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I Drink to Numb Myself

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    That had to be the hardest thing in the world to do! I had to learn how to love me for me again!
    Mammy Mammy 36-40, F Mar 26, 2008

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    But That Takes A Lot

    I added this experience a while ago and never added the story until now. Since then I've changed my drinking habits a bit. I used to drink to numb myself. I found the pain was so strong, though, that it took an unbelieveably large amount of alcohol to get sufficiently numb. I...
    accomplice accomplice 41-45, M 4 Responses Jan 11, 2011

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    151 Bacardi Street

    im not too pleased with my life so i hit this dive bar frequently. i always shoot 151 straight when i go their. One day a buddy came in and wanted to do a shot of whatever i was having so he did 2 shots of 151 with me. Well i did 6 and played some pool. After the game he was...
    rorer714 rorer714 26-30, M Jan 28, 2013

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    Yes, I Do...

    The first time I got drunk was when I was 19. I had so much confidence and my shyness was gone. Once I turned 20, I drank because I was irritated. Now, (since 21) I drink because I hate my life and have nothing going for me. I use dark humor and drinking to hide the deep pain...
    LovelessDeluxe LovelessDeluxe 22-25 4 Responses Feb 28, 2011

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    I Have Recently

    been told that i was an alcoholic a few months back. i never thought my drinkin was serious. But turns out i was wrong. I still feel the need for drink but the lack of money stops me although every penny i get i usually save up for alcohol. It doesn't scare me...i just don't want...
    xXmissyXx xXmissyXx 16-17, F 2 Responses Aug 12, 2007

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    Wish It Lasted Longer

    When I don't want to cut but I need to cut, I drink. It calms things down and the anxiety fades. I just wish it was not a short term solution. If I cant make the anxiety go away, I can numb it at least.
    empleh empleh 26-30 Sep 10, 2010

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    It helps dull the pain

    and numbs the feeling of lose
    Sufferedloss Sufferedloss 18-21, F 3 Responses Feb 23, 2014

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    Good Or Bad Feelings, I Just Want To Be Numb

    I drink regardless if my life is going incredibly well or if it's just horrible. I'm so used to being numb that any bit of extreme emotion is just too much for me. I will admit that I do like to drink, period and it's not just solely to be numb, but it's a huge part of it. I don...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Apr 1, 2013

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    Comfortably Numb

    When I drink… If I’m careful, I can lose myself in the spinning. In the weightlessness of unconscious. I can float, away from everything. Forget for a while. It’s a fine line. To not let the disconnect allow me to think about the things that I don’t...
    onceandfutureglow onceandfutureglow 31-35, F 8 Responses Jul 27, 2010

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    I'd Like To

    I don't drink a lot but I wish I could drink to numb myself from the pain of being lonely. If I had the chance I would drink 24/7. It seems like things that happen good in my life always come to an end eventually. I'm just exausted with it happening. I just want to be able...
    tngurl25 tngurl25 26-30, F 3 Responses Dec 11, 2011

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    Oh No!

    i'm afraid this may become extreme alcoholism. and i don't think i can stop it.
    gypsysoul gypsysoul 22-25, F 1 Response Jun 29, 2007

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    It's Part Of My Life But Doesn't Rule My Life

    I have been drinking alcohol almost everyday since i was 14 yrs old, i am now 34.I am not a true alcoholic in the sense that yes i do go to work all day ,and can actually go days, weeks or months without alcohol. i just choose NOT to go without. :)
    daro76 daro76 31-35, F 2 Responses Jun 16, 2011

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    I hate the feeling of being drunk,

    it's absolutely terrible. However, periodically... such as today; a flood of emotions gnawed away at my heart causing such pain and loneliness, this was a time for me to have a glass of wine and be done with the hurt. Perhaps, if I were in happier circumstances this "self...
    PlasticRobot PlasticRobot 36-40, F Dec 12, 2014

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    There Is Something Missing

    During my college years, I drank primarily for my enjoyment. Over the past year or so, I have found that I have used alcohol as a means of comforting myself. I know that I have a pretty good life, so I am not entirely sure why I need comforting. I have a feeling that there is...
    EvenFlow85 EvenFlow85 26-30, M 1 Response Mar 10, 2011

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    I drink to numb myself.

    Because I feel pain. Drinking just numbs the pain a little. It still hurts, but it hurts a little less. I am alone, but when I drink, it matters less. I want to flee. I want to escape. I don't want to see or feel what I see or feel. I want to disconnect from my feelings. When I...
    RichardAndon RichardAndon 22-25, M 1 Response Jul 18, 2014

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    Tears of a Punk...

    When I drink, it's usually alone and usually because I can't handle how badly my life feels all the time. If I go out and drink with friends I usually end up crying, which is probably why nobody will drink with me anymore. That of course only makes me feel worse about my life. It...
    SadLittlePunk SadLittlePunk 31-35 2 Responses Dec 6, 2008

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    Not only is this a coincidence as my mother is an alcoholic but i physically can not drink. I do drink and have done in the past but i have been told i shouldn't. From suffering...
    generationlover generationlover 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 15

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    Im struggling. Just like I've always been. Ppl never are what they seem. I trust ppl an they all eventually turn on me. I take a huge risk letting them know a few things about my...
    AquilaAqua AquilaAqua 13-15, M 1 Response 3 hrs ago

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    I drink alot. Especially Vodka. Im 15. I found myself taking a sip of a giant bottle of vodka in my moms cabinet one day.And thats where it all started. I drank up her whole...
    petramullins petramullins 13-15, F 1 Response Mar 19

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    Age that is. I think age is just a number. It is now after midnight on the 8th of March in Australia, and what is officially known as my birthday. My 21st birthday and it has been...
    kinkysexybabe kinkysexybabe 36-40, F 11 Responses Mar 7

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    I am proud myself and everything about me, I am proud I am a girl, I am proud of my intelligence , I am proud of the decisions I make. I am proud of the way I think , tge way I...
    rainygirl1992 rainygirl1992 22-25, F 1 Response 1 hr ago

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    A "Freak Number" is a number that is given to show how what sexual acts that you do or want to do. You can give it to yourself or someone else can give it to you. One would be...
    RationalCutie RationalCutie 22-25, F 4 Responses Mar 9

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    I'm just pointing this out because I've heard a lot of people saying 'why would you drink alcohol if you don't like the taste?' Most people actually only drink it to get drunk...
    SuperLemon SuperLemon 18-21, F 3 Responses 1 day ago

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    It's not exactly that I like to drink. It's just how I am and act after I drink. I like who I am. I can be who I really am. I quit caring about what others say. I can be myself for...
    TheArtisticOne TheArtisticOne 18-21, F 2 Responses Mar 8

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    I am a slow eater. I have to be. If I eat at the speed others eat at, a more "normal" speed, I get the most horrific physical pains that can't be described. If I get a craving for...
    blankcheck4urhart blankcheck4urhart 36-40, F Mar 13

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    I have recently stopped caring. I used to cut because I just could not handle what was going on in my life. I used to cut because I would hurt so bad that I didn't know how else to...
    lowellwolf lowellwolf 16-17, F 1 Response Mar 13

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    So, I have a lot of issues I need to take care of. I need to drink more water and milk. Instead, I'm drinking soda 98% of the time. I probably eat more junk food than regular food...
    RhinosaurusRex RhinosaurusRex 18-21, F 7 Responses Mar 13

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    It's fun and it takes the pain away. Or numbs it for a while I guess.
    xxRetroxx xxRetroxx 26-30, F 2 Responses 5 days ago

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    Most of you know i like lots of music Pink floyd, The pixies. Talking heads, Oasis,Ocean Colour Scene, The Stone Roses, The Beatles, Queen, and many others. Being a bowie fan since...
    pfloyd121 pfloyd121 46-50, M 1 Response Mar 14

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    I believe we'll be judged based on what we have created and what we have destroyed... Be willing to count the number of good and bad things you have had a part in the creation of...
    iamFrightened iamFrightened 18-21, M Mar 14

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    It's the number of my short story. It's the number of the biblical beast. It's the number six theescore and six. Which coincidentally is the 666 number in chronological order of...
    PrettyOldSoul PrettyOldSoul 41-45, F 5 Responses a week ago

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    My mom and I got in a fight yesterday. I told her that she ruined my excitement over college because she was constantly choosing fights with my dad when we visited the school I...
    justsayyes2 justsayyes2 18-21, F 3 days ago

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    aaaaargh!!! roller coaster of emotions again. probably my 'daddy issues' rearing their ugly heads. long story short: I'm happy being alone. i love being single. And Yes, I'd...
    peepsqueek peepsqueek 31-35, F Mar 8

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    1. I know ASL (American Sign Language) but I'm not Deaf and no one in my family is either 2. I have 2 children that are my greatest accomplishments 3. I have naturally curly hair...
    bettedaviseyes88 bettedaviseyes88 36-40, F Mar 2

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    Coffee originated in the Ethiopian highlands, where legend says a goat farmer noticed that his goats became hyperactive after eating certain berries from a tree. From there, it...
    expressomarkie expressomarkie 46-50, M 5 Responses Mar 17

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    Accidentally and out of innocense. I didnt know that the soda bottle contains kerosene. My sister was drinking her soda and i asked some but she wouldnt give me a sip (she's a bit...
    WifeOfVegeta WifeOfVegeta 26-30, F 2 Responses Mar 17

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    My heart is racing. My head is hurting. I keep thinking about how there's no one. There's nothing. Maybe I've been alone for too long. I've forgotten how to connect. Every part of...
    bunnyXbunny bunnyXbunny 26-30, M 2 Responses 6 days ago

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    I cannot order food by myself. I was able to for so long but over time that skill has diminished. The only way that I can do it is if I have a huge order. Most people can simply...
    SylenaEverlasting SylenaEverlasting 16-17, F 6 Responses 6 days ago

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    It's my life not yours... Get that straight.... Your hands might have been pulling my strings... To confused to escape him... To broken to think straight.... I look back and pain...
    LeahLovee LeahLovee 16-17, F 5 days ago

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    I've gotten drunk one too many times. I take zoloft for depression and it conflicts with alcohol. So, not only do I become drunk really quickly, not only do I drink excessively...
    margaritalovesyou margaritalovesyou 22-25, F 1 Response Mar 10

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    Drinking alcohol and eating chocolate covered espresso beans makes me crave blood. I have low iron and more than one person have told me that people who are anemic crave blood. I...
    Ohmygosh1234 Ohmygosh1234 18-21, F Mar 19

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    I see angel numbers meaning numbers on a clock like 111, 1111, 333, 444 , 555, 1221. 1212. I am not looking on purpose it just happens. Even while looking for street addresses...
    minuet1965 minuet1965 46-50, F 1 Response Mar 7

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    People always leave. They die. It's happening way too often, I allow for numbness. It's good sometimes , I feel dazed and numb, that's the way it starts out. It gives me time to...
    Pastperfect Pastperfect 22-25, F 2 Responses 1 day ago

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