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I Drink to Numb Myself

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    I'd Like To

    I don't drink a lot but I wish I could drink to numb myself from the pain of being lonely. If I had the chance I would drink 24/7. It seems like things that happen good in my life always come to an end eventually. I'm just exausted with it happening. I just want to be able...
    tngurl25 tngurl25 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    I hate the feeling of being drunk,

    it's absolutely terrible. However, periodically... such as today; a flood of emotions gnawed away at my heart causing such pain and loneliness, this was a time for me to have a glass of wine and be done with the hurt. Perhaps, if I were in happier circumstances this "self...
    PlasticRobot PlasticRobot 36-40, F Dec 12, 2014

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    Wish It Lasted Longer

    When I don't want to cut but I need to cut, I drink. It calms things down and the anxiety fades. I just wish it was not a short term solution. If I cant make the anxiety go away, I can numb it at least.
    empleh empleh 26-30 Sep 10, 2010

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    Yes, I Do...

    The first time I got drunk was when I was 19. I had so much confidence and my shyness was gone. Once I turned 20, I drank because I was irritated. Now, (since 21) I drink because I hate my life and have nothing going for me. I use dark humor and drinking to hide the deep pain...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 4 Responses Feb 28, 2011

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    But That Takes A Lot

    I added this experience a while ago and never added the story until now. Since then I've changed my drinking habits a bit. I used to drink to numb myself. I found the pain was so strong, though, that it took an unbelieveably large amount of alcohol to get sufficiently numb. I...
    accomplice accomplice 46-50, M 4 Responses Jan 11, 2011

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    Oh No!

    i'm afraid this may become extreme alcoholism. and i don't think i can stop it.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2007

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    It helps dull the pain

    and numbs the feeling of lose
    Sufferedloss Sufferedloss 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 23, 2014

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    I drink to numb myself.

    Because I feel pain. Drinking just numbs the pain a little. It still hurts, but it hurts a little less. I am alone, but when I drink, it matters less. I want to flee. I want to escape. I don't want to see or feel what I see or feel. I want to disconnect from my feelings. When I...
    RichardAndon RichardAndon 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 18, 2014

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    Good Or Bad Feelings, I Just Want To Be Numb

    I drink regardless if my life is going incredibly well or if it's just horrible. I'm so used to being numb that any bit of extreme emotion is just too much for me. I will admit that I do like to drink, period and it's not just solely to be numb, but it's a huge part of it. I don...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    Use to

    That had to be the hardest thing in the world to do! I had to learn how to love me for me again!
    Mammy Mammy 36-40, F Mar 26, 2008

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    Tears of a Punk...

    When I drink, it's usually alone and usually because I can't handle how badly my life feels all the time. If I go out and drink with friends I usually end up crying, which is probably why nobody will drink with me anymore. That of course only makes me feel worse about my life. It...
    SadLittlePunk SadLittlePunk 31-35 2 Responses Dec 6, 2008

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    There Is Something Missing

    During my college years, I drank primarily for my enjoyment. Over the past year or so, I have found that I have used alcohol as a means of comforting myself. I know that I have a pretty good life, so I am not entirely sure why I need comforting. I have a feeling that there is...
    EvenFlow85 EvenFlow85 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 10, 2011

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    I Have Recently

    been told that i was an alcoholic a few months back. i never thought my drinkin was serious. But turns out i was wrong. I still feel the need for drink but the lack of money stops me although every penny i get i usually save up for alcohol. It doesn't scare me...i just don't want...
    xXmissyXx xXmissyXx 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2007

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    Comfortably Numb

    When I drink… If I’m careful, I can lose myself in the spinning. In the weightlessness of unconscious. I can float, away from everything. Forget for a while. It’s a fine line. To not let the disconnect allow me to think about the things that I don’t...
    onceandfutureglow onceandfutureglow 31-35, F 8 Responses Jul 27, 2010

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    151 Bacardi Street

    im not too pleased with my life so i hit this dive bar frequently. i always shoot 151 straight when i go their. One day a buddy came in and wanted to do a shot of whatever i was having so he did 2 shots of 151 with me. Well i did 6 and played some pool. After the game he was...
    rorer714 rorer714 26-30, M Jan 28, 2013

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    It's Part Of My Life But Doesn't Rule My Life

    I have been drinking alcohol almost everyday since i was 14 yrs old, i am now 34.I am not a true alcoholic in the sense that yes i do go to work all day ,and can actually go days, weeks or months without alcohol. i just choose NOT to go without. :)
    daro76 daro76 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 16, 2011

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    I did it to my right arm it wasn't deep to the bone but enough to leave a nasty mark. I was 18 at the time. I was in a middle of a brawl (big group fight) I was by myself and out...
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    When I first started drinking I drove drunk. I crashed. I was sick about it. Nobody got hurt but they could have ya know? I could have hit someone. I hated myself. When you're...
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    Feasting and Drinking Wine at The China Buffet With the end of the month of July coming my best female friend Linda and I are going to celebrate a great summer month together by...
    BlueJeanedPrincess BlueJeanedPrincess 56-60, F 3 days ago

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    Just last week I wrote a story about hating myself which I have deleted. I'm big, 222 pounds on a small 5 foot frame. Yes, I'm morbidly obese. However, I eat healthy & I work out...
    purplepumpkin17 purplepumpkin17 16-17, F 6 Responses 3 days ago

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    I am on a mission every day to become a better version of myself. Yesterday I felt a huge sense of accomplishment. I have about five major goals. Get my health in order, get my...
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    I dont even know where to start. When I was young I know im different from other kids. I was more mature and kept things to myself instead of crying and ask for what I need/want. I...
    Meow1121 Meow1121 22-25, F 3 Responses 5 days ago

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    1. I sometimes can have a dirty mind.. It's only because I don't really wash my brain often.. 2. I'm really sorta weird and.. 3. I'm not weird weird.. I'm just.. Weiiiiirrrdd 4...
    DoorMattress DoorMattress 13-15, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Strong22 Strong22 22-25, F 5 days ago

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    1) I taught myself to be ambidextrous. 2) I was in foster care for 12 years. 3) I've had 2 boyfriends. 4) I've never dyed my hair 5) I can't cross my eyes. 6) I've met a famous...
    misskp misskp 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    Things seem better if I wasn't around and I wouldn't feel this pain anymore inside my body. Feels like I'm numb and I'm tired of feeling this way
    Bri301 Bri301 18-21, F 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    Ever heard Linkin Park's song "Numb"? It totally describes me. I feel like I'm not really living in this world. Its like a fog I can't get out of. So many times I sit with people...
    BurnTheDreams BurnTheDreams 16-17, F 6 days ago

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    For those of you on ep that have my number and don't text or talk to me, I'm deleting your numbers and cleaning out my phone. No use having them if I don't hear from you.
    saraslife saraslife 26-30, F 4 Responses a week ago

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    well I try to anyways but when i start up I find myself on social media looking for people to come drink with lol
    MyraTomPhil MyraTomPhil 26-30 1 Response a week ago

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    This thread has been so enlightening and shocking at the same time. I have been seeing the numbers 911, 119 ever since my father passed away in 2011. At first I kept ignoring it...
    moonm moonm 26-30, F 1 Response a week ago

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    Drinking myself into a coma sounds pretty good right now
    Madison18 Madison18 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 25

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    Got 9 likes for killing some puppies? I'll be your number ten. But I'll swing before being your number eleven.
    CoffeeLover80 CoffeeLover80 31-35, M 1 Response Jul 24

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    Im addicted to energy drinks.Before i used to drink once like every few months but now i drink 4 cans a day,and i know it really bad for me aswell i dont remember the last time i...
    Itsnessaye Itsnessaye 13-15, F 1 Response Jul 23

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    I wouldn't say I'm an alcoholic, I've cut down somewhat on the amount I have but I still drink a fair bit. I'm the mornings when most people would have coffee I have a glass of...
    Niemadde Niemadde 18-21, M 1 Response Jul 23

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    I deleted your number, you don't even know. You wouldn't even care. You 'act' as if you care about me... but, you really don't, do you?? I unwillingly memorized your number, while...
    xXDemonArtXx xXDemonArtXx 13-15 Jul 23

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    I guess we also have to drink tea at least once a day healthwise. I am a coffee drinker but I also love tea.Some Reasons Why Tea Is Good for You:1. Tea can also boost exercise...
    Iluvdjee0612 Iluvdjee0612 36-40, F Jul 23

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    Three years ago we stopped talking. Three years ago I've deleted your phone number. I just don't understand why I still freakn' remember your phone number. Ugh. I don't even...
    ComplicatedWounded ComplicatedWounded 26-30, F Jul 23

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    you can't find one who don't even know where they're you will be loved and destroyed by me all is well around me..except within me seconds of melancholic void maybe i feel...
    anotherclone anotherclone 26-30, M Jul 22

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    Confusion. The mind shattered into pieces from long ago, painstakingly putting it together to see the actions of my past. Was it me or them that struck down the hammer? Better yet...
    NigNog96 NigNog96 18-21, M Jul 22

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    My body can't take a drip of alcohol. I am working as a part time bartender and not drinking at all. I dont drink alcohol I don't drink coffee I don't use makeup ... I'm just me
    thatdorkygirl thatdorkygirl 31-35, F Jul 22

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