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I Drink to Numb Myself

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    But That Takes A Lot

    I added this experience a while ago and never added the story until now. Since then I've changed my drinking habits a bit. I used to drink to numb myself. I found the pain was so strong, though, that it took an unbelieveably large amount of alcohol to get sufficiently numb. I...
    accomplice accomplice 41-45, M 4 Responses Jan 11, 2011

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    It helps dull the pain

    and numbs the feeling of lose
    Sufferedloss Sufferedloss 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 23, 2014

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    Use to

    That had to be the hardest thing in the world to do! I had to learn how to love me for me again!
    Mammy Mammy 36-40, F Mar 26, 2008

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    I'd Like To

    I don't drink a lot but I wish I could drink to numb myself from the pain of being lonely. If I had the chance I would drink 24/7. It seems like things that happen good in my life always come to an end eventually. I'm just exausted with it happening. I just want to be able...
    tngurl25 tngurl25 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    Good Or Bad Feelings, I Just Want To Be Numb

    I drink regardless if my life is going incredibly well or if it's just horrible. I'm so used to being numb that any bit of extreme emotion is just too much for me. I will admit that I do like to drink, period and it's not just solely to be numb, but it's a huge part of it. I don...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    I hate the feeling of being drunk,

    it's absolutely terrible. However, periodically... such as today; a flood of emotions gnawed away at my heart causing such pain and loneliness, this was a time for me to have a glass of wine and be done with the hurt. Perhaps, if I were in happier circumstances this "self...
    PlasticRobot PlasticRobot 36-40, F Dec 12, 2014

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    Tears of a Punk...

    When I drink, it's usually alone and usually because I can't handle how badly my life feels all the time. If I go out and drink with friends I usually end up crying, which is probably why nobody will drink with me anymore. That of course only makes me feel worse about my life. It...
    SadLittlePunk SadLittlePunk 31-35 2 Responses Dec 6, 2008

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    Oh No!

    i'm afraid this may become extreme alcoholism. and i don't think i can stop it.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2007

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    I drink to numb myself.

    Because I feel pain. Drinking just numbs the pain a little. It still hurts, but it hurts a little less. I am alone, but when I drink, it matters less. I want to flee. I want to escape. I don't want to see or feel what I see or feel. I want to disconnect from my feelings. When I...
    RichardAndon RichardAndon 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 18, 2014

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    Yes, I Do...

    The first time I got drunk was when I was 19. I had so much confidence and my shyness was gone. Once I turned 20, I drank because I was irritated. Now, (since 21) I drink because I hate my life and have nothing going for me. I use dark humor and drinking to hide the deep pain...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 4 Responses Feb 28, 2011

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    It's Part Of My Life But Doesn't Rule My Life

    I have been drinking alcohol almost everyday since i was 14 yrs old, i am now 34.I am not a true alcoholic in the sense that yes i do go to work all day ,and can actually go days, weeks or months without alcohol. i just choose NOT to go without. :)
    daro76 daro76 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 16, 2011

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    151 Bacardi Street

    im not too pleased with my life so i hit this dive bar frequently. i always shoot 151 straight when i go their. One day a buddy came in and wanted to do a shot of whatever i was having so he did 2 shots of 151 with me. Well i did 6 and played some pool. After the game he was...
    rorer714 rorer714 26-30, M Jan 28, 2013

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    I Have Recently

    been told that i was an alcoholic a few months back. i never thought my drinkin was serious. But turns out i was wrong. I still feel the need for drink but the lack of money stops me although every penny i get i usually save up for alcohol. It doesn't scare me...i just don't want...
    xXmissyXx xXmissyXx 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2007

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    Wish It Lasted Longer

    When I don't want to cut but I need to cut, I drink. It calms things down and the anxiety fades. I just wish it was not a short term solution. If I cant make the anxiety go away, I can numb it at least.
    empleh empleh 26-30 Sep 10, 2010

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    Comfortably Numb

    When I drink… If I’m careful, I can lose myself in the spinning. In the weightlessness of unconscious. I can float, away from everything. Forget for a while. It’s a fine line. To not let the disconnect allow me to think about the things that I don’t...
    onceandfutureglow onceandfutureglow 31-35, F 8 Responses Jul 27, 2010

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    There Is Something Missing

    During my college years, I drank primarily for my enjoyment. Over the past year or so, I have found that I have used alcohol as a means of comforting myself. I know that I have a pretty good life, so I am not entirely sure why I need comforting. I have a feeling that there is...
    EvenFlow85 EvenFlow85 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 10, 2011

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    it makes me calm down, forget all my problems. i get really happy. i had stopped drinking for 2 yrs because the girl i was with didnt like me drinking and because i was becoming a...
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    I like to sneak martini and Rossi from my parents fridge. I drink it a little here, and I drink it a little there. I sneak things.
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    So this happened on this Friday (04.17.2015). I overdosed on sleeping pills and a few painkillers. I did it about 7.30am. I knew that my mom got out of work 12pm. I remember...
    effyjenkins effyjenkins 13-15, F 3 Responses Apr 19

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    I have made this profile few days ago with a decision to face my fears of socialization and gain some insight in my own along with other people's similar problems. At first I...
    LFSomething LFSomething 22-25, M 1 Response 4 hrs ago

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    I am drinking to numb my thoughts
    tan999 tan999 36-40, F Apr 8

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    But first, because i am too Jewish, and can't stand wasting money, I will be drinking all the alcohol I currently possess in my house, planning to get shitfaced every night until...
    devourthebacon devourthebacon 31-35, M Apr 21

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    I have an addiction experience, and in my place, this is a very strange thing.... So, I couldn't tell anyone here about my addiction. I have told this to some people who can be...
    Muramasha Muramasha 26-30, F 1 Response Apr 21

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    i dont know what to do i think im spirling downwards. im a failure and i just want to give up. ill never make it into college i know people dont care about that stuff bc of...
    JannieL3 JannieL3 16-17, F 22 hrs ago

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    The demons. They win again. They take over my whole self. My whole being. They push away others. They manifest themselves deep in my mind. They turn those who are trying to help me...
    Alexz72 Alexz72 22-25, F 1 Response 5 hrs ago

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    I've always had trouble with my self-esteem and base it too much on winning the approval of others. Because I always view myself as needing to have something to offer other people...
    brianwmc9 brianwmc9 22-25, M 2 Responses 4 hrs ago

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    I hate everything about me. I have a shy and nice personality and because of that people think of me as a pushover. I hate the way my body looks and how ugly my face is. I am very...
    atr7887 atr7887 26-30, M 1 Response 20 hrs ago

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    If you are a friend of mine.. You hit me once I will silently forgive you. You hit me for the second time ill forgive you again but guilt trip you a little and think that it...
    PiecingMeBackTogether PiecingMeBackTogether 18-21 1 Response 12 hrs ago

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    King Me I saw the world through the lens of a pinhole camera. I saw nothing. I was blind. In between a black hole and a super nova is where you'll find me. Imploding and expanding...
    BennyBoy68 BennyBoy68 46-50, M 1 Response 7 hrs ago

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    It feels like every time I wish or dream something big for myself it happens to my friend instead. Since high school I've been watching her live me dreams while I'm constantly left...
    telliellie telliellie 26-30, F 6 hrs ago

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    After thinking about it for a long time, recently I have decided to stop drinking alcohol altogether. I have been drinking very infrequently for the past year because I very rarely...
    pixieowl pixieowl 26-30, F Apr 22

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    I'm socially anxious. Extremely so. After the final exam I was invited to this party, the guy hosting it was very nice. Anyway being me I arrived seeing a few people, some playing...
    aeinhardt aeinhardt 18-21, M Apr 24

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    Ive conditioned myself for hours and still unable to be completely numb to the things that trigger me. "Turn it off" , my humanity switch that causes me so much pain but Im just...
    Socalsunset Socalsunset 22-25, F Apr 19

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    I am going through a lot right now. Trying to figure out who I am, what I believe, how to express myself, how to be comfortable in my own skin, & how to do all that without...
    saundra04 saundra04 26-30, F 6 Responses Apr 25

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    When I was a kid, it was my habit •~•... I was messed up back then... However, in my religion, it's not allowed to drink your own blood. I usually do it sometimes to stop...
    WolfsterTheWere WolfsterTheWere 13-15, M Apr 27

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    0. Height? 1,63 cm. 1. Virgin? Eh... 2. Shoe size? 6 (USA standard). 3. Do you smoke? Nope 4. Do you drink? Um yeah, lots of water and soda. 5. Do you take drugs? When I'm sick. 6...
    AtLoss AtLoss 16-17, T Apr 27

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    I have done it few times for the common reasons 1-wanting to feel anything if that feeling is pain. 2- being angry at myself or others n it was my way of letting it out. I used to...
    candles700 candles700 22-25, F 19 hrs ago

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    I don't like working in the hospital but I need to for experience. hospital experience is essential and will serve as bridge to my dream. And so I need to sacrifice. I tried...
    icedwithin17 icedwithin17 26-30, F 15 hrs ago

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    I lost you. I lost myself in fear of losing you. I wish I didn't do but I did. People say fools rushin. People say everything happens for a reason. You changed me. I turned into...
    piperweant piperweant 18-21, F 11 hrs ago

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    I no longer care for the clubs. Too expensive. I love having some drinks alone and watching tv. My question is, I see ppl on "intervention" skinny as a rail drinking sugary...
    Amelia445 Amelia445 46-50, F 2 Responses Apr 10

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