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I Enjoy Pain

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    lonachan lonachan 18-21, F 1 Response Jul 7, 2014

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    I know it sounds weird.

    I've always enjoyed "some" pain. I've never really been the type to cry over pain. This has been a huge toll in self harm, I never got hurt over it, so I kept doing it. I remember the first time I realized I liked it, I was washing the dishes alone, and I grabbed this...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Sep 26, 2015

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    Why? Okay I Sort Of Know Already, But Still.

    Recently... I have blocked out emotions, especially sadness... and happyness just doesn't seem to exist anymore.  I haven't laughed in weeks and the only smiles I have had were forced.  What else is there?  I fell down and ended up getting a large cut on my arm...
    crying1on1the1inside crying1on1the1inside 18-21, F Oct 24, 2009

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    I Think It Started When I Was In The Third Grade

    Do you know the state of mind when you're so numb on the inside you need to prove everything is real by feeling something on the outside? That something has to be so big, so terrible that you.know you.couldn't have made it up. It needs to be able to shatter your entire mentality...
    deleted deleted 26-30 Feb 14, 2013

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    I enjoy some types of pain.

    I kinda want to explore some other types, and find new ways to experience what I already know I like. anyone want to talk?
    Wolfie42 Wolfie42 18-21, F Aug 11, 2015

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    Pain

    Im going through so much emotional pain atm that inside I feel numb, n there is nothing more satisfying than taking a knife to myself, n feeling something and watching the warm blood running down my body its so satisfying, like iv'e accomplished something, I have tried using...
    pinkygirl24 pinkygirl24 22-25, F 2 Responses Aug 4, 2012

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    I know it sounds weird,

    but I actually kinda like pain, it reminds me that I'm human, in away, I always tell myself "What if what we think is pain, isn't even bad, it's just a simple emotion, we make ourselves believe it hurts, but we just have to look at it a different way"
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Jul 5, 2015

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    idontmindtherain idontmindtherain 18-21, M 1 Response Nov 11, 2014

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    With A Purpose

    I don't enjoy senseless or needless pain but pain does serve a purpose- it lets you know you are still alive, that you are doing something wrong or immoral. Most of all, it reminds you of your mortality and strengthens you for the next challenge. So yes, in some sort of...
    deleted deleted 26-30 1 Response Mar 3, 2010

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    Salt And Ice

    Have you ever put salt on your skin than put a piece of ice on top of it? It basically becomes dry ice and burns your skin. To me the pain is pleasurable. It feels good. Feeling pain means your awake and alive and I love the feelin of being alive. It stung for days after and i...
    BekahBooRoo BekahBooRoo 13-15, F 3 Responses May 22, 2011

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    Once upon a time I had an affair with a

    narcissist. He dumped me. Well no he just disappeared. I was so broken-hearted. I drove to the beach where he had taken me to while we were "dating". I love that beach. On the way there I heard a song by the script, Breakeven. The beach was empty. . , it was autumn...
    Noelle49 Noelle49 41-45, F Sep 12, 2015

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    I enjoy it just not self inflicted,

    tried it once it was the tiniest cut and it stung for so long and I did it to find out if that would tell me why others self harm, as one of my friends self harmed and I was telling him that I didn't (still don't) understand why people do it and he told me you have to do it to...
    spudmat spudmat 13-15, M Dec 19, 2015

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    I love a guy who isn't afraid to hurt me in the

    bedroom. I want to be tired up gaged and made to feel pain. interested? xx
    sophh99 sophh99 18-21, F 2 Responses Jul 7, 2014

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    I got a thrill , well a somewhat pleasure from

    physical pain. I don't cut myself , that's not my thing but that's why im not afraid to do life threatening things , that's why I parkour . NO PAin no Game.
    LunarDream LunarDream 16-17, M Mar 17, 2014

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    I enjoy giving it. It took me a long time to

    accept the sadist streak in me, but it's who I am. The big turning point for me was the realization that there is a HUGE difference between hurting someone, and giving someone pain. I would never hurt anything. I'm the kind of guy that captures the spider and let's it free...
    SomeTexasGuy SomeTexasGuy 51-55, M 1 Response May 6, 2014

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    cummyyummy cummyyummy 41-45, M 2 Responses Jan 11, 2014

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    Beauty Of The Paradox

    I haven't always enjoyed pain, but it's always fascinated me. Up until a few years ago, I was much too afraid of pain to explore it deeper, but one day in US history class, I used a rubber band to flick myself with, just to see what it would feel like. It stung. A lot. But I was...
    BeautyOfPain BeautyOfPain 18-21, M 1 Response Mar 3, 2013

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    This hurts so bad But it's the best feeling

    ever  Of loosing control  I know it makes you sad This pain is real Yet I feel so fake Losing my mind  Because I've forgotten how to feel So please forgive me my mistakes Take my blood  Smear it over your face I'm dead and I'm broken but that's ok Look at me I'm losing it...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Nov 5, 2014

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    I'm An Endorphine Junkie.

    When I was young, I would cut. I knew it was ridiculous and part of me was subconsciously doing it for attention, so finally I stopped. I replaced the cutting with needles. I would use push-pins to induce pain. I'd put rows of them into me, usually under my clothes and when...
    RazorTongue9000 RazorTongue9000 22-25, M May 17, 2009

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    Ectasy

    I love pain in both a sexual and mutual way I need to feel pain its there to remind you your still alive
    AshesToAshes AshesToAshes 16-17, F 1 Response Jan 22, 2008

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    Pain Is a Certain Kind of Liberation.

    Pain is... magnificent, and not just in a sexual manner. Yes, it is a turn on when someone inflicts pain in a sexual intent, but I simply enjoy pain in general. The gentle throb is relaxing. The searing burn is ecstasy. I used to be a cutter. I quit because people tend to...
    conceptual conceptual 16-17, F 2 Responses Dec 22, 2008

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    I Enjoy Physical And Emotional Pain.

    I honestly do not know how to describe my situation. I believe I enjoy emotional pain more so than physical. Either one of them brings a smile to my face, though. I tend to put myself in the craziest situations just to feel pain. It is like...if i do so...then it puts a "label...
    emhoodie emhoodie 22-25 2 Responses Feb 7, 2012

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    I Love Ball Pain

    I don't know how it started , but I got the wife to spank my boys durning forplay. (I also like my nipples pinched and twisted) She realy didn't like to do it at first but the more we did it, it started to turn her on. It made her horney and very wet. (She has never bought...
    523penie 523penie 61-65, M 5 Responses Jul 16, 2012

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    jamestyger1 jamestyger1 13-15, M 1 Response Jul 12, 2015

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    Pain is the most beautiful thing in the world

    without it we wouldn't be called human.
    soullessnight000 soullessnight000 13-15, F Oct 16, 2015

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    On The Road Back.

    Who ever has been to the point of not feeling anything? You are living in a cloud from which you cannot escape. But you never can afford to look down, or you just see the blackness and it engulfs you. Every time you feel anything it’s like spikes being driven into you. Living...
    DC57 DC57 36-40, M Sep 6, 2012

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    It's The Strangest Thing!

    I'm a reasonably sane individual. You know, I get out. My general demeanor is good. I'm a tad blunt maybe, but other then that I'm probably the most average unsuspecting person I know. But if you asked me if I digged pain, you'd get a shockingly graphic answer. Anything from...
    MrMelange MrMelange 18-21, M Mar 1, 2011

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    I Need to Invest In a Punching Bag

    I have anger problems, a lot of people know this, but I don't admit it to much. Tho I would think that it came from when I was younger. Rough childhood and all. When I get angry, I mean really angry, I get this feeling in me, not of adrenaline, but of hate and anger. I usually...
    bloodrayne bloodrayne 18-21, F Aug 27, 2007

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    Weird But True

    I enjoy pain...but i'm just starting to realize it. Now I am craving it...but it's like I want it to be given in a certain way that I haven't figured out yet...I used to dig something sharp in my gums between my teeth and love the pain when I was a little girl...
    mardella mardella 26-30 4 Responses May 30, 2009

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    Dental Work

    There is nothing like a tooth filling without anaesthetic to give you a high
    Taff7996 Taff7996 46-50, M Mar 27, 2012

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    I Feel Like A Sicko

    For years I have lived in shame because I have always enjoyed being in pain, inflicting pain upon myself and watching other people experience it. None of it is sexuall, no sexuality doesn't exist in my mind...but whenever I cut myself or watch someone suffer I feel excited and...
    deleted deleted 26-30 2 Responses Oct 23, 2009

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    Nothing makes you feel more alive

    than being close to death
    storieofo storieofo 36-40, F 2 Responses Jan 10

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    When given pain, we have the opportunity to

    turn it into something more beneficial. The more pain we have felt, the better we can understand one another. Empathy is derived from pain, or in general, emotional impacts. It is true that one can only truly see another's point of view if they have been there on some degree...
    PainIsPeace PainIsPeace 16-17, M Jan 21

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    pfflyers pfflyers 56-60, M 3 days ago

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    I remember it clearly, we started as friends and we became close friends over the years. We had feelings for each other and we became something more. One day she told me her...
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    I have had a lot of friends through out the years. From school. From work. But none of them have seen the trouble and pain I bear everyday. From the start of a broken marriage to...
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