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I Drink to Numb Myself

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    It helps dull the pain

    and numbs the feeling of lose
    Sufferedloss Sufferedloss 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 23, 2014

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    Comfortably Numb

    When I drink… If I’m careful, I can lose myself in the spinning. In the weightlessness of unconscious. I can float, away from everything. Forget for a while. It’s a fine line. To not let the disconnect allow me to think about the things that I don’t...
    onceandfutureglow onceandfutureglow 31-35, F 8 Responses Jul 27, 2010

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    But That Takes A Lot

    I added this experience a while ago and never added the story until now. Since then I've changed my drinking habits a bit. I used to drink to numb myself. I found the pain was so strong, though, that it took an unbelieveably large amount of alcohol to get sufficiently numb. I...
    accomplice accomplice 46-50, M 4 Responses Jan 11, 2011

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    I hate the feeling of being drunk,

    it's absolutely terrible. However, periodically... such as today; a flood of emotions gnawed away at my heart causing such pain and loneliness, this was a time for me to have a glass of wine and be done with the hurt. Perhaps, if I were in happier circumstances this "self...
    PlasticRobot PlasticRobot 36-40, F Dec 12, 2014

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    Oh No!

    i'm afraid this may become extreme alcoholism. and i don't think i can stop it.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2007

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    Tears of a Punk...

    When I drink, it's usually alone and usually because I can't handle how badly my life feels all the time. If I go out and drink with friends I usually end up crying, which is probably why nobody will drink with me anymore. That of course only makes me feel worse about my life. It...
    SadLittlePunk SadLittlePunk 31-35 2 Responses Dec 6, 2008

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    Use to

    That had to be the hardest thing in the world to do! I had to learn how to love me for me again!
    Mammy Mammy 36-40, F Mar 26, 2008

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    I'd Like To

    I don't drink a lot but I wish I could drink to numb myself from the pain of being lonely. If I had the chance I would drink 24/7. It seems like things that happen good in my life always come to an end eventually. I'm just exausted with it happening. I just want to be able...
    tngurl25 tngurl25 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    Wish It Lasted Longer

    When I don't want to cut but I need to cut, I drink. It calms things down and the anxiety fades. I just wish it was not a short term solution. If I cant make the anxiety go away, I can numb it at least.
    empleh empleh 26-30 Sep 10, 2010

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    I Have Recently

    been told that i was an alcoholic a few months back. i never thought my drinkin was serious. But turns out i was wrong. I still feel the need for drink but the lack of money stops me although every penny i get i usually save up for alcohol. It doesn't scare me...i just don't want...
    xXmissyXx xXmissyXx 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2007

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    There Is Something Missing

    During my college years, I drank primarily for my enjoyment. Over the past year or so, I have found that I have used alcohol as a means of comforting myself. I know that I have a pretty good life, so I am not entirely sure why I need comforting. I have a feeling that there is...
    EvenFlow85 EvenFlow85 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 10, 2011

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    151 Bacardi Street

    im not too pleased with my life so i hit this dive bar frequently. i always shoot 151 straight when i go their. One day a buddy came in and wanted to do a shot of whatever i was having so he did 2 shots of 151 with me. Well i did 6 and played some pool. After the game he was...
    rorer714 rorer714 26-30, M Jan 28, 2013

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    Good Or Bad Feelings, I Just Want To Be Numb

    I drink regardless if my life is going incredibly well or if it's just horrible. I'm so used to being numb that any bit of extreme emotion is just too much for me. I will admit that I do like to drink, period and it's not just solely to be numb, but it's a huge part of it. I don...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    Yes, I Do...

    The first time I got drunk was when I was 19. I had so much confidence and my shyness was gone. Once I turned 20, I drank because I was irritated. Now, (since 21) I drink because I hate my life and have nothing going for me. I use dark humor and drinking to hide the deep pain...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 4 Responses Feb 28, 2011

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    I drink to numb myself.

    Because I feel pain. Drinking just numbs the pain a little. It still hurts, but it hurts a little less. I am alone, but when I drink, it matters less. I want to flee. I want to escape. I don't want to see or feel what I see or feel. I want to disconnect from my feelings. When I...
    RichardAndon RichardAndon 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 18, 2014

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    It's Part Of My Life But Doesn't Rule My Life

    I have been drinking alcohol almost everyday since i was 14 yrs old, i am now 34.I am not a true alcoholic in the sense that yes i do go to work all day ,and can actually go days, weeks or months without alcohol. i just choose NOT to go without. :)
    daro76 daro76 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 16, 2011

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    Alcohol seems to be a problem for me at the moment. I'll have a drink during the week nothing to heavy but ok the weekends I've been terrible. Last night I went out with friends...
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    Another boring day and night. So drinking alone
    Averageguy41011 Averageguy41011 41-45, M 1 Response 2 hrs ago

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    In my past I was seeing a man who already had a girlfriend. In other words I was "The other woman" I was young , stupid , naive and inlove. I trusted this man. I spent THREE years...
    xBambi xBambi 22-25, F 2 hrs ago

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    I feel really bad about myself and I live with people that don't even care to try and help me they all make me feel worse about myself an I don't really have anyone to talk to
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    I love touching myself when I often wear my spandex. Seems like my spandex gives me extra sensitivity when I touch myself or someone else touches me. Do girls feel the same way?
    swimguy0812 swimguy0812 22-25, M 3 hrs ago

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    I decided to stop judging myself .. I've been doing it a lot and I think that what keeps my experience with my x-best friend still painful and hanged on. Now on .. whenever I see...
    StrongWoman9 StrongWoman9 26-30, F 4 hrs ago

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    I keep so many things to myself I doubt anyone truly knows my whole story or my attitude or what I do alone or why I text so much or don't fight back when I have a lot to say I...
    Singingbutterfly Singingbutterfly 13-15, F 4 hrs ago

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    Time to time, probably being more frequent than it should be. Today's choice, Heineken. Some captain morgan, spiced rum and orange juice (actually delicious) and I finished the...
    HeyIThappens HeyIThappens 18-21, M 4 hrs ago

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    Many people tell me I have to speak open to people. I know it helps, when u cut, but I'm afraid of that. I sp poo keep about it with a guy from EP and he said he will keep for him...
    LaurenMalik LaurenMalik 18-21, F 4 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    Number eight forever and always
    TheGirlYouNeverKnew TheGirlYouNeverKnew 18-21, F 5 hrs ago

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    Okay, so a person I have known and liked for a loooong time finally gave me his number at camp. The only problem was, he didn't have pencil or paper. So what did he use? A good old...
    ILiveWithTheDamned ILiveWithTheDamned 13-15, F 7 hrs ago

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    Not being confident enough to express how I feel, open up an idea, share an opinion, set my boundaries. Feels friggin weak huh? I do hate this part of myself and it does get to me...
    WokenandOpen WokenandOpen 31-35, M 12 hrs ago

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    This is what happened after I stopped dating for two years now. I've been in a relationship for a year and six months before I realized that I needed space. My partner needed it...
    officialwanderer officialwanderer 18-21, F 13 hrs ago

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    I believe that drinking a lot of water is a lot better than drinking a lot of soda during the hot summer months. I know that a lot of people like the taste of soda but I know for a...
    jillmyers91901 jillmyers91901 13-15, F 21 hrs ago

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    I was desperate for a night out so I made my own. A band plays in a parking lot close to my house. From my front porch I can hear the music, sometimes it's OK, sometimes it isn't...
    Rae1983 Rae1983 31-35, F 1 day ago

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    I weigh 260 at just under 5 foot. I am morbidly obese. I am calorie restricting at 500 calories a day with moderate exercise and whenever I'm hungry I drink a glass of water and...
    Kimi0 Kimi0 18-21, F 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    I did it to my right arm it wasn't deep to the bone but enough to leave a nasty mark. I was 18 at the time. I was in a middle of a brawl (big group fight) I was by myself and out...
    WokenandOpen WokenandOpen 31-35, M 2 days ago

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    When I first started drinking I drove drunk. I crashed. I was sick about it. Nobody got hurt but they could have ya know? I could have hit someone. I hated myself. When you're...
    wordsonascreen wordsonascreen 18-21, M 3 Responses 2 days ago

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    Feasting and Drinking Wine at The China Buffet With the end of the month of July coming my best female friend Linda and I are going to celebrate a great summer month together by...
    BlueJeanedPrincess BlueJeanedPrincess 56-60, F 3 days ago

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    Just last week I wrote a story about hating myself which I have deleted. I'm big, 222 pounds on a small 5 foot frame. Yes, I'm morbidly obese. However, I eat healthy & I work out...
    purplepumpkin17 purplepumpkin17 16-17, F 6 Responses 4 days ago

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    I am on a mission every day to become a better version of myself. Yesterday I felt a huge sense of accomplishment. I have about five major goals. Get my health in order, get my...
    honestlyanonymouslyme honestlyanonymouslyme 22-25, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I dont even know where to start. When I was young I know im different from other kids. I was more mature and kept things to myself instead of crying and ask for what I need/want. I...
    Meow1121 Meow1121 22-25, F 3 Responses 6 days ago

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    Strong22 Strong22 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    1) I taught myself to be ambidextrous. 2) I was in foster care for 12 years. 3) I've had 2 boyfriends. 4) I've never dyed my hair 5) I can't cross my eyes. 6) I've met a famous...
    misskp misskp 22-25, F 6 days ago

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    well I try to anyways but when i start up I find myself on social media looking for people to come drink with lol
    MyraTomPhil MyraTomPhil 26-30 1 Response Jul 25

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