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I Drink to Numb Myself

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    But That Takes A Lot

    I added this experience a while ago and never added the story until now. Since then I've changed my drinking habits a bit. I used to drink to numb myself. I found the pain was so strong, though, that it took an unbelieveably large amount of alcohol to get sufficiently numb. I...
    accomplice accomplice 41-45, M 4 Responses Jan 11, 2011

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    Comfortably Numb

    When I drink… If I’m careful, I can lose myself in the spinning. In the weightlessness of unconscious. I can float, away from everything. Forget for a while. It’s a fine line. To not let the disconnect allow me to think about the things that I don’t...
    onceandfutureglow onceandfutureglow 31-35, F 8 Responses Jul 27, 2010

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    It helps dull the pain

    and numbs the feeling of lose
    Sufferedloss Sufferedloss 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 23

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    Wish It Lasted Longer

    When I don't want to cut but I need to cut, I drink. It calms things down and the anxiety fades. I just wish it was not a short term solution. If I cant make the anxiety go away, I can numb it at least.
    empleh empleh 26-30 Sep 10, 2010

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    Tears of a Punk...

    When I drink, it's usually alone and usually because I can't handle how badly my life feels all the time. If I go out and drink with friends I usually end up crying, which is probably why nobody will drink with me anymore. That of course only makes me feel worse about my life. It...
    SadLittlePunk SadLittlePunk 31-35 2 Responses Dec 6, 2008

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    Oh No!

    i'm afraid this may become extreme alcoholism. and i don't think i can stop it.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2007

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    Yes, I Do...

    The first time I got drunk was when I was 19. I had so much confidence and my shyness was gone. Once I turned 20, I drank because I was irritated. Now, (since 21) I drink because I hate my life and have nothing going for me. I use dark humor and drinking to hide the deep pain...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 4 Responses Feb 28, 2011

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    151 Bacardi Street

    im not too pleased with my life so i hit this dive bar frequently. i always shoot 151 straight when i go their. One day a buddy came in and wanted to do a shot of whatever i was having so he did 2 shots of 151 with me. Well i did 6 and played some pool. After the game he was...
    rorer714 rorer714 26-30, M Jan 28, 2013

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    I'd Like To

    I don't drink a lot but I wish I could drink to numb myself from the pain of being lonely. If I had the chance I would drink 24/7. It seems like things that happen good in my life always come to an end eventually. I'm just exausted with it happening. I just want to be able...
    tngurl25 tngurl25 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    I Have Recently

    been told that i was an alcoholic a few months back. i never thought my drinkin was serious. But turns out i was wrong. I still feel the need for drink but the lack of money stops me although every penny i get i usually save up for alcohol. It doesn't scare me...i just don't want...
    xXmissyXx xXmissyXx 16-18, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2007

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    Use to

    That had to be the hardest thing in the world to do! I had to learn how to love me for me again!
    Mammy Mammy 36-40, F Mar 26, 2008

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    I drink to numb myself.

    Because I feel pain. Drinking just numbs the pain a little. It still hurts, but it hurts a little less. I am alone, but when I drink, it matters less. I want to flee. I want to escape. I don't want to see or feel what I see or feel. I want to disconnect from my feelings. When I...
    RichardAndon RichardAndon 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 18

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    Good Or Bad Feelings, I Just Want To Be Numb

    I drink regardless if my life is going incredibly well or if it's just horrible. I'm so used to being numb that any bit of extreme emotion is just too much for me. I will admit that I do like to drink, period and it's not just solely to be numb, but it's a huge part of it. I don...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    It's Part Of My Life But Doesn't Rule My Life

    I have been drinking alcohol almost everyday since i was 14 yrs old, i am now 34.I am not a true alcoholic in the sense that yes i do go to work all day ,and can actually go days, weeks or months without alcohol. i just choose NOT to go without. :)
    daro76 daro76 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 16, 2011

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    There Is Something Missing

    During my college years, I drank primarily for my enjoyment. Over the past year or so, I have found that I have used alcohol as a means of comforting myself. I know that I have a pretty good life, so I am not entirely sure why I need comforting. I have a feeling that there is...
    EvenFlow85 EvenFlow85 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 10, 2011

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    At least, I want to stop drinking as much. Last time I drank, my hands went numb. That was different and weird. It lasted all night. I was out of energy for a couple days...
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    I feel like im useless, like no one can look at me and say wow she has done something extraordinary with her life. My parents are always disappointed in me and I feel like i have...
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    Everyone calls me gay and thinks I look like a girl. A fly could kick my ***. I hate myself. I'm so pathetic. The bruises on my face? Not even done by a dude. I'm so worthless...
    Levi1 Levi1 13-15, M 3 Responses 7 hrs ago

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    I wonder at times why i am so unsure of myself. I KNOW i look alright, i KNOW i am very smart and i learn quickly and that i can be wonderful conversation. Yet, i still doubt...
    Qwert143 Qwert143 22-25 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I always end up embarrassing myself when I drink but It's hard not drinking when I go out.. Yesterday it was my ex-boyfriends party and I ended up getting sick all over his house...
    flanbot flanbot 16-17, F 1 Response Oct 5

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    Unlike most of the stories I read here, I drink to enjoy the tipsyness. Because after two bottles of 20% liquor you get that fuzzy floaty feeling, everything seems funnier and you...
    elvisguitar elvisguitar 18-21, M 2 Responses Oct 5

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    Tomorrow October 21st I will be 47 year old. When I look back on the life I've wasted and the unforgivable things I did in the past it pushes me to make a fourth attempt at ending...
    ATroubledLife ATroubledLife 46-50, M 1 Response 2 days ago

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    My psychologist is not a fan of my favorite hobby. Hand me a case of Natural Light, and I'll face it like there's no tomorrow. (It tastes like water, don't knock the Natty!) I...
    asnplaysrugby asnplaysrugby 22-25, M 2 Responses Oct 11

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    I am hurting myself indirectly without wanting to..stop it dammit
    Darlinghton Darlinghton 18-21, M 9 hrs ago

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    I don't need a freaking guy to take care of me or love me, i can take care of myself and love? God is there for it ;)
    LovelyBitch1 LovelyBitch1 16-17, F 9 hrs ago

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    I am not perfect but I try my best to apply the right in my life. I did my mistakes and I regret some of them more than others but that's how i learnt. Now on I will forgive...
    StrongWoman9 StrongWoman9 31-35, F 5 hrs ago

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    I can't put in words how much I hate myself today....
    bluegirlie98 bluegirlie98 13-15, F 2 Responses 21 mins ago

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    But today was my first time and the weird part about it is that it was with my ex boyfriend! I told myself that I would always wait until I'm 21 to drink, but I was caught in the...
    anitamigna anitamigna 18-21, F 1 Response Sep 30

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    1. I am gay 2. I live in Manila,Philippines 3. I love the sound of rain 4. I can spend an entire day in a coffee shop or in a mall 5. Yet, i like doing those things alone 6. I love...
    bluelaw bluelaw 36-40, M Oct 6

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    I no longer like to "party" and have fallen out of favor with large groups of people. Now as I LOVE beer, when I drink it is by myself. My wife is ill (you'll have to read my...
    Beaver318 Beaver318 41-45, M Oct 13

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    It has been over 15 years. I can barely believe it myself. I always had the feeling of a bloated stomach and indigestion. It took a toll on dental health too. And my belt had...
    dadhereforyou dadhereforyou 51-55, M Oct 14

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    i hate myself if i don't get the perfect grade. i hate myself if i see a bigger number on the scales. i hate myself sooo much if i don't get an awarding certificate at the end of...
    michiko michiko 16-17, F 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    Sugary soft drinks may be linked to accelerated DNA ageing – study Research finds that people who reported drinking 350ml of fizzy drink per day had DNA changes typical of cells...
    sogdianrock sogdianrock 51-55, M 4 Responses 5 days ago

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    I bought a guy lunch today because his meal plan at our school ran out and he didn't have money. He's a really sweet guy and plays on our football team and is very intelligent and...
    Skollon Skollon 18-21, F 2 Responses Sep 25

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    As a child, I would sometimes drink sweetened carbonated beverages like Coca-Cola, Pepsi, 7 Up, root beer, orange drink, and grape drink. When I was ten years old, I decided that...
    s4019t s4019t 26-30, M 1 Response Sep 27

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    1. I always try to order something different, but always end up ordering the same thing. 2. People love to share their troubles with me; I hate sharing my troubles with anyone 3...
    aksil aksil 26-30, F Sep 28

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    How do I STAY motivated to workout? especially since its getting colder outside in the winter months. Is it crazy to try to eat healthy in the winter when everyone is trying to...
    beccaishere89 beccaishere89 22-25, F 4 Responses 21 hrs ago

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    When I was a teenager I was in perfect health, mentally and physically. I haven't been completely sober since I was 19, and I am 32. I have either been high or drunk. Those two...
    iamokaynow iamokaynow 31-35, M 2 Responses Sep 23

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    I stopped drinking alcohol about four years ago due to a conflict with my Parkinson's medication. Since then I realized that even without the medication conflict I won't be...
    LifeinWoodinville LifeinWoodinville 41-45, M 4 Responses Sep 23

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    Out of curiosity I decided to drink myself as it were. Not too bad. Slightly sweet and creamy.
    xlxSpiraxlx xlxSpiraxlx 26-30, F 10 Responses Sep 23

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    I never buy them for myself. I use Robinson's Squash with a pinch of salt.
    HandsomePrince1 HandsomePrince1 16-17, M Sep 28

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    I'm so tired and my cousin she made me promise to celebrate Christmas together. We're Buddhist, it's stupid. She knows I think about suicide because I've told her all about it last...
    Concerto Concerto 22-25, F 3 Responses Oct 1

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    I told myself I would stop drinking a million times before... Ha! But I've already started again Last night.
    SunshineH316 SunshineH316 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 3

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    I tell myself I don't have to drink to be happy Maybe it's true
    NotApplicable NotApplicable 22-25, F 2 Responses Oct 13

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    I'm 25 but look like I'm in my late teens. RN. Runner. Athlete. Budlight drinker. Oreo ice cream eater. Addicted to Grey's anatomy. Walking dead fan. Love storms. Dog named...
    sheeds15 sheeds15 22-25, F Oct 13

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    I wish I could just drink alone at this moment... drown myself until I forget this feeling I have... this pain inside of me...
    myleslus myleslus 22-25, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Pain is seemingly relative, physical pain can disrupt and distract you. Cause weakness and ache. A physical pain you can often see... whether through expression or a visible injury...
    Superficialsaint Superficialsaint 26-30, F 4 Responses Sep 23