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I Drink to Numb Myself

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    But That Takes A Lot

    I added this experience a while ago and never added the story until now. Since then I've changed my drinking habits a bit. I used to drink to numb myself. I found the pain was so strong, though, that it took an unbelieveably large amount of alcohol to get sufficiently numb. I...
    accomplice accomplice 41-45, M 4 Responses Jan 11, 2011

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    Yes, I Do...

    The first time I got drunk was when I was 19. I had so much confidence and my shyness was gone. Once I turned 20, I drank because I was irritated. Now, (since 21) I drink because I hate my life and have nothing going for me. I use dark humor and drinking to hide the deep pain...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 4 Responses Feb 28, 2011

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    151 Bacardi Street

    im not too pleased with my life so i hit this dive bar frequently. i always shoot 151 straight when i go their. One day a buddy came in and wanted to do a shot of whatever i was having so he did 2 shots of 151 with me. Well i did 6 and played some pool. After the game he was...
    rorer714 rorer714 26-30, M Jan 28, 2013

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    There Is Something Missing

    During my college years, I drank primarily for my enjoyment. Over the past year or so, I have found that I have used alcohol as a means of comforting myself. I know that I have a pretty good life, so I am not entirely sure why I need comforting. I have a feeling that there is...
    EvenFlow85 EvenFlow85 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 10, 2011

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    Use to

    That had to be the hardest thing in the world to do! I had to learn how to love me for me again!
    Mammy Mammy 36-40, F Mar 26, 2008

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    It's Part Of My Life But Doesn't Rule My Life

    I have been drinking alcohol almost everyday since i was 14 yrs old, i am now 34.I am not a true alcoholic in the sense that yes i do go to work all day ,and can actually go days, weeks or months without alcohol. i just choose NOT to go without. :)
    daro76 daro76 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 16, 2011

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    Oh No!

    i'm afraid this may become extreme alcoholism. and i don't think i can stop it.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2007

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    Wish It Lasted Longer

    When I don't want to cut but I need to cut, I drink. It calms things down and the anxiety fades. I just wish it was not a short term solution. If I cant make the anxiety go away, I can numb it at least.
    empleh empleh 26-30 Sep 10, 2010

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    It helps dull the pain

    and numbs the feeling of lose
    Sufferedloss Sufferedloss 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 23

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    Comfortably Numb

    When I drink… If I’m careful, I can lose myself in the spinning. In the weightlessness of unconscious. I can float, away from everything. Forget for a while. It’s a fine line. To not let the disconnect allow me to think about the things that I don’t...
    onceandfutureglow onceandfutureglow 31-35, F 8 Responses Jul 27, 2010

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    I'd Like To

    I don't drink a lot but I wish I could drink to numb myself from the pain of being lonely. If I had the chance I would drink 24/7. It seems like things that happen good in my life always come to an end eventually. I'm just exausted with it happening. I just want to be able...
    tngurl25 tngurl25 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    I Have Recently

    been told that i was an alcoholic a few months back. i never thought my drinkin was serious. But turns out i was wrong. I still feel the need for drink but the lack of money stops me although every penny i get i usually save up for alcohol. It doesn't scare me...i just don't want...
    xXmissyXx xXmissyXx 16-18, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2007

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    I drink to numb myself.

    Because I feel pain. Drinking just numbs the pain a little. It still hurts, but it hurts a little less. I am alone, but when I drink, it matters less. I want to flee. I want to escape. I don't want to see or feel what I see or feel. I want to disconnect from my feelings. When I...
    klokenweb klokenweb 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 18

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    Good Or Bad Feelings, I Just Want To Be Numb

    I drink regardless if my life is going incredibly well or if it's just horrible. I'm so used to being numb that any bit of extreme emotion is just too much for me. I will admit that I do like to drink, period and it's not just solely to be numb, but it's a huge part of it. I don...
    orchidlove23 orchidlove23 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    Tears of a Punk...

    When I drink, it's usually alone and usually because I can't handle how badly my life feels all the time. If I go out and drink with friends I usually end up crying, which is probably why nobody will drink with me anymore. That of course only makes me feel worse about my life. It...
    SadLittlePunk SadLittlePunk 31-35 2 Responses Dec 6, 2008

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    Related Experiences

    I guess,Im just indifferent to lots of things in my life and life in general and I like to numb myself out from all the bs in my mind..sometimes being numb can feel good better...
    seeminglypossible seeminglypossible 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 30

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    My parents dont know i'm drinking with my friends almost every weekend. I'm not allowed to drink for my parents because of our belief. But my friends can, and I don't want to feel...
    linebinee linebinee 18-21, F 1 Response 57 mins ago

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    And to be honest water is all I ever drink, for the past nine months it's been like that and I feel like a billionaire.
    kamachulu kamachulu 22-25, M 14 hrs ago

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    I know right. People be like oh why you not drinking? And I be like I, I found Jesus winding them up! They get offended and I just laugh! That's another way of having a good time...
    kamachulu kamachulu 22-25, M 14 hrs ago

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    I quite drinking for 9 months beat that!
    kamachulu kamachulu 22-25, M 14 hrs ago

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    I can't go to sleep without water on my night stand. If I drink anything other then water I need what with it! Pop And a cup of water Alcohol and a cup of water The only downside...
    Trueinfinity Trueinfinity 18-21, F 13 hrs ago

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    Most of my life has been a complete mess. I had a terrible childhood, I was bullied, my dad has drinking problems, my mother has psychiatric problems, etc. And now, that my parents...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M Jul 22

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    I wrote 50 random facts about myself last night. and i'm bored so i'm going to write another 50. so um yea... here we go. 51- I have met a lot of bands. 52- 90% of my wardrobe...
    sugarcakes143 sugarcakes143 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    I've turned numb towards love, affection & feelings. I don't react the way everyone would. There's this guy that i met right after my breakup. Though we've been working in the...
    Xyanii Xyanii 22-25, F 8 Responses Jul 1

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    Wish I could feel that buzz, the numbing of your whole body. Makes you feel good for that little bit. But when you lose it in a few hours and it makes you want more. Makes you...
    DepressingKayla DepressingKayla 16-17, F Jul 14

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    Most people wouldn't understand and I don't expect you too. No one knows I hurt myself not even my closest friends, I only punch myself in the ribs and punch walls and throw...
    heyapple69 heyapple69 66-70, F 2 hrs ago

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    I hate being numb. it's a social barrier. I begin to numb my emotions when I was eleven, after emotional trauma, and at first it was a relief, and I felt strong. only a few months...
    floweing floweing 13-15, F Jul 5

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    I feel claustrophobic in my own skin. I don't want to be me anymore. I honestly don't know how people go through life "happy" because for me life is literally just hard. It's hard...
    marisolitude marisolitude 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    Just needing to remind myself of this ... as I've gotten to know people better on here I'm finding myself becoming guarded again. It's interesting to me that with some of my...
    StarLily71 StarLily71 41-45, F 3 Responses 13 hrs ago

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    I am a 49 year old woman and have had issues with alcohol since I was in my twenties. I have gone long periods without drinking but when I start again, it quickly spirals out of...
    Ysabel2 Ysabel2 46-50, F 1 Response 2 days ago

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    The other day at work I had an epiphany that I really truly love myself. I was thinking of a party that I went to..my first one. I refused to drink any alcohol when all of my best...
    londontravella londontravella 18-21, F 1 day ago

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    Numbness Numbness. Contradicting the pain I felt. Flooding through me like a dose of anesthesia. I lay. Paralyzed by the nothingness. Unable to bring myself to move. Conditioned...
    Nataliefosterdoglover Nataliefosterdoglover 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    I Don't Smoke And I Don't Drink and i have promise myself and God that i will never smoke or drink in my whole life. These are just bad things. They just kill a person inside and...
    mahdiraza mahdiraza 16-17, M 3 Responses Jul 17

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    I need help. I drink way too much. It's going to kill me if I don't stop. I have a perfect life and lovey husband and kids. I have a good job and lovely home. But I can't stop...
    daisybell7 daisybell7 36-40, F 2 Responses 4 days ago

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    And then almost immediately breaking them :) I want to use my time and my resources and my energy better I want to take reasonable care of myself I want to be as OK as possible to...
    dispossessed dispossessed 46-50, F 2 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Well, this is my first story posting here so I would like to introduce myself and will want to share few things about me. Well my name is Yumi, I am 25 years old and from Tokyo...
    yumiflyhigh yumiflyhigh 22-25, F 5 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    I quit drinking alcohol several months ago I can not even believe myself how much harm it was doing to my body and my soul... Since I quit I have lost 32 pounds gone from a size 34...
    xsday84 xsday84 26-30, M Jul 1

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    Comfortably Numb (Addiction) I feel so numb Unfeeling even I was feeling in the beginning Of my day today Though I didn't like what I felt So like any addict I turn to my...
    Nataliefosterdoglover Nataliefosterdoglover 26-30, F Jul 7

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    On lonely nights or when my depression gets the better of me, i like taking a shot of vodka. The burn helps numb my pain and i feel i can go on with being dull. This is the only...
    DarkMage594 DarkMage594 22-25, M Jul 9

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    I used to love to go drinking with friends, now i only drink at home alcohol is so expensive in pubs now and full of idiots who cant handle there alcohol, not to mention violence...
    ExtremeNext ExtremeNext 26-30, F 10 Responses Jul 16

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    Lately my husband meet new friends and spending time with them more often. He doesn't use to drink and if he has morning work he don't want to stay late, but then now he would...
    qtalice qtalice 31-35, F 2 Responses Jul 17

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    I have been seeing repeated numbers for over fifteen years. The numbers that come up again and again for me are 10:10, 11:11, 12:12, 333, 444, 555 and 777. My cat often wakes me up...
    777Brad 777Brad 56-60, M 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    I make myself drink a glass of water every time before I eat (including snacks). I read that this is supposed to help with weight loss. I don't know if it's working but my skin...
    restitutor restitutor 22-25, F 4 days ago

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    Numb I lie here, Intoxicated by numbness, It surrounds me like a cloud of thick smoke, Choking me, Seeping into my veins, my brain, I desperately search for some feeling, But my...
    Nataliefosterdoglover Nataliefosterdoglover 26-30, F Jul 7

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    Lost In Numbness Lost in numbness for years Running from pain Trapped in the freezing rain Constantly numb Pain is better than nothing at all Pain without reason, a cause, or...
    Nataliefosterdoglover Nataliefosterdoglover 26-30, F Jul 7

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    **Pitiful Numb** Dear diary, Can anyone see this pitiful, being inside of me? Broken hearted, yet always singing? Nothing to smile for, yet always smiling. Torn apart, and never...
    Nataliefosterdoglover Nataliefosterdoglover 26-30, F Jul 7

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    Numb I feel nothing at all. Inside I am dead. I hit the ground, but do not fall. I'm lost within my head. I swallow the pill that makes it go away. I become numb. I feel no...
    Nataliefosterdoglover Nataliefosterdoglover 26-30, F 1 Response Jul 7

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    I don't drink even though I go to a college with a lot of drinking. Most if my friends also don't drink, or don't drink constantly. I think maybe when I turn 21 I'll try a drink...
    MismatchedIdeas MismatchedIdeas 18-21, F 3 Responses Jun 30

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