Post

I Drink to Make the Pain Go Away

Personal Stories, Advice, and Support 64 People

    Yes I Am..

    Nobody in my real life knows this at all.  They thought I'm this quite, shy, morbid stupid girl that can't do such a thing. Well yea right.  What they don't is that I do. not just  a social drinker but a regular drunk. What the hell they care this makes me ...
    CallmeCamille CallmeCamille 70+ 4 Responses Aug 5, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Always Say I'll Quit...

    But never do... :-( However I don't always drink to remove painful memories and such, at times it’s also for fun! When I’m hanging out the good friends, celebrating an accomplishment, after a good hard day’s work, you know stuff like that. It isn’t always...
    LordNothing LordNothing 26-30, M 3 Responses Dec 16, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Quit

    I stopped drinking last year. I was depressed and it was the only thing that I enjoyed. Is that even the right word? Even though it made things worse in actuality and I had several hangovers from hell, I just had to have my drink. Feeling numb was good and the days passed by like...
    ForestSong ForestSong 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 16, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Gothicemogirl Gothicemogirl 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 30

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I started drinking ever sense I lost my sister

    I know it's not a healthy outlet but it helps me
    Sufferedloss Sufferedloss 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 23

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Pain All the Time But...

    but... i dont really drink alot because there is nothing strong enough in the house, i hate drama and i drank the first time my heart was broken. it made me feel better and just sometimes life brings me super down and i nned to relax, i dont get hammered. i just want to take some...
    theshortloud1 theshortloud1 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Drink to Make It Go Away

    But tomorrow I will snap back to reality.
    morbidSin morbidSin 22-25 2 Responses May 15, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Thought It Would Help...

    As teenager, we are just learning things. Mostly we saw that whenever there's a pr0blem., people got drunk. When i was 17 then., i had my first break up., for that time, it was the painful situati0n i had encountered in my whole life. I ask my parents that i am going to a...
    Eemcee Eemcee 18-21, F 1 Response May 15, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I'm Not An Alcoholic

    I've got a hole in the center of my chest that looks like a glass without a base. I've got demons buried under a pile of stakes and I stand guard with a bottle full of holy water that tastes a lot like vodka. Some people would say I have a problem, but, I'm not an...
    Shemovesme Shemovesme 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 8, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    It's All a Good Laugh.

    When I'm drunk, everything seems funny, rather than crap. If I could, I'd drink myself into a stupor every night, just so I wouldn't have to face the world.
    Emptysoul30 Emptysoul30 22-25, M 8 Responses Sep 17, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    I Don't See Myself As An Alcoholic.

    I'm usually a very up-beat and happy person, but when I'm not, I'm terribly depressed. I'm so bipolar, hah. Anyways, I refuse to take psychological medications for a number of different reasons, and nothing seems to make me feel as good as alcohol does. I don't drink it, and then...
    KatLeroux KatLeroux 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 24, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Ok...

    So I don't drink because I never developed a taste for anything alcoholic. I don't smoke anything...not even the competition, and I don't do any drugs that haven't been prescribed by a physician. I used to eat a lot...then there was a period of time when I could put my face in...
    330GTC 330GTC 46-50, M Nov 11, 2011

    Your Response

    Cancel

    The Problem Is This...

    What happens when you reach a point where drinking actually even causes physical pains, let alone won't make pain go away? Then how do you make the pain go away? I wish I had an alternative for the members of this group but don't. This planet is a very ugly place for...
    lesshissMORECAT lesshissMORECAT 31-35 1 Response Jun 28, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Helpless

    i was 16, my bestfriend and i had an argument during an eglish class. i began crying from the moment she yelled at me and as i walk home. everybody is looking that weirdo crying on the road.. ^^,   I'm afraid to lose her, 'cause she's a great friend. I tried to...
    MeglioBlue MeglioBlue 18-21, F Apr 27, 2010

    Your Response

    Cancel

    The Clock Runs Slow

    Its a teribble habit. But since friends, counsellors and family have turned away, I've gone back to the one comfort that is there, and is consistant: alcohol. I drink crazy amounts of alcohol in short periods of time. What else do you do when your options run out? You're drunk...
    FastLaneC3 FastLaneC3 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 27, 2009

    Your Response

    Cancel

    Related Experiences

    So I need some advice...I found out a few years back that my older brother molested my sister for years before he went off to college and never lived at home again. I secretly hate...
    BJoon BJoon 26-30, M 3 Responses Jul 8

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I think it's bad enough having to live with yourself in constant sadness every day, but it is even worse to watch someone go through thr same thing because there is literally no...
    maddieXxx maddieXxx 16-17, F Jul 6

    Your Response

    Cancel
    If I could, I would take all the pain in your life, you don't deserve to feel hurt- no one does. But I don't mind, as long as you are happy. You deserve to be happy after all, if...
    Error404nameunknown Error404nameunknown 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 6

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I think this should be the thought going through every human beings head. Instead of devoting our lives to making money and buying swimming pools and tigers on gold leashes we...
    NinaKonstantinova NinaKonstantinova 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 6

    Your Response

    Cancel
    It's kind of the reason I'm here? I could never really fully except myself, or my sexuality. I struggled a lot& was too afraid of actually going the distance that I ended up...
    daisyelektri daisyelektri 16-17, F 9 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    hey all ! ... this is important and big. can i have a small time of yours, just little.. few minutes.. i sign up here around a year back to share my story with people and i did. i...
    heartless2 heartless2 22-25, M 1 Response 7 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I drink to numb myself. Because I feel pain. Drinking just numbs the pain a little. It still hurts, but it hurts a little less. I am alone, but when I drink, it matters less. I...
    klokenweb klokenweb 22-25, M 1 Response 4 days ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I am so lonely that is hurts so much. I spend most of my days non stop crying to the point I am sick from stress, my panic attacks come up, anxiety, and I end up crashing asleep...
    Boadicea1 Boadicea1 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have been having a particularly hard weekend dealing with the loneliness of living with a spouse with chronic pain so I searched the web and found this site. As I read some of...
    hispainismypain hispainismypain 61-65, F 3 Responses Jul 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I paint both fingernails and toenails each week; I prefer Thursday for some reason. I pick a color of my choice. I'm wearing a light blue color but, this week I want to change it...
    Samaccino Samaccino 16-17, F 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Every time I work in my garden or paint a meaningless painting, I imagine Adolf Hitler painting, Churchill tending his roses and Khomeini meditating under his apple tree. I guess I...
    discovery5 discovery5 41-45, F 1 Response 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    So every time my boyfriend asks me to come visit him I always get this bittersweet feeling. Of course I'm happy that I'm gonna see him, nothing makes me more happy. But always in...
    LifeOfaMarineGirlfriend20 LifeOfaMarineGirlfriend20 18-21, F 2 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I have been in a massive amount of pain for the last few days but this pain has been on and off for months now. I thought that maybe it was my posture or something but after doing...
    sunniedays89 sunniedays89 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 24

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I love tea! I am a tea addict... I started drinking tea since I was 9 years old! I can drink up to 8 cups of tea a day... bad I know! The least I drink is 3 a day... and if I...
    MilweePetite MilweePetite 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I've done some researches on what my family is really doing to me. And I've found out that I'm sort of being "human trafficked". Where my dad has all my documents and / or papers...
    Masquerade91 Masquerade91 22-25, F 1 Response 4 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Is there anyone who wants to run away? anyone near california or michigan? anyone who has a car or can drive?
    matrixwolf matrixwolf 16-17, M 3 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    does anyone want to run away? anyon near california or Michigan? anyone have a car or can drive? (we have money)
    matrixwolf matrixwolf 16-17, M 3 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I want to run away and come back when I turn eighteen. I can't take the criticism that I get from family. I hate them. I don't want to stay here.
    Samaccino Samaccino 16-17, F 2 hrs ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I'm moving to Oriliia, Ontario tomorrow and I would like to make some new friends where I live. I don't have a job but I try to keep myself busy with playing guitar and painting...
    NoraDysphoria NoraDysphoria 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 28

    Your Response

    Cancel
    The very first day I had my period, I had just turned twelve a week before. My parents birthday gift to me was to trust me walking around town alone for a set time, and then...
    raylynn24 raylynn24 22-25, F Jul 8

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I dont know what you want me to say All I want is to wake up to a new day When this has all blown away why do I get hurt this way? You want a reply but I’m all out of answers...
    Nooneknowsmythoughts Nooneknowsmythoughts 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 24

    Your Response

    Cancel
    After years of being miserable because of this or that being done to me. This bad condition of things around me or that. I finally have a new beautiful home!!! No more mold, no...
    lu7998 lu7998 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 6

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Well EP addicts, since I've last shared any stories on here my best friend died of an over dose. August 22nd last year. He was my very best ******* friend. And I still didn't...
    Woofy1 Woofy1 18-21, F Jul 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I just found this site. Every story I read sounds like my own. My wife is the love of my life. My everything. The past two years I have seen her go from an amazingly passionate and...
    dempag dempag 41-45, M 2 Responses 1 day ago

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Go Away, The pain, Breath in, Breath out, Push the pain down, Pull it out my heart, Put it in that box, Grab my tears, Mop them up, Don't cry no more, Shut of from the world, The...
    Gentleandlovingsoul Gentleandlovingsoul 36-40, F Jun 29

    Your Response

    Cancel
    This is like the most awkward situation I've ever been in my entire life to be quite honest.. anyways my mom has this friend who is married to a guy who has 2 daughters (9)(16...
    britay09 britay09 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 12

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Everyday, all the time I push away and I become more and more distant. I feel like no one notices or cares. I'm disappearing slowly from all their lives, ready to turn to a new...
    Diamondgirly Diamondgirly 18-21, F Jul 13

    Your Response

    Cancel
    After dating for 2 years I get a scholarship in an university in Washington (I live in Mexico) So excited an all, it was great. Until my ex gf and me get into an ugly fight over...
    rafadelosreyes rafadelosreyes 18-21, M 3 Responses Jun 26

    Your Response

    Cancel
    There's only one person that can make this pain go away, and he won't do a ******* thing. I've asked and asked and asked and he looks at me and says "shh, don't think about it and...
    xxxjulieann xxxjulieann 18-21, F Jun 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I had acl surgery a year ago from today and have been addicted to pain killers (morphine, hydro co, codeine) ever since and I haven't been able to put them down. The physical pain...
    Marielights Marielights 16-17, F Jun 27

    Your Response

    Cancel
    I hate being around someone who's been drinking. It's like I can instantly tell when my dad's been drinking, even when it's only been a few drinks. I dislike it because it feels...
    AEHeroine AEHeroine 18-21, F Jun 28

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Bright colors yet to be painted everywhere.. the beige-grey walls of my spinning, humming prison cell screaming out to me, beckoning my senses in seductive whispers and commanding...
    pretender1326 pretender1326 26-30, M Jul 11

    Your Response

    Cancel
    Painting allows me to escape my brain but at the same time explore parts of it I didn't even know existed. I paint with some of my favorite music blasting and it is so therapeutic...
    Affley Affley 18-21, F a week ago

    Your Response

    Cancel