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I Drink to Numb Myself

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    Tears of a Punk...

    When I drink, it's usually alone and usually because I can't handle how badly my life feels all the time. If I go out and drink with friends I usually end up crying, which is probably why nobody will drink with me anymore. That of course only makes me feel worse about my life. It...
    SadLittlePunk SadLittlePunk 31-35 2 Responses Dec 6, 2008

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    I'd Like To

    I don't drink a lot but I wish I could drink to numb myself from the pain of being lonely. If I had the chance I would drink 24/7. It seems like things that happen good in my life always come to an end eventually. I'm just exausted with it happening. I just want to be able...
    tngurl25 tngurl25 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    But That Takes A Lot

    I added this experience a while ago and never added the story until now. Since then I've changed my drinking habits a bit. I used to drink to numb myself. I found the pain was so strong, though, that it took an unbelieveably large amount of alcohol to get sufficiently numb. I...
    accomplice accomplice 41-45, M 4 Responses Jan 11, 2011

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    I drink to numb myself.

    Because I feel pain. Drinking just numbs the pain a little. It still hurts, but it hurts a little less. I am alone, but when I drink, it matters less. I want to flee. I want to escape. I don't want to see or feel what I see or feel. I want to disconnect from my feelings. When I...
    RichardAndon RichardAndon 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 18

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    Wish It Lasted Longer

    When I don't want to cut but I need to cut, I drink. It calms things down and the anxiety fades. I just wish it was not a short term solution. If I cant make the anxiety go away, I can numb it at least.
    empleh empleh 26-30 Sep 10, 2010

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    151 Bacardi Street

    im not too pleased with my life so i hit this dive bar frequently. i always shoot 151 straight when i go their. One day a buddy came in and wanted to do a shot of whatever i was having so he did 2 shots of 151 with me. Well i did 6 and played some pool. After the game he was...
    rorer714 rorer714 26-30, M Jan 28, 2013

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    There Is Something Missing

    During my college years, I drank primarily for my enjoyment. Over the past year or so, I have found that I have used alcohol as a means of comforting myself. I know that I have a pretty good life, so I am not entirely sure why I need comforting. I have a feeling that there is...
    EvenFlow85 EvenFlow85 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 10, 2011

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    Good Or Bad Feelings, I Just Want To Be Numb

    I drink regardless if my life is going incredibly well or if it's just horrible. I'm so used to being numb that any bit of extreme emotion is just too much for me. I will admit that I do like to drink, period and it's not just solely to be numb, but it's a huge part of it. I don...
    orchidlove23 orchidlove23 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    I Have Recently

    been told that i was an alcoholic a few months back. i never thought my drinkin was serious. But turns out i was wrong. I still feel the need for drink but the lack of money stops me although every penny i get i usually save up for alcohol. It doesn't scare me...i just don't want...
    xXmissyXx xXmissyXx 16-18, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2007

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    It helps dull the pain

    and numbs the feeling of lose
    Sufferedloss Sufferedloss 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 23

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    Yes, I Do...

    The first time I got drunk was when I was 19. I had so much confidence and my shyness was gone. Once I turned 20, I drank because I was irritated. Now, (since 21) I drink because I hate my life and have nothing going for me. I use dark humor and drinking to hide the deep pain...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 4 Responses Feb 28, 2011

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    It's Part Of My Life But Doesn't Rule My Life

    I have been drinking alcohol almost everyday since i was 14 yrs old, i am now 34.I am not a true alcoholic in the sense that yes i do go to work all day ,and can actually go days, weeks or months without alcohol. i just choose NOT to go without. :)
    daro76 daro76 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 16, 2011

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    Oh No!

    i'm afraid this may become extreme alcoholism. and i don't think i can stop it.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2007

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    Use to

    That had to be the hardest thing in the world to do! I had to learn how to love me for me again!
    Mammy Mammy 36-40, F Mar 26, 2008

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    Comfortably Numb

    When I drink… If I’m careful, I can lose myself in the spinning. In the weightlessness of unconscious. I can float, away from everything. Forget for a while. It’s a fine line. To not let the disconnect allow me to think about the things that I don’t...
    onceandfutureglow onceandfutureglow 31-35, F 8 Responses Jul 27, 2010

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    I'm not into drinking alcohol. I never have been for various reasons. The top reason for me not imbibing is because I do not like the possibility of getting drunk. I've been drunk...
    MRH1978 MRH1978 36-40, F 5 Responses Sep 2

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    Hi I'm new to this. I'm 29 going on 30 next month and I have a history of embarrassing experiences involving alcohol where I've had way too much to drink and always regretted it...
    zoolander212 zoolander212 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    "I like to get drunk alone on the weekends, and just play video games, because it's honestly more fun to "party" by myself". A friend of mine sent me an internet meme, with that...
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    When I feel incredibly down, and when I feel like I've lost my direction I have to talk to myself in the mirror. Sounds weird! But it helps cement-in what I need to tell myself. I...
    FreezerDog1 FreezerDog1 18-21, M 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    This is something I have tried but not tried hard enough. When I was in my earlier job, there used to be a girl sitting next to me who always drank water and always had a bottle...
    uselessguy uselessguy 36-40, M 2 Responses Aug 27

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    This is the first time I am opening up about myself, and I truly cannot stand the person I am, all for one small aspect of me that in reality should not be as big of a deal as I...
    skh22 skh22 18-21, M 2 Responses Sep 7

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    Drank too much at the weekend and now I feel so depressed. I hate this feeling. I really need to stop drinking so much on a night out. I don't know if I do it because I'm exhausted...
    fullen fullen 22-25, M Aug 25

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    Over recent months I have found myself paying more and more for energy drinks and I'm worried as I do not have the self control to stop myself,I haven't opened up to anyone as I am...
    ollieh25 ollieh25 22-25, M Aug 30

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    Devil vodka. I'm not religious, but alcohol is here to do the Devil's work.It can bring out the...
    KurMujun KurMujun 36-40 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Or at least I thought I did. 5 minutes ago I was asked to leave a bar that I go to during the week after work. It's 3 minutes away from my house so it's a perfect place to just...
    86reality 86reality 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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    I hate myself. I hate every single inch of myself; my eyes are too dull, my stomach is too fat. I hate how my thighs don't touch but still flatten out too largely when I sit down...
    magickalfiona magickalfiona 18-21 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I'm depressed and it's hard. It's gotten bad enough that I started cutting myself for tons of different reasons. Sometimes I feel so numb inside that I cut myself so I can feel...
    benjamintkw benjamintkw 13-15, M Sep 10

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    I never like the "found myself" thing. You already are you how does one find what they ready are? Are we trying to rip the space time continuum
    ValhallaAwaits ValhallaAwaits 18-21, M 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    I am here in a corner, no one hears me but me, no one feels me but me, I am obsessed by myself, as if I am the only one and the only one that is real is me. No one to talk to, I...
    CapitalH CapitalH 22-25, M 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    True in....true out....I'm don't dress in a 'societal norm' convention...just dress as who I am...do get judged...being true to myself lot more important
    cherryjar cherryjar 26-30, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    I hate that I always fall into the trap of "don't worry, I'm not like them" or "I would never leave you." But everyone always stays for my good side, the fake me, the me that's...
    OsyriaRose OsyriaRose 16-17, F 2 Responses 1 hr ago

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    I drink blood because It is salty to me and I cut myself so I can drink my blood hail Satan
    AdvancedSatanist666 AdvancedSatanist666 18-21, M 1 Response Aug 22

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    The number 4...the number 4 is a forgotten number, people count to 3, or say 3rd times the charm...4 is just a regular number, never used to describe or explain anything. The way I...
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    When I was younger. In about 5th grade i told myself that smoking and drinking was icky because of a program in school called D.A.R.E and it really made me want to stay clean. But...
    Raptax231 Raptax231 18-21, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I never buy them for myself. They don't have effect on me. My energy is all based on my state of mind not on some drinks.
    Zim0 Zim0 18-21, M 1 Response 3 days ago

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    Almost Back Home I'm almost back back where the sun doesn't shine back where the grass doesn't grow. back where you can't touch my heart back in my black lair. no more running...
    SKiesterly SKiesterly 36-40, F Aug 24

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    Does it count when I'm psychotic the other half of the time? It's like, maybe my whole is just like "yeah, I'm tired, time to be numb now!!" It drives me...well, nowhere, because I...
    RexxTheDinosawr RexxTheDinosawr 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 2

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    I'm numb to the point of being comfortable but not understanding why this is happening, when I'm attempting to reclaim my life from the evils of anxiety and major depression. It...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M 1 Response Sep 10

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    I feel like I'm living a nightmare Everything isn't going how I saw it Nothing is the same anymore Sleep non-existent Waking hours I feel zombiefied I fight the urge to dig deep...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M Sep 11

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    The days are shortened by the ridiculous sleeping pattern Broken up by the even more disturbing dreams of late. Zombie motion and slow pounding of the pavement. I wander to a...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M 2 Responses a week ago

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    I forget the days as the nights close in they all seem to run together now. For reasons unknown to me the medication agreement I have accepted Has placed me in a mellow zone, free...
    PoeticMute PoeticMute 31-35, M a week ago

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    lylac lylac 26-30, F 20 hrs ago

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    When I get frustrated or extremely upset or argue with someone I want to hurt myself. Its mainly when I argue with my close friends and mother. I feel so bad about things I said or...
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