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I Drink to Make the Pain Go Away

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    I started drinking ever sense I lost my sister

    I know it's not a healthy outlet but it helps me
    Sufferedloss Sufferedloss 18-21, F 4 Responses Feb 23

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    I'm Not An Alcoholic

    I've got a hole in the center of my chest that looks like a glass without a base. I've got demons buried under a pile of stakes and I stand guard with a bottle full of holy water that tastes a lot like vodka. Some people would say I have a problem, but, I'm not an...
    Shemovesme Shemovesme 26-30, F 2 Responses Jul 8, 2009

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    I Thought It Would Help...

    As teenager, we are just learning things. Mostly we saw that whenever there's a pr0blem., people got drunk. When i was 17 then., i had my first break up., for that time, it was the painful situati0n i had encountered in my whole life. I ask my parents that i am going to a...
    Eemcee Eemcee 18-21, F 1 Response May 15, 2009

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    Gothicemogirl Gothicemogirl 18-21, F 5 Responses Apr 30

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    Yes I Am..

    Nobody in my real life knows this at all.  They thought I'm this quite, shy, morbid stupid girl that can't do such a thing. Well yea right.  What they don't is that I do. not just  a social drinker but a regular drunk. What the hell they care this makes me ...
    CallmeCamille CallmeCamille 70+ 4 Responses Aug 5, 2009

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    The Problem Is This...

    What happens when you reach a point where drinking actually even causes physical pains, let alone won't make pain go away? Then how do you make the pain go away? I wish I had an alternative for the members of this group but don't. This planet is a very ugly place for...
    lesshissMORECAT lesshissMORECAT 31-35 1 Response Jun 28, 2009

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    Helpless

    i was 16, my bestfriend and i had an argument during an eglish class. i began crying from the moment she yelled at me and as i walk home. everybody is looking that weirdo crying on the road.. ^^,   I'm afraid to lose her, 'cause she's a great friend. I tried to...
    MeglioBlue MeglioBlue 18-21, F Apr 27, 2010

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    I Don't See Myself As An Alcoholic.

    I'm usually a very up-beat and happy person, but when I'm not, I'm terribly depressed. I'm so bipolar, hah. Anyways, I refuse to take psychological medications for a number of different reasons, and nothing seems to make me feel as good as alcohol does. I don't drink it, and then...
    KatLeroux KatLeroux 18-21, F 1 Response Jan 24, 2010

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    I Quit

    I stopped drinking last year. I was depressed and it was the only thing that I enjoyed. Is that even the right word? Even though it made things worse in actuality and I had several hangovers from hell, I just had to have my drink. Feeling numb was good and the days passed by like...
    ForestSong ForestSong 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 16, 2010

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    Pain All the Time But...

    but... i dont really drink alot because there is nothing strong enough in the house, i hate drama and i drank the first time my heart was broken. it made me feel better and just sometimes life brings me super down and i nned to relax, i dont get hammered. i just want to take some...
    theshortloud1 theshortloud1 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 3, 2009

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    It's All a Good Laugh.

    When I'm drunk, everything seems funny, rather than crap. If I could, I'd drink myself into a stupor every night, just so I wouldn't have to face the world.
    Emptysoul30 Emptysoul30 22-25, M 8 Responses Sep 17, 2009

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    Ok...

    So I don't drink because I never developed a taste for anything alcoholic. I don't smoke anything...not even the competition, and I don't do any drugs that haven't been prescribed by a physician. I used to eat a lot...then there was a period of time when I could put my face in...
    330GTC 330GTC 46-50, M Nov 11, 2011

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    I Always Say I'll Quit...

    But never do... :-( However I don't always drink to remove painful memories and such, at times it’s also for fun! When I’m hanging out the good friends, celebrating an accomplishment, after a good hard day’s work, you know stuff like that. It isn’t always...
    LordNothing LordNothing 26-30, M 3 Responses Dec 16, 2010

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    The Clock Runs Slow

    Its a teribble habit. But since friends, counsellors and family have turned away, I've gone back to the one comfort that is there, and is consistant: alcohol. I drink crazy amounts of alcohol in short periods of time. What else do you do when your options run out? You're drunk...
    FastLaneC3 FastLaneC3 18-21, F 2 Responses Jun 27, 2009

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    I Drink to Make It Go Away

    But tomorrow I will snap back to reality.
    morbidSin morbidSin 22-25 2 Responses May 15, 2009

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    If I could, I would take all the pain in your life, you don't deserve to feel hurt- no one does. But I don't mind, as long as you are happy. You deserve to be happy after all, if...
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    I think this should be the thought going through every human beings head. Instead of devoting our lives to making money and buying swimming pools and tigers on gold leashes we...
    NinaKonstantinova NinaKonstantinova 22-25, F 1 Response Jul 6

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    But the person concerned should also desire to heal.
    restored87 restored87 46-50, F 1 day ago

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    1) Babies. 2) Kittens/cats. 3) Flowers. 4) Candles. 5) Perfumes. 6) Baking. 7) Cooking. 8) Sleeping. 9) Reading. 10) Shopping. 11) The sense of achievement at school. 12) Seeing my...
    ForeverIsOver ForeverIsOver 13-15, F 2 hrs ago

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    I am a 49 year old woman and have had issues with alcohol since I was in my twenties. I have gone long periods without drinking but when I start again, it quickly spirals out of...
    Ysabel2 Ysabel2 46-50, F 1 Response 11 hrs ago

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    I don't drink, anymore at all. Not even a bit. I don't like the taste of alcohol or what it does to people. Although people seems to keep asking me if I've been drinking the...
    CallMeChelsea CallMeChelsea 16-17, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    Well I'm 32 years old and probably started drinking when I was 14-15. I grew up with my father being an alcoholic but a loving fully functioning one. I have associated most all Do...
    Blackgold32 Blackgold32 31-35, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    pdpcuffed pdpcuffed 66-70, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Yes I do I want to because when I'm alone I feel like there's no one to hurt me and I can't hurt anyone. I can't trust people because I've always had people in my life that hurt me...
    Coolman1222 Coolman1222 13-15, M 9 hrs ago

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    I drink to numb myself. Because I feel pain. Drinking just numbs the pain a little. It still hurts, but it hurts a little less. I am alone, but when I drink, it matters less. I...
    klokenweb klokenweb 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 18

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    I have been having a particularly hard weekend dealing with the loneliness of living with a spouse with chronic pain so I searched the web and found this site. As I read some of...
    hispainismypain hispainismypain 61-65, F 3 Responses Jul 12

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    Feel Pain For All Abused Children
    michigan11 michigan11 22-25, M 3 hrs ago

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    I miss you... I miss you! I'm sad about my dad. I'm sad. I'm sad that our love was fleeting... I thought you were the man for me. I thought you had come to me in my life when I...
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    Every time I work in my garden or paint a meaningless painting, I imagine Adolf Hitler painting, Churchill tending his roses and Khomeini meditating under his apple tree. I guess I...
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    AWESOME PEDICURE TODAY!!!! Today my gf & I went in for pedi's, and what a FANTASTIC job the tech did! From the spa chair with the agitating water, to the awesome leg and foot...
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    I'm moving to Oriliia, Ontario tomorrow and I would like to make some new friends where I live. I don't have a job but I try to keep myself busy with playing guitar and painting...
    NoraDysphoria NoraDysphoria 18-21, F 1 Response Jun 28

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    The very first day I had my period, I had just turned twelve a week before. My parents birthday gift to me was to trust me walking around town alone for a set time, and then...
    raylynn24 raylynn24 22-25, F Jul 8

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    After years of being miserable because of this or that being done to me. This bad condition of things around me or that. I finally have a new beautiful home!!! No more mold, no...
    lu7998 lu7998 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 6

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    Well EP addicts, since I've last shared any stories on here my best friend died of an over dose. August 22nd last year. He was my very best ******* friend. And I still didn't...
    Woofy1 Woofy1 18-21, F Jul 12

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    I just found this site. Every story I read sounds like my own. My wife is the love of my life. My everything. The past two years I have seen her go from an amazingly passionate and...
    dempag dempag 41-45, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    4 months I had rotator cuff surgery with a full recovery expected. Needless to say after several phydical therapy tratments and pain meds I had little to no relief. Finally after...
    fancyface19 fancyface19 46-50, F 5 days ago

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    Go Away, The pain, Breath in, Breath out, Push the pain down, Pull it out my heart, Put it in that box, Grab my tears, Mop them up, Don't cry no more, Shut of from the world, The...
    Gentleandlovingsoul Gentleandlovingsoul 36-40, F Jun 29

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    This is like the most awkward situation I've ever been in my entire life to be quite honest.. anyways my mom has this friend who is married to a guy who has 2 daughters (9)(16...
    britay09 britay09 13-15, F 2 Responses Jul 12

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    Everyday, all the time I push away and I become more and more distant. I feel like no one notices or cares. I'm disappearing slowly from all their lives, ready to turn to a new...
    Diamondgirly Diamondgirly 18-21, F Jul 13

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    Boiling a pan of water may seem like the most innocuous activity and in fact it's something I do every day but there is the rush of bad memories that came from that. Sometimes I...
    lauren71 lauren71 41-45, F 4 days ago

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    I hate being around someone who's been drinking. It's like I can instantly tell when my dad's been drinking, even when it's only been a few drinks. I dislike it because it feels...
    AEHeroine AEHeroine 18-21, F Jun 28

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    Bright colors yet to be painted everywhere.. the beige-grey walls of my spinning, humming prison cell screaming out to me, beckoning my senses in seductive whispers and commanding...
    pretender1326 pretender1326 26-30, M Jul 11

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    Painting allows me to escape my brain but at the same time explore parts of it I didn't even know existed. I paint with some of my favorite music blasting and it is so therapeutic...
    Affley Affley 18-21, F Jul 14

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    I have two that my family (both immediate and extended) associate with me. 1. Tea: Because I drink it everyday and whenever we have family gatherings and someone puts the tea pot...
    MindvsHeartAJ MindvsHeartAJ 18-21, T Jul 15

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    As of today I find myself thinking is being in this much pain worth it. I know god only gives you what you can handle but somedays I can't handle all the pain. I could never not be...
    karienight karienight 26-30, F Jul 18

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    I know that this sounds stupid, but my mother doesn't feed me. She used to, make food like rice, chicken, potatoes, and she put it in containers that we could all eat from. I was...
    ICanTotallySurvive ICanTotallySurvive 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 18

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