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I Drink to Numb Myself

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    Tears of a Punk...

    When I drink, it's usually alone and usually because I can't handle how badly my life feels all the time. If I go out and drink with friends I usually end up crying, which is probably why nobody will drink with me anymore. That of course only makes me feel worse about my life. It...
    SadLittlePunk SadLittlePunk 31-35 2 Responses Dec 6, 2008

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    I drink to numb myself.

    Because I feel pain. Drinking just numbs the pain a little. It still hurts, but it hurts a little less. I am alone, but when I drink, it matters less. I want to flee. I want to escape. I don't want to see or feel what I see or feel. I want to disconnect from my feelings. When I...
    RichardAndon RichardAndon 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 18, 2014

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    I hate the feeling of being drunk,

    it's absolutely terrible. However, periodically... such as today; a flood of emotions gnawed away at my heart causing such pain and loneliness, this was a time for me to have a glass of wine and be done with the hurt. Perhaps, if I were in happier circumstances this "self...
    PlasticRobot PlasticRobot 36-40, F Dec 12, 2014

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    But That Takes A Lot

    I added this experience a while ago and never added the story until now. Since then I've changed my drinking habits a bit. I used to drink to numb myself. I found the pain was so strong, though, that it took an unbelieveably large amount of alcohol to get sufficiently numb. I...
    accomplice accomplice 46-50, M 4 Responses Jan 11, 2011

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    It's Part Of My Life But Doesn't Rule My Life

    I have been drinking alcohol almost everyday since i was 14 yrs old, i am now 34.I am not a true alcoholic in the sense that yes i do go to work all day ,and can actually go days, weeks or months without alcohol. i just choose NOT to go without. :)
    daro76 daro76 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 16, 2011

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    Oh No!

    i'm afraid this may become extreme alcoholism. and i don't think i can stop it.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2007

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    There Is Something Missing

    During my college years, I drank primarily for my enjoyment. Over the past year or so, I have found that I have used alcohol as a means of comforting myself. I know that I have a pretty good life, so I am not entirely sure why I need comforting. I have a feeling that there is...
    EvenFlow85 EvenFlow85 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 10, 2011

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    It helps dull the pain

    and numbs the feeling of lose
    Sufferedloss Sufferedloss 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 23, 2014

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    Yes, I Do...

    The first time I got drunk was when I was 19. I had so much confidence and my shyness was gone. Once I turned 20, I drank because I was irritated. Now, (since 21) I drink because I hate my life and have nothing going for me. I use dark humor and drinking to hide the deep pain...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 4 Responses Feb 28, 2011

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    I Have Recently

    been told that i was an alcoholic a few months back. i never thought my drinkin was serious. But turns out i was wrong. I still feel the need for drink but the lack of money stops me although every penny i get i usually save up for alcohol. It doesn't scare me...i just don't want...
    xXmissyXx xXmissyXx 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2007

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    I'd Like To

    I don't drink a lot but I wish I could drink to numb myself from the pain of being lonely. If I had the chance I would drink 24/7. It seems like things that happen good in my life always come to an end eventually. I'm just exausted with it happening. I just want to be able...
    tngurl25 tngurl25 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    Comfortably Numb

    When I drink… If I’m careful, I can lose myself in the spinning. In the weightlessness of unconscious. I can float, away from everything. Forget for a while. It’s a fine line. To not let the disconnect allow me to think about the things that I don’t...
    onceandfutureglow onceandfutureglow 31-35, F 8 Responses Jul 27, 2010

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    Use to

    That had to be the hardest thing in the world to do! I had to learn how to love me for me again!
    Mammy Mammy 36-40, F Mar 26, 2008

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    151 Bacardi Street

    im not too pleased with my life so i hit this dive bar frequently. i always shoot 151 straight when i go their. One day a buddy came in and wanted to do a shot of whatever i was having so he did 2 shots of 151 with me. Well i did 6 and played some pool. After the game he was...
    rorer714 rorer714 26-30, M Jan 28, 2013

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    Good Or Bad Feelings, I Just Want To Be Numb

    I drink regardless if my life is going incredibly well or if it's just horrible. I'm so used to being numb that any bit of extreme emotion is just too much for me. I will admit that I do like to drink, period and it's not just solely to be numb, but it's a huge part of it. I don...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    Wish It Lasted Longer

    When I don't want to cut but I need to cut, I drink. It calms things down and the anxiety fades. I just wish it was not a short term solution. If I cant make the anxiety go away, I can numb it at least.
    empleh empleh 26-30 Sep 10, 2010

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    I HAVE BECOME SO NUMB INSIDE.... I am tired of fighting what you want me to be for your own selfish needs...punishing me when I refuse to give in, feeling so faithless and...
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    I have grown up with pain from a father that i have never met. Only heard his voice one time and that is when he knew he was dying. Then got married a couple of times and have 3...
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    I never understood why people think drinking alone us bad although I believe it's because of the stereotype that when someone is drinking alone they are in sorrow. When I drink...
    late0 late0 18-21, M May 10

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    Yes...I am touching myself to the thought of you and it feels so effin' good. Mmmmmm If only...
    Angelxxox Angelxxox 18-21, F 14 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    sometimes i'm just overflowing with thoughts and feelings. and there's always that worry that absolutely nothing i say makes any sense. there's so much inside my head and i never...
    labyrinths6899 labyrinths6899 13-15, F 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    I'm 19 and no I don't smoke or drink. I feel like I can go out and enjoy myself without drink in my system. I've had lots of bad memories in the past to do with alcohol and family...
    aimsdisneyox aimsdisneyox 18-21, F 11 Responses 5 days ago

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    I'm here again tonight, just when i thought i should have by now feeling more better about myself after the short escape from the hermit shell i've been self-confined in - I'm not...
    jessycarcher jessycarcher 22-25, F May 9

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    Over this past year I've changed.The truth is I can hardly recognise myself,I'm almost a completely different person from before.I'm not really sure what triggered this change,it...
    MeAndMySelf98 MeAndMySelf98 16-17, M May 10

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                            The first time I'd seen the number, I thought it was coincidental. I was shocked, I guess...
    starbuddy starbuddy 18-21, F 1 Response May 16

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    The tears begin to roll, But the feelings are no longer there. They know when it's time to come, But my hurting soul can't muster, Any of the feeling, That it used to have...
    musicAndAnimeAreLove musicAndAnimeAreLove 13-15, F 2 Responses May 18

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    I set up a phone number with google voice and I text myself. Often. I'm my own BFF, lol :). I text myself things I would never tell anyone else. I have to say it's totally...
    beesknees12 beesknees12 41-45, F 10 Responses May 7

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    Well, i joined this site because I found some people that had similar experiences to mine. So My story has to do with my embarrassing moments of what I do when I drink. Last night...
    Ecnfl Ecnfl 18-21, M May 17

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    Keep finding myself drinking alone. And loving every second of it. It seems the less I care the better I feel.
    Lynnd520 Lynnd520 18-21, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    The problem with me is that I don't give people the attention they need. And then they go on to hate me and think I'm self centered but really I can't control myself. I don't know...
    hecknope hecknope 16-17, F 1 Response May 2

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    My dad. Began drinking after law school. Me suspects fear of not good enough. Mom kicked him out. Said come back with a job. He got a mistress. And left mom. When he...
    convertihd convertihd 46-50, M 1 Response May 4

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    For some reason i walked into class one day and my mind wouldn't stop thinking, The math page was half blank and the teachers almost looked pissed off. But i quickly flipped over...
    DriftingLeaf DriftingLeaf 18-21, F May 18

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    Today was hard I force myself to be this person everyone expects me to be I went out saw people got drunk but the feeling on the inside is still the same. I smiled whipped my hair...
    00Broken00 00Broken00 18-21, F a week ago

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    it makes me calm down, forget all my problems. i get really happy. i had stopped drinking for 2 yrs because the girl i was with didnt like me drinking and because i was becoming a...
    arias831 arias831 22-25, M 2 Responses May 6

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    I was done being told that I didn't know who I was. I was not accepted and my beliefs were attacked with false proof. I got criticized for my work before it was completed and have...
    decimatedxdreams decimatedxdreams 18-21, F 1 Response May 7

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    I was so skinny, flat stomach and a size zero not long ago. But I love eating and drinking wine. It has caught up with me for sure! I've definitely let myself go. Let's see how far...
    missimo missimo 26-30, F 2 Responses May 11

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    Not on purpose. When I was twelve I went to a Halloween party at my friend's house, and his older brother bought us all beer. I gave myself alcohol poisoning and spent almost two...
    TGBman TGBman 22-25, M May 13

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    EmmaOnAcid EmmaOnAcid 18-21, F 1 Response May 13

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