice to be out in the country where no-one is around anyway because I don't have to be so paranoid about being seen.
    TheLuckyHobo TheLuckyHobo 31-35, M 4 Responses Mar 13, 2009

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    Never

    I never ever neverrrr want anyone to ever see me break down and cry....never...i try as hard as i can not to let ppl see tht side of me the closest most ppl get to it is my status.... I cant stand the idea of ppl finding me weak and patheic and stupid and a loser and awful and...
    idontmatterandneverwill idontmatterandneverwill 16-17, F 2 Responses Jan 8, 2012

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    Here is Practical Explanation about Next Life,

    Purpose of Human Life, philosophical/religious facts, theories etc. ___________________________ *********** Practical Explanation ( For Example ) :- `1st of all can you tell me every single seconds detail from that time when you born ?? ( i need every seconds detail ?? that what...
    thunder0 thunder0 22-25, M Dec 9, 2013

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    I'm Crying In A Bathroom Just To Hide My Tears

    Right now it's 4:24 am as I start to write this. I didn't think the stuff in my life could get worse but my life loves to prove me wrong. Because I am afraid of anyone in my family seeing me cry I'm in the bathroom siting on the floor. Crying silently to my self hoping no one...
    Alisaperne6446 Alisaperne6446 18-21, F 1 Response Nov 6, 2013

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    To the Point of Irrationality

    I genuinely think I'm incapable of leaning on others. Even when I'm close to the breaking point (which I have been these last few days) and I know I should talk about things, I still push others away. If someone tries to get me to talk about what or why I'm upset, I get angry...
    vinividivici21 vinividivici21 22-25, F 13 Responses Dec 17, 2008

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    I just told my mum and dad everything

    that happend to me and they don't know what to do my dad won't look at me and my mum won't stop crying I'm going to my room to cut and have a drink
    Ripjr Ripjr 18-21, M 1 Response Jun 21

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    Joel texted me today.

    "Do you work tonight?" "Yeah, at 4. Why?" Then the phone rang. It was an unknown number, so I didn't answer it. Then it rang again. I picked up. "Hello?" "Hi," he said. I can tell that he is busy, I can hear phones ringing in the background, and a murmur of people talking...
    YouBeTheAnchor YouBeTheAnchor 22-25, F 2 Responses Jan 8

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    Im really stressed and shutting people out

    and being shutting down im like a stick of dynamite rite know could us help!
    oakdolphinking oakdolphinking 13-15, M 2 Responses Jan 27

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    That's Something I Didn't See Coming........

    so I've been going out with this girl for nine months who was a total **** before she went out with me. she wanted to change so she found me and she became the love of my life. She needed a place to stay so my parents let her live with me. Its been so awesome living together and...
    Dmic218 Dmic218 18-21, M 2 Responses Jul 26, 2012

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    My private hell I will hide.

    Withdraw. Send you away. Repel you if needed. Break your heart if I must. Just stay away from me!! This is my hell to endure, not yours. I want to be held, comforted, told I will be ok...but I know no one will do that. So don't make me breakdown in front of you just to...
    sassyg1rl sassyg1rl 36-40, F 1 Response Dec 15, 2013

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    I Want Others To View Me As A Pleasant Company..

    Everyone will have problems.I usually do not show my emotions to the people around me. I will be breaking inside while  I act  like a clown and make others laugh.I do mimicry or whatever i can to release the tension in the atmosphere.I am good at that.Probably those...
    tenderheart35 tenderheart35 31-35, F 16 Responses Aug 29, 2010

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    What Do You Want From Me!!!

    your always asking me whats wrong. and you know that if i tell you whats wrong with me im just gonna break down and cry and i dont want you to see me cry!! but you always insist on me to tell you whats wrong! what do you want from me!!is this what you want to hear.... im am not...
    lizziebobizzielovesyou lizziebobizzielovesyou 16-17, F 3 Responses Sep 4, 2012

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    I Do This For Others.

    I love the feeling of breaking, it's the only thing that keeps me humane. I can't sympathize with others and I cant empathize with others. I can't love others but I can hate others. I've been broken for about 1.5 years now but nobody knows, I live a lie for others because I love...
    LightlySaltedSalmon LightlySaltedSalmon 18-21, F Oct 24, 2013

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    I don't want you to see me crumble,

    to see cry, to see me fall from cloud nine and land close to the ground that I can feel the heat from hell on my skin. I don't want you to see me as someone who is weak, a coward, as someone who can't. I don't want you to see me break down because I won't let that happen. I am...
    RegretfullySO RegretfullySO 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 11

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    How Dare You Cry, You Weak Ungrateful Child !

    It was never an option for me to break down. Crying was never the solution only the problem, opening up was weakness not strength.. perfection was power, visible flaws or problems was the end of you. So imagine you grow up with this mentality, you try to break free and do the...
    OldSoulYoungBody OldSoulYoungBody 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 18, 2012

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    A Letter To My Love

    Dear Dan, I'm so sorry that I have been feeling extremely depressed lately. I have tried my best to pull myself out of this mood, but nothing really seems helpful at this stage. You have done a wonderful job. Your patience, tolerance, respect and love show that you are such an...
    SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 6, 2011

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    The One Thing You'Ll Never See

    -I won't let you. No matter how bad things get on the inside, I will always be your anchor. And anchors don't break.
    themanoflegends themanoflegends 22-25, M 1 Response Apr 24, 2013

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    Well I think it's simple.

    ..unless there is no alternative no one needs to see another's pain if it can be avoided. Seeing a person break down is painful. You can feel their pain, you experience some of the intensity and helplessness that they are feeling. Unless I have there is no alternative. But...
    Kynkanjis Kynkanjis 36-40, M Dec 7, 2013

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    IMSAF1991 IMSAF1991 22-25, M Dec 9, 2013

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    I Broke. But Found Joy In The Process.

    For some reason, I just don't feel right today. The world seems to be passing me by at an abnormal rate, and I feel like I'm living in fast forward. Even though, the time I spent with my brother today was amazing, when I left to go hang out with my other friends, I just felt...
    catboydale catboydale 22-25, M Oct 3, 2013

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    Hiding The Person I Cant Stand

    I spend most of my time alone today as I want to avoid anybody that knew thr person I once was. I dont want them to see melt down and who and what I now become. I hide because it come's on fast and without notice and almost anything can bring it on. I fear these breakdown's as I...
    Robert1256 Robert1256 51-55, M 2 Responses Dec 21, 2010

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    I Hide My Tears

    Dear Babee...I've written you many a letter on this site. I doubt you will ever see a single one. But I digress.If you could see the tears I've shed for you, would you still ignore me from time to time? Would you ever ask me why I'm being antisocial again, or wold you understand...
    Veronica4 Veronica4 18-21, F Jul 17, 2011

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    Rocks Don't Bleed Or Cry

    I'm an emotional rock. Rocks do not bleed and they do not cry, they remain strong for everyone else. What cruel flick of a higher power's wrist decided that I was to bear the burdens of others? Why am I not allowed to cry or bleed or feel at all? Years ago, I used to be capable...
    LovelessL LovelessL 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 29, 2010

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    After Tonight

    “You know the way I feel alone at night;I ache to feel your body by my side.Then fear, like smoke, will chase away the light,Remembered secrets lost in gray can’t hideThe silence in the dark as we get dressed.I’ve just grown tired of begging you to stay,Left wishing you...
    Kimba2992 Kimba2992 18-21, F 2 Responses Nov 30, 2011

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    Losing It In The Living Room

    Tonight one of my housemates was watching some sappy movie on TV when I went out there to cook my supper.I don't know what about that movie hit me so hard...but I started to cry.Right there in the main room of the house.  In front of both housemates.  I stood there, out of...
    Plaid Plaid 31-35, F 1 Response Feb 25, 2012

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    I Need Some Help Please

    I don't know what to do anymore, I live with my two best friends, and lately they keep getting into more and more, arguments, and each one is worse then the last, then they come to me for help, and I try to give the best advice that I can, but then they just get mad at me and...
    onewingedangel917 onewingedangel917 26-30, M 4 Responses Apr 29, 2009

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    Never expect, never assume,

    never ask and never demand. Just let it be. If it is meant to be, it will happen.
    Thiswillbethelast Thiswillbethelast 18-21, F 1 Response 4 days ago

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    I Don'T...

    I really don't want anyone to see me break down. I don't want anyone to think I am weak, and that I can't handle life. I want to be the strong one. The one who gets everyone else through the breakdowns. I just don't want anyone to see me breakdown. Its hard for me to lean on...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Apr 28, 2013

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    The Little Ones.

    I work with children. I'm their teacher, their mentor, their idol, their babysitter and sometimes even their mom. I adore them. I love them so much it hurts and yet it takes all of my will power not to crack in front of them. It takes so much effort to stay calm, to stay cool...
    girlinthesky girlinthesky 18-21, F May 28, 2012

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