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I Drink to Numb Myself

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    Oh No!

    i'm afraid this may become extreme alcoholism. and i don't think i can stop it.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2007

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    There Is Something Missing

    During my college years, I drank primarily for my enjoyment. Over the past year or so, I have found that I have used alcohol as a means of comforting myself. I know that I have a pretty good life, so I am not entirely sure why I need comforting. I have a feeling that there is...
    EvenFlow85 EvenFlow85 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 10, 2011

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    Use to

    That had to be the hardest thing in the world to do! I had to learn how to love me for me again!
    Mammy Mammy 36-40, F Mar 26, 2008

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    Good Or Bad Feelings, I Just Want To Be Numb

    I drink regardless if my life is going incredibly well or if it's just horrible. I'm so used to being numb that any bit of extreme emotion is just too much for me. I will admit that I do like to drink, period and it's not just solely to be numb, but it's a huge part of it. I don...
    orchidlove23 orchidlove23 22-25, F 2 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    Yes, I Do...

    The first time I got drunk was when I was 19. I had so much confidence and my shyness was gone. Once I turned 20, I drank because I was irritated. Now, (since 21) I drink because I hate my life and have nothing going for me. I use dark humor and drinking to hide the deep pain...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 4 Responses Feb 28, 2011

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    I Have Recently

    been told that i was an alcoholic a few months back. i never thought my drinkin was serious. But turns out i was wrong. I still feel the need for drink but the lack of money stops me although every penny i get i usually save up for alcohol. It doesn't scare me...i just don't want...
    xXmissyXx xXmissyXx 16-18, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2007

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    I drink to numb myself.

    Because I feel pain. Drinking just numbs the pain a little. It still hurts, but it hurts a little less. I am alone, but when I drink, it matters less. I want to flee. I want to escape. I don't want to see or feel what I see or feel. I want to disconnect from my feelings. When I...
    klokenweb klokenweb 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 18

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    It's Part Of My Life But Doesn't Rule My Life

    I have been drinking alcohol almost everyday since i was 14 yrs old, i am now 34.I am not a true alcoholic in the sense that yes i do go to work all day ,and can actually go days, weeks or months without alcohol. i just choose NOT to go without. :)
    daro76 daro76 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 16, 2011

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    Comfortably Numb

    When I drink… If I’m careful, I can lose myself in the spinning. In the weightlessness of unconscious. I can float, away from everything. Forget for a while. It’s a fine line. To not let the disconnect allow me to think about the things that I don’t...
    onceandfutureglow onceandfutureglow 31-35, F 8 Responses Jul 27, 2010

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    I'd Like To

    I don't drink a lot but I wish I could drink to numb myself from the pain of being lonely. If I had the chance I would drink 24/7. It seems like things that happen good in my life always come to an end eventually. I'm just exausted with it happening. I just want to be able...
    tngurl25 tngurl25 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    151 Bacardi Street

    im not too pleased with my life so i hit this dive bar frequently. i always shoot 151 straight when i go their. One day a buddy came in and wanted to do a shot of whatever i was having so he did 2 shots of 151 with me. Well i did 6 and played some pool. After the game he was...
    rorer714 rorer714 26-30, M Jan 28, 2013

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    It helps dull the pain

    and numbs the feeling of lose
    Sufferedloss Sufferedloss 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 23

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    But That Takes A Lot

    I added this experience a while ago and never added the story until now. Since then I've changed my drinking habits a bit. I used to drink to numb myself. I found the pain was so strong, though, that it took an unbelieveably large amount of alcohol to get sufficiently numb. I...
    accomplice accomplice 41-45, M 4 Responses Jan 11, 2011

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    Tears of a Punk...

    When I drink, it's usually alone and usually because I can't handle how badly my life feels all the time. If I go out and drink with friends I usually end up crying, which is probably why nobody will drink with me anymore. That of course only makes me feel worse about my life. It...
    SadLittlePunk SadLittlePunk 31-35 2 Responses Dec 6, 2008

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    Wish It Lasted Longer

    When I don't want to cut but I need to cut, I drink. It calms things down and the anxiety fades. I just wish it was not a short term solution. If I cant make the anxiety go away, I can numb it at least.
    empleh empleh 26-30 Sep 10, 2010

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    Do not mourn for me, You have your work, I have my world. My vessel has not become empty To fill it is my mission. I shall be pleased If anybody keeps waiting Anxiously for...
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    I wrote 50 random facts about myself last night. and i'm bored so i'm going to write another 50. so um yea... here we go. 51- I have met a lot of bands. 52- 90% of my wardrobe...
    sugarcakes143 sugarcakes143 18-21, F Jul 28

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    I don't drink much... hahaha Yeah, seriously! I'm a nervous person, when I drink, I calm down, my brain gets slower and I get numb. It's a good sensation depending on the drink...
    Allaloneandpoisoned Allaloneandpoisoned 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 10

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    I feel claustrophobic in my own skin. I don't want to be me anymore. I honestly don't know how people go through life "happy" because for me life is literally just hard. It's hard...
    marisolitude marisolitude 22-25, F 3 Responses Jul 25

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    I enjoy having a drink occasionally with friends / colleagues. No I don't drink very often so when I do I like to enjoy myself... What makes this difficult is having a partner...
    Mysticme Mysticme 26-30, F Aug 1

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    I have been sober for one year, seven months, and 27 days. One wouldn't think that I would still struggle not to drink but sometimes I do. Most sober people I meet, or...
    sober79 sober79 41-45, M 1 Response Aug 11

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    I think I drink to much but when I do I feel happier & seem to be able to express myself better without so much worry about being misunderstood or rejected. I'm trying not to drink...
    xox0xox xox0xox 36-40, F 1 Response 3 days ago

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    I am a 49 year old woman and have had issues with alcohol since I was in my twenties. I have gone long periods without drinking but when I start again, it quickly spirals out of...
    Ysabel2 Ysabel2 46-50, F 1 Response Jul 28

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    The other day at work I had an epiphany that I really truly love myself. I was thinking of a party that I went to..my first one. I refused to drink any alcohol when all of my best...
    londontravella londontravella 18-21, F Jul 29

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    In bed touching myself. Feels so good
    lemtb lemtb 36-40, M 2 Responses 3 hrs ago

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    I need help. I drink way too much. It's going to kill me if I don't stop. I have a perfect life and lovey husband and kids. I have a good job and lovely home. But I can't stop...
    daisybell7 daisybell7 36-40, F 2 Responses Jul 26

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    Nothing was alive with him. Neither was anything dead. Everything was calm and everything was a rage. He'd make me feel lost in his pool of love while I lose myself in a sea of...
    MoonMusicLover22 MoonMusicLover22 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 11

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    The day my love, and his sister found out I was dating her man. It started when she was in bed, and my love was at work and he came into my room, smoked a good one, and I was...
    Activelife Activelife 22-25, F 1 day ago

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    Thripple six, you see that number in so many movies, books and songlyrics but people don't even know what that number actually means. The media tells us that it's the number of...
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    I have been seeing repeated numbers for over fifteen years. The numbers that come up again and again for me are 10:10, 11:11, 12:12, 333, 444, 555 and 777. My cat often wakes me up...
    777Brad 777Brad 56-60, M 2 Responses Jul 25

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    I make myself drink a glass of water every time before I eat (including snacks). I read that this is supposed to help with weight loss. I don't know if it's working but my skin...
    restitutor restitutor 22-25, F Jul 25

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    I drink blood because It is salty to me and I cut myself so I can drink my blood hail Satan
    Demonicperson666 Demonicperson666 22-25, M 16 hrs ago

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    I have never really been much of a drinker. I didn't have my first drink until I was 16 and I got a bit tipsy. Even at social events, I don't have an alcoholic beverage. I...
    Gemz2411 Gemz2411 18-21, F 2 Responses Aug 1

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    Okay, so my boyfriend ask me out on 3/23/09. And we broke up on 4/20/12 but got back together 8/1/13. But while we were broken up, apparently we both kept seeing the number 23...
    nmey94 nmey94 18-21, F Aug 4

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    I drink alone. I do so all the time. To be perfectly honest, i prefer drinking alone to drinking in the presence of other people. I simply don't see what the issue is. It is a...
    Lullacus Lullacus 18-21, F 1 Response Aug 11

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    I think we both know I'm a mess So very lost, so very clueless. I dwell upon the past. I dwell upon the tiniest of things Searching for faults For reasons that you will leave I...
    NeverForgeIt NeverForgeIt 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 12

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    laurenlo82 laurenlo82 31-35, F 1 Response 5 days ago

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    I don't usually cut myself. I'm not a cutter. But I hurt my mom again, and it's not right I know but I should've controlled myself, not felt angry. I have a lot of problems with my...
    kxCobra kxCobra 18-21, F 4 Responses Jul 29

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    We all get to a point in life, when we realize that life is not fair at all, most people realize that when they are teenagers, but that's not my case. I was born in a really...
    DeniedWings DeniedWings 18-21, M 2 Responses Aug 5

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    Yes I drink energy drinks. My main choice is monster. But I don't drink them for energy. They calm me. My mind works harder then it normal. Not thesame way ADD or ADHD does to a...
    fallenzero fallenzero 22-25, M 1 Response Aug 6

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    Somehow I eat healthy & exercise. I don't drink , I don't smoke. I need to cut down on coffee. I have 6 cups a day & sometimes decaf at night. I'm terrible for snacking @ night. I...
    baraccio baraccio 26-30, M 2 Responses Aug 6

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    sweetberries sweetberries 41-45, F 1 day ago

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