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I Drink to Numb Myself

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    There Is Something Missing

    During my college years, I drank primarily for my enjoyment. Over the past year or so, I have found that I have used alcohol as a means of comforting myself. I know that I have a pretty good life, so I am not entirely sure why I need comforting. I have a feeling that there is...
    EvenFlow85 EvenFlow85 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 10, 2011

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    It's Part Of My Life But Doesn't Rule My Life

    I have been drinking alcohol almost everyday since i was 14 yrs old, i am now 34.I am not a true alcoholic in the sense that yes i do go to work all day ,and can actually go days, weeks or months without alcohol. i just choose NOT to go without. :)
    daro76 daro76 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 16, 2011

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    Use to

    That had to be the hardest thing in the world to do! I had to learn how to love me for me again!
    Mammy Mammy 36-40, F Mar 26, 2008

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    I drink to numb myself.

    Because I feel pain. Drinking just numbs the pain a little. It still hurts, but it hurts a little less. I am alone, but when I drink, it matters less. I want to flee. I want to escape. I don't want to see or feel what I see or feel. I want to disconnect from my feelings. When I...
    RichardAndon RichardAndon 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 18, 2014

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    I Have Recently

    been told that i was an alcoholic a few months back. i never thought my drinkin was serious. But turns out i was wrong. I still feel the need for drink but the lack of money stops me although every penny i get i usually save up for alcohol. It doesn't scare me...i just don't want...
    xXmissyXx xXmissyXx 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2007

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    Good Or Bad Feelings, I Just Want To Be Numb

    I drink regardless if my life is going incredibly well or if it's just horrible. I'm so used to being numb that any bit of extreme emotion is just too much for me. I will admit that I do like to drink, period and it's not just solely to be numb, but it's a huge part of it. I don...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    But That Takes A Lot

    I added this experience a while ago and never added the story until now. Since then I've changed my drinking habits a bit. I used to drink to numb myself. I found the pain was so strong, though, that it took an unbelieveably large amount of alcohol to get sufficiently numb. I...
    accomplice accomplice 41-45, M 4 Responses Jan 11, 2011

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    Yes, I Do...

    The first time I got drunk was when I was 19. I had so much confidence and my shyness was gone. Once I turned 20, I drank because I was irritated. Now, (since 21) I drink because I hate my life and have nothing going for me. I use dark humor and drinking to hide the deep pain...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 4 Responses Feb 28, 2011

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    I hate the feeling of being drunk,

    it's absolutely terrible. However, periodically... such as today; a flood of emotions gnawed away at my heart causing such pain and loneliness, this was a time for me to have a glass of wine and be done with the hurt. Perhaps, if I were in happier circumstances this "self...
    PlasticRobot PlasticRobot 36-40, F Dec 12, 2014

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    151 Bacardi Street

    im not too pleased with my life so i hit this dive bar frequently. i always shoot 151 straight when i go their. One day a buddy came in and wanted to do a shot of whatever i was having so he did 2 shots of 151 with me. Well i did 6 and played some pool. After the game he was...
    rorer714 rorer714 26-30, M Jan 28, 2013

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    Wish It Lasted Longer

    When I don't want to cut but I need to cut, I drink. It calms things down and the anxiety fades. I just wish it was not a short term solution. If I cant make the anxiety go away, I can numb it at least.
    empleh empleh 26-30 Sep 10, 2010

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    Oh No!

    i'm afraid this may become extreme alcoholism. and i don't think i can stop it.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2007

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    Comfortably Numb

    When I drink… If I’m careful, I can lose myself in the spinning. In the weightlessness of unconscious. I can float, away from everything. Forget for a while. It’s a fine line. To not let the disconnect allow me to think about the things that I don’t...
    onceandfutureglow onceandfutureglow 31-35, F 8 Responses Jul 27, 2010

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    It helps dull the pain

    and numbs the feeling of lose
    Sufferedloss Sufferedloss 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 23, 2014

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    Tears of a Punk...

    When I drink, it's usually alone and usually because I can't handle how badly my life feels all the time. If I go out and drink with friends I usually end up crying, which is probably why nobody will drink with me anymore. That of course only makes me feel worse about my life. It...
    SadLittlePunk SadLittlePunk 31-35 2 Responses Dec 6, 2008

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    I'd Like To

    I don't drink a lot but I wish I could drink to numb myself from the pain of being lonely. If I had the chance I would drink 24/7. It seems like things that happen good in my life always come to an end eventually. I'm just exausted with it happening. I just want to be able...
    tngurl25 tngurl25 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    KozGame KozGame 16-17, M 1 Response 17 hrs ago

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    At this point im just over feelings, when im in a good mood i know its only a matter of time till its destroyed, frustration and sadness i don't see their propose. I care about...
    kingphoenixx kingphoenixx 18-21, F 30 mins ago

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    sometimes I just like to have my drink in my own time and in my own peace and quiet
    boxersoff4u boxersoff4u 51-55, M 1 Response 15 hrs ago

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    In fact, I'm going drinking tonight. After working 57 straight hours, I'm ready for a few, then back to work for another 24 hours straight on Tuesday...
    quietfighter quietfighter 18-21, M 2 Responses 2 hrs ago

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    So this happened on this Friday (04.17.2015). I overdosed on sleeping pills and a few painkillers. I did it about 7.30am. I knew that my mom got out of work 12pm. I remember...
    effyjenkins effyjenkins 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 19

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    I wish I wasn't so hard on myself but I'm afraid if I stop I won't have any motivation to move forward. It's as if I have this real of all my shortcomings and it just plays again...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F 10 hrs ago

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    ive been able to say no to drinking very much alcohol for 2 years now but lately thats all i want now im scared cus i think im an alcoholic. im always craving it i always wana...
    arias831 arias831 22-25, M Apr 4

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    I am drinking to numb my thoughts
    tan999 tan999 36-40, F Apr 8

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    But first, because i am too Jewish, and can't stand wasting money, I will be drinking all the alcohol I currently possess in my house, planning to get shitfaced every night until...
    devourthebacon devourthebacon 31-35, M Apr 21

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    Sometimes all I want to do is cry. But then I realize that I can't. I just can't because im tired and bored of it. My eyes don't make tears and face muscles refuse to move. I don't...
    ithinkithink ithinkithink 26-30, F 5 Responses Apr 4

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    I have an addiction experience, and in my place, this is a very strange thing.... So, I couldn't tell anyone here about my addiction. I have told this to some people who can be...
    Muramasha Muramasha 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 21

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    more than i think i do . i hate myself because of how i am perceived . i hate myself to extent that i cant say why i do. i dont want to have friends because i dont want...
    lonesomedove80 lonesomedove80 31-35, F 3 Responses 15 hrs ago

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    Got home after work at 8:30 and went straight back out for some drink. Got home and had the house to myself to drink and drink and drown my sorrows. The occasional Baileys I used...
    pygmypuff pygmypuff 18-21, F 2 Responses Apr 4

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    It is such a horrible feeling of keeping a secret from your family and friends and bottling up, not sure how to slip it into a normal conversation and not ruin everyone's mood by...
    Daddysecretprincess Daddysecretprincess 18-21, F 1 Response 9 hrs ago

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    Once I almost killed myself on PURPOSE because I was so mad. At my parents (obviously) They took away my laptop and iPad because they didn't want me "staying up all night." I...
    ChocolateGirl04 ChocolateGirl04 13-15, F 1 Response 8 hrs ago

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    I'm ugly I have cancer I'm fat No one wants to e my friend And everything seems to be going wrong I don't have a million dollars to buy everything that I need I hate myself...
    Jusjellybean Jusjellybean 18-21, F 7 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    I had a good morning today and yes, I hate waking up because it's cold outside of the bed, but I was okay. I actually spent time with my mum and talked to her and went shopping...
    TunedOut TunedOut 16-17, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    After thinking about it for a long time, recently I have decided to stop drinking alcohol altogether. I have been drinking very infrequently for the past year because I very rarely...
    pixieowl pixieowl 26-30, F Apr 22

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    I'm socially anxious. Extremely so. After the final exam I was invited to this party, the guy hosting it was very nice. Anyway being me I arrived seeing a few people, some playing...
    aeinhardt aeinhardt 18-21, M Apr 24

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    Ive conditioned myself for hours and still unable to be completely numb to the things that trigger me. "Turn it off" , my humanity switch that causes me so much pain but Im just...
    Socalsunset Socalsunset 22-25, F Apr 19

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    Yesterday, again, i promised myself to not gamble... I even asked my best friend to come to my work a hour before i was finished so he could "watch over me" and not let me go...
    iamlostinmydreams iamlostinmydreams 31-35, M 1 Response Apr 4

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    1. I am creative. 2. I am sensitive emotionally. 3. I am into details and can express myself really well, some say I am rather eloquent and articulate. 4. I am very friendly... it...
    blankcheck4urhart blankcheck4urhart 36-40, F Apr 5

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    I am going through a lot right now. Trying to figure out who I am, what I believe, how to express myself, how to be comfortable in my own skin, & how to do all that without...
    saundra04 saundra04 26-30, F 6 Responses Apr 25

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    When I was a kid, it was my habit •~•... I was messed up back then... However, in my religion, it's not allowed to drink your own blood. I usually do it sometimes to stop...
    WolfsterTheWere WolfsterTheWere 13-15, M 6 days ago

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    0. Height? 1,63 cm. 1. Virgin? Eh... 2. Shoe size? 6 (USA standard). 3. Do you smoke? Nope 4. Do you drink? Um yeah, lots of water and soda. 5. Do you take drugs? When I'm sick. 6...
    AtLoss AtLoss 16-17, T 5 days ago

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    I was at a family gathering and I was wearing shorts. It was really hot and we were at a park . I was having a few bourbon and cokes and getting very relaxed. I didn't realize it...
    Beret Beret 51-55, M 4 Responses 6 hrs ago

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    It's been only one week since I was last depressed... And yet, so much has changed already! 😊 I feel like a completely different person. I'm so happy now!! I just wanted to say...
    fragilegirl6 fragilegirl6 13-15, F 5 hrs ago