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I Drink to Numb Myself

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    Tears of a Punk...

    When I drink, it's usually alone and usually because I can't handle how badly my life feels all the time. If I go out and drink with friends I usually end up crying, which is probably why nobody will drink with me anymore. That of course only makes me feel worse about my life. It...
    SadLittlePunk SadLittlePunk 31-35 2 Responses Dec 6, 2008

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    I'd Like To

    I don't drink a lot but I wish I could drink to numb myself from the pain of being lonely. If I had the chance I would drink 24/7. It seems like things that happen good in my life always come to an end eventually. I'm just exausted with it happening. I just want to be able...
    tngurl25 tngurl25 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    I Have Recently

    been told that i was an alcoholic a few months back. i never thought my drinkin was serious. But turns out i was wrong. I still feel the need for drink but the lack of money stops me although every penny i get i usually save up for alcohol. It doesn't scare me...i just don't want...
    xXmissyXx xXmissyXx 16-18, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2007

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    Yes, I Do...

    The first time I got drunk was when I was 19. I had so much confidence and my shyness was gone. Once I turned 20, I drank because I was irritated. Now, (since 21) I drink because I hate my life and have nothing going for me. I use dark humor and drinking to hide the deep pain...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 4 Responses Feb 28, 2011

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    But That Takes A Lot

    I added this experience a while ago and never added the story until now. Since then I've changed my drinking habits a bit. I used to drink to numb myself. I found the pain was so strong, though, that it took an unbelieveably large amount of alcohol to get sufficiently numb. I...
    accomplice accomplice 41-45, M 4 Responses Jan 11, 2011

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    It helps dull the pain

    and numbs the feeling of lose
    Sufferedloss Sufferedloss 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 23

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    Being without vodka for 2 whole days-pay going

    through in a few hours. Feel like their are bugs crawling all over me whilst waiting for my pay to go in :(
    skye1984red skye1984red 26-30, F 1 Response Feb 23

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    Comfortably Numb

    When I drink… If I’m careful, I can lose myself in the spinning. In the weightlessness of unconscious. I can float, away from everything. Forget for a while. It’s a fine line. To not let the disconnect allow me to think about the things that I don’t...
    onceandfutureglow onceandfutureglow 31-35, F 8 Responses Jul 27, 2010

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    Oh No!

    i'm afraid this may become extreme alcoholism. and i don't think i can stop it.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2007

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    Wish It Lasted Longer

    When I don't want to cut but I need to cut, I drink. It calms things down and the anxiety fades. I just wish it was not a short term solution. If I cant make the anxiety go away, I can numb it at least.
    empleh empleh 26-30 Sep 10, 2010

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    Use to

    That had to be the hardest thing in the world to do! I had to learn how to love me for me again!
    Mammy Mammy 36-40, F Mar 26, 2008

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    151 Bacardi Street

    im not too pleased with my life so i hit this dive bar frequently. i always shoot 151 straight when i go their. One day a buddy came in and wanted to do a shot of whatever i was having so he did 2 shots of 151 with me. Well i did 6 and played some pool. After the game he was...
    rorer714 rorer714 26-30, M Jan 28, 2013

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    I can't believe I'm actually writing a story while sober! Anyhow, I just realized something. I actually ENJOY drinking alone. I've always thought I drink alone due to circumstances...
    Forget2Trust Forget2Trust 26-30, F 4 Responses Mar 31

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    Ever since this girl first walked into our school for the first time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I know I probably wasn't the only one gazing at her beauty. Through my...
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    I feel sick. I've been drinking these last 2 days, with friends. 2 years ago I had a problem with alcohol and EP helped me to reset myself. I'm good to get back on the right road...
    CrookedMat CrookedMat 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 28

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    Tonight I went a liit further than normal. I wanted to full on abuse myself. I tied my ankles together and then I put a belt snug around my neck, sat on the floor and tied it to...
    innerself000 innerself000 18-21 Apr 4

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    I am pathetic. My emotions are consuming me. I just wanted to end it. Yet, the unsteady hand of the blade could not cut. As hard as i tried to move it closer to my pale flesh, the...
    NotTheOnlyOne23 NotTheOnlyOne23 16-17, F 2 Responses Apr 9

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    It was my first time yesterday. It was so crazy and bad.. and know what's worse? It's our graduation the next day which is today. Good thing I still manage to control myself.. I...
    SesshomaruDemonLord SesshomaruDemonLord 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 21

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    Pinch me, I'm dreaming. It's become a nightmare, a living hell. 3 months ago I was the happiest person I felt I could have possibly been. I had friends, I went to a better school...
    hopecatcher hopecatcher 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 28

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    My fight against drinking is going fine, I've been in 5 bars during the week-end without drinking a drop of beer. I know I will taste it again, because I am not addicted to it, and...
    CrookedMat CrookedMat 26-30, M 1 Response Apr 1

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    I ruined something amazing. It's a long story but I'll start on the night that we met. We'll just call him dd coz he was supposed to be the dd. Anyway, I was really drunk and didn...
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    I enjoy drinking every once in a while at parties I try not to get drunk just get a nice buzz I never think of myself as an alcoholic since I rarely drink and never get drunk but...
    Sheslikethewind Sheslikethewind 18-21, F 3 Responses Apr 3

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    Let me just admit.. I associate drinking with 'feeling better' emotionally. I got drunk last night and made a total ******* fool out of myself. I texted a friend I miss and told...
    freeebird freeebird 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    Perpetually alone... wine numbs the emptiness...
    hippiechick333 hippiechick333 46-50, F 9 Responses Apr 6

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    I could write a 30,000 word prose of why I am depressed and why life has led me to the way I feel right now. But none of that really matters. It doesn't matter what life...
    Isabel13 Isabel13 18-21, F 3 Responses Mar 22

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    Okay everybody I'm going to give you guys my phone number so you won't have to message me for it! :) It's going to be hidden with the words so look VERY carefully. I hope you know...
    SammieSweetheart687 SammieSweetheart687 18-21, F 1 Response Mar 27

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    ok... I quit. I decided, I quit drinking. This year has begun in such a bad way. Maybe is the reason because I'm drinking that much, but the problem is that I don't know. I don't...
    CrookedMat CrookedMat 26-30, M 3 Responses Mar 28

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    Kay, so a while back my parents got divorced. It was sad but i got to so them both sense they lived in the same state. I was okay. I have decided to go to school in my dads city...
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    I am 15 years old and I want to die.. I've been depressed since a young age. When I was in my mothers stomach my real father tried killing me a number of times... Then after I was...
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    That silence that was now surrounding us was beautiful. It consumed the air and filled the spaces that had been filled with the stress that had taken up the day before. It...
    MeAndMyMarine MeAndMyMarine 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 1

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    ( Short story: Prologue) My last hope Everything stops. Times stands still. There he lies on the cold ground. Here I’m standing just staring down as death whispers on the end...
    TweDee TweDee 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 21

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    today is one of those days... I've been drinking all day yesterday, party, friends, girls... but today.. oh my God I feel like ****. I left my car near my house because I was too...
    CrookedMat CrookedMat 26-30, M 2 Responses Mar 23

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    Why is this so hard for people to accept? I don't drink, I have very good reasons why I don't drink yet people still push this on me over and over. It's like they can't fathom that...
    QueenAwesomePants QueenAwesomePants 36-40, F 78 Responses Mar 24

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    I need to find myself. Those were the words she spoke to me the morning she left me to find herself. I will never forget the irony of that moment – it was a beautiful Monday...
    Ricky2701 Ricky2701 18-21, M Apr 10

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    1. This should have been my "I Am a New Member..." post.2. I was born and raised in Saudi Arabia.3. I moved to California for college.4. I finished undergrad in New Jersey.5. I...
    thisaintlove thisaintlove 22-25, F 2 Responses a week ago

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    Sometimes I talk to myself, and most would call me crazy. I disagree. It helps me get my thoughts out. It helps me clear my mind of anxiety. I just think outloud is all. I'm sure...
    Forget2Trust Forget2Trust 26-30, F 6 Responses Apr 2

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    yesterday I couldn't help myself, I was just so down and I had no idea what about. I needed to feel my own body again I guess. everyday I feel so numb to the world around me.
    thelostgirl25 thelostgirl25 22-25, F Mar 22

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    i drANK once from drinking beer,not my idea,my brother and his friends got me lit up,playing coin toss,of coarse i missed all the shots,im a girl,so i had to drink alllllll of them...
    debra15 debra15 22-25, F Apr 2

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    I can't hold my liquor anyway but I don't like the taste of alcohol. My parents have given me possibly every drink in the world and its disgusting. Even after mixing it up with...
    blackxrosexyuuki blackxrosexyuuki 18-21, F 1 Response Apr 4

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    So last night I went for a meal with friends and decided that I didn't want to go home at the reasonable hour everyone else did, this meant I went to another bar by myself (luckily...
    Daisy15951 Daisy15951 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 5

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    EmptyAgain EmptyAgain 16-17, F Apr 5

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    bulimicbixtch49 bulimicbixtch49 13-15, F 1 Response Apr 6

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    I usually drink alone til I pass out watching horror movies or whatever else is on tv. Then the cycle repeats and we do it all again. I'm not much of a social party type drinker I...
    PeaceWontLast PeaceWontLast 31-35, M 3 Responses 4 days ago

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    The little red metal number dispenser. The digital display of numbers on the wall. "26?" HERE!
    jeresey jeresey 56-60, F 1 Response Mar 29

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